THATLLPREACH's SparkPeople Blog THATLLPREACH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community End of Day 4 On the road today, overnight and at the will of hosts tomorrow for lunch (the kind you must allow to provide for you). So far so good. Planned for a bought dinner so ate light (hummus and veggies for lunch) and ended up within range tonight. I'm glad a tracked even though I had to get out of bed to do it! We bought groceries to make our own breakfast in the morning. The challenge tomorrow will be resisting the urge to get lazy and just eat whatever on the way home. <BR> Can I? Will I? s... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 22:54:16 EST Long Haul and Consistency My slow "a-ha" for today: This is going to take awhile. As much as I want to see immediate results, I truly realize that it's not going to happen quickly. My body is morphing into its most undesirable shape yet and there is no quick fix. So I have to resign myself to this: a long, consistent walk down to what I desire to be. <BR> <BR> Ugh. I want to whine. I want someone else to fix this for me. I want that magic pill. A shot that would keep me motivated or give me energy so that I... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 08:30:36 EST Boundaries It was strongly suggested that I live within boundaries. Being a rebellious kind of girl, I'm not liking that suggestion but KNOW that it is what I need to do. So this morning, in my journal, I wrote down the boundaries I will try to live within today: <BR> I will drink all my water <BR> I will track all my food <BR> I will work diligently during "work hours" during this very disjointed day <BR> I will speak ONLY the truth, in love or keep my mouth shut <BR> I will ... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 08:28:15 EST Confessions So there was Sandy. My daughter decided to make Chocolate Chip Cookies. They were really good. So good I already had two right before I worked out this morning. My immediate thought was, "Well I won't be tracking my food today!" <BR> Then it hit me! I need to be disciplined about recording food, not just when I'm doing well and wanting to do well, but in these periods of rebellion too. So I am committing to recording every nasty little bite that passes my lips. Then I will have to fa... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 08:52:18 EST A-ha! Moment I've been off track. Slipping slowly from disciplines for the last month and then sort of letting go enough to stop the weight from coming off and revisit old habits. But the "A-ha!" came when I was whining to myself about the time it takes to track my food, visit my teams, read motivational blogs from others. IT IS THESE VERY THINGS THAT KEEP ME GOING. Even though it takes time I don't want to use, it is worth it. Perhaps it is the very act of slowing down, paying attention and holding ... Sat, 21 Apr 2012 08:26:55 EST Peaceful Progress Someone said it to me yesterday, "You seem to be really at peace with this weight loss journey." She was right. I'm not hyper and frantic. I'd call it being sober and determined. Being joyfully aware that I'm 25 pounds down but have 75 to go helps keep things in perspective. It's the long range look that is really helping this time. You see, I've lost these 25 pounds before and gained them back. I'm looking for this time to be different. So while I celebrate the victory of pounds lost... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 06:31:00 EST Long time = No see I was just checking on the folks I had claimed as Spark Friends on my page. There weren't many to start with but three out of four seem to have vanished from SparkPeople. Their statuses haven't been changed for over 400 days. I see that my last blog was in March of last year. I think it makes me want to be a better encourager of people. Think I'll go back and send a quick note to each of them. Who else can I encourage to keep pressing on today. I'm thankful that my husband is doing tha... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 06:13:28 EST Telling the Truth I did not want to get on the scale. i did not want to record what i saw there. I wanted to lie for the sake of my BLC team and for my own pride. But I told the truth because it will not do a bit of good to lie to myself. The truth is this was a week of celebrating many things with many people with strange schedules and 4, yes 4 birthday cakes! I enjoyed myself immensely but there are consequences to that enjoyment. But today marks the beginning of a return to a normal schedule. Hallelu... Mon, 21 Mar 2011 08:43:40 EST I earned it! Yesterday I successfully defended my doctoral thesis! <BR> So my eating has been poor, my exercise has been non-existent, but that BIG WORK is done! I will graduate in May and although there are little revisions to make, something I've been carrying with me for the past five years can be put down. I am free of that task! <BR> Will it make a difference in my head so that I can devote more of myself to healthy living? i sure hope so, otherwise I've been using it for an excuse these past year... Tue, 15 Mar 2011 06:47:07 EST Jeepers I can be so good, until I'm not and then it is such a hard thing to turn around! <BR> This weekend I intended to be good. I resisted