THE_BATGIRL's SparkPeople Blog THE_BATGIRL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community we now return to our regularly scheduled program Fell off the wagon. More accurately, took exactly two weeks off of my normal eating by going on vacation, tried to pay attention to what I ate, watched my calories, stuck mostly to fresh stuff. Ate a few desserts, nothing super crazy. <BR> <BR> Yup. Gained 15 pounds in two weeks. :( The weight it took me 6 months to lose. Gained back and then some. I then went back to what I was doing - tracking, exercising, etc for a month, and lost half a pounds. That's not right. <BR> <BR> So yeah, ba... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 16:26:54 EST kicked while down! Had a particularly crushing weekend that involved losing not one, but two kittens I was set to adopt. Long story, and I'm still too sad to talk/think about it. <BR> <BR> On the plus side, I was too depressed to eat, so I met my calorie goals. Heh. <BR> <BR> I did start exercising again though! Actual exercise, not just walking the dog. I think I may buy a heart rate monitor. I've debated it before, and it seems like a fun thing to start tracking. Fri, 15 Jun 2012 13:22:11 EST Lost my motivation. :/ I've gone mostly off track ever since memorial day weekend. That was supposed to be my big end goal where I would have lost 35-45 pounds and looked amazing, but instead I lost 10 pounds, and stopped caring. <BR> It's definitely a little frustrating when I watch what I eat, log everything carefully, get in an hour of strenuous cardio exercise a day, I either maintain my weight, or maybe lose a pound a month if I'm lucky. I'm also exhausted all the time, and feel like I want to die after exerci... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 14:28:27 EST Artificial sweetener, we meet again! I was all responsible and got a salad last night (go me!) from Panera. Since no good deed goes unpunished, I noticed a half hour later that my stomach felt awful. I tried to figure out if I'd accidentally eaten anything weird, but I hadn't even had any dairy with that salad so I couldn't figure it out. Finally after the horrid stomach cramps started, I realized I must have eaten something with artificial sweetener in it. Sure enough I looked up the Panera ingredients, and the next to last ing... Tue, 22 May 2012 15:28:08 EST thinking about non weight loss progress I was trying to think of things I've accomplished that aren't related to losing weight. I've lost ten pounds, and pretty much have stayed there, but I've accomplished other stuff, which is why I haven't lost all hope and eaten an entire bakery. :D <BR> <BR> So far: <BR> -I've completely ditched soda. I used to drink 3 cokes a day, then a year ago got down to one a day, and now I'll have one like, once a month, if that. I think I've had maybe 3 cokes since January. Since I'm allergic to arti... Thu, 17 May 2012 13:15:06 EST Sensa ads? Man, does anyone else get like 900 ads for Sensa while on this site? I finally looked it up because I got so many ads I wanted to see why it's so popular, but it looks like it's one of those things that people either love, or it gives them horrible stomach cramps like any other "diet" gimmick. That doesn't sound like much fun, so I'm surprised it seems so popular. <BR> <BR> Wed, 16 May 2012 15:18:42 EST Puffy face? My long term goal was to lose the weight before my friend's wedding. I've lost 10 pounds since August, not the 32 I actually wanted to lose. The wedding is in less than two weeks, so yeah. Not happening. I'm super proud about those ten pounds though! <BR> <BR> The part I am upset about is that despite losing an ok amount of weight and going down almost a jeans size, I have gained weight in my face. I look like I'm wearing special effects makeup to give me a second chin and cheeks. I genuine... Tue, 15 May 2012 17:38:16 EST oh yay, depression. I got out of tracking for a few weeks while I had some issues recovering from surgery. I'm fine now, but really exhausted all the time. <BR> I'm back exercising and half heartedly tracking (I track everything, but I'm going over my calorie goal by 200-400 every day - I'm getting better about that though). <BR> <BR> Mostly I'm just really tired and feeling really defeated. After surgery it's like my depression came back worse than it's ever been, and my anxiety has tripled. I'm going through... Fri, 11 May 2012 10:55:59 EST Still alive..mostly I'm still alive. I'm mostly recovered from surgery, though I'm still tired all the time and get twinges of pain at my belly button incision. <BR> <BR> I gained a pound, though I'm not really too broken up about it. I can't exercise until two weeks after my surgery date, so I can start working out again on thursday if I feel up to it. <BR> <BR> I think besides the pain and fatigue, the worst part has been the insomnia. I haven't slept more than 5 hours since the 4th or 5th of April, and it's... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 11:03:08 EST Surgery results!!!! Whoo! Pretty groggy and in pain this morning. Yesterday I had a laparoscopy where the doc found and removed three sections of Stage 1 Endometriosis! Yaaaay!!!! I'm so relieved that there was something causing my pain and that it wasn't ovarian cancer!!! <BR> <BR> She said the worst spot was on the middle back side of my uterus and that it was roughly the size of a dime. My back is hurting this morning, but it's more sore instead of excruciating like it's been before. <BR> <BR> After surger... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 07:39:43 EST Surgery time! Wish me luck! My surgery is tomorrow morning. (diagnostic laparascopy to diagnose and remove endometriosis). <BR> Please cross all of your fingers for me that they find endometriosis and can remove it. The alternatives are they find nothing and I continue to be in pain, or they find ovarian cancer and remove everything in there. So yeah, definitely hoping for endometriosis!!! :D Heh. I'm still in my 30s and have autoimmune hypothyroid stuff, so odds are pretty good that it's endo and not cancer, but I'd ... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 15:14:12 EST Am I doing this wrong? I keep second guessing myself that I'm doing something wrong, or not doing this right. I see people getting upset because they haven't lost any weight in two weeks. My coworker punishes herself if she doesn't lose two pounds a week. I'm pretty excited if I lose a pound a month. <BR> I dunno, I'm really happy being able to go out and buy Starbucks if I want, or order Chinese food if Im feeling like having Chinese food. I just don't understand it when people say things like I'm not trying har... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 00:15:50 EST Last night sucked. Today is looking better. Last night was hilariously awful food and exercise wise. <BR> <BR> Tried making a vegetable curry - curry paste was rancid, or something. Two bites and it went in the trash. <BR> <BR> Tried making buffalo wings (just simple, frozen ones from a box), my non stick cookie sheet failed me, and I had to throw out the little I could unstick from the sheet. I ate maybe half of 4 of them. <BR> <BR> Then I decided to just microwave a breakfast sandwich I had in the freezer because I hadn't come clo... Fri, 9 Mar 2012 15:19:04 EST Same stuff different day. :D Still exercising, and still watching my calories. I switched up my foods to get a little more fish and protein, so that was fun. I'm still at the same weight, but I fully expected to be. I only gained about 3 pounds of water weight during my period, which is oddly low for me. Generally I gain 5-10. I've already lost it though, so that's really nice! Usually it hangs around for a week. <BR> <BR> Tonight I'm going to treat myself to some hot wings, as I had a very light lunch. I'm stupidly ex... Wed, 7 Mar 2012 18:48:02 EST The Year so far... I saw a few others making lists of how February went for them. My body works so slowly that I'll sum up the year so far to make it seem more impressive. <BR> <BR> So Since January 1st..... <BR> Pounds lost: 3 <BR> Inches lost from waist: 1 <BR> Major illnesses diagnosed: 1 <BR> Fitness minutes this year: 801 <BR> Pants sizes gone down: 0 <BR> Clothes shopping adventure that didn't end in tears: 1 (to be fair I only went clothes shopping once, so this is pretty great!) <BR> <BR> <BR> I'd sa... Fri, 2 Mar 2012 15:55:33 EST My First Surgery! Whee, scheduled for my very first surgery ever at the end of the month to diagnose/treat my endometriosis. I'm terrified/morbidly curious as to how it will go. I'll try to concentrate on the morbid curiosity part, heh. <BR> <BR> Whee! <BR> <BR> In weight loss news, I've settled firmly into the Ten Pounds Lost territory. I like this place. It feels good. 1/3rd of the way there, whoo hoo! :) Wed, 29 Feb 2012 13:58:57 EST Whoo-hoo validation! Got a call back from the doctor (fiiiiinallllyyyyyy) and I am free of ovarian cysts and fibroids that they can tell, but because of something they saw (way to be vague guys.) they are definitely suspecting endometriosis, and want me to go see a specialist. <BR> <BR> I'm kinda excited that I'm not crazy and that the pain isn't all in my head. Now I have to find a specialist though, and one that a)is taking new patients and b)takes my insurance. Whee! Mon, 20 Feb 2012 16:24:12 EST hurry up test results! Argh! The ultrasound place told me they'd get my scans to my doctor Thursday morning, so I'd probably hear from them friday. I'm so tired of waiting. I just want to know if I have ovarian cysts or fibroids or SOMETHING that could be causing all of this pain, argh. <BR> <BR> Hurry doctors! ::stares at phone:: Fri, 17 Feb 2012 11:25:24 EST So close to leveling up! Yay, I'm only 389 sparkpoints away from getting to level 7! I wish you could level up faster in Spark People, because it seems like it takes forever to get to the next level. I do enjoy that there's a leveling up system. It's so gamey! If only I could choose how to allocate my leveled up skills. I'm pretty sure I'd put all my points into raising my health bar, heh. <BR> <BR> Ultrasound went ok. Now I just have to sit and wait for results, oh fun. I'm hoping they actually find something that'... Thu, 16 Feb 2012 11:17:15 EST I want all of the