TAWNYBIRD's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TAWNYBIRD TAWNYBIRD's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Off another day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6157010 I had another day off. I slept most of the morning. I'm feeling so groggy today. I don't have energy for anything. I'm thing I'm rather getting sick or that time of the month. My plans never go right. I wanted to do something with my daughter today but my body just doesn't want to. If don't get the sleep I can't think and words starts to slur. It's bad. I have all these good intentions of losing weight but just keep falling. Thu, 5 May 2016 14:56:40 EST Never goes as planned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6156599 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/fceb0e5a-1a69-4eed-9995-40fb477a7779.jpg"> Well didn't workout like I planned but I didn't eat a ton like I usually do. I re died my hair though. But that never turns out right either lol Wed, 4 May 2016 23:06:29 EST Somewhat a rest day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6155795 Today i failed a bit. I made funnel cakes for breakfast for my daughter and I. For dinner I'm having a Walmart salad (with a little bit of cheese). I didn't workout today cuz my body was just exhausted so I napped. I was so tired that I was slurring my words. Tomorrow and Thursday I'm off so I can do size and walk. Tue, 3 May 2016 20:39:34 EST Slipped http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6154899 I'm trying to cut cheese out of my diet. I've noticed I've been eating a lot lately. Yesterday I did good. Today I had to sauge egg and cheese corrisants. I totally forgot it had cheese. I packed a lunch for work again today. A ham and mustard sandwich on 100% whole wheat bread, carrots, thousand island dressing, banana, orange juice, I also might put chocolate chips in there so I don't get the shakes since I'm trying to cut back on my eating. I did my elliptical for 10 minutes. I have to wor... Mon, 2 May 2016 15:21:18 EST Rough Times http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6154439 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/34336d87-0b68-46f8-ac57-31d5d0491fe6.jpg"> Hi, I'm Tawny. I'm approxmatily 300lbs. In the past I was the same weight and lost 70+ pounds. Then I I got pregnant and got married. I unfortunately gained most of it back. Then I separated from my husband and gained the rest back. I'm in the process of a divorce. I'm depressed because he has a baby on the way with his gf whom he didn't know that long. I'm also a cashier for Walmart so that adds to t... Mon, 2 May 2016 01:56:30 EST 10lbs lost! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731960 I stopped worrying so much about what I ate. I just ate when I'm hungry and ate until I was satisfield. I had a couple binges. I've also been doing a lot of errands to keep busy. Now I need to take a progress pic Fri, 4 Jul 2014 13:48:26 EST binge eating. i need advice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724682 I'm trying to eat healthy. I end up being hungry all the time. I'm drinking tons of water and walk. Then I go on a binge. I really don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm concentrating on it too hard. I guess I can eat junk just not as much. That might be my problem... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 08:23:59 EST The Monster Burger Attacks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722445 Didn't realize how monterius it'd be. I couldn't eat it all. I logged it. Its over 1000 cals. Tomorrow I'm making more lifestyle changes. I've got to star walking and stuff again. I've noticed when I miss a day I lose motivation. I'm not going to weigh or measure myself this week. I want to make sure I keep with a healthy routine for 2 straight weeks. That's my goal. Fri, 20 Jun 2014 22:58:26 EST in a rut http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721641 I have to slow down on the smoothies. They are causing canker sores really bad.I've also been slacking. I have walked the last 2 days,but not as much as I'd like. The heat is rolling in and storms are predicted for all week. So I need to find things to do in the house. I've got this! Thu, 19 Jun 2014 21:17:44 EST i give up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714788 I give up! I'm doing everything I'm supposed to. Water eat healthy and exercise. I gained all the weight back. I want to lose weight so bad, but I guess I have to deal with it. My throat hurts and I've gotta go to the dentist today. That's another thing. I try to get healthy, and every time I get sick. I came be lazy and eat junk and not get sick. I guess its all a sign that its just not going to happen. Tue, 10 Jun 2014 08:43:43 EST how fast can you gain muscle? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713281 I weighed myself yesterday. The scale said 293. Today I weigh myself and it said 296. Is it possible to gain muscle that fast? I know I shouldnt weigh daily. I know I'm sore as a mofo tho. Tried to walk a mile yesterday, but my mum wanted me to g out with her. I only had 2 mixed drinks then I was done. I did 5 minutes on this one machine I've got. I know I had to burn calories on that thing. I felt it. Sun, 8 Jun 2014 08:13:07 EST We Have Lift Off! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712763 The pounds are falling off. Ive lost 8lbs. I've been eating more fruits and veggies. I think smoothies are helping me. Sad thing is lost our food stamp card. Now we have to wait for a new one. This means I'll run out of stuff for smoothies. Regular milk taste gross with them. I was using vanilla almond milk. Everyday I've Been doing some kind of activity everyday. Yesterday I walked around a carnival for 4 hours. I don't no if that's nescisarilly how long I walked I did a lot of sanding to. A... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 12:33:20 EST feeling better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710070 Today I drank a smoothie with bananas, blueberries,almonds,and 2% milk and had a bowl of pees (yuuuck). I actually felt satisfied after eating/drinking that. I think I'll try 3 smoothies a day. I'll try using as a snack. I walked a mile today. I feel a bit accomplished today. Oh! I almost forgot. Next month I'll be getting help from TANF and volunteering. I have to do 20 hours a week and fill out 5 job applications a week. Tue, 3 Jun 2014 22:13:52 EST smoothies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709150 Has anyone been on a smoothie diet? Is there any easy tastey recipes out there? I'm trying to put more fruits and veggies in my diet. I eat too much bread. Mon, 2 Jun 2014 18:36:58 EST bad luck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5707698 Didn't have much luck today doing the yard sale either. In other news I'm a pound away from reaching my goal! Then I can make a new one. I'll be so glad when I reach 289. Tired of seeing 300 and the 290's. Thinking about making my mums basement into a gym. I can't take my daughter to work out because I'm scared she will get hurt. Sat, 31 May 2014 21:27:51 EST yard sale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5707112 Didn't have much luck with the yard sale. I know my pooch doesn't have mange. Had to throw that in. I can't get motivated to walk. I hate at the end of the day I stuff my face. I passed the orientation quizzes for weight loss surgery. Now I have to do paper work. I've got my fingers crossed that I can get lap band. Fri, 30 May 2014 22:01:18 EST Garage Sale,Lapband,and other odds and ends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5706519 Garage Sale: Today I'm going to be having my first garage sale on my own. I'm nervous. I hope people come. I'm not all that great at math though. I have mostly baby stuff, but I have a couple of other things too. <BR> <BR> Lap Band: I found out I'm a candidate for surgical weightloss or non-surgical weight loss plans. My preference is surgical. I have to watch videos,take quizzes,and print documents. In order to do this I need a computer and printer. I just hope my insurance will pay for it.... Fri, 30 May 2014 05:35:32 EST tired of liars http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698178 Marriage is a joke. This is why I gained all my weight back. Guys can't keep their man parts to themselves. Anyway I lost 2 more pound. Mon, 19 May 2014 08:10:50 EST im a negative nancy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694282 I try to be a positive person, but after being bullied and having bad expieriences, its hard. I wish therewas social classes that teach people to be social and not to be scared that people will laugh at what you say.on another note i lost 2lbs. I've noticed if I stop my routine just for a day I fall behind and get lazy. My goal today is 1 mile but might do 2. My goal for the week is 10 miles. Tue, 13 May 2014 15:43:45 EST reaching goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5690087 Last week I reached my goal of 7 miles. Almost to my goal for this week. My goal is still 7. If I go over I won't mind. So far I've done 6 miles. I try to do 1 mile a day,but lately I do 2. Yesterday I didn't walk. No biggy. I've been eating less. I'm trying to hold back on sweets,because I don't want my daughter eating them. Only as treats. I hate when other people give her soda,coffee,and candy. She's only 14 months going on 15. I don't want her to end up like me. I'm trying