THERIN52's SparkPeople Blog THERIN52's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Feeling the fizzle <BR> <BR> So here I am a couple months into my weight loss, I am staying steady with not gaining and even losing a pound here and there but to be honest the last two weeks I haven’t been trying very hard, I think I might be feeling a bit of a burn out feeling, I don’t want to stop counting my calories though I haven’t been too great at it lately and my exercise YIKES only explains that one.. I end up sitting on the couch trying to get myself to just do it but I end up not.. I guess this is ... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 12:37:43 EST Did I seriously just eat that?!?! I ate a Krispy Kreme glazed donut today… This isn’t a guilty confession though, what’s kind of ironically funny about eating it is I am not even a fan of donuts, if I was going to “loss my morals” over something it would probably be chips and dip not something sweet but there it was a box a Krispy Kreme’s I don’t even remember walking over to the box or even chewing it, it was almost like something took over my body and devoured the thing as I just stood by and watched. I’m now sitting at my ... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 13:47:30 EST Fun and Mental is Fundamental “We must face tomorrow, whatever it may hold, with determination, joy, and bravery.” <BR> ~Mr. Magorium <BR> <BR> <BR> I learned a very important lesson this past week, one should always speak kindly and with as much tact as possible as you never know what another has been through or is going through. I have always been a soft spoken person who cares about the words I direct towards others but this past weekend was a great reminder in just how important your words can be in either tearing s... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 14:14:02 EST Telling my inner fat kid no! I have admittedly be a little lax on myself lately about exercise and exact nutrition which officially ended yesterday, I had allowed myself to take some time to still eat healthy and remember my morals while moving and getting back to situated. Well I am all situated and it is high time to get back to counting the calories and exercise. <BR> <BR> I started this journey on lean cuisines pretty much, I know those aren’t the best choice ever but I feel if that is what the first step takes the... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 13:04:10 EST What if you had never been overweight? I was sitting back the other day pondering what or who I would be like if I had never been overweight… <BR> I know a lot of people here were not always over weight they gained weight over time, have you sat back and wondered what if you hadn’t? <BR> For those of us that have always fought being overweight, have you imagined what if you were always skinny, who you would be? Would you be so kind and understanding? <BR> <BR> Would you be the same without the powerful lessons that had to be le... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 12:38:04 EST Food Addict.. no more annoymous.. I’m really starting to think I am obsessed with food.. Seriously is there such a disorder? <BR> I was actually at the doctors the other day and going through some quick standard questions (do you smoke, drink, exercise? Ect.) she asked me if I have an eating disorder…. I was a little shocked because honestly when I hear the phrase “eating disorder” I think of super skinny people, I also thought “umm look at me do I look like I starve myself?!?!” so I smiled and said yes! I’m a food addict, I... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 14:51:05 EST Huge changes I feel like I am officially back in the game, no more sidelines for me.. This past two weeks has been really rough on trying to follow my lifestyle change seeing as I have been moving which meant a lot of eating quick fast and convenient things… fast food.. lucky for me according to my fitbit moving tons of boxes up two flights of stairs, cleaning and packing burned a lot more calories than normal the good part is this was a good lesson in keeping the spark and looking at what has changed eve... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 11:54:36 EST When you are no stranger to pain and suffering An acquaintance of mine had a great lost in his life yesterday, he lost his young son to muscular dystrophy, his son had been sick for many years and was only 11 when he passed. Facing such an emotionally devastating time, that for me as a parent is impossible to conceive the idea or words to describe the level of sorrow and other emotions he and his wife must be feeling at this time, even so he wrote something that hit me so deeply in all situations in life that bring on pain and suffering, ... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 12:57:39 EST Moving an losing I literally have not had the time to weight myself and really I have been a little afraid of the scale over the last two weeks, I faced my fear a week or so ago and discovered a gain but it turned out to be water gain and as I became better hydrated and balanced out I was back at my lowest weight within a day or so. This week has been crazy stressful, I’ve been moving so eating has been a challenge as all of my kitchen last week was packed up, I have tried to be mindful of what I am eating bu... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 15:16:58 EST Salt, salt, salt… I love salt! Today I read an article about salt and giving it up. I will admit the minute I even thought about taking the salt shaker off my table I started to panic a little bit as I am a huge fan of salt seriously I could abandon sugar in a heartbeat but my relationship with salt is deep lol in my opinion salt makes everything taste so much better and honestly I don’t know why… if any of you have ever tried baby food you will know we for sure do not start out loving salt because let me tell you baby foo... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 14:56:12 EST Weight and emotions seem to BFFs! Two things I have heard recently that kind of hit down deep with truth: <BR> <BR> “It’s amazing the power emotion has to distort ones outlook. Makes you wonder, did I have a bad day, or did I make it a bad day?” <BR> <BR> And <BR> <BR> “An emotional foray into negative emotions makes feeling normal that much sweeter.” <BR> <BR> Both of these statements I find to be very true especially to those of us that I emotional eaters. <BR> <BR> I think for most people it takes a breaking poin... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 14:55:21 EST 30 pound loss and green light to chow town.. <BR> <BR> I decided to weigh myself last Wednesday before taking two days off from work for a total of a four day weekend and I came in at 239.5 I was so excited to finally be in the 230s. I went to my doctors on Thursday and she weighed me, her scale came to 238! I was so excited to see that, even better she was looking at my chart and said that last time I was in to see her I was 268 so officially since I last saw her I am 30 pounds lighter hooray! Now one would think that this would insp... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 14:28:16 EST The fat comfortable I am normally not much of a “sweets” person, not to say I don’t enjoy the occasional sweet treat but that usually doesn’t cause me to fall of the wagon oh no it is salty I have the hardest time with normally. Today has been different I had a somewhat spicy salad for lunch and I am craving something sweet something fierce! <BR> Also after eating I am super tired which usually only happens after a serious carb meal but today I had a salad with shrimp and I feel like I could take a nap on deman... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 17:13:12 EST Yikes did that just happen?!?! Ok so I am actually starting to dislike holidays like Valentine’s day and really it’s mostly because they are so surrounded by tons of calories! Food is such an anchor in society it is exhausting, This whole week I am having a hard time keeping focused with everything going on around me I actually seem to only be focusing on the lost and unfortunate things not the good, so I thought I would write out both so I could see for myself. <BR> <BR> This week I had planned to be really good eat wit... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 13:02:32 EST Mental blocks oh my! It seems I am losing steam mentally and sorta physically… I am not anywhere near giving up I am just not so on it like I was when I started, I guess it is all very exhausting as I am moving so I don’t feel like I have the time to exercise (which I know is a big fat excuse) also my mom has been sick so I have been going to her house and last minute having to figure something out for everyone for dinner to help out, at this point I am starving so it is a recipe for disaster! Usually she is well... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 14:33:09 EST Light bulb moment! A co-worker of mine was waiting while I dug around in my purse for a couple quarters, she notices that I keep apparently weird things in my purse like honey sticks and I kid you not a packet of tuna… or a baggie of cracker-chips and sometimes an apple lol I had to explain that I often forget to eat then I am out away from my desk or home where I have plenty of healthy choices and the alternative to these weirdo purse items would be stopping at fast food. Since I get irrationally hungry I’m li... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 18:52:55 EST Slacking January is over and ta-da 13lbs down! I was actually content with having lost 10lbs for January and a little afraid to weight myself today because my son was sick and well I found every reason in the world not to exercise this week… I still managed to watch my calories fairly close so I think that was my saving grace. I reluctantly stepped on the scale and another 3lbs down I was so relieved. <BR> <BR> I think the hard part for me right now is even though the scale is showing change I can’t... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 18:02:48 EST Off the richter! I had a great weight in this week, I actually waited which took more self-control than counting calories! I lost 3 lbs. according to one scale and 4 according to another either one is a great loss and if I can manage to lose 3-4lbs next week that would put me at my goal of 10 for the month of January! Last week I only lost about 1.5lbs which is a great loss to so I won’t be upset if that is what I accomplish next week it’s simply science but not exact to every one person the results vary som... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 12:14:01 EST Frustrated with my family!! So today I checked out another calorie counting website as I had heard that they show you the calorie deficit and all, like how much I eat vs. how much I exercise (still don’t quite understand and would like to know how much I actually need to burn during the day without going over board and not losing weight because I am not eating enough to compensate…it’s all so confusing!) Anyways this other site seemed to tell me that if I eat 1360 calories a day mixed with the sedentary work day (desk j... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 16:22:56 EST Crazy food addict I honestly don’t think there is anything to describe hunger better than weight watchers hungry monster commercials, I have never identified with something so much lol So I am finding out the depth of my boredom eating, yesterday I wasn’t really hungry at all but I just couldn’t stop myself from snacking! I just kept mindlessly shoveling it in, of course my snacking choices were a lot better than they use to be (before I would eat candy, chips and sugary snacks now I am snacking on fruit and ... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 13:37:39 EST Unfabulous funk day I’m in a serious funk today.. I didn’t do too awful over the weekend in fact Saturday I was a exercise beast but Sunday I stayed within my calories even though I had a small burger which by the way almost killed me! I felt like I was dying 20 minutes after I ate it. I think the funk might be because I didn’t exercise yesterday? Perhaps I am just missing my huge shot of endorphins, but today I just felt very negative which is a first for me during this lifestyle change I’m usually fairly excit... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 17:03:46 EST A little tired but still shining on. So last night was the first time in nearly two weeks that I was not at all feeling getting a good workout and I am pretty sure the only reason I did was because it was my weight (circuit) training night and I didn’t want to miss it. Seriously I put all my energy into it but I was just in a workout funk last night. I did an hour and a half but I still was upset at myself for skipping out on the cardio I just felt like I couldn’t do it last night. This kinda made me fear that I was losing steam... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 13:22:37 EST Another day of change! First off I have to say how much I love and appreciate all the wonderful people here on SP, I had decided to blog to keep myself active in journaling my journey and keeping motivated even when I am not feeling so up to par. I always use to think that when writing on a site like this that I had to put my true daily feelings aside and be super positive all the time and wish everyone to have a super sparkly day however, I have come to find after reading others blogs that these are real people wi... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 15:02:32 EST Today... I have been doing really good with consistent work outs for almost two weeks and for some crazy reason I seem to think I should be able to see instant results lol I know this isn’t the way and I know that I might actually see an increase on the scale due to my weight training, I think it’s kinda like finding out you are pregnant first your body goes through this place where you just look fat… no one can tell you are pregnant there is just some serious bloating happening… That is how I am feel... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 14:26:46 EST Rambling I sometimes wonder if I am better off not knowing some things… <BR> <BR> Like my ex-boyfriend, never really gave me a reason for our break up a couple months ago.. it blindsided me and he wants to remain friends and a little more to be honest which on one hand kills me but on the other helps in a weird way.. I’m sure this makes me sound crazy. I already knew he has serious commitment issues and it seems like he is having a hard time letting me go but deep down my negative inner voice tells m... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 17:48:37 EST Week two: Making a break through! Week two: <BR> <BR> So this week has been fairly easy which is a little alarming seeing as my second week is usually one of the toughest for me in the past, my sugar cravings are at an all-time low which is a huge blessing! Usually I have a couple friends who want to go out to eat during lunch a couple times a week and most of them have been so considerate and encouraging for me to keep at it with bringing my lunch, I think it was important for a part of me to realize I am not depriving mys... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 12:30:43 EST deadlines I have been thinking a lot about what motivates me and how some people will use certain big events to get themselves motivated. For me this has yet to work, last year I really wanted to lose weight by my birthday but that came and went without any commitment, change or weight loss. Now I am looking at my upcoming 10 year high school reunion which is a little nerve racking I must admit. I am trying to use this as motivation as I want nothing more than to look amazing in front of all these peop... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 17:17:31 EST "Shark Week" I often refer to my period as "shark week" the are very clear parallels for this nickname of the time of month for me as I often want to destroy people and eat everything in sight! <BR> <BR> Today at work there was a table full of cookies... seriously full of cookies and I have never wanted to go over to a table more and throw all the cookies to the floor and stomp on them in protest... the weird thing is I don't even want the cookies it's just that they are there... the very presence of th... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 23:09:25 EST A new year It was once said “Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365 page book, write a good one.” <BR> <BR> So here I am writing a good year, I normally don’t place much into new year’s resolutions only because I think I always set myself up for a fall but I truly feel this year is my year. I am walking into this year with a whole lot to look forward to. In September 2011 my boyfriend that I had fallen completely in love with broke up with me and I was devastated as sad as I was and still am this h... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 17:54:46 EST Changes In previous relationships I was always doing everything by myself, I had to be self motivated and it was hard with someone who was not supportive or with someone who was supportive but wasn't very helpful. Now I can say I am very lucky to have a very important person in my life that encourages me and helps me keep going. <BR> <BR> The stress at work is just so bad right now but through all of it I still want to eat healthy and drink lots of water... normally I would have told myself I deser... Wed, 12 Oct 2011 14:01:15 EST A new season This year has had a lot of emotional and mental changes for me. In February I had decided to rejoin spark people I was pumped and doing great for a while then I took my eyes off the prize to focus on the obstacles in my life that were happening at the time. I then stumbled across a program I thought sounded really great and it is burn the fat not the muscle, I loved everything about this program and again I was pumped I was dropping weight and feeling amazing again I started to focus more on ... Wed, 5 Oct 2011 18:46:47 EST 30 Day Photo Challenge Blog - Day 2 Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest. <BR> <BR> I chose two pictures of me with two different people for this one. <BR> <BR> The first one is my mom (Lynn) I know she is the obvious canidate for this one but I chose her mostly because my mom truly is the closest person to me and has been so since well forever, she is my closest friend, sure we disagree and argue sometimes but no one knows me like she does and truly listens like she does. She makes... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 13:00:05 EST 30 Day Photo Challenge Blog - Day 1 I've seen this in a few other Sparkers blogs and decided to participate too! Basically this is a daily blog where you post a photo based on the guidelines below: <BR> <BR> Day 01- A recent picture of yourself <BR> Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest <BR> Day 03 - A picture of your inspiration for weight loss <BR> Day 04 - A picture of the cast of your favorite TV show <BR> Day 05 - A picture of your favorite animal <BR> Day 06 - A picture of ... Wed, 9 Feb 2011 22:06:23 EST Reasons I just thought I would write a blog mostly because I would like to look back in a year and read what I was thinking at the time. why I decided to change. <BR> <BR> I remember last year about this time I thought "I'm going to lose weight before my birthday (april 30th) and wear a new dress for my birthday" well I didn't achieve that goal in fact I never even attempted a weight loss or even adopted any good habits in fact shortly after I found a new job and started one of the worst habits I h... Fri, 28 Jan 2011 15:17:11 EST