TAYSMOM77642's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TAYSMOM77642 TAYSMOM77642's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Time to refocus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660462 Oh my goodness! I have been gone for a long time! I will try to keep this as brief as possible while updating everyone on the goings on in my life. <BR> <BR> The last time I was a part of everything here on sparkpeople I had moved to Houston after accepting a job. That part of my life is going well. I have adjusted well to the job and my responsibilities as the assistant manager. It hasn't been without its bumps in the road but I think we're all on solid ground now. We made it through the Ch... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 01:12:53 EST A poem for Ace RIP baby boy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501990 Let me preface this by saying this poem is written in honor and remembrance of one of my boxer pups I lost tragically tonight. <BR> <BR> In Memoriam: Ace- Sept 21, 2013-October 1, 2013 <BR> ****************************************<BR>************** <BR> <BR> On that beautiful September Saturday I watched, watched your birth <BR> We were so happy to have you here on Earth. <BR> <BR> You were big, healthy, beautiful and strong just like we had wanted all along. <BR> You were my biggest boy a... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 23:49:37 EST Feeling stressed but in control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5496733 I have been looking for a job for awhile now to no avail as most of you know. My husband and I made the decision for me to go back to work while he finishes up his teacher certification because two of us in school and no one working is a recipe for disaster. I have an interview at 10 this morning(in about an hour) and I'm feeling good. It's an evening job which is wonderful b/c then I can take my son to school and pick him up. I can still be involved in things at his school as well so it feel... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 10:05:01 EST Making tough decisions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493193 The last few days have been a roller coaster ride for me. This past Thursday I had to finally ask my husband to leave temporarily b/c I needed time to think about everything that has happened. That was the TOUGHEST decision I have had to make since I left my first husband. This turned out to be a blessing b/c it finally allowed us time and space to communicate without being in the same room and tempers flaring. <BR> After a long text message(and I mean long) conversation we finally came to ... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 21:35:27 EST 12 week plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5489759 It's that time again! Time to think about the next 12 weeks and what I want to accomplish. <BR> I so desperately want to get back on track after the accident and I've been planning on getting back on track. I was doing well until 2 weeks ago when my son got sick and then I got it and then my back started hurting again. I'm finally feeling like myself and I am ready to get back to it. <BR> I really want to lose 2 pounds per week putting me at a total loss of 24 pounds for the round that would ... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 23:33:07 EST BLC 23 registration now open! Come join the party! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5471207 I have several friends that are members of other teams who have been struggling to stay on track and this blog is an invitation to come join team BLC! There are multiple teams of varying degrees of intensity you're bound to find one that will fit you. I have had a lot of success with this group and want the same for my other spark friends. Feel free to sparkmail me if you have questions and I look forward to seeing some of you in the BLC! Fri, 30 Aug 2013 21:07:12 EST Between BLC rounds plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5465354 If nothing else this summer has been the worst in my 29 years. I have lost a dear family member and been involved in a horrific car crash as well as my marriage hitting a massive rocky patch that I'm not sure it will recover from. My weight has been all over the place due to lack of being able to exercise. I have not tracked like I should mainly out of fear of seeing what kind of damage I have done. Now that I have joined the gym I feel better about my chances I do better in an atmosphere of ... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 00:09:02 EST Realizing what I am capable of http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5465348 As most of my Gecko teammates are aware my marriage is teetering on the edge of divorce with no real way to pull it back that I can see right now. The husband has gone out of town to spend time with his parents and shop in Houston for the weekend. This has left me to hold down the fort on my own. I was terrified of that prospect at first but now I have realized that even though being a single mom won't be easy I can do it. I just have to be very diligent about utilizing my time to the fullest... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 00:00:32 EST When life hands you lemons...make lemonade and enjoy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5460121 As many of you know I was involved in a nasty car accident in June that really did some damage. I have steadily been getting stronger over the past number of weeks and am nearly back to my old self again. Last Friday I attended a Centergy class, which is a combination of Yoga and Pilates, with a good friend of mine. That kicked my butt back into gear and I have been doing so much better but then today my left hip started acting up again. Most people would say "oh well I'm gonna take today off... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 16:21:21 EST Enlightened moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5444713 I was watching my Sunday night shows and one scene sequence in Sister Wives really struck a note with me. Janelle, one of the sister wives, has struggled with her weight her whole life and had been obsessing over the fact that she had lost 30 lbs and then had hit a plateau. You see her personal trainer have her smash her scale. She talks about how she had been feeling stronger and sprinting faster and running for the first time since she was in school. It struck a note with me. I didn't get t... