http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=THATBRONWYNGIRL THATBRONWYNGIRL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5356347 ...is embodied in my bff, NICB87. <BR> <BR> I binged last night. No excuse--I can't even point to a trigger. My bf wasn't home, I had done well all day, got home with the intention to work out... Meant to do laundry, but didn't get to it. I watched movies and ate dinner...and then Doritos... and suddenly realized how much I'd eaten. So, I texted my bff and former diet-and-workout buddy...and as always, she came through. This time, though, we went an extra step... <BR> <BR> So, I made s... Tue, 14 May 2013 13:20:27 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5355126 So many excuses... <BR> ...so little effort. <BR> <BR> Fact of the matter is, Bronwyn, you haven't been doing what you should be. You have every excuse in the book to be down, depressed, stressed-out...and NONE to not be working out. Yeah, you've got physical issues. You've worked past those before, woman. Get up, pull on your big-girl panties, and git'er'dun!!! What is WRONG with you?? <BR> <BR> I'm tired, I'm stressed, my heel still hurts (depending on use--been worse, just lately).... Mon, 13 May 2013 12:10:49 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349996 Just a quick update... <BR> I've been forced offline on weekends, because my laptop is no longer on speaking terms with my wifi. Sometimes I can hardline into the internet, but that results in no Netflix on the tv, and that is generally met with such a response as to make me leery of doing so. <BR> <BR> Today is a work-then-work day... I'll finish at the bank at 4:45, then drive straight to bath and body and work there until 9:30. I'll get home at 10, if I don't hit any traffic at all. <BR... Wed, 8 May 2013 15:18:01 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5347242 ...layer of stress. <BR> <BR> My windshield cracked. <BR> Jury's out on whether it was the heat, the hail the other night, a rock...idk. But it's definitely wider than a dollar bill, definitely unavoidable, and -most importantly- definitely not going to be covered by my insurance. Not the least bit. Estimated repair cost? $300. Motivation to pay said repair cost? Cops will pull me over and ticket me (which I DO NOT need right now), and then there's, y'know...death and/or serious injury... Mon, 6 May 2013 10:21:05 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343313 I don't know if I've mentioned my anxiety disorder before, but...well, I have an anxiety disorder. I get panic attacks and sometimes I just shut down and weep. Target used to make me feel that way--I'd been off the 'as-needed' meds for a couple years, and working there was so stressful, I had to see a doctor and have her prescribe more. A very low, take-the-edge-off dosage, but still... and there were nights I required two to get calmed down. It gets bad sometimes. <BR> <BR> Now, obvious... Thu, 2 May 2013 13:37:26 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5341900 So, I made my broccoli-cheddar soup last night, and here is the recipe: <BR> http://recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-de<BR>tail.asp?recipe=2476006 <BR> As I mention in the description, I blanked and forgot the carrots...and I'm sad. But I'll live, right? Right. <BR> <BR> Our new (temporary) roommate moved in some more of his stuff, and last night was his first night staying with us. So far, I'm impressed--he's polite, conversational, grateful to be helped (we gave him a dresser and cleane... Wed, 1 May 2013 11:19:54 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5340511 It cracked me up the other day, to read an article (I thought it was on SP, but I can’t find it, so…pardon my paraphrase) about eating healthy on the cheap…and one of the first items on the list of ways to slim down your grocery bill was (y’all ready for this??): <BR> Eat less. <BR> <BR> I seriously laughed, right out loud. I mean, it’s so basic—but nobody ever says it that simply. ‘Hey, your budget is tight? Got money concerns? Try EATING LESS.’ Now, this is closely followed by ‘eat be... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 09:31:37 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339514 This weekend...wow. <BR> First, major kudos to my bf. I got home on Friday and he'd cleaned the living room...in a BIG way...and started on the kitchen. We brainstormed and decided to do dishes by hand (we get water for free, but pay for electricity...so we're going to try and use the dishwasher less)... We did all the laundry (well, that was more 'me' than 'we', but he did help), air-dried a good chunk of it (my work clothes are delicate, whaddaya want??) and spent $6.50 instead of $7.50 ... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 13:15:52 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5336239 Okay, I get how people balance two jobs. At least, for now. My manager at Bath & Body swears she never schedules people outside their availability, and as long as that holds, I'll be good. The extra income is going to be more than welcome...and my energy isn't flagging...yet. <BR> <BR> My issue has been fitting working out into this new schedule...it was going well with just the bank job (one of the reasons I love me a bank job), but tacking a 5:30-9:30 on the end of an 8:15-4:45 is a lit... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 10:28:28 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334256 How to make do, how to do things cheaper, more efficiently...which is no easy task, since I'm a money-saver and couponer by nature. There's nothing like a good deal, where I'm concerned. But now--it's all about tightening the belts and purse strings, and one of the best resources a girl could hope for happens to be.... The Internet. <BR> Thank God for the Internet. <BR> <BR> I'm learning how to repurpose pants into shorts and skirts, how to mend clothing, how to stretch food (got some gr... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 14:28:15 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5331982 So, my old job took half of my paycheck back from me. <BR> I'm still fighting with them. <BR> And then I did my finances, paid bills, looked toward the future...and cried. Student loans, rent, utilities...I'm so strapped, I've got $30 left to me each month, and that's without taking food into account...and my dad is still covering my car insurance, health insurance (actually, that's at no cost to him because my brother is already on it, so we both agreed that it just made sense), and phone b... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 16:24:32 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327432 Last night was supposed to be a cookout. It was billed as a cookout. So, I was at work all day thinking 'okay, if I stay on track, I can handle a cookout. I can do a burger and I'll take fruit and it'll be okay...' <BR> It was not a cookout. It was a hang-out. And the food provided was pork chili (with not one single veggie in it--not even some sweet peppers slipped in on the sly) with fries and tortilla chips. I brought fruit. That was the healthiest thing there. And I wound up so hu... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 10:11:52 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5326251 There are a lot of things in my life that feel out of control lately--I've been feeling like life is kicking me repeatedly in the ribcage while I'm already on the ground, lately. Just when I think finances are okay, something hits out of the blue (like a former employer debiting over half of my final paycheck back out of my account, because I was 'accidentally' paid...for the time I WORKED...and this is, of course, after I've already put through bill payments (for what feels like a massive a... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 10:12:10 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5325301 I don't generally tend to rant on here, but this one...this one peeves me, and has, for some time. <BR> In the time that we spend on SparkPeople, if we pay attention to our surroundings (digitally speaking--like what's on the site), we can learn a heck of a lot...and about a variety of things! We learn about carbs and fiber and protein and fruits and vegetables and dairy...about water, about intolerances and allergies and joint pain (and how to work around it)...about fad diets and why they ... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 13:54:15 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215087 My double ear infection is slowly getting better (it's not painful, but my hearing is still diminished and I have ringing in my ears), and my foot/ankle is finally starting to slowly improve (I was able to do 2 regular push-ups today...I had to switch to modified push-ups at that point, but I know that rebuilding the strength and mobility of that ankle is going to take time, so I'm not discouraged!). I've done some ab work two nights in a row, now, and I did some weight lifting tonight--most... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 03:57:37 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212459 I have a double ear infection. That means two days off work, plenty of rest, an X-Files marathon in the background...and some self-reflection. <BR> So, I have some (smallish, manageable) goals for tomorrow, and for the long term: <BR> <BR> Tomorrow: <BR> 1. Move the exercise bike to the living room. <BR> I have GOT to get back on track with my movies-and-biking thing, and having it closed up in our 'workout room' is NOT helping. I need it out in the middle of the living room, staring m... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 04:51:52 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198100 I've been crazy busy at work! <BR> Keeping the diet going, but the tracking has been a little patchy, just because I haven't been taking the time. I've been tired and in pain--so I've been watching my eating, but not tracking. I know, I know... <BR> I weighed in a day early (on Monday), not expecting much, and I'm 3lb down! Yay water weight! :-) <BR> <BR> My goal is 140 by my birthday in July...totally attainable, even with my broken foot/ankle and the limited cardio and general working ... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 02:03:46 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187354 Day 2!! <BR> I know the timestamp on this says it's the 3rd, but that's because I just got home from work at 11:40, and I had to eat a little dinner and stuff...anyway, just wanted to make sure and check in. <BR> Today's meals were pretty good...I have to figure out how to track one thing--the sweet and sour pork stir-fry I made the other night. It's a SparkRecipe, but I used Splenda brown sugar instead of regular (it's actually really tasty, btw--we've used it in everything from chocolate c... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 00:32:29 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184250 I've been struggling with my good habits since moving into the new apartment. Maybe it's just the space--having my own, it being an unfamiliar space with no memories ingrained, including those of health, fitness, etc.... Either way, I'm not happy with where I am right now, and sh*t's gotta change. I'm re-establishing the mutually-beneficial diet bond with NICB87, and talked to the bf and even our roommate (the age-old 'please leave my yummy diet food alone' conversation--because my diet foo... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 15:50:44 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5133006 Recipe: <BR> <BR> 3-4 oz boneless skinless chicken breast (I roast mine and slice it) <BR> 21 g fresh spinach (ish) <BR> 50 g cucumber, peel on <BR> 1/4 cup sliced red bell pepper <BR> 14 g Archer Farms Wonton Strips <BR> 1 no sugar added mandarin orange fruit cup <BR> 1 tbsp (17 g) Archer Farms Asian Sesame Dressing <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/9/l898805690.jpg"> <BR> (Mine was 3.3 oz chicken, and clocked in at 280 calories and 25 g protein) <BR> <BR> It was ... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 16:32:39 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5132992 It's been awhile... <BR> Too long of a while, and filled with too many excuses. So, here's the closest I can get to an explanation: there was a lot going on, and then I got depressed. <BR> <BR> I moved to Florida in mid-September, as I mentioned in a previous post, I'm sure. I was hopeful and excited and just beside myself with joy--my bf and I drove all of our stuff down, moved into our apartment, and I spent a week and a half joyfully unpacking boxes and putting things away and doing lau... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 16:22:08 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5037603 Had to take a break last night because of my knee--so, I made a healthy dinner (fajitas!! with no taco seasoning packet...used my own seasonings and they were low-cal, low-fat, low-sodium. the tortillas were even low-carb/high-fiber!), cleaned up (grumbling all the way, because my dad didn't do squat yesterday in the kitchen, but gave me crap about not having washed the grill pan approximately an hour after cooking dinner...ugh!!), and then iced my knee while I watched Clockwork Orange (so ... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 14:26:42 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5036105 The past few days....ugh. <BR> <BR> Day before yesterday, I filed a sexual harassment report. No details--that's enough said, I think. Just rough, emotionally. <BR> Yesterday, I had to follow up on it--they were really on the ball, so understanding, very kind and apologetic. They took care of everything yesterday. Of course, the claim was denied by the other party, but hey--even my HR lady said that she didn't expect a response of 'why, yes, actually, I was totally harassing her. Why do... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 13:25:00 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5029498 For those of you who don't know, I'm a 'floating' bank teller (basically, I fill in at all different branches) at a small community bank. I love my job--I've never, ever had a job before, where customers call from Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts and ask if any of us want anything... The downside of that, this morning, was that the customer in question got my order wrong and accidentally brought my a non-skinny venti caramel macchiato...which ia bout 2x the calories of a skinny one... ARGH. That... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 15:25:16 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5026570 ...under my butt. <BR> <BR> I started the 10-minutes-a-day streak challenge yesterday...off to a bit of a poor start, alas. I got in 6 minutes last night, but *had* to talk to my bf about moving things, and by the time we were done on the phone, it was 1:30 am, and I had to be up in 4 hours. <BR> *BUT* I got up early (accidentally...long story) and did a workout this morning (8 minutes), and if I want to make up the time from yesterday, I just need to fit in 6 minutes today...totally do-a... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 15:04:06 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5024860 Lots going on... <BR> <BR> 1) My class is over--my last class EVER. I got an A, which solidifies me as a future Cum Laude graduate of Rutgers University. Booyeah!! No more finals, no more textbooks... I can read whatever I want now!! <BR> <BR> 2) Moving day approacheth!! We're aiming for Sept. 21st, but not entirely sure yet, since my bf's teaching schedule may change things a bit...but only by a couple of days, so... Soon I'll be a Florida resident!! :-) <BR> <BR> 3) Been fluctuat... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 12:04:53 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4995155 My managers are SO bad for the diet. <BR> <BR> I mean, they're helping to stiffen my resolve, I guess--but...for example, my one manager went out to grab lunch today. Before he left, he called out 'I'm going to the pizza place--anyone want anything?' <BR> He got various responses of 'no thanks' and 'nah, I brought my lunch.' I've been VERY open with everyone about trying to eat right--I eschew cookies and cake, I munch fruit in front of god and everybody, and I don't care. I iz healthy g... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 17:54:51 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4977684 1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? <BR> Nope--my parents just wanted us all to have 'different' names. <BR> <BR> 2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? <BR> Uhm.........yesterday. It's the wrong time of the month, and I'm stressed to the breaking point. <BR> <BR> 3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? <BR> Depends on the day? But yeah, for the most part. <BR> <BR> 4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? <BR> Again, kinda depends on the day...usually turkey or chicken breast, but I love me some th... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 11:35:28 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4963637 Had an oh-crap moment. <BR> My dad just had foot surgery (two weeks ago on Wednesday), and although I've been up and down getting him stuff, I haven't been able to work out--just no time, between working, keeping the house clean, cooking, grocery shopping, and following him around every time he decides he can't sit still anymore. I still cooked relatively healthy (never ordered in, cooked every night), and wasn't sedentary, but I weighed in 2 lbs heavier… <BR> Plus, I'm not on track for wher... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 10:17:30 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4917865 Been doing okay since Friday, although definitely feeling the weight of depression...nothing too serious, just a little sad, overall. It'll get better as I fall into a routine. <BR> So, to keep myself busy, I've been working as much as I can (not enough for my tastes, but whatever), and doing lots of cooking and baking! <BR> <BR> Last night, we had Greek grilled chicken kabobs with homemade tatziki, spanakopita, and grilled squash and zucchini... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeop... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 14:30:19 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4908722 As my bf and I were getting him ready to move to Florida, I decided not to freak out about food this week. We didn't go hog wild--just didn't worry. I ate healthily during the day, so we could eat whatever for dinner. Not a bad week--there was one splurge day when my dad and his gf took us to a really nice, expensive dinner, and we definitely went over on calories (oh, but it was such good Italian food...). Even then, though, I didn't stuff myself to bursting like I would have once, and I... Sat, 2 Jun 2012 12:32:25 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4872958 ...that you made the right call. <BR> <BR> Today-- <BR> Well, I won't go into detail, but my mother's behavior today really reaffirmed my decision to not be in contact with her. I broke the silence because of the emergency situation with her boyfriend...but that is SO all I can give her. <BR> To give you an idea, one of the things that really brought this home is that while he was having brain surgery yesterday, she was getting so drunk that when the nurses tried calling her to let her kn... Tue, 8 May 2012 21:04:40 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4871332 So, I was lazy this weekend and didn't blog or take photos. <BR> To be honest, we were pretty low-key about food this weekend. We even ordered out on Sunday--mostly because bf and I just wanted to hang together, and we had already gone for a 2-mile jog (I know, some people pull off 5 without bragging, but I'm still kinda working back into the running thing). <BR> I made sure it fit into my calories, though, and traded the ubiquitous cheese fries (seriously, his family gets them EVERY time)... Mon, 7 May 2012 21:49:06 