TANYAMWA's SparkPeople Blog

Busy! Busy! Busy!

Mon, 20 May 2013 06:06:56 EST

It's that time of year when everything is wrapping up at school as well as all of the after school activities (I was going to say extra curriculer--but I don't know how to spell that.) 29

Anywho--meetings with teachers, getting speech therapy lines up for the summer, recitals, try outs for next year, etc., etc. It's enough to make a girls head spin!

My eating has not been the best this last week. And I have not even tracked a few days. It's not that I didn...

Cookie Aisle Revisited

Sun, 12 May 2013 07:45:01 EST

So yesterday was grocery shopping day with the 4 year old and 3 year old again. They still want everything in sight and so do I. The same cookies were on sale again. I stopped. I thought about it very hard. The deal was very good--more than half off. And.....

I walked away!!!!!!

I am so proud of myself.

I was still craving sweets when I got home. So, I made homemade banana bread, but substituted guava jelly for the bananas. It baked for an hour. Then...

Daughter's Birthday

Thu, 9 May 2013 07:05:25 EST

I went over board on my daughter's birthday. This has been a tough week calorie wise. I'm not going to worry about it too much. I just don't want it to become a habit. The scale needs to be my friend. 346

I just want to eat!

Tue, 7 May 2013 18:24:04 EST

I am having a tough time these past few days. I made the mistake of buying a package of cookies because they were on sale for half price. Oh sure, I reasoned, I will only eat one or two a day. Yeah right! I ate the whole bag in three days. I can't even blame it on the kids. It was a kind that they don't like. 495 495 495

Birthday Fun

Sun, 5 May 2013 08:45:02 EST

Yesterday we had my oldest daughter's 10th birthday party! I can't believe that she is getting so old. Where does the time go? I am so proud of her for being such a responsible, caring young lady. 41 And I did not pig out at the party! That was a big step up for me! 44

Melt Down in the Cookie Aisle

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 06:05:55 EST

So I have the littlest two (ages 4 and 3) and we are making our way through HEB. It's not easy because they want everything and they are having a hard time keeping on task. Then my mom calls and wants to know specifics about a gift for my oldest daughter. The phone is cutting out. My kids see that I am not paying as much attention to them as I should. They start to act up, as we are on the cookie/potato chip aisle. I cannot do everything at once. Meltdown! Not only for the kids, but f...

Party at Work

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 06:54:53 EST

Oh why did I eat all that cake and donuts? Pigs in a blanket, sausage casserole, cheesecake, and yes there was a little fruit. I should have stopped at one. But no, I had some for breakfast, I ate it for lunch, and I even had a little snack. I am afraid to track my calories from yesterday. 287 473 475 44 495

Drank a Shake from Sonic

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 06:10:22 EST

Yesterday I thought I would save up some calories and treat myself to a shake. I entered it this morning. Oh my! It was more calories than I had eaten the entire day!

My Story

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 06:07:57 EST

So I have thought very long and hard about whether or not I should put anything truly personal on here. I decided that it is time to open up. If I truly want to be able to deal with what bothers me, I just have to put it out there on the table.
The night my daughter almost died....
I have to start off by saying that I have three daughters. The youngest two are very close in age.
I remember it all like it was yesterday. It was Jessica's first birthday. She was very sick. T...

Can't Seem to Kick the Habit

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 06:03:13 EST

I can't seem to kick the fast food habit. It is just so easy and right there. It takes time to remember to pack my lunch. It takes no time to see that Sonic is right across the street from where I work. I have got to stop!!!!

One Step at a Time

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 22:50:34 EST

It is so hard to not let things get me down and to keep my patience. Sometimes I just want things to be easy!!! Oh well, one step at a time!

Small Steps

Tue, 9 Apr 2013 04:54:24 EST

Took the girls for a walk yesterday evening. It has been probably 6 months since we did that. We actually got a little exercise and got to talk. The talking was the most important thing. My girls are growing up so fast. I am hoping that we can make family walks a priority again.

I just get into a funk. Mainly after Angela has been sick. And I get scared to take her out. It's silly I think. At least we found out that her issues are due to a disease and not something that ...

Where am I going

Sun, 7 Apr 2013 09:56:43 EST

When I look at my life around me I am just hanging on. I have a hard time keeping up with all of my duaghter's medical issues, the other two wonderful kids, my housework, cooking, paperwork, not to mention my weight and finances. I am just barely hanging on. I look older than I am and I am exhausted. I ache all over. I have to take some steps because I do not want to be old before my time. I cannot change my daughter's problems (and they are mine--she is only 3). I don't know what to d...

Good Morning

Wed, 27 Feb 2013 06:35:49 EST

It looks like it is going to be another beautiful day in Central Texas

Chili Cook Off

Wed, 20 Feb 2013 06:30:02 EST

I am trying to keep busy by doing inexpensive things that benefit the community. I am hoping that this will help my pocketbook.
Last night we had a chili cook off and I won my division. I was so proud.
We took pictures though and when I look at them I just think about how fat I am rather than the accomplishment. What is wrong with me?

Polar Plunge

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 20:28:59 EST

I did the Polar Plunge this weekend for the Special Olympics. I didn't feel comfortable showing my body off, so I went in with pants and bathing suit. It's bittersweet because it is hard to admit that with my three year old having delays and special needs this may be something that will become part of our life. It is hard to say to people that my child is not developing normally.

Feeling Good

Fri, 15 Feb 2013 06:39:23 EST

I did it! Went and worked out and it felt great. Don't get me wrong. There are muscles aching that I didn't remember having. Will do it again next week!

