TINKERSPELL's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TINKERSPELL TINKERSPELL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Keeping Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1996810 I'm having a meh sort of day. Me and the kiddo have been sickish for a couple of days, and to add insult to injury, TOM showed up and I was up and down through the night from the pain. Part of me wants to say hang it and just dive into a rich chocolate cake. But I know I'll feel lousy about myself if I do that, not to mention sick to my stomach because part of the yuck I've been fighting has made me stupidly dizzy. If I was on my feet long enough to bake, I might well fall over. <BR> <BR> I ... Wed, 22 Apr 2009 14:32:35 EST Taking Inventory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1988581 So, I let life kick me around. I got discouraged, I hung up the attempts to live healthier. It all went downhill from there. Grad school kicked my butt and I gained back 20 pounds of what I'd lost, and this time it's not wanting to come back off. Now I'm facing re-losing that weight, while praying that I'm going to fit my dress for my SIL's wedding and some heavy personal problems that are driving me to want to starve again. I guess the silver lining in all this is apparently while I want to ... Mon, 20 Apr 2009 09:31:33 EST Where's my mojo? Anyone seen my mojo? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1398332 I'm seriously stumped. I know I keep saying over and over I'm finally getting back on track, but I'm just... not. I'm still in a drifting, aimless haze. I've been here since we got back from vacation and it's just not clearing up. I know what to do, but my drive to do it seems to be missing. <BR> <BR> I want this, I do. And I can give you the reasons why. But it's just not enough to shake me out of this funk I'm in. <BR> <BR> Strangely enough, I think it's giving up that 150 workouts shirt ... Wed, 13 Aug 2008 08:49:50 EST Life: Revised http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1393789 Well, it was time to sit down and really give my goals a good look. It's been a couple of months and I needed to evaluate where I was, what I want and where I am going. <BR> <BR> Getting in the 150 workouts at Curves this year isn't going to happen. It's too much strength training and I hit a brick wall for energy. Not good. But I'm fine with that because it just means I'm learning to listen to my body and do what it needs, not just what I want. <BR> <BR> This week's Spark lesson for me was... Mon, 11 Aug 2008 10:08:01 EST I like squash, oh yes I do... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1337601 I am incredibly relieved that I did NOT plant any summer squashes this year in the garden. Because I don't think I could handle a single one more. As it is, my garden is producing copious amounts of cukes. So when I got to the CSA last week and they told me to "pick four cucumbers," I nearly fell over. Eeek! <BR> <BR> Well, the cukes are going into a pickling brine today. I already made tzatziki with some, turned others into a salad, and tossed yet others into another salad. I am STILL run o... Wed, 16 Jul 2008 09:06:11 EST Gardens, and bunnies, and pools! Oh my! (And ankles!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1332652 So today, we talk about the major happenings in my life. When we left for vacation, my cucumbers were growing like gangbusters, with loads of cukes ready for the picking. So I'd asked my in-laws to pick 'em (and eat 'em) while we were gone. Which worked great, until we realized that we'd managed to give my MIL the house keys...then take them back. Ugh. So short of jumping the fence, there was no way my little cukes were going to get picked. I come back, and one of the plants is dead, real dea... Mon, 14 Jul 2008 10:23:34 EST I won an Excercise DVD! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1324180 I was popping in to spend the wheel, answer sparkmail and check in with my teams, when I noticed a funny little thing on the wheel. A blue disc that said "Win Excercise DVD." And being me, I thought, "Heh, wonder what happens if you land on that. Oh well, I'm not likely too." I always land on the 1 or 2 pointers. <BR> <BR> Well shut my mouth! I did win one! Hah! Can't wait to check it out when it gets here! Thu, 10 Jul 2008 09:01:01 EST I'm back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1319803 Actually, we've been back a week, but the last week has been a little crazy: settling back into routines, national holiday, repairing