TEMPERANCE88's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TEMPERANCE88 TEMPERANCE88's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Love letter to my body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5330686 My dear body, <BR> <BR> I am so deeply sorry. <BR> <BR> I'm sorry for abusing you verbally with hateful words. I'm sorry for abusing you physically through bad eating habits and lack of exercise. I'm sorry for abusing you emotionally by acting as though it's your fault I'm overweight. I'm sorry for hating you for so many years, for finding every little flaw and expounding on it, for not appreciating all the wonderful things you do each and every day. I'm sorry. <BR> <BR> The thing is, I d... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 14:27:43 EST Is there another way to go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5315172 So many times in the past couple weeks I've felt like I'm staring down a black hole, standing on the brink about to fall. There seems to be no other way to go, no way around it, no way to keep from free-falling down the dark void into total defeat. My healthy lifestyle has vanished and is out of sight. It feels like I'll never be able to find it again no matter how hard I try. I want to give up. I'm sick and tired of trying and failing time and time again, of losing weight just to gain it bac... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 22:34:23 EST Sleep deprivation + sickness = no bueno http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302341 I. Am. Exhausted. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had a headache, the type where I know a cold is about to show up. That's never fun, but I figured it would be fine as long as I got plenty of rest. So I dutifully went to bed at 9:30 and prepared for a good night's sleep. I was really tired, so I figured I would drift off faster than usual. <BR> <BR> No such luck. <BR> <BR> I was shocked when I glanced at the clock and realized it was 10:30. It never takes me that long to fall asleep, even if it is h... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 18:11:29 EST Well... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5297183 I guess the break didn't last too long. <BR> <BR> Thankfully. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure what I was thinking, but I'm pretty sure my mind was in an all-out free fall on Thursday and I had hit rock bottom. It was a hellacious day after a hellacious week, and I was just done with it all. I don't cry often when it comes to thinking about my weight loss journey, but I was a teary mess Thursday. My eating had been out of control for a week by that point, I was tired of trying, and I just wanted to... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 12:34:45 EST Won't be here for a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5295319 I've decided to take a break from Spark for a while. I don't know how long it will last, but I need to back away from it for a bit. My feelings are really mixed and up in the air, and my eating has been ridiculous. I need to get some perspective and figure out how to stop this free fall. Hopefully I'll get it together quickly, but I don't know for sure how it's going to look or how long it will take. <BR> <BR> If you need to get a hold of me, you can email me at lbusekrus@gmail.com. Thu, 21 Mar 2013 17:56:42 EST My body is giving me sad puppy eyes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5290460 If my body were a puppy, it would be giving me big, sad puppy eyes. You know, the kind where you can just hear it asking "why are you hurting me like this? What did I do to deserve this kind of abuse?" <BR> <BR> It's true. I've been abusing my body with food the past couple days, and it's letting me know it's not happy with that. My body has never done anything to me. My brain is the one who messes with it. My stomach and the rest of my digestive system work just fine; in fact, they've becom... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 23:29:59 EST Day 6/21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5289263 Gotta be honest -- today was a train wreck with eating. An absolute train wreck. I'm still trying to figure out what happened. I was completely blindsided and just ate and ate and ate even though I knew I shouldn't be. On the positive side, I got in my exercise; but that was about all I did right today. Still, it's something. I can't even record everything I ate here because it's too long and embarrassing. I did write it down in my food journal, and let's just say I hope that this type of day... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 22:27:03 EST Day 5/21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5288238 Oh. My. Goodness. <BR> <BR> I've been eating all day long, but not because I was emotional. I was literally hungry all day! This sometimes happens when TOM is due in a few days, so I'm not surprised. I've also been tired most of the day, which is also usual for this TOM. I tried to eat lightly, but didn't really break stuff into meals. Even though I felt really tired, I got in my exercise this morning, and planned my exercise routine for the next 4-6 weeks. It's been a full four weeks since ... