THEETSYBAY's SparkPeople Blog THEETSYBAY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Learning to eat It's like we're being born again, needing to learn how to eat. I keep thinking that. Babies have to learn how to eat and it takes a long time for them to learn and adjust. <BR> <BR> After my father had a stroke, besides learning how to walk & talk again, he had to learn how to eat. <BR> <BR> I'm just too impatient... Fri, 6 May 2016 11:54:54 EST WOW WOW...all I can say. <BR> <BR> I feel full, I feel like I'm eating...and I'm losing weight. <BR> <BR> Just...WOW. <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> Fri, 29 Apr 2016 13:22:05 EST Wow, what a difference. So we went out for Soul Food after mom's doctor's appointments. I really should have ordered just a side dish but it just looked & smelled SO good! Leftovers are good, right? <BR> <BR> I told mom that this one meal would feed me for 3 days. <BR> <BR> I ate about half of the mashed potatoes & gravy, and didn't even drink the entire glass of water. <BR> <BR> WOW! Never thought I'd eat this little & feel satisfied. <em>334</em> Wed, 27 Apr 2016 16:01:39 EST My eyes are now officially bigger than my stomach! OK so I'm still at the stage where I think I should be eating more. I see the amount of food I'm allowed to eat and think "Oh that won't be enough" so I dish out more, then can't even finish half of it. <BR> <BR> I wonder how much longer it will take until I actually believe everything my doctors have been telling me. <BR> <BR> A few months ago, I started cooking about half as much as I used to for my mom & me. Now it'll have to be a quarter...or just single servings for us to share, since ... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 17:38:24 EST OK I gave up I had gastric sleeve surgery on April 11th. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> How anyone could say that I didn't need it is beyond me. <BR> <BR> This will be very difficult but obtainable. I'm sore and am experiencing new feelings. I guess this is what being full feels like? I'm still bloated too. Will be glad when all the gas has escaped. Sun, 17 Apr 2016 00:05:21 EST 2 days left Yes I was cheating a little...but I'm down 12 pounds since 3/28. <BR> <BR> My mom says I should just stick with this. Is she nuts? I'm dying! I want to eat SO badly! I am hungry! One tiny "lean & green" meal a day is not enough. <BR> <BR> She says I'm acting like I have more energy. OMG, all I want to do is go back to bed. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is the last day of the VLCD so it excludes the one meal...nothing but liquids from here on out. Sat, 9 Apr 2016 16:37:52 EST 12 days Well I went to the Dr yesterday and kind-of got yelled at for not following the VLCD properly. <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> I *HAVE* to eat 6 times a day, every 2 hours. <BR> <BR> And skipping a meal isn't an option. Wed, 30 Mar 2016 10:40:17 EST Coundown: 13 days OK now I sound like one of those ditzy skinny girls: I forgot to eat yesterday, <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I forgot my afternoon snack of sugar free jello & my after dinner protein shake.That's 1/3 of my daily food allowance. <BR> <BR> Oops... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 11:35:15 EST VLCD starts today 14 days on a very low calorie diet. <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>249</em> <BR> <BR> I can do this. Mon, 28 Mar 2016 04:14:02 EST Happy New Year...I give up I give up trying <BR> <BR> In the immortal words of Yoda: <BR> <BR> Do <BR> or do not <BR> there is no try Wed, 6 Jan 2016 11:26:03 EST REALLY need to vent Surgery on requires someone to be there with me. <BR> <BR> I am a nervous wreck. My mom can't drive any more. <BR> <BR> My sister originally said she'd scheduled the day off, once I told her what time I had to be there she asked who was driving me. <BR> <BR> WTF?!?!? <BR> <BR> She now says I can drive myself and they come back & pick up my car. I'll be damned if I'm letting her touch my car! Sat, 19 Sep 2015 20:04:04 EST OK I can honestly say that I'm getting better... well maybe better isn't the proper word. <BR> <BR> More observant? <BR> More in tune? <BR> <BR> IDK what to call it, but eating small meals more often, chewing thoroughly, and real, really focusing on what and how I eat, well I think it's finally paid off. <BR> <BR> After 54 years, I can finally tell when I feel full. <BR> <BR> What a revelation. <BR> <BR> If I'd not done any of this research, I'd just keep on eating... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 21:58:10 EST The little engine... I'm still chugging along. <BR> <BR> Yesterday mom asked me if I'd lost any weight. I said IDK since I hate weighing myself lately. But decided I needed to keep track again. So I did...not sure how I compare to myself. <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I mean, I should've weighed myself before I went for my initial consultation. However, my weight is within a half pound of when I last weighed myself here. Now to find out when that was... <BR> <BR> Also, I went to see my nephrologist on Thursd... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 15:48:11 EST All things considered... I'm doing OK. I'm much more conscious of what I'm eating and when. I've set an alarm to remind me to eat every 2 hours. I'm chewing, chewing, chewing! <BR> <BR> I went grocery shopping yesterday & bought yogurt, cottage cheese, protein bars, cereal, etc...things that were on the list of "approved" foods. <BR> <BR> Now to convince myself that I don't want any of the potato chips mom bought. <BR> <BR> Wed, 26 Aug 2015 16:34:02 EST OK, here I go's the last time to start over OK I need to write every day. I need to get in the habit of recording my food. And I need to pay attention to myself and what I eat. <BR> <BR> I set alarms to remind me to eat every 2 hours during the day. <BR> <BR> "Why" do you ask? <BR> <BR> I went to see a bariatric surgeon. Well, more than just the surgeon. It's a full -service office. Not just bariatric surgery, they also offer dr assisted diets. <BR> <BR> My initial appointment took close to 4 hours. In that time, I saw a nurse, re... Mon, 24 Aug 2015 13:49:16 EST I really need to vent I need a break. <BR> <BR> I FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY got my sister to agree to take my mom out. To take her shopping. Mom says she needs new shoes & clothes. <BR> FINALLY <BR> FINALLY! <BR> <BR> They're not going. <BR> So I asked my mom why not. <BR> Yada sister won't use the wheelchair. My sister won't take her where she wants to go. My sister would make her spend more money. It would turn into a shopping trip for my sister. <BR> <BR> bottom line: <BR> Mom would rather go shoppi... Sun, 28 Jun 2015 16:25:08 EST I'm not alone... I need to save this link... <BR> <BR> How Overeating Becomes Food Addiction <BR> <BR> Emotional eating is not always "just" emotional eating. Sometimes, it is a full-fledged addiction with obvious - and very serious - consequences. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>?title=How+Overeating+Becomes+Food+Add<BR>iction+&blid=16302 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> Don’t Let Fear Stall Your Weight Loss <BR> <BR> <link><BR>?title=Don%92t+L... Mon, 15 Jun 2015 20:38:29 EST I may have found it... I was getting ready to post that I may have found my motivation: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> But then another opportunity presented itself. <BR> <em>26</em> <em>129</em> <BR> he's really nice & cute & protective & British... <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> so keeping my fingers crossed for this one. Thu, 14 May 2015 23:55:42 EST ...and now for something completely different or completely the same. I'm not sure. <BR> <BR> But I do know that I can't continue living like this. If I don't change, nothing will. <BR> <BR> So what is stopping me? <BR> <BR> What am I afraid of? <BR> <BR> Am I afraid of staying in pain? <BR> <BR> Am I happy in staying like this and constantly hiding under men's XL shirts? <BR> <BR> Am I afraid of actually being seen as desirable? <BR> <BR> No matter how badly I want to be svelt, what's holding me back? <BR> <BR> Do I not feel li... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 20:37:29 EST day 7 of Lent...IDK where I got 40 days from <em>2</em> <BR> IDK why I thought Lent only lasted for 40 days. Wishful thinking? <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> Ok so this is now how much can I lose by Easter, and can I remember to type here every day. <BR> <BR> Headache is gone but it lasted nearly 5 days. <BR> Went to Scheck & Sirus to get my shoes adjusted but they still hurt my feet. I just want to be able to walk pain free, or even with a lot less pain. <BR> <BR> So I've been weighing myself & taking my BP everyday since a nurs... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 19:29:44 EST Day 2/40 Well it started off pretty darned poopy. I gained weight FFS. <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> I woke up with a really bad headache yesterday and it's still lingering today. <BR> <BR> Lunch is a bowl of grits. <BR> Not sure about dinner yet. <BR> <BR> I put the peanuts away since the only reason I ate them was that they were on the end table in the den while I was watching Nashville. <BR> <BR> My doctor doubled my BP meds but it's actually higher. I thought that maybe I have a headache bec... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 15:50:06 EST Day 1/40 Yes it was yesterday but I forgot to post. <BR> <BR> I thought I did better, I know I ate better. No candy or snacks, just a handful of dry roasted peanuts. <BR> <BR> Lunch was leftover Dirty Rice. <BR> Dinner was black eyed peas. <BR> Then the peanuts. <BR> Lots of plain iced tea. <BR> <BR> Can't really exercise as my feet hurt way too bad, but I stretched a little. <BR> <BR> Baby steps. Thu, 19 Feb 2015 15:43:41 EST OK so... Trying to meet someone online is not easy...nor cheap. eHarmony, and even a Catholic dating site yield nothing but aggravation. <BR> <BR> So I'm going to put that on hold for a while and concentrate on me. <BR> <BR> Here's my plan: Lent. <BR> <BR> 40 well, no junk. <BR> <BR> Take it one day at a time. <BR> <BR> One meal at a time. <BR> <BR> One workout at a time. <BR> <BR> Even a bad workout is better than none. Sun, 15 Feb 2015 23:05:07 EST Need to talk to someone... I can't vent on my fb page since my family reads it. <BR> <BR> I just really need to talk or write things out. <BR> <BR> I met a really nice guy online and he's nearly everything I need emotionally. We've not yet met in real life but he really wants to. Here's the issue, and I know it will make me sound like a heartless bitch: he's been in a wheelchair since a bad car accident when he was 17. So he can't give me what I need physically. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> I need someone who can take ... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 13:21:28 EST Major victory! OK so yesterday was one of the most emotionally draining days I’ve had in at least 14 months... <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> Here's my fb status & comments: <BR> Just saw my kids. They came to take my mom out to lunch. My daughter gave me a dirty look when I went to the door, but she spoke to me. My son just gave me looks that could kill. Haven't seen him since he turned 18 in April of 2013. I can't remember when I last saw her...maybe Christmas of 2012. --feeling very lost without them. <BR> x... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 14:53:59 EST OK so I REALLY suck at this... I had my second weigh-in and couldn't believe I'd lost more weight. That did make me happy tho seeing as I ate out a few times. <BR> <BR> But this week totally sucks because of Memorial Day weekend. I totally pigged out on Saturday--I allowed myself that day. Then was OK on Sunday but just...I don't know what happened yesterday. <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> The half-eaten bowls of chips were just sitting there... <BR> <em>4</em> <BR> Bowls of chex mix & kettle chips & guacamole flavored chi... Tue, 27 May 2014 18:04:23 EST Day 4 of Jenny Craig & I suck... So Tuesday my sister & I attended a Town Hall meeting with Bruce Rauner. I was not expecting to dine, but some of her friends met us there so they opted to meet at a bagel-type restaurant. I had a salad with balsamic vinegarette dressing. Off the plan already! <BR> <em>198</em> Tue, 20 May 2014 19:11:44 EST OK I admit I need help Hello. My name is Betsy. I'm a carbaholic. <BR> <BR> I'm human...I'm weak...I fall, I get up...I gain, I lose...I gain it back. <BR> <BR> I can't keep this yo-yo going tho, it's very unhealthy. <BR> <BR> I went back to Jenny Craig yesterday. They have normal food in the right proportions. I need to be encouraged with more than my mom asking "How's your weight?" <BR> <BR> A workout buddy would be nice, but that won't happen with my schedule...a virtual one could tho. <BR> <BR> I'd rather... Sat, 17 May 2014 13:44:34 EST UGH I need to get back to weighing myself & making journal entries daily. Thu, 8 May 2014 10:21:07 EST Welcome to 2014 OK so I got off-track. yes I know, but I intended to. I knew that there was no way that I could go thru the holidays with all the baking I do and NOT eat any of it, so I allowed myself from between Thanksgiving and New Year's to indulge, so to say. <BR> <BR> Yes it was good. <BR> Yes I enjoyed it. <BR> <BR> And yes I have lost nearly all of it. Sun, 19 Jan 2014 14:07:14 EST *O*M*G* OMG!! <BR> i AM ECSTATIC!! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> I've not posted in a while, sorry about that... <BR> But a long distance friend of mine & I have been walking every day since before Labor Day. On Friday I walked nearly 3 miles, which i amazing for me. <BR> <em>43</em> <BR> The big news is that not only are all of my summer clothes too big for me... <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> I am back into my clothes I was wearing in 2006! <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> They're still a little tight but... ... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 13:45:19 EST Nearly lost it I went out with one of my GFs for dinner on Thursday and when I got home, my sister ripped me a new a$$hole--pardon my language but it was THAT bad! <BR> <BR> I can't even get into all that happened, just suffice it to say that I took a clonazepam & washed it down with a very weak vodka & tonic leftover from the day before. <BR> <BR> It took me this long to confront her about it. You can't talk to her, she doesn't listen. She is just like my dad: when he got mad at her, he'd take it out on ... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 15:55:24 EST Damn family I took my niece shopping yesterday & we went to Victoria's Secret. I figure since I've lost 40 pounds (well 43 as of today!) I could splurge a little and buy something feminine. So I bought this shirt: <BR> <BR><BR>view-all-tops/graphic-baseball-tee?Pro<BR>ductID=130764&CatalogueType=OLS <BR> <BR> So I"m feeling really good about myself...until I show my mom. I'm wearing it today. It hsa the number 10 on the front and the word ANGEL on the back. She ... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 18:59:04 EST AHHHH!!!!!! *HAPPY SCREAM* He loves me! <BR> Sat, 10 Aug 2013 18:48:20 EST Not checked in nor weighed in a while... Down a total of 40 pounds. <BR> <BR> 10 more will be good. <BR> <BR> 20 even better. <BR> <BR> 30 would be overkill... Sat, 10 Aug 2013 17:53:18 EST post wedding blues... So I looked really REALLY good...yet no pics of me. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> I had to take one of myself in the ladies room at the reception. <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> all these people with cameras & camera phones and no pics... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> and it's not even that good of a pic either Sun, 30 Jun 2013 04:29:20 EST I won't let my sister pull me down! <em>337</em> <BR> OK so if you've been following me at all, you know my cousin's wedding is today. It's a good hour's drive away so my (huge) family of 5 will ride together--that's my mom, sister, BIL, niece & me. Part of my mom & me would like for us to drive separately, but then I wouldn't be able to have a drink. <BR> <em>181</em> <BR> Anyway, the biggest car, aka The Old Man Mobile since it was my father's station wagon, will comfortable hold all of us but it has n air conditioning... Sat, 29 Jun 2013 09:57:44 EST Woo-hoo!! Almost made my goal! <em>337</em> <BR> So my cousin's wedding is tomorrow & I'm within 2 pounds of where SP says I should be. <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> Down 38 pounds!! <BR> <em>334</em> <em>224</em> <em>244</em> <BR> Definite photo ops tomorrow!!! <BR> <em>388</em> Fri, 28 Jun 2013 15:50:13 EST I am *SO* excited! My cousin's wedding (well, actually he's my first cousin once removed--my cousin's son) is Saturday and I'm down nearly 37 pounds!! <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> I'm just so excited since I've not seen my cousins since Christmas! <BR> <em>30</em> <BR> I am 3.9 pounds higher than where SP says I should be, but I'm still pretty happy about it! <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> More importantly, I am 3.9 pounds higher than were I was in 2006 when I looked fantastic! <BR> <em>43</em> <BR> The big dif... