TJKILBORN's SparkPeople Blog TJKILBORN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Personal thoughts on loss. (Thinking of you, daddy!) ~ Several friends close to me have lost a loved one recently and posed questions about feelings... Got me instantly thinking (crying) about my own losses... This is what I have come to realize. ~ <BR> <BR> Yes. Yes it does suck. Yes, the emptiness will always have a void within you. It will never get 'easier as time goes on'. It will always pull at you EVERY SINGLE TIME you think of your loved one. <BR> <BR> ~ cue tears ~ <BR> <BR> No. You ARE NOT alone. You have me. You have your family h... Sat, 15 Oct 2016 08:59:19 EST Wii Fit With Mii I just re-started my Wii Fit exercise blog! Now with video! Feel free to follow along with the daily routines! I'm looking forward to seeing what I'll look like after all this weight is off and I'm toned up! <BR> <link> </link> Thu, 6 Jun 2013 18:40:07 EST Quitting 'Cold Turkey'... Why didn't I do this before? Hello everyone! <BR> <BR> Because of heart issues I am unable to use nicotine cessation aides such as Nicoderm, Chantix, not even the gums or lozenges... Basically, I was on my own with just the support of myself and my dear husband's nagging voice in the back of my mind. <BR> <BR> For months I was trying to 'work my way down' to quitting. It, obviously, wasn't working since I never actually quit. In fact I found myself smoking more... <BR> <BR> Finally, at approximately 11:30pm on Decembe... Fri, 6 Jan 2012 03:44:05 EST My 2012 Goals (or Resolutions) 2012 GOALS <BR> <BR> &#10146; No Smoking <BR> &#10146; 2 Drink Maximum <BR> &#10146; Reach 140 lbs by April <BR> &#10146; Wii Fit one hour each day 5 days a week <BR> &#10146; Deposit $10 into Savings each month <BR> &#10146; Take at least 1 picture a day <BR> &#10146; Prepare & cook dinner 5 nights a week <BR> &#10146; Clean one room each day <BR> &#10146; Improve my bowling average by at least 25 pins <BR> &#10146; Camp 3 weekends <BR> &#10146; Do at least one full-day hike with my honey <... Tue, 27 Dec 2011 04:15:47 EST I'M STILL HERE!!! (Operation of the Heart #40) I'm just going to keep this short, sweet, and to the point! <BR> <BR> I'm getting a S-ICD (subcutaneous-implantable cardioverter defibrillator) implanted on Thursday, April 14th. I'm so excited! What they originally thought was A-fib is actually Ventricular Tachycardia. That means I'm at a very high risk for sudden cardiac arrest (heart attack). <BR> <BR> I am a 27 year old woman. <BR> <BR> I have an enlarged heart (a little more than twice the normal heart size), CHD, and have had so far:... Sat, 9 Apr 2011 04:15:02 EST 1/21/11 Mii Stats COB: <BR> L = 51.4% <BR> R = 48.6% <BR> <BR> BMI: 29.30 <BR> Weight: 182.4 lbs <BR> Fit Age: 20 <BR> Minutes: 15 <BR> Calories: 64 <BR> <BR> Activity / Score <BR> Palm Tree / 88 points <BR> Single-Leg Extension / 86 points <BR> Tightrope Walk / 1:16.33 <BR> Lunge / 100 points <BR> Super Hula Hoop / 780 spins <BR> Balance Bridge / 100 points <BR> Downward Facing Dog / 93 points ( cat decided he wanted to sit on balance board...Lol!) Sat, 22 Jan 2011 05:25:41 EST 1/20/11 Mii Stats COB: <BR> L = 48.7% <BR> R = 51.3% <BR> <BR> BMI: 28.84 <BR> Weight: 179.5 lbs <BR> Fit Age: 24 <BR> Minutes: 13 <BR> Calories: 47 <BR> <BR> Activity / Score <BR> Palm Tree / 92 points <BR> Skateboard Arena / 105 points <BR> Rowing Squat / 100 points <BR> Balance Bridge / 100 points <BR> Single-Leg Twist / 87 points <BR> Perfect 10 / 00:55.48 <BR> Lotus Focus / 32 seconds (cat kept messing with me :-/ ) <BR> Deep Breathing / 90 points Fri, 21 Jan 2011 02:48:58 EST 1/19/11 Mii Stats COB: <BR> L = 47.3% <BR> R = 52.7% <BR> <BR> BMI: 29.09 <BR> Weight: 181 lbs <BR> Fit Age: 27 <BR> Minutes: 17 <BR> Calories: 61 <BR> <BR> Activity / Score <BR> Birds-Eye Bulls-Eye / 215 points <BR> Island Cycling / 1.148 miles <BR> Rowing Squat / 93 points <BR> Advanced Step / 366 points <BR> Jackknife / 100 points <BR> Deep Breathing / 92 points Thu, 20 Jan 2011 02:52:45 EST 1/14/2011 Mii Stats COB: <BR> L = 51.8% <BR> R = 48.2% <BR> <BR> BMI: 29.05 <BR> Weight: 180.8 lbs <BR> Fit Age: 20 <BR> Minutes: 15 <BR> Calories: 35 <BR> <BR> Activity / Score <BR> Downward Facing Dog / 86 points <BR> Jackknife / 100 points <BR> Obstacle Course / 248 points <BR> Tricep Extensions <BR> Half-Moon / 86 points <BR> Palm Tree / 58 points <BR> Deep Breathing / 98 points Sat, 15 Jan 2011 00:52:18 EST 1/13/2011 Mii Stats COB: <BR> L = 49.9% <BR> R = 50.1% <BR> <BR> BMI: 29.37 <BR> Weight: 182.8 <BR> Fit Age: 20 <BR> Minutes: 16 <BR> Calories: 49 <BR> <BR> Activity / Score <BR> Birds-Eye Bulls-Eye / 157 points <BR> Lunge / 100 points <BR> Lotus Focus / 91 seconds <BR> Tricep Extensions <BR> Torso Twists / 95 points <BR> Obstacle Course / 202 points <BR> Sun Salutation / 61 points (wii board balance calibration was off, had to stand on right side to 'be centered') <BR> DeepBreathing / 88 points Fri, 14 Jan 2011 03:59:44 EST 1/12/2011 Wii Fit Plus Exercise Log COB: L = 52.1% R = 47.9% <BR> BMI: 29.05 <BR> Weight: 180.8 lbs <BR> Wii Fit Age: 21 <BR> <BR> Activity / Score <BR> Birds-Eye Bulls-Eye / 125 points <BR> Snowball Fight / 7 hits <BR> Lotus Focus / 163 seconds <BR> Sideways Leg Lift / 86 points <BR> Lunge / 100 points <BR> Table Tilt / 108 points <BR> Big Top Juggling / 105 points <BR> Sun Salutation / 87 points <BR> <BR> Minutes: 16 <BR> Calories approx:... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 17:23:05 EST New Year Resolutions or Goals for 2011!!! Here are my Goals for the New Year!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> 2011 GOALS <BR> &#10146; No Smoking <BR> &#10146; No Drinking <BR> &#10146; No Nail Biting <BR> &#10146; Wii Fit 5 days a week <BR> &#10146; Take at least 1 picture each day <BR> &#10146; Prepare & cook dinner 5 nights a week <BR> &#10146; Clean one room each day <BR> &#10146; Improve my bowling average by at least 25 pins <BR> &#10146; Camp 3 weekends <BR> &#10146; Do at least one full-day hike with my honey <BR> &#10146; Get my GED <BR>... Wed, 29 Dec 2010 15:01:31 EST Having Difficulties Doing For Myself What I Do For My Husband Every night I make my husbands lunch for the next day. This is what it consists of: <BR> 1 Sandwich with: Mustard, Mayo, 1 slice Cheddar, Lettuce, & 5 thin slices deli meat of some kind. <BR> 1/2c Celery <BR> 1/2c Carrots <BR> Approx. 6-10 Cherry tomatoes (depending on the size) <BR> 1/2c Goldfishies <BR> 1 Hard-boiled egg w/a sprinkle of pepper <BR> <BR> He's lost AT LEAST 15-20lbs!!! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I, on the other hand, have gained 7-10lbs. <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> I'm an EXTRE... Sat, 17 Jul 2010 03:02:37 EST My Children... I'm thankful for my children, Eli, Pheobe, Tiger, & Cobalt! The furry four-legged kind are my favourite! <BR> <em>241</em> Sun, 4 Apr 2010 01:15:36 EST The Rain... I'm thankful for rain because it forces me to walk indoors and on even surfaces so as not to push myself too far... <BR> <img src=""> Sat, 3 Apr 2010 02:27:32 EST Today, I am Thankful for... ... How hard my husband is working for us. <BR> <img src=""> Thu, 1 Apr 2010 16:57:22 EST Today Was Bland... Nothing much happened today... Went for lunch and my walk with one of my Aunts... Did the dishes... Watched two movies... Funny, but not that great... I hope to be more active tomorrow... It was just a blah day today... Thu, 11 Mar 2010 02:36:42 EST Volunteering... ...was fun! The food was great and the people were cool! I'm actually excited to go back next Tuesday (and, hopefully, every Tuesday) to do it again... It felt good knowing I was helping. I met some really cool people and hope to get to know them better! I don't know anyone in my area, so this is/was a really nice and easy way to meet my neighbors. Like I said before, I'm excited to go back next week! <BR> <BR> Desserts!!! <BR> <img src=" Wed, 10 Mar 2010 00:44:22 EST Not Working is Working for me! Ok now, I'm currently unemployed due to disabilities (as most of you know). As an unemployed housewife, I have no excuses for why I should be 'too tired' to exercise... or clean... or track my food! I have ALL THE TIME I NEED!!! Even when I haven't gone for my daily walk and it's getting dark out, I still have no excuse as to why I