to set a good ... Wed, 7 May 2014 21:44:34 EST cant break it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687782 I can't seem to break the 300 mark. When I do get under it I gain it back. Trying to walk 2 miles a day,but make my goal a mile a day. I hhaven't been eating as much. I drink nothing hut water. On occasion I'll drink juice. I'm thinking I have Pcos. My periods are off. I'll go 3-4 months without a period. Last month I bled 1 day. Something isnt right. I'm trying my hardest to lose eight. My body doest want to cooperate. Mon, 5 May 2014 08:15:10 EST weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664935 I gained 4lbs. I do good then I get in a slump and eat my way out of it. I'm really trying my hardest. Its hard when you have a 13mo old. I try to stay away from temptations but eventually I give in. I'm not trying to deprive myself. I guess I need to rewrite my goals. If I do good eating all week and walk I'll reward myself. Sat, 5 Apr 2014 10:16:46 EST depressed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663023 I feel if I wasn't fat people would want to talk to me and hang out. I feel so useless. Wed, 2 Apr 2014 22:26:35 EST oh the thirst http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658481 Lately I've been extremely thirsty. I'll drink a glass of water or juice, but can't quench my thirst! On another note the scale says i lost a couple lbs. I've been walking every day. I past my goal of 6 miles/week. I'm going to just keep going. Its a lifestyle change so I'll do something everyday. Tonight my husband might take me out for dinner. Oh boy! Fri, 28 Mar 2014 09:55:57 EST GAHHHH!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655733 I have to stop eating dairy,greasy,spicy/hot foods. No more hydroxycut for me. I'm going try and stick with my goals. The scale says I gained the weight back in 4 days! Blah! Mon, 24 Mar 2014 21:46:48 EST gastritis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654220 Yesterday I was having severe pain in my upper stomach. I've had this pain 2-3years ago. It feels like trapped gas or so etching. I went to the ER and they said its from gastritis. The Dr said its from hydroxy cut but I say otherwise. I can't get the meds he prescribe me. So im Suffering. I really have to watch what I eat. No fruits,veggies, spicy or hot foods. I find it weird I can have soda.... water seems to irritate it. Does anyone else have this problem?? Sat, 22 Mar 2014 22:44:13 EST feeling shakey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653255 Trying to eat less and drink more water. Its not working well. I feel Shakey and weak. Like I need sugar. I never feel full or satisfied. I haven't been walking like I've planned but I have been running errands and chasing my daughter. I've also lost 4lbs. Does anybody else feel like this? Fri, 21 Mar 2014 13:22:55 EST calorie counting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651953 It takes a lot of time to count calories and I def don't have the time or measuring cups to accurately measure the food. Do we use most of the cals we eat? Should I not worry about fruit and veggie cals and make them a treat instead? I have a 1 year old and its hard to sit and really count all of them. I think I did pretty good today counting. But it really is time comsuming. Is there an easier way? I didn't walk the last 2 days due to running errands. I've been taking hydroxycut to help boos... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 22:25:22 EST no change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650553 I weighed myself and I'm 303lbs no change. I just constantly want to eat. I'll be full and I just won't stop. I don't know what is wrong with me. I know I'm doing. Today I'm going to walk 2miles. And tomorrow 1mile. Maybe tricking my body would help. Instead of eating I'll do things to keep me busy. Not saying I'll starve myself. I can't wait until they have the new nutrition labels on food. Maybe I could actually count calories. I feel so miserable. I need to lose weight to be here for my d... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 08:28:02 EST needing motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649627 Since I've had my daughter and separated from my husband I weigh my heaviest. 