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 12:52:04 EST Maybe I'm the one... <link> </link> Wed, 19 Jun 2013 15:28:43 EST My #%&(*%^# family... If we could choose our families, my sisters would be Jill & Michelle, for we love each other unconditionally & non-judgementally. <BR> <em>129</em> <BR> But since I'm stuck with who I have, I just have to suffer through... <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> Instead of being happy for my losing 36 pounds, my sister has yet to acknowledge anything as she is too jealous. <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> While she has been supportive, today my mother told me that she thinks it's time I stopped losing weight.... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 14:46:43 EST A giant leap...can I do it again? Well I'm proud of myself...I think I made a huge improvement last night. Someone upset me (not important as to what they did since in the realm of the universe it's really insignificant) so I did what I normally do, I went to the kitchen. My stomach was growling, as I'd not eaten much all day, I was so ready to just eat anything...everything...whatever I could shove into my mouth. But I stopped myself and asked, how is my eating going to affect them? Just because they did something that upset... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 12:28:37 EST OMG I can't believe I forgot to post this! On Saturday, we went to a 90th birthday party for a dear friend. When I was getting dressed to go, I tried on all kids of clothes that I'd not worn either ever or in a while. Before Christmas, I bought a pair of skinny jeans off eBay and they were SO tiny that thre's no way they'd ever fit me. So I thought I"d give them to my 14 y.o niece. They were too big on her, of course--she's tiny. <BR> <em>20</em> <BR> So when I was getting ready, I looked for black pants & grabbed those skinny jea... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 16:51:01 EST *PHEW* Working in the garden is great exercise!! <em>193</em> <BR> I told my mom that if the number on the scale didn't drop (from all the work I did outside yesterday) that I'd throw it out the window! <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> I'm down a total of 30 pounds!! <BR> <em>334</em> <em>224</em> <em>48</em> <em>335</em> Mon, 27 May 2013 14:59:25 EST OMG!! Whoa!! <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> Seriously, I can pull my jeans off without unzipping them! <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> It was purely unconscious on my part, but once I realized I'd done it, I yelled (from the bathroom) what I'd just done!! <BR> <em>246</em> <BR> I can't wait to go shopping for new clothes!!! <BR> <em>204</em> <BR> I'm getting a new hairstyle on Thursday, too. <BR> <em>193</em> <BR> And check out my pounds lost ticker! <BR> <em>334</em> Sat, 25 May 2013 15:15:03 EST I need my kids to read this: <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>translation.asp?id=384 </link> Sun, 19 May 2013 23:51:38 EST I back! I'm back in my blue jeans again! (Steven Tyler's singing for me) I haven't been posting much lately due to many personal issues--mostly my kids. We also got 6 feet of water in the basement and are still struggling. <BR> <em>33</em> <BR> However, I won't let any of that ruin me nor put me down. <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> No matter what happens today, nobody can take this feeling away from me. <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> are you sitting down?? <BR> <em>38</em> <BR> THE FIRST DIGIT ON THE SCALE IS A 1 AGAIN!!! <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> Now to get the ... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 14:04:01 EST CHECK OUT MY TICKER! TA-DA! (That was my awesome news) <BR> <em>224</em> <em>334</em> <BR> Plus: <BR> <em>503</em> <BR> And as an added bonus: <BR> after M & I dined out on Tuesday, I stopped at Sam's and picked up a pair of shorts, size 14! <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> Thu, 11 Apr 2013 13:42:05 EST Well, phooey!! But I'm on the right track!! <BR> <em>224</em> <em>334</em> <BR> &#9833; &#9834; &#9835; &#9836; Slow & steady wins the race! &#9833; &#9834; &#9835; &#9836; Mon, 8 Apr 2013 13:12:29 EST DAMMIT! Hopefully, it'll be tomorrow <BR> <em>2</em> <BR> Sorry about that... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 18:26:05 EST