shouldn't go. Who cares what time of the day I go, as long as I still do it, right?! <BR> I just started Volunteering at my local food bank on Tuesdays 2:30pm-7:3... Mon, 8 Mar 2010 03:06:24 EST DANGEROUS TURF!!!! An OLD entry in my last journal: <BR> <BR> "April 11th, 2006, <BR> Well, at 7:30am today, my friend and I will be starting our tri-weekly walking. We're going to walk the track by our houses for 1/2 hour every M-W-F until we get back into (the right) shape again. My goal is to work off the rest of my stomach and tone it out like it used to be. I hope to weigh 125-130lb. by the end of summer, if not sooner. I'll be cutting fastfood and such crap out of my diet, which will leave me with not mu... Mon, 1 Mar 2010 03:16:06 EST ABC's of Me! A to Z <em>334</em> <BR> ~~~~~ <BR> <BR> A <BR> - Available: I'm pretty busy being disabled and all! :P And yes, I've got a wonderful man. <BR> - Age: 27 <BR> - Annoyance: Repetitiveness and constantly having to repeat myself when other's just don't get it.... <BR> - Animal: Love them! <BR> <BR> B <BR> - Beer: Hard Ciders...I hate beer, this is the closest I can get to beer without gagging... Currently no longer drinking <BR> - Birthday: June 10th <BR> - Best Friend: Adam (of course), Ath... Fri, 26 Feb 2010 16:10:58 EST Ok, So I just need to pay more attention... On my last entry I lamented how I didn't go for my walk on Sunday... Well, I was looking over my progress so far and my walking plan and noticed that Sunday's are supposed to be 'rest days'. Lol! Anyway, It felt good taking that break! I did bowl! Something active at least... <BR> <em>305</em> <BR> I've been reading 'The Spark' along with the online program and am impressed by how much positive influence/ideas of proper 'dieting' there are. <BR> <em>248</em> My husband said he will read ... Thu, 25 Feb 2010 02:00:39 EST I did bad... I didn't go for my walk yesterday... After bowling last night, then grocery shopping, I didn't really feel like doing much of anything. I gave myself the excuse that it was too late and our neighborhood isn't the best place to walk at night... That still shouldn't have stopped me... I am committed to this... I will just have to walk BEFORE bowling on Sundays... <BR> <BR> My walk today, however, was great! My uncle walked around the mall with me! We stopped at Border's Books and he got some w... Tue, 23 Feb 2010 00:49:58 EST My weekend thus far... Ok! On Friday I had so much fun hanging out with friends I haven't seen since High School!!! Oh my goodness! Doesn't seem like much has changed! It was awesome! Can't wait to hang out again! <BR> <em>295</em> <BR> Today my hubby and I drove up to Tiger Pass and tried to find some Forest Service road he wanted to check out... Every entry was gated and several were manned by security! Lol! Instead we ended up going to Tiger Mountain and walking the trails there. I packed us some carrots, cele... Sun, 21 Feb 2010 04:03:31 EST I Tried Something New Today Tofu... It was horrible!!! I think it was because of the texture... I've heard of people putting it in smoothies and baking with it... I think I might be able to handle that... but normal, cooked as a main dish...YUCK!!! No thank you! My husband loved it though! I let him eat it all! At least I didn't screw up on cooking it, since it was my first time! Never again! <BR> <em>311</em> <BR> My walk was only about 16 minutes today. It was mostly up hill, so I didn't mind it being shorter than ... Fri, 19 Feb 2010 03:21:19 EST My Darling... ...husband went with me for my daily walk today! It was so much fun! We walked up the block, through a cemetery, a church, and an elementary school (all next door to each other) and back down another street! It was AWESOME!!! It's kind of ironic to have all three of those places bunched together! You've got your first major stop in life (elementary school), second stop next door down (marriage/funeral), and, lastly, where we all end up one day... Kind of makes you think... At least we know th... Thu, 18 Feb 2010 04:23:11 EST So much for that.... Well, as I figured, my darling husband has not done any of the Wii Fit exercises yet... Nor has he