my pool for use, reinjuring my ankle.... <BR> <BR> Yep, that's right, I'm off my feet again. This time, probably only for a week, but I totally trashed my ankle this weekend. It's a long story and involves a preschooler with a tinkle accident, a slick floor and me in dress shoes. Let's leave it at that. <BR> <BR> However, I am still working on keeping a healt... Tue, 8 Jul 2008 12:43:35 EST Ignorance is Bliss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1284187 Well, today was my W&M at Curves, doing it now since my normal day is in the middle of my trip. I wish I hadn't. I wish I'd just waited until next month, or maybe even never. I think I'd just rather not know I suck. <BR> <BR> So, my grand total for the month was 3 inches down, 1.5 pounds lost, .3% body fat. I know I can't always have amazing stellar losses, but c'mon, 1.5 pounds for a MONTH? (cries) Sure, I can blame some of this on my period. I'm bloated, and in a heck of a lot of pain. I n... Sat, 21 Jun 2008 09:39:57 EST The Last Supper http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1275242 So no one can truly reach quite the same bang for a final meal as Christ. That's fine, I'm not one to want to compete with the divine, you know? <BR> <BR> I've been reading Gastronaut by Stefan Gates. It's a funky sort of food book, and what happens when I go to the library to pick up a collection of essays for a paper that end up being about food. You grab the other books around too. Oh well. <BR> <BR> One chapter, he goes into famous last meals, like the Last Supper, or the last meal serv... Tue, 17 Jun 2008 08:43:40 EST It's a Beautiful Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1243799 This morning, I snuck outside to check on my garden. Now granted, it's small, only two 4x4 foot squares, carefully planted with the square foot garden method. Well, that's only half true. Because there's not a lot of variety because I had a mind to put up veggies for the winter. So in my little garden are tomatoes, peppers and eggplants, then pole beans, lettuce and swiss chard that haven't come up just yet. <BR> <BR> We had a rough weekend. Torrents of hard rain fell on two different days, ... Mon, 2 Jun 2008 09:55:38 EST Here it is, the good, the bad and the ugly... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1236183 I halfway didn't even want to put this here, because I want to be a positive, supportive sparker, not a "whiner baby." But I'm really hurting right now, and I figured it would be better to get it off my chest now and be authentic than pretend that everything is ok. <BR> <BR> To spare everyone the long, drawn out, writerly rant, let's just say that I had a miserable experience with my writing workshop last night, to the degree I question my capabilities as a writer. I really begin to wonder i... Thu, 29 May 2008 10:42:29 EST Change in Focus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1234578 Some of you may have noticed my goals have been slightly tweaked since last night. But most likely not, since it's a small thing to notice... except for me. <BR> <BR> I have come to the conclusion that my goal weight needs to be 120 and not 110, even though I realize that the 110 is the reccommended weight for a short woman of my height. This isn't me avoiding those nasty last ten pounds. It's an acknowledgement of who I am. <BR> <BR> As a teenager, I was never able to drop below 120 pounds... Wed, 28 May 2008 14:42:58 EST The Power of Habit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1232153 I have a Latin saying a day. Probably because I'm a nerdy kinda person and took Latin in high school. It occassionally comes in handy. Last Sunday, the saying was this: <BR> <BR> Magna est vis consuetudinis. <BR> <BR> Translation? Great is the power of habit. <BR> <BR> I thought it was such a great saying, I just had to keep it, ruminate on it a little, then write about it. Because frankly, it's true. We talk about needing to break habits, like they are horses. And to some degree they are.... Tue, 27 May 2008 13:56:17 EST Yo! Check it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1232147 That's right, baby, not only did I do my first Project Mayhem challenge, I survived it. And on my period no less. I totally rock. I had no idea though that I could burn off as many calories as I did on the Gazelle. I tell you what, that little gizmo is quickly becoming my new best friend. <BR> <BR> But not only do I totally kick butt on the challenge accomplishments, I have an even better sign of the awesomeness that is me! <BR> <BR> I