TATTER3's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TATTER3 TATTER3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Just a hello http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882557 It's been so long. I have been roaming through my mind trying to find solid ground and still seem to be floundering. I've gained back at least half of the weight that it took so long to get off, gave away about 70% of my clothes, have cleaned and written and cried and isolated and eaten and worked and crafted and now I'm beginning to see the light. I will be 64 years old this Friday and daughter had me to her house for supper last night. I spent time with grandson who just turned 3 on Feb 8 a... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 14:41:45 EST Thanks to my SP gang http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870812 None of you will ever know how much I appreciate you! Thank you Fri, 6 Feb 2015 17:19:08 EST Still functioning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870084 I was in the front office today when a voice called out from the waiting room...'How's that old man of yours?".. I didn't catch that the question was addressing me, but the staff suddenly got very quiet. I turned around and the voice asked again, "How is that old rascal?" I saw a small, rough looking bearded man sitting in front of one of the secretaries grinning at me. I went over and told him that Honey had passed away last Fall and felt his pain. the daughters had not put notifications in ... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 13:02:33 EST Still trudging on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848629 It was particularly cold day by the time evening came around last Sunday I went to early service, then Sunday School, and later ran a few errands while waiting for sister. I parked in the lot of the church once I was done and watched the congregation coming out the doors and heading for their cars. There were the young families herding hyperactive children through the maze of cars and people and some of our more physically challenged members moving slow and taking cautious steps, but still ... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 13:23:00 EST Fervent http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844713 The begonias continue to flourish and bloom in the planter in my office. I will be a little sad and somewhat disappointed when and if they fade back. The dark pink blossoms have given me a bit of distraction from the mundane routines all during the holiday activities. I’m now beginning to look forward to getting back out into the garden and opening up the summer months. <BR> I’ve lost my cell phone again. Can’t hold on to that thing. I’ve looked everywhere from the office to the house to the... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 12:23:21 EST And the new normal begins.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843994 I have really been distracted by all the grief and turmoil of the last few months. I have, of course, continued to pray and take the one step at a time routine, but now it's becoming time to get up out of the dust and get going on life again. I'm not back to normal, things will never be the same again, but for today..my hope is to just make life as good as I can and get on with it. <BR> I have been almost frozen in time and not able to plan or accomplish much of anything other than constant ... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 14:47:41 EST Clothes make the man??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837588 I woke up this morning to a dusting of snow on the ground. There are times, especially when I don’t have to be anywhere at a specific time, when I don’t mind seeing weather like this slip in. I heard a weatherman refer to it as ‘sugar coating’. It’s like watching the young girls at WalMart who’ve volunteered to ring the charity bell but want to look in style while they’re standing outside.in the cold..in the rain...in the wind...in the bad weather. I passed one little thing a few days ago who... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 16:56:18 EST A little bit of me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834928 I have scattered memories of my childhood Christmases. Of course, that was long enough ago that dinosaurs still roamed the earth and we used giant ferns to decorate the halls. I can’t remember what age, what year, what the overall season was like..but I still have random pictures that flip in and out of my mind, especially as we close in on the holiday proper. <BR> I remember going to my maternal grandmother’s house and making my way through mobs of legs and loud talking. I had a cousin who ... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 11:48:57 EST Teeth don't have skin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833868 I've had the feeling that I'm hanging on by the skin of my teeth...but ...I'm just not making it. I can't seem to focus. I don't care about anything right now. If the food is dead...it's in me. I love my family and appreciate the care and concern of friends, but I just want to go away and be alone...so...can anyone tell me what to do with this barrell of goo? I don't feel depressed...I imagine that as being rolled up int he bed and crying...I go to work, I write, I move, I participate in thin... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 11:24:35 EST Not always the greatest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833385 There are many things about Honey’s life that he wasn’t proud of. He told me on many occasions that if I really knew him that I wouldn’t stay with him. I found it odd that a man who leaned so hard on the Lord and was confident that he was forgiven completely would think that he could not be loved by another human being. He told me so many stories of his relationship with Ann that left me wondering how in the world she survived his shenanigans, but at the same time learning that she had enough... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 12:05:15 EST Still going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831488 By February we knew we were going to stay a couple. I was secure in his intentions and we started talking wedding. I teased him and told him that I wanted the biggest celebration our town had ever seen and he told me I’d be satisfied wearing the paper band off of a cigar on my finger. We talked about what we’d serve at the dinner, our attendants, (of course he listed the two men he’d had a prayer meeting with for 4 decades as first on the list), and colors. Stuff kids would talk about. I talk... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 16:10:35 EST 12/5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5828176 Once grade school was finished, the Locust community bussed their children up the road to Carrolton to finish their middle and high school education. Honey was a little older than Anne and was compared to James Dean a lot in those days. He had the dark hair with the curl in front, wore white socks and tee-shirts and high water jeans. If he wanted to ‘dress up’ he threw on a shirt and left it unbuttoned. <BR> His first wedding was soon after Anne graduated from High School. When asked what co... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 14:59:51 EST A little more http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827485 As most of you know, especially my daughter, I don’t cook. I know how to to some degree or another, but I don’t like the process and the cleaning up. But, by the time January rolled around, like most women, I thought it would be romantic to cook for Honey. Both of us worked evening shift and after midnight on weekdays was the only time we could actually see each other, since I was working 3 jobs at the time. I was retiring from one location, working part time at another and full time at a th... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 10:26:43 EST To my Spark Blessings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825779 Folks, I'm so sorry that I have been so unfaithful these last 3 months. I'm just not functioning well at all. I'm writing but not able to process life right now. I'm so thankful for each of you that has tried so hard to keep up and encourage. I'm still working hard to start functioning again, but just feel drained. things will get better and I will adjust and adapt and find my new normal..but for now, please understand I'm not rejecting any of you or the wonderful teams that I'm on...I'm just... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 11:45:27 EST My Locust http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823252 Time is changing the landscape at the old farm. The current owners, young and full of imagination, bought the property at Locust with the idea of restoring the house, an old log cabin that had been built around 1800. However, once invested in the property they found that the structure was too far gone and they had to redirect their goals. They first built a garage like structure with a porch on the front and an overhang in the back. They moved in and began the salvage project that took over ... Wed, 26 Nov 2014 09:25:37 EST more thoughts on Locust http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822356 More thoughts on Locust: <BR> On that first day back on the farm, Honey dared me to go up those steps to the second story. I made it high enough so that I could see through the railing at the top into the room, but didn’t go on up. The room was just big enough to hold maybe two full sized beds and a palette or two. Some of you may be familiar with palettes. I remember visiting with relatives before the blow-up air mattresses were available or even cheap enough to buy. My grandmother had a ‘r... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 16:00:12 EST Sunday thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5821605 In the beginning God created Locust and it was very good. He pressed his finger into the earth and a valley was formed. His fingernail scratched out the creek and water gushed over the rubble of stones and sang harmony with the birds. And it was good. This was the farm Honey and his three siblings grew up on. It hides back off of an old highway on a one lane road that wiggles its way around the shoulder of a hill to open up on measured fields and pine groves. Locust is the name of the communi... Sun, 23 Nov 2014 11:44:01 EST Thurs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820026 I just read the responses from yesterday and am so amazed that God has provided such caring people. I am overwhelmed and the advice and concern are so relevant to me today. God is doing a work through this. Last night at the church meeting a group of women approached me and asked me to join the widow's support group. when I protested that I was never married to Bill, they all commented that a soul mate comes in many different forms and that they would welcome me to their sisterhood. What a gi... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 10:33:36 EST Wed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819541 How can two weeks seem like such a long time. Was it yesterday or the day before? Or was it last year? Time is blending together like cake batter and getting all mixed up with ingredients that don't belong. There isn't enough salt...there isn't enough sugar...there just isn't enough of anything but the spoon keeps stirring. I am so surprised at how many people didn't know about Honey's home going. I am not surprised at how many people were affected by the news. We take each other for granted,... Wed, 19 Nov 2014 13:18:00 EST Fri http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816833 back at the library to post. <BR> Got the chair and fridge from Honey's. Both daughters were there. I had my posse too and it was pretty bland. In and out quickly...I wasn't allowed to go into the house. Found out that they do not have access to his funds. The bank he did his primary business with was gracious enough to allow them access to his account so that he could be buried. No death certificate yet ...so it will be weeks before everything is settled. I'm forming my own opinion about wh... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 15:50:49 EST Wed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815618 I'm still hiding out. Yesterday I worked out in the lawn while sister came to stay with my GS and at least had a little more sleep last night. Today I came to GS for the day. Later I will meet oldest daughter to pick up some things at the house. SIL will go with me. I'm just so tired. I'm finding computers to use even though my home computer is completely gone. I will heal, but this is hideous for the time being. But God is good. Wed, 12 Nov 2014 15:29:37 EST Mon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814370 Using a computer at the library ...my computer shut down. Daughters came and changed the locks on Honey's house, took the cats to Indianapolis to give to granddaughter, told me to make an appointment to get the rest of my things out. Interesting group. Life goes on. Mon, 10 Nov 2014 16:55:19 EST Sun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813390 The ceremonies are completed and now the healing begins. Family in. Off work for the week and will take it day by day. Sun, 9 Nov 2014 05:17:33 EST Thursday 11/6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811949 24 hours to wait. <BR> I'm going to pick up my art work at the coffee house this afternoon and will take the last picture I did for Honey to the funeral home ...it's a drawing of his father. I gave it to him for Father's day this year. He cried. I'm also making a memory photo board of our life together. I've been getting calls all morning. I've got my clothes ready and all I have to do is dress. I'm thinking about getting a manicure this afternoon. I straightened the house this morning, sist... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 11:22:23 EST Wed 11/5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811583 I am so discombobulated right now. The funeral will be this Saturday. I am in and out of bursts of anger, grief, and frustration. I want him back but not as sick as he was. I just keep in mind that once the funeral is over I will not have to deal with his daughters anymore and I will be able to put my life back in some sort of order. Nothing is petty, nothing is 'the small stuff'. I am stranded and just don't have any relief in sight. <BR> HIs daughters posted his obituary and didn't spell hi... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 21:29:34 EST He's home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5810417 It's 3:30 am and I just got home from the hospital. My Honey died at midnight. Sudden, no horrible death, just breathing one minute and gone the next. <BR> When I'm more together I will post more. The daughters are making the arrangements and when I find out anything I will do what I can to help. <BR> Thanks all for your support and affection, for your prayers and just caring. You have been a stable spark in my daily life. I appreciate each of you. Be blessed. Tue, 4 Nov 2014 03:31:32 EST Late entry 10/30/ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808040 Okay...it's about time. 4pm I get a call from Honey and he tells me that the Dr has just been in to tell him that plans are underway to move him to an Indiana facility. He couldn't talk clearly or long enough to explain anything to me but he wanted me to contact his girls and let them know. I left a message with one of them and found out after I went in tonight that she has been pushing for his move since the second week he was there. I don't know where yet, I'm not even sure when...but a dau... Fri, 31 Oct 2014 09:52:21 EST Late entry 10/29 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808021 10/29/14 <BR> Worked today. Couldn’t sleep last night. That’s usually a sign that Honey has not slept either. The traffic was bumper to bumper and it took almost an hour and a half to get across the bridge and to the hospital from home. I have been driving in silence this week. I don’t want to hear noise or music or chatty radio voices right now. I think my mind is processing the last few weeks and needs some quiet time. <BR> His curtain was wide open when I got there and the lights were on,... Fri, 31 Oct 2014 09:19:29 EST late entry for 10/28 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808019 10/28/14 <BR> Called in sick today so that I could attend a Baptist women’s meeting at the Macedonia Baptist Church near Brownsburg Indiana towards Vevay. I gave the story of Honey and talked about the seed sower and how it related to our lives (Matthew 13). they were very kind to me. I was able to stop for a quick visit with baby and then on to the hospital. <BR> Bill was very alert tonight and able to talk. The speech therapist was in and we were both amazed at how well he’s pronouncing hi... Fri, 31 Oct 2014 09:18:39 EST 10/27 Late entry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808017 10/27/14 <BR> I was just leaving the house tonight when I got a call from Honey. Weak, breathless and the usual statement, "Just wanted to tell you that I love you, woman and appreciate you". I asked him about his day and he was quiet. I don't think he had the energy to keep a conversation going. Dialysis was being set up when I got to the room and he would be hooked up to it for at least 4 