THEETSYBAY's SparkPeople Blog

I need my kids to read this:

Sun, 19 May 2013 23:51:38 EST

www.sparkpeople.com/resource/quotes_
translation.asp?id=384

I back! I'm back in my blue jeans again! (Steven Tyler's singing for me)

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 14:04:01 EST

I haven't been posting much lately due to many personal issues--mostly my kids. We also got 6 feet of water in the basement and are still struggling.
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However, I won't let any of that ruin me nor put me down.
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No matter what happens today, nobody can take this feeling away from me.
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are you sitting down??
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THE FIRST DIGIT ON THE SCALE IS A 1 AGAIN!!!
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Now to get the ...

CHECK OUT MY TICKER!

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 13:42:05 EST

TA-DA! (That was my awesome news)
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Plus:
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And as an added bonus:
after M & I dined out on Tuesday, I stopped at Sam's and picked up a pair of shorts, size 14!
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Well, phooey!!

Mon, 8 Apr 2013 13:12:29 EST

But I'm on the right track!!
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♩ ♪ ♫ ♬ Slow & steady wins the race! ♩ ♪ ♫ ♬

DAMMIT!

Sun, 7 Apr 2013 18:26:05 EST

Hopefully, it'll be tomorrow
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Sorry about that...

I hope I'll have AWESOME news tomorrow!

Sat, 6 Apr 2013 20:26:01 EST

I'm keeping it quiet for now but I hope I'll be doing back-flips tomorrow!

Not because my baby turns 18 either
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VENT

Tue, 2 Apr 2013 00:53:45 EST

Sorry but I have to vent again.

It's not like I have a busy social life...right now, pretty much everything revolves around my family. So when I received a shower invitation in the mail today, I was elated! I thought "Oh good, another goal date!" and "I wonder what I'll wear? Maybe the new dress I got for Easter! Just think how much better it'll look on me in 4 more weeks!"
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Then my bubble burst.

My mom informed me that none of our side of the f...

"The Rolling Stones" diet

Wed, 27 Mar 2013 16:43:24 EST

I came up with it this morning:

You can't always eat what you want.
You can't always eat what you want.
You can't always eat what you want.
But if you try sometimes
you just might find
you eat what you need!

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Atkins day 13

Thu, 21 Mar 2013 13:36:09 EST

I just passed 20 pounds!
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I guess I finally realized what works for me: Atkins. It's a great jump-start and it does curb my cravings; however, it is not a long term solution for me.

I printed a "Lenten countdown" calendar to try to keep myself on track for 40 days, but you can guess what happened.
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I had to write a note on it that reads, "Lenten countDOWN, not UP!"
and
"What are you trying to do? See how much you can GAI...

Induction day 4

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 23:29:41 EST

I suppose I should change my start date yet again...I can't believe how much I gained.
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When I'm in a slump, I'm really in a slump...
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I need to vent here:
I don't know why I let my ex get under my skin, I just have to keep reminding myself that he's an EX for a reason! And thank God I don't have to live with him any more. At least my family FINALLY agrees that divorcing him was not a bad thing--it was just what I did afterwards that was...

OK here we go again....

Fri, 8 Mar 2013 17:14:43 EST

Since I don't seem to be able to control my urge to eat, I've decided to go back on Atkins--at least until I get it under control.

Completely eliminating carbs from my system will help me to control my cravings.

Since it's worked before, I know it will work again.
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OH, I went to see my orthopedist today, then onto my shoe guy. Dr liked my new shoes & said that they should delay surgery a few more years. Then got my shoes adjusted to remove rubbi...

Need to vent

Mon, 4 Mar 2013 22:26:19 EST

So not weight related but I need to vent some place where my family won't see.

I am SO fed up with someone telling me that they didn't cancel a DVR event when it clearly started recording, then stopped less than one minute into it AND there was only one person here! STUPID ME thinks that if I'm not going to be home, one of the few little things I can count on is one of the shows I like actually getting recorded.

And it's not like I'M the one who sits around watching TV e...

