THE_TIME_IS_NOW's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=THE%5FTIME%5FIS%5FNOW THE_TIME_IS_NOW's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What is LOVE? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5438078 This is going to be a challenging Blog for me. I grew up an only child and feel like as a young teen I basically raised myself. So this week assignment is to write a LOVE letter to ourselves but here is my question what is LOVE. I feel like the 2 people who should of <BR> Loved me the most and taught me how to love have done the complete opposite. I feel like their world would be better if I wasn't in it. I often times want to just lock <BR> Myself in my room and escape to my private place. ... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 01:20:42 EST Plan for BLC BREAK PREP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5324227 The Break for BLC is always a problem for me. I add pounds that I do not need or want . Here is my plan to stay accountable <BR> <BR> 1- Track- every bite, lick and chew matters <BR> <BR> 2- No Soda - I need to get away from drinking soda. It's something I cut out but always come back to. I need to drink more water. <BR> <BR> 3- exercise- with summer quickly approaching I want to make a commitment of going to the gym twice a day. <BR> <BR> Spend more time with my loved ones- with all t... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 16:25:09 EST Plan for BLC Break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308045 Each time the BLC takes a break for some reason my head and body also thinks I could take a break. Each time over the break I add some pounds along with some of their friends <BR> <BR> Here is my plan to stay accountable during break <BR> <BR> 1. Track- something I really struggle with. I need to track every lick, bite, chew. If I am 100% honest with what I am putting in my mouth I will be successful. <BR> <BR> 2. Water- I love water but sometimes it gets boring to me. I need to incorpo... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 20:54:02 EST Letter to the Past Amber http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223391 If I could Write a 16 year old Amber there is so much that I would tell her and try to teach her. <BR> <BR> 1- Love and RESPECT your parents- They are not as stupid as you think they are and they only want the best for you. <BR> <BR> 2- Stop wanting to Grow Up so fast- enjoy being young and having fun cause once you become an adult you will miss being a kid. <BR> <BR> 3- Stop Worrying about what others think about you- You are a STRONG, BEAUTIFUL, COMPASSIONATE Person and poo on those w... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 17:15:31 EST BLC 20 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5057911 So the short break between rounds proved to be evil to me. I gained back 10+ pounds that I had loss. This proves 2 things to me. <BR> <BR> 1. I am Human <BR> 2. I still have issues with my eating <BR> <BR> ----------------------------------------<BR>------------- <BR> <BR> Here are my goals for BLC 20 <BR> <BR> 1. Continue with no sugar but also add no starches, no cheese and no soda. <BR> 2. Exercise 4x a week for 30+ a week <BR> 3. Participate in all weekend challenges <BR> 4. Work o... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 16:25:12 EST Forest Green Pixies ABC's of Me Round 20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5053181 A is for ABOVE AND BEYOND... Does competition push you? Yes, I have been the top Pixie for a few rounds now and have no intention not to do it again this round. <BR> <BR> B is for BLC Rounds ... Newbie? (first BLC Round) Oldie? (1-3 rounds) Goldie? ( long time BLCer)? Former team(s)? Goldie, I was a Mocha Maniac for 2 rounds and have been a Pixie for 5 rounds  <BR> <BR> C is for CHILDREN... You have? No besides the 13 girls I work with 40 hours a week.  <BR> <BR> D is for DOWNFALL... What'... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 19:29:20 EST Plan for the next 12 weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4855045 Plan  <BR> <BR> To guarantee that I will continue to be successful on my weight loss journey I need a plan to help me achieve my goal to be the healthiest and best I can be and deserve to be.  <BR> <BR> - continue to go to the gym 4 or 5 days a week <BR> <BR> - no emotional eating ( maybe start a journal to write down reasons that I am wanting to eat even though I'm not hungry)  <BR> <BR> - TRACK EVERYTHING  <BR> <BR> - Organize my time this summer  <BR> <BR> - Blog more often <BR> <BR... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 14:25:00 EST BLC 19- ABC'S OF ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4844458 A- Above and beyond. Does competition push you?- I am a very competitive person. I always strive to do my best and be the best.  <BR> <BR> B- BLC ROUNDS- I am a Goldie this is either my 6th or 7th BLC. I was with the Mochas my first two rounds and have been a Pixie every since.  <BR> <BR> C- Children- no biological children yet but I work with 24 blind and visually impaired girls that in a lot of ways are like my own daughters.  <BR> <BR> D- Downfall- my biggest down falls are what I call ... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 18:06:52 EST Forest Green Pixies ABC'S OF ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4667387 A is for ABOVE and BEYOND...Does competition push you? I am a very competitive person. I strive to win. Last round I was number 2 in the whole BLC and I wanted to be #1 but couldn't do it in time. <BR> <BR> B is for BLC rounds... Newbie?(first BLC round) Oldie?(1-3 rounds) Goldie?(long time BLCer)? Former BLC team(s)? Defiantly a Goldie. I think this is my 7th round. I was a Mocha Hunter my 1st 2 rounds and been a Pixie ever since. <BR> <BR> C is for CHILDREN...you have? 0 <BR> <BR> D i... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 22:49:07 EST Forest Green Pixies ABC'S OF ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4667385 A is for ABOVE and BEYOND...Does competition push you? I am a very competitive person. I strive to win. Last round I was number 2 in the whole BLC and I wanted to be #1 but couldn't do it in time. <BR> <BR> B is for BLC rounds... Newbie?(first BLC round) Oldie?(1-3 rounds) Goldie?(long time BLCer)? Former BLC team(s)? Defiantly a Goldie. I think this is my 7th round. I was a Mocha Hunter my 1st 2 rounds and been a Pixie ever since. <BR> <BR> C is for CHILDREN...you have? 0 <BR> <BR> D i... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 22:48:15 EST Mirror Mirror http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4533109 My beautiful Amber <BR> <BR> Three rounds ago admin of <BR> The BLC switched me to the Forest green pixies, at first I was unsure of how it would be but admin did something amazing for me. The pixies have become  an extremely supportive group of friends who will always push me to be the BEST I CAN BE.  <BR> <BR> I know for most of your life you have disliked the way you look. You are finally taking the steps that you need to, to become the person you long to be.  <BR> <BR> You are beautifu... Thu, 13 Oct 2011 01:01:22 EST Thoughts and Feelings (Negative Blog) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4474840 <em>230</em> <em>230</em> <em>230</em> <em>230</em> <em>230</em> <em>230</em> <BR> <BR> I'm feeling a little sad tonight and feel the need to write about it. <BR> <BR> I am extremely stressed at work. Trying to prove myself and just being me and the hard worker that I am. I am trying to move up and this is my 4th time trying. Being raised with parents who are extremely negative people I feel like for some reason I'm not gonna get the position... I try to stay positive and in the mom... Fri, 9 Sep 2011 02:41:43 EST BLC Round 17 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4471720 1. Only eat out 2x a week- all the old pixies know this is a huge issue for me. I usually ate out 4-6 times a week. I know it is horrible for me and my body and I want to do better. <BR> <BR> 2. Be able to do the 12 week streak- I always let myself fall short and this 12 weeks is going to be a CHALLENGE! I had a trainer who taught me and pushed me so much but he is not able to work with me anymore. I know I can do what he taught me alone, I just need to get off the couch an do it. <BR> <B... Wed, 7 Sep 2011 14:14:01 EST Who is this new person I'm seeing in the mirror http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4347769 As some of you know I have been overweight for almost all my life. Since I began this weight loss journey I have lost give or take about 80 pounds. I can't give you an exact amount because I was to embrassed to get on the scale. As the pounds have shed off of me I have been able to gain something bigger and more important to me. I have a new self confidence that in my almost 28 years of life I've never had before. I'm wearing things and doing things I've never done before. This past several w... Thu, 7 Jul 2011 17:49:56 EST Blog for 3/25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4120747 Friday is one of my favorite days to be at work. I love my trip and the kids I work with and the bus driver I'm with. This week has been amazing. I am seeing things that I do that Ive never done before.... <BR> <BR> <BR> Breakfast <BR> <BR> 2 hard boiled eggs ( whites only) - 31 calories <BR> 1 piece wheat toast- 70 calories <BR> 1 tbsp of peanut butter- 95 calories <BR> <BR> <BR> Lunch <BR> <BR> 2 c raw spinach - 20 calories <BR> 1 c carrots- 52 calories <BR> 1 fuji Apple- 80 ca... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 00:47:17 EST Blog for 3/24 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4118198 Got to make this quick but i want to put it out her e <BR> <BR> <BR> My sugar last night was 165 <BR> This morning it was 137 <BR> <BR> Exercise- 60 minutes <BR> Water- 10 8 oz glasses <BR> <BR> <BR> Food intake <BR> <BR> Breakfast- <BR> <BR> 2 hard boiled eggs ( whites only) - 31 calories <BR> 2 slices of turkey bacon- 130 calories <BR> 1 piece wheat toast- 70 calories <BR> 1 tbsp of peanut butter- 95 calories <BR> <BR> <BR> Lunch <BR> <BR> 4 oz 96% lean hamburger meat- 15... Fri, 25 Mar 2011 17:37:45 EST Blog for 3/23 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4115916 Today was a great Day. Last Night my trainer did not want to work out but I did it by myself. I cannot imagine ever doing something like that. This exercising thing has really grown on me I guess. I really love it and am having so much fun. I am noticing differences in clothes and my energy level. If I skip a work out 1 day I really feel like poo! <BR> <BR> My sugar last night was 172 <BR> This morning it was 141 <BR> <BR> <BR> Exercise- 60 minutes <BR> Water- 10 8 oz glasses <BR> <BR... Thu, 24 Mar 2011 18:15:27 EST Back to Basics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4113116 First of Al l <BR> <BR> I slap my hands I really want to do this everyday. I need to take time to do because it is something for me... I enjoy doing it but I get caught up with the hustle and bustle of life and dont take the time to do what I want and need to do... <BR> <BR> Here is my log for yesterday Tuesday March 22nd <BR> <BR> My sugar in the morning was 162 <BR> <BR> Exercise- 60 minutes <BR> <BR> Breakfast <BR> <BR> 3 hard boiled eggs- 3 hard boiled eggs - 46.5 <BR> <BR>... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 15:53:29 EST Back To Basics Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4102331 Today has been an okay day. It was a rough day at work... I still Love my kids and my job... Been kind of emotional today not sure why but I hope it passes. Today I'm so grateful for a wonderful person that spent 45 minutes listening to me and talking to me and making me feel better. <BR> <BR> I cant eat meat on Fridays during Lent <BR> <BR> My Sugar last night was- 185 <BR> My sugar this morning was- 162 <BR> <BR> Breakfast <BR> <BR> 3 hard boiled eggs - 46.5 <BR> <BR> Lunch <BR>... Sat, 19 Mar 2011 03:08:16 EST Back to Basics Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4100078 Today has been a great day. Today was my moms birthday and the 1 year anniversary since we got our precious Charlie( so we had his birthday today too) <BR> <BR> Didnt do much today. I did take my doggie for a quick 10 minute walk and then tonight the trainer was feeling better. <BR> <BR> Last night my sugar was 205 <BR> This morning my sugar was - 190 <BR> <BR> So here it is - <BR> <BR> Exercise- 65 minutes <BR> <BR> Breakfast <BR> 2 hard boiled eggs( whites only)- 31 calories <... Fri, 18 Mar 2011 03:33:51 EST Day 1- Back to Basics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4097449 Hi All <BR> <BR> So today has been a pretty good day. I didnt get to workout last night. I've come to notice my energy levels change so much when I dont work out the night before. I have been checking my sugar every morning because I have been higher then I would like. I have been taking my medication on a daily basis and my numbers are finally starting to go where I would like them too. <BR> <BR> This morning my sugar was 185 <BR> <BR> Here is my exercise log for last night- 0 minutes ... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 23:39:54 EST Re Commited http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4095124 Ok so here is my confession- <BR> <BR> I really want to lose like another 35 or 40 pounds before the end of may. The way I'm working out I should be losing around 3-5 pounds per week. I'm building muscle and I know muscle weighs more then fat but I want to see results also on the scale. Last year I made a challenge to myself and I started really well and then all of the sudden just stopped. I noticed when I write a blog daily about my feelings, food intake and sugar levels it helps me stay... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 02:22:10 EST This Week In a Nut Shell http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3948040 This Week has been great for the most part. I have been exercising 5 days a week. It has been amazing and it feels great. On Wednesday my WI was fantastic. I lost a little over 5 pounds. On Wednesday Night I was at the gym lifting weights and I lifted something wrong. I knew it right away cause my wrists started bothering me right away. I went to the Dr. and I have a torn ligament in my wrist. I will not lets this small set back stop me from achieving all of my goals. Fri, 21 Jan 2011 16:11:54 EST Deeply Saddened http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3904730 Words cannot express how sad and concerned I'm for my community and our country. <BR> <BR> I live in Tucson AZ and this morning something I never imagined would happen anywhere close to me did. A gun man shot and killed 6 people and seriously injured 19 others. This included the Congress Woman for our District. At 1st her condition was unknown but the news were reporting that she had been killed. This thankfully is not true but she was shot in the head. It has been reported that one of the ... Sat, 8 Jan 2011 21:06:29 EST BLC 15- Forest Green Pixies All the Way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3891332 I have been a part of the BLC for the last 3 rounds. This round they decided to do some changes which I was extremely nervous about, For the last 2 rounds I had been on the Mocha Maniacs and this round I am on the Forest Green Pixies. I was so nervous because I had been so accustomed to their ways. I love being on the Pixies and am so thankful for all their love and support. <BR> <BR> Here are my Goals for BLC 15 <BR> <BR> 1. Drink only water <BR> 2. No Sugar <BR> 3. Less eating out <BR>... Wed, 5 Jan 2011 03:10:22 EST New Year New Me!