TANYAQHALL4's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TANYAQHALL4 TANYAQHALL4's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ disgusted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189149 i have been home six months and fell completely off the wieght loss wagon. resuming my single mom lifestyle with work and soon, school. i am so disgusted with myself that i have gained all the weight and inches back. I have no will power and find every excuse not to work out. It was so easy to fall back into the same habits. I cant look in the mirror, because i just get depressed. wow, its much harder in everyday life. How i have the willpower and strength to fight for my country but ne... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 22:58:00 EST GREAT TO BE HOME!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4804280 Well i am home now, its great but i havent exercised for over two weeks due to plane and bus traveling, so it will be like starting over again. i am so ready! Sun, 25 Mar 2012 17:21:41 EST THE NEW YEAR CHALLENGES http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4709459 I started changing my workout regimen to try to shock my body into hyper mode-some days good, some days bad. My commitment is the same though. i get lots of free advice from people who are fit, some who are not, some who think they are know-all of fitness and health, i take what i can apply and let the rest lay where it lays. I do alot of reading from fitness sites, especially love livestrong.com but i already had a plan to take all my work outs and tracking to a personal trainer when i g... Sat, 28 Jan 2012 22:52:22 EST HAPPY NEW YEARS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4650578 Well i look back to Aug 2011 when i started this journey, and although not where i wanted to be by this time, I just keep going, whether we lose big or little, its our own determination that sets that pattern. I am proud of myself for sticking to a weight training program for this long, only took a break when i was sick. I know until i get the snacking under control, the pounds coming off will be a struggle. The new year brings new challenges and struggles to deal with, but i am striving ... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 08:59:04 EST work out under the weather? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4630999 Well i have had a cold for a week and realized it is very hard to exercise when you have a clogged up head and just being tired. but i try to still do the 60 min and increase the fluids. obviously my taste buds havent been effected yet lol I hope everyone has a wonderful christmas and safe new years. Mon, 19 Dec 2011 07:21:54 EST TWO WEEKS TO CHRISTMAS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4620634 Well i have hit a plateau again, and have come to the realization that i have not found an alternative outlet for my sweet cravings!!! Good thing since i am in desert, not much except for what family and friends send in packages. My exercises goals i am keeping up with, no so much on the calorie goals though. i am stuck. Sat, 10 Dec 2011 21:00:34 EST HAPPY TURKEY DAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4598441 Happy thanksgiving to everyone! today was very interesting as they managed to pull off a nice dinner in a warzone in the middle of nowhere. what was more eye opening was imputing the food eaten on thanksgiving. i wont lie, i had a little bit of everything and left stuff on the plate when i stated feeling full, but yes had the pumpkin pie and coolwhip! On a positive note, did not skip my workouts, upperbody with abs and 60 min cardio. You know its the holidays and we chose what we eat or... Thu, 24 Nov 2011 23:55:53 EST CHANGE #3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4570348 Well after all that halloween candy, yes we get it sent to us in Afgansitan, lol i have been talked into a Body for Life challenge per say, i am gonna try strength training portion, change my cardio because everyone here that thinks thier a fitness buff, says 60 min is too long on the treadmill. BUT i like the 60 min.! The strength training part is brutal so since it is my first day i am gonna see what i can accomplish with staggered weights. so i am sure i will modify it so i dont kill my... Sat, 5 Nov 2011 22:55:54 EST November-new month renewed motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4564329 Well halloween was not a good week for me! i have no will power when it comes to halloween candy! sad i know. well new month which means renewed determination!! On all my past attempts, i would fail and just quit, but i have no desire to do that now. My motivation may waver at times but it comes back in full force every day i step on the treadmill for my 60 minutes. I do not worry about the scale as much now a before, all that matters is that i feel stronger, have more energy and am makin... Wed, 2 Nov 2011 01:30:27 EST HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4547253 Well i turned 45 yesterday! it is actually just a number=) well the weight loss is going along at a healthy pace, although i work out 6 days a week, so i thought it would be more significant but that's ok, the diet is the hardest to control here with minimal selection. its amazing i used to be a sugar addict, and have cut 90% of that out, i drink maybe 1 diet soda aweek. i thought that along would make a difference in the scale, but even better its making a difference in my health. i rea... Fri, 21 Oct 2011 23:25:19 EST NEW MONTH HOPE ITS BETTER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4523902 Well started a new month, although still frustrated with the scale, i keep going. i dont claim to know alot about exercise but the portion control thing seems to be the hardest. today i went over my allotment, but its hard to meet the minimal carb count and i keep going over the fat grams, and cant mmet the protien, when i do, i go over. its hard here because there are no fresh veggies, all canned, fruit seems to be all unripen so i have to wait afew days for it to get edible. so it is... Fri, 7 Oct 2011 10:05:32 EST STILL CHUGGING AWAY!