304lbs. I really need to change my ways. I need more motivation but can't seem to find any. I miss being 225. I felt so much better. And not to mention my sex drive went down big time. I need help and tips. I'm tired of feeling unsexy. I don't feel good about myself. Mon, 17 Mar 2014 06:10:31 EST Getting time to myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354276 since i had my daughter iv been having a hard time finding time to workout and eat healthy. anyone have any suggestions? im really getting frustrated. i dont have a treadmill anymore and i loved it. i would take my daughter for walks but i have to watch the weather and wind. ugh... help? Sun, 12 May 2013 18:35:59 EST NEW MUMMY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5325789 being a first time mother is hard. i dont have time for myself anymore. is there any workouts i can do with a baby? i went thru my clothes and got depressed cuz i fit into them before i got pregnant. now i only have a couple things that fit because i got rid of alot of close that got too big. iv got atleast 50lbs to lose again grrr. i wish the weather would stay nice for a whole week so i can walk. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1410137762.jpg"> Tue, 16 Apr 2013 22:38:58 EST MY DAUGHTER IS HERE!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5290476 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1757963793.jpg">Astoria came into the world February 15, 2013 at 6:06am. she weight 7lbs 6oz and 19 inches long. before i was pregnant i was 228 lbs. that was before i lost 70lbs starting at 298. i gained 67lbs while pregnant. after birth im 274lbs. so iv got my work cut out for me again. now iv got an even better excuse to lose weight and some motivation. my beautiful daughter. heres to starting over and getting healthy! Sun, 17 Mar 2013 23:43:49 EST gained 42 lbs while pregnant. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5159511 in 2011 i had a goal to lose weight. i worked my bum off and reached most of my goals. i started at 298lbs when i decided to change my lifestyle. by 2012 i got down to 228 being the lightest iv ever been. that being said i lost 70lbs. i was so excited. then in may of 2012 i found out that i was pregnant. first thought was, i did all that work for nothing. losing weight actually helped me conceive. so now im 7 months into my pregnancy and iv gained 42lbs. i got rid of all my big clothes so now... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 17:33:37 EST 73lbs LOST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4879623 Wow i cant believe iv come thus far. I only have 27 more pounds to go until i reach 100. Thanx for all the support everyone. If i can do it yall can do it. Good luck peeps! Sun, 13 May 2012 16:32:24 EST 66 Pounds Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4846755 I have 34 more to go until iv lost 100lbs. Wow! I never knew i could make it this far. Iv been slacking lately. Iv been going through alot lately. Tomorrow ill be starting my new job. Maybe thatll help me lose weight. Im staying with my grandma until my first check. that will be like 2-3 weeks. I havent had the internet for a long time. Well if you want to know whats up leave me a message. Sun, 22 Apr 2012 15:33:36 EST Trying To Get Back on My Feet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4790762 hey everyone long time no chat. Im homeless and trying to get back on my feet. matter if fact i went job hunting today. iv lost 60+lbs. i have lost weight due to stress. im getting help. but if i dont get medical insurance ill lose my help. im going to groups everyday. i currently not engaged but i am in a relationship with Les still. Leave me some motivation ya'll. Fri, 16 Mar 2012 14:10:00 EST IV LOST 50LBS!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4726664 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/7/l777045929.jpg"> Tue, 7 Feb 2012 09:07:20 EST Sorry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4721873 Sparks. i cant on the internet as much anymore. im homeless right now and waiting for help to get a job. iv lost 50lbs finally due to stress. my fiance and i are still together and today Les and i have been together for a whole year. The wedding is still on hold. Sat, 4 Feb 2012 12:09:06 EST Hope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4698067 im hoping someone can help me get a job and a place to stay. im 2 lbs away from losing 50lbs. im stressed and im going to go talk to someone. my wedding is on hold cuz no one is getting along. i want to move asap. wish me luck Mon, 23 Jan 2012 01:32:54 EST Bad Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4692469 I haven't done so well on my fitness this week. There's always next week. I have 2 goals for myself. To look good for this <em>336</em> and to fit on this <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l579714698.jpg"> the last time I went to Six Flags, Les and I wanted to go on this, but my butt couldn't fit. So if we go there this year I want to be able to get on it with him. I think It'll take at least 10-20 more pounds to fit on it. Thu, 19 Jan 2012 23:56:15 EST A Great Reward!