did my weigh and measure at Curves today, and I've lost... Tue, 27 May 2008 13:54:20 EST Wasting Food? (inspired by a Spark Poll) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1220106 I'm a sucker for a poll. So when I saw the poll about "Does your family waste food?" I had to take it. <BR> <BR> Honestly, we don't waste food. At least, not anymore. We used to buy veggies and fruits that would languish and die in the bottom of the fridge, forgotten and neglected until they turned to piles of putrid mush. (Grossed out yet?) <BR> <BR> Anyway, things are different now. With our food supply coming mostly from the CSA and the farmer's market, I never get more food than we'll u... Tue, 20 May 2008 22:48:17 EST Surprise surprise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=805645 This weekend, I ate like crap. Total crap. Crap enough I refuse to even track it, not out of shame but because it was so much that I can't keep track of it all. <BR> <BR> Did I drink water? No. <BR> <BR> Did I lose weight? No. <BR> <BR> Is anyone surprised by this? I didn't think so. <BR> <BR> Back on the wagon today. At least I heard something on "I Want to Look Like a High School Cheerleader Again" that made me put down the carton of ice cream. Something along the lines of you don't hav... Mon, 29 Oct 2007 10:53:47 EST Not my week... or is it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=795239 I woke up this morning with a terrible cold. My throat is so raw it feels like it's been attacked by a Brillo pad. I was actually starting to suffer through all this last night... when the hubby was tossing and turning so much that I couldn't sleep. Bleh. <BR> <BR> Speaking of hubby, I could slug him right now. My deadline to copyedit was last night at 5. Well the second computer is down and who knows if we'll ever get it fixed. So he took over the one I work on and wrote his whole stinking ... Sun, 21 Oct 2007 09:00:40 EST Do I dare and do I dare? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=790282 Ok ok, so I'm super bad about quoting T.S. Eliot. The man was brilliant though, I'm telling you! <BR> <BR> So life is a little calmer this morning since I turned in my fiction last night and I'm suffering through the eternal wait between now and when we workshop it. Waiting is the worst. But I guess not all waiting is bad because I'm finally seeing an improvement in my heel. So maybe it's been worth the wait after all. <BR> <BR> I have to say, I felt sorta bummed this morning though. I saw ... Wed, 17 Oct 2007 11:01:39 EST Yikes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=786642 So, I sat down with my calendar to try to plan out my next eight weeks, since that's the duration of the biggest loser contest at sparkpeople. It encompasses Halloween, NaNoWriMo, Thanksgiving AND finals! At least the family progressive dinner isn't until the week after the challenge is over. Phew! I'm super excited about this challenge though, maybe because I've started watching "I want to look like a highschool cheerleader again." I could just imagine being "voted off" because I slacked of... Sun, 14 Oct 2007 22:40:11 EST Well shut my mouth! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=785062 Ok, so I totally don't even get this. I've been a wreck all week. Why? Because I knew I was going to have to cut back on the food budget. Meaning, I don't have the money to pay for top dollar whole grain foods or many forms of fresh produce. Fruit sure, but salads? Err, no. Canned veggies, regular rice and sliced bread it is. <BR> <BR> Get this... I lost a pound this week. Yes, you did read that right. I finally dropped a pound. <BR> <BR> Maybe I should cut the food budget more often. Sat, 13 Oct 2007 13:39:19 EST What sounds good today... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=783852 ... is a nice warm mug of apple cider. <BR> <BR> I think I need to get some and put it in the crockpot. Yep yep. <BR> <BR> In other news, I'm in a bit of a jam. Money is seriously tight right now, and let's face it, the $.59 bread is more in our budget than the $3.09 whole grain. <BR> <BR> We looked at the finances, and we need to go back to our $50 a week grocery budget. Is it even possible to eat healthy and lose weight at that amount though? I mean, if we go back to that, it's a lot of... Fri, 12 Oct 2007 12:28:10 EST Today is a new day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=748604 I am really working on maintaining a positive outlook right now. Things may be stressful, and someone may have let my hungry monster