TDL5685's SparkPeople Blog TDL5685's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community New Motivation to Get Healthy! So this weekend has been full of some rather unhealthy choices, I went from a week of eating salads and fruits and vegetables to hot dogs, mac n cheese, potato salad, cake and candy, chinese food, etc... Not the healthiest of food choices i could have made and I paid for it today. I woke up this evening to go to work with a nasty case a heart burn and my stomach was churning like mad. I realized that I hadn't had any heartburn that I can recall all week! Now that's amazing because I sometimes... Mon, 2 Jul 2012 00:52:39 EST I'm slightly embarrassed.... Wake up Call!!!!!!!!! So got home from work today at about 9:00am ( I'm currently working C shift) and got on my workout clothes and decided that I was gonna move today, someway, somehow. I decided to take a break from walking (both my dog and I are hobbling about a bit since we've gotten quite unused to vigorous walking) and thought I would throw in a video and do a little strengthening exercises. I picked a 20 min basic Pilates video as a good easy start (or so I thought). Hoo Boy! I seriou... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 10:25:46 EST Today.. I did it! I walked today. 2 days in a row now where I got off the couch and got moving. That seems to be the hardest aspect of living a healthier life, the exercise. I never feel as if i have the energy to do it, even though I know exercising and dropping all this extra weight will give me more energy. My goal is to take it one day at a time. So I did it today. I walked. My shins and thighs are aching in that way that tells you, you made an impact. And tomorrow, well tomorrow can worry abou... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 01:41:50 EST Today... So today I tried a new twist on an old recipe. Well as you all know summer is here. In NYS it is HOT! Sometimes I find it difficult to figure out what to eat on such hot summer days because the idea of playing around in the kitchen is appalling. Not to mention the thought of turning on an oven... i break out in a sweat just thinking about it. Some nice chilled watermelon and a fresh leafy salad are always summer greats but what if you want something with a little more substance. I decided tod... Thu, 21 Jun 2012 01:35:31 EST No Excuses, No Guilt Well I "fell off the wagon" so to speak this weekend. I'm not going to make excuses for myself, it is what it is. I made some bad choices, ate some deliciously unhealthy food and there is no taking it back now. I'm not going to go into the details of what I ate, I could have made better choices but I chose not to. I could easily start beating myself up about it and worrying about whether or not I ruined all that I had accomplished from the previous week of making lots of healthy choices, but... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 00:30:59 EST Carbs Withdrawal...Is it possible??? This week has been a week a fairly healthy choices for me (food wise) and I must say I am feeling the difference and not in a good way. Maybe this has nothing to do with the change in my diet, but my body is out of wack! My big problem area is not potato chips and fast food, but candy and carbs like cereal (looooovvvvveeee cereal - the junkier the better), toast, crackers etc. and desert (especially ice cream - woot) Those are the things I am trying eat in moderation, replacing them with vegg... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 11:19:21 EST So here's the thing... So weighed myself the other day and 5 pounds have managed to somehow sneak back on me! How rude right! I suppose it could be worse. I hadn't weighed myself in a while and those unsuspecting 5lbs could have brought 10 friends. I have a couple things going on now. My hours at work have switched from A shift to C shift for a little while which is a big change but I am adjusting pretty well to it. I thought it would be a great opportunity to try and focus in and structure myself for weight-loss. ... Wed, 13 Jun 2012 00:11:46 EST Pobody's Nerfect <em>227</em> Warning!!! <em>39</em> Mopiness Ahead! <BR> <BR> <BR> I am my most judgemental critic. I set impossible standards for myself, berate myself when i fail, disparage my successes, and tell myself that if I'm not perfect than what's the point. And since nobody perfect... well you see what mean. Then it's I feel like I lost before I even started. I so overwhelmed with changing everything in my life so that I will be doing everything the exact way to lose the most weight. I try... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 03:13:49 EST No Change is No Good! I went to the Dr.'s the a couple days ago for a terrible cold that I caught which has been going around and my first thought was not about my illness, whether it was more serious than just a nasty cold, if I would have to miss more work, none of that. My first thought was 'I really hope I haven't gained any weight since the last time I was at the Dr.'s.' Or, if like me there is usually a long time gap between Dr's visits so maybe in that pt. chart you've lost 30lbs but since the last time you... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 01:55:18 EST Resolved for the Year! I am not calling this a new years resolution because they have a stigma of not being accomplished. But a goal of mine to achieve by June 2012 is to have gone meatless in my diet. I am starting slow. I want to try one new vegetarian recipe a week and find what I like and build up a sense of rhythm to it, so it works with the flow of my life, but I want to try it. My goal is to get my cholesterol down to healthy level and if I happen to lose a bunch of weight and look absolutely fabulous as a r... Sat, 7 Jan 2012 03:47:30 EST Caught Red Handed with My Hand in the Cookie Jar! Here is something embarrassing I have noticed about myself ... covert eating. I don't know if any of you have ever done this but grab something from a fast food and make sure to finish it before you go in the house and discreetly dispose of the evidence, shoving it in the bottom of the trash can so no one will know you ate it. Or maybe waiting till everyone is asleep before scarfing the rest of the ice cream. Eating a salad at work for lunch then stopping a convenience store for a candy bar a... Sat, 15 Oct 2011 00:06:34 EST To My Fellow Bookworms. It's been while since I dropped by Sparks People with an update on how I've been doing. Today I thought I would send out a blog for those members of my Sparks Bookworm team and take a moment to talk about the books I've read. Over the past few months I've finished... <BR> <BR> State of Wonder - Ann Patchett <BR> The Hummingbird Wizzard - Meredith Blevins <BR> Bel Canto: a novel - Ann Patchett <BR> Thank You Notes - Jimy Fallon <BR> The Forgotten Garden: a novel - Kate Morton <BR> The Immort... Sat, 17 Sep 2011 03:24:46 EST Gettin' Active My last blog entry was all about how I was going to make it a point to do something that got me moving everyday and I would blog about it, keeping track of all movement I was making. Since this is my first blog in 2 weeks, obviously I have not really committed to that change. I must say I am my worst accountability partner ever! But here I am writing about what i have, and have not done. Although i have not stuck to my commitment to get movin' everyday, I have still made some effort in that r... Sat, 20 Aug 2011 08:10:23 EST "Two Thongs Don't Make a Right" hahaha... I'm sorry. That title has absolutely nothing to do with this blog. I just couldn't think of anything clever to put for a title so I quoted something ridiculous from "Whose Line is it Anyway?" <BR> <BR> Well, to get started. I believe it is time for me to become accountable to myself. My weight-loss borders on stagnant and I feel very unhealthy. I am losing weight. It's coming off slowly but I've lost approx. 30lbs since Oct. of 2010. I've been eating a lot of fruit this summer, tho... Sun, 7 Aug 2011 03:07:52 EST Just Venting I'm so frustrated! I just spent the past 1 and a half hours balancing my checkbook and trying to figure out how to pay my bills. Which ones I can hold off paying until my next payday, which ones need to be paid, not too mention things that are already late. It didn't help that I had to drop down a nice chunk of change to feed the fam. this week. Every time I balance my checkbook I get like this, I'm sure 80% of Americans feel the same way. I get so anxious, irritated and angry that I can't se... Sat, 9 Jul 2011 01:28:41 EST Busy, busy, busy... So this week has felt very successful. My grandmother is visiting and she is the spunky type. She always has to be moving and doing something and nothing helps motivate me more then not being able to keep up with a 70 year old. On Mon. we went to Niagara Falls and then we went to a concert in the park with the fam and had a fun time dancing and chasing after my niece and nephew. Tues we went to a farmers market and later we walked 3 miles. Today we went up to the cemetery my mother/ her daugh... Wed, 29 Jun 2011 22:10:51 EST And One More Time! From the Top! Well my fellow Sparkians, today is day 2,632 of my journey to lose weight. No wait... 2,635... 