TASNIM81's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TASNIM81 TASNIM81's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Keep on fighting.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5289614 Logging again, I'm happy that I could actually do my 20 minutes of aerobics without having to give up because of pain or cramps. Yay me. <BR> I found a forum for people with neurological "weird stuff" happening to them, such as stiffness, cramps, twitching and pain, all of which I have. The stiffness is what kills me most as some days I can't even walk properly because it feels like the muscles around my ankles will be torn to pieces by the slightest movement. <BR> Anyway, I read there that ... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 09:19:57 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265542 It's been a while.. <BR> My health seems to be getting worse and worse, stiffness in my legs, pain and cramping. I just now managed to suffer through the Leslie Sansone video (easiest one, 20 minutes) with some crying when I discovered I couldn't follow along with the sidesteps anymore. I just didn't have the muscle strength for anything more than slow walking. It kills me, since I fought my butt off to lose weight and get in shape, and I could do this video like it was nothing just a few mo... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 06:04:49 EST Doing great.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231186 ..had some serious leg pains these last few days though, could barely walk. I managed to exercise yesterday so afterwards I felt better, and today I'm almost back to "normal", which means only the occasional cramping and constant twitching. But I can walk. :) <BR> <BR> I was sad to hear though that the pony I had the honor of riding this summer (the one in my background photo) died a few days ago, 24 years old. Feel so sad for his owner, she really loved this sweet little guy. And I am forev... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 05:14:11 EST Action plan for the week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221090 -At least 20 minutes exercise every day, even if it's "only" gym ball exercises.. <BR> -Morning walk 5 days a week <BR> -Weighing all my food. All of it.. <BR> -Daily: 5 repetitions of ankle exercises (very, very weak ankles) <BR> -Daily: 5 repetitions of calf exercises (equally weak calves!) <BR> <BR> Tiny goals=progress. :) Thu, 24 Jan 2013 05:24:39 EST Two days.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215397 ..of successfully counting calories and staying within my daily limit. Yay me! Small setbacks are NOT going to stop me from reaching my goal this summer. NO. I'm the only one who can change the way I think and giving up has never ever been an option. It never crossed my mind. <BR> <BR> Also we're about 1,5 years away from possibly, hopefully buying a horse if that's what I still want when the time comes, so instead of thinking about "failure" and of how lazy I am, I'm going to think positive... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 10:22:02 EST Blogging helps.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207771 ..so from now on I'll try to do just that as much as I can. <BR> Did I tell you we have 2 new babies here with us at home now? <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2008990726.jpg"> <BR> They are making a huge mess here, breaking as much stuff as they can. ;) <BR> Our little boy: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l107820255.jpg"> <BR> ..and his sister, the biggest trouble maker: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2120397952.jpg">... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 03:30:41 EST Oh, the shame.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5206176 Fell off the wagon once again. Don't think I gained... but I'm too scared to see! So I'll stay off the scale this week and focus on exercise, drinking water and eating healthy. Need to get back on track, and in need of some support... <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> <em>220</em> Mon, 14 Jan 2013 07:27:25 EST It's saturday again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5130199 That means me running to the scale early this morning, which by the way hasn't been the case for a couple of months of low motivation and dreading the weigh-ins, often skipping them.. I foolishly thought that IF I had gained, it was better not to know and pretend like nothing happened. <BR> <BR> Turned out I lost 0.7 kg's (1.5 pounds) this week, and that tells me I definately found something that works. Around 1400-1500 calories a day, some days up to 1800 is allowed but only as an exceptio... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 04:29:12 EST A little saturday blog.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5122206 So I found the courage to step on the scale today, knowing that I simply have to in order to keep myself accountable. <BR> I felt like I had lost some weight this week, but I did NOT think I had lost as much as 1,1 kg, which is about 2.4 pounds. <BR> <BR> I started to think about what I have done differently to get these results... good thing about SP is that you can go back and check reports for past weeks and months! I saw that I had eaten around 1500 calories MINIMUM and I took daily wal... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 07:18:25 EST Hi! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5119108 I guess I won't be winning any "most active blogger"-awards any time soon. But, good news is that I'm sticking to my plan! Counting my calories and walking every day. I think walks are most important (and effective) for me, so I'll keep doing that. <BR> <BR> I changed my goal YET AGAIN, to give myself more time. That means I can eat more, which leads to me getting more energy to be a happy mom. It also has the lovely side effect that my legs hurt less. Funny, but when I eat too little I get... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 12:45:14 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5097529 So, finally we got some rain here in Tunisia! I guess that marks the beginning of "fall", or the rainy season before temperatures drop and "winter" comes... I'm grateful for this, as it makes my 30-minute walk every morning a whole lot easier! <BR> <BR> My program now is to walk every morning, and then the 2 mile or 3 mile walk with Leslie Sansone every other day, sunday is rest day and I'll try to squeeze in a short pilates abs video the days when I don't do the walking videos.. I found so... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 11:56:21 EST Time to write something here.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5079379 I'm back now to exercising and eating right, I upped my calorie level a little bit because I think I might have been eating too little before. I know I was successful at losing weight, but I also lost hair and had some serious problems with muscle fatigue even after the smallest bit of exercise. So I am now trying to find some kind of balance between losing the weight and still eating enough. I'm thinking between 1500-1600 calories when I don't exercise and up to 1750 the days when I do cardi... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 10:16:21 EST I'm back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5058632 Time to get back to business! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l360989456.jpg"> Fri, 14 Sep 2012 06:59:55 EST I DID IT! FINALLY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5048375 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l240179675.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Now I really have a great motivation to continue with my journey. :) <BR> <BR> Fri, 7 Sep 2012 10:41:32 EST Still alive! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5039223 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l717273324.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm still in Sweden and I'll be here for 2 more weeks. Can't wait to get back to healthier eating and exercise. I walk a lot here though and that has been GREAT for my legs. I wish I could walk just as much in Tunisia... <BR> <BR> So anyway, hope you are all doing great! <em>334</em> <em>213</em> Fri, 31 Aug 2012 19:33:56 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5009489 Long time since my last post! I'm hanging in there, maybe not doing so well with weight loss but maintaining at least. The fasting is going great, it's hot here though so I'm a bit tired and since we eat breakfast now around 3 in the morning I basically feel like I could sleep all day long, haha.. <BR> <BR> In five days we're going to Sweden so I'm nervous as always, and I guess it will be one more month of not being so very active here on SP.. <BR> <BR> So, hope everyone is having a great... Fri, 10 Aug 2012 10:06:44 EST Ramadan update :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4982823 Fasting isn't as difficult this time as I imagined it would be. I thought my legs would hurt etc because of dehydration during the day, but actually, I feel better! I drink lots of water at night, eat veggies, no sweets and no soda. I haven't been logging the first days, but started yesterday. I'm staying within my calorie range and making sure to eat enough. For the pre-dawn meal I eat whole wheat bread or oatmeal, and lots of milk. Seems to help! <BR> <BR> Well, that was my update for now... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 08:50:16 EST A lot of FUN coming up! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4968169 So, I'm still melting away here.. exercising is a challenge, but I just have to do it. Ramadan is just around the corner, so these days we'll go grocery shopping for the month so we don't have to do that during the hot days while fasting. I've planned for healthy meals, my husband agrees with me also that this year we'll skip the soda and the more unhealthy of the usual fried foods. I'll focus more on soups, salads & BBQ, although I will of course make some apple pie etc... I just have to con... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 05:14:57 EST Still here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4961557 I need to adjust my plan a bit... because I started listening to my body and what it needs, I'm now going to start eating at the higher end of my calorie range. That's about 1500-1600 calories. I still feel tired and get muscle pain and fatigue too quickly. It doesn't feel right. <BR> I stayed at around 1300-1500 calories a day last week, and still lost 0.6 kg's! That tells me it's ok to eat a bit more. I am now so close to my goal, that it feels like I don't need to put so much pressure on ... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 05:04:32 EST Tired in this heat.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4954593 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/4/l442375657.jpg"> <BR> Melting away... haha. I'm also getting lazy about what I eat, which is NOT ok in any way. I really need to get my butt in gear if I want to continue losing weight. I think somewhere deep down inside, all this talk from others about how I shouldn't lose any more is getting to me. While at the same time I KNOW they're wrong and most likely just jealous. This person actually asks me every time I visit if I want her to buy a... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 05:41:54 EST Accountability http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4949779 Yes! I stayed within my calorie range yesterday, said NO to that huge bottle of coke in front of me at lunch, didn't eat bread and I did my 30 minutes of pilates. <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <em>244</em> Sun, 1 Jul 2012 03:07:18 EST 10 years http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4948513 Yesterday was our 10th wedding anniversary. Can't believe how time goes by so fast!! <BR> We took the kids to the best hamburger restaurant (very romantic, lol!) and of course I ate way too much. <BR> <BR> I'm having a hard time adjusting to summer vacation, the kids eat at home so I have to cook a lot more, I find myself eating when I shouldn't and skipping exercise. Not good. So today I'm taking a timeout to think about how to deal with this. I need a plan! <em>48</em> <BR> <BR> Anywa... Sat, 30 Jun 2012 03:48:32 EST What I do to relax http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4945707 I take my camera out for a walk. That takes my mind off of whatever is bothering me at the moment, and lets me focus on something else. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l945579237.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I really should do it more! Thu, 28 Jun 2012 06:26:06 EST 4 months! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4941133 So today I've been a member here for 4 months. <em>334</em> I think I'll celebrate that with a coffee after lunch, lol. <BR> <BR> Yesterday wasn't a very good day but today I did my pilates and I'm determined to stick to my calorie goal. <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Mon, 25 Jun 2012 07:38:03 EST "-I never thought you could do it!" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4939828 That was an actual comment by the same person I wrote about who says I won't look good at my goal weight. <BR> She straight out said to me that she never thought I could lose the weight. <BR> This same person is morbidly obese, by the way and says that she herself "can't stop eating", as she puts it. I however, know that she can, but she won't. Anyone can do this, no person will drop down dead from cutting down a bit on their daily calories. But she thinks that she can't change her eating ha... Sun, 24 Jun 2012 08:23:16 EST Yes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4938500 I finally started losing weight again. I'm now almost back to where I was before my mom came to visit. I've been wondering if my plan was still working, but I guess it was - I just have to stick to it, lol. Now I feel more confident and can continue on the same track knowing that it works for me. For now, at least. <BR> <BR> Today we have a birthday party to go to, so lunch will be unhealthy (I'll try to stick to the salads if there are any) and sure there will be cake. I have enough motiva... Sat, 23 Jun 2012 04:55:55 EST "-Don't lose more weight, you'll be too skinny!" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4936019 That's what someone told me yesterday. I'm 180 cm and weigh 83 kg's so I am by no means at my goal or anywhere near it. I'm still in the overweight range according to the BMI. Most of all, I still feel too heavy. <BR> <BR> I'm not obsessed by the mirror, and I know my body will never be like that of a model. I have healthy goals, 70 kg's. I could weigh less, but I don't think I would feel comfortable. Would I be too skinny at 70? Nope. <BR> <BR> As you may (or may not) know, the last coup... Thu, 21 Jun 2012 10:24:20 EST Melting! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4934677 It's so HOT now in Tunisia, so hot that my kids refused to go to the park! So no walk for me today. Did some cardio kickboxing instead, which reminded me of why I love pilates, haha. <BR> <BR> Hopefully we will go swimming tomorrow morning at 7, when the beach is empty. If we can do that every day (or at least a couple of times a week) I think it would be good for my legs. Talk about low impact exercise! Relaxing too to swim in the sea while enjoying the sunrise. <BR> <BR> Well, that's it ... Wed, 20 Jun 2012 12:01:56 EST A small feeing of accomplishment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4931160 That's what I had today as I did my pilates. In today's routine were exercises I would have laughed about earlier, because they looked so darn impossible for big, fat me with 0 flexibility and absolutely no balance what so ever. I guess that's why I kind of disliked pilates at first, I just felt like an elephant there on the floor trying to follow along with the program. I had to modify just about everything, even at the beginner's level. So I decided I'd had enough and focused on cardio inst... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 09:00:49 EST Another day.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4929713 ..means another chance to think about what I need to change for this to work. These last few days has been a struggle, I ate too much bad foods and skipped dinner etc because I would have had too many calories otherwise. I know I won't lose weight like that, by eating unhealthy, even if I stay within my calorie range. It just doesn't happen for me. <BR> <BR> So this week I really need to focus on <BR> <BR> - staying within my calorie range <BR> - making healthier choices when I do feel lik... Sun, 17 Jun 2012 06:51:13 EST Don't worry about what others think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4927214 A short story that reminds us that no matter what you do, you can't please everyone. Focus on being the best YOU and to do what you know is right. <BR> <BR> "A man, Nasreddin Hoja, and his son were traveling to a far village for business. They had with them a strong donkey and a few traveling necessities. Initially Hoja's son walked while his father rode the donkey but as they passed through the first town the people whispered: "What a cruel father, to make his young son walk while he rides ... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 04:00:40 EST Good feeling is back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4925826 Yesterday wasn't my best day, lol. This morning I decided that I have to take control and make the changes I need and want to make. I can sit and complain and eat to make me "feel better", or I can pull myself back up and get back to exercising and eating healthy, and start to TRULY feel better. <BR> <BR> Today I started out with a protein bar for breakfast (sort of feels weird to eat something called chocolate and caramel because it's good for you..) and did my pilates. I must say I feel t... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 07:05:51 EST Well, this sucks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4924237 I did weigh myself today. Not the best idea I've ever had, but.. Turns out I gained a bit. Too much. Probably not fat since I didn't overeat THAT horribly much and I did walk a LOT during the week mom was here. Still, doesn't exactly make me happy with myself. <BR> <BR> BUT, since this has happened to me before and I got passed it, I guess this time is no different. I'll just keep on doing what I have to do, and not let this get me down. <BR> <BR> Wed, 13 Jun 2012 03:42:44 EST Damage control... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4922938 I really need to weigh myself.. should I do it tomorrow or wait for saturday which used to be my weigh-in day? <BR> I'm afraid that I have gained.. I know it wouldn't be the end of the world and I can get rid of it just as fast, but still.. I've worked so hard and I have to keep my motivation.. <BR> <BR> Oh well. I guess I'll just have to face the truth and deal with it in the best way possible. <BR> <BR> When I think about it, waiting for saturday might be a good idea. Tue, 12 Jun 2012 08:59:58 EST Spiritual advice.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4922710 “In God, there is no sorrow or suffering or affliction. If you want to be free of all affliction and suffering, hold fast to God, and turn wholly to Him, and to no one else. Indeed, all your suffering comes from this: that you do not turn toward God and no one else.” <BR> <BR> — Al Ghazali <BR> <BR> (Source: <link>the-lions-mane.tumblr.com/ </link> ) Tue, 12 Jun 2012 05:00:58 EST New week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4921028 So this is the last week of the exams.. my poor children, lol. 2 weeks of exams in ALL subjects, 3 times a year. If you don't pass these exams, you do the year all over again. Tough. <BR> <BR> As for me, except stressing and being nervous for my kids, my job will be to 1. stick to my calorie goal, 2. meditate every day and 3. exercise (pilates) every day. Not too complicated, right? <BR> <BR> It's getting HOT here in Tunisia now, so I'll try to walk as much as I can now in june before the h... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 04:14:10 EST Back to work. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4919745 A voice inside my head told me to wait until monday to start exercising and eating healthy again, you know, the same voice that tells you to eat pizza for breakfast and skip dinner to eat ice cream instead. <BR> Well, this is me telling that voice to shut up, I have things to do and goals to reach. So today I'm back on my journey again, and I love the feeling. It used to feel scary to get back on track, or more like a sad feeling of "oh no, no more sweets, how will I ever be happy again?" <... Sun, 10 Jun 2012 06:46:34 EST Fun week over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4918546 Back to normality, lol. We didn't exactly have a healthy week when it comes to food, but we took LONG walks every day so I guess that's something, right? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/9/l593758088.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Now it's time to get back on track and start losing that weight again! Sat, 9 Jun 2012 06:06:00 EST Surprise! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4910027 1 night ago my husband said he was going to go to the airport to pick up his friend who was coming for a holiday here. 2 hours later there was a knock on the door, I opened and my MOTHER walked in! I just stood there, looking at her, at her husband, I couldn't understand what just happened. Was she really here? She actually said to me "-it's me!", I guess because I couldn't say a word, just look at her with my mouth wide open. She didn't know but I had to keep myself from crying, seriously. I... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 13:34:22 EST One day at a time, right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4906848 I did it! I stayed well within my calorie range yesterday. Sure I was a bit hungry by bedtime but I ignored it.. I know I've had too many calories this week. Today I'm hoping to be just as successful, I have my meals planned and enough fruit at home to feed a small village. Meaning that I have no reason whatsoever to eat an unhealthy snack today. <BR> <BR> It's a new month now so I guess now is a good time to set some "new" goals. First of all, to get rid of 3 kg's this month. It's really no... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 05:29:38 EST Stress is no fun! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4905265 My progress is SLOW at the moment. Don't even think I'm losing any weight. I've had a couple of weeks now of eating a little bit too much, not to the extreme but still eating too much to lose weight. I think it's stress, my kids have their exams now at school, 2 weeks of daily exams for them and horror for us parents, lol. To think they're only 9 years old and have national HUGE exams 3 times a year in every subject. At that age in Sweden, we had as many as zero exams every year, haha. Very s... Thu, 31 May 2012 04:40:32 EST Yogilates! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4903781 Please, please try this video: <link>content.bitsontherun.com/previews/Fo<BR>5GSXId-LvwepIf3 </link> <BR> It's amazing! If you like yoga and pilates, that is.. <em>334</em> Very relaxing and fun. <BR> <BR> I have nothing else to add here, except that I'm trying now to get back to my old routines of daily exercise and discipline when it comes to food.. I know I'm not doing well right now so I need to change that since I feel it in my body that I'm not doing what needs to be done. I hav... Wed, 30 May 2012 06:07:27 EST That moment when.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4902119 ..you're making pancakes for the family and don't eat even one bite! Moahaha! I WIN! I had me some cucumber sticks with yogurt & 2 boiled eggs for breakfast instead. <BR> <BR> Today my legs HURT. Again. The night before I woke up with the lovely feeling of cramp on top of my left foot (yes, the TOP of my foot!) so my toe stood straight up. It hurt like [insert bad unspeakable words here]. I had to press my toe back down and when I did that, the sole of my foot started cramping too! Nice! Do... Tue, 29 May 2012 04:05:08 EST Thoughts along the way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4898452 Yep, I'm still stuck in the same negative attitude that has kept me busy overeating the last couple of days. I feel that today however, is the last day of emotional eating and feeling sorry for myself for reasons I don't know. I started my day with coffee and plain yogurt with fresh strawberries and banana, now eating one boiled egg + latte as a snack before exercise. I don't want to eat all the time (duh!) since that's what got me in to all this in the first place. I don't want food to be my... Sat, 26 May 2012 05:23:46 EST Thought I was going to be lazy.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895579 ..and try a seated cardio routine from Sparkpeople: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/fitness<BR>_articles.asp?id=1701 </link> <BR> <BR> Well, turns out it kicked my butt! This is low impact, yes, but it is a challenge! I'll try out more of her videos, that's for sure. I enjoyed the change and I like how she always reminds you to keep a good form and BREATHE, something I tend to forget. I'll be exploring more of Sparkpeople's video section this week! <em>252</em> <BR> I also need to get... Thu, 24 May 2012 04:26:34 EST Changed my goals AGAIN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4892399 But for once, I don't feel crappy about doing so. Reaching 80 kg's by the end of may is hardly realistic, considering my current weight of 83. So 80 by the end of JUNE and 70 not by the end of august, but by the end of the year. That gives me a whole lot more time and lets me keep my sense of accomplishment and my cofidence. Much better that way. I'm adjusting to small goals along the way, such as eating fruit and vegetables with every meal, and every day with a good workout and happy legs af... Tue, 22 May 2012 04:45:37 EST Happy horse is happy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4890658 I changed my background here today, wanted something funny to cheer me (and you!) up. I think he's cute! Reminding me of horsies but also to LAUGH and not take all this so seriously all the time. Especially those times when my scale is rude. Lol.. <BR> <BR> Anyway, today I did a workout called "upper body toner" and now my lower body is sore, interesting enough. I guess I'm weird that way. <BR> Tomorrow I think I'll try one of Sparkpeople's videos, they are a bit short but seem to be a lot o... Mon, 21 May 2012 06:03:28 EST What a weigh-in.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4888158 To hold myself accountable, I blog about today's fight with my scale. I was prepared I guess because I'm sore all over from my workout yesterday, and it happened before that I "gained" a couple of hundred grams after a heavy workout. So my scale told me that I'm back up to the same weight as I was 2 weeks ago. That inconsiderate liar.. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> No worries, I know I didn't eat those 3500 calories it takes to actually pack on 1 pound of real body weight, so I'm pretty sure this... Sat, 19 May 2012 05:37:34 EST Finished a program http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4886734 Today was the last day of "Bridal bootcamp" at exercise.com. I know I've missed lots of days, my daughter has been sick and some days I've been so extremely tired that I just did one of the shorter workouts they offer. But it went better than I expected, I was worried at first because these workouts are longer and more intense than I'm used to so I didn't know how my legs would handle it. But they did, somehow. Maybe it's easier to complete the workouts now because there's just less weight fo... Fri, 18 May 2012 06:21:31 EST Back to exercise! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4881998 Things have been a bit chaotic last week, with my daughter being sick and all, but now I'm slowly getting back on track. Started exercising today and it felt great.. I really missed it and I felt in my body that something wasn't right! I also need the exercise for peace of mind. It lets me focus on something totally different for half an hour and that's important. I feel better in so many ways since I started this adventure and I'm so glad did! It really is worth the struggle those days when... Tue, 15 May 2012 05:39:48 EST