Good news...sort of?

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 02:45:45 EST

So I went to the Dr and I told her that I self-diagnosed Binge Eating Disorder. I said that from all I've read, I have every symptom. And she said that there really isn't a pill for it, that it's mostly stress related so she gave me a referral to a counselor. She said that they would be able to tell if changing my anti-depressant would help, but that she also said that I probably really need someone to talk to.
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Besides M 129

But just talking w...

OMG! LIGHT BULB

Wed, 27 Feb 2013 14:09:37 EST

I've found it!
www.helpguide.org/mental/binge_eatin
g_disorder.htm
An answer...according to 3 different articles I've read, I have BED: Binge Eating Disorder.
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I feel better to know that I'm not alone and that there is help.
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I'm going to discuss it with my doctor this afternoon. She will be able to help me. I have a lot of faith in her as I've been seeing her for...hmm...at least 20 years!
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Sigh

Tue, 26 Feb 2013 23:57:58 EST

OK M
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I have a DR's appt for tomorrow afternoon. I asked them if they found it ppeculiar that immediate care wouldn't even x-ray it, just send me straight to ER for an MRI and she said, no they might have thought it was something worse. But when I asked her weren't they supposed to do what I asked? I asked for an x-ray and they said no...I can't afford to go to the ER and aren't they supposed to start small & rule things out? I mean that's kind of like chopping off ...

I SUCK

Mon, 25 Feb 2013 23:05:06 EST

Haven't posed in almost a week!!
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Good news is I got paperwork completed & submitted...bad news is I've been eating like there's no tomorrow.
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I do that when I'm stressed...
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Still haven't been to the Dr to find out whether or not it's another Schwannoma...kind of scared to find out. Plus I'm sick of doctors.
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and yes, it still hurts but not as badly.

Day 70

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 21:13:09 EST

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*&^%%##@!@@&@!!
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I don't think you guys would like reading what I'd type right now
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Just returned from Immediate Care & they need to send me to the ER...they can't do an MRI or CAT scan.
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Yes, M...it might be another fkkin schwanoma!!!

Day 69

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 23:50:37 EST

Well I'm eating really great!
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Of course, great food generally doesn't equate with weight loss.
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M & I had a delicious steak dinner tonight. 3 courses won't help you lose weight tho...
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Days 67 & 68

Sun, 17 Feb 2013 23:55:30 EST

Gee, I really thought I'd posted yesterday...
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Went to my son's band fund raiser--their 30th annual!
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I sure wish I could report that I've been eating OK.
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I wish I was a loser!
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Went to my niece's 1st place winner's recital this afternoon & took my son. I gotta tell ya: I'm surprized as all you-know-what about how things have been going lately! Yep M! Got yet ANOTHER phone call!
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Day 66 - HOLY COW!!!!

Fri, 15 Feb 2013 19:11:53 EST
O M G!!
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Is this what it's SUPPOSED to feel like when you wear shoes?!!?!?
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I was DANCING around the grocery store!!
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I'm sure I looked like an idiot...dancing to musak.
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Days 64 & 65

Thu, 14 Feb 2013 23:57:01 EST
I don't understand why I can't write every day...
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It's not like I'm not sitting in front of my PC most of the day--well, part of the day.
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I now have two things to look forward to: in addition to my cousin's wedding this summer, I might have a visitor from across the pond!
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When he told me he wants to come, I nearly fell out of my chair!
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I can't wait to hear him talk...that accent! I'll hav...

Day 63

Tue, 12 Feb 2013 13:12:29 EST
I want to save this as a reminder since tomorrow is Ash Wednesday:
www.sparkpeople.com/resource/slidesh
ow.asp?show=62
I can't give up smoking, since I don't smoke, so that one's easy!
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However, I applaud my good friend M for quitting!!
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If she can overcome an addiction like that, she can overcome anything.
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I wish SP had a ...