2,854... ummmmm......... Good day fellow Sparkians! Today is Day 1 of my weight-loss journey! <BR> <BR> Ok, so maybe I'm exaggerating a little, but this sob story of my is starting to remind me of the song that never ends. It just goes on and on and... well you know what I mean. Or better yet it's more like the song about Tomorrow, you know the one. It's "always a day away" right. Or maybe a week ... Sun, 26 Jun 2011 01:10:41 EST Oh Mary, how does your garden grow??? Soooo, this is my year. I am determined. I am going to try new things, finish old projects and lose, lose, lose some weight. I am going to eat healthier, be more active and just do something new. I don't know what yet, but something. One thing I am determined to do this year is have a garden. Nothing big cause my yard is tiny, but I am determined to grow something if I have to tattoo my thumbs green. I have lived in my house for almost 3 years and everyear I have attempted the impossible task... Sat, 11 Jun 2011 05:24:33 EST Another 1 bites the dust... then 2 come back seeking revenge. Sooooo....Here's the scoop. 2 weeks ago I made a goal for myself. 14 pounds by my Birthday, May 6th (so approx. 6 weeks). That would put be at a little over 25% of my weightloss goal and down at a weight I haven't been in like 3 . So the first week I lost 1 pound, I wasn't exactly giddy with excitement over this, but at least the scale was tipping in the right direction. Today I step on the scale and that traitorous piece of metal decided to lean the other way, +2. I can't believe I gained 2 ... Sat, 2 Apr 2011 04:44:20 EST Whiney Blog I failed another goal. No weightloss goals reached, no Walking Fitness plan accomplished. I think I get too busy planning these great success and not enough doing is getting done. Especially because it seems the only real purpose of making plans is so that they can fail. Life is just to unpredictable and people even more so. <BR> <BR> I just read some truely inspiring stories about Oceanic Rowers who row across the Atlantic Ocean. They get in this large ocean safe row boats and row solo acro... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 04:41:29 EST Road Blocks I have decided to start a fitness walking training program (from out of the book Fitness Walking) but the weather is conspiring against me. I know excuses, excuses... I live in NY and it has gotten so cold. It is not even winter weather yet, but I still feel so cold. It is hard enough motivating myself to get off my duff and walk on a beautiful day, let alone when know that I am going to have to bear the cold and the wind to do it. I know some solutions 1 find a place to walk in doors. 2 Ge... Fri, 19 Nov 2010 00:24:15 EST The Great Obsession! **Feedback Wanted** Has anyone else realized how great an obession their weight has become in their life. Everthing else I emjoyed seems to have fallen to the weighside and all I can think of is losing weight. The obession doesn't make you work that much harder at reaching it's goal either. I admitt that I am obessed with the thought of losing weight and I think I have been for a long time and yet I am still over weight and just shy of the heaviest I have ever been in my life. I lost sight of so much and all I c... Fri, 5 Nov 2010 23:06:41 EST 25 going on 85 UUGGGGHHH! I feel so old lately. I have no energy. Sometimes my knees ache and my back hurts I have just have a serious case of the BLAHS! When did I get so old. I am only 25, I should be bounding with energy and life. I should be filled with hopes and dreams of what life might have in store for me and things I want to achieve and I should be practically dancing with the excitement in going out to discover these things. But I find all I really want to do is take a nap. Wheres my ambition, my ... Wed, 3 Nov 2010 19:26:24 EST Does anyone ever read these things? I've been wondering if anyone ever reads these things. I know that I barely find time to type them let alone read others, I wonder if everyone else is the same. Oh well, I guess its not about being read but being written. <BR> <BR> I recently started at a new job. I feel so self conscious when I am there. I am very over weight. Not only that but I am 6 feet tall and a women which is not very common. I feel like I stand out like a bill board sign and not in a good way. I hate drawing attentio... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 18:50:14 EST I'm ready for my close up mister DeVille... My sister and I were discussing about the roles people assign themselves to in life and how the more we stay in that role the more people expect to be there, like that is our place. Like if a wife spent all her time taking care of the kids, making sure they did there chores and there homework, got there breakfast and got to school. Made sure they made it to any sport or band practices. Cleaned house, made sure meals were on the table and that bills were out on time and that everything in the ... Sun, 10 Oct 2010 21:03:15 EST It's a small world I couldn't sleep last night. I haven't been able to fall asleep lately no matter how tired I am. My mind keeps running in circles over things that are out of my control trying to find solutions to fix them. It's amazing how little control we have over things in life. I went outside to sit on my porch early in the morning, like 4 am, because my mind and body felt restless. It was a beautiful night, chilly, the wind was whipping around and felt strangely warmer than the air. The stars were beau... Fri, 8 Oct 2010 13:09:27 EST Invasion of the Body Snatchers!!!!! Does anyone else ever look at themselves in the mirror and think 'who is this person?' I do. I don't recognize myself as I am even though I have been overweight and steadily gaining since junior high. This is not who I see myself as. I can't even imagine being in this body forever. I am so uncomfortable in my own skin, like i was swallowed whole by a much larger version of myself. How am I supposed to be confident in myself if I know longer recognize me. <BR> <BR> Maybe the real me loves he... Tue, 25 May 2010 18:04:00 EST Uphill Battle This past year has been so difficult. So much has happened and all of it has been so overwhelming that weight-loss has been shoved far into the background. Now I look up and find myself the heaviest I have ever been and seriously discouraged. Now my struggle to lose weight seems like an even longer road and I find myself hesitaiting to take even the first step. Will it be like all the other times with 1 step forward and 5 steps back? Where will I find myself a year from now? I am not even... Tue, 23 Feb 2010 20:07:51 EST The Battle with "Binge" eating! "Binge" eating has become a nasty habbit in my life that I am ready to kick to the curb. I have decided to take this destructive habbit of mine and replace it with something positive. My newest interests are crocheting and learning to play the guitar. I also enjoy music, drawing and painting, writing, and reading. I recognize the things that trigger my binge eating. Mainly its just the time of day, late at night which is the worst time. Also boredom, anxiety, and tiredness. <BR> <BR> M... Tue, 1 Sep 2009 15:25:00 EST A New View on Things I know I haven't been logging on to SP for a couple of weeks now. So much has been going on that it has all kind of fell on the back burner. It has been a season of trials for me for a few months now but I know God is using these trials to strengthen my faith for whatever it is He has planned for my life. I have also come to the realization that I focus entirely to much on losing weight. Its sad that although I focus so much on it I still never lose any. I don't want losing weight to bec... Mon, 1 Jun 2009 10:45:40 EST Struggling Up that Hill It's been a lot of ups and downs this past week. I'd love to tell you that I've done amazing, didn't slip once but that is not the case. I've had healthy days and unhealthy days but I've had more healthy days than usual so that alone is something to celebrate. God is good and tomorrow is another day. As much as I'd like God to just zap me and in the morning I wake up with a new healthy, thin, body that doesn't seem to be the way He wants it. I guess there wouldn't be much inward growth i... Tue, 19 May 2009 22:52:00 EST One Day at a Time Yesterday was a testing kind of Day. I slipped a little with dinner on eating healthy but still managed to stay within my daily calorie intake goals which was good. I did a little gardening and got some of the neighborhood kids involved which was fun, but I really regretted it later. Until the Lord finishes whatever it is He is accomplishing in me and heals my back and leg I need to use more wisdom. A lot more. Sometimes I'm too stubborn for my own good. Thankfully the Lord had mercy o... Sun, 17 May 2009 16:18:27 EST Day 1 For those of you who read this blog let me introduce myself. My name is Tasha and I am 24. I have been a member of SP for over 2 months but I will admit I have been a very inactive member. My newest determination is primarily due to health reasons (although I still want to lose weight to someday look beautiful in my wedding dress as I marry my own Mister Wonderful. That is whenever he shows up. I haven't met him yet but I know he's out there somewhere.). I have been suffering with back ... Thu, 14 May 2009 22:07:32 EST