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3884922 Hi All <BR> <BR> I do this every New Years. I say that I want to change my life yet somehow I never am able to do it. I am a beautiful person and I am worth getting healthy for. I have 556 days till my 29th b-day. I would like to lose between 120-130 pounds total. I know if I continue to use Sparkpeople and all the information I have gotten from it I will be successful once and for all. I am doing this for Amber so that she can be the best person she can. Mon, 3 Jan 2011 16:28:35 EST New Years Resolutions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3875652 1. Use Spark People Everyday- I love this website. It has helped me through so many things. I love all the people I met... <BR> <BR> 2. Focus on me- I'm always doing so much for others. This last week I went to Disneyland with one of my best friends. We had so much fun and I realized doing things for me is very important, <BR> <BR> 3. Stay Active- For the last two months I have been exercising 4 or 5 nights a week. I have truly began to love it. I love the way it makes me feel. <BR> <BR... Sat, 1 Jan 2011 00:57:40 EST Wow has it really been 2 months http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3818357 Wow... <BR> <BR> I'm so used to blogging almost everyday. I have been so busy. My Life has been wonderful. I am so happy and can not wait to see what the future brings. I have come to realize that friends will come and go but true friends will always be there for you. <BR> Work is going very well. I Love my job so much. I am so blessed to work with these students everyday. <BR> I had a rough Thanksgiving but it just made me realize how lucky I am to have the parents that I do. <BR> I ha... Wed, 1 Dec 2010 23:31:01 EST Journal Prompt #4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3706688 Each one of you have made a decision for your health! A decision you should be proud of! And with that have come many changes to our lifestyle to help us achieve our goals of weight loss and better health! My 4th prompt ask "What changes have you made in your lifestyle that you are most proud of?" <BR> <BR> Since Joining Spark a little over a year ago I have made some very big changes in my life. I have started to enjoy exercising instead of hating it... I have been watching what and what I... Mon, 11 Oct 2010 00:31:23 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3695672 Ok so Today I am feeling so much better than I was last night. I looked online and found a group that met on Monday, Thursday and Saturdays. I went last night and felt a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders... I didnt talk very much but everything I heard from the other people was just like my life story... I am so happy to have found this group... I am not going to be able to attend every meeting but I'm gonna commit myself to attending whenever I am able. <BR> <BR> Thanks for Everything... Wed, 6 Oct 2010 00:45:17 EST Now What!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3691962 Ok so as some of you know I have been overweight since I can remember.. I have tried for so long to not let it define who I am as an individual person but clearly it has... I want so bad for this excess weight to leave my body so that I can live a normal, happy and healthy life. <BR> <BR> My parents and I havent been getting along lately due to the fact that they are upset because I've been so emotional lately.. I think they realize how unhappy I am with who I am and what I have become.. Wh... Mon, 4 Oct 2010 16:39:56 EST This and That http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3683663 Wow!!!!!!! Its been over a week since my last blog... <BR> <BR> Well my trip went okay... One of the students did not want to go home so she ended up hitting and punching me off and on for 3 hours. I go back to pick her up on Sunday and I am more then ready to be punched and hit again. When they do it in the dorm it is easy to give them a time out but traveling on a bus makes it harder... <BR> <BR> This week I went to Sedona with my parents and it was very nice and relaxing and I didnt wa... Fri, 1 Oct 2010 00:25:54 EST FYI http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3663059 Just so everyone knows <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> I GOT MY BUS TRIP BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> I Leave 645 am on Friday with the students returning on Saturday Wed, 22 Sep 2010 20:44:48 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3658957 Ok so 1st of all it is not