Day 62

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 23:49:23 EST
Well today would have been a GREAT day if I'd just not eaten anything after we got back from my son's band concert...
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I just don't get it. I KNOW I shouldn't eat. I'm not even hungry. I guess this is an addiction. I don't need it, heck most of the time I don't even want it! It just feels like I HAVE to have it...
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I bought these Gummy Owls a while ago (I think I've bought just about every diet gimmick out there)
www.gummyowls.com...

Major oops!! Days 58-61

Sun, 10 Feb 2013 14:30:47 EST
Wow I didn't realize I'd not posted that much! My bad.
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So on Friday I got my new shoes!! I am so excited to hopefully be able to walk pain-free!
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They're actually short boots, so they'll support my ankles as well. I have to slowly break them in--an hour on Friday, two yesterday and @three today.
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I fell asleep on the couch yesterday afternoon while still wearing them so I wonder if that counts, since I wasn't puttin...

Day 57

Wed, 6 Feb 2013 23:27:39 EST
I was doing REALLY well until I went to Walgreens to get mom's prescription.
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I decided to get some sugar-free candy, to satisfy my sweet tooth (OOPS! Forgot to get more gum!) And I was walking out of the store when stupid me just had to walk past the snack aisle to exit, when what do I see that's on sale but mom's favorite potato chips!
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So I had to buy her 2 bags (it was a 2-fer); however, I did not have to buy a bag of Doritos
4...

Days 55 & 56

Tue, 5 Feb 2013 18:50:12 EST
Neglected to post again yesterday...probably because I was so disgusted with myself!
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But not disgusted enough to stop myself from eating junk!
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But I've been really busy today, actually doing some legal work for my mom! It's 5:39PM and I've yet to eat!!!
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NOT GOOD!
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I have had at least 64 oz of tea...on my second glass. I carry around the huge plastic mug I got from Panda Express. I think it'...

Days 53 & 54

Mon, 4 Feb 2013 00:59:54 EST
Darn it, forgot to post again.
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Yesterday was a good day! Got to spend time with my son. Took him driving in the snow in an empty parking lot. It was extra-special since it's the same place my father took me.
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I ate ok yesterday, but then was doing ok today until the game started and even that wasn't that bad. It was that I mixed myself a drink...vodka & V8 Fusion.
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To be fair, it IS organic vodka
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OOPS! - Days 50, 51 & 52

Sat, 2 Feb 2013 02:43:43 EST
Forgot to post. Nothing exciting except that I've done a total of 35,000+ steps on the mini-cycle pedal thingy.
www.alibaba.com/product-gs/615219174
/crane_pedal_exerciser/showimage.html
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5,000 one night and 10,000 the others. I must admit, I work up a pretty good sweat.
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Now if I'd just stop eating...
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Day 49

Wed, 30 Jan 2013 00:58:15 EST
Well I did it again...
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I did another 10,000 steps on the mini-cycle!
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It claims I burned over 600 calories...almost 2 hours.
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Day 48

Mon, 28 Jan 2013 15:43:42 EST
Well I did it again. I posted how well I was doing & then blew it!
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No more popcorn for me. And I guess I just have to have my mom hide her snacks--then again, she's shorter than I so no matter where she "hid" them I'd find them.
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I found this article & tho pills aren't always the answer, when I first started taking Prozac, I lost weight because I didn't have the urge to binge. But then I had to stop due to surgery, and just never regained t...

Day 47

Sun, 27 Jan 2013 22:24:38 EST
Today was another weird one...only because we got unexpected visitors which made me snack. My sis opened a bag of kettle chips, allowed me to have a handful, then she & my niece polished it off. Which is good since I didn't want to be tempted to eat more. Just enough for a taste and not enough to overdo it.
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But again, I felt like eating even tho I wasn't hungry! Luckily I was prepared for that and had a jar of almonds nearby.
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I also ate ma...