food ever. Except cheese. Today has been the longest day everrrrrrrrr. I have to fast for my ultrasound at 3pm. The last time I could eat anything was at 9am, and it said I could only have a light breakfast. Awesome me woke up at 9:30, arrrrgh. <BR> <BR> I can't even have tea, so I'm sitting here sipping hot water. <BR> <BR> To make it even worse, I have NOTHING in my system at all, because after my valentine's dinner of wine, cheese, fruit and crackers, my stomach let me know in an unkind way that oh hey, I really... Wed, 15 Feb 2012 13:34:37 EST wow, I dreamt about tea. I had this fantastic dream that I found an assortment of tea with all these really interesting types that I'd not tried before, like rose flavored tea, and a lavender bergamot one, and something called like, willow moss, or something along those lines. It was so great, and I was really excited about trying all of them. <BR> <BR> Then I woke up and realized I just had an exciting dream about tea. Sigh. <BR> <BR> The worst part is that now I want exotic and interesting teas, but don't know ... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 13:41:22 EST cuts you up. A good friend and coworker passed away yesterday. It still doesn't seem real. <BR> <BR> I also got the suspected diagnosis of endometriosis and ovarian cysts, and have an ultrasound scheduled to rule out large fibroids or masses. I guess after that it's surgery to determine the extent of the endometriosis, and/or surgery to remove any cysts they find. <BR> <BR> On top of that, I had some coworker be a huge jackass to me this morning. <BR> <BR> So yeah, lots of stress. Bah. I've still been... Fri, 10 Feb 2012 14:40:46 EST no rest for the wicked Good: FINALLY got a doctor's appointment for today. I've been having chronic back and pelvic pain for months, and March was the soonest they could see me, but someone cancelled and I got an appointment. I am fairly certain due to various factors that I have endometriosis, so this is my first step in finally feeling better/getting an official diagnosis through surgery. Yay? <BR> <BR> Good: Love my new pink hair. LOVE. IT. Changed my spark page to match the new color. <BR> <BR> Crazy: lost ... Wed, 8 Feb 2012 13:49:59 EST mopey bat is mopey. It's kinda hard to concentrate on eating well when you're extremely tired and in pain about 80% of the time. Ugh. <BR> <BR> Measure my blood sugar for a week. It's on the slightly higher end of normal, but that's expected. I successfully cut back my carbs to my spark people limit and have kept that up, so there's that. <BR> <BR> I posted on a few message boards, and basically learned that doctors are jerks, even online, and I'm overreacting, and that everyone has some level of chronic pain... Tue, 31 Jan 2012 16:28:30 EST Watch out everyone, I've got a plan. So for the past month I've been feeling awful. Super jittery, anxious, depressed and unbelievably tired. I've made a doctor's appt, but the soonest they can see me for a complete workup is in March. :( <BR> <BR> So, I'm trying to be all proactive and whatnot to figure out what my issues are by myself so that I'll have more info to give the doctor. Huzzah. <BR> <BR> First, I have been measuring my blood sugar. Because I'm hypothyroid, the doc worried about insulin resistance so I have a bloo... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 13:33:01 EST Whoa, added a recipe. Go me! I reached a really awesome goal today - I found a recipe for something I really liked (Planet Hollywood's Chicken Crunch) and then through research, created my own healthy recipe for it, and entered it in to Spark Recipes! Wow! <BR> <BR> As someone who cooks like, twice a year, this is some serious progress for me. If you would like to search for it, it's called Baked Captain Crunch Chicken, in my new public recipe collection "Stuff Megan actually can cook without burning the house down." ... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 16:36:27 EST All aboard the failboat! I keep trying to peptalk myself into staying with weight loss efforts despite the fact that it's winter, but I'm failing miserably. <BR> <BR> It doesn't help that I'm really tired all the time, which sucks. It's weird - if I go out with people after work, I need like, 2 days to recover. I went out to a party - nothing stressful or physically demanding, but I couldn't do anything the next day. I took 3 naps, and managed to go out to dinner. I know my thyroid is ok, so it can't be that, and ... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 14:06:18 EST Positive things to do when it's cold. I'm trying to think of positive weight loss things about cold weather. So far I've got: <BR> <BR> -I like eating soup when it's cold, and it's easy to choose low calorie soups <BR> -exercising warms me up, so I'm more motivated to do it. <BR> -I drink more hot tea, so it's easier to get my water for the day (I don't add sweeteners or anything either, so that's good) <BR> <BR> That's all I got so far. Any other good things? :D Fri, 13 Jan 2012 11:33:34 EST still goin'! Whoo, still goin'! <BR> Here's my summary of the last month and a half: <BR> <BR> Cons: haven't lost any weight, not exercising, got realllllly depressed, might have another medical issue that contributes to weight gain (endometriosis? does that make you gain weight? :/), I may have developed an allergy to chocolate. <BR> <BR> Pros: haven't gained any weight, have been able to maintain while being depressed (a first for me!), bought a Kinect so I can play more dancing games for exercise, a... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 16:26:03 EST yay, new victory! YES, I finally got past my stupid month long plateau. It feels like years long. I finally found out what was causing it. <BR> <BR> drumroll.....Oh hey, I eat too much. Heh. <BR> <BR> I'd actually lowered my high end calorie threshold on advice from my doc on account of my thyroid so that my range is 1200-1550 instead of 1200-1650, and had been eating 1550 calories (or slightly more) on a daily basis. So this weekend I ate 1200 calories +/- 50 calories or so and BAM! 2 pounds gone. <BR> <B... Mon, 21 Nov 2011 15:03:10 EST stuck.. I have been stuck at the exact same weight for about a month. I haven't gained weight, but I haven't lost any either. I suspect it's that I don't do strength training, so I think I may try to add that in and see if that helps at all. If it's not that, I'm not sure what to do. Mon, 14 Nov 2011 10:42:03 EST whooo, back on track :D I ate so much junk food this weekend - it was a combination of anniversaries, parties, receiving some bad news, and poor planning. But hey, didn't gain weight, and I'm back on track today, so yay. :) <BR> <BR> Now I just need to remember how supremely awful I felt after eating so much junk so that I can not do that again! :D Tue, 1 Nov 2011 15:57:27 EST stage 3! Hey, I made it to stage 3! I've only lost 7 pounds so far, so I'm not sure I'm ready for stage 3, but hey, I'll try it. :D Mon, 24 Oct 2011 10:45:18 EST Autumn Death Flu Went a little off track for a week, as I got some manner of horrific illness that people are calling the Autumn Death Flu. I can't say that I would recommend it to others. I took the most amount of sick days I've EVER TAKEN in a row. (Three, I tend to not get sick that often). I managed to not gain weight though! So small victory, heh. :D Fri, 21 Oct 2011 14:52:30 EST oh, failboats. I went on a mini vacation - husband was whisked off to London by work and I joined him last minute. Because of the crazy time difference and our schedule, I had large breakfasts, skipped lunch entirely, had reasonable dinners, and wound up gaining two pounds. Sigh. I couldn't use my phone, so no tracking for me either, argh. <BR> <BR> I'm telling myself that a)it's most likely gained muscle since I walked many miles every day (at least 10 miles that one day) and b)it may be water weight sin... Thu, 13 Oct 2011 11:19:03 EST Anyone ever heard of Portionware? Interesting - just learned of a new company called Portionware who's having a Daily Deal today through Daily Candy (heh the site has nothing to do with candy, just fun designery things generally) <BR> <BR> What a totally adorable and attractive way to keep track of portion sizes! I want to buy all of them ever! The lids have little circles on them from a half cup (half circle) up to two cups (two circles). Plus they don't scream HI I AM MEASURING MY FOOD, PLEASE MAKE COMMENTS TO ME ABOUT IT... Wed, 5 Oct 2011 14:57:34 EST Note to self. Re: Dairy allergy <BR> <BR> Dear self, <BR> Stop eating dairy. NO GOOD CAN COME FROM THIS. Except your daily calcium requirement, but that's what gummy vitamins are for. <BR> <BR> love Me. Fri, 23 Sep 2011 13:34:04 EST accidental success! I was having a bleh day, so I decided to not worry about calories tonight and went with a old favorite - turkey, cranberry and cream cheese sandwich on french bread. It was super good as usual. Then I put it into the recipe calculator, and lo and behold! Because I'd gone really light on lunch and wound up coming way under my calories and carbs. Go me!! <BR> <BR> Then I had a sinking feeling as I realized oh, I forgot to total in my Iced Chai Soy Latte. Boooo. <BR> <BR> So I put that in, an... Thu, 22 Sep 2011 20:43:15 EST Some great reward I think once I can lose 10%, I'm going to reward myself with something nice that I can wear to the goth clubs. <BR> <BR> A nice new pair of Pennangalan Boots should do! <BR><BR>.php <BR> <BR> I will make a little savings thing to save up and buy them once I lose that much. It'll be awhile, but I will have earned them!! <BR> <BR> (I'll give someone a Sparkgoodie if they can tell me what the title of my post is a reference to, heh ;D) Mon, 19 Sep 2011 17:00:28 EST ok trying this blog thing. So far I'm doing good! 3 pounds down, which is rather amazing for a hypothyroid person who hates exercise! Heh. Best part? I totally had buffalo wings and cream of crab soup for dinner. Portion control and a sensible lunch made that possible. Hooray! Not depriving myself rocks. I feel like I can totally do this. <BR> <BR> Minor possible setback - my thyroid is seriously enlarged. Like, coughing and having difficulty swallowing large. The doc may up my thyroid medicine. I made the mistake of ... Sat, 17 Sep 2011 00:45:30 EST