TAISIAKAT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TAISIAKAT TAISIAKAT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ [Day 10 - Abundance Journey] (courtesy of of Tonya Davidson) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6047686 Day 9 was for self-reflection with gratitude abundance and love. <BR> <BR> Today is a great day to give gratitude and thanks for anyone that has served you whether it's a Veteran, a professional/service person, a group of professionals/service persons, etc. Granted, for most of us, it's going to be about the Veterans because of the US holiday (and because they most certainly should have a holiday recognizing their sacrifices on our behalf). However, it's okay to take this moment to really th... Tue, 15 Dec 2015 01:52:48 EST [Day 8 - Abundance Journey] (courtesy of of Tonya Davidson) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6046441 Today your challenge is to thank at least 15 people for their service, their love, their smile, their help, etc. You can send them an "out of the blue" note via email or messenger. You can call them. Or you can just tell them in person at the store, etc. <BR> <BR> We don't say thank you enough. We don't show our gratitude enough. We take everyday actions and things, like a smile, for granted. We are in too big of a hurry to actually take the time to be present for the little things yet, thes... Sat, 12 Dec 2015 14:59:20 EST [Day 7 - Abundance Journey] (courtesy of of Tonya Davidson) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6046439 Sunday's challenge is to journal, meditate, or express who you want to BE, what you want to HAVE, what you want to DO, and who you want to BECOME. <BR> <BR> Sometimes we get confused about what it is that we want to HAVE, DO, BE and finally BECOME. We take on those "shoulds", "coulds", etc that other people (and we) impose on our own selves. <BR> <BR> We don't live out loud enough, we don't live like today is a gift and possibly our last, and we don't enjoy the present state fully. We are... Sat, 12 Dec 2015 14:56:37 EST [Day 6 - Abundance Journey] (courtesy of of Tonya Davidson) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6045581 Catching up, <BR> <BR> Today's journey is all about celebrating you! You can't celebrate anyone else or anything else until you've given appreciation and gratitude for you! <BR> So your challenge is to meditate, journal or create something that expresses all the things you are grateful for.....morals, values, attributes, characteristics, ways you express love, ways you serve others, your spiritual love, and your family love. <BR> Can't wait to hear what you discover, how it felt, what you ... Thu, 10 Dec 2015 20:28:29 EST [Day 5 - Abundance Journey] (courtesy of of Tonya Davidson) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6043028 Your challenge today is to catch up, review, meditate on these challenges, and rejoice in the work that you have done <BR> <BR> =========== <BR> <BR> And boy has it been a week.... Lots of work, lots of processing, managed to accomplish almost everything I wanted to do this week without beating myself up or wearing myself out, or pushing myself. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/eb8511ea-8e21-4977-8c58-f4dcb939e0ef.jpg"> Sun, 6 Dec 2015 02:17:38 EST [Day 4 - Abundance Journey] (courtesy of of Tonya Davidson) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6042872 (Little late but catching up) <BR> <BR> Today your challenge is to go inside and take a look at your inner being and see what it is that doesn't make you happy. What keeps you from experiencing joy and gratitude? <BR> There's a little trick that always helps with any exercise like this (in discovering what it is that you actually do want and "ringing that bell loudly") and it's asking yourself to dump out what it is that doesn't make you happy. I know that sounds odd but when you say to your... Sat, 5 Dec 2015 19:08:45 EST Almost two weeks -- I am still processing this... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6042861 I cannot believe how different I feel. <BR> <BR> It's just amazing, to the level of toxic crap that was getting worse and worse in my body, my stomach area. <BR> <BR> It has been almost two weeks since my gallbladder was removed and honestly I feel like a totally different person. Pains that I have had, that I didn't think were related to anything other than my weight, the feeling of being so bloated that people kept asking when am I due, shortness of breath, feeling just toxic in my s... Sat, 5 Dec 2015 18:52:27 EST [Day 3 - Abundance Journey] (courtesy of of Tonya Davidson) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6042069 Today's instructions are more along the lines of the question about who do you need to forgive from the first set of questions. <BR> <BR> After thinking about it deeply I realized it is me and am working on forgiving myself. I realized that I beat myself up so hard for such stupid things, for not making the 'right choices', procrastinating, not taking care of myself physically, things I would never get on my kids about. I stopped nurturing myself - and it shows. So the person I am working o... Fri, 4 Dec 2015 02:57:23 EST Traumatic Stress - this last two weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6041792 I started thinking to myself as I was about to go work on this last two weeks in my art journal and realized that I just have gone through a traumatic stress. Having PTSD already I realized that for the first time I am going to process out the events and the stress that I have developed - almost close to real time, so a lot of the emotions, mental thought