Good Morning and Thank You

Tue, 12 Feb 2013 06:28:28 EST

Thank you so much for the positive posts. That lifted my spirits. It looks like it will be another rainy day here in Texas. We need the rain so much and I am thankful. My daughter's dance class has started a work out program for the moms while the kids are in class, and I will be attending today. Here goes nothing! 38

Slow Start

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 05:46:16 EST

I guess that it's just time to give this a shot again. It's good that I haven't gained any weight, but I haven't lost either. I think that I tend to get depressed due to finances, children's health problems, etc, and I just lose my way. Time to try again. 15

Back At It

Tue, 8 Jan 2013 06:55:40 EST

It has been a while, but I am back at it again. I haven't gained any weight, but I haven't lost anything either. I am afraid. 249

Social Security

Fri, 8 Jun 2012 06:40:48 EST

I finally got up the courage to admit that I needed financial help. It did not go so well. :( I wonder if it would be worth hiring a lawyer or if I should just wait until she is 18 and file again.

still hate going to the doctor

Wed, 23 May 2012 18:42:08 EST

It has been two and a half years of doctors visits, and I still hate them.

Wednesday

Wed, 23 May 2012 06:34:39 EST

Is there ever really an end to the struggle with food? It seems like when I am tired or nervous or bored or anything really, I have to fight that urge to just eat for no reason. I do not have to eat food just because it is there. I don't have to eat when I am not hungry. I can get upset and not want to dive into the nearest chocolate thing that I can find. I can be sleepy and not reach for a cookie thinking that somehow that is going to keep me awake. I can be stressed and not want to g...

Great Day

Sun, 20 May 2012 08:35:40 EST

We are gearing up for a great day! Church, refreshing lunch, play time, etc. It sure was nice that my mom watched the girls for me yesterday. True, I went to work, but after that it was nice to have a little quiet time for myself. Thank you mom!

Sleep

Sat, 19 May 2012 07:28:27 EST

I finally got 8 hours of sleep and feel super refreshed!

Ice Cream

Thu, 17 May 2012 06:24:30 EST

I was so worried that having a little ice cream yesterday would blow my diet. Guess what? The child size is not that bad. Plus it was a perfect treat! I will definately keep that in mind. 250

Finding time

Tue, 15 May 2012 21:33:15 EST

Any suggestions on finding time for myself to do the work I need? I seem to do better when I am able to log in multiple times a day.

Oops I did it again!

Fri, 11 May 2012 22:30:58 EST

I am just back sliding right now. As my sister told me, I need to get over the wall.

Good Morning

Thu, 10 May 2012 06:42:28 EST

Today I have high ideals! I want to get back to my family walks with the kiddos. We haven't done this since the latest round of hospitalization. It is time to get back to it! 334

Daughter's Birthday

Tue, 8 May 2012 21:43:46 EST

I went slightly over my calories for today, but I knew that I probably would. It's my oldest daughter's birthday. We had a doctor's appointment in the city today, so I took her with us. We went to our favorite burger joint afterwards and had cake.

And I wasn't eating for emotional reasons, so I think a small indulgence for a celebration is OK. Am I right?

Uggghhhh!

Mon, 7 May 2012 18:48:55 EST

So I haven't been able to take my middle child to her dance lessons for the last two weeks. It's because my youngest was in the hospital one week and the other week the youngest was having tests on her brain stem. We went to practice today to find that no only has practice been cancelled, the recital was cancelled for her age group, and they had there last dance where they all dressed up in the costumes we had bought.

I was so upset. Number one, those stinking costumes cost a pr...

Slowly Understanding Myself

Sun, 6 May 2012 07:53:03 EST

As I read more and more about the struggles that other people have gone through, I think that I am starting to understand more and more about myself.

Somewhere deep within I am still me. There have been layers and layers of stuff that are hiding my inner most being. Sometimes it feels like it will suffocate me, and I can't remember what are the things that I truly like.

Food is one of the things that I use to make myself feel better. This world may be topsy turvy, but...

Wonderful Day

Sat, 5 May 2012 20:40:26 EST

It was a wonderful day spent at the Chili Cook off with the kids. They gave me plenty of exercise. It was wonderful. 334 This is the best. Cheap entertainment, lots of exercise.

Back at it

Fri, 4 May 2012 06:31:14 EST

My youngest has been in the hospital. Before that I could tell for a day or two that she was getting sick. I was hoping that we could avoid the hospital this time, but no. It is always very stressful for me right before, during, and after a sickness. That is one of my major triggers and I have to say that I fell off the wagon a little bit. I ate a lot of sweets. I guess it is time to get back on it!

Could Use a Little Encouragement

Thu, 26 Apr 2012 23:06:42 EST

I am having a tough time with my kids being sick, finances, and eating. It seems like they all go hand in hand. I know that we will get through this, but some days are just a little harder than others.

Tuesday, April 24th

Tue, 24 Apr 2012 21:05:40 EST

It was good to get back to work. At least a little less was on my mind. It is difficult to concentrate on some days when I have so much on my mind. I really enjoy my customers and the people that I work with, so that makes it good. 100

My little girls are whispering to each other right now. That can't be good.

Monday, Whatever day this is in April

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 21:54:21 EST

Today I took my little one back to the hospital to have some tests done for her hearing. They had to put her under and that always makes me very nervous. She did fine. Her tests actually showed that she can hear. For me that is good news and a little bad. I was hoping that she couldn't hear, and then we would get hearing aids and that would magically fix everything. I knew that was silly, because her problems are proven to have a genetic cause. I was just hoping.

So now we j...

Does This Count as Journaling?

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 07:55:58 EST

I have a goal to journal three times a week. So far, that hasn't happened. Does this count as journaling? 30