THECRAZYMANGO's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=THECRAZYMANGO THECRAZYMANGO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Half Marathon #4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922691 Well, this weekend I ran half marathon #4 and already am looking to run #5 and #6 at the end of summer or beginning of fall. The last time I ran a half was two years ago. <BR> <BR> It was my slowest time of all my halfs but I just got back into running six months ago and am 40 pounds heavier. I took these things in account. I still had alot of fun and was just happy to be running it. It is kind of funny because volunteers and spectators were surprised I was so chipper. Why would I run a rac... Mon, 4 May 2015 21:57:03 EST Easy Button http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913180 Today was one of those days that was hard on my self esteem. I tend to feel not liked by some of my co-workers because I am not super fit and sexy where my co-worker is like a size 2. It doesn't seem to matter that she's ditzy. <BR> <BR> Today one of the guys I work with implied that I was not smart. It hurt. He is one of them that dotes on this girl and I swear it is because she is pretty. <BR> <BR> Maybe I am envious. Or maybe I see it how it is. That pretty girls and boys get the easy ... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 22:51:42 EST God's Lesson: My Destiny is to Inspire http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908521 When I moved three hours away from my home, I had alot of doubts about the job. Something about the job didn't feel right. As time went on, I knew my doubts were right but was sticking it out for the bonus award. I never made friends or really explored the town. The co-worker was very negative about this area and it's activities. In that time, I paid a price of gaining weight and losing some of my self esteem. I now know I should have listened to intuition. <BR> <BR> In the last year, I hav... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 21:10:13 EST Low Sugar Levels http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891388 Whenever I struggle with this journey, people say "Don't worry you got this. You did this before. You can do it again." The thing is sometimes I have no idea how I ever did it the first time. Like today. I don't know how I lost weight with this sugar issue. It seems there is a fine line between staying in calorie range and my sugar is crashing. <BR> <BR> Today was one of those days. I was going to try to be healthy today at lunch. I was so proud but it didn't work out for me. I went to DQ a... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 22:09:15 EST Beast Mode http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890105 Exercise is oil for the body and my body is humming happiness tonight. I know it's the endorphins coursing through my body and I love it, haha! Tonight I broke into beast mode. I got off work early tonight and worked out it was time to meet with the trainer. This means I went for a hour walk outside (it was beautiful!), did 25 minutes on the spin bike and than met with my trainer for 30 minutes. <BR> <BR> I love that I have energy after work to work out. And, more energy everyday. I used to... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 20:54:46 EST Size Judgements http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888432 As you all pretty have learned by now, I struggle with the extra weight. Today was the perfect example of exactly why. Basically, it comes with that people don't understand I was small once and I feel like my fellow co-workers don't believe I was small, that I run, lift or even exercise or eat healthy. <BR> <BR> It kinda came up today. I mentioned to a patient she looked like she was doing yoga (well, because it did look that way) which than I was asked if I do yoga. I said I do and all tha... Sat, 7 Mar 2015 00:06:51 EST Figuring Out the Struggles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887148 This week I have been writing down my food in a journal and have done it for the last seven days. This is usually where I start to skip and falter. Most days I have stayed between 1600-1800 with a a few days around 2300. Over the weekend I was upset with myself being around 2400 because I forgot what range I should be at. I now realize it wasn't that bad. Especially since I have been working out on both Saturday and Sunday with a long run on Sundays. Long runs these days are 6 miles or more. ... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 21:19:36 EST Hired a Trainer! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5884257 It's so weird to not go over to my boyfriend's like I do every weekend. He's not feeling well and he doesn't like company when that is the case. It's a challenge for me to understand because 1) I want cuddles when I don't feel good 2) I feel insecure that he's pushing me away (from past experiences) even through I know that is not the case. <BR> <BR> This does mean my day is wide open! For the last six or so Saturdays, I clean up my place (how does it get so messy during the week?), run my ... Sat, 28 Feb 2015 13:03:52 EST New Girl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5881447 I always knew that this second journey would be harder and different. Yet at the same time, I thought I'd be doing it much like before but now how it's different. Before I seemed to seek solitude with my workouts after being around people in classes and working at the Y. <BR> <BR> But now that I work full time, I seek group exercise and even like it. Most likely because I seek people like me that love exercise and can shop talk exercise with. I find I love yoga after a stressful day is not ... