THEETSYBAY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=THEETSYBAY THEETSYBAY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 1 year follow-up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6347036 OK so I have my 1-year post gastric sleeve follow-up appointment today. I'll be wearing the same outfit I did for my initial appointment. <BR> <BR> I'm ambivalent about it. I know that I have lost weight because my clothes are too big, but I also know that I've either gained or not lost any since my last visit three months ago. <BR> <BR> *SIGH* <BR> <BR> We'll see...one thing I know for certain is that I will never go back to my pre-surgical weight. Tue, 11 Apr 2017 12:09:01 EST Motivation? Or a deeper issue? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344657 OK so I'm 11 pounds from my goal, and have been for 3 months or so. IDK if I've lost my desire to continue or not. <BR> <BR> Is it a psychological issue...how badly do I want it? Do I even want it? I know what to do I just don't do it. It's definitely an addiction. <BR> <BR> I have my 1 year follow up in 5 days and it's like I don't care. I'm not even trying. Thu, 6 Apr 2017 12:09:42 EST Well shoot!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6343177 My cousin died last week so we needed to make a trip to Tennessee. It was great to see my relatives but such a horrible reason why. <BR> <BR> I just realized tho that I missed checking in one day and blew my sign in streak. Mon, 3 Apr 2017 12:46:05 EST HOW & WHY? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6329572 I keep getting told by my dietician and I keep reading articles about waiting 30 minutes between eating & drinking. <BR> <BR> But why? Why must I not drink for 90 minutes? How do I drink anything if I'm only allowed a 30-minute period 90 minutes apart? <BR> <BR> I think my hardest habit to break is drinking while I'm eating! I've tried to make sure that I consume very moist foods, but that doesn't always help. I still need water to wash down my food. <BR> <BR> So WHY do I have to wait 30 m... Wed, 8 Mar 2017 04:35:52 EST I found this helpful article http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6329280 Now all I have to do is stop eating popcorn... <BR> <BR> <link>www.5daypouchtest.com/articles/art00<BR>5.html </link> Tue, 7 Mar 2017 13:00:05 EST Added exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6313130 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c2faf31d-d741-4767-a47a-e09e275fee35.jpg"> Okay so I bought this combination recumbent bike and elliptical from walmart.com. It took me a few hours to put it together but I did. Getting the box into the house was harder than putting it together since it weighs 142 pounds. That was a better workout than either the bike or the elliptical. So today I did 20 minutes on the bike and could only do 5 minutes on the elliptical before my legs felt like ... Wed, 8 Feb 2017 23:13:41 EST Follow up coming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6306302 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ad83b090-ed6e-406d-a37d-27922f8e7109.jpg"> <BR> No matter what they tell me, I won't get upset. I made my choices. Fri, 27 Jan 2017 15:17:02 EST 9 month follow-up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6305108 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a5c58ffe-0cf2-43d4-b36d-9d48f2536ab4.jpg"> <BR> So I have my 9 month follow-up appointment on Friday afternoon & I was doing really well until this past weekend. I believe I am an addict. Hello, my name is Betsy (hi Betsy!) I am addicted to food...more specifically, unhealthy food. I get horrible cravings & I KNOW I should not eat it. I do all the things to get my mind off of it and yet I still go through with eating. I haven't been eating ch... Wed, 25 Jan 2017 14:25:32 EST The countdown continues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6300649 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c1f3347a-ead7-42c5-be7e-b7f5f5d0571b.jpg"> <BR> So this is how I broke down my main (huge) goal into something far more manageable & realistic. I also wrote positive reminders along with negative, in my attempt to be realistic. Is it working? I believe so. Will I reach the goal my doctors set for me? Probably not but I'm in this for the long haul. Wed, 18 Jan 2017 11:51:48 EST Mid-month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6298127 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/93ff60f1-d7a1-4d05-86db-a8978e693bf0.jpg"> <BR> The question before me is not CAN I do it? the real question is: WILL I do it? Sat, 14 Jan 2017 17:47:02 EST Still doing OK http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6294572 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c0ed6106-f2a9-4bda-9cdc-8fff45e010cd.jpg"> Went to my cousin's on Saturday so I didn't follow my plan, but hey! I don't feel deprived and I'm being realistic. I know that saying "add more" isn't right, that you should be specific. I also know that I don't weigh my food. Saying "add more" reminds me to do it. Mon, 9 Jan 2017 12:14:10 EST Day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6291950 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9476cf34-350b-44b4-ac2b-6abc5c5d70d7.jpg"> <BR> One day at a time, right? Thu, 5 Jan 2017 13:34:52 EST My daily reminder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6291949 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/4deb4d70-418e-48a5-b9d0-654cfe72d6e2.jpg"> <BR> 4 days so far, before I added today's Thu, 5 Jan 2017 13:32:51 EST Off to a decent start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6291704 OK so I'm still not good at writing every day. I do write it in my head but neglect to put it to paper (so to say). <BR> <BR> I'm adding a new habit or deleting an old one every day this month. <BR> Here's what I have so far: <BR> <BR> 1st: Drink more water <BR> 2nd: no soda <BR> 3rd: no salty snacks <BR> 4th: Protein at each meal <BR> <BR> and today's is <BR> 5th: make 2 more trips up & down the stairs <BR> <BR> We have these bright green dry erase memo board stickers that I hung up in o... Thu, 5 Jan 2017 06:59:24 EST Welcome 2017 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6288619 I know this site works and i know it freely offers tons of support, but it won't work unless I use it. <BR> <BR> It's like I used to tell my students: <BR> <BR> There's nothing the teacher can do which will overcome what the student will not do. <BR> <BR> It was actually a poster on the wall of my orthodontist's office 50 years ago...substitute doctor for teacher and patient for student, but it's the same meaning. <BR> <BR> So everything is in my hands. I am the only person who can help m... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 11:58:05 EST OK So I'm having issues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6189030 I gained weight at my last weigh-in, but my right leg was swollen nearly twice its size. Yes, that's my surgical side. It's been 9 months since my reconstructive foot surgery. I thought I was doing really well. <BR> <BR> At my monthly check-in, my dr was so concerned that I might have a blood clot that he sent me over to the hospital, and had me wait for the results. He said if they found one they'd admit me. Luckily?? they did not find a clot, but it didn't explain the swelling. Luckily... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 19:53:34 EST Learning to eat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6157585 It's like we're being born again, needing to learn how to eat. I keep thinking that. Babies have to learn how to eat and it takes a long time for them to learn and adjust. <BR> <BR> After my father had a stroke, besides learning how to walk & talk again, he had to learn how to eat. <BR> <BR> I'm just too impatient... Fri, 6 May 2016 11:54:54 EST WOW http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6152891 WOW...all I can say. <BR> <BR> I feel full, I feel like I'm eating...and I'm losing weight. <BR> <BR> Just...WOW. <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> Fri, 29 Apr 2016 13:22:05 EST Wow, what a difference. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6151577 So we went out for Soul Food after mom's doctor's appointments. I really should have ordered just a side dish but it just looked & smelled SO good! Leftovers are good, right? <BR> <BR> I told mom that this one meal would feed me for 3 days. <BR> <BR> I ate about half of the mashed potatoes & gravy, and didn't even drink the entire glass of water. <BR> <BR> WOW! Never thought I'd eat this little & feel satisfied. <em>334</em> Wed, 27 Apr 2016 16:01:39 EST My eyes are now officially bigger than my stomach! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6150891 OK so I'm still at the stage where I think I should be eating more. I see the amount of food I'm allowed to eat and think "Oh that won't be enough" so I dish out more, then can't even finish half of it. <BR> <BR> I wonder how much longer it will take until I actually believe everything my doctors have been telling me. <BR> <BR> A few months ago, I started cooking about half as much as I used to for my mom & me. Now it'll have to be a quarter...or just single servings for us to share, since ... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 17:38:24 EST OK I gave up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6143928 I had gastric sleeve surgery on April 11th. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/861848aa-d9fe-44ac-a648-02a2ae278472.jpg"> <BR> How anyone could say that I didn't need it is beyond me. <BR> <BR> This will be very difficult but obtainable. I'm sore and am experiencing new feelings. I guess this is what being full feels like? I'm still bloated too. Will be glad when all the gas has escaped. Sun, 17 Apr 2016 00:05:21 EST 2 days left http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6138622 Yes I was cheating a little...but I'm down 12 pounds since 3/28. <BR> <BR> My mom says I should just stick with this. Is she nuts? I'm dying! I want to eat SO badly! I am hungry! One tiny "lean & green" meal a day is not enough. <BR> <BR> She says I'm acting like I have more energy. OMG, all I want to do is go back to bed. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is the last day of the VLCD so it excludes the one meal...nothing but liquids from here on out. Sat, 9 Apr 2016 16:37:52 EST 12 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6130834 Well I went to the Dr yesterday and kind-of got yelled at for not following the VLCD properly. <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> I *HAVE* to eat 6 times a day, every 2 hours. <BR> <BR> And skipping a meal isn't an option. Wed, 30 Mar 2016 10:40:17 EST Coundown: 13 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6130092 OK now I sound like one of those ditzy skinny girls: I forgot to eat yesterday, <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I forgot my afternoon snack of sugar free jello & my after dinner protein shake.That's 1/3 of my daily food allowance. <BR> <BR> Oops... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 11:35:15 EST VLCD starts today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6129082 14 days on a very low calorie diet. <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>249</em> <BR> <BR> I can do this. Mon, 28 Mar 2016 04:14:02 EST Happy New Year...I give up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062083 I give up trying <BR> <BR> In the immortal words of Yoda: <BR> <BR> Do <BR> or do not <BR> there is no try Wed, 6 Jan 2016 11:26:03 EST REALLY need to vent http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000426 Surgery on Monday...hospital requires someone to be there with me. <BR> <BR> I am a nervous wreck. My mom can't drive any more. <BR> <BR> My sister originally said she'd scheduled the day off, once I told her what time I had to be there she asked who was driving me. <BR> <BR> WTF?!?!? <BR> <BR> She now says I can drive myself and they come back & pick up my car. I'll be damned if I'm letting her touch my car! Sat, 19 Sep 2015 20:04:04 EST OK I can honestly say that I'm getting better... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5989899 well maybe better isn't the proper word. <BR> <BR> More observant? <BR> More in tune? <BR> <BR> IDK what to call it, but eating small meals more often, chewing thoroughly, and real, really focusing on what and how I eat, well I think it's finally paid off. <BR> <BR> After 54 years, I can finally tell when I feel full. <BR> <BR> What a revelation. <BR> <BR> If I'd not done any of this research, I'd just keep on eating... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 21:58:10 EST The little engine... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5988194 I'm still chugging along. <BR> <BR> Yesterday mom asked me if I'd lost any weight. I said IDK since I hate weighing myself lately. But decided I needed to keep track again. So I did...not sure how I compare to myself. <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I mean, I should've weighed myself before I went for my initial consultation. However, my weight is within a half pound of when I last weighed myself here. Now to find out when that was... <BR> <BR> Also, I went to see my nephrologist on Thursd... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 15:48:11 EST All things considered... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5985258 I'm doing OK. I'm much more conscious of what I'm eating and when. I've set an alarm to remind me to eat every 2 hours. I'm chewing, chewing, chewing! <BR> <BR> I went grocery shopping yesterday & bought yogurt, cottage cheese, protein bars, cereal, etc...things that were on the list of "approved" foods. <BR> <BR> Now to convince myself that I don't want any of the potato chips mom bought. <BR> <BR> Wed, 26 Aug 2015 16:34:02 EST OK, here I go again...it's the last time to start over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5983889 OK I need to write every day. I need to get in the habit of recording my food. And I need to pay attention to myself and what I eat. <BR> <BR> I set alarms to remind me to eat every 2 hours during the day. <BR> <BR> "Why" do you ask? <BR> <BR> I went to see a bariatric surgeon. Well, more than just the surgeon. It's a full -service office. Not just bariatric surgery, they also offer dr assisted diets. <BR> <BR> My initial appointment took close to 4 hours. In that time, I saw a nurse, re... Mon, 24 Aug 2015 13:49:16 EST I really need to vent http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952289 I need a break. <BR> <BR> I FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY got my sister to agree to take my mom out. To take her shopping. Mom says she needs new shoes & clothes. <BR> FINALLY <BR> FINALLY! <BR> <BR> They're not going. <BR> So I asked my mom why not. <BR> Yada Yada...my sister won't use the wheelchair. My sister won't take her where she wants to go. My sister would make her spend more money. It would turn into a shopping trip for my sister. <BR> <BR> bottom line: <BR> Mom would rather go shoppi... Sun, 28 Jun 2015 16:25:08 EST I'm not alone... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5945746 I need to save this link... <BR> <BR> How Overeating Becomes Food Addiction <BR> <BR> Emotional eating is not always "just" emotional eating. Sometimes, it is a full-fledged addiction with obvious - and very serious - consequences. <BR> <BR> <link>www.diet.com/dietblogs/read_blog.php<BR>?title=How+Overeating+Becomes+Food+Add<BR>iction+&blid=16302 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> Don’t Let Fear Stall Your Weight Loss <BR> <BR> <link>www.diet.com/dietblogs/read_blog.php<BR>?title=Don%92t+Let... Mon, 15 Jun 2015 20:38:29 EST I may have found it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928361 I was getting ready to post that I may have found my motivation: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0f98c4fe-1819-4a74-9bec-34309bb03323.jpg"> <BR> <BR> But then another opportunity presented itself. <BR> <em>26</em> <em>129</em> <BR> he's really nice & cute & protective & British... <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> so keeping my fingers crossed for this one. Thu, 14 May 2015 23:55:42 EST ...and now for something completely different http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916588 or completely the same. I'm not sure. <BR> <BR> But I do know that I can't continue living like this. If I don't change, nothing will. <BR> <BR> So what is stopping me? <BR> <BR> What am I afraid of? <BR> <BR> Am I afraid of staying in pain? <BR> <BR> Am I happy in staying like this and constantly hiding under men's XL shirts? <BR> <BR> Am I afraid of actually being seen as desirable? <BR> <BR> No matter how badly I want to be svelt, what's holding me back? <BR> <BR> Do I not feel li... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 20:37:29 EST day 7 of Lent...IDK where I got 40 days from http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882036 <em>2</em> <BR> IDK why I thought Lent only lasted for 40 days. Wishful thinking? <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> Ok so this is now how much can I lose by Easter, and can I remember to type here every day. <BR> <BR> Headache is gone but it lasted nearly 5 days. <BR> Went to Scheck & Sirus to get my shoes adjusted but they still hurt my feet. I just want to be able to walk pain free, or even with a lot less pain. <BR> <BR> So I've been weighing myself & taking my BP everyday since a nurs... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 19:29:44 EST Day 2/40 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878861 Well it started off pretty darned poopy. I gained weight FFS. <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> I woke up with a really bad headache yesterday and it's still lingering today. <BR> <BR> Lunch is a bowl of grits. <BR> Not sure about dinner yet. <BR> <BR> I put the peanuts away since the only reason I ate them was that they were on the end table in the den while I was watching Nashville. <BR> <BR> My doctor doubled my BP meds but it's actually higher. I thought that maybe I have a headache bec... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 15:50:06 EST Day 1/40 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878857 Yes it was yesterday but I forgot to post. <BR> <BR> I thought I did better, I know I ate better. No candy or snacks, just a handful of dry roasted peanuts. <BR> <BR> Lunch was leftover Dirty Rice. <BR> Dinner was black eyed peas. <BR> Then the peanuts. <BR> Lots of plain iced tea. <BR> <BR> Can't really exercise as my feet hurt way too bad, but I stretched a little. <BR> <BR> Baby steps. Thu, 19 Feb 2015 15:43:41 EST OK so... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5876444 Trying to meet someone online is not easy...nor cheap. eHarmony, match.com and even a Catholic dating site yield nothing but aggravation. <BR> <BR> So I'm going to put that on hold for a while and concentrate on me. <BR> <BR> Here's my plan: Lent. <BR> <BR> 40 days...eat well, no junk. <BR> <BR> Take it one day at a time. <BR> <BR> One meal at a time. <BR> <BR> One workout at a time. <BR> <BR> Even a bad workout is better than none. Sun, 15 Feb 2015 23:05:07 EST Need to talk to someone... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716521 I can't vent on my fb page since my family reads it. <BR> <BR> I just really need to talk or write things out. <BR> <BR> I met a really nice guy online and he's nearly everything I need emotionally. We've not yet met in real life but he really wants to. Here's the issue, and I know it will make me sound like a heartless bitch: he's been in a wheelchair since a bad car accident when he was 17. So he can't give me what I need physically. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> I need someone who can take ... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 13:21:28 EST Major victory! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713502 OK so yesterday was one of the most emotionally draining days I’ve had in at least 14 months... <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> Here's my fb status & comments: <BR> Just saw my kids. They came to take my mom out to lunch. My daughter gave me a dirty look when I went to the door, but she spoke to me. My son just gave me looks that could kill. Haven't seen him since he turned 18 in April of 2013. I can't remember when I last saw her...maybe Christmas of 2012. --feeling very lost without them. <BR> x... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 14:53:59 EST OK so I REALLY suck at this... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704574 I had my second weigh-in and couldn't believe I'd lost more weight. That did make me happy tho seeing as I ate out a few times. <BR> <BR> But this week totally sucks because of Memorial Day weekend. I totally pigged out on Saturday--I allowed myself that day. Then was OK on Sunday but just...I don't know what happened yesterday. <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> The half-eaten bowls of chips were just sitting there... <BR> <em>4</em> <BR> Bowls of chex mix & kettle chips & guacamole flavored chi... Tue, 27 May 2014 18:04:23 EST Day 4 of Jenny Craig & I suck... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699456 So Tuesday my sister & I attended a Town Hall meeting with Bruce Rauner. I was not expecting to dine, but some of her friends met us there so they opted to meet at a bagel-type restaurant. I had a salad with balsamic vinegarette dressing. Off the plan already! <BR> <em>198</em> Tue, 20 May 2014 19:11:44 EST OK I admit I need help http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5697065 Hello. My name is Betsy. I'm a carbaholic. <BR> <BR> I'm human...I'm weak...I fall, I get up...I gain, I lose...I gain it back. <BR> <BR> I can't keep this yo-yo going tho, it's very unhealthy. <BR> <BR> I went back to Jenny Craig yesterday. They have normal food in the right proportions. I need to be encouraged with more than my mom asking "How's your weight?" <BR> <BR> A workout buddy would be nice, but that won't happen with my schedule...a virtual one could tho. <BR> <BR> I'd rather... Sat, 17 May 2014 13:44:34 EST UGH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5690446 I need to get back to weighing myself & making journal entries daily. Thu, 8 May 2014 10:21:07 EST Welcome to 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599024 OK so I got off-track. yes I know, but I intended to. I knew that there was no way that I could go thru the holidays with all the baking I do and NOT eat any of it, so I allowed myself from between Thanksgiving and New Year's to indulge, so to say. <BR> <BR> Yes it was good. <BR> Yes I enjoyed it. <BR> <BR> And yes I have lost nearly all of it. Sun, 19 Jan 2014 14:07:14 EST *O*M*G* http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486254 OMG!! <BR> i AM ECSTATIC!! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> I've not posted in a while, sorry about that... <BR> But a long distance friend of mine & I have been walking every day since before Labor Day. On Friday I walked nearly 3 miles, which i amazing for me. <BR> <em>43</em> <BR> The big news is that not only are all of my summer clothes too big for me... <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> I am back into my clothes I was wearing in 2006! <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> They're still a little tight but... ... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 13:45:19 EST Nearly lost it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5458193 I went out with one of my GFs for dinner on Thursday and when I got home, my sister ripped me a new a$$hole--pardon my language but it was THAT bad! <BR> <BR> I can't even get into all that happened, just suffice it to say that I took a clonazepam & washed it down with a very weak vodka & tonic leftover from the day before. <BR> <BR> It took me this long to confront her about it. You can't talk to her, she doesn't listen. She is just like my dad: when he got mad at her, he'd take it out on ... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 15:55:24 EST Damn family http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5455367 I took my niece shopping yesterday & we went to Victoria's Secret. I figure since I've lost 40 pounds (well 43 as of today!) I could splurge a little and buy something feminine. So I bought this shirt: <BR> <BR> http://www.victoriassecret.com/clothing/<BR>view-all-tops/graphic-baseball-tee?Pro<BR>ductID=130764&CatalogueType=OLS <BR> <BR> So I"m feeling really good about myself...until I show my mom. I'm wearing it today. It hsa the number 10 on the front and the word ANGEL on the back. She ... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 18:59:04 EST AHHHH!!!!!! *HAPPY SCREAM* http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5451083 He loves me! <BR> Sat, 10 Aug 2013 18:48:20 EST