the Godiva chocolates I bought for my friends. The Italian restaurant we went to did not offer any salads as meals and even though i had room in my calorie account for pasta and planned what I would have, the fish special sounded better. i didn't enjoy it and was very full. That was probably okay, but we returned for dessert after the concert. My defenses... Sun, 6 Mar 2011 06:50:38 EST Not Official - but! I weighed in this morning and was 220! The next time I get on the scale it should be in the 200teens!!!!!! It's been a long time! I will have to be so careful of what I put in my mouth over this weekend when meals are out and who knows where. I hope I have the stamina to err on the side of little instead of much. I don't want to "just enjoy" the weekend because it takes me too long to turn that boat around! So we'll see. Motivated by that scale number today. Can't wait to get outside ... Fri, 4 Mar 2011 09:15:37 EST One Week Streak! At last I've broken the barrier! I was able to meet my goals for six days straight! Even eating out twice! it's all in the planning and persistence. Feels so good! <BR> Now today will be a challenge because I face the unknown with an outing to a hockey game and I'm not sure what sort of socializing so I'll be really light on breakfast and lunch and leave myself some wiggle room. Then tomorrow is Valentine's Day and my DH is taking me out to a restaurant that doesn't publish it's nutritio... Sun, 13 Feb 2011 05:56:32 EST I am learning . . . I have to really be ruthless with myself. I allow myself one little break and the whole eating plan goes to heck. Maybe this will be a shorter fall. It happened with too many calories at Sat. breakfast, not stable through a funeral potluck on Mon. Home alone two days with munchies. Today I will start over. I have a plan. I will do my best to stick to it. I will be strict with myself until I lose 10% of my body weight. This should take until May. When special occasions arise (as they ... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 07:07:08 EST 3-Day streak! Short, I know, but it does wonders for my mind to know that I have chosen to do these specific things and have stuck with them for three days even in the midst of huge amounts of stress. So I will celebrate these three little days as I enter into the fourth. Thu, 6 Jan 2011 09:24:16 EST Small Victory I have determined to eat under to the low range of my calories for a long while. When I checked in after dinner I wanted to be but still hungry (habit of one more snack at night during holidays). I knew I didn't want any more calories in, so I told myself "no" and am going to bed without that little extra something. Feels good to stick to my guns. Mon, 3 Jan 2011 21:37:15 EST Not writing it down today Okay, maybe I'm feeling a little defeated and giving in to that "what's the use" mentality. But I don't think so. I think this is just my reality for today. Although I ate a snack I shouldn't have and want to hide it by not writing it down, today there was a picnic and it just will require too much energy of me today to try to figure out every thing I ate. So I'm giving myself the grace not to write it down today. Tomorrow we start again. There is a menu planned. There are the possible... Sun, 19 Sep 2010 15:55:05 EST Not remembering I ate something Anyone else have this problem? You finish entering your food for the day and smile with satisfaction as you acknowledge you've stayed within your calorie range. Then, in the middle of the night or the next day you realize you didn't record that piece of wedding cake you had? Oh! I hate that! Why is it so easy to forget? What is going on in one's head when this happens? Denial? Old age? Ack! Mon, 13 Sep 2010 12:37:22 EST Successful Week! So my baby step for the week was to stay within my calorie range. I was over one day by 90 calories and know what I did to make that happen and will try to manage better next time! Huge success for me. <BR> I have a partner to hold me accountable and I'm doing the same for her. Knowing I have to check in and face some bold questions has helped. I enjoyed working on staying in range. One thing I have to get rid of is thinking that bread is a bad thing. When a sandwich would be the least ... Sat, 28 Aug 2010 20:18:10 EST Is Summer Over Yet? I love summer with all the fresh produce. I always enter the season with high hopes of eating only what comes from the garden. But there's always vacation, cookouts, and, in our area, LOTS of carnivals with fried food! I end up giving up! But I REFUSE to be defeated even though I'm sure I've been set back (I'm not getting on the scale until I get things a little bit under control!). So this week it's starter baby steps: 64 oz. water and a morning walk/run. I really believe that a lot o... Mon, 9 Aug 2010 18:35:10 EST Finances and Food Spent the day at a financial seminar. Wonderful information and motivation. As my husband and I drove home we talked about what it will take to really change our attitude about our finances and make them work for us. We came up with a lot of the same things it takes to get our bodies healthy. How about that! Discipline! Stop procrastinating. Make better choices! It seems like God is nudging us to get everything in order lately: our bodies, our