TAKIAANDMOMMY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TAKIAANDMOMMY TAKIAANDMOMMY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ just stuck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712672 so earlier this year I was doing so well. I had lost another 25lbs and gotten below 230. I was so excited to see 229 haha. but then I just got frustrated I guess and ended up in the vicious cycle and am right back up to 245-250. grrrr im so frustrated. I cant do it anymore I am in such a rut, a hole, and I feel like I cant crawl out. I have made an appointment with a weight loss doctor to be put on medication. I have the will and the mental motivation, it just feels like physical motivation i... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 11:12:13 EST Ugh jus ugh NOT gonna give up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629908 So last Friday I had an amazing weigh in. Almost four lbs gone! Today, I gained 0.2 :(. I worked my butt off. I coulda done more I know but still. I did have one minor dinner slip up Sunday at dinner but I stopped before it got too bad. I did four days at the gym. Two of cardio and weights and then two of just cardio. Packed my lunch every day, only went over 1600 calories once. And I drink an gallon of water a day, sometimes more. Yet I gained :( <BR> I have tried to focus on other things ... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 08:56:23 EST Struggling this weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599217 I blogged this with my iPhone so if there are many mistakes I apologize, I'm goin too crazy to spellcheck. <BR> I am going crazy, I mean CRAZY!! <BR> So for the past two months I've been doin really great. I went from 245 to 233. Friday is my weigh in day, and I was so excited to see 233.2 on the scale. I made a small goal for myself to lose 5lbs by the end of January. That means I have two weigh in Fridays left. So Friday I went to my best friends and hady free day, we grilled out and had s... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 17:44:02 EST the day after... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5539330 SO, Iomsiltin here at work, watching Total Divas and reflecting on the week. yesterday was My and my Boyfriends two Year Anniversary ' and I realize, that was my Goal day that I had set in the Beginning of this year for Being under 200 LBs. And I am Nowhere close to My goal. I cant say Why I Slacked off But I am definitely disappointed In Myself-But all I Need to do is look forward. <BR> It Makes me sad that I feel like I have wasted half of My 20's overweight. But I Need to do Something abo... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 15:07:10 EST on the fence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533716 so I never understand why it is So easy to fall off of the wagon And So hard to get Back on, I did so well for two months, then It was like I was thrown off. Then I'm like, ok today is the day, fix it. Then, pushed Back off the wagon.. A enjoy eating well and I absolutely love exercising. So why is it so had to stick to it? d always feel like I have to chase Between my family and Myself. And Its Nat fan, MY Boyfriend Needs this, My daughter needs that, I have to do Such-n-such for My job. The... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 09:11:18 EST Weird topic, but at a loss and something is still missing :/ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5404239 Ok so considering that it is 5am and I'm blogging should show how frustrated I am. <BR> <BR> I blogged earlier this month how I noticed randomly that I didn't have a period in may, now here it is June 28th and I still haven't started. I have taken four home tests and they have all said negative. I had stopped my gnc active pak vitamins since they have the fat burners and metabolism pills in them. But after the fourth negative I started them back. <BR> <BR> The last two tests I even stoppe... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 05:27:01 EST Frustrated as f*** bout to scream :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396052 Ok so I literally jus sat down at work but I needed to blog. I'm so frustrated I jus wanna scream of hide in a hole or eat as much pasta and chocolate as I can get my hands on. I have been feeling pretty bloated this week. My stomach feels like its sticking out more, standing I feel fine but sitting I feel like a fat tub of lard. <BR> I have been exercising pretty hard this week, I did a 16 hr shift on sunday and have ran every day since then. I have been switching it up too like Monday I jo... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 08:31:01 EST A bad weekend and a missing visitor.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385654 So I had an incredibly long weekend, I pulled 2 16hr shifts back to back at my second job and ran on only like 3 hrs of sleep each night. Then Sunday night we had a bad storm knock out the power for a few, get home from work at 2am and none of the appliances are working, it looks like everything was fried. Lights would flicker on and off and it was jus beyond stressful. My neighbor told me lightning hit the transformer next to our townhouse..... Well great, we all thought we would have to rep... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 10:02:35 EST My non-scale victories this month :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5377943 So I am super excited, I have several nsv to report and they have me jus stoked! <BR> <BR> So the first one is that the other night I managed to run at 4.0 on the treadmill for TEN MINUTES STRAIGHT!!!!! I was so excited I started jumping up and down when I was thru with my run. I did a total of 28 min running though jus not consecutive. That is the longest I have been able to jog at one time in a while most of the time it is 2-3 min. I was so excited lol. I was angry at my bf when I first w... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 12:32:34 EST Good day turned to bad....emotional eating :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5373962 So I had such a good day today, I weighed in at 241.4 so that means I lost 4.1 lbs since last weigh in on 5/24. I had so much energy jus happy and bouncing off the walls. Cashed my check and paid some bills and was jus over all a good day. I even managed to drink a whole gallon of water before I left work at 4! <BR> <BR> I was jus so happy. Like nothin would knock me down. My boss even gave me a great complement about how I look so far. <BR> <BR> Then I got home....... <BR> <BR> I swear ... Fri, 31 May 2013 19:32:10 EST Sorry for bein MIA and my new weird habit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372321 So I know I've been MIA for a lil while, I have had a lot of stuff going on. And as a result, fell off the wagon so to speak. I ended up going back to about 245. And jus not paying attention to anything health wise at all due to my mind being so preoccupied. <BR> <BR> Now I'm kicking myself in the a** for it. <BR> <BR> So I had hurt my ankle back in April, jus pulled my tendon a lil so I had to stop running for a week or so, before I knew it, it had turned into a month with no exercise ot... Thu, 30 May 2013 09:08:23 EST Stomach issues (kinda not a nice topic but need to post it anyway cuz it's frustrating) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5326107 So I apologize right off hand for the topic, I don't normally talk about stuff like this since its so private, but ima lil on the miserable side and I'm praying I'm not the only one that has had to deal with this. <BR> <BR> So I've been pretty good for the past month about my diet/food choices, decent about the exercise (I still have a household to run so I'm slowly learning how to balance it) <BR> Of course I haven't been perfect but it's a work in progress, with slow steps in the right d... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 08:31:57 EST Thrown off my game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5322845 So this week has been a different kinda week. I feel so thrown off my game. Tuesday we (my little family) went over to my boyfriends best friends house and had dinner with his family. We ended up staying till four in the morning. Needless to say, I considered it a cheat night cause of what they fixed for dinner. When we all got back home at five me and my man stayed up talkin till time for me to be at work at eight. I figured when I got off at four that I could take a small nap, then wake up ... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 13:29:43 EST Messed up :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5313406 So yesterday after work I kinda messed up and went on a lil munchie spree. I feel like crap about it now, it was like I couldn't help myself. I am so disappointed. It had been over a week since I had done anything like that and it was like I couldn't stop it. I tried to but for some reason I just kept going. I've went really good on my lifestyle changes for the last three weeks with little difficulty, why all of a sudden am I having an issue?? I still have the feeling to just dig into what ev... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 08:33:30 EST my daily conscious effort http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310531 so its been so much easier, the eating and choosing good choices. i have been at it for a few weeks now and the weight is slowly dropping off, if i can keep this up i will be under 200 before the end of the year. i have been packing my food and i enjoy that better than ordering out or something, i pack food to be able to eat about 200 calories every 2-3 hours. and i dont get the munchies like i used to. plus i drink on average 12 cups of water a day, most of the time i get 8 in before i leave... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 18:58:50 EST one small binge with a four day streak http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302042 So last night i slipped up and had a mini-binge. I cant even call it a full binge cause i had an extra helping ifnchinese food after dinner and a little box of raisinets (that i ended up having to share with my daughter) i had fixed me a plate of pasta too but couldnt eat more than a bite. It just sat on my nightstand. Although it was a slip up in my healthy choices it wasnt like the binges i went thru in the past where i wouldnt eat the whole day then eat 2500 calories in one sitting. So im ... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 12:52:36 EST blogging like crazy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5299789 so, i figured out that blogging every day is helping me keep on track. so far all of the changes that i have made are still concious efforts. the only thing that comes second nature is drinking lots of water. <BR> <BR> so, yesterday i had the most awesome workout i had in a while! i did the alternating running and walking like normal but was able to run more than normal. i did 2.5 miles in 45 min, that included the five min warm up and cool down walking. i actually managed to jog for three w... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 17:08:07 EST accept and slowing down... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5298412 so these past few days have been ok for me. water i drink like crazy anyway so keeping it up wasnt that much of a challenge. <BR> <BR> i have been thinking of things as one step at a time, instead of jumping in with both feet and drowning. one step, one choice. normally if i "messed up" it would be like one of those movie scenes where the world is ending with the actor on his knees screaming nooooooooo, but i am doing my best to remind myself its just one day and one decision at a time. i h... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 16:26:08 EST Tired tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5295522 So all day I had been so excited to get back on the treadmill like I did yesterday, but by the time I got home (my patients mom was an hour late getting there so I could leave) and went to Kroger and fixed dinner for everyone, and got the kid ready for bed, I feel exhausted. My mind wants to run soooo bad but my body is sabotaging the whole effort. My left leg hurts And I can barely keep my eyes open. I had soooo much energy all day and the. It's like I crashed <BR> <BR> I did go a lil over ... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 21:47:15 EST got off my butt :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5294061 sooo, today i was re-introduced with my treadmill. i decided i HAD to, that i did not have a choice. <BR> <BR> Today during work i brought two slim fast shakes and a 1/2 a protein bar (the Met-rx protein plus chocolate chocolate chunk, i LOVE them lol) and i had them all before "schedule, and then jus felt so hungry, i had had about 8 cups of water (i have a 32 oz water bottle that i keep there) so i knew it wasnt thirst, but for some reason i could not shake the munchies, i still felt hung... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 18:36:06 EST Step after my cry for help :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5290974 So this is the Monday after my great cry for help, I wanted to say to everyone that responded to it, thank you so much!!! I continue to read and reread all of your wonderful responses and advice, it makes me feel so much better, and so less alone. <BR> It doesn't seem near as impossible now to restart this momentous journey. <BR> <BR> I am pleased to announce that although I'm not quite at 100% yet, I feel so much better than the other day. I keep thinking one step at a time. All weekend I... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 11:15:35 EST My cry for HELP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5287863 Im typing on my iphone so please excuse any spelling errors. <BR> im mormally such an upbeat energetic motivated person but lately something has changed, I feel defeated, and I need help. Not "professional help" just help from friends/people that have been there and can understand. <BR> <BR> so this is my cry for help. <BR> I haven't done a blog entry in forever and a day, I do miss everyone and I feel like I'm hopelessly at a crisis. <BR> I had this realization, as I'm sitting at my home... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 14:46:37 EST stuck in the middle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5114004 so i feel stuck in the middle of going no where and getting there soon, how is that even possible??? <BR> <BR> i signed up for weight watchers and one week i will have lost five pounds then the next week i will have gained it all back, its soooo very frustrating. i just want to scream. <BR> <BR> i want to get there, i see my goals, but i dont understand why i cant seem to get there. like the harder i work the further away i move from my goal. <BR> <BR> i decided yesterday to get down to ... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 18:43:38 EST quick post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5050905 so ive decided to do weight watchers jus to see how it works, i love sparkpeople and will stay here no matter what :) <BR> im using the mobile app and it is a wonderful app. <BR> <BR> i have noticed i cant eat near my points on a regular day, my allowance is 39 and im lucky if i can get to twenty. its hard and i am making all of the "right decisions" so oh well, weigh in is tomorrow so we will see how this week went. i had one "splurge"day. <BR> <BR> i have been exercising at least 15 min... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 11:32:05 EST think im back at it :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5045740 so i grew lazy, cant even lie haha, but i feel motivated somewhat to get back to my exercise. for the past week i have been eating right, good choices, light portions, and have lost a pound. yeah a pound might not be a lot, but with no exercise but my job it is for me :) <BR> <BR> so i picked up a few more things to add to my home gym today from walmart. <BR> my home gym now includes a treadmill, wii fit plus game and exercise board, golds gym ball (that i cant get to stay blown up smh) a... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 15:12:44 EST very very curiously confused http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4983824 So i am still on the antibiotics for my leg, everything is healing up nicely, i ended up being severely allergic to one of them so i broke out in a full body rash. it was miserable!!! <BR> Honestly i have been eating like a pig on the meds. its the only way my stomach feels decent. strange thing is...... my stomach has been lookin flatter for a few days. like its not poking out in the front as much anymore. hmmmm thinkin maybe i am just imagining things. my clothes arent any tighter, yet the... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 20:09:59 EST BIG setback= very unhappy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4975100 so i have been eating right and exercizing ferociously, but then, last week this bump (very very painful bump) turned up on my leg. Now i have been doin 1-2 hours of exercise a day and was feeling amazing. Eating right and everything, was down to 228.6 and getting more and more excited. A lil frustrated that it wasnt coming off faster but happy none the less that it was coming off. i think my measurements i had lost a total of 7 inches off of different areas. sooooo extremely proud of myself.... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 19:47:33 EST day one of a new chapter (again lol) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4941882 soooo......GOOD AFTERNOON EVERYBODY!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> now that that is out of the way lol, i am so super excited. i decided, since we dont eat in the dining room anyway, that it will be turned into an exercise room. one of my good friends gave me a treadmill, (Thank you to her and her hubby they are AMAZING!) and i got a lil jillian michaels set with a jump rope and bands and things, i got two 8 lbs weights, and two 10lb adnustable anlke weights, a yoga matt, a new pair of black and hot pink... Mon, 25 Jun 2012 15:30:08 EST jus tired, done with it all...so it seems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4936434 there has been a whole lot of stress lately in my life, the loss of a job, uncertainty at home and decisions to make. I havent been paying that much attention to the whole weight loss thing, i know i weigh in and one week i will be 238 the next 221 then right back up to 240 the following week. i dont know how to stablize it. My doctor has put me on something, it makes me increadibly thirsty, i mean like two gallons of water a day, and no appetite at all. i feel like complete crap (another wor... Thu, 21 Jun 2012 14:51:28 EST i can see success.....more motivation for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4695776 So weighing in at 247 i was excited, im too happy to be on this side of 250. Now to jus see the other side of 200 lol. But i did measurements today too and have lost a total of 5 inches!!! It made me so happy. <BR> <BR> things are starting to get easier too.the healthy choices and such. One of my patients family members brought in a huge box of doughnut holes. Now, the old me would have dug right in, but now i really wasnt even interested in one. They didnt "call to me" like they would have... Sat, 21 Jan 2012 20:21:32 EST so back to they gym last night-glutton for punishment? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4663883 -i know the last blog about going to the gym said i felt so great afterward, and i did, until i woke up at 3 am with every muscle cursing me up and down. I was seriously hurting, my thighs were so sore i felt like i wasnt going to be able to get out of the bed to even use the bathroom. But i made it, and i was at work on time, 640 in the morning. at first i didnt know how i was going to make it through the day, but amazingly i did. I found the more i ran around at work the better i felt, the ... Sat, 7 Jan 2012 11:36:50 EST hmm to the protein http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4663833 -so i know that high protein is good for building muscle, i have been making these protein shakes with frozen fruit and a protein powder mix (been using the whey protein called body fitness) but ive noticed looking at the different protein shakes and protein bars that there are different types of protein. Which kind is the best one? or are you suppose to do a mixture of all three? ive been really good about my protein shake but how much are you suppose to really get? i think the protein mix t... Sat, 7 Jan 2012 11:10:55 EST doing better about my healthy choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4660756 so for the past two days i have been packing food for work instead if eating the facility food. i have noticed that my stomach feels better, i am not overeating or tempted by the bad choices in the kitchen cause the only time i have walked in there is to get some ranch dressing for my salad. <BR> <BR> I have drank over eight glasses of water for the past three days ( feels like a big accomplishment for me, no soda kool-aid or anything) <BR> <BR> For breakfast i packed a yogurt (one of the... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 22:26:06 EST first official day back at the gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4660713 so this is the first day back at the gym in months (i go to golds and LOVE it), and my second day back at work since i have been released by the doctor. The doctor told me that my right hip had a bad case of bursitis through the whole hip joint, she said that if i had kept walking on it like i was that i could have given myself a stress fracture, thank God that i didnt and that my hip "appropriately healed" in the two weeks spent getting more aquainted with my couch. <BR> <BR> So yesterday i... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 22:06:18 EST first try with the ps3 active 2 game--ugh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4646667 ok so my loving boyfriend got me the active two game for ps3 for christmas, i hadnt tried it cause i am still technically suppose to stay off my hip.its been two weeks since i got the order, i go back to the doctor on monday (hopefully to get the activity restriction lifted). <BR> <BR> well, since no one but me and my daughter are here, and my daughter isnt old enough to know im disobeying doctors orders to try it out, i decided to pop it in the play station and play with everything. i want... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 14:07:00 EST only for today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4646213 i woke up this morning, once again reflecting about bad decisions that i made and how i "fell off" the wagon, i realized that i cant change "for good" i can only change today. I cant focus on the rest of my life not making bad choices, i can only focus on not making them today. as long as i get thru today then i have suceeded. when its tomorrow, as long as i get thru tomorrow i will have succeeded. i cannot think about what i will "never" do, because then i will be setting myself up for fail... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 10:24:22 EST food as a treat..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4645078 So last night i had the mri on my hip, which was miserable sitting in that small little tube for 45 min still as can be, i hate sitting still, at least i had music to listen to. But afterward we stopped at sheetz and i "treated" myself to a turkey wrap and a big ol cup of fries and a chocolate glazed peanut butter filled doughnut. <BR> <BR> After i divoured it all as was sittin there feeling like the thanksgivig turkey somethin popped in my mind. Since when did junk food become a treat?? is... Fri, 30 Dec 2011 14:33:39 EST been a few days---master cleanse diet???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4645038 Hey everybody, its been a few days since i blogged, im starting to feel like i need to blogevery day or else i start to fall behind and not pay attention to my goals. Like for instance, i completely forgot about what i was suppose to do. Switching habits from bad to good is so hard. I didnt quite pig out but i was no where near where i was suppose to be in choices. i didnt even make my morning protein shake. Needless to say my stomach felt horrible all night last night. i have to remember wha... Fri, 30 Dec 2011 14:11:19 EST Thank you everybody http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4645030 I just wanted to say thank you to everyone that responds to my blogs, i love it!! feel free for anyone to add me as a sparkfriend, i love making new friends and meeting new people. also, my email is takiasmommy@gmail.com, email me anytime, we all need more positive friends around!!!!! Fri, 30 Dec 2011 14:04:58 EST one fear i have:saggy skin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4640251 OK so i know that people tell me im only 23 i wont have to worry about this.... but i do <BR> <BR> .......saggy skin...... <BR> <BR> I want to loose a large amount of weight (atleast 70 lbs but hopefully more close to 100 lbs) with that much weight i fear that my skin wont "bounce" back, i would never be a candidate for surgery, to be truthful it sags a little now as it is. <BR> <BR> are there ways to prevent this? <BR> <BR> Is ths something that is a legitimate fear?? <BR> <BR> I look... Tue, 27 Dec 2011 14:20:03 EST completely at awe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4640235 -So, surfing thru sparkpeople pages as i have found myself doing over the past few days i came across one that really put things into perspective. This amazing lady lost 170 lbs. She went from being wheelchair bound. I sat there and jus stared for a min, she was completely inspirational. Such determination. Then, i saw a quote on her page that really put things into perspective for me, she said: <BR> Having a bad day is like getting a flat tire. You fix it and get back o... Tue, 27 Dec 2011 14:06:57 EST christmas food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4637938 So everyone indulges over the holidays, so did i, but strangely i dont feel like its the "end of the world". instead, this morning i