often at all that I am willing to fight for myself but I felt like what they did to me was completely wrong... <BR> <BR> So today before I caught the bus to come to class I went into the transportation office and spoke with the head boss. She started off by apologizing for her misunderstanding. I asked if there was anything she could do and expressed that I had budgeted my finances thinking that I would be going on this trip... I knew that there was one other trip... Tue, 21 Sep 2010 16:18:37 EST Uh So Frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3656031 Uh I'm so upset right now... <BR> <BR> So every few weeks I have the opportunity to take the kids home for the week to visit their families. This is a good amount of extra money for me. In the beginning of the school I emailed the head of transportation to make sure I was gonna be on both trips( drop off and pick up) . She said they were both mine all school year. Well today I called to make sure I am going this Friday and they gave the trip to two other people. So now I'm not gonna be goin... Mon, 20 Sep 2010 19:43:22 EST Thoughts and Feelings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3650909 So yesterday I had written a very nice blog and a negative susan posted something very rude and hurtful on it so I deleted it. I love sparkpeople but maybe I said something in my blog to offend her... <BR> <BR> I had written about my wonderful day yesterday. I had lunch with a friend. We have been friends for a while and even dated recently due to both of us having very busy and stressful lives... Negative Susan suggested there might be another girl in his life. <BR> <BR> Having just gott... Sun, 19 Sep 2010 00:08:47 EST Uh Will She Ever Know How Much She Hurts Me!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3637089 Ok so as everyone knows I have a lot of issues with both of my parents... My dad and my relationship has always been very close... He takes time to listen to me and I feel he tries his best not to hurt my feelings. My mom and I on the other hand have always and probably will always have issues... So last night I worked and so I stayed at my apartment... My parents picked me up today, we went out to lunch... While we were at the restaurant my mom asks me why I feel that I always have to dress ... Tue, 14 Sep 2010 11:13:38 EST Night 1/ Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3629381 Well last night when I was at work I got a phone call from my dad saying that on their way out my mom had opened the car door and hit her mouth on it. She had a large cut on the outside of her mouth and they thought she might have 1 on the inside. She works overnights and this occurred about 6:15 pm. She tried to work and I spent the time with her but her mouth did not stop bleeding. Finally I was able to get her to call out for the rest of her shift and go to the hospital. I went with her an... Sun, 12 Sep 2010 00:12:41 EST Friday September 10 2010 Day 1 to a New and Improved Amber http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3626922 So today was needless to say an absolute wonderful day. I went out to lunch with a good friend who is going through a very difficult time. It was great to see him and wonderful to see him smile for once. He and I had been dating for the last month and last week we broke up because our lives are so stressful and busy right now. I really like him and even if we never get back together would love to keep him as a friend. <BR> <BR> So on Fridays I help take a group of 5 or 6 students home to vi... Sat, 11 Sep 2010 02:15:02 EST Why Are You Trying To Lose Weight? (LONG) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3624111 Ok its 1:15 am and I am not really sure what made me want to write this Blog... <BR> <BR> As most of you know I have been heavy since I can remember... My parents are both heavy and did a poor job teaching me to eat healthy.... <BR> <BR> Once they realized how out of control my weight was they have put me on every single diet that I was allowed to do... I have done LA Weight Loss, Jenny Craig and the Grapefruit Diet... <BR> <BR> I always wondered why I was not successful and I think I h... Fri, 10 Sep 2010 04:38:12 EST Goals for BLC 14!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3624008 So I am so excited to be a member of the Mocha Maniacs this round.. I joined the BLC on round 13 and I loved it.... <BR> <BR> <BR> Here is what I would like to do for these next 12 weeks <BR> <BR> 1. Blog Daily- Writing about how I am feeling and what is going on really does make me feel better... <BR> <BR> 2. Participate More- If I were to give myself a grade for BLC 13 it would be a C. I was not as active as I would like to be. I hope this round to write daily, participate more in ch... Fri, 10 Sep 2010 01:40:34 EST Here We Are Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3617236 So the holiday weekend went by way to fast. I spent a lot of time in my new place with my parents putting some finishing touches on it. I think it is finally done and I absolutely love it. I wish I would have done it years ago. So today was my 1st day back to work and I went in with a positive attitude but it didnt last for long... I am so sick of being told what to do and how to act by people who feel they are better and more important then me. I have been here 8 years and know how to succes... Wed, 8 Sep 2010 01:53:44 EST I just need to vent.