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 23:56:38 EST It's called Just Do It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435719 I have been struggling with motivation lately but I told myself "Just Do It"! That lack of option as served me well as I have found myself working out more consistently. I told my son today to not let me drink sodas and eat a bunch of junk. The reason for this? Someone to keep me accountable, someone to remind of exactly why I'm on this journey to health. I went to Dillards this afternoon and tried on the jeans that are my reward when I get to that magic number. I had to see what they looked ... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 22:50:10 EST Where has my motivation gone to? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432547 I think the title says it all. I cannot for the life of me find my motivation. I don't want to eat healthy, I don't want to exercise, I don't want to track, and I don't want to sleep when I need to b/c I would rather stay up and watch TV. I need to turn this negative tidal wave around now but it's so tough. I'd rather sit and eat Cheetos and drink Mountain Dew even though I feel like crap afterward. I need to start getting up and working out in the morning so the day doesn't get away from me ... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 23:48:37 EST We're halfway there...Reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5427766 Well here we are halfway through BLC round 22 and I am no where near where I wanted to be at this point but I must keep in mind at all times the challenges I have had to face and overcome in order to get here. I think that my main thing is that I have leaned too heavily on this accident in order to blame it for my lack of conscientious eating. I have used the accident as an excuse in order to eat an overabundance of my favorite things and b/c I let myself I have found myself at one the highes... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 23:00:56 EST Blackjack points for Friday July 12, 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5419324 Tracked all food eaten- 11 points <BR> Shared an NSV- 9 points <BR> drink 8 oz of water- 5 points <BR> Something fun- 25 points <BR> Post on team thread- 3 points <BR> All points adds up to 2 blackjacks! Fri, 12 Jul 2013 22:35:56 EST Struggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417351 I have really been struggling with getting back on track after the accident. I started back with my workouts on Friday and really tried to be very conscious of what I ate and how I worked out including strength training but when I weighed in this morning I was back at my starting weight. Talk about discouraging. I'm not sure how to move forward from here. I really want to do this but having a husband who has IBS and suffers from extreme food sensitivity makes it hard to eat as healthfully as ... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 00:22:56 EST Strongend points for Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412860 Boom #1- 45 mins=45 points <BR> Boom #2-1 meal= 10 pts <BR> Boom #3- 3 servings= 30 pts <BR> Sizzle- 20 pts <BR> Grand finale-50 pts <BR> Total for Saturday- 155 pts Sun, 7 Jul 2013 00:06:32 EST Rewards for losses http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412582 I have been considering for awhile what kind of rewards I would use upon hitting my different celebration stations. So here is my tentative list: <BR> 180 lbs(10 lbs lost)- new outfit and new Yellowbox flip flops <BR> 160 lbs (30 lbs lost)- sign up for a mud fun run or 5k <BR> 140 lbs (GOAL!)- brand new wardrobe, definitely a pair of miss me jeans and hopefully a great vacation! <BR> These rewards are subject to change depending on my financial situation but this is my tentative list. Sat, 6 Jul 2013 17:54:08 EST Time to hit the reset button http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412003 I have been struggling with finding my motivation drop the weight and I have finally found it. I am tired of not taking care of myself and doing for myself. I am hitting the reset button with the start of the weekend challenge. With the challenge to eat 5 servings of freggies daily for the next 4 days this gives me a chance to really focus on what I am eating and get back in the groove of eating healthy. I have decided to take my weight loss in smaller chunks instead of looking at the entire ... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 01:06:47 EST Strongend Challenge Points 07/05/2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411837 Boom #1- 30 mins=30 points <BR> Boom #2- 1 meal= 10 points <BR> Boom #3- 3 servings(so far)= 30 points <BR> Sizzle- Upper ST done and tracked!= 20 points <BR> Bonus! <em>334</em> 50 pts for all 3 + sizzle! <BR> <BR> 140 points total for Friday...feels pretty good to be back in the game. <BR> <BR> Fri, 5 Jul 2013 20:39:01 EST Rant-part II http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5403033 I swore to myself I wouldn't write another ranting blog but after today I feel like if I don't I'm going to explode. This one should be fairly short. <BR> I HATE MY JOB!!!!!!! My boss does not understand that she is an OPTICIAN!!!!!!!!!!! She is not a tech and needs to stop pretending as though she is. She spends all day doing tech work and transcription instead of doing her job. I am so sick of it. I was on the phone completing a phone interview with a non profit attorney to help with my cas... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 00:03:18 EST Reflections on today and the past two weeks. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399764 Today was a break through. I woke up this morning to rainy start that cleared off later in the day. I was getting cabin fever from being stuck inside and after the Indy car race this afternoon I went for a walk. I walk a path alongside the road we live on b/c there is a nice safe sidewalk built next to a golf course and I never worry about anything happening to me. The last few weeks have been challenging and I needed to clear my head and get my body moving again. Thank goodness for Harry Be... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 01:32:51 EST Warning:Rant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5397871 Have you ever had one of those days? That day where you want to just go postal on everyone you work with and your significant other? Yeah that was my day today. Lets start with work. <BR> Fridays at the ophthalmologist office I work in are always miserable. All 3 of our doctors are in the office all day and we usually see around 100 people on Friday. That's the day that something major goes on every time! It's usually computer related and today was no different. My boss was telling me how pat... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 23:51:27 EST Let the healing begin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5392774 11 days ago my grandmother passed away. 11 days ago we were in a major car accident. 5 days ago I was told I might not have a job once school starts back up. Last night I hit my breaking point. I have tried to be strong for my husband and my son and keep everything all to myself so as not to burden them with all the mental and emotional torture I have been suffering from. Last night/early this morning I broke down finally and just cried and cried and cried. My heart aches so badly from the lo... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 00:49:24 EST My goals for BLC 22 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5377274 It's time for the next round of the BLC and I am determined to make the most of it so I am writing my goals down for the next 12 weeks so I have something to always refer back to when I'm feeling like quitting plus it gives others a way to hold me accountable. I'm talking to you Geckos! <BR> 1.Track, track, and track some more! I am the worlds worst about it and I have a tendency to tell myself "if I don't track it, I didn't eat it" this is NOT acceptable anymore! I must track everything in o... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 21:57:07 EST Insanity! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5355797 So I am committed to conquering the Insanity program this summer. I took the fitness test today and it was tough. But I am going to push through and do this. I am going to start working out for about 20 mins in the morning with Tiffany Rothe and then get my butt kicked by Shawn T in the afternoon. I have lots of greek yogurt I am planning on mixing with wheat chex cereal in the mornings for breakfast and then eating lean cuisines for lunch. I was doing so well and am very disappointed in myse... Mon, 13 May 2013 23:46:56 EST Getting going again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5347957 I haven't been on here in quite awhile life has been super busy. School is wrapping up for the semester and I have gone back to work in an ophthalmologists office. I am thoroughly enjoying my new job. It's not very busy right now so it's a great opportunity to learn new things. <BR> I have also started working on a dream book. I have become very interested in redecorating my home and my dream book is where I'm keeping all my favorite designs. I'm having a lot of fun putting my dreams all in ... Mon, 6 May 2013 22:04:45 EST Time to begin anew http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5326768 I haven't been here in quite awhile as I have been super busy. School is winding down for the semester and all of my projects have come due. I wrote a 5 page paper for my World Lit class and completed the written portion of the business communications project, the oral presentation is still to come. I have an oral presentation in Spanish as well. I could come up with all kinds of reasons why I haven't been as active as I should but they're nothing but excuses. I let my Mocha teammates down at... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 18:59:03 EST Feeling very discouraged http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291800 So last week was Spring break and I tried so hard to be good. I did ok I think but then this weekend was awful. Saturday was really the day that did me in b/c we went to go celebrate my grandmothers birthday for lunch that day and then ate dinner at my dad and stepmoms house that evening. I have been in the habit of weighing myself every morning after watching a segment on Fox & Friends about weight loss. I get so irritated that I can get down to a certain weight and then can't go any lower. ... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 23:37:39 EST Contemplating a change...please give me your opinion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5284655 I have been contemplating going wheat free for the next 4 weeks of the Biggest Loser challenge in order to get to where I would like to be at the end but I'm not sure. I'm also thinking of going Paleo too. I'm wondering which way is best and hoping my Spark friends will have some helpful input for me. Wed, 13 Mar 2013 00:04:30 EST Returning to my roots http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281877 So after some serious soul searching as to how I am going to jump back on the train with my weight loss and stay on this time I have decided to return to a time when I was on a more controlled eating plan. It fueled my body with the right stuff at the right time and allowed me to kick my metabolism into high gear while staying active. <BR> My plan involves going to back to the eating plan I followed when I was in high school. This eating plan was devised to keep me in tip top shape for footba... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 23:37:42 EST Living life to the fullest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5273486 So I have decided to live life to the fullest with my son this week. Spring Break is next week and his dad is insisting on keeping him during that time. I am NOT happy to say the least <em>234</em> . Every time I get that little boy back he is so much worse for wear. I know I am being negative but I DO NOT want him to go at all. So this week is all about living life to the fullest with him. I have been doing as much as I can with him and make sure he is as well taken care of as I can before... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 22:19:08 EST Oh What A Day! Suggestions box is open http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5270512 Today was one of the worst days I have had in a long time. I was reminded once again of why I am inferior to my husbands family and it was painful. <BR> My in laws came to town today to trade vehicles with my husband and take everyone out to eat to celebrate 3 birthdays as my father in law is having surgery this week and traveling is out for quite some time. <BR> When we arrived my father in law spoke to my son(probably because he felt he had to) and my husband but did nothing to acknowledge ... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 23:41:19 EST A clearer head, a more focused path and motivated to get moving again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256702 So now the panic has finally subsided and after talking with a fellow BLC Mighty Mocha Hunter I have a much clearer head and a more focused path forward. This in turn has rejuvenated my motivation to move it, move it, move it and lose it, lose it, lose it! <BR> So today I went to a toning class and it was a butt kicker! I have been wanting to go to this class since group classes started. It was lots of resistance band work and working on a stability ball as well. Then my 5 yr old thought it ... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 21:02:55 EST Feeling stressed out...and unmotivated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5253235 This has been the week from hell. Everything that can go wrong has gone wrong and I find myself questioning every decision I have made over the last few months. <BR> For starters I have had a very sick child on my hands this past week. That alone is enough to drive a mommy crazy. I missed two vital class days in my Spanish class and one of them happened to be the first exam in that class. This was all due to a flat tire incident in the middle of the week that cost me nearly $300 that I didn'... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 03:31:15 EST My new challenge to myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5245167 So this weekend part of the weekend challenge is to create a new goal for ourselves. If I have learned nothing else from my teammates thus far I have learned the value of planning. Not only planning meals but planning in general. I have a very busy very hectic schedule that doesn't allow for alot of down time. The down time I do have I have noticed goes into that annoying "what do you want for dinner" question. I need to start planning my families meals so that it is laid out in black and whi... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 14:05:04 EST What an exhilarating week...and then I blew it in 2 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242316 Where do I begin? I have been doing so well tracking and working out, staying within my calorie range, etc and then the stress of having my very first published article kicked in hard. I got it turned in, edited and squeaked in before the deadline. But I did pay a heavy price I didn't take the time to think about what I was eating and when it was just eat and go. Uh, haven't we been down this road before?!?!? Like just in the last couple of weeks? Still struggling with this whole nutrition th... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 01:43:32 EST When one way is blocked find another http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5239260 I have been on a downward trend for a week now where my weight is concerned. I was so looking forward to a good long workout today broken up into two classes on campus today but for some reason the arch in my right foot has been bothering me all day. Argh! That door slammed right in my face! But never fear my Sparky friends I found another way! If you haven't heard by now I am a huge fan of Tiffany Rothe and her workouts on Youtube. They are quick but effective and I tried a new one today to ... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 20:25:04 EST How I will feel after losing the weight. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236030 I noticed all of my teammates had posted an entry similar to this so I thought it was high time I got caught up. <BR> How will I feel after losing 46 lbs? Hmmm....my best answer is strong, fit, sexy and powerful. I was never overweight until I went to college as I was extremely active in High School. I was a twirler and that required not only being in peak physical condition but being strong as well. I just got out of the habit of eating correctly and exercising after high school b/c I was ju... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 17:49:32 EST NO MORE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233912 I have had it with my nutrition tracker being so out of whack! This has got to stop! I have lost nearly 10 lbs since I started back in November and I don't want to go back up. I have got to get this under control. I have got to learn to get out of bed when my alarm goes off and eat a healthy breakfast. I need to just get it in gear. I am on the bottom of my team in weight loss. Thank goodness Zumba starts Monday. I am going to go dance my butt off 4 days a week. The fitness has never been a p... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 23:46:21 EST Wow...did not expect that much damage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232487 So everyone in my house is still sick with this monster head cold and now the hubby has gone down with it. I decided (against my better judgement) that we were going out to eat tonight as I was tired of cleaning up the kitchen, dishes, etc. <em>40</em> BAD IDEA! In one meal I consumed nearly all of my calories for the day! Yikes! Olive Garden I hate to see you go but you got to go. I am NOT going to let that happen again. You don't realize how much damage eating out can do if you don't pla... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 00:10:11 EST Relatively Good Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231103 Today started out much better than I would have imagined. I got up and went to my first class and after discussing with my Spanish teacher about my absences I came away with the feeling that everything is ok with her. She makes it sound like she is not going to hold those absences against me b/c she understands that there is nothing any of us can do when we get sick except to let it run its course and bounce back as quickly as possible. So thankful for email communication with professors. My ... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 01:15:50 EST Update Jan 29, 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229434 Still feeling crummy but getting MUCH better. I didn't do too well on eating today but tracked every bit of it so my BLC 21 teammates can help me keep accountable. Really enjoyed my Journalism class this morning but after walking to class and back and climbing the stairs my afternoon World Lit class was an absolute no go. I'm thinking I should be back to normal or close to it tomorrow. Wednesday is another really long day as I have 3 classes and not much time between. This makes it very diffi... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 22:04:37 EST Feeling better...now to attack the gym! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228104 It is absolutely amazing what a trip to the health center can do for someone when they're feeling crummy. I started on the Prednisone today and by this evening I feel so much better! Another helpful little tidbit she gave me a saline rinse and that is like a blessing from above. After that and a warm(ish the water heaters here suck big time) shower I feel so much better. I can actually breathe comfortably for the first time since Friday evening. So I am going to go back to the gym tomorrow af... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 00:44:04 EST I hate being sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227131 Sometimes life just loves to throw rotten lemons at you. That is exactly what has happened to me. My son brought home some upper respiratory viral junk last week and now guess what? Mommy is sick! Grrr...just as I was getting into the swing of my hour long workouts this has to come along and knock me back down. Irritating to say the least. I love my son dearly but why do they feel the need to share their germs? Thankfully we have a great student health center on campus and I was able to get i... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 12:50:25 EST Celebrating a HUGE Non-Scale Victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224417 I have been struggling with losing weight and not obsessing over the number on the scale. I had made one of my initial NSVs to get back into my size 10 New York and Company denim capris. I love these capris and haven't been able to wear them in at least a couple years. So after my wonderfully supportive husband told me last night that he can tell a difference in certain parts of my body I decided to try get into the capris today for a quick run to the pharmacy (thanks to my 5 yr sharing his g... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 13:26:32 EST What a workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222462 Went to the fitness center after class today and had a killer workout! Spent 30 mins on the treadmill. Ran for a solid 3 minutes (I know that's not much but for me I'm not a runner so being able to do that every 5 minutes is big for me) and walked for 5 mins. I then spent the next 35 mins strength training. I am so tired and sore but feel sooooo good! <BR> Then my phone had to start dying and had to go buy a new phone. Blech! It has been a pain to redo my workout playlist b/c I lost my first... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 01:09:05 EST Thoughts on conversations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217971 After having a not so minor meltdown earlier tonight my husband finally was able to get through to me. I have been feeling like a failure but then when I told him where I was weight wise when I started to where I have come he reminded me that my body is in full on panic mode b/c I am kicking it into high gear and having PCOS is making it that much more difficult b/c my body doesn't want to give up the weight as easily as other people. When I said it out loud things began to make sense. I am p... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 02:01:46 EST I just had an epiphany http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216382 After posting my last blog I began thinking what it was that was keeping me from achieving my weight loss goals. Without going into too much detail it hit me like a freight train. I haven't been able to kick my ice cream addiction due to the fact that ice cream is a link to one of the only happy memories I have from childhood. My father was not the easiest person to live with, he drank a lot and was very verbally abusive when I was younger and still is to this day, so on Sundays when he would... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 00:42:54 EST Struggling to make healthy choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216344 Still trudging toward finding that perfect balance of healthy food and exercise. I find my body crying for fatty foods after a long workout and I didn't even do that much today. Yes I took my boxer dog Roxie for a 2.5 mile walk today but it really didn't feel like that much of a workout I guess b/c my son was riding his bike just ahead of me while Roxie and I walked. I am such an ice cream addict and wish I could find a way to kick the habit. I have already kicked the soda habit but last nigh... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 23:55:45 EST Making progress...slowly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214973 Have you ever just had one of those days with your kids? That day where you got in an amazing workout and yes you are feeling fatigued but very pleased with yourself and somehow that is the very day they choose to act a fool? That was today for me. I love my son dearly but my gosh could he have been any worse this afternoon?!?!? It was just one thing after another! The kids and us adults alike don't go back to school until Tuesday either. I don't know how I am going to entertain this kid for ... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 23:49:25 EST