woke up and had a half of a turkey wrap before i took my daughter to my exhusbands house, then i came home and went back to sleep since yesterday really was a long day. I woke up a little while ago and was starving, you could hear my stomach growling across the apartment. I got a yogurt, a ham biscuit, a lil bit of dried pomegranetes (only like a 1/2 a cup), and... Sun, 25 Dec 2011 14:56:03 EST question http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4636187 I do have a question though... what is the better way to measure "fitness" <BR> <BR> ....is it the scale?? <BR> <BR> .......should i take before and after pictures??? <BR> <BR> .........should i do measurements???? <BR> <BR> .............what are the ways other people used to help with the motivation and encouragement when they were loosing weight???? Fri, 23 Dec 2011 13:10:39 EST bored at home---had a lot of eye openers though http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4636182 -So ive been out of work since friday (12/17), my doc took me out for some hip pain i have been having. I dont get to go back to work till after the 2nd and it is driving me crazy, im so used to working full time and being busy on the go that this stay at home life is different for me. I am definitely enjoying spending time with my daughter and being here for her full time, but i cant jus sit still all day, i disobeyed the doctor yesterday and cleaned just about the entire house. im doing my ... Fri, 23 Dec 2011 13:05:10 EST Hopefully back again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4629226 Hopefully im back again. A lot has changed in my life since june. I got rid of a lot of stressors in my life and at the same time gained some more. Still nursing at the same place. Moved and then let my little sister move in with me. Sadly to report i am also back up to 255, tired, hurting, and highly embarrassed as well. The new wardrobe of scrubs that i so proudly bought earlier this year saddly sits in the back of my closet while i squeeze into the next size up (i refuse to buy anymore sin... Sat, 17 Dec 2011 13:35:10 EST i mean COMPLETELY fell off the wagon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4286263 Wow, it has been a long time since I put up a blog. I woke up yesterday and i realized, i havent been eating right, it has been months since i looked at my treadmill, and god only knows the last time i weighed in. I know i got down to 211lbs, then something happened and now i am back up to 247!! i almost hit the floor when i stepped on the scale. that is so crazy. i was doing sooo good, i was almost to my halfway mark of 200 and then i blew it all. i know that i got very busy and stressed wit... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 19:08:40 EST showing small progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4105404 My weigh in was today, i weighted in at 216.2! I was so excited. It was only two pounds down from last week, but i have noticed that it gets easier to stick to the food and exercise change when i see results period.plus, its getting easier to stick with it the further i have went along, plus the less i seem to slip up as i get the hang of it. Its getting easier to say no to things that i really dont need and to stay in my calorie range. I used to slip up and binge and then feel so bad, guilty... Sun, 20 Mar 2011 18:02:10 EST what is wrong with me today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4061735 So I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm sitting here all but crying. I want to be at my goal wt but it seems like no matter what i do or how hard I work the scale doesn't move and the tape measure doesn't move.for The most part I stick very strict to my diet and exercise about 5 nights a week (1-2 zumba classes and 3-4 nights of running on The treadmill) but nothing has changed. It feels like no matter what I do I will never be able to be skinny or even close to that. Like I am destined ... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 21:39:08 EST start of alli http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4052447 So this past week my daughter has been very sick with pneumonia. So needless to say, my exercise was put on hold. I did do one of my zumba classes but since later in the week we were battling temps of 104 and running back and forth to the drs office and er everything else pretty much got put on hold. Im not saying that its a bad thing, my daughter comes first on everything. But it was a big set back. on top of that, saturday i was suppose to go straight from one job to the other so i stopped ... Sun, 27 Feb 2011 20:17:59 EST First day of zumba http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4026288 My job is offering zumba classes once a week for $50 for 10 classes, which is only $5 per class!! Today i went, it was free today, and i didnt think i would enjoy it that much. It was so amazing. I did get tired quick, i definitely was sweating and burning calories. i didnt always get the moves right, but the music and the way the moves happened it just sucked me in. Plus, when im at home working out i can quit whenever i want and no one says anything or sees or thinks anything. But when i wa... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 20:33:33 EST