THEETSYBAY's SparkPeople Blog THEETSYBAY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community OK So I'm having issues I gained weight at my last weigh-in, but my right leg was swollen nearly twice its size. Yes, that's my surgical side. It's been 9 months since my reconstructive foot surgery. I thought I was doing really well. <BR> <BR> At my monthly check-in, my dr was so concerned that I might have a blood clot that he sent me over to the hospital, and had me wait for the results. He said if they found one they'd admit me. Luckily?? they did not find a clot, but it didn't explain the swelling. Luckily... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 19:53:34 EST Learning to eat It's like we're being born again, needing to learn how to eat. I keep thinking that. Babies have to learn how to eat and it takes a long time for them to learn and adjust. <BR> <BR> After my father had a stroke, besides learning how to walk & talk again, he had to learn how to eat. <BR> <BR> I'm just too impatient... Fri, 6 May 2016 11:54:54 EST WOW WOW...all I can say. <BR> <BR> I feel full, I feel like I'm eating...and I'm losing weight. <BR> <BR> Just...WOW. <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> Fri, 29 Apr 2016 13:22:05 EST Wow, what a difference. So we went out for Soul Food after mom's doctor's appointments. I really should have ordered just a side dish but it just looked & smelled SO good! Leftovers are good, right? <BR> <BR> I told mom that this one meal would feed me for 3 days. <BR> <BR> I ate about half of the mashed potatoes & gravy, and didn't even drink the entire glass of water. <BR> <BR> WOW! Never thought I'd eat this little & feel satisfied. <em>334</em> Wed, 27 Apr 2016 16:01:39 EST My eyes are now officially bigger than my stomach! OK so I'm still at the stage where I think I should be eating more. I see the amount of food I'm allowed to eat and think "Oh that won't be enough" so I dish out more, then can't even finish half of it. <BR> <BR> I wonder how much longer it will take until I actually believe everything my doctors have been telling me. <BR> <BR> A few months ago, I started cooking about half as much as I used to for my mom & me. Now it'll have to be a quarter...or just single servings for us to share, since ... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 17:38:24 EST OK I gave up I had gastric sleeve surgery on April 11th. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> How anyone could say that I didn't need it is beyond me. <BR> <BR> This will be very difficult but obtainable. I'm sore and am experiencing new feelings. I guess this is what being full feels like? I'm still bloated too. Will be glad when all the gas has escaped. Sun, 17 Apr 2016 00:05:21 EST 2 days left Yes I was cheating a little...but I'm down 12 pounds since 3/28. <BR> <BR> My mom says I should just stick with this. Is she nuts? I'm dying! I want to eat SO badly! I am hungry! One tiny "lean & green" meal a day is not enough. <BR> <BR> She says I'm acting like I have more energy. OMG, all I want to do is go back to bed. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is the last day of the VLCD so it excludes the one meal...nothing but liquids from here on out. Sat, 9 Apr 2016 16:37:52 EST 12 days Well I went to the Dr yesterday and kind-of got yelled at for not following the VLCD properly. <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> I *HAVE* to eat 6 times a day, every 2 hours. <BR> <BR> And skipping a meal isn't an option. Wed, 30 Mar 2016 10:40:17 EST Coundown: 13 days OK now I sound like one of those ditzy skinny girls: I forgot to eat yesterday, <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I forgot my afternoon snack of sugar free jello & my after dinner protein shake.That's 1/3 of my daily food allowance. <BR> <BR> Oops... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 11:35:15 EST VLCD starts today 14 days on a very low calorie diet. <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>249</em> <BR> <BR> I can do this. Mon, 28 Mar 2016 04:14:02 EST Happy New Year...I give up I give up trying <BR> <BR> In the immortal words of Yoda: <BR> <BR> Do <BR> or do not <BR> there is no try Wed, 6 Jan 2016 11:26:03 EST REALLY need to vent Surgery on requires someone to be there with me. <BR> <BR> I am a nervous wreck. My mom can't drive any more. <BR> <BR> My sister originally said she'd scheduled the day off, once I told her what time I had to be there she asked who was driving me. <BR> <BR> WTF?!?!? <BR> <BR> She now says I can drive myself and they come back & pick up my car. I'll be damned if I'm letting her touch my car! Sat, 19 Sep 2015 20:04:04 EST OK I can honestly say that I'm getting better... well maybe better isn't the proper word. <BR> <BR> More observant? <BR> More in tune? <BR> <BR> IDK what to call it, but eating small meals more often, chewing thoroughly, and real, really focusing on what and how I eat, well I think it's finally paid off. <BR> <BR> After 54 years, I can finally tell when I feel full. <BR> <BR> What a revelation. <BR> <BR> If I'd not done any of this research, I'd just keep on eating... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 21:58:10 EST The little engine... I'm still chugging along. <BR> <BR> Yesterday mom asked me if I'd lost any weight. I said IDK since I hate weighing myself lately. But decided I needed to keep track again. So I did...not sure how I compare to myself. <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I mean, I should've weighed myself before I went for my initial consultation. However, my weight is within a half pound of when I last weighed myself here. Now to find out when that was... <BR> <BR> Also, I went to see my nephrologist on Thursd... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 15:48:11 EST All things considered... I'm doing OK. I'm much more conscious of what I'm eating and when. I've set an alarm to remind me to eat every 2 hours. I'm chewing, chewing, chewing! <BR> <BR> I went grocery shopping yesterday & bought yogurt, cottage cheese, protein bars, cereal, etc...things that were on the list of "approved" foods. <BR> <BR> Now to convince myself that I don't want any of the potato chips mom bought. <BR> <BR> Wed, 26 Aug 2015 16:34:02 EST OK, here I go's the last time to start over OK I need to write every day. I need to get in the habit of recording my food. And I need to pay attention to myself and what I eat. <BR> <BR> I set alarms to remind me to eat every 2 hours during the day. <BR> <BR> "Why" do you ask? <BR> <BR> I went to see a bariatric surgeon. Well, more than just the surgeon. It's a full -service office. Not just bariatric surgery, they also offer dr assisted diets. <BR> <BR> My initial appointment took close to 4 hours. In that time, I saw a nurse, re... Mon, 24 Aug 2015 13:49:16 EST I really need to vent I need a break. <BR> <BR> I FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY got my sister to agree to take my mom out. To take her shopping. Mom says she needs new shoes & clothes. <BR> FINALLY <BR> FINALLY! <BR> <BR> They're not going. <BR> So I asked my mom why not. <BR> Yada sister won't use the wheelchair. My sister won't take her where she wants to go. My sister would make her spend more money. It would turn into a shopping trip for my sister. <BR> <BR> bottom line: <BR> Mom would rather go shoppi... Sun, 28 Jun 2015 16:25:08 EST I'm not alone... I need to save this link... <BR> <BR> How Overeating Becomes Food Addiction <BR> <BR> Emotional eating is not always "just" emotional eating. Sometimes, it is a full-fledged addiction with obvious - and very serious - consequences. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>?title=How+Overeating+Becomes+Food+Add<BR>iction+&blid=16302 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> Don’t Let Fear Stall Your Weight Loss <BR> <BR> <link><BR>?title=Don%92t+L... Mon, 15 Jun 2015 20:38:29 EST I may have found it... I was getting ready to post that I may have found my motivation: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> But then another opportunity presented itself. <BR> <em>26</em> <em>129</em> <BR> he's really nice & cute & protective & British... <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> so keeping my fingers crossed for this one. Thu, 14 May 2015 23:55:42 EST ...and now for something completely different or completely the same. I'm not sure. <BR> <BR> But I do know that I can't continue living like this. If I don't change, nothing will. <BR> <BR> So what is stopping me? <BR> <BR> What am I afraid of? <BR> <BR> Am I afraid of staying in pain? <BR> <BR> Am I happy in staying like this and constantly hiding under men's XL shirts? <BR> <BR> Am I afraid of actually being seen as desirable? <BR> <BR> No matter how badly I want to be svelt, what's holding me back? <BR> <BR> Do I not feel li... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 20:37:29 EST day 7 of Lent...IDK where I got 40 days from <em>2</em> <BR> IDK why I thought Lent only lasted for 40 days. Wishful thinking? <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> Ok so this is now how much can I lose by Easter, and can I remember to type here every day. <BR> <BR> Headache is gone but it lasted nearly 5 days. <BR> Went to Scheck & Sirus to get my shoes adjusted but they still hurt my feet. I just want to be able to walk pain free, or even with a lot less pain. <BR> <BR> So I've been weighing myself & taking my BP everyday since a nurs... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 19:29:44 EST Day 2/40 Well it started off pretty darned poopy. I gained weight FFS. <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> I woke up with a really bad headache yesterday and it's still lingering today. <BR> <BR> Lunch is a bowl of grits. <BR> Not sure about dinner yet. <BR> <BR> I put the peanuts away since the only reason I ate them was that they were on the end table in the den while I was watching Nashville. <BR> <BR> My doctor doubled my BP meds but it's actually higher. I thought that maybe I have a headache bec... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 15:50:06 EST Day 1/40 Yes it was yesterday but I forgot to post. <BR> <BR> I thought I did better, I know I ate better. No candy or snacks, just a handful of dry roasted peanuts. <BR> <BR> Lunch was leftover Dirty Rice. <BR> Dinner was black eyed peas. <BR> Then the peanuts. <BR> Lots of plain iced tea. <BR> <BR> Can't really exercise as my feet hurt way too bad, but I stretched a little. <BR> <BR> Baby steps. Thu, 19 Feb 2015 15:43:41 EST OK so... Trying to meet someone online is not easy...nor cheap. eHarmony, and even a Catholic dating site yield nothing but aggravation. <BR> <BR> So I'm going to put that on hold for a while and concentrate on me. <BR> <BR> Here's my plan: Lent. <BR> <BR> 40 well, no junk. <BR> <BR> Take it one day at a time. <BR> <BR> One meal at a time. <BR> <BR> One workout at a time. <BR> <BR> Even a bad workout is better than none. Sun, 15 Feb 2015 23:05:07 EST Need to talk to someone... I can't vent on my fb page since my family reads it. <BR> <BR> I just really need to talk or write things out. <BR> <BR> I met a really nice guy online and he's nearly everything I need emotionally. We've not yet met in real life but he really wants to. Here's the issue, and I know it will make me sound like a heartless bitch: he's been in a wheelchair since a bad car accident when he was 17. So he can't give me what I need physically. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> I need someone who can take ... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 13:21:28 EST Major victory! OK so yesterday was one of the most emotionally draining days I’ve had in at least 14 months... <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> Here's my fb status & comments: <BR> Just saw my kids. They came to take my mom out to lunch. My daughter gave me a dirty look when I went to the door, but she spoke to me. My son just gave me looks that could kill. Haven't seen him since he turned 18 in April of 2013. I can't remember when I last saw her...maybe Christmas of 2012. --feeling very lost without them. <BR> x... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 14:53:59 EST OK so I REALLY suck at this... I had my second weigh-in and couldn't believe I'd lost more weight. That did make me happy tho seeing as I ate out a few times. <BR> <BR> But this week totally sucks because of Memorial Day weekend. I totally pigged out on Saturday--I allowed myself that day. Then was OK on Sunday but just...I don't know what happened yesterday. <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> The half-eaten bowls of chips were just sitting there... <BR> <em>4</em> <BR> Bowls of chex mix & kettle chips & guacamole flavored chi... Tue, 27 May 2014 18:04:23 EST Day 4 of Jenny Craig & I suck... So Tuesday my sister & I attended a Town Hall meeting with Bruce Rauner. I was not expecting to dine, but some of her friends met us there so they opted to meet at a bagel-type restaurant. I had a salad with balsamic vinegarette dressing. Off the plan already! <BR> <em>198</em> Tue, 20 May 2014 19:11:44 EST OK I admit I need help Hello. My name is Betsy. I'm a carbaholic. <BR> <BR> I'm human...I'm weak...I fall, I get up...I gain, I lose...I gain it back. <BR> <BR> I can't keep this yo-yo going tho, it's very unhealthy. <BR> <BR> I went back to Jenny Craig yesterday. They have normal