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4689785 Yesterday was a great day for me. I tried on some old pants and pants that i could never wear... SOME OF THEM FIT!!! I've went from size 26 to almost all my size 22 shorts. Hopefully by summer I'll be able to wear them comfortably. I was dancing around the house in them for a bit. My fiance looked at me like I was a nut. I haven't been doing so well this week on exercising. This is because my arm and side has been hurting. Fatigue also plays a part in it. Next week I'm going to try harder. T... Wed, 18 Jan 2012 19:10:17 EST January 16, 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4685411 The last 2 days I've been extremely sore. I don't know what I did, but I'm paying for it. I walked a mile today. I probably wont reach my goal this week, but I'm not giving up. Mon, 16 Jan 2012 21:02:17 EST Last Year of Being a Teen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4680714 19 years ago my mum gave birth to a 7lb baby. I feel like time is flying by now. I didnt walk today. I figured I can slip today. Theres always tomorrow. I'm scared to see what the scale says though. We went sledding and snowboarding today. Probably will be my last time snowboarding. I fell on my butt and gave me a headache the rest of the time. Thats about all i did for my bday. oh i got a surprise cake. Sat, 14 Jan 2012 18:15:16 EST 1 Year Older http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4679188 Well I haven't really met my goal this week. I didn't walk yesterday. So tomorrow I'll have to walk 2 miles to reach my goal. I'v been having headaches like crazy. I don't have any pain medicine to get rid of them. I think I gained weight this week. I'll be surprised if I did lose weight. My fiance came home last night and now his brother is more mad at me. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm really not a social able person. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day. I'm getting old. <BR> <BR> to... Fri, 13 Jan 2012 21:25:43 EST Sleepless Nights http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4676902 I havent been able to sleep the last couple nights because my fiance isnt here. I dont know why i get upset about it. Now his family will hate me more. Its snowing here. I wanted him home before the roads got bad. and i told Les it was going to snow. I feel like they planned this out. I dont what to do. I didnt walk today so tomorrow ill walk 2 miles. Thu, 12 Jan 2012 19:38:16 EST 4 More Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4674394 My fiance has been at his brother's the last couple days to help his brother move. I went to the eye Dr. today. She took pictures of the back of my eye and was worried about the freckle by my nerve. She said come back in a year but I won't be able to because I won't have insurance. I am ]not a morning person. I can't go to bed early so I get up early and I'm tired all day. I'm trying to find a job but there is not one thing around here. I don't know how to make a resume. I need to refer some... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 17:13:26 EST My Blog Title http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4672165 My fiance is going to his brothers tonight to help them move. I hate sleeping alone. I've got an eye Dr. appointment tomorrow to get my eyes dilated and to get my new glasses. I think my body is giving up on me again. I walked 20minutes today. I need to start on my stepper again. but my legs are giving up on me, or I should start using the shake weight. Is there anyone that I can refer to my sites for making money? Tue, 10 Jan 2012 19:45:23 EST Yeah. I'v Got This http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4669547 Today I walked 2 miles straight. That is 40 minutes all together for me. Tomorrow I'll do 25 minutes. I found a way to make a little money on the internet. I have been looking for a sight that would help me. I'm going to save up for the wedding or Six Flags or something. My tooth is still bothering me. Is there a way to make a resume online for free? All the sites I went to they want you to pay. I'm also trying to find a site that has beats that i can add to my song. I'm dreading the 24th of ... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 19:10:54 EST Tomorrow is My Weight In Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4664570 I've burned over 1300 calories this week. <BR> Exercised 180 minutes. <BR> Walked 8.71 miles <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I weigh myself and hopefully the scale says I'm 254 or under. I worked hard this week it better pay off. I'm still having a tooth ache. Next week I'm going to try and walk 10 miles. I will Let ya'll know how much I weigh in tomorrows blog. Sat, 7 Jan 2012 18:03:07 EST