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3607720 Hi All <BR> <BR> So this week has been a very emotional 1 for me... I have had a lot of changes made in my life the last couple of days. These changes are helping me become my own INDIVIDUAL Person... So yesterday I went to a school counsler to talk mainly about how I can raise my GPA the fastest.. I am only 2 classes short of my Associates but I do not have the GPA I need to graduate <em>101</em> . He asked why my GPA was so low and I stated because I have worked full time and I have alwa... Sat, 4 Sep 2010 22:36:36 EST Who Are You? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3604200 Hi <BR> <BR> So yesterday I went to class and our teacher had us do an interesting and challenging assignment in pairs... She asked that we get with a partner and ask them who are you 12 different times... It was really hard to come up with 12 things especially since class just started last week and I didnt want to give out to much personal information... <BR> <BR> So Now Here is My Challenge for you... <BR> <BR> I would like for you to look into your own lives and weight loss journey a... Fri, 3 Sep 2010 14:38:06 EST You Live and You Learn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3601489 So I am not one to hide the way I feel.. I am way to trusting of other people.... I am done trying to be a good friend and a good person. I am sick of being a good person and a good friend and it always somehow comes back to bite me in the ass... I am sick of it... If my friends dont like the way I am or the way I was raised they dont have to be my friend.... Thu, 2 Sep 2010 18:54:08 EST September Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3595365 What are your fitness goals? I would like to be able to walk a mile and a half by the end of this month. <BR> *What is your weight goal? My weight goal would be 255 or 7 pounds for this month. <BR> *What are your rewards? My rewards will be feeling better about myself. I will be feeling better and having the time of my life because I will be making a difference in my life by making myself healthy. To reward myself I will be spending more times with my best friends. If I reach my goal weig... Wed, 1 Sep 2010 07:14:35 EST Its Time to Focus on Me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3589763 Hi All <BR> <BR> So right now as I sit here and write this I am feeling sad about recent events in my life but I am also feeling strong.. I am now entirely focused on changing my life FOR ME... <BR> <BR> So last Night the boy I've been seeing for about a month now decided we should just be friends for right now. He has a lot going on right now with family issues and a new promotion at work that is taking a lot more time. I respect his decision and know that he does care for me because he ... Mon, 30 Aug 2010 16:07:30 EST Is There Such a Thing as Caring too much http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3572113 So today has been quite a crazy day. First off I am working a double shift right now and only have 3 more hours but I'm ready to lay my head down and fall asleep right now. I am doing a 1 on 1 supervision with an ill child. Why do I let myself be talked into these things. I am not getting paid extra or ot or anything. I am taking off Thursday to be compinsated for tonight. My mom was supposed to be here but my parents have had a rough day... My dad had a kidney stone blasted today and as the... Wed, 25 Aug 2010 06:05:37 EST My Life Becomes Crazy in 5,4,3,2,1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3564236 Ok so as I sit here to write this Blog I cant help but have a smile on my Face. It is not often that my 2 best friends and I are able to do things together. Tonight we went to Joe's Crab Shack and had a blast constantly laughing and smiling... <BR> I know I have said this before but my 2 best friends are angels in my life. They know how to make my laugh and always have a listening ear... <BR> <BR> Well I started work again 3 weeks ago and now school starts on Thursday. I really need to foc... Sun, 22 Aug 2010 23:32:28 EST These Last Couple of Days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3547348 So If you follow my blog you know that last week was very emotional and difficult on me. Yesterday I went to see an Orthopedic Surgeon. He wants me to start Physical Therapy and go back to see him in a month. This is probably some of the best news. I know that Therapy will be a lot of work and I will probably be in a lot of pain but it is so much better then Surgery. <BR> He doesnt want me doing a lot of walking cause of the pain it causes me. My parents had an exercycle in their house that... 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