Day 46 - again

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 23:54:01 EST
I had a very weird day, I won't get into why (M will understand when I tell her) but I didn't even take my morning pills until after 4! Then I didn't eat until nearly 7:00 pm!
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I still can't believe I lasted that long...it was not intentional.
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I wish it was intentional for then I could control myself every day!
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I wrote that too soon! For the life of me, I do *NOT* understand WHY I feel the urge to eat when I'm clea...

Day 45 - TA-DA!

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 19:14:35 EST
Lookie what I added:
recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-detai
l.asp?recipe=2366769
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Thanks M!!
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Day 44 - was yesterday (oops)

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 14:25:53 EST
I forgot to post! Probably because I was thinking too much about how to figure out how many calories are in a pot of home-made gumbo.
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How do you figure it out? I have the info from the bag of frozen veggies, but what about the sausage? I mean, do I add up everything? And how do I figure out how much one serving is?
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After reading SP's article about portion sizes, I'm really confused. www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nutriti
on_articles....

Day 43 (again) - PICTURE THIS

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 15:42:52 EST
I got this via email & needed to share:

"Tempted? Use an Unflattering Picture to Your Advantage

Let's face it. No matter how well a diet is working, or how satisfied we feel from a hunger standpoint, there's no avoiding the temptation of high carbohydrate, high fat foods that we know can be the lynch-pin to more and more episodes of falling off the dietary wagon.

This is completely understandable. We ALL have this issue. Step one is realizing it, forgivin...

Resetting the day counter...

Tue, 22 Jan 2013 23:35:20 EST
OK so I ran out of pills @ day 42 but I must not have written down the exact date, so I'm going to guess.
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I'll use day 42 today then.
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So I followed the diet plan fairly closely...was doing great until after dinner. Had a bad sugar craving!
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But I love SP's food tracker!!
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Makes it SO easy to track exactly what I've eaten! So I know that I consumed @1,300 calories today (which is more than ...

OK tomorrow's the day

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 23:38:44 EST
I made it through today just fine so I'm going to restart everything tomorrow.
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I probably would have been OK today but I just wanted to make sure...

Less UGH?

Sat, 19 Jan 2013 15:29:29 EST
Well I finally went to Immediate Care early yesterday afternoon & they sent me to the ER. I was there until after 7:00 and all they came up with was that it's not appendicitis or diverticulitis.
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so it's either a REALLY bad flare-up or that I just can't shake that bug because of my compromised immune system...
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I still don't feel like eating...

Still UGH?

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 15:21:13 EST
I'm feeling better but nowhere near my "normal". I still don't want to eat and feel like I've been punched in my gut.
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On a positive note, the scale moved! Down, too.
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UGH...continued

Wed, 16 Jan 2013 16:57:35 EST
I am so sick of being sick
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the worst part is that you think I'd lose weight, seeing as nothing's staying in.
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But the scale hasn't moved...well I've moved the scale to make sure it wasn't stuck on anything, but still
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it's frustrating!!

The good news is that mom's already over it and didn't get it anywhere near as bad as I!

End of UGH?

Tue, 15 Jan 2013 15:05:23 EST
I surely hope that today is the last day that I'm ill. This sucks!
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But I am now within 0.2 of a pound of my before the holidays weight. Which means that I did not make it to 20 pounds by Christmas.
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But
"slow & steady wins the race"
"you can't make an omelet without breaking a few eggs"
yada yada yada
but here's the one I need to remember:
$hit or get off the pot!
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UGH continued

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 13:43:21 EST
Well I thought I was better...
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Not only am I not better but now mom's getting it.
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My BIL usually comes over on Monday nights so I just called him to tell him not to come.
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the good news is I'm down almost 5 pounds! Making up for the holidays!
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Hey, I have to find something positive about it.

UGH!

Sun, 13 Jan 2013 12:47:42 EST
OK I didn't post yesterday because I wasn't able to sit up for more than a few minutes at a time.
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IDK if it was food poisoning or an intestinal bug but YUCK!!
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On the positive side, it's a great way to get back into the good eating groove. I doubt I'll eat much today--chicken broth would be all.