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 22:32:22 EST Day 4/21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5286970 Today went relatively well for eating. Work was draining, and I'm considering counting those hours of pushing foam through a saw as my workout; it works my arms and shoulders like no workout video ever could! But I have yoga scheduled for today, and even though I'm putting it off at the moment, I know I'll feel better for having done it once I work up the motivation to do so. I've stuck to my workout routine for a month now; I'm not about to let it slide because I don't feel like doing yoga! ... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 20:38:18 EST Day 3/21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285960 Today went much better for eating. I went light, eating foods that were soft and liquid based. I knew I would be going to a friend's tonight for coffee and dessert, and that just made up my mind all the more to take it easy today. It felt pretty good, actually, especially after feeling so bloated after last night's fiasco. Remember how I said yesterday I felt like giving in and just blowing today off? I resisted the temptation :) I wasn't about to let one bad decision screw up the rest of my ... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 23:56:05 EST Day 2/21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5284332 Starting out is always easy. Day 2 is going along just swimmingly. A part of me is waiting for the doldrums to set in and make this healthy eating harder, or for some roadblock to appear to make me stumble. But hopefully I'll be able to overcome any of that if it shows up. Who knows, it may not! <BR> <BR> Meals for Day 2 of 21: <BR> <BR> Breakfast: omelet (1 egg, 2 egg whites, 2 tsp parmesan cheese) stuffed with 1/4 cup each spinach, tomatoes, mushrooms, and red peppers and 1/2 oz sharp ch... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 19:36:42 EST Day 1/21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5283074 "Progress. Not perfection." <BR> <BR> That's the slogan gracing Kathy Smith's website, and I totally love it. It's something I need to really learn and take to heart; since I'm such a perfectionist I can sometimes lose sight of all the progress I've made through the years. I focus on the one thing I'm doing wrong instead of the many things I'm doing right. Time to focus on the good and learn from the not-so-good. <BR> <BR> With that in mind, Day 1 of forming healthy eating habits was a rav... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 21:11:03 EST Time to form a new habit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281606 Okay, I admit it. I've got issues with food, especially after a period of bad eating. I said I wasn't going to let one bad meal ruin the rest of my weekend, then promptly allowed it to ruin the rest of my weekend. <BR> <BR> Dang it!!! <BR> <BR> My eating choices were off-the-wall bad this weekend. Today wasn't as terrible, but it still wasn't good. So I've come to a decision. It's time to shake off the dust of those bad choices and move on. It's time to form a new habit -- a healthy eating... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 19:59:39 EST Moving past a fall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5279275 I fell off the healthy eating wagon in a big way today. I had been griping to someone about how I was eating so healthy and exercising so consistently, yet the scale was refusing to budge. They suggested something that usually works for them: a day of fasting, drinking just lemon water until dinnertime, then eating a light meal. I know my body, and knew that eating nothing for most of the day wouldn't work, so I modified the plan: I would eat a light breakfast and some fruit during the day, m... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 18:49:32 EST I've been hit by the crazy train! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5274635 The crazy train has hit me. That's the only explanation for the amount of exercise I've been doing consistently. Never before have I been this consistent with exercise. Ever. I made the plan I'm now following a couple years ago, but I was never able to stick with it. Suddenly, I've been sticking with it for 18 days...only 3 days away from it becoming a habit, according to most experts. What changed? <BR> <BR> I've come to the conclusion that there has to be something to motivate you in the b... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 16:55:04 EST On the way to forming great habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5270065 Two weeks. <BR> <BR> That's the amount of time I've been exercising consistently, following the plan I laid out in my previous blog. I feel great. My body is stronger and I actually look forward to exercise most days (I know...weird!!!). Yoga is still if-y for me...I'm not sure whether I like it or not. It feels pretty good, but some of the things the instructor in the video says strikes me as funny, and I end up laughing instead of relaxing. Or maybe I just need to stick with it and learn ... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 17:40:43 EST Motivation hits hard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259302 I've been looking for motivation to live healthy consistently again for a while now. It's been extremely elusive. I tried to buckle down and "just do it," but couldn't seem to do that on a regular basis. The motivation would come and go, and I'd have about three days maximum of eating right and exercising, but then one or the other would fall to the wayside and stay that way for a while. That was the cycle for the past year and a half. It's been tough and frustrating. I'm pretty sure the only... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 21:47:13 EST Motivation to lose weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5251989 Talk about motivation to lose some pounds before June...I'M GOING TO HAWAII!!! Every time a child in my family graduates from high school, they get a trip to Hawaii. I got mine almost seven years ago, and now it's my sister's turn, and she wants me to come with her. And thanks to a generous federal tax return, I can go! YAY!!!!! <BR> <BR> Time to get on that workout program... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 20:34:52 EST First baby step taken http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5243989 Yay! First day of the baby steps workout plan complete. I did my 30 minutes of upper body strength training. My next strength workout will be Tuesday. Between now and then, I may just march in place or walk for exercise. We shall see. All I'm focusing on for the next month is getting in that strength training twice a week. Sat, 9 Feb 2013 13:21:47 EST Implementing small changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242177 For some reason, it's hard for me to make small changes. I tend to be an all or nothing kind of person. If I'm gonna exercise, then I'm going to go all out! Forget small steps! Psh! <BR> <BR> Annnnd...that hasn't worked. I burn out too fast and get frustrated at my lack of perfection. So I give it up and just lull around until the next wave of motivation comes and sticks around for about a week or two. <BR> <BR> This time, I'm taking baby steps. It may be difficult for me to accept small s... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 22:22:15 EST My laptop is trying to thwart me!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234681 I put on my workout clothes. Got my water bottle. Pulled the DVD off the shelf. Popped it into my laptop's DVD drive. Clicked on the appropriate button to get my awesome cardio workout started. <BR> <BR> Nothing. <BR> <BR> Pulled the DVD out, cleaned it off, put it back in and tried to get it working. It made it to the title menu. Then refused to keep going to the workout. <BR> <BR> Slightly frustrated, I repeated the process, this time blowing into the laptop's DVD drive for good measure.... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 16:22:29 EST I fail, therefore I win http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232437 I fail. <BR> <BR> Over and over and over again. <BR> <BR> Today I ate too much chocolate. Plus a bowl of ice cream with additional chocolate chips. I haven't exercised to the point of sweat in a couple weeks. I've been sick. I've been tired. I haven't been motivated. I've come up with excuse after excuse for why trying to live healthy is too hard. I don't want to push on. <BR> <BR> And yet. <BR> <BR> These are setbacks. These are failures. But they are making me stronger. <BR> <BR> I w... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 23:13:11 EST Issues of the heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222452 Have you ever come to a place of contentment only to have it disappear in a matter of days? You think you surrender something to God, then BAM!!! It comes back with a vengeance. <BR> <BR> That seems to be the story of my life when it comes to my single-ness. Especially recently. In a few short months, I'll be 25. Never been in a relationship. Only been on one date (and that was one of the more awkward experiences of my life...note to self...don't date someone you're not at all attracted to.... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 00:48:38 EST Letting go of the http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217704 I am a self-professed perfectionist. If I don't do something just the way I think it should be done, I tend to give it up. It's the all-or-nothing mentality, and it's been a big problem in the past couple years. <BR> <BR> Oh, I messed up by eating too much at lunch. Well, I guess since I already blew it, might as well mess up the rest of the day as well. <BR> <BR> Oh, I forgot to exercise Tuesday. Since I've already messed it up this week, might as well not exercise until Monday. <BR> <BR... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 21:40:06 EST Is it wrong... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216250 ...to be so thrilled the Patriots lost? As a Bills fan, I have a deep seated dislike for said Patriots, and just find it so ironic that they haven't won a Super Bowl since they were caught up in that "spy gate" scandal back in 2007. <BR> <BR> That's all. For now :) Longer blog (not football related) to follow tomorrow. Sun, 20 Jan 2013 22:41:18 EST Day 9/365 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199720 I'm feeling so out of it right now...felt like screaming at dinner...probably comes from the fact that I'm 24 and because of financial circumstances have to live with my family...including 4 teenage sisters and a pre-adolescent boy...ahhhh!!!!! Love them dearly, but sometime I feel like I need to get away...but there's no where to really get away to...maybe I need to take a good book to a coffee shop and just read...or go see a movie...maybe Les Mis again...hmm. <BR> <BR> Daily prayer and Bi... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 23:30:26 EST Day 8/365 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197587 Being sick stinks. But I suppose the silver lining is that it means I have no urge to overeat...that's got to count for something, right? <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Daily prayer and Bible reading - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Read from a spiritual book or devotional daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Write down a blessing and put it in a jar - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Spark daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Eat right - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Get in a minimum of 10 minutes exercise dail... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 19:55:06 EST Day 7/365 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5196137 Eating was very rough today. Too many cookies and too much ice cream. Things were going so well, then just tumbled downhill in the eating department. I was feeling like a failure for a while, but I remembered that God forgives my mistakes and gives me new grace each day. Holding onto that grace for tomorrow! I'm going to seriously need it to get back on track and not allow today's mistakes to affect tomorrow's decisions. <BR> <BR> P.S. Anyone see that Notre Dame game?? Ouch!!! I don't like c... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 23:58:54 EST Day 6/365 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194093 Today was definitely better than yesterday, thank God. I was feeling better and ate reasonably. It was a pretty good day for football too. I wasn't emotionally invested in either game, so it was fun just to watch and enjoy. <BR> <BR> Daily prayer and Bible reading - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Read from a spiritual book or devotional daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Write down a blessing and put it in a jar - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Spark daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Eat right - ... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 23:35:58 EST Day 5/365 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5192446 It was kind of a rough day health-wise...it being that TOM and all. Feeling crampy and weak, but hoping tomorrow is a better day. <BR> <BR> Daily prayer and Bible reading - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Read from a spiritual book or devotional daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Write down a blessing and put it in a jar - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Spark daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Eat right - too much bread at dinner...dang! <BR> <BR> Get in a minimum of 10 minutes exercise daily - res... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 00:11:01 EST Day 4/365 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5191641 Ooops...forgot and then didn't have the time to post this yesterday, so here it is, a little late. <BR> <BR> Daily prayer and Bible reading - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Read from a spiritual book or devotional daily - oops <BR> <BR> Write down a blessing and put it in a jar - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Spark daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Eat right - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Get in a minimum of 10 minutes exercise daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Blog daily - oops <BR> <BR> 5... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 13:29:37 EST Day 3/365 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189200 Daily prayer and Bible reading - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Read from a spiritual book or devotional daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Write down a blessing and put it in a jar - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Spark daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Eat right - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Get in a minimum of 10 minutes exercise daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Blog daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> 5 freggies daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Get a minimum of 7 hours sleep - <em>248</em> <BR> <... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 23:28:53 EST Day 2/365 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187030 Daily prayer and Bible reading - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Read from a spiritual book or devotional daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Write down a blessing and put it in a jar - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Spark daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Eat right - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Get in a minimum of 10 minutes exercise daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Blog daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> 5 freggies daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Get a minimum of 7 hours sleep - <em>248</em> ... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 21:23:02 EST Day 1/365 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5185152 Daily prayer and Bible reading - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Read from a spiritual book or devotional daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Write down a blessing and put it in a jar - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Spark daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Eat right - not completely...had a bowl of dried fruit and yogurt-covered almonds when I wasn't hungry...but otherwise the day went well <BR> <BR> Get in a minimum of 10 minutes exercise daily - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Blog daily - <em>24... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 23:51:52 EST New Year 2013 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5181410 It's that time again! Time to think about what we want the upcoming year to look like, what we want to accomplish, and how we are going to get there. It's an exciting time, full of anticipation, determination, and hope. 2013 is going to be a great year -- all twelve months of it. In honor of those twelve months, I've come up with twelve goals for the new year. Let's hit the ground running, friends! <BR> <BR> 1) Daily prayer and Bible reading <BR> This is very important to me, because wh... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 21:24:37 EST No more tracking for this girl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5154733 After over a year of losing nada (I'm hovering at the same weight now that I was at the beginning of the year), I finally found something that is helping. A friend pointed me to a course called The Lord's Table (website www.settingcaptivesfree.com...check it out...it can be life changing!). The concepts all made sense, but something my course mentor said scared the heck out of me. I knew they didn't believe in diets and such, but she said even tracking food (for my particular set of circumsta... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 12:50:52 EST Fellowship of the Unashamed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5111570 Someone recently gave me a typed statement from a Catholic apologist named Patrick Madrid, and it hit me in a big way. I've got it hanging on my wall and try to read it every day. I find it super helpful in my faith journey as well as my health journey. Hope it brings a little light to your day :) <BR> <BR> Mission Statement: The Fellowship of the Unashamed <BR> <BR> I AM A PART of the Fellowship of the Unashamed. <BR> <BR> The die has been cast. The decision has been made. I have stepped ... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 18:05:31 EST The spark is gone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5103625 I'm an eternal optimist. Usually that's a good thing, but sometimes it pulls the blinders over my eyes without me realizing it. That, my friends, results in denial, and denial is never a good thing. <BR> <BR> I'd fooled myself into thinking I was at a weight loss plateau for the past year (since August 2012), knowing full well that a plateau happens when you're doing everything right but still not losing weight. I wasn't doing everything right. I simply wasn't engaging in consistent healthy ... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 10:45:12 EST Life is beautiful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5091081 WOW!!! When did life get so busy? I'm not even taking college classes now, and I feel busier than ever. <BR> <BR> Even so, I also am happier than ever before, because I'm finally living life. <BR> <BR> I still don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I don't know what I'll be doing three months from now. I don't know what the future holds. <BR> <BR> But I'm living. I'm building friendships with young adults in the diocese, and I'm getting a sense of what my calling is. I'm growing s... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 10:11:58 EST October Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5082355 Sweet! It's a new month again. This is a very good thing, because yours truly needs to put the disaster known as September behind her and focus on making good, healthy choices this October. I've started a program called The Lord's Table, and so far it's been very eye-opening. Until I put God first, I won't be able to get anything else truly under control, so doing the daily readings and getting in time with God each day has been wonderful. I feel like I'm finally turning the corner and, with ... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 14:30:03 EST The Superhero Within http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5070430 Superheroes. <BR> <BR> We love 'em. We stick them on pedestals. We wish we could be like them. Little kids run around pretending to be Superman or Wonder Woman. <BR> <BR> Their costumes are popular on Halloween. Their movies make ridiculous amounts of money at the box office. Their comic books are everywhere. Action figures, posters, and other assorted items make millions a year. <BR> <BR> The popularity of these larger-than-life figures begs a question: why in the world are these men and ... Sat, 22 Sep 2012 13:51:33 EST Fall 5% Challenge Assignment #2 and #3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5066802 In preparation for the fall 5% challenge, assignment #2 is to update my spark page...but since I just did that a few weeks ago I'm calling it good. Assignment #3 is a good one and really got me thinking. Here it is: <BR> <BR> "Today's assignment is to list all the reasons you want to lose weight. What do you want to change? How do you want to look? How do you want to feel? What things will you be able to do in the future with a slimmer healthier body? And list all the OTHER things that you w... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 18:45:32 EST Fall 5% Challenge Assignment #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5065227 Check Points <BR> Another 5% Challenge is upon us! (That came up really quickly!!!) I am pumped and ready to go, even though I don't know yet what team I'll be on :) I'm not sure what it is, but I have a feeling that this challenge will be the best one yet. Since beginning these challenges, I've only made my 5% goal once, but I think this time I will hit the goal. 5% of my weight would be about 8 - 9 lbs in the eight weeks. That is totally manageable! I'm ready to slough off this year-long sl... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 17:18:23 EST Overcome http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5059839 Sometime a Bible verse will hit me right in the gut. Today, it was Romans 7:19: "For I do not do the good I want, but I do the evil I do not want." <BR> <BR> The first thought that came to me was, "Wow, how applicable is that to my healthy journey!" My spark name, Temperance, comes from the virtue that opposes gluttony, and I try every day to apply temperance in my life. I truly desire for that virtue to grow and for the vice of gluttony to diminish. Yet time and again, I fall and give in t... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 23:44:07 EST Holy guacamole!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5040117 So. I know my eating has been out of control for the past couple weeks. And I mean out-of-control. Emotional eating, binging, guilt trips...the whole nine yards. It has not been pretty. In fact, it's been downright ugly. I knew it the whole time, but I felt powerless to stop it. Something inside of me had a stranglehold, and I didn't feel strong enough to defeat it. <BR> <BR> Then I stepped on the scale this morning. Two weeks ago I was at an all-time low of 166.2. This morning I was 178.2.... Sat, 1 Sep 2012 14:34:11 EST Something's going on...but what? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5029962 There is something going on with me emotionally, but I have no idea what it is. Whatever is bothering me, it's led to binge eating for the past week straight. I've been working out like crazy at the gym -- which I recognize as a huge accomplishment -- but I've been eating like crazy at home, thus negating the benefits and hard work I put into my workouts. <BR> <BR> Last week I weighed in at 166.2. This morning I was 172.6. It was that bad of a week. Sure, some of it is probably retention fr... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 23:16:10 EST Sick day tips? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5015488 I'm sick. I think. It's either a cold or really bad allergies...but I'm thinking it's a cold. Had a sore throat for a couple days, and now a runny nose, congestion, and the occasional cough. And lots of sneezing. <BR> <BR> Not fun! <BR> <BR> Any tips for treating sick days like this? I took some DayQuil, and so far it's had no effect. I'm taking a break from the gym today, but since the symptoms are all in my head and not in my chest, I'm hoping to make my spinning class tomorrow. Just hop... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 17:48:33 EST Spinning Away http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5010892 The alarm went off at 6:00 am, like it does every morning. "He Said" by Group 1 Crew was playing. The lyrics of my favorite song (at the moment) resonated deep: "He said 'I won't give you more, more than you can take, and I might let you bend, but I won't let you break, and oh, I'll never ever let you go.'" What a beautiful promise from God to wake up to! I got out of bed and headed for the scale. <BR> <BR> Weigh-in morning. I've been trying to stay away from the scale except for Saturday m... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 12:24:39 EST It's August! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4997069 Wow, a new month is here again! Where in the world did July go?? Soon the weather will be cooler, leaves will be falling, allergies will FINALLY come to an end...ahhhhh ;) <BR> <BR> The beginning of a month signifies a great time for change. And I am ready for change. My goals for this month are straight forward -- lose weight. Period. No more of this lose-some-just-to-gain-it-and-then-lose-it<BR>-and-then-gain-and-then-lose...I am done with that. This morning I weighed in at 169.8 lbs, and ... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 21:24:24 EST Doing the right thing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4985638 By nature I am a people-pleaser. I hate disappointing others. Sometime I think it has to do with the fact that I am an oldest child, but I always want to do everything perfectly and make sure I'm not rocking the boat. <BR> <BR> It's time to rock the boat. It won't be fun, but it's gotta be done. <BR> <BR> I'm a cradle Catholic, and have always been fond of the Catholic faith, but never really loved it or owned it as my own. I didn't even fully understand it. Growing up, I never thought th... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 00:21:10 EST