out of the barn, but the sun's out so it's all cool. <BR> <BR> I found this quote on one of my teams this morning, and I swear, God must have known I needed to find it because I was starting to feel very dubious that things would get better. <BR> <BR> "We can reverse years of damage to our bodies by deciding to raise our standards for ourselves, then living di... Mon, 17 Sep 2007 09:51:47 EST I don't get it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=747899 ... I'm hungry. Honest to God, stomach growling, give me food NOW before I chew off your arm hungry. And I'll eat. And good God, I'm hungry 2 hours later. <BR> <BR> What on earth is going on with me? <BR> <BR> I'm scared I'm going to blow up like a blimp. <BR> <BR> I'm even more scared that I've suddenly developed a real appetite and the thing is insatisable. <BR> <BR> Meeeps!! Sun, 16 Sep 2007 18:41:08 EST Rain rain, go away... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=735422 ... and shoot, just never come back. <BR> <BR> It's raining. Still. I'm so sick of rain. And I'm really unhappy that it's still going today. Because my ankle is in agonizing pain today, meaning I'm getting in no cardio at all today. If I could get in the pool, I'd do that... but with storm after storm going outside, that's not going to happen. <BR> <BR> And I'd been doing so good with keep up with the active lifestyle, too. But I'm doing good to walk anywhere in the house, much less go on a... Fri, 7 Sep 2007 14:23:19 EST "The sun will come out..." http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=733388 ... today actually. I woke up to what looked like a gloomy day with heavy clouds and a major drizzle. Now the sun is out and shining and it looks like we'll be roasting all day instead. Go figure. <BR> <BR> Life is funny, really. Variable weather is to be expected. But who knew my appetite could be as variable. Up until this last week, I felt like a human vaccuum who never got full. This week, my appetite has gone seriously down, practically all day long. I wonder if it's the excercise. <BR>... Thu, 6 Sep 2007 09:50:11 EST ARG!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=727850 I'm frustrated and just need to vent. I sorta got schnookered into teaching Kid's Church on Sundays. Now mind, Sundays are stressful enough because of meeting newspaper deadlines. Add to that trying to control anywhere from 6-40 kids on any given week. Add to that my other adult helper being out sick today, AND two of my teen helpers deciding to skip out this week too, AND promotion week, so I got two brand spanking new kindergarteners who are headstrong and jabbery... what do you get? One me... Sun, 2 Sep 2007 13:37:53 EST Am I missing something? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=723775 I'm 10 days into SP and I just feel sort of lost and drifting. I've not lost a lick of weight yet. I can't seem to stop the noshing for some crazy reason. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I keep trying to meet the fast break goals, but the cardio one isn't happening. And I'm struggling to drink all my water too. Should I be trying to meet the nutrition and fitness goals too or does that come later? <BR> <BR> Arg, just so frustrated and confused. I feel like there's something I should be grasping that I'm ... Thu, 30 Aug 2007 07:55:11 EST It's just starting? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=715245 I want the day to be over and it's just starting. I know I'm going to be overwhelmed all day with work work work and work. Thing is, I've also got to be interrupted by my son's friend spending the night, my FIL's birthday party that I have to go to, and an event I'm covering for the paper that's 3 hours long. <BR> <BR> And it's the same old story. I know when I start to feel overwhelmed (and boy do I!), I get some sort of action paralysis where I just can't seem to do anything but walk aroun... Fri, 24 Aug 2007 08:25:34 EST Can I kick the Blahs? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=713724 Ok, so I'm a perfectionist. I have been as long as I can remember. So I'm already kicking myself that I'm not at all meeting one of my fast break goals... you know, the 10 minutes of cardio a day one? Yeah, that's not happening. And I know I'm just adding to my stress level by fussing over not doing everything perfectly, but that's just so how I am. In fact, I can feel myself getting tense just thinking about it. Maybe I should start doing calming breathing like I'm teaching my drama queen da... Thu, 23 Aug 2007 08:42:56 EST