Day um...I'll reset it tomorrow :)

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 13:31:32 EST
Well my delivery finally came, along with a letter of apology stating that they ran into manufacturing delays so they only sent me 15 days. They expect to send the regular shipment soon.
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I think I need to start over, since I've been so far off track. No biggie.
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I read a great quote today:
"No one can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." -- Unknown
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I think I'll ...

Day 66 & holding

Thu, 10 Jan 2013 16:39:44 EST
So far today, I grabbed lunch at Portillo's.
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In my defense, I did not order a jumbo chili dog. Plus I got food for mom which means I won't eat all of the fries.
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Going to pick up the dog from the groomer's. He surely needed it!!
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Just went grocery shopping and picked up lots of fresh goodies.
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Didn't get to go last week so I miss my salads!

Day 66 on hold...will revert to actual day soon

Wed, 9 Jan 2013 15:17:26 EST
I posted about feeling the need to eat even when I'm not hungry & M suggested that I look for triggers.
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(She's one smart cookie!!)
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I don't have to look far, it's when I'm bored.
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But I'm not really bored...it's hard to explain. I'm probably ADD from way back before they had a label for it--looking back on my childhood, I was almost a high functioning autistic. But we didn't label back then and special ed was reserv...

Day 66, well sort of...

Tue, 8 Jan 2013 17:56:12 EST
I'm still counting even tho I've not followed the WeightNot program since I ran out of pills so I think I'll restart with the proper date once I get them.
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BUT I just got today's mail and it contained fantastic news!! The first wedding for the next generation of our family!! YAY!! It'll be at the end of June!
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So now I have a REAL date to which to aspire!!
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And the best part will be th...

Day 65

Mon, 7 Jan 2013 16:55:34 EST
OK yesterday i wrote "Sometimes I wish I had someone who'd stop me from it"--it being junk food, but M's right! I'd really dislike the other person's attempts to get me to stop (even if I did believe that they were looking out for me) but I know that I'd resent them and then purposely eat more crap to just to get back at them...yeah I know, I'm messed up.
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But after I wrote that, I couldn't fall asleep so I started to think about the food that was in the house. There ...

Day 64

Sun, 6 Jan 2013 23:46:48 EST
Well I've really gotten off-track.
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I can't get mad at myself since I knew what I was doing...nobody forced me to eat candy & cookies, or any other crapola.
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Sometimes I wish I had someone who'd stop me from it

Day 63

Sat, 5 Jan 2013 13:17:20 EST
Yesterday I emailed WeightNot to tell them that I'd not gotten my shipment & I'd run out of pills. I found their confirmation email from 12/18/12 so I should have gotten it by now!
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They apologized & said to keep following their dietary guidelines--well duh!
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If I could do that, I wouldn't need their program!

THEETSYBAY's SparkPeople Blog

I need my kids to read this:

I back! I'm back in my blue jeans again! (Steven Tyler's singing for me)

CHECK OUT MY TICKER!

Well, phooey!!

DAMMIT!

I hope I'll have AWESOME news tomorrow!

VENT

"The Rolling Stones" diet

Atkins day 13

Induction day 4

OK here we go again....

Need to vent

Good news...sort of?

OMG! *LIGHT BULB*

Sigh

I SUCK

Day 70

Day 69

Days 67 & 68

Day 66 - HOLY COW!!!!

Days 64 & 65

Day 63

Day 62

Major oops!! Days 58-61

Day 57

Days 55 & 56

Days 53 & 54

OOPS! - Days 50, 51 & 52

Day 49

Day 48

Day 47

Day 46 - again

Day 45 - TA-DA!

Day 44 - was yesterday (oops)

Day 43 (again) - PICTURE THIS

Resetting the day counter...

OK tomorrow's the day

Less UGH?

Still UGH?

UGH...continued

End of UGH?

UGH continued

UGH!

Day um...I'll reset it tomorrow :)

Day 66 & holding

Day 66 on hold...will revert to actual day soon

Day 66, well sort of...

Day 65

Day 64

Day 63

OMG! LIGHT BULB