TAISIAKAT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TAISIAKAT TAISIAKAT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Continuing the previous post - Anxiety and self esteem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767482 Between the depression (and my PTSD), I have the more than occasional anxiety attacks. I used to be on meds for it, but they made me feel like cotton and swimming in jello. Not a very good feeling. <BR> <BR> I have a strange balance with my anxiety and self esteem which I've noticed recently as I try to get re-organized in my life. It is so much easier to fail and stop than it is to fail and move forward. It is so much easier to do nothing or make busy work, than it is to take care of on... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 16:16:40 EST Depression - living with it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758458 First, I am so sad to see such a fine, wonderful human being who lost his battle to Depression. Robin Williams will be missed. I know his movies, his comedy, his personal touch touch hundreds of thousands of individuals like myself. His most profound roles, When Dreams May Come, especially, left a huge mark in my life. Whatever personal demons Mr. Williams had to push him over that line, where he lost the battle, I do hope he is in a better place now. <BR> <BR> I too suffer from depressi... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 19:22:36 EST This week has been...interesting. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751218 Beginning of the week I was prepping for my colonoscopy that happened on Wednesday. This meant clear liquid diet for two days before, and soft foods for two days before that. I had to stop taking my RA meds because they are a heavy duty Ibuprofen a week before the event (they are a blood thinner which is why). This meant by Saturday walking was a challenge, Sunday could only do a three blocks total without severe pain in my hips. <BR> <BR> But from a food point of view, I learned some thi... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 16:48:58 EST Hot, tired, pained, frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5747944 I had to stop taking my RA meds and Ibuprofen three days ago because I am going in for a Colonoscopy and can't take those until after the procedure on Wednesday. It makes walking a real PIA (literally and figuratively) I've gotten so tired of being in pain - it is a catch 22. I need to get the weight off my hips and stomach so I am not in so much pain and the joints being overloaded, yet walking which I need to do is just 10 minutes unbearable. <BR> <BR> And I do enough sitting where Cha... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 04:30:10 EST I cut out the wrong time sink... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739466 I cut out Sparks people because I spent more than an hour on here updating, doing points etc, but funny thing was, I was loosing weight. <BR> <BR> Cut the sparks updates out and tracking and poof, weight comes back. So back to tracking. I really want to get to 245 and 30 minutes a day in yoga. Decided to cut out one of the volunteer not benefiting me much activities. And I am going to structure my time a bit more organized. I am getting less and less done each day, which isn't helping ... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 15:19:26 EST Quick stop http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540261 Back from Colorado and the wedding. Lots of things happened, hit 290 :) Ya! Though now get back into a serious push on getting 2lbs a week so I can get to 260 by Januaryish. Lots of reasons to push harder on this. Lots of things to write up later. Wed, 13 Nov 2013 15:08:36 EST Authentic - and whats appropriate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5526983 Recently I posted on my Facebook a very deep post - a gratitude post about not taking anything or anyone for granted because you never know when something may happen. <BR> <BR> I'm working on my authentic self, and working on stopping my judging of others and let them be their authentic self, but I really ran into a situation I am not sure how to handle. I've even seen it in the weight loss/fat friendly/BBW/ space so it's not just a particular person. <BR> <BR> How do you or do you even re... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 00:09:26 EST For Day Ending 10/25 (Friday) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524163 What time did you wake up today? 10:30 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:45 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - chicken with pesto sauce, tortellini, spinach - chocolate mousse <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yoga - strength training. <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? 1 Glass of wine <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated ... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 20:33:04 EST For Day Ending 10/24 (Thur) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523289 What time did you wake up today? 10:00 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 2 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - Leftovers but yummy leftovers <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? bit of walking and yoga <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? Nope <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning <BR... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 15:22:04 EST Only 31 calories over yesterday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522578 I gave myself permission to splurge on my birthday. I wanted fresh crab newburg. YUMMY... <BR> <BR> But I was really good. 31 calories over - ate lots of cauliflower. Today, I am having my birthday desert since I went over yesterday, I saved the other yummy for tonight. Thu, 24 Oct 2013 19:58:08 EST For Day Ending 10/23 (Wed) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522400 What time did you wake up today? 11:45 am - Slept in and boy was that nice <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 1:45 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - YUMMY Crab Newberg and califlower <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yes, yoga, leg strength/ arm strength <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? Yes 1 glass of wine <BR> <BR> Did you consu... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 15:12:26 EST For Day Ending 10/22 (Tue) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5520921 What time did you wake up today? 9:30 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, stretch back, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - Chicken Stir Fry <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yoga/Walking <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? nope <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning <BR> <B... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 03:04:29 EST For Day Ending 10/21 (Mon) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519967 What time did you wake up today? 10:ish am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? Midnightish <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - Jambalya <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yoga - leg stretching - walking <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? Nope <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning <BR> <BR... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 02:53:25 EST And my Windows Foo is still strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519522 Computer for the most part restored - Word working again! <BR> <BR> Man do I hate pushy updaters. Mon, 21 Oct 2013 15:15:30 EST For Day Ending 10/20 (Sun) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519479 What time did you wake up today? 10:55 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 1:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 9:30 jambalaya <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yes - Just yoga <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning <BR> <BR> Did you take... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 14:14:11 EST For Day Ending 10/19 (Sat) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5518199 What time did you wake up today? 9:45-9:50am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 2:30 am (ended up not going to bed at the time I thought because I started cutting out words for my latest journal project and lost track of time.) <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - Indian - though I can already tell my stomach is a little unsettled. Will take a tums before going t... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 01:46:26 EST For Day Ending 10/18 (Fri) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517473 What time did you wake up today? 12:45 <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 1:00 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 10:00pm <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yoga and Strength training <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning <BR> <BR> Did you take a... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 03:28:58 EST Low energy day - reflective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517230 293 - still 293 and holding. Though my arms are more toned, I can bend farther, and stretch better, and feel a little more flexible, but - still holding at 293. <BR> <BR> Not sure why the number means anything to me anymore. The goal for me is to be flexible, more resilient, more movable, have better breathe control, less pain, able to get up off the floor after exercises without any help. <BR> <BR> Ate my breakfast - read the different blogs I like to keep up with, and did a little more ... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 18:47:53 EST For Day Ending 10/17 (Thur) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516625 What time did you wake up today? 10:15 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 9:00pm <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yoga and heavy gardening (the rose bushes and trees needed trimming) <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup ... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 03:03:46 EST Musings and such http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516285 Today - I spent a little investment time in working out a spreadsheet for all the little activities around the house and yard that I want to do and sorta did this grouping of 1 hour projects so I do something each day. <BR> <BR> I've started breaking my day into sections so I can build up new habits for making time for walking, exercising and meditation - along with my business and my housework. <BR> <BR> I plan on creating a - daily checkin blog entry similar to my sleep journal but haven'... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 17:34:02 EST For Day Ending 10/16 (Wed) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5515721 What time did you wake up today? 9:20 am thinking it was 10:20 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 8:00pm-10:00pm sorta dragged out dinner. <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Lots of stretching and strength and yoga today... <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any c... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 03:05:59 EST For Day Ending 10/15 (Tue) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514822 What time did you wake up today? 9:15 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 1:00 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 9:30 pm - It consisted of Chinese take out that we like (its cheap) Lemon Chicken *Yummy*, decent Chicken Chow Mein and Garlic Chicken. Garlic chicken wasn't spicy enough :(. Topped it off with 5 Girl Scout shortbread cookies. <BR> <BR> Did yo... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 03:47:51 EST For Day Ending 10/14 (Mon) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513845 What time did you wake up today? 9:45 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 8:30 pm <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Just my yoga - I had planned on going outside but got caught up getting a new necklace design started. <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffein... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 02:51:43 EST The Sleep Journal - Come join the Sleep Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513412 http://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_<BR>links.asp?gid=42560 <em>102</em> Mon, 14 Oct 2013 16:18:27 EST Making a routine - and allocating time - creating structure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513314 Last night's dream I had a glimpse of what I think is part of the belief system that may be interfering with my building a business and being successful at working at home - for myself. <BR> <BR> The dream - while I will skip the intimate details basically had the overall theme of unorganized, disorganized, couldn't find anything, had no real structure, or direction. With the librarian who was sitting in the front of the 'mess' saying <BR> - You'll never be able to organize this and make s... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 14:18:39 EST For Day Ending 10/13 (Sun) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5512824 What time did you wake up today? 9:15 am - massive headache decided to go back to bed at 9:45 - woke up again 11:45 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 8:30 pm <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Just my yoga <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drink... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 03:02:11 EST For Day Ending 10/12 (Sat) - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5512823 What time did you wake up today? 9:45 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:45 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 9:00pm <BR> <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yes - Yoga and Dancing <BR> <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning <BR> <BR> <BR... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 02:57:49 EST For Day Ending 10/11 - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511252 What time did you wake up today? 10:45 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:30 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, moisturize, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 10:00pm <BR> <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yes - Walking/Yoga and Dance 1 song <BR> <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup of coffee - Morning ... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 02:58:21 EST For Day ending 10/10 - Sleep Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5510892 What time did you wake up today? 8:45 am <BR> <BR> What time are you lying down to go to sleep? 12:45 am <BR> <BR> What, if any, was your bedtime routine? - Pills, read <BR> <BR> What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? Dinner - 9:27pm <BR> <BR> <BR> Did you exercise today? Yes - Walking/Yoga and Cleaning 1/2 Craft room so I can work in it. <BR> <BR> <BR> Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? No <BR> <BR> Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? 1 Cup o... Fri, 11 Oct 2013 15:21:45 EST Sorting/Organizing the kitchen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5510071 I found that sorting/organizing the kitchen has actually made it clear I have the same problem I have in my craft room. I don't have a system to track what I already have, which means I end up buying duplicate of some things. <BR> <BR> I haven't found a decent program for my computer to track pantry (Did Grocery King for a while but its Phone specific - and I want something that I can have on my computer as well as my phone to sync to) <BR> <BR> Maybe I should do make this app. But it i... Thu, 10 Oct 2013 17:49:45 EST Portions - not one size fits all http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5509383 My food habits have been random. I didn't grow up eating a lot of junk food in fact looking back my childhood through teen I ate healthy, just never thought much of portions, since I was extremely athletic (Cross Country in the fall or Volleyball, Basketball in the winter, and Track in the spring. Then camp/camping through out the summer ( and very active) <BR> <BR> Things went south when I stopped being athletic and the pregnancies. <BR> <BR> Over time, my portion issue would be the down... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 22:38:00 EST Today - focus-focus-focus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508251 on the task on hand - taking pictures of what I have made and posting to Etsy. It is hard because the little nagging voice in the back of my head is trying to belittle me - saying - so to lessen the voice I am writing down - as I learned in a work shop and countering these <BR> "You're not good enough" <BR> "Why are you kidding yourself" <BR> "Why are you trying to jeopardize your family's finances" <BR> "Are you insane" <BR> "Nobody will buy your stuff" <BR> "Only losers become Artists" ... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 18:48:38 EST More energy than I have had in SUCH a long time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5506243 So while I am working on my craft, I'm also finishing up some projects that went on the way side thanks to the corporate work schedule. First one is oddly putting this wonderful material on my shelves in my kitchen that is a green product and starting to really re-organize to make a better work flow for me and the husband. It also is allowing me to make some new ideas for keeping things clean, like finally making pockets for serving dishes, covers for my mixer, blender, etc. And to finally... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 18:35:57 EST Enjoying simple pleasures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5504901 Today we went up to visit the grandchildren. Our family is a mixed of those that are genetic (biological) and those that have been added by choice. B/K are just that couple. People who we have chosen to be part of our family and us part of theirs. (This came about with the pregnancy of A - my first grandson) and we were honored to be asked to be Nonna (Italian) and papa. Anyway, our granddaughter had to have outpatient surgery today, and so we went up to give support and hang out and fi... Sat, 5 Oct 2013 02:08:42 EST A second (x) chance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5503675 Yesterday was the start of a new chapter in my life. Most folks would have fallen apart by what happened, but for me, it was an opportunity that I have been 'talking about doing' for over two years. <BR> <BR> I'm now making the transition from semi-professional Artist to Professional artist and the holidays are upon us, the best time to make this transition. <BR> <BR> Yes I am scared, but am I also excited for many reasons. The biggest and most wonderful one is I am not going to be doing ... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 16:50:47 EST The important things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435757 I spent 5 hours with the Grandson today (He's autistic) - we're making significant progress in how long before he melts down. The original plans were to go to Fairyland and have a picnic, but my knee has been bothering me the last two weeks and just when I think it's back under control, poof it flares up again and I can barely walk. (Old injury that somehow has been aggravated with the weight loss) Anyway, it was a beautiful windy day for kite flying so we went down by the water and had a ... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 23:27:27 EST Insight into something turning into a CHORE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5434877 This last month I stopped doing Spark. I found myself dreading having to go through the effort to capture everything for my food, do all the points projects for the day, and such where I actually after a few days of missing because I became sick, realized I had lost focus. <BR> <BR> I was no longer doing this for me, but caught into yet another holic behavior trap. I found myself frustrated, beating myself up when I didn't get all the points I could. So I stopped. I sorted out what I wan... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 03:17:18 EST Bread... what to do...what to do. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399339 I love fresh bread, hot, just from the oven. Doesn't even matter what kind, rye, wheat, sour dough, white, brown, corn, I LOVE fresh hot steaming bread, rolls, loaves, rounds. Most of the time just with some butter, on occasion for some kinds, jam or a jelly, but there are the savoring flavor, smell, texture, its just wonderful. <BR> <BR> However, I am finding out I have some kind of bread allergy, since I started cutting bread out of my diet. All my life I have had this heavy bloated fee... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 17:20:09 EST What really is a -bad week-? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5368945 Last week I was going to write a blog on 'bad week' and how difficult it is to bounce back. My week started out with two of my dear friends having heart attacks, however only one survived. (Both were/are my husband's age). <BR> In turn I got really bored with my normal lunch and bought lunch from the company (we have a subsidized lunch program) and went well over my calorie count. Then I got sick, and a few other things went wrong, including a meltdown at work. Add to that two days last w... Mon, 27 May 2013 02:30:32 EST Tucking the shirt in today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354621 That's right, I did. I had a nice slinky black tank top that I tucked in instead of my normal hide my tummy wear the shirt to cover up. I wore my nice harem pants and my laced jacket - went out to dinner for Mothers day. <BR> <BR> I've decided part of learning to accept my imperfections and love me no matter what me size is, is to not hide my size, but to compliment, working colors and patterns and different looks. Hiding my stomach is my shame, and that is not something I am going to do ... Mon, 13 May 2013 01:06:42 EST Saturday's shopping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5353687 Walking around Costco today while shopping I realized I need a better refridg. As I stocked up on fruits and veggies in the large size containers to make it through