hours. Found out through the grapevine that everything he's getting at his current location is also ...... Fri, 31 Oct 2014 09:17:46 EST Sun 10/26/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805288 Sometimes there is calm. <BR> Honey called me around 5:30 this morning and then hourly until I told him rehearsal was starting for Praise Team and that I would have my phone off until after noon. <BR> I let Honey's family have some private time with him and didn't leave to go down until about 2:30. On the way, his daughter texted and let me know that they were on their way home. <BR> Honey was alert and sitting up when I got to his room. He didn't seem as tired as he had yesterday. We op... Sun, 26 Oct 2014 21:39:04 EST Sat 10/25/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5804773 Honey started calling me about 6:30 am today. He must have called 5 times before 3. I was out on the mower trying to catch up on some of the yard work the last time he called and had to turn off the engine to hear him. He wasn't talking clearly today. I realized that even though he was not coming out and asking, he wanted me to come. I put everything up, dressed and went on down to the hospital. He was anxious and waiting. Same ol' same ol'. He had surgery last night, his abdomen is extremely... Sat, 25 Oct 2014 23:20:31 EST Thurs 10/23/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5803667 In from daily visit with Honey. Excellent Speech and swallow therapist with us tonight. Honey is not able to consistently complete therapy sessions and the staffer told us that that biggest concern was the extreme lethargy and weakness that all the different clinicians are seeing. He has lost most of his muscle mass, the dialysis completely exhausts him, and he has to push to get through each aspect of his care. He's been put on the side of the bed several times and begs to lie down because h... Thu, 23 Oct 2014 23:27:34 EST mental update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802795 I have been avoiding posting like the plague for the last week. I feel like I’m pulled in so many different directions. I have a friend who lost a son a couple of years ago, her only child, and her cousin was sharing with me that the grief had torn the parents apart. One parent will not show any emotion and the other cannot stop displaying the raging agony she’s feeling. The mother went on a stop-by shopping trip with the cousin and when they walked into the large chain store, Christmas music... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 12:13:32 EST Sun 10/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797096 Not a good day for Honey. Very ill. God is good. Sun, 12 Oct 2014 22:26:33 EST Sat 10/11/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796569 Spent the afternoon with Honey. The routine is slowly being established. A man came to look at my barn and see if it can be refurbished or not. I took the dog to the vet. A friend met me at Honey's and we cleared all of the sticks and branches out of the yard...she was smarter than me, wearing high boots to wade through the lake of water standing all over his yard in the lower spots and hidden in the grass. She gave me the sad news that a mutual friend had passed away and I had time to get ho... Sat, 11 Oct 2014 23:19:52 EST From last night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795942 If you ever think that you have no power to make a difference, consider this. We are told in Philippians to “mark them which so walk”. In the Word it was referring to staying close to the teachings of the Lord in order to influence others as well as to be cautious about whom you allow to influence you. In any field, any career, any aspect of life…this adage can be implemented as a guideline for living. We are marked by our attitudes, reactions and even lack of action by the people who watch u... Fri, 10 Oct 2014 16:19:08 EST Catch up entry one http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794902 I cannot tell the church what Sunday meant to me, to Honey and to his family. Last night the oldest daughter was taking pictures of the giant card and reading the notes that had been written on it. This may be a small thing to some people, but in this situation it is the small cloud in the distance coming with rain, and the rain is the anointing provided by the prayers of the Saints. <BR> I agreed to join the Praise Team for the worship service, but even though I love worshiping with these ... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 21:28:45 EST Just working on catching up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794900 Entry two...just trying to catch up.... <BR> It has been 35 days on this journey. Monday I drove to see him and made it to the parking lot, became ill and called and told him that I had to go home. He was starting dialysis and I would not have been able to see him very long if at all. I went back last night and had only been there for a short while when his daughters and oldest grandson came in. His face radiated. He looked better yesterday than I’ve seen for days. His speech was more clear ... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 21:27:28 EST Wed for last Sat...just can't keep up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794579 It has been a long 3 days. I had a commitment on Saturday to participate in the first annual Airing of the Quilts and was able to stay for a couple of more programs before leaving for the hospital. I’m trying to learn to balance my schedule to create some form of routine that will meet every need. My personal concern has been neglecting Sister, whom I live with. We are complete opposites. I have no fear of being alone and she hates it. Because of my time in the hospital and continuing to work... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 09:47:06 EST Late entry for 10/3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793636 Friday was a standard day for the clinic. I was able to leave on time and drove through sporadic rain showers that promised a change in seasons. Traffic was relatively light and the car was able to drive itself all the way to the parking garage. I’m learning the patterns of staff and visitors and if I time it right I can usually choose my parking space. Waiting on the elevator to come up or down is the most interesting experience. It jolts and clangs and often stops at each floor instead of g... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 20:51:14 EST thurs 10/2/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791386 Twenty nine days feels like twenty nine years. I have been on the phone with Honey several times today. What a treat to have him call early in the morning before I left for work. And then to call him back a little while later to let him talk to his cats. they went wild, purring and rubbing against the phone and pacing around my hand as I held it down to the floor. Sweet little visit. But when I called him after lunch his words were slurred and he was hard to understand. I started asking the u... Thu, 2 Oct 2014 22:55:36 EST Mon 9/29/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5789376 Just in from Honey. Moving day. He has been moved from contact isolation in ICU to contact isolation in Kindred. He was supposed to be moved at 5 and as usual, timing is not by the clock. Honey talked about his day's visitors, asked me for my phone and called his girls and my sister, looked at his get well cards and talked about the pending move. He is alert and able to help pull himself to some degree from side to side and makes his wishes known very clearly. I don't whisper or try to hide a... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 22:17:04 EST Sun 9/28/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5788665 Home from the hospital. Day 25 and "I've got a feeling everything's gonna be all right". Honey is still sitting up, still talking and communicating well, and the nurse came in with some more good news. His daily lab came back and his hemoglobin was stable and had actually gone up a little. She shouted out at the nurse's desk when she reviewed the report and came into the room to tell Honey and me right away. Yesterday the surgeon said that they would 'try' to stop the oozing bleed with medica... Sun, 28 Sep 2014 21:33:13 EST Sat 9/27/14 Day 24 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5788108 "Look what the Lord has done! He healed my body, He touched my mind, He saved me just in time. I want to praise His Name, each day He's just the same. I want to praise Him, Look what the Lord has done" <BR> Honey's oldest daughter called me today as I was going out the door to leave for the hospital. She had just left his room and wanted to tell me that he was awake, alert, talking, cognitively coherent and communicating with energy. What a difference a few hours makes. I had just about give... Sat, 27 Sep 2014 21:58:42 EST Fri 9/26/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787592 I have to work with the most amazing staff ever hired! We were barely skeleton crew today and they all have so many home pressures and stresses in their own lives that we seem to be stirring a pot of woes right now. But late morning, knowing that I had to leave right on the dot to get to the hospital to see Honey when he went to recovery, they 'ganged up on me', came and announced that the afternoon was covered and I was to leave at 2. I called the boss who agreed to release me and wrapped up... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 21:39:56 EST Update 9/25/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786997 I drove up our lane just before dawn this morning. To my right the fog was sitting soft on the grass around the chestnut tree. Last night I stopped and took several pictures of a groundhog eating the nuts scattered there. This morning deer scouted the area looking for the leftovers. There were no stars or moon in sight and it seemed as though the neighborhood had decided to sleep in on a workday. I drove to Honey's house to get the morning chores done before going to work and wondered what he... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 21:05:46 EST Thurs 9/25/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786858 Will post later..too tired, too distracted. Appreciate all the support. Be blessed and keep Sparkin'! Thu, 25 Sep 2014 14:47:54 EST Late Entry for Mon 9/22 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5785294 Home from being with Honey. He's worn out. Dialysis in the morning and all sorts of tests later to try to determine the source of all the TIAs. The right side of his face has a slight droop and his right arm and hand are swollen from dependent edema. He is excited to know that his oldest grandson is now engaged as of Saturday and got to see pics of the pretty girl. He loves visitors but can't keep his eyes open very long. He was very alert when answering questions about the family and literal... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 07:49:43 EST Sun 9/21/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784302 There are times when all you can hang on to is the promise that tears may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning. I wasn't allowed to stay with Honey too long tonight, but while I was sitting by his bed, listening to all the beeps and whistles and the rumble of footsteps, low voices, and carts being pushed here and there...he turned his head and smiled at me. I was patting his hand and he lifted those horribly swollen fingers and rested them on top of my hand and squeezed. I told ... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 21:07:18 EST