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4863666 I didn't do quite as well on food today, as I would have liked. <BR> I ignored a phone call from my mother this morning--and then she kept calling. Then she called the house phone. It was an emergency--her boyfriend had a stroke, she said, and was on the way to the ER. Turned out to be a seizure, not a stroke (but his left side was immobilized, so she had good reason to think it was)...he has a tumor (they think a meningioma) on his brain (well, on the meninges, so the brain covering, but ... Wed, 2 May 2012 20:21:17 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4861891 No gain; no loss. <BR> My terrible, miserable, awful cold is finally going away. I still have crap in my lungs, but it's almost gone... <BR> The semester is almost over: my last day of classes was yesterday, and I turned in my 10-page paper yesterday by email. Tonight and tomorrow I have to finish my other (MUCH shorter) paper, then I have three exams, each nicely spaced from the last. It'll be okay, I think. <BR> After that, one more summer class, and I'm done. October diploma, and walk... Tue, 1 May 2012 20:15:14 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4849658 Okay. So, I have a terrible head-cold and am nursing that... But I got out and walked (even jogged!) over the weekend, and I'm trying. I have too much homework and finals and papers and stuff to promise any exercise this week, but I will TRY. <BR> <BR> In other news: I quit smoking. <BR> This is probably a bit early to start telling people (and believe me, most ppl in my life don't know), but I have three clean days now, and don't even have cravings. I think it's partly because of the ... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 10:46:57 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4843957 What do you call it when your self-esteem isn't in the toilet, but you just feel fat? <BR> I have that. <BR> <BR> I don't know how I feel about it, either--I mean, this is definitely not a new feeling for me. But…I'm thinner. I lost 30lbs. I told myself for the longest time, that if I could be a size 10, I'd be content with my weight. Well, here I am at a pants size of 10 (12 in some brands), and wearing size medium tops (apparently I'm a jacket size 8!)…and I feel gross. <BR> *sigh* <... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 11:15:09 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4829127 I know I haven't been as active as usual--that's the downside of school. <BR> Things have been so busy--I left Target, and the bank I work(ed) for called to offer me hours, so I'm picking up time there about once a week (and getting compensated for mileage, which is great). They want to cross-train me on the platform this summer (which means managerial duties like opening/closing accounts, etc.), which is great as far as hours are concerned, and even better for my resume! <BR> My boyfriend g... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 18:11:07 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4763891 So, in light of my new goal, I thought it'd be a good idea to re-set my weight tracker-- it now reflects my current weight as the starting point (160) and my goal weight is the same (140). <BR> I kind of felt like...and maybe this is dumb...but I felt like, looking at my tracker with the old numbers on it, I could say 'well, I didn't lose weight this week--but look how far I've come!' Like I could justify it. Every time. <BR> And looking at it now... It's a little intimidating. I mean, I ... Wed, 29 Feb 2012 17:57:30 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4762137 ...no, not literally. <BR> So, spin class was rough... I couldn't do all of it because my hips are still weak, and today I am HURTING. Not my hips, thank goodness, but my thighs hate me with a passion and walking is hard today... So, I'm thinking seriously about whether or not I'll try that one again... I may go for the Pilates on Tuesdays instead. <BR> Today I had a computer science midterm, and I finished in 15 minutes... I'm pretty sure I did just fine. Math test from last week came bac... Tue, 28 Feb 2012 19:24:16 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4760425 In no particular order: <BR> 1. I quit my job. My last day will be Saturday, 03/03. I'll be living off my tax return for a couple months until I can start back at the bank, but it's so worth it. No more frustration, no more being treated like a moron...and way more time for school! <em>58</em> <BR> 2. I'm a size 10 jeans now!! That is OFFICIALLY smaller than I have EVER been before!! I keep ordering clothes and having to exchange them! lol Maybe eventually I'll get used to this..... Mon, 27 Feb 2012 20:08:41 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4739028 So, I was at work the other day, and in anticipation of Valentine's Day, they had set out a gigantic bowl of candy. Now, once in awhile, they do this, and I indulge in a little fun-sized piece of Hershey's Special Dark (*drool*)...this was not the