food in the right proportions. I need to be encouraged with more than my mom asking "How's your weight?" <BR> <BR> A workout buddy would be nice, but that won't happen with my schedule...a virtual one could tho. <BR> <BR> I'd rather... Sat, 17 May 2014 13:44:34 EST UGH I need to get back to weighing myself & making journal entries daily. Thu, 8 May 2014 10:21:07 EST Welcome to 2014 OK so I got off-track. yes I know, but I intended to. I knew that there was no way that I could go thru the holidays with all the baking I do and NOT eat any of it, so I allowed myself from between Thanksgiving and New Year's to indulge, so to say. <BR> <BR> Yes it was good. <BR> Yes I enjoyed it. <BR> <BR> And yes I have lost nearly all of it. Sun, 19 Jan 2014 14:07:14 EST *O*M*G* OMG!! <BR> i AM ECSTATIC!! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> I've not posted in a while, sorry about that... <BR> But a long distance friend of mine & I have been walking every day since before Labor Day. On Friday I walked nearly 3 miles, which i amazing for me. <BR> <em>43</em> <BR> The big news is that not only are all of my summer clothes too big for me... <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> I am back into my clothes I was wearing in 2006! <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> They're still a little tight but... ... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 13:45:19 EST Nearly lost it I went out with one of my GFs for dinner on Thursday and when I got home, my sister ripped me a new a$$hole--pardon my language but it was THAT bad! <BR> <BR> I can't even get into all that happened, just suffice it to say that I took a clonazepam & washed it down with a very weak vodka & tonic leftover from the day before. <BR> <BR> It took me this long to confront her about it. You can't talk to her, she doesn't listen. She is just like my dad: when he got mad at her, he'd take it out on ... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 15:55:24 EST Damn family I took my niece shopping yesterday & we went to Victoria's Secret. I figure since I've lost 40 pounds (well 43 as of today!) I could splurge a little and buy something feminine. So I bought this shirt: <BR> <BR><BR>view-all-tops/graphic-baseball-tee?Pro<BR>ductID=130764&CatalogueType=OLS <BR> <BR> So I"m feeling really good about myself...until I show my mom. I'm wearing it today. It hsa the number 10 on the front and the word ANGEL on the back. She ... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 18:59:04 EST AHHHH!!!!!! *HAPPY SCREAM* He loves me! <BR> Sat, 10 Aug 2013 18:48:20 EST Not checked in nor weighed in a while... Down a total of 40 pounds. <BR> <BR> 10 more will be good. <BR> <BR> 20 even better. <BR> <BR> 30 would be overkill... Sat, 10 Aug 2013 17:53:18 EST post wedding blues... So I looked really REALLY good...yet no pics of me. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> I had to take one of myself in the ladies room at the reception. <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> all these people with cameras & camera phones and no pics... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> and it's not even that good of a pic either Sun, 30 Jun 2013 04:29:20 EST I won't let my sister pull me down! <em>337</em> <BR> OK so if you've been following me at all, you know my cousin's wedding is today. It's a good hour's drive away so my (huge) family of 5 will ride together--that's my mom, sister, BIL, niece & me. Part of my mom & me would like for us to drive separately, but then I wouldn't be able to have a drink. <BR> <em>181</em> <BR> Anyway, the biggest car, aka The Old Man Mobile since it was my father's station wagon, will comfortable hold all of us but it has n air conditioning... Sat, 29 Jun 2013 09:57:44 EST Woo-hoo!! Almost made my goal! <em>337</em> <BR> So my cousin's wedding is tomorrow & I'm within 2 pounds of where SP says I should be. <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> Down 38 pounds!! <BR> <em>334</em> <em>224</em> <em>244</em> <BR> Definite photo ops tomorrow!!! <BR> <em>388</em> Fri, 28 Jun 2013 15:50:13 EST I am *SO* excited! My cousin's wedding (well, actually he's my first cousin once removed--my cousin's son) is Saturday and I'm down nearly 37 pounds!! <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> I'm just so excited since I've not seen my cousins since Christmas! <BR> <em>30</em> <BR> I am 3.9 pounds higher than where SP says I should be, but I'm still pretty happy about it! <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> More importantly, I am 3.9 pounds higher than were I was in 2006 when I looked fantastic! <BR> <em>43</em> <BR> The big dif... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 12:52:04 EST Maybe I'm the one... <link> </link> Wed, 19 Jun 2013 15:28:43 EST My #%&(*%^# family... If we could choose our families, my sisters would be Jill & Michelle, for we love each other unconditionally & non-judgementally. <BR> <em>129</em> <BR> But since I'm stuck with who I have, I just have to suffer through... <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> Instead of being happy for my losing 36 pounds, my sister has yet to acknowledge anything as she is too jealous. <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> While she has been supportive, today my mother told me that she thinks it's time I stopped losing weight.... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 14:46:43 EST A giant leap...can I do it again? Well I'm proud of myself...I think I made a huge improvement last night. Someone upset me (not important as to what they did since in the realm of the universe it's really insignificant) so I did what I normally do, I went to the kitchen. My stomach was growling, as I'd not eaten much all day, I was so ready to just eat anything...everything...whatever I could shove into my mouth. But I stopped myself and asked, how is my eating going to affect them? Just because they did something that upset... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 12:28:37 EST OMG I can't believe I forgot to post this! On Saturday, we went to a 90th birthday party for a dear friend. When I was getting dressed to go, I tried on all kids of clothes that I'd not worn either ever or in a while. Before Christmas, I bought a pair of skinny jeans off eBay and they were SO tiny that thre's no way they'd ever fit me. So I thought I"d give them to my 14 y.o niece. They were too big on her, of course--she's tiny. <BR> <em>20</em> <BR> So when I was getting ready, I looked for black pants & grabbed those skinny jea... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 16:51:01 EST *PHEW* Working in the garden is great exercise!! <em>193</em> <BR> I told my mom that if the number on the scale didn't drop (from all the work I did outside yesterday) that I'd throw it out the window! <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> I'm down a total of 30 pounds!! <BR> <em>334</em> <em>224</em> <em>48</em> <em>335</em> Mon, 27 May 2013 14:59:25 EST OMG!! Whoa!! <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> Seriously, I can pull my jeans off without unzipping them! <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> It was purely unconscious on my part, but once I realized I'd done it, I yelled (from the bathroom) what I'd just done!! <BR> <em>246</em> <BR> I can't wait to go shopping for new clothes!!! <BR> <em>204</em> <BR> I'm getting a new hairstyle on Thursday, too. <BR> <em>193</em> <BR> And check out my pounds lost ticker! <BR> <em>334</em> Sat, 25 May 2013 15:15:03 EST I need my kids to read this: <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>translation.asp?id=384 </link> Sun, 19 May 2013 23:51:38 EST I back! I'm back in my blue jeans again! (Steven Tyler's singing for me) I haven't been posting much lately due to many personal issues--mostly my kids. We also got 6 feet of water in the basement and are still struggling. <BR> <em>33</em> <BR> However, I won't let any of that ruin me nor put me down. <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> No matter what happens today, nobody can take this feeling away from me. <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> are you sitting down?? <BR> <em>38</em> <BR> THE FIRST DIGIT ON THE SCALE IS A 1 AGAIN!!! <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> Now to get the ... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 14:04:01 EST CHECK OUT MY TICKER! TA-DA! (That was my awesome news) <BR> <em>224</em> <em>334</em> <BR> Plus: <BR> <em>503</em> <BR> And as an added bonus: <BR> after M & I dined out on Tuesday, I stopped at Sam's and picked up a pair of shorts, size 14! <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> Thu, 11 Apr 2013 13:42:05 EST Well, phooey!! But I'm on the right track!! <BR> <em>224</em> <em>334</em> <BR> &#9833; &#9834; &#9835; &#9836; Slow & steady wins the race! &#9833; &#9834; &#9835; &#9836; Mon, 8 Apr 2013 13:12:29 EST