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4504115 Hey to all, well one complete month gone by and although i am impatient withthe scale, i still keep trying as i dont have any of my own clothes to judge inch loss of shifting as icall it, although i have taped myself for inch loss not seeing much, but i am not detered- i keep working out and monitoring what i eat the best i can here. time to change the work out routine though so i am going to try for more cardio and only two days of strength training, my muscles are getting bigger, but the... Mon, 26 Sep 2011 03:12:00 EST BAD DAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4491903 Well started the new regiment dont know if i like it, feel like i am not working hard enough now, i enjoy exercise and cardio, seems like i have too many rest days now, today's eating didnt go well especially at dinner. we had hamburgers, so i ate one with mustard no bun, and jumbo hot dogs, ate half with chili and french fries. its amazing how how those calories get. I seem to do well with breakfast and lunch but dinner just doesnt seem to go right. i rarely go over the high end on c... Sun, 18 Sep 2011 22:39:01 EST HOPE CHANGE IS GOOD... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4489232 well i never claimed to be a know it all about fitness, i spend alot of time reading fitness articles from livestrong.com but i have decided to try and change my workout to benefit me more and am trying to enlist the help of the weight lifters and exercise maniacs here with me. I guess we will see if this will work better. Something has got to give, i do cardio 6 days a weelk for 60 min and strength train 3 days a week, and abs 3 days a week. Watch my diet as close as i can here but we ha... Sat, 17 Sep 2011 06:04:50 EST REFRESHING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4473117 It is so refreshing and i am proud of myself when i finish a 60 treadmill workout, i just love the versatility of treadmills, and i try to change it every time i workout on it, today after 20 min of uphill jog/walk cycles i challenged myself and put the incline on 9.0 and speed on 3.0 and spent 15 min charging up this neverending hill!!!! i was wipped! but felt great. and of course dinner tonight is calory ladened so i will just sample a few things. i am learning to eat veggies and chicken ... Thu, 8 Sep 2011 08:41:19 EST IT WAS ONE OF THOSE DAYS!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4468443 Well it was one of those nothing goes right days, started when i woke up and ended with a nice slice of cake!!! well i just start over today =) Mon, 5 Sep 2011 22:54:10 EST BLEW IT BIG TIME!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4465602 Well after a great day of tracking, cardio and lots of water, wouldnt you know it, the cooks decide we are gonna have the mother of all meals! tbone steak, baked potato, mixed veggies and fried shrimp. well i failed miserably. I have been doing so good up till now, so i ate half the tbone, 3/4 of the baked potato with sour cream, all the veggies and 3 pieces of fried shrimp. Not a good calorie total. =( and to top it all off, i am enjoying the first soda in two weeks, a cold COKE ZERO.... Sun, 4 Sep 2011 10:54:00 EST YAHOO! LEVEL 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4465251 I am still motivated, which a surprise to me, i usually quit at this time, but level 2 will be a litte harder for me, as i am in Afganistan, there is not much choice as far as diet goes, so i can only focus on portion control, and continueing to so cardio 5-6 days a week. Sun, 4 Sep 2011 03:27:38 EST WHY??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4463789 I Look around me at people in general and wonder why we have let ourselv3es get this way. When did our work, goals and stressors to compete with everyone win out over healthy and just plain feeling great about ourselves, our families and the simplness of life. I continue to try each day, and hope by the time i get home i will have ingrained habits to work out and watch what i eat so i can get back to the every day joy of life. I want to be in control of me, not let society be in charge. Sat, 3 Sep 2011 08:39:54 EST PROUD OF MYSELF http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4456171 It is the start of a great week, i am proud that i can push myself to contiue, i decided trying to make long range goals was too overwhelming and if i screwed up one day, then i just went back into to old habits. I am hoping i can have ingrained habits by the time i get home that i will feel bad if i dont exercise. I will forever keep trying Tue, 30 Aug 2011 09:50:52 EST Emotional Eater http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4452236 I have been proud of myself for doing very well for the last four days, but i completely lost it last night. I was trying to chat with my sister and she just seemed to busy. Then i realized all my family is too busy to chat, you would think they could make 5 minutes for thier sibling/daughter/mother that is deployed. so i cant decide if i was sad, mad or depressed, could have been all three, bot half a can of pringles and 6 oreo cookies later, i didnt feel any better. so today is a new day... Sun, 28 Aug 2011 02:55:14 EST PROUD OF MYSELF http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4448984 I have only been on this site for 4 days now, and i am very proud of myself for keeping the exercise and nutrition tracker going. It is great to see all the exercising i am doing, and keeping the food journal makes me accountable which has me watching what i eat, and if i go outside the calorie perimeters, i am disappointed in myself and try again the next day. This is a big change, usually i would just eat more and bad because i failed a day. I hope by the time i leave here i will have s... Fri, 26 Aug 2011 04:45:08 EST FRUSTRATED!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4445012 Cant seem to get a handle on this snacking at night!, i know it stems from childhood and bad marriages-but i dont seem to have the will power to change it, its interesting that i have the will pwer to exercise and do treadmill work for over an hour, but i cant seem to put down the junk at night. tracking food has been very helpful so far, just get disappointed when i go over every day because of snacking. Tue, 23 Aug 2011 23:43:26 EST VERY SURPRISED ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4442945 I was very surprised about how many calories i eat in a day even when im trying to be good! well this is day 2 on SP and i am still learning to navigate this site, lets see how good i do today on tracking =) everyone keep workin at it! Mon, 22 Aug 2011 23:18:39 EST