TAMMY5707's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TAMMY5707 TAMMY5707's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I think I can, I think I can, I think I can http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5532954 Just like the Little Engine that Could, I keep chugging up that weight loss mountain. This week I'm down 2.2 pounds. With every pound I lose, I become more confident and I believe that I am making real changes to better my life. <BR> <BR> I wasn't perfect this past week. That Halloween candy and the snacks I bought for my husband's lunches got to me. I binged on Cheetos and peanut butter cups one afternoon this week. Yet, I still lost. <BR> <BR> I think I was successful despite my weaknesse... Tue, 5 Nov 2013 12:49:48 EST Believe it or not I look in the mirror http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5528251 My feathers got ruffled this week when I read about the radio station to which a woman contacted to declare she was handing out a letter to obese children for trick or treat rather than candy. <BR> <BR> <link>https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?f<BR>bid=10151943888108180&set=a.7298242817<BR>9.73904.72763053179&type=1&theater </link> <BR> <BR> This call was likely a prank and not a real one, but it brings to mind one of my biggest and most frustrating pet peeves. For some reason, many skin... Thu, 31 Oct 2013 10:54:42 EST Abracabyebye http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5526543 Today I was dreading my ww meeting and stepping on the scale. I was convinced I was up again and I didn't know how I was going to face another week of struggling with my food addiction. I took a deep breath and stepped up on the scale and... I was down 1.8 pounds! <BR> <BR> I lost almost two pounds during a week that I thought I had failed miserably. It was like magic. I just waved my magic wand and said "Abracabyebye" to those pesky pounds. Okay, maybe it wasn't magic. Maybe the good meals ... Tue, 29 Oct 2013 13:22:26 EST I'm at peace with half a pound http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5520746 I'm up half a pound this week and I decided that I'm okay with that. I know what I did wrong and how to correct it and in the grand scheme of things, I can live with that half pound. <BR> <BR> Last week I didn't track my food and I ate some high fat and carb foods like pizza and cheeseburgers. (yes, cheeseburgers is plural) I decided I'm not going to beat myself up for it. I almost feel like I had been good for weeks and taking a "week off" isn't going to kill me. Especially since these good... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 21:40:59 EST It's a Matter of Routine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514584 Today's Weight Watcher topic was about change but I think I really owe credit to my routines. I was down another half pound this week. It's not a lot, but I have been down at least that much every week since I joined WW a month ago and I'm down a total of over 8 pounds. <BR> <BR> I have not been perfect. In fact, I have binged on pizza, potato chips, chocolate and numerous other evils. I think I lost despite those weaknesses for several reasons: <BR> <BR> * When I "cheated" I still counted ... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 20:32:04 EST Getting Back on that Horse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507944 In response to my last blog entry, a friend told me that when you fall off the horse you need to put your big girl panties on and get right back on. So each time I binged and ate stuff that was not on my plan, I tracked what I wrote and kept track of the points anyway. I went to the gym an extra time this past week and I ate some really low point dinners to make up for the bad afternoons. <BR> <BR> I was dreading this week's weigh-in because over the last week I ate pizza, a cheeseburger, a ... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 12:15:10 EST The Honeymoon is Over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5504755 It was easy to stay on track my first two weeks on Weight Watchers. I was seeing results and it was new so I had lots of incentive to keep going. However, this week is tougher. I fell back into some old bad habits over the last two days. <BR> <BR> Yesterday wasn't so bad, but I was picking. I picked food off of my son's plate, I kept feeling the need to "taste" dinner and I found ways to sneak little bites of this and that all day long. Today was worse. I just flat out ate more than I should... Fri, 4 Oct 2013 21:32:15 EST My Relationship with Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501387 Food and I have been in a long-term relationship for my entire life. Food has been there for me when I've been hungry, depressed, lonely or bored. It has also helped me celebrate every major milestone in my life and we see each other at every special occasion. In fact, I don't go a day without spending time with my bestest buddy, Food. <BR> <BR> The problem is our relationship hasn't always been a healthy one. Food means well, but it has raised my blood sugar, reduced my energy levels and ha... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 12:35:53 EST Scale Success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494816 My first Weight Watchers weigh-in was this morning and I'm down 4.4 pounds. Can I hear an amen?!? <em>29</em> <BR> <BR> So the tracking, going to meetings and eating more fruits and vegetables strategies worked. Imagine that! It feels so good to finally have a successful weight-in. <BR> <BR> For months I was going to the gym four or five days a week and working my butt off but continued to watch the number on the scale climb. The problem was, for as hard as I was working, I wasn't payin... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 12:02:30 EST Binging with Purpose http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5491519 I was recently posting a comment on someone else's blog and I wrote, "Don't let the food control you. You can control the food." Then I stopped and actually looked at what I just wrote. I had no choice but to think to myself, "Take your own advice, silly." <BR> <BR> I'm a binge eater. I have moments where I want to eat everything in sight and I don't care about the consequences. Weight Watchers is helping because I have to write down everything I eat which makes me pause and think twice. Tha... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 21:57:59 EST Back for More - But This Time I'll Be Honest With MYSELF http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5489257 I haven't blogged in months, mostly because I've had a guilty conscience. As much as I want to lose weight and be healthy, the last couple months I've been in a slump. <BR> <BR> I stopped working out because of my gall bladder surgery and then I just have had one excuse after another. I'm frustrated because I worked out for a year and quite frankly I haven't seen the results because I continued to eat crap. <BR> <BR> This week my son started school which is freeing me up for a couple hours ... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 12:26:27 EST Getting Out of a Slump http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5318082 I have been in a slump. I'm grateful for the friends who have noticed and sent me messages asking how I'm doing. I'm sorry for not responding but I didn't want to admit how poorly I've been doing. <BR> <BR> Over the last month my grandfather has died, my husband's grandmother has died and my best friend's mother passed away. In addition to being surrounded by death I've been balancing the daily struggles of being a full time wife and mother. Somehow everything kind of collapsed on itself and... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 08:57:45 EST Celebrate Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5290942 I've said before that I need to change my relationship with food, but I've had it all wrong up until now. Food is not the enemy. Food is about celebration. <BR> <BR> Food is at the center of our lives. I just returned from a trip to my hometown for a funeral. Our days were spent sitting around the kitchen table talking and eating. In August I will travel again for a family wedding. Following the service, we will celebrate with food. When my husband and I get a rare evening or weekend without... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 10:52:30 EST Every Day Starts at Zero http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267296 I've been pretty honest about struggling with food for the last couple of weeks. I'm kicking myself for the two pounds that I let myself gain last week. It's time I took my own advise. <BR> <BR> When friends are struggling I tell them that every day starts at zero. When you wake up in the morning your calorie count is 0, your exercise minutes are 0 and your pounds gained are 0. Every morning is a fresh start and a chance to reset the scale. Today I feel ready to reset my benchmarks and have ... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 13:33:01 EST Owning My Truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5266014 The truth - I've struggled the last week and as a result at this week's weigh-in I gained two pounds. <BR> <BR> The truth - Despite knowing all the mantras about losing weight slowly is healthier and easier to keep off, I want instant gratification. I want to wave a magic wand and look like a super model. <BR> <BR> The truth - Some days a big fat juicy cheeseburger is the only thing that sounds appetizing when I face a refrigerator full of healthy fruits and vegetables. And on those days I ... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 13:04:08 EST Me vs. Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263322 I haven't blogged in awhile because I've been struggling. Every day I battle food. I try to surround myself with healthy options like salads and whole wheat bread and lowfat milk, etc. but what I really want to eat is a big fat juicy cheeseburger with french fries and a coke. I find I can be good for small periods of time, such as a few weeks, but then the cravings take over and I just want to eat...and eat...and eat. <BR> <BR> I get tired of journaling my food and counting everything I put ... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 11:47:17 EST Don't Forget to Love Yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5250476 On Valentine's Day we tend to focus on our significant others. However, we shouldn't forget to love ourselves as well. I believe I am my own best friend. I'm fortunate enough to have a great support network and many friends and family members who love me - but ultimately it means nothing unless I love me too. <BR> <BR> Taking time to love myself allows me to find new sources of motivation. I am on this weight-loss, healthy living journey because I love myself and I want to love the person I ... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 13:54:59 EST I can't do this alone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249088 I was blown away by the response to my blog post yesterday. It made me think about my support network and how blessed I am to be surrounded by people who are supporting my weight loss goals. My network keeps me accountable, motivates me when I'm down, cheers my successes and pushes me when I falter. <BR> <BR> This network is all around me, both in real life and online. I'm amazed by the number of connections and resources I came up with when I sat down to think about it. <BR> <BR> 1. Of cou... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 12:44:43 EST The biggest girl in the gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5247772 I don't know why they put mirrors in gyms and workout rooms. Seeing my fat ass try to burn it up on the elliptical does NOT encourage me. I feel like I am the biggest, fattest person in the gym and I'm definitely the largest girl in my Zumba class. My Zumba instructor said something last week about getting ready for bikini season. I laughed and told her I wasn't going to be bikini ready until next year. <BR> <BR> I know I should be comparing my size to others but it's hard not to. The girls ... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 12:50:07 EST Going Out Strategy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246372 Tonight I am meeting some girlfriends at TGIFridays for dinner. That is certainly a hotbed for temptation and naughty behavior. However, I do have several strategies to help me stick to the plan: <BR> <BR> * I looked up the nutritional information for the restaurant on its website and identified two entrée options with reasonable calories. The grilled salmon with langostino lobster is 520 calories and the flat iron steak is 380 calories. I then wrote down several sides and their calories and... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 12:06:01 EST Positive + Negative = 0 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242846 I work hard at being positive toward my weight loss. I work at being upbeat in my blog posts and not being too down on myself. I work at celebrating my small victories and not stressing over my failures. <BR> <BR> However, the truth is my good behavior and my bad behavior is canceling everything out to zero. I've been great at exercising but terrible at sticking to my food plan. As a result all my hard work in the gym is not showing up on the scale. The only way to really lose weight and kee... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 12:37:19 EST Melting Away the Fat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5241674 My mother has a great metaphor to visualize the fat that she is losing. She says to picture a pound of butter on the table. If you lose a quarter pound, imagine taking away a stick of butter and that is how much weight you lost. Butter is the perfect visual because it is what I imagine the fat looks like in my body - a greasy, goopy glob of gelatin. <BR> <BR> Today's workout was real work. I was sore from yesterday's Zumba class and every step felt like a mile. So I started visualizing the f... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 13:59:31 EST The Freedom of Truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240211 Truth is powerful. I learned this from a very dynamic woman that I met at a conference a few years ago. Colette Carlson is a motivational speaker and author whose mantra is Speak Your Truth. She talks about the freedom that comes from speaking and living your truth. I highly recommend her Facebook Page: Colette Carlson - Speak Your Truth. <BR> <BR> Through this blog I have discovered my truth - I am a chronic over-eater who needs to get her food cravings under control. By being honest and a... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 12:43:08 EST The Skinny Girl Inside of Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238743 Let me introduce you to Skinny Tammy. She is smart, funny and even beautiful. She loves to dance and has endless energy. Getting dressed isn't such a chore because the clothes in her closet fit and when she goes shopping it is fun rather than an emotional roller coaster. When Skinny Tammy walks into a room she turns heads for all the right reasons. Her husband has always loved her, but trust me...there are fringe benefits to being Skinny Tammy. <BR> <BR> The problem is Skinny Tammy is trappe... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 12:44:50 EST What are your suggestions? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233194 I use this blog for several purposes: <BR> * It keeps me accountable by routinely sharing both my successes and failures <BR> * I receive great feedback and inspiration from both my Facebook and Spark People friends <BR> * I'm a story teller at heart and it gives me a forum to share my story <BR> * It's fun <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> I appreciate everyone who reads my blog and I appreciate those that comment even more. You keep me going when the going gets tough. <BR> <BR> Today I feel stuck... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 12:19:52 EST Food Hangover http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231727 I was bad yesterday...really bad. I bet I ate 3,000 or more calories. I don't know for certain because I didn't track it and I don't want to. <BR> <BR> It all started when my son ate my last banana for breakfast. That meant I didn't get my banana in before my workout. Such a small, silly thing but it did throw me off. Then when we got home and had lunch I was starving. I started out good. I made a burrito out of a whole wheat tortilla and some eggs and peppers (not bad) but I as still hungry... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 12:54:40 EST The Good, the Bad(ish) and the Ugly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228793 I weigh-in each week at the community center where I work out. It gives me an opportunity to chat with the wellness coach and she keeps track of my weight, BMI, body fat % and blood pressure from week to week. Then after the weigh-in I workout for about an hour and a half. <BR> <BR> The day was off to a good start before I left the house because I tried on a pair of jeans that I haven't been able to wear for months and was able to both zip them and sit down comfortably in them. I'm chalking ... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 12:59:14 EST Conquering My Depression http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5226838 I have a tendency to keep my anxiety/depression disorder in the closet. My closest friends and family are aware of my history with chronic depression but I don't advertise my struggles with my mental health. People with no experience with depression and anxiety don't understand how debilitating it can be. It's not about being sad; it's about not being able to think clearly and function. <BR> <BR> I manage my symptoms through medication and talk therapy. I found some great resources in Centra... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 09:55:13 EST A Quiet Day at Home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5225504 Today is a quiet day at home. That can be a blessing or a curse. One on hand, I have complete control over what foods I eat. This makes it easy to plan meals and track calories. On the other hand, it's easy to graze and pick up extra calories here or there. <BR> <BR> I also don't go to the gym on Sundays. I work out hard during the week, Monday through Friday, so I take Saturday and Sunday off. I suppose I could pick up some activity at home but I'm often sore come the weekends and I need so... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 11:27:29 EST The Honeymoon is Over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224327 I am still motivated for change, but the euphoria of starting fresh and beginning a new healthy lifestyle is fading. I need to make sure I keep my goals in check and don't trail off back into my previous healthy lifestyle. <BR> <BR> What do you do to keep motivated? <BR> <BR> These are some strategies I'm using to make sure I keep moving forward: <BR> <BR> * I use this blog to hold myself accountable. By posting about my successes and failures I'm committing myself to keep going. The last... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 12:21:06 EST Wholesome Family Feeding http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223021 The fact is, when mommy's eating habits change they change for the whole family. I'm in charge of grocery shopping and cooking so naturally I have a huge influence over what both my husband and son eat. That said, neither one is very interested in nutrition and my husband doesn't share my enthusiasm for low-fat, low-calorie eating. <BR> <BR> My son is only 2 so I can pretty much dictate what he eats and I've been working on giving him an appreciation for fruits and vegetables at a very young... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 12:17:48 EST Snacking to feel full http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221556 I met with my wellness coach this morning because I feel hungry all the time. Naturally, feeling hungry leads to unhealthy food binges and I'm working too hard to blow it on my arch enemies cheeseburgers and potato chips. <BR> <BR> We had a good chat and overall I'm eating a lot of good things, but I need to eat enough calories to sustain my body through my workouts. Also, I need to incorporate some healthy snacks that will fill me up but not spend too many of my precious calories for the da... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 11:43:58 EST First Weigh-In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220047 Yesterday was my first weigh-in since I started tracking my food and working really hard at this whole lifestyle change thing. I lost 3.2 pounds. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Part of me things it should have been more just because I've been literally working my butt off. But I know that 3 pounds lost is 3 pounds not gained and I should be happy with that number. Slow and steady wins the race and all that. <BR> <BR> But still, why is it so easy to put those pounds on and so hard to take them ... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 11:56:33 EST Resisting Temptation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218612 <em>15</em> <BR> I want to eat....and eat...and eat. Today is a day in which I want to sit down and eat that whole bag of potato chips; not because I'm hungry but rather because it's comforting. <BR> <BR> It's cold outside. The baby is napping. Daddy is at work. Those chips are calling to me and saying, "Eat me. You could eat me and no one would know." See, I'm a closet eater. I do really well in front of people. It's when I'm alone that the binges begin. I know those chips are bad for m... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 12:40:10 EST Raising a Healthy Son http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216877 Our food habits start at a very young age so I am trying to raise my two-year-old son to be a healthier eater than I ever was. I don’t want him to have the problems that I have when he gets to be my age. <BR> <BR> These are the things I’m doing at this point to help him develop a healthy lifestyle: <BR> <BR> • I make sure he has a fruit and/or vegetable with every meal. He’ll get a banana for breakfast, maybe some carrots and some applesauce with lunch and veggies with dinner. Often, we’ll ... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 11:02:42 EST Preparation Prevails http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215303 Saturday afternoon I successfully went out to eat at a local sports bar with my family without going over my calorie count for the day. Once I entered in all that I ate, I had five calories left over. :) <BR> <BR> I credit a couple things with my success: <BR> 1. I purposefully ate a filling yet low-calorie breakfast and lunch. <BR> Breakfast = a fresh egg on a high fiber English muffin. <BR> Lunch = a can of Progressive vegetarian lentil soup <BR> 2. I looked up the website for the... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 09:26:45 EST Striving for Imperfection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214386 Sometimes the food and fitness tracking can drive me crazy. How many calories is the bite of hotdog I swiped from my son's highchair? If I'm drinking a class of water and my son steals a swallow, does that mean I don't count the whole glass? Sure I spent 45 minutes on the elliptical but did I push myself that whole 45 minutes for it to count? I used to be in Weight Watchers and I remember asking the coach how many points are there in one M&M. I think she laughed a little. <BR> <BR> Right now... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 14:08:01 EST Food Fail, But Today Starts at Zero http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212951 Yesterday I went over my calorie count by about 1,400 calories. I was just overwhelmed by cravings yesterday and I gave in and *gasp* ate an entire bag of potato chips. I knew while I was doing it that I was wrong but none of the strategies or the willpower in the world could keep me from that bag of chips. <BR> <BR> I think a couple different things contributed to the problem: <BR> * I am hungry all the time now that I'm tracking and reducing my calories. <BR> * I take a medication that sti... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 11:58:05 EST Zumba Wow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212930 I can't believe I was brave enough to do this but today I took my first Zumba class. Zumba is an aerobic workout that is part Latin dance and part belly dancing. <BR> <BR> I walked into the room and Alicia, the instructor, introduced herself. When I told her I had never done this before she was excited and told me not to worry too much about the choreography, just have fun and keep moving. She said I should just focus on the footwork and not worry about my arms so much. <BR> <BR> Every one ... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 11:45:11 EST When the Workout Feels Like Work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5211487 Today's workout was work. Most of the time I enjoy the exercise and once I get started I feel pumped and ready to hit my goals. Not today. I felt tired and sore and everything felt twice as hard as it normally does. I felt ready to quit before I barely got started. But I didn't quit. Instead I dug deep and started thinking up mental strategies to get through my 30 minute elliptical routine. <BR> <BR> My first strategy was to think about this blog. What did I feel like writing about today? Th... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 12:04:17 EST What I do right http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5210047 As I was working today I started thinking about all the things I'm doing right. So often I focus on what I'm doing wrong and thinking about the things I do right helped get me pumped and fueled a great work out. This is what I came up with: <BR> <BR> * I've started drinking water. I still working on forming it into a life-long habit but just drinking any amount of water is better than the bad habit I had fallen into. <BR> <BR> * I have incorporated 4 to 5 trips to the gym into my weekly r... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 12:55:54 EST Now is the time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5208491 This is it. I'm really motivated right now to get my health on track. <BR> <BR> It's funny because it's January so all the January Joiners are at the gym and I don't consider myself one of them. I actually started on this journey when I began working out in September. However, this time of year there are so many resources that crop up to lose weight it seems like a good time to formalize what I began four months ago and refocus. This isn't a "New Year's Resolution." This is just one more st... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 13:54:54 EST