patterns and the overall outcome with the tools I have learned. <BR> <BR> In fact I realized that DOH - I needed to do this when I was le... Thu, 3 Dec 2015 13:49:42 EST [Day 2 - Abundance Journey] (courtesy of of Tonya Davidson) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6041529 (Instructions) <BR> Before or at the beginning of a journey it's always smart to take an inventory. You can't really determine where you need to go unless you've figured out where you've been or to really plan out where you are going. <BR> So today is a good day to take some time to look back at 2015. In order to have abundance and gratitude we must know ourselves and embrace the good, the bad and the ugly with a presence and joy for our imperfections. <BR> Ask yourself and journal: <BR> Don... Thu, 3 Dec 2015 02:10:38 EST [Day 1 - Abundance Journey] (courtesy of of Tonya Davidson) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6040789 (Instructions) <BR> Today is day 1 and we begin our semi-annual Abundance Journey for 30 days. I've been doing this for 4 years now and in group form for over two years. I love the chance to reinstall a habit that is so important to me....to embrace gratitude and manifest abundance. <BR> I believe it will help us to really get present with the "reason for the season" to celebrate Christmas, Hanukkah, or whatever spiritual holiday you celebrate as well. We will find our center and be reacquain... Tue, 1 Dec 2015 18:25:03 EST Hospitals and strange bedfellows http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6040400 Looks like there has been a medical issue with my gall bladder that we thought had gotten better back in the 90s. <BR> <BR> Anyway, last week at this time I started having uncontrollable pain and was feeling like I had serious heartburn but by 4 in the morning - it was clear something was wrong. <BR> <BR> Went to the ER and turns out I had acute cholecystitis (my gall bladder went so far south it wasn't funny) <BR> <BR> It was what has been pushing my right lung upward and creating the i... Tue, 1 Dec 2015 02:18:19 EST Lessons learned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5970346 Motivation is a significant driver for anyone who wants to do something. Problem is when your motivator isn't realistic or attainable, it can be extremely destructive if you're not paying attention to the "WHY". <BR> <BR> I didn't realize that my motivation to loose weight was really tied to something that I could not control. Nor did I realize that my motivation - wasn't a real motivator, because it was far between each visit to my grandson. <BR> <BR> My grandson was my motivator. He's ... Sat, 1 Aug 2015 15:24:13 EST Every day I remind myself it is a new day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818624 And I work very hard to keep myself from sinking into the molasses dragging feeling called despair and hopelessness. <BR> <BR> I remind myself - knowing what I know, seeing what I have been through - THIS WILL PASS. There will be a job for me...it will happen. <BR> <BR> And that is where I realize I don't have a phrase for what it will be. Because I don't want it to go back to the way it was when I had a job. <BR> <BR> This last round has opened my eyes farther than the unemployment bou... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 23:24:02 EST I'm not dealing well anymore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815071 I have bad nightmares at night, and they wake me up. <BR> I am living on pins and needles watching everything we built up - disappear <BR> I feel the walls closing in around us and there is no end in sight <BR> ALL I WANT IS A DECENT PAYING JOB!!!! <BR> <BR> What part of the 25 years solid active career seems to be useless to folks Tue, 11 Nov 2014 18:24:39 EST Fall - eh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807070 I had a real hard night, worked myself up into such a tizzy about these upcoming faires I am selling at. Then had nightmares about previous companies I have worked for, all turning into one jumbled mess of shame, sadness, feeling betrayed, feeling neglected, feeling fear of rejection, and so on. Some of the feelings still linger as I type - specifically the shame and feeling isolated/betrayed. I guess I still have more to work on about this particular topic of work, job, previous companies, g... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 16:26:59 EST Momentary lapse of sanity and lack of positiveness and not keeping it bottled up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783609 I posted this on my facebook but I wanted to also post here. <BR> <BR> ----Move on ---- if you're not interested in venting {first} and re-thinking {breaking apart the issue}. I am not looking for cute antidotes, 'you're strong you can do it' responses, or sympathy. <BR> . <BR> . <BR> . <BR> . <BR> . <BR> . <BR> I really dislike reading about non-valued, superficial, irrelevant and definitely in the grand scheme of things -not freaking important- issues that folks get so angry about. Someti... Sat, 20 Sep 2014 16:58:46 EST Continuing the previous post - Anxiety and self esteem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767482 Between the depression (and my PTSD), I have the more than occasional anxiety attacks. I used to be on meds for it, but they made me feel like cotton and swimming in jello. Not a very good feeling. <BR> <BR> I have a strange balance with my anxiety and self esteem which I've noticed recently as I try to get re-organized in my life. It is so much easier to fail and stop than it is to fail and move forward. It is so much easier to do nothing or make busy work, than it is to take care of on... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 16:16:40 EST Depression - living with it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758458 First, I am so sad to see such a fine, wonderful human being who lost his battle to Depression. Robin Williams will be missed. I know his movies, his comedy, his personal touch touch hundreds of thousands of individuals like myself. His most profound roles, When Dreams May Come, especially, left a huge mark in my life. Whatever personal demons Mr. Williams had to push him over that line, where he lost the battle, I do hope he is in a better place now. <BR> <BR> I too suffer from depressi... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 19:22:36 EST This week has been...interesting. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751218 Beginning of the week I was prepping for my colonoscopy that happened on Wednesday. This meant clear liquid diet for two days before, and soft foods for two days before that. I had to stop taking my RA meds because they are a heavy duty Ibuprofen a week before the event (they are a blood thinner which is why). This meant by Saturday walking was a challenge, Sunday could only do a three blocks total without severe pain in my hips. <BR> <BR> But from a food point of view, I learned some thi... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 16:48:58 EST Hot, tired, pained, frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5747944 I had to stop taking my RA meds and Ibuprofen three days ago because I am going in for a Colonoscopy and can't take those until after the procedure on Wednesday. It makes walking a real PIA (literally and figuratively) I've gotten so tired of being in pain - it is a catch 22. I need to get the weight off my hips and stomach so I am not in so much pain and the joints being overloaded, yet walking which I need to do is just 10 minutes unbearable. <BR> <BR> And I do enough sitting where Cha... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 04:30:10 EST I cut out the wrong time sink... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739466 I cut out Sparks people because I spent more than an hour on here updating, doing points etc, but funny thing was, I was loosing weight. <BR> <BR> Cut the sparks updates out and tracking and poof, weight comes back. So back to tracking. I really want to get to 245 and 30 minutes a day in yoga. Decided to cut out one of the volunteer not benefiting me much activities. And I am going to structure my time a bit more organized. I am getting less and less done each day, which isn't helping ... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 15:19:26 EST Quick stop http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540261 Back from Colorado and the wedding. Lots of things happened, hit 290 :) Ya! Though now get back into a serious push on getting 2lbs a week so I can get to 260 by Januaryish. Lots of reasons to push harder on this. Lots of things to write up later. Wed, 13 Nov 2013 15:08:36 EST Authentic - and whats appropriate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5526983 Recently I posted on my Facebook a very deep post - a gratitude post about not taking anything or anyone for granted because you never know when something may happen. <BR> <BR> I'm working on my authentic self, and working on stopping my judging of others and let them be their authentic self, but I really ran into a situation I am not sure how to handle. I've even seen it in the weight loss/fat friendly/BBW/ space so it's not just a particular person. <BR> <BR> How do you or do you even re... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 00:09:26 EST For Day Ending 10/25 (Friday) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524163 What time did you wake up today? 10:30 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:45 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - chicken with pesto sauce, tortellini, spinach - chocolate mousse <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yoga - strength training. <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? 1 Glass of wine <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated ... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 20:33:04 EST For Day Ending 10/24 (Thur) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523289 What time did you wake up today? 10:00 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 2 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - Leftovers but yummy leftovers <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? bit of walking and yoga <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? Nope <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning <BR... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 15:22:04 EST Only 31 calories over yesterday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522578 I gave myself permission to splurge on my birthday. I wanted fresh crab newburg. YUMMY... <BR> <BR> But I was really good. 31 calories over - ate lots of cauliflower. Today, I am having my birthday desert since I went over yesterday, I saved the other yummy for tonight. Thu, 24 Oct 2013 19:58:08 EST For Day Ending 10/23 (Wed) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522400 What time did you wake up today? 11:45 am - Slept in and boy was that nice <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 1:45 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - YUMMY Crab Newberg and califlower <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yes, yoga, leg strength/ arm strength <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? Yes 1 glass of wine <BR> <BR> Did you consu... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 15:12:26 EST For Day Ending 10/22 (Tue) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5520921 What time did you wake up today? 9:30 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, stretch back, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - Chicken Stir Fry <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yoga/Walking <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? nope <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning <BR> <B... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 03:04:29 EST For Day Ending 10/21 (Mon) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519967 What time did you wake up today? 10:ish am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? Midnightish <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - Jambalya <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yoga - leg stretching - walking <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? Nope <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning <BR> <BR... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 02:53:25 EST And my Windows Foo is still strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519522 Computer for the most part restored - Word working again! <BR> <BR> Man do I hate pushy updaters. Mon, 21 Oct 2013 15:15:30 EST For Day Ending 10/20 (Sun) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519479 What time did you wake up today? 10:55 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 1:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 9:30 jambalaya <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yes - Just yoga <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning <BR> <BR> Did you take... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 14:14:11 EST For Day Ending 10/19 (Sat) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5518199 What time did you wake up today? 9:45-9:50am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 2:30 am (ended up not going to bed at the time I thought because I started cutting out words for my latest journal project and lost track of time.) <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - Indian - though I can already tell my stomach is a little unsettled. Will take a tums before going t... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 01:46:26 EST For Day Ending 10/18 (Fri) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517473 What time did you wake up today? 12:45 <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 1:00 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 10:00pm <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yoga and Strength training <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning <BR> <BR> Did you take a... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 03:28:58 EST Low energy day - reflective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517230 293 - still 293 and holding. Though my arms are more toned, I can bend farther, and stretch better, and feel a little more flexible, but - still holding at 293. <BR> <BR> Not sure why the number means anything to me anymore. The goal for me is to be flexible, more resilient, more movable, have better breathe control, less pain, able to get up off the floor after exercises without any help. <BR> <BR> Ate my breakfast - read the different blogs I like to keep up with, and did a little more ... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 18:47:53 EST For Day Ending 10/17 (Thur) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516625 What time did you wake up today? 10:15 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 9:00pm <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yoga and heavy gardening (the rose bushes and trees needed trimming) <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup ... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 03:03:46 EST Musings and such http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516285 Today - I spent a little investment time in working out a spreadsheet for all the little activities around the house and yard that I want to do and sorta did this grouping of 1 hour projects so I do something each day. <BR> <BR> I've started breaking my day into sections so I can build up new habits for making time for walking, exercising and meditation - along with my business and my housework. <BR> <BR> I plan on creating a - daily checkin blog entry similar to my sleep journal but haven'... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 17:34:02 EST For Day Ending 10/16 (Wed) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5515721 What time did you wake up today? 9:20 am thinking it was 10:20 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 8:00pm-10:00pm sorta dragged out dinner. <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Lots of stretching and strength and yoga today... <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any c... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 03:05:59 EST For Day Ending 10/15 (Tue) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514822 What time did you wake up today? 9:15 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 1:00 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 9:30 pm - It consisted of Chinese take out that we like (its cheap) Lemon Chicken *Yummy*, decent Chicken Chow Mein and Garlic Chicken. Garlic chicken wasn't spicy enough :(. Topped it off with 5 Girl Scout shortbread cookies. <BR> <BR> Did yo... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 03:47:51 EST For Day Ending 10/14 (Mon) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513845 What time did you wake up today? 