TIDLENEE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TIDLENEE TIDLENEE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Amazing new perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249520 It's been a couple of weeks since my last post. Things have been going fairly well. Been doing some workouts (2-3) in each week. Doing my meditation almost daily. <BR> <BR> Noticed a change in my inner monologue. It's like I'm seeing things because of trying out glasses after going through life without. I never realized how unaware I was of certain things. Not only do I have a healthier inner dialogue, but I'm just more aware of so many things. Thoughts I never had before are coming i... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 19:43:21 EST Peace in the middle of chaos http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229323 Had an interesting experience today. It was another long crazy day at work because of helping a client out a crisis situation. Spent almost 2 hours on the phone making arrangements after I was technically done. Had to get some groceries and then drive the 45 minutes back home. <BR> <BR> Amongst it all, i realized something was different about today. Despite the different things I dealt with at work which I'm used to, but still cause stress because of the nature of my work and the emotion... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 20:48:56 EST Hectic week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5225717 Long time no post! This one's probably going to be a longer one. This past week was just go go go. I ended up going out literally every day except Thursday when I just crashed (after doing a workout). Monday and Friday started and ended the week with a hospital visit. On Monday, taking bf to hospital to check things out and on Friday, a client was in the hospital and I spent 5 hours making arrangements for her and visiting her. <BR> <BR> Didn't end up doing much workouts this week but I... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 14:39:23 EST Feeling a bit... bleh... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217809 So... I try to keep my writings in my journal and in my blog (what little blog I have to date) positive. But I also know part of the purpose in the type of writing that goes into a journal or blog is to get out your feelings, so right now I'm going to open up a bit about some not so positive stuff. <BR> <BR> Right now me and my boyfriend are in a fight. He is locked up in one room of our 2 bedroom apartment. I hate when we fight, especially at night. I can't sleep, which means I go to w... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 22:45:45 EST First week back in action! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214550 This week I did a couple of sessions of exercise. While it may not seem like a lot, it's my first week of being back into things since I relaxed during December, which then had to extend into January, as a preventive measure for my physical health. As I said earlier, in December I was really busy and when I get busy and do too much I easily get sick. Then in early January I think I got the beginning stage of whatever flu thing is going around and crippling everyone around here. <BR> <BR> ... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 17:02:48 EST Funk no more http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209097 Got home from work today in a weird state. I didn't feel emotionally in a bad mood, but my thoughts were all unpleasant. Frustrated with people always wanting things from me and not having a lot of relationships in my life that are more equal and where I feel I get my needs met as well. <BR> <BR> I should probably say here now that in my job, I work one on one with people with mental health issues helping them in a variety of ways. So naturally, I don't expect to get my needs met in those... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 21:40:47 EST Feeling Pretty Zen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5203629 There's a few different things I want to do more of this year. So much so I have them all written down so I can keep referring to it and am tracking how often I've done them. Meditating is one of them. <BR> <BR> I've meditated before and like a lot of things in my life, my consistency wavers - I'll do it a lot for a while and then forget about it until something brings it back into my life. I know I benefit from it, I just have difficulties with sustaining things. I have an ADD addictive... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 13:02:35 EST When the body gets in the way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5201211 Soooo I'm in Ontario and we've had our worst bout of flu outbreak for the last 5 years. I don't know if that's what I've got but I definitely have something. Been fevery and headachy this whole week and when I try to do some exercise it flares up worse. So I'm taking it easy. Again. Quite frustrating. I'm just trying to keep myself in the groove so that when I get physically better, that I'm still going to be all gung ho and back to things. <BR> <BR> On the other hand, it's supposed to... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 21:29:49 EST Post Holiday Sumup http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5192695 Sooooo even though I was getting serious with the weight loss again I wanted to take it easy over December in terms of exercise and eating especially on Christmastime. I am very happy I did and think it's a good step to a healthier me. I got sick three weeks in a row from overactivity because I was just so busy with work and Christmas things. (When I get sick from doing too much I get certain symptoms that go away after a day or to so I know it wasn't a cold or flu coming back each week). ... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 08:18:32 EST FIRST BLOG!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5191977 Okay, so this is new for me. I've been part of sparkpeople for a few years now. NEVER posted before. Soooooooo here I am going to post and I figure I might as well share my journey thusfar. <BR> <BR> I'm 27 and have been overweight for more than half of my life. I would go on weight loss kicks and fads and trying everything to lose weight only to regain it back. Never really looking at the reasons behind it, a lot of it being self-esteem and clinical depression issues. <BR> <BR> I was ... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 18:15:32 EST