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 21:34:03 EST Even the lab tests says I am healthy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5877003 My Valentine's Day started off with some self love by getting my blood drawn for a cholesterol check and than running five miles for my half marathon training. It feels good that I have been putting myself first and it just makes me more relaxed for the time my boyfriend and I do spend together. <BR> <BR> On top of that NSV, my labs came back and it shows my cholesterol was EXCELLENT. It makes me wonder what it was at previous weights of 260 and than 160. <BR> <BR> See for yourself... <BR... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 20:21:58 EST Sugar Hangover http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873414 The last two weeks I feel I have done pretty well and the scale even reflected it. Even through some of it is probably water retention, I went from 209 to 205. I felt really good about it and like I am getting back to who I was. <BR> <BR> Than, the last two days have been bad with eating <BR> <BR> I have been eating over my calorie range which I have been able to stay in for the last two weeks. Yesterday I ate SIX cupcakes. I don't think I have ate processed sugar for two weeks. Just have ... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 20:30:31 EST A Different Lifestyle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868967 This week I am realizing I am going through a different lifestyle change. I thought this time I was redoing my journey but I am not. In fact, I was pretty down on myself about it. But, I am realizing it IS different. It has different challenges. <BR> <BR> The first time around I was learning what it means to exercise and eat healthy while I was in college. Now I feel like I am going through new challenges. I am no longer in college and now work full time with regular hours. This means I no l... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 21:26:50 EST Identity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864010 Two years ago, I moved to a different town, four hours away from where I was keeping residence. I was excited to make a new start and to meet new people that didn't see me as inspiration. I didn't want to be an inspiration to anyone. I did it for myself - not for the praise or to inspire others. What does that even mean to inspire someone? <BR> <BR> Now two years later and fifty pounds later, I feel so lost and unhappy. Most days I just go to work, wish it was over, go home, watch TV until i... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 20:40:44 EST Second Chance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840850 Today I am proud of myself. I went to Gentle Yoga with much less anxiety about group exercise than there has been in the past. So, even through much of this feels like I am starting over, I still am me and still have my lessons. It was the first of many group exercise classes in January as I signed up for unlimited classes for $30. It was kinda nice to have a sorta appointment to work out as you have to register you will be at the group exercise class. <BR> <BR> I have been kinda on the fen... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 21:23:08 EST Christmas 2014 and 2015 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836411 Here I sit, watching for my body to get energy to go for a run. Not sure why I am so tired but I am excited to play with my new toys. It was my boyfriend's Christmas with his family and I got alot of fun gift like clothes, picture frames, and a subscription for a box of snacks to get mailed to me. <BR> <BR> I must say my boyfriend's gift topped all the other generous gifts. He got me a Garmin watch. For those non-runners, it's a watch that tells me my pace, distance, calories burned and wha... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 16:10:50 EST Need to Get Strict with Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830495 Even through I juggled two jobs while going to college, it was so much easier to fit working out in. Most times I'd do it in between classes. Now that I am an adult, it is so much harder. I get two choices - before or after work. Either way, I am tired when I do it. The last couple weeks, I have been going through a daily cycle of procrastination. It goes like this. <BR> <BR> 10:00 pm: Sets alarms for 5:45 am. <BR> 5:45 am: Reset alarm for 7:00 am and get up at 7:00 am for work. <BR> 7:00 a... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 21:28:55 EST Pivotable Point? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829845 Nothing like coming home to a note to call your landlord to get your anxiety up and running. Basically, he was wondering if I was going to renew my lease in June. Apparently, he's has alot of people asking about availability. It'd be my third year in my apartment if I renewed. <BR> <BR> Ironically, this weekend I brought up (again) to my boyfriend about moving in together. On one hand, I understand some of his reasons such as he can't afford to move because rent is lower by himself than us ... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 18:53:02 EST Spicy Hamburger Soup http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827127 I really struggle with food. I truly love it - good or bad food. I love it all. This week I decided to make spicy hamburger potato soup. It was very fulfilling but I don't think it's a healthy item at all. I came to that conclusion at work today when I heated it up and all the fat was coming to the top. Than, I promptly I got a tummy ache (probably from all the fat). I think this is one recipe I will limit myself on. Soups are always so hard for me. They either aren't filling or are too many... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 18:32:01 EST Fit Camp http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826699 Yesterday, I went to the first day of Fit Camp. <BR> <BR> Everyone was really nice and welcoming. For whatever reason, I didn't feel out of place or like everyone was watching me fail at my exercises. Maybe it helped that the two body builders in the class were whining out loud what I thinking inside my head somewhat. However, when they did it, it was humorous and I knew I wasn't alone. <BR> <BR> We did however many reps we could do in a set time of 30, 60, or 90 seconds. Maybe this is wh... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 23:31:19 EST Starting December Right! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825972 Today I decided to track and will try to continue this. I am pretty excited. It's 5:30 pm and I am at 1450ish with my range of 1400-1700. I think I might be might be stay in range. This morning I skipped the banana in the cereal than stopping somewhere for morning coffee. Who knows how many calories are in a cup of coffee these days? It's not like I just drink it black. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Right now I am trying to resist my craving for chocolate. In fact, I popped a piece of gum to get... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 18:47:15 EST A New Ending http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825434 I am not sure if everyone can understand this. <BR> <BR> I have been a success story. <BR> I have lost 100 pounds. <BR> Maintained for two years. <BR> <BR> And, sometimes I know don't if I want it back. Than, sometimes I do want it all back. This is a mental struggle I have fought in the last couple months. <BR> <BR> I realize I don't want to feel guilty about eating cake. I don't want the saggy skin on my tummy. I do want my solid legs from hours of running. I want to run half marath... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 22:19:50 EST Touching Base http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825328 Thank you everyone for making my last blog post a top blog for Sparkpeople. I did read all the comments and it's a great reminder how supportive everyone is here. <em>304</em> <BR> <BR> This weekend has been emotional. <BR> <BR> We found out that someone I knew when I was in 4-H as a kid lost her cancer battle. Just a week ago, she found out her breast cancer moved to her brain. She decided not to go on chemo again. She passed this weekend. <BR> <BR> Than, yesterday I found out a fri... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 18:24:37 EST When It Ain't Broke, Don't Try Fixin' It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822430 So, for the last week, I have been cheating on Sparkpeople and been tracking on My Fitness Pal. I know how to cheat on Sparkpeople with my calories but I guess I am really cheating myself. Anyhow, I gained THREE pounds in the last week. I think it's sufficient to say My Fitness Pal is not working. <BR> <BR> I know what works. Sparkpeople. I did lose 100 pounds and I need to stick with it. <BR> <BR> Also, I know it's the support I really need as my self esteem has really taken a hit in the... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 19:54:43 EST Doing It Differently http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5821197 One of my qualities, good or bad, is that I am a deep thinker. I think about a lot of things and lately, I have been thinking about my journey. For most of my journey, I was focused on the number on the scale or compliments from friends and family. These are considered extrinsic motivators. They were much like the junk food I was liking to wean myself off. I would feel good for a moment or two but it never stuck. When I got to my maintenance weight, I realized I still wasn't happy. <BR> <BR... Sat, 22 Nov 2014 16:48:20 EST New Job and November Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806866 Recently I accepted a new job and I am really excited for this new opportunity. I am not even sure where to start with the positive things about the position. There is just so many things that it just feels good. <BR> <BR> - Positive working environment from the sounds of it <BR> - No more working overnights <BR> - Resume skill builder <BR> - Experience with physical therapist to see if I really want to do it <BR> - About $1-2 dollar higher pay per hour which means I can afford health insu... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 10:07:07 EST A Lesson in Loving Yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5792749 I give love unconditionally to everyone I meet but to myself. For whatever reason, I struggle to love myself. I thought it would happen after losing weight and becoming the perfect body media promised me. As I got to my goal weight, it seems the hatred for my stomach grew. <BR> <BR> Every morning, I would wake up, stand in front of the mirror and just hate myself. I would look at that flaw and never appreciate the rest of me. I knew I needed to accept my stomach but just couldn't. Maybe it w... Sun, 5 Oct 2014 11:13:12 EST Some days you just have to tell your inner voice to be quiet! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765933 Some days you just have to tell your inner voice to be quiet. This morning I did that exact thing! <BR> <BR> Work was very stressful. I don't really want to go more into that on a public blog. Let's just say I was so stressed and felt like puking, lol. <BR> <BR> I know what I needed... the gym! I needed to run, hop, lift... whatever I had to do. I knew if I didn't go, I'd be craving carbs and sweets later and that's just dangerous cycle. So, I worked out after being on my feet, walking, a... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 09:46:45 EST Quick Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763792 Time seems so elusive these days. I've been wanting/needing to write a blog but I seem to be always running out of time. So, I am going to try to make this short and sweet! <BR> <BR> Today, I weighed in at 205.8. Thanks to my new job as an overnight CNA where I walk and lift people alot, I have lost almost 10 pounds. It really helps that besides the negative nelly co worker, it hasn't been as stressful as Americorp VISTA was for me! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> So, basically, I am not cravin... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 19:33:36 EST Pensive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750234 I have been doing alot of thinking this week. <BR> <BR> It started with rethinking my choice to work as a CNA as an Assisted Living Residence and entertained the idea to go back to school for Physical Therapist Assistant. I found I was really unhappy. After some reflection, I realized I am not happy at all with the job. In fact, I like it. I am unhappy with the co-worker I will be mainly working with. Basically, every time we would work with a resident or about to enter their room, she'd be... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 09:03:22 EST Today's Mission http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742346 Since my hips were still sore from yesterday's run, I decided I would try to put up my curtains myself. It was a work out by itself! It would have been nicer to have an extra hand. I don't really know anyone and my boyfriend lives 30 minutes away. Besides it is like pulling teeth getting him to leave his place... so I did it myself, lol. <BR> <BR> The mission... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l163093724.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The curtains to turn my home into a cave... <BR... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 21:10:31 EST First Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741941 Last night was my first night working as a CNA. I will be working NOCs. Pretty much as soon as I heard I got the job and knew I'd have to change my sleeping schedule, I started to work on my sleeping schedule. This means I wasn't tired. Tonight will be night two so we will see if I get tired tonight. Last night, I invested in some curtains. Sometime this week I will have to figure out how to get them up. <BR> <BR> Tonight, I was thinking I might want to try tracking calories again. But, sin... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 08:16:26 EST Frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740252 Just yesterday I posted a blog about being down two pounds and weighing in at 213.8. Today, I weighed in at 216. There is no way, Jose, that I gained THREE pounds over night. I know it was too much mac and cheese and salted pretzels. <BR> <BR> I am so frustrated and mad. Frustrated at myself for weighing in. I am now measuring my tummy measures the same so I don't know what that dumb scale is talking about. Mad at society for making women feel less worthy because they are overweight. <BR> ... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 17:14:30 EST Two Pounds Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739583 It has been two weeks since my committed ending as an Americorp and it feels <em>345</em> ! Not only am I happier overall, I am starting to lose weight. With this morning's weigh in, I am down TWO pounds. SP shows one because they round up. Don't they know there is no rounding up in this weight business, lol. <BR> <BR> If I can just keep up with losing one pound a week, I could drop this week by next summer! That would be awesome if I could fit into my summer dresses by than! And, maybe e... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 20:03:16 EST I love feeling happy again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735722 I am really happy to announce that for the first time in like year, I am feeling like myself - happy and not stressed. It is wonderful. It is like, "Ahh, here I am." For the last year, I have been in such a stressful situation that it has bogged me down. I knew stress is bad but this work stress has felt like a handicap in it's self. <BR> <BR> I am so happy that I do not work in that environment anymore and am starting to feel happy and like I have the ability to get healthy. I am no longer... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 00:06:28 EST July Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729832 I am sure alot of many other people are talking goals today on the first of the month. It really helps me think outside on paper (screen) my goals and try to be accountable. <BR> <BR> Goal 1: Workout 4-5x a week or 16-20 times a month. <BR> <BR> I have been pretty consistent for the last year actually with working out 3-4x a week. Last month it was 12 times but typically it is 16 times. <BR> <BR> Goal 2: Track calories this month. <BR> <BR> I think I am going to try to track my food ag... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 12:20:20 EST The Good In My Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729511 Energy can really affect a person and that is one reason I try to be positive. Lately, I have been focused on the negative job situation but there are alot of positive things going on in my life, too. <BR> <BR> First of all, I am alive. Sometimes it seems like clique but it's true. As I get older and more of my acquaintances get terminally sick, I appreciate that I am fairly healthy and call run out my dreams. I mean I can run 2-3 miles on any day. <BR> <BR> God seems to always provide for... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 01:46:01 EST Lucky Penny http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5725266 Thank you everyone that read my blog, "Wondering What Mirror I Broke" and left a supportive comment. I really do appreciate it. You all gave me alot to think about and I started to realize I am not happy. (I can be a little slow on the get up.) And, I started thinking what was going on in my life when I was happy last. It was when I was training for half marathons, working at the Y teaching newbies how to use machines and working as a CNA. I got to thinking, I can do that here. I don't have t... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 00:05:51 EST Wondering What Mirror I Broke http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724439 I am really depressed by my situation. I feel like I am going no where. Just a year and half ago, my life had so much promise. I just graduated from college with Exercise Science and had the huge accomplishment of losing 100 pounds. I am hardworking, outgoing.. yet this isn't enough. <BR> <BR> I took an Americorp VISTA position and relocated from everything I enjoy. I knew the job would end in June so I started looking in April. I accepted a job full time than it took it back a couple weeks ... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 21:33:46 EST Finally A New Chapter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723563 Today was my last day as an Americorp VISTA. It was tough to stick with it but I did! Woot! In the midst of an office job where people were constantly complaining about their co-workers, I learned that a sedentary office desk job is not for me. I need to move and groove. Over time, I found out that sitting was more exhausting than any standing job I have had. Maybe it was the stress that was exhausting me. Either way, it’s over! Woohoo! <BR> <BR> Many volunteers have asked where I will be g... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 18:39:06 EST How Stress Affects Health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678328 For the last five years, I live and breathe health and fitness. My major in college was Exercise Science and love learning how our body responds to exercise. My last job (before my current) was working at the Y. My best friends are either weight loss success stories or fitness fanatics. My social media accounts are all about running and fitness. My life is health and fitness. <BR> <BR> As we are often reminded through personal lessons, health is intertwined with other component. My personal ... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 00:43:34 EST Bummed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673255 I am feeling kind bummed. Two days ago, I was 203, so down two pounds. Than, yesterday I did 25 minutes on the elliptical and 40 minutes of running. Basically, I burned alot of calories and stayed in my calorie range until I started to get a headache. I get headaches when I don't eat enough. It's a hard balance for me. So, I ate some chips. Not the best choice but fruit wouldn't cut it. In fact, I tried that and it wasn't making it go away. <BR> <BR> This morning I was up to 205. So back to... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 03:25:58 EST Things are falling in place... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672334 A few months back, I boxed up clothes that I no longer wanted to see in the closet. They were depressing me everything I had to get dressed for the day. It was like staring at failure every day. Anyhow, tonight I went though the boxes and sorted out what to give to the Salvation Army, what to sell to Platos Closet and what to give one more try. <BR> <BR> To my delight, I found the sizes ranged from 10-14. Right now, I am a size 16/18 and at 203. (I saw a weight loss this week!) Maybe I will... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 20:48:55 EST Making Small Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670130 This will be a short blog because I am pretty tired. I just wanted to write real quick on some progress that I am happy about that does not involve the scale. <BR> <BR> So, yesterday I saw I reviewed my nutrition and noticed problem areas. One being Starbucks and other drinks with empty calories. This is actually related to getting decent sleep. If I get decent sleep than I wouldn't want coffee to keep me wake. <em>102</em> Other things I need to work on is increasing protein, eating les... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 22:43:57 EST Just a little bit more... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669455 Some people have addiction personalities and I can see I have one. When I am eating junk food like pizza or cookies, I am always saying, "Oh, just one more." Before I know I ate a dozen cookies or a half a pan of pizza. Both things happened this week. <BR> <BR> Than, this morning I was supposed to be getting up to work out before work, and it was just a couple minutes more. Before I knew, I slept in and I had to get my butt moving to eat and out the doors or I'd be late for work. <BR> <BR... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 00:13:36 EST Memory Lane http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668634 When I started this journey, I was 260 and lost 30 pounds that first summer. I am not sure if I have the ability to shock my body like that again. But, I think I want to try. This got me thinking of what did I do that summer that worked. Here is what I have come up with... <BR> <BR> Committed to 60 minutes of cardio everyday. <BR> Walked alot - sometimes 3 or 4 walks a day. <BR> Tracked my food. <BR> Strength trained three times a week. <BR> Never gave up on myself. <BR> Drank tons of wate... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 23:31:21 EST Lack of Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667852 A few weeks ago, I felt good about running 4 miles consistently a couple times for a few weeks and signed up for the Minneapolis Half Marathon. I decided to take my running outside and did 4 miles. It was hard. Like I could feel the impact on my hips. I eventually got home, very defeated. I haven't ran since. <BR> <BR> Tonight, I was on Facebook and a few of my friends liked my activity of me joining the event. Than, I started to feel like I should attempt to train at least. I couldn't let m... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 01:39:32 EST Americorp http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666942 For the last year, I have been working as an Americorp VISTA and it ends in June. As part of the program, they pay us at the rate of poverty to help us relate to people we are serving. I guess I never guessed how this program would change me. Tonight I found out different. <BR> <BR> I was scrolling down my Facebook Feed and came along "Watching a guy use his EBT card to buy 2 cases of Mountain Dew at Holiday gas station. Things that make me go hmmmm...." I had a not so nice comment on it bu... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 22:23:27 EST Brunch Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665635 Thanks everyone for your favorite recipe. Even if I choose to not cook that, it inspires me to try new foods! <em>244</em> This morning my boyfriend's parents are taking me to brunch because it's my birthday. I slaved over the menu and I have decided on 2 eggs, 2 pancakes, and 2 bacon. I think it will be around 500 calories with my rough estimate. <BR> <BR> It really feels good to be back on sparkpeople.com. Yesterday, I had a cinnamon roll with frosting at work and typically I would have... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 11:28:22 EST Need Advice on Obstacles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664724 Today I broke down and got internet. A Spark friend/Facebook friend mentioned that having internet may be just as important as a gym for me. I think she is right. I need the online community support. It was what I helped me lose 100 pounds in the first place. I realize I do need that cheerleader and together all of you are a cheerleader for me. <BR> <BR> I am still figuring what exactly what I want and where I want to go. <BR> I DO know I want to be 165 again. <BR> I DO know I want to be ... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 00:49:11 EST Is it June yet? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662959 Thank you for giving me some feedback about meeting people. There are classes I would try but my work hours really don't jive with the times they are offered. I work 9:30-6:00 pm. All the classes are done after 6:00 pm. My new Y really caters to the folks that work typical work hours. <BR> <BR> I have tried different things to get fitness into my day - working out in the morning, working out at lunch, working out after work. I find I do not care for the morning or lunch hour workouts. They ... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 21:02:35 EST