finances, our relationship, and always, ... Thu, 13 May 2010 20:34:47 EST Small Hooray! Since February, I have lost 21 pounds!!!! <BR> Small victory since there are 80 more to go but I need to learn to celebrate these small milestones and not discount the fact that I've worked hard to get here. <BR> I am grateful for Spark People. I'm not a joiner and have a lot of rebellion in me, but I'm participating anyway and IT IS CHANGING MY LIFE! <BR> So here's to the next 20. <BR> Thanks for all of you out there who fight this fight and don't give up. It's good to struggle with you! ... Wed, 12 May 2010 08:22:44 EST Daily Challenge Accepted! Better space today! Thank you God! <BR> The challenge to blog on a few small goals and top 5 motivators. Drats! I'll have to think! This may be painful! <BR> Goals: <BR> 1) To eat every meal possible out of my home. I know I have a day long conference on Thursday and a rehearsal dinner and wedding reception on the weekend. Otherwise there is really no reason to be spending extra calories (or money!) on food! <BR> 2) To write everything down. <BR> 3) Stay on top of the other goals t... Mon, 10 May 2010 13:17:20 EST Depressed? Ick, my last blog entry was titled "bummed". This is not good, but I think it's where I am. I'm trying to cut myself some slack as I feel lousy (cold) and wanted something salty for my throat. Being near a McDonald's I had a medicinal small fry. Got home and still needed salt so polished off the tortilla chips. Then I had to track all that. Sigh. <BR> <BR> On top of this, I feel depressed, but I don't think it's about the food. I seem to be hyper sensitive and am right now over reac... Wed, 5 May 2010 17:56:22 EST bummed So, I measured today. Not much change. Bummed me out. I feel like I've been diligent - not perfect - but diligent in working out and eating. I feel like to get things to change I'm going to have to work out 45 minutes morning and night plus toning stuff. Grrrrr. My spouse is frustrated with his progress (or lack thereof) also. Part of me wants to say "Forget it!" but I believe that a change WILL come if I remain faithful. It's at these moments that I wish there were a magic pill. Hon... Mon, 3 May 2010 08:44:19 EST Chinese Buffet Went out with folks for Chinese last night. My first plate of food was well behaved. My second plate was - well in my mind and from my friend I heard "you deserve a splurge" so I had a little bit of General Tso's Chicken and a little coconut shrimp. I walked past the icecream and looked but thought, "Dag gum it, if I eat that I'll have to write that down too!" and passed on it. Yea! <BR> Coming home and writing things down was sobering and educational. I love the taste of General Tso's ... Sat, 24 Apr 2010 08:55:01 EST Fitness and The Gospel I'm a preacher and it is my task to give people information about the Gospel and then to help that information move from their head to their heart. I encounter a lot of people with a lot of head knowledge but it's not transforming their life. <BR> It occurred to me today that I'm that way with health and nutrition. Heck! I've been engrossed in the subject for the last 35 years. I know a lot! But I'm still overweight. Hmm . . . all that information is not transforming my life. It's not ... Thu, 22 Apr 2010 06:24:01 EST Wake up! Oh yikes! I think I've come to realize where I often fall down and don't get up when it comes to eating healthy. Vulnerability and accountability. It's fun to share when one has lost weight and pant sizes, but when one fails it's easier to crawl into a hole. I realize that this site is asking me to participate with other people. Scary. One reason is that I don't know quite how to jump in. What if people don't like me? What if no one responds to my blog? What if I'm not able to figure... Mon, 19 Apr 2010 16:27:59 EST Help! I don't really know how to navigate the site. I wanted to do today's challenge and encourage team members but I don't know how to find them to do that! I did not do great with calories today. In the afternoon, feeling starved and needing to toast a new bag of almonds, I went nuts (literally) and added 800 calories to my day. Grrrrr. Then when I wanted something sweet after dinner I didn't just stick to strawberries, I figured the almond calories didn't really count and added other stuff... Tue, 13 Apr 2010 21:41:47 EST For Today For today I am going to go back to my first three goals. I am going to drink all my water. I am going to track all my food. I am going to do at least 10 mins of cardio (already done with 44 mins!). I'm going to just stick with those three goals throughout the weekend and on Sunday I will move on to seriously looking at the goals for the second stage of the Spark Diet. I feel I've just sort of been muddling through and that's not going to change my life. Intentionality is key! Here goes... Thu, 8 Apr 2010 06:46:18 EST Easter Almost through the day. Met my goal of using the tracker for seven days straight. Even with giving myself freedom to eat what is in the house today, I'm not over in any area. That's happy. This will be a challenging week to stay on track, but I am going into it with a plan - eating well when I'm in control and remembering that I'm really in control all of the time. Sun, 4 Apr 2010 18:14:39 EST