TOGEMON's SparkPeople Blog TOGEMON's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community It stops HERE! I just weighed myself for the first time in three months, and I have gained FIVE POUNDS since December 17. This is my last semester of coursework for my PhD (after this I'll be returning home to write my dissertation), and I also had to take my comprehensive exams, and I'm working on the prospectus for my dissertation. So I've been under a lot of stress, and I knew I was stress-eating, especially sugar... I didn't know it had gotten this bad though. <BR> <BR> So it stops here! I'm going b... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 08:50:27 EST 1.5 Pounds I lost 1.5 pounds this week, which is the first week I've tracked every day (since Monday). I know a lot of it is probably water weight, but I'm also on my period, only exercised once, and went over on my calories by 300 yesterday... so next week should still bring results :) <BR> <BR> I've been dealing with really bad depression for the past few months, so this is a good time to be doing something positive for my health. <BR> <BR> <em>179</em> <em>410</em> Fri, 3 Apr 2015 09:04:33 EST paying off debts to myself On another site, I just read someone's post about losing weight. How they described it really spoke to me: <BR> <BR> "I am now in the process of paying off my debts I made to myself." <BR> <BR> I love this way of thinking about it because I have never been in financial debt. I make sure to pay off every bill every month, because I would be ashamed to owe anyone anything. But I owe MYSELF health debt because of my eating and lack of exercise. That's shameful too. <BR> <BR> Dear self, he... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 09:59:38 EST Day 191: I don't have a dream. I posted this on another site, but I'll probably end up deleting it from there, so I wanted to copy it here too. Sorry if it doesn't make sense. <BR> <BR> -- <BR> <BR> I'm sorry this journal is a downer, but I wanted to say this... <BR> <BR> Last night, I couldn't sleep, and I've been reading Sailor Moon manga all week. So that isn't really a good combination, but here it is. If you've read or seen any Sailor Moon, you know a lot of it revolves around the characters' dreams and wishes a... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 20:12:31 EST Day 194: Losing 2 pounds overnight... the bad way. <img src=""> <BR> My favorite Duck in Spectromagic, in 1997 <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> What's the bad way? Food poisoning <em>527</em> Or at least something that made me very sick to my stomach. I woke up at 5 am this morning after a bad night of reflux and my stomach just not feeling right. I won't go into details, but I was very sick and lost what I thought was everything. Until the second bout about 30 minutes later. Then I w... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 20:48:51 EST Day 195: 30 Day Ab Challenge on FB <img src=""> <BR> Me with Eeyore on my last Disney trip, in 2001. <BR> <BR> This ab challenge is an event on Facebook that several of my friends are doing, so I decided to do it too. I made it through Day 1 - 15 sit ups, 5 crunches, 5 leg lifts, and a 10 second plank. The crunches were easy, and the plank was okay (although I was glad when it was over!). The other two about did me in. But I guess it will get easier as I go, and my d... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 10:05:27 EST Day 200: Adding Water Goal + Recurring Dreams <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I've decided to get back to drinking more water, in addition to tracking my food. I love water, and I spend a lot of my time being thirsty - should be pretty easy to get back into the water habit. I'm aiming for at least three cups today, then four in a couple of days, etc., until I get back up to eight. (Plus I'm on my period right now, so it will help me to drink more.) <BR> <BR> Last night, I finished readi... Tue, 27 May 2014 08:52:22 EST Day 201: Sexy Won't Bring Itself Back, Y'all. I saw that phrase on a billboard yesterday and loved it :D It was an ad for a tanning salon, which is neither sexy nor healthy, but the slogan is still motivational! Reminds me that I have to work for it. <BR> <BR> I had an active weekend with a mini road trip/vacation. I went to a hot air balloon festival, stayed overnight, then stopped to tour a religious site on the way home. I did a LOT of walking, both at the festival and the site. I made some bad choices with my food - nothing too... Mon, 26 May 2014 08:25:02 EST Day 206: My goal is back in sight. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Wow, nearly 100 days since my last blog entry! But... I'm finally back on track to my goal(s). <BR> <BR> I gained 6 pounds over the spring semester - it was a very stressful time with lots of bad weather, the death of one of my professors, and the usual PhD work. I also made some bad food choices due to the availability of free food at campus events! But now I'm home for the summer. I lost maybe a pound of th... Wed, 21 May 2014 13:24:44 EST Day 300: I think I need to eat more... ... at lunch. I rarely eat much lunch at all-- usually a granola bar or something similar-- and then I'm starving by dinner. I had a 90 calorie Fiber One bar and a glass of milk for lunch, then a Weight Watchers frozen meal (which wasn't good) and a fruit cup for early dinner. I got hungry again so I just ate a 100 calorie bag of popcorn, and I'm STILL hungry. If I'm not still hungry in the evenings, it's because I OVERate and feel uncomfortable :( <BR> <BR> My mindset has been, "If I don... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 19:54:44 EST Day 301: What I've Been Doing Okay, forget posting a blog every day. That's not going to happen, lol. <BR> <BR> But I've been doing well... went to the gym twice in the past week, 1.5 miles in 30 minutes on the tread mill both times. (This is up from no gym activity at all in months!) I fell on Thursday on the brick steps and totally busted my right knee, but I'm hoping it'll be well enough to go back to the gym tomorrow or Monday. My eating has been pretty good too, although I'm still not back in the habit of trackin... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 10:16:52 EST Day 312: Kicking It Up I haven't been so good at posting daily... or about working towards my trip! I've barely even started reading the guidebook, and that's the easy part! :P <BR> <BR> I did go to the store yesterday to restock my kitchen after being stuck inside during the winter weather... bought all healthy stuff :) I REALLY have to start tracking diligently. Today I tracked my breakfast and what I'm having for lunch. Just gotta keep up with it. <BR> <BR> I'm going to start back at the gym on Thursday, j... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 10:42:45 EST Day 318: Crazy Weather! I haven't been posting daily, but here's part of the reason: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Snow in Alabama! I'm pretty much iced into my apartment until tomorrow, at least. I spent all day Monday in class or running errands before the snow, so I haven't done much preparing/exercising. I did buy a Disney World guidebook on Sunday, but I haven't had a chance to look at it yet. Today I'm at least going to track and eat within my ra... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 08:59:09 EST Day 323 I've decided to do a countdown to my trip. Every day I'll do something healthy, no matter how small, to prepare! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was 323 days until my trip. Here's what I did: <BR> <BR> -Skipped dessert. My boyfriend had chocolate cookies at his house, but I decided they weren't worth it. (They're not that good anyway.) <BR> -Updated my Spark page <BR> -Sent for vacation package information from AAA :D <BR> -Dumped my extra change in my piggy bank. I'm putting excess change and any... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 09:23:13 EST Found Motivation: Disney Trip :D This is kind of a secret... I mentioned it to my mom so she wouldn't be surprised later, but I'm not telling anyone else. It's my own special plan :) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I've always loved Disney World. I went several times as a kid but haven't been back since 2001. I associate it with happy memories made with my parents. That last trip, we went as a family even after they divorced (and they eventually got remarried to e... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 20:01:19 EST can't get motivated :( I just can't get going on weight loss this time. I'll track here and there but not consistently... I just have no feeling of motivation, even though I have the same motivating factors I've always had. I haven't gained any, just stayed the same... but it's not a plateau because I feel like I'm not really trying. <BR> <BR> Maybe part of it is that my classes take up so much of my effort and energy. But I have at least another year and a half of them, so I can't put it off that long... ugh. ... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 09:01:33 EST Down Today mood, not weight :( <BR> <BR> Don't want to talk about it because half of me thinks I'm overreacting. But I did want to post some of my favorite balloon pictures to cheer myself up :) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR>... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 10:16:01 EST Down Two Pounds! Did my weekly weigh-in today, and I've lost two pounds in a week! I know it's probably water weight, but I'm still excited <em>410</em> This is the first week I've been tracking in earnest, although I've missed tracking a meal here and there. Working on making tracking a habit again :) <BR> <BR> One other thing I'm doing is adjusting my portion sizes. I've been eating proper portions of most things... and I've realized that I get too full eating what the package says is a portion! Li... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 08:36:38 EST My New Year's Resolution Yes, I only have one... but it has two parts: <BR> A. Use up as much as I can of my stash of crafting materials, and not buy new materials unless I have to have them to finish a project with the old. <BR> B. Make all the crafts I've saved instructions for but haven't done yet (or as many as I can get done in a year). <BR> <BR> Simple, right? :) I started on this around Christmas, so I've already done some projects. Here are some pictures of them: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeopl... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 15:22:58 EST Baby Steps I've been reading some of FlyLady's stuff over the past few months. I don't agree with everything she says (especially the constant advertising for her products), but a few bits of information are good. <BR> <BR> Like "baby steps." In both organizing and getting healthy, I need to focus on that. I get overwhelmed trying to make too many changes at once. Right now, for getting healthy, my baby step is to track my food and stay within range. I'm still not tracking everything everyday, but... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 09:53:42 EST first blog in a while I've wanted to get back to blogging, but the thought of coming up with something to say has been overwhelming... so for now, I'll just post a picture of my boyfriend and me (and Sally the lab) on Christmas :) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 27 Dec 2013 09:29:12 EST How It's Going Somehow I managed to lose 1.5* pounds last week! I'm assuming most of it was water weight, as I couldn't have created THAT big a calorie deficit... but I'll take it! I'm now at my lowest weight since I started sparking, by a few ounces. <BR> *Edited... I did have 2.5 before I realized I subtracted wrong! <BR> <BR> I didn't totally stick to my plan for this week though. Here's how things went: <BR> <BR> -I drank a lot more water. At least four cups a day, five cups on the day I went to t... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 10:11:09 EST Restart I'm still here... In fact, I've been logging in daily to spin the wheel. But I haven't been making an effort to do much else! <BR> <BR> Sunday, I go back to my apartment for the first week of class. From here on, I'll be up there during the week and on some weekends. A few weekends, I'll be home with my mom. <BR> <BR> I see this as a good chance to restart, because I'll be in complete control of what's for dinner every day, with little to no eating out because I won't be with my boyfrien... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 09:00:21 EST Why Can't I Listen to My Body?? I keep eating more than my body wants/eating when I'm not hungry/eating unhealthy things. My body always complains afterwards (I feel too full or just yucky), and I KNOW I'm going to regret it, but when I'm eating whatever it is, I don't care. Argh. <BR> <BR> I just feel like a mess right now, both health-wise and organization-wise. <BR> <BR> P.S.: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Hump DAY! Wed, 31 Jul 2013 08:44:48 EST Low Amylose Diet and other bits of news Yesterday poking around Spark, I heard about a "low amylose diet" which is supposed to be good for PCOS. Normally I ignore diet plans, especially ones that eliminate reasonably healthy foods... but the person who blogged about it said it really worked for her. <BR> <BR> You are supposed to eat foods that are high in amylose (despite the diet being called "low amylose"... I'm confused), because amylose is slower to break down during digestion, and they don't release glucose as quickly. <BR> ... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 12:48:43 EST Doing a Lot of Thinking I deleted the content of this entry for fear that someone who knows me in real life will find it. The act of writing it helped me figure some things out though, so it served its purpose :) Mon, 29 Jul 2013 14:05:54 EST Where I Belong This past weekend, I went to an orientation for graduate students at the university where I'll be getting my PhD. Being back on that campus and in that city made me realize that I really feel that that's where I'm supposed to be. In a way I wish I had never left, but then I probably wouldn't have gotten together with my boyfriend or found my career, so everything happened for the best :) I also found my apartment, although I can't move in until August 5. <BR> <BR> I have lots of plans. T... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 14:26:03 EST A Little Frustrated, Trying to Simplify I weighed this morning; still no change. It's frustrating not to see any loss, but then it's only been a few days. Plus my quality of eating hasn't really changed because obviously I didn't eat up all the processed food in a weekend! (There WOULD have been a BIG change on the scale if that had happened!) <BR> <BR> I have been riding my bike a little each day though, trying to get used to it again. Haven't been doing so well on the water. My schedule is going to change SO drastically in ... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 16:57:36 EST Time to Step It Up I decided I'm going to keep blogging no matter what... I do it for me, not anyone else. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I weighed again this morning; I haven't lost anything in about a week and a half now. It's time to crack down and get serious. I managed to lose 3-4 pounds just by eating within my calorie ranges again, but that's not enough to lose any more, I guess, and I'm already at the lowest range Spark provides. <BR> <BR> It's time to bring in the dreaded exercise :P My options are limited now... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 09:57:47 EST Two Good Things 1. The man who runs the lawn service who does our yard noticed my weight loss and complimented me on it. He's probably in his late 50s, friendly southern guy... not the type I would expect to notice! He mentioned he runs two miles a day, three times a week AND does lawns... this after he's had surgery on his arm! If he can exercise, so can I :) <BR> <BR> 2. I bought some "new" pants at Goodwill and discovered I'm officially a size 12. The 14s were too big for me. I got two pairs I can w... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 14:34:40 EST Getting Support from Myself I need to learn how to be my own support and not need/want support from others... not just in getting healthier but in the destressing and organizing aspects of my life too. <BR> <BR> I get very little support/encouragement in real life for any of these areas. Not that anyone tries to sabotage me or anything... it's just that no one seems to care. My boyfriend wants to be neither healthier nor organized, and he makes me feel silly if I talk about either around him. The other people in my ... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 15:23:16 EST Stress from School Just wanted to gripe. I've been in line to register for my university's parking pass since 9 am... that's four hours in line... ON THE INTERNET. The site says that there is a limit on how many users can be "in the workflow." I started out at 131 then it bumped me back to 185... I got down to 32 then it bumped me back to 84. Now I'm 49. Graduate students get to register first, but obviously their system wasn't equipped to even handle the graduate students. It doesn't help that passes cos... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 14:09:19 EST Re-motivated to Organize I just read a great thread on the message boards about organizing, and it's finally got me motivated again! (It feels SO good to want to do something after several days of bad depression.) With a permanent move somewhere in my future, and a temporary second residence (read: small apartment) in August, I really need to work out a cleaning/organizing system and unload as much clutter as possible. <BR> <BR> My first step is to try I've heard of it for years but never tried it...... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 14:46:55 EST Depressed but Planning I've been down all day today, probably in part because my 4th of July plans fell through. Also I have had no energy today and haven't wanted to do ANYTHING. (I know my clinical depression plays a role in both, along with my sinus troubles.) This evening I made myself sew, and I finished two plush balloons for Etsy, so I'm starting to push through. <BR> <BR> I came up with a couple of other small goals to add to my tracking and portion reduction. #1 is to get back to drinking water! Curr... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 22:19:59 EST Stress Journal Day 7 - Goals So it's the end of my first week on the Stress Busting Challenge, and I'm supposed to list my goals for "busting" stress. Here goes. <BR> <BR> Money - don't fret about the money I have to spend on essentials. Use discounts whenever possible. Don't spend money on non-essentials, except for the occasional small reward. <BR> <BR> Moving - secure an apartment so I don't have to worry about us finding a house on a deadline. Also keep on downsizing as much as possible so that when we DO move, t... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 10:03:00 EST Stress Journal Day 6 Pretty good today stress-wise. <BR> <BR> Money is still a stressor... my car needed two new tires, so I had to pay for that, $350 -_- But they rotated them AND fixed my rear view mirror for free! <BR> <BR> And I bought books for another class today... Two of them were just 75 cents each on! (Their shipping policy made them cheaper in total than getting them on Amazon.) The other two came from Amazon, but I was able to use a $14 credit to save a little. <BR> <BR> I'm supposed to... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 18:25:05 EST Under 150!! I've reached my first goal since coming back to Spark... I'm now 149 pounds <em>334</em> This is the lowest I've weighed that I can remember-- certainly in my adult (that is, post-college) life. <BR> <BR> My next mini-goal is to get to 145, which is the goal my doctor suggested. I'm not stopping there, but having a mini-goal to work toward encourages me :) <BR> <BR> Time to update my Spark Page with my new goal... and I think time to add something else to my plan besides just tracking... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 11:18:19 EST Stress Journal Day 5 EVERYTHING feels stressful today -_- <BR> <BR> -I left my car to have its tires rotated, but they won't fix the mirror... they say it's too hot for it to work. Don't know what I'll do now about that. <BR> <BR> -I have a sinus headache. <BR> <BR> -House problems remain. Basically we just can't find one in our budget that my mom is satisfied with; every one has some flaws. If it's something I can live with, she can't. But then, she's going to be in the house for the rest of her life, so ... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 13:47:39 EST Stress Journal Day 4 Went to look at houses today. I don't want to get into it, but it was a VERY stressful day. May explain tomorrow. <BR> <BR> That said, I planned my eating well! Last time, my mom wouldn't stop for lunch (we're looking in a city 2.5 hours away, so it takes pretty much all day). I ended up buying Chex Mix at a gas station. Today, though, I put a Kashi bar in my purse and was satisfied on the way home :) (I did buy a Sprite because I was craving one. At least I got the 150 calorie bottle... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 18:45:55 EST Stress Journal Day 3 Not very stressed today, actually. Well, except the rearview mirror in my car fell off AGAIN. I've repaired it twice... now I'm just going to ask the car place to fix it when I get my tires rotated Tuesday. So hopefully that stress will be dealt with on Tuesday! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow my mom and I are going to look at more houses. That will bring on stress... but maybe we'll find the right one! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 30 Jun 2013 21:00:22 EST Victory at the Mexican Restaurant! My bf and I went to lunch today at our local Mexican restaurant, which is my favorite place to eat in town. <BR> <BR> I ONLY ATE THREE TORTILLA CHIPS!!! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> This is huge for me because I could eat the whole basket of those things in one sitting... and last time we went, I probably ate 2/3 of a basket. But today I was mindful about it, waited a while before digging in, and realized I only wanted a couple then was satisfied to wait for my entree. <BR> <BR> My entree w... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 14:18:16 EST Stress Journal Day 2 Of the big stressors I listed yesterday, money is the one on my mind today. Even though I have a fellowship that will pay my tuition for grad school, the other costs (books, parking pass, etc.) add up quickly! I also won't have any regular income until my stipend starts in August. Today I've been thinking of things I can sell on eBay, as well as crafts I can make for Etsy. Right now I'm making a couple of plush balloons using up fabric scraps... and if they don't sell, well, I never minde... Sat, 29 Jun 2013 15:15:37 EST Stress Journal Day 1 I've never done a challenge on here before, but I decided to do the stress one. I have two major life changes coming up and will be under a lot of stress in the fall, so maybe this will help me prepare. <BR> <BR> One of the tasks is to do a stress journal, so I'm adding that to my blog. For the first entry, I decided to list the major areas of stress in my life right now. I don't really worry about these things-- I tend to be optimistic and I just don't worry-- but I know on a subconsciou... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 15:56:59 EST The Zit That Wouldn't Die It's one of those big, red, deep under the skin, cystic acne nodules, and it's been there for weeks <em>234</em> It will flare up, then nearly heal so there's just a slight discoloration where it was... then it flares up again. This is the third flare-up... (TMI warning) Last time a bunch of stuff came out of it along with what I thought was the core... no such luck as it's back. It even survived a round of antibiotics I took for something else... in fact, it flared up the second time ... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 23:53:21 EST A Good Start to the Week I've lost a pound and a half in six days :) Monday is now going to be my weigh-in day, so it will be a full week before the next one. <BR> <BR> The loss is better than I expected because like I said in my last post, I didn't do as well as I could have over the past few days. This week I'm going to make sure to stay within my ranges (with a low end of the range day today), and I'll start getting a little exercise each day. Mon, 24 Jun 2013 09:39:08 EST Planning for Week Two Tuesday will be the start of my second week back on Spark, although I may go ahead and weigh tomorrow. It's easier for me to think of Monday as the start of the Sparkweek :) <BR> <BR> Last week, I tracked everything, and that was about it. I went a little over my nutrition tracker last Tuesday and a lot on Friday. I still need to work on making the healthy choices I used to always make, when I was successful on Spark before. (The days I didn't go over, I still could have eaten healthier ... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 17:18:01 EST Not So Good Choices I ended up with 2000 calories yesterday instead of ~1300... At Outback, I remembered how I had been craving a good cheeseburger, and I got that instead of the chicken. Then at Books a Million, I saw a poster advertising their frozen hot chocolate, and I had one of those even though I wasn't hungry. Sigh. I was going to be defiant and not track it... but I just went and tracked it. Might as well own up to it. Besides, seeing how many calories (and fat, good grief!) are in things will rem... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 09:14:59 EST New Before Photo <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I decided to take a new "before" picture so I can see my progress from here on out; plus I didn't have a photo from the side. <BR> <BR> This is my vintage balloon dress I bought on Etsy - I LOVE it! As you can see, I can fit into it (and it fits nicely from the collar past the bust); but this photo also shows where it is too tight for me... or where I am too wide for it, lol. <BR> <BR> I put my weight on it for... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 15:57:41 EST Small but Good Choices Just a quick list of some of the good choices I've made today, to encourage myself :) <BR> <BR> -Added some shredded cheese to the squash I had for lunch, in order to boost my protein. (I rarely take in enough.) <BR> -Tracked tonight's dinner at Outback ahead of time. I noticed it came to about 800 calories (that's with grilled chicken on the barbie, vegetables, and a salad plus bread and a skinny rita). So I decided not to have any bread-- I don't even LIKE the bread that much; I just ea... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 14:18:18 EST One Thing at a Time <img src=""> <BR> A photo I took at the balloon festival :) Balloons make me so happy <em>179</em> <em>410</em> <BR> <BR> I was reading a bunch of blogs and message board posts today and got a little overwhelmed... there are so many goals I want to set, and so many things to, well, worry about in having a healthy lifestyle. I won't list them all here, but there are a LOT of things I need to do differently. <BR> <BR> I had to re... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 20:05:54 EST