the week, Dan and I realized our Fridge is so not set up for fruits and veggies. It doesn't have enough veggie drawers, and I barely can get my grapes and spinach bags in the bottom opening. <BR> <BR> So - we needs to go looking now..... because I really want to get out of the crap snack and into more snap peas for snacks, grap... Sun, 12 May 2013 02:53:47 EST Compliments and how to actually enjoy them http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5352734 Most of us here don't know how to accept, enjoy and actually appreciate compliments given to us. We all turn around and add some comment of 'Thank you' - Its nothing, to 'You don't really mean that' or worse we belittle our selves and say things like "I'm not pretty, what do you mean you think I'm pretty...." <BR> <BR> Today I actually tried something new -three co-workers all asked me about how much weight I had lost, and I told them, and they all said it looked good and i was looking good... Sat, 11 May 2013 02:56:26 EST Started doing some other interesting things to regain my life back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348158 Left work at 6:00pm simple, came home, spent an hour cleaning the carport, which was a great workout. Cooked dinner on the bbque. I felt more alive than I have in weeks and its 11:53 pm... normally I am unable to stay awake this late. Lets see how this goes this week, leave at 6pm , do something outside each day - and work on the bow flex. Tue, 7 May 2013 02:53:41 EST Today being sick and catching up and learning Spark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5345782 I started exploring some of the site as a whole after reading the article about how this is funded and such. I started thinking to myself, this is more of what I wanted to do with my QA/Management skills. But after looking over the website I could not find any job site information. <BR> <BR> Kinda of a bummer, because I would have fun with testing this and defining new product pieces - Heck I would even do customer support for this. <BR> <BR> <BR> Reason I am writing about this today, is... Sat, 4 May 2013 23:39:27 EST Tomorrow out to the garden we go. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5330227 it is get dirty day and play with my plants. We're going to add in another type of tomatoe into our group to make homemade salsa. Last year was a bad season all around for my veggie/herb garden. This year I think it should be a better year mostly because I now know what some of the things that caused last year's fungi and how to prevent it this year. <BR> <BR> I love fresh veggies. <em>4</em> Sun, 21 Apr 2013 01:26:34 EST the week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5329290 I actually am quite proud of myself - even though the temptation at one point was to go and have a glass of wine after the stress of work, I didn't. <BR> <BR> I want to get my Triglycerides under control, last year was a shocker. I normally have great ones, but I had started a very bad habit at least now I see, of having a glass of wine with dinner /after work. <BR> <BR> Anyway. This week had only one really bad day and I still made it through without having a glass of wine. Did however... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 02:19:55 EST The annual Gyn visit. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5325935 Made it through another year - nothing wrong (except weight). Going to have my hormones tested again and a few other things to see if we can pinpoint a few things that seem to indicate a sluggish metabolism that isn't exercise/food related. <BR> <BR> Nice outcome for my breast exam - no longer classified as having dense breast tissue. This is a good thing. <em>198</em> Wed, 17 Apr 2013 02:18:54 EST Working out in my garden http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5323448 Last year was bad. I had worked very hard on my yard the year before (and the years before that) and have been quite proud of my yard. Last year everything that mattered pretty much went to the way side because I was too tired after work, and recooperating on the weekend by just doing nothing was pretty much the extent of my exercise. <BR> <BR> Because of that, going out to eat so often, and no real exercise I put on 50lbs more (I was already overweight but that just pushed it over) <BR> ... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 00:50:24 EST Portions and ounces. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5309185 I finally bought myself a very nice electronic scale. It has actually helped me understand several key things about ounces. It's easy to measure -cups, tsps, tbsps, etc for portions, but when something gives its calorie count in ounces, I was lost. <BR> <BR> Chicken it was easy, 1 small chicken breast, but come to steak - what does 4 ounces of steak look like exactly. Well last night we did our shopping trip and bought our stables. Came home and started dividing like I normally do for di... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 17:29:43 EST Easter - Many things changing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5306532 This is the first Easter I didn't make Easter baskets for the kids filled with candy and the grandkids are off in Oregon. <BR> <BR> This year - all my biological children have left the nest and two of them moved 2 states away. The house is empty. My heart is sad and heavy. But at least I am grateful I don't have and won't be - the eat because I am depressed problem. Nope, my way of dealing with the saddness and depression is to sort something (movies, books, recipes, music, beads, ....cl... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 17:51:44 EST