done any other type of exercise either... <BR> <BR> On a more motivational note: I went for my soon-to-be daily walk today! I walked for 20mins... 1.1miles!!! I was so awake when I got home I started doing stuff around the house (which I should be doing anyway)! It was fun! Went around several more blocks today then yesterday... <BR> <BR> The route I walked was diverse... <BR> The road I fir... Wed, 17 Feb 2010 03:58:16 EST Getting There... My First True Fitness Walk. <em>311</em> <BR> Today I walked for 16min & 28sec. I walked 0.82 miles at a pace of 20'05" per mile... When I started out I had my headphones in and on! I was raring to go! The first part of the walk was slightly uphill... which for me can be a little difficult... heart-wise... But nonetheless, I persevered... As I came up on the first stop sign before crossing to the other side of my street, I realized just how nice it was today. Not too cold, in fact, I was alr... Tue, 16 Feb 2010 02:01:17 EST I Won the War! <em>248</em> My darling husband finally agreed to do this (somewhat) with me!!! He won't be creating an account on SparkPeople, though. He will however, exercise on Wii w/me at least 10 minutes EVERYDAY. Only eat what I serve him... no random snacking after dinner! Work out everyday with me using either resistance bands, big ball, walking, whatever means chosen for the day! I am SO excited!!! I explained to him that I needed HIM by my side through this and that I'm doing this for the better... Mon, 15 Feb 2010 02:49:13 EST It's MY Choice! <em>228</em> You know the saying "You're as happy as you make up your mind to be." Well, I'm pretty effen happy! <em>334</em> I've had SO many people assume that I'm depressed, miserable, discontent, pick any of those types... Sad thing is, is that they assume that based SOLELY on my heart issues... Why dwell on the past? It's just that, the past. Why freak out and worry over things that you CAN NOT control? <BR> I choose NOT TO dwell on those things! I am stronger everyday that I live! <B... Fri, 12 Feb 2010 02:47:35 EST Starting Small...Good or Bad? I think GOOD! I love to start new things... I'm a Gemini, enough said... But I often find that when I do start something big or important I start out looking at the big picture. That's not a bad thing BUT...Within just a few days or weeks I'll start to feel overwhelmed or like I'm not getting anywhere. <BR> I've come up with a solution that I think I can make work. I will start by setting small goals with small rewards...working my way up to the completion of the Big Picture! <BR> <BR> My goals I have set... Thu, 11 Feb 2010 02:25:09 EST Blame it on the A-A-A-A-A-Alcohol.... <em>33</em> My husband woke up this morning thinking ONLY about chugging a keg of beer... <BR> The last alcoholic beverage we (hubby & I) had was January 31st. We agreed it was time for him (us) to quit. Not only because of his excessive drinking and the results of that (weight gain, drunk stupidity), but also because of the monetary costs. We had calculated that we (mostly he) was spending an average of $300-$500 a month on alcohol... It wasn't all cases of beer, but mostly drinks ordered ... Tue, 9 Feb 2010 10:25:05 EST Hubby Bet & Lost!!! Ok, so we all know the Super Bowl was last night, right? Well, my husband and I don't really care about football. Despite that fact, my husband wanted to bet on who would win. I said sure! He bet for the Colts because "No one else is betting for them." And I bet on the Saints because I'm smart! Lol! We didn't bet for money since what's his is mine and what's mine is mine anyway! <BR> These were the terms of the bet: <BR> <BR> He Wins: I clean the ENTIRE house by myself. <BR> I Win: He has to... Mon, 8 Feb 2010 10:48:13 EST Hesitant Hubby <em>249</em> I've asked my husband to join me on this journey... He could benefit from losing a few pounds himself.... His answer everytime is 'Why?'... 'Just make my lunches and dish up my meals...' <BR> I don't work and when he gets home I'd like to do something TOGETHER!!! This would be both fun AND rewarding to us... <BR> If only.... <BR> We'll see... <BR> <em>24</em> Sun, 7 Feb 2010 04:18:47 EST