ubiquitous-chocolate-bar-blend-in-a-bag, dumped into a bowl, though. We're talking Fun Dip, Sweet-Tart Hearts, Nerds in little pink boxes, Laffy Taffy... The good stuff. You know what I'm talking about: the kind that gives you an instant sugar hi... Tue, 14 Feb 2012 19:42:57 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4715006 I haven't written in almost a week. <BR> For three days of that week, it was because I hurt so freakin' bad from that Butts and Gutts class last Wednesday. I slept, ate protein, and walked at work as best I could because I had NO time to go to the gym. I had mid-shifts all weekend, all 8-9 hours long. THAT will destroy your day. <BR> But I'm fine now and motivated to go to the class again this Wednesday!! I wound up not being able to go to Tai Chi on Monday because it was an hour later t... Tue, 31 Jan 2012 19:45:39 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4704380 "Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off the goal." <BR> Hannah More <BR> <BR> So, today I put on my big-girl panties and went to a fitness class at school. <BR> They emailed out the semesterly schedule a day or so ago, and I finally sat down this morning and read over it, and selected one that I can take while I'm on campus. <BR> I'm just bored. I mean, the stationary bike is all well and fine when I'm at home or have homework assignments to read or want to... Wed, 25 Jan 2012 23:44:01 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4690292 This morning's weigh-in: 159.0 <BR> Point zero. Yes. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l501829496.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Apparently I'm back on track!! :-) <BR> I got up to about 164 over Christmas, but of course a good bit of that was water weight, blah blah blah, etc. And now, back to counting more carefully and making more time for myself, I am back to where I left off last semester!! So happy...I even wore a skirt and leggings today. <BR> ...And for anyone living on th... Wed, 18 Jan 2012 23:09:51 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4685699 Ah, culinary therapy... <BR> When the world sucks, or I get stressed, or I just need to feel peaceful and homey and happy...I cook. <BR> <BR> Today, I made chili... <BR> http://recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-de<BR>tail.asp?recipe=1932354 <BR> <BR> And banana bran muffins... <BR> http://recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-de<BR>tail.asp?recipe=1945393 <BR> <BR> And my own trail mix... <BR> http://recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-de<BR>tail.asp?recipe=1946259 <BR> <BR> And tomorrow, we're making C... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 23:05:35 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4681203 I got a look today. <BR> I've been getting appreciative looks from guys for awhile...but that's easy enough to dismiss. As people have pointed out (*cough* NICB87 *cough*), I am pretty well endowed. <BR> The look I got today mattered. It was the ultimate in motivation and appreciation. It wasn't wolfish or flirtatious or lusty. <BR> <BR> A girl came through my check lane today. She was probably a bit heavier than I was, when I started my journey on SparkPeople. Somewhere in the range ... Sat, 14 Jan 2012 23:21:51 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4678581 I decided that the best way to handle the problem with my mother. Rather than a confrontation or a phone call, I weighed my options and decided to write her a letter. <BR> It's controlled, she's less likely to respond to it, and I could carefully weigh exactly what I wanted to say. There was just no way I could let it go on the way it was. <BR> So, it's in the mail, and we'll see what happens. But hopefully, it'll go as I hoped. <BR> Either way, I'm solid and determined. <BR> <BR> For now... Fri, 13 Jan 2012 15:04:58 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4676744 Update on the appointments: I'm waiting on results from the obgyn, but that's normal. And she may send me for a mammogram. Bleh. Never had one--but they don't look like the most comfortable experience in the world. <BR> <BR> Tuesday, I wore a dress. And heels. For the first time in months. And I felt GORGEOUS. :-) <BR> <BR> Today, I got to sleep in a bit, then got up and went to the gym for over an hour. Then I came home, showered, and did all the ironing, and now I'm waiting for my... Thu, 12 Jan 2012 18:18:46 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4666412 I was under on calories on Friday, by a little... Felt like crap when I got home from work, and wound up going straight to bed. Yesterday, I went over by about 100. I was just so hungry... Legitimately, really, waited and drank more water to make sure, hungry. <BR> But I met my calories-burned goal for the week, and exercised everyday. So, I'm getting through a two-day rough spot and I'll be fine. <BR> Today, I'm back on track and my calories are all budgeted so that I can have dinner and... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 15:09:48 EST