9:45 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 8:30 pm <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Just my yoga - I had planned on going outside but got caught up getting a new necklace design started. <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffein... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 02:51:43 EST The Sleep Journal - Come join the Sleep Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513412 http://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_<BR>links.asp?gid=42560 <em>102</em> Mon, 14 Oct 2013 16:18:27 EST Making a routine - and allocating time - creating structure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513314 Last night's dream I had a glimpse of what I think is part of the belief system that may be interfering with my building a business and being successful at working at home - for myself. <BR> <BR> The dream - while I will skip the intimate details basically had the overall theme of unorganized, disorganized, couldn't find anything, had no real structure, or direction. With the librarian who was sitting in the front of the 'mess' saying <BR> - You'll never be able to organize this and make s... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 14:18:39 EST For Day Ending 10/13 (Sun) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5512824 What time did you wake up today? 9:15 am - massive headache decided to go back to bed at 9:45 - woke up again 11:45 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 8:30 pm <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Just my yoga <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drink... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 03:02:11 EST For Day Ending 10/12 (Sat) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5512823 What time did you wake up today? 9:45 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:45 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 9:00pm <BR> <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yes - Yoga and Dancing <BR> <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning <BR> <BR> <BR... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 02:57:49 EST For Day Ending 10/11 - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511252 What time did you wake up today? 10:45 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 10:00pm <BR> <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yes - Walking/Yoga and Dance 1 song <BR> <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning ... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 02:58:21 EST For Day ending 10/10 - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5510892 What time did you wake up today? 8:45 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:45 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 9:27pm <BR> <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yes - Walking/Yoga and Cleaning 1/2 Craft room so I can work in it. <BR> <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup o... Fri, 11 Oct 2013 15:21:45 EST Sorting/Organizing the kitchen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5510071 I found that sorting/organizing the kitchen has actually made it clear I have the same problem I have in my craft room. I don't have a system to track what I already have, which means I end up buying duplicate of some things. <BR> <BR> I haven't found a decent program for my computer to track pantry (Did Grocery King for a while but its Phone specific - and I want something that I can have on my computer as well as my phone to sync to) <BR> <BR> Maybe I should do make this app. But it i... Thu, 10 Oct 2013 17:49:45 EST Portions - not one size fits all http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5509383 My food habits have been random. I didn't grow up eating a lot of junk food in fact looking back my childhood through teen I ate healthy, just never thought much of portions, since I was extremely athletic (Cross Country in the fall or Volleyball, Basketball in the winter, and Track in the spring. Then camp/camping through out the summer ( and very active) <BR> <BR> Things went south when I stopped being athletic and the pregnancies. <BR> <BR> Over time, my portion issue would be the down... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 22:38:00 EST Today - focus-focus-focus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508251 on the task on hand - taking pictures of what I have made and posting to Etsy. It is hard because the little nagging voice in the back of my head is trying to belittle me - saying - so to lessen the voice I am writing down - as I learned in a work shop and countering these <BR> "You're not good enough" <BR> "Why are you kidding yourself" <BR> "Why are you trying to jeopardize your family's finances" <BR> "Are you insane" <BR> "Nobody will buy your stuff" <BR> "Only losers become Artists" ... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 18:48:38 EST More energy than I have had in SUCH a long time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5506243 So while I am working on my craft, I'm also finishing up some projects that went on the way side thanks to the corporate work schedule. First one is oddly putting this wonderful material on my shelves in my kitchen that is a green product and starting to really re-organize to make a better work flow for me and the husband. It also is allowing me to make some new ideas for keeping things clean, like finally making pockets for serving dishes, covers for my mixer, blender, etc. And to finally... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 18:35:57 EST