SWIMMING_GLEE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SWIMMING%5FGLEE SWIMMING_GLEE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Never Done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710437 The journey towards fulfillment in any endeavor is never done. It could take me a little while to get where I want to go, I've known that for some time. I'm accepting it. I accept that I have spurts of high energy toward particular goals. This energy is not something that I have yet learned to maintain. I believe it is part of the process. <BR> <BR> I am taking this week off, more or less. I still walk a lot through the week, three miles a night. But when it comes to working out at ... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 10:35:55 EST Weigh Back in My Teens... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5705916 I got married at 17. <BR> Divorced by the time I could drink in the States, but I got married pretty young. No, it's not because I was pregnant. I had surgery before then that has made the notion of pregnancy more upsetting than you may imagine. I married for MANY reasons, none the least of which was that I loved my boyfriend/fiance. <BR> <BR> I remember the weight I was when I got married. I had always been a big girl and my family and most people around me were rails by comparison. ... Thu, 29 May 2014 10:03:41 EST Did I detox? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5705262 I had the strangest experience, yesterday when I ate some candy and ice cream- I couldn't really enjoy it. After a few bits in the morning, evening came around and I felt like I had heartburn. I rarely get heartburn. And I KNOW I put too much ice cream in my bowl - didn't know until I sat down, but once I looked at it and started eating... Damn! <BR> <BR> How can you have too much ice cream? <BR> <BR> Well, I did and I'm trying to work it off. I don't eat a whole lot - I haven't eaten... Wed, 28 May 2014 13:32:47 EST Oxymoronic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5702108 I actually found a depressing moment a spark of motivation. I went shopping for a dress in which I might attend a wedding. I don't like shopping for clothes or shoes- nothing works for me. A majority of plus size garb are set with Empire waists- which makes some of us look like we're covering an empire just under our boobs. I don't like prints, or at least the garish print patterns I find in 20+ sizes. <BR> <BR> I don't want to deal with that crap anymore. I need to trim up. It's depr... Sat, 24 May 2014 11:47:25 EST No More Coasting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699121 I've always said that my height gave me some leeway with my weight. I'm curvy, but not necessarily Fat. While I do believe one can be healthy at any size, there are times when you need to do more for it - you need to earn that girth! I am healthy, but not in a way that puts me up to any particular challenge. I'm strong, but push ups are still intimidating. I can lift about 10lbs on each arm and I can walk up to four flights of stairs without much strain (though, with generally low/normal... Tue, 20 May 2014 10:18:04 EST Focus AS The Goal. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698039 I had discipline for nutrition and fitness at one point in my life. I had discipline for school and relationships- mind you, this was about 12 or so years ago, when I was in college. I was a yoga-doing, vegetarian Drama major with a hunky BF in Canada. I was fine to keep my eye on staying fit, healthy, mentally challenged and crazy in love. <BR> <BR> I don't know where most of that went, but I hope it's not too late to get that back! I'm 36, two years in a half-way-decent job after get... Mon, 19 May 2014 01:00:31 EST Hurts SO Good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696359 Yes, I'm an 80's girl, trying to be a 90's woman thru Y2K d2. Figure it out. ;p <BR> <BR> I'm feeling what I've been doing this past week- THIS Past WEEK! This week, the one that is JUST ENDING. Bake your noodle on that! I've gotten most of my exercise from walking about my posts when I can, changed to the swing shift late last month made it more often- THANK G*D! When I switched posts in Feb, I went from a place where I was doing 4-10 flights of stairs a day to sitting most of the day... Fri, 16 May 2014 11:41:56 EST Doing It All Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694148 I just figured that I might be able to work out all day. I mean, with interval training and all that kind of thing being the rage, I don't see why I can't do a little more in a day. Just add a few twists, squats and sprints through the day. I sweat a bit at work, I need to walk around a building for an hour twice a night for four nights a week. I can actually do more with that. I can use the stairs in creative ways- I'm watching "WorkOut" on Netflix and got some ideas. I can, maybe, do lunge... Tue, 13 May 2014 11:58:51 EST She Shall, From Time to Time... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5500034 Take a week off. <BR> <BR> I did that, maybe a little more. I continued on the path, more or less. I'm still trying to configure a decent level of carbs for my body- going low carb seems to prompt some acne on my body, not an unusual event- in itself, but the rate is a bit surprising. I'll be taking measures to find a balance, at least something to reduce the acne flares. <BR> <BR> The important thing is that I am not giving up. I might not be the most active SparkPerson, but I'm doi... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 08:38:20 EST Lose to Learn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5490175 I lost my license. At least, I thought I did. It happens that when you get a new version of something you thought you lost- it turns up. and you know what I discovered when I uncovered my license? I was 160lbs when I got it- AFTER I separated from my husband. I though I was 185 when I got married. Apparently, that's not the case. I didn't get a driver's license until after I left my husband and returned to the States from Montreal. <BR> <BR> I was 160... After I got married, I was 1... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 12:17:48 EST Starting to Expect Them... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5487091 The Rough Starts. <BR> <BR> This week started off pretty rough for me. The past few weeks have started off harsh, Sunday's being a LOT less restful than I would prefer. Last night, I got snipped at by some strange lady about taking her friends seat on the other side of a fire pit at which I sat- taking the opportunity to switch seats to get away from the smoke and ash that were hurting my eyes. Because I was covering my face after she asked me to move back to my other seat, she thought I ... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 10:16:35 EST So Far a Good Week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484705 Well, This is my first week back to the Spark in about 3-4 years. I lost some weight with barely trying, got a couple pounds back- or I just jumped the gun and weighed myself a might too early, late in the day (Thursday evening rather than waiting til Sunday Morning.) <BR> <BR> I was excited! I was a bit dimmed by the weigh-in, but I was able to pick myself back up. What I know is that I am handling things better, this time, and that I'm looking at what I'm doing with much more compassi... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 14:50:54 EST I'm learning what I'm here to learn. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5483972 I need protein, for one! I'm consistent in THAT, at least. Everything else is pretty hit or miss, but I keep missing the mark on Protein. I think I'm doing okay. I would normally be beating myself up for not getting it right by now, but not today! It'll come to me, it will all make sense and I'll do it like I've been doing it my whole life. <BR> <BR> By then, What I can't imagine now will be second nature. What I haven't done most of my life- eat healthfully on a CONSISTENT basis; ex... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 20:04:03 EST That Minute Hits You http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481648 I had a vision of myself getting on the scale, this weekend, and either not seeing movement or seeing movement in the other direction. I can't say I'm doing much in terms of strength training, so I wouldn't be able to say it'd be muscle gain... <BR> <BR> the point is, I saw myself getting discouraged. It's not a visual I want to have, it just happened. I don't really know how I'll react if that happens, so I guess I'm trying to brace myself. The rest of the week is going well, so maybe... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 12:42:23 EST Less Daunting go the Calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481448 I've been looking at the Calorie Burning thing ALL WRONG. Here I am thinking I need to burn 920 calories a day... NO! Thank the Four Deities, NO! No, I need only burn 180 calories a day. It's a little less daunting, but still- at this moment, a bit of a task. I haven't gotten anywhere near that, yet. <BR> <BR> YET! Not saying I won't, just not sure when I will. <BR> <BR> Can someone tell me why we're tracking our steps and have no caloric burn to show for it? That's one of the thin... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 09:21:42 EST Curbing Enthusiasm? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5480669 I want to do more stuff. Today started out a bit rocky, some carry-over from last night. After some surprising and uplifting discoveries, my mood has lifted and I feel like doing more today- particularly more walking! <BR> <BR> I love having enthusiasm for an idea, project or event, but I know I tend to get a little ahead of myself and lose some fuel from going full throttle too soon. I want to reach that goal of 3500 steps a day (though it's unnerving that mileage or calories burned are ... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 14:01:06 EST Trade-offs. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5479499 I know one thing I do to allow myself some breathing room is trade-off snacks. I snack more often than I eat actual meals- especially after work. When I snacked, today (Around noonish) I wanted to eat some Chips Ahoy (Walgreens brand, really) Chocolate Chunk (which they might as well just call choco chunk with cookie crumbles because NONE of the cookies held together very long.) What I ate, instead, were corn chips and salsa (Tortilla chips, I think... something like that.) I figured that ... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 12:40:15 EST The New Beginning. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5478991 This week was my return to Spark People. Tomorrow, I start to work toward my health and fitness goals. I have started to track my steps and my food intake, with my food intake log being by far the most daunting. I get scared that I can't do it right, now- so I may never do it right. What I'm trying to understand is that such an idea is so incredibly NOT THE POINT of tracking my nutrition. The Point isn't to see what I'm doing now as the way I'll be doing it for ever- the Point is that I ... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 21:34:40 EST WAY Too early... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5478731 What is probably going to be my number one personal challenge is being honest with myself and less shy about tracking what I eat in this early stage. OKAY, so I'm NOT eating PERFECTLY- YET! It's early. I'm not going to make drastic changes that will stick unless I take it slow and go through whatever processes I need to understand how I got to this point and how to manage- if not reverse- the situation. <BR> <BR> I won't change anything for very long, and will probably slip off the wago... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 14:54:39 EST Water http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477564 You would think it'd be the easiest change to make, drinking 8 cups (really? Cups, not glasses?) of water a day. This, to me, is not as easy as it looks. I might swap soda in favor of water, from time to time, but I can't say it's my favorite thing in the world. It's pretty difficult to get 8 cups in, believe it or not. I mean, working 7 hours, I might manage 4 cups in that span, generally. yesterday, I did that much and had to do 2 glasses at home to make sure I got it in. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 09:06:21 EST Here's the Ticker... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477448 I usually say "Kicker," but I wanted to talk about the ticker on SP. I like that there are many options of tickers to use. They could still use some more tickers, like if a person is trying to manage their moods and cravings or if they want to share days off bad habits (or do they have that and I'm talking about that because I think I saw it?) <BR> <BR> It's a little scary to share "Pounds *Shed," (I try not to say lost because I don't really care to FIND IT AGAIN!) I think it's scary b... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 06:49:22 EST Face-Palm with PIE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477012 It was SURREAL to discover that I am nearing 100lbs away from my goal weight. I never thought I let myself go QUITE so much. It's sad, I feel sad about it. I don't usually eat when I am sad, usually I will go lie down and try to consider options. <BR> <BR> With this situation, there is only one thing I can do- Turn Around. It seems like I need to overhaul my life. I should be used to it, but it is almost always daunting. I just need to get in gear and work myself up. <BR> <BR> 84 po... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 17:56:13 EST What's Important http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476873 Is that I keep trying- right? <BR> I've been away from Spark for a while (Apparently, three years!) and I think I fell off the wagon rather hard. I think I'm back up to the weight that unnerves me- 260. I could blame a bunch of things, events, people- but I won't! <BR> <BR> I won't even bug them for help, the people around me. Sure, they love me and would want to see me get healthy, but I think some things are better left done rather than said- I've often said things I want to do and h... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 14:31:38 EST The Somewhat Expected Hurdles. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3759039 I'm coming down from the "Highs." I had a couple of crummy days in terms of calories and the flummoxed Pilates Class didn't help me feel much better. I don't want to say I'm "Loosing The Spark." It's REALLY early for that. <BR> <BR> I'm just tired. I'm feeling a little lazy and I know I can push through it. I feel like I kind of have to if I want to make this a thing. I want to get healthier, eat better and work out more. I've been doing those things- almost non-stop for the past week... Wed, 3 Nov 2010 10:42:38 EST Goal Weight V. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3756551 This is what's been 'Grinding my Gears," As they say on "Family Guy." <BR> <BR> I have a Goal weight of 180. that's cool for me. It's the weight I was when I got married, 15 years ago. I was pretty slim and looked pretty good. It's a goal weight now, not so much because of the whole "Weight I was before I got Married" bit... But I've been in the 200 range a WEE mite too long and I'd like to just see If I can get ANY Lower- consistently. <BR> <BR> You know, 20lbs under 200 and stay the... Tue, 2 Nov 2010 10:09:52 EST Like a Computer, I Learn from Cookies. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3754512 They were my downfall, today. I usually get 4 cookies from Subway with my dual order of 6in sandwiches, a Spicy Italian I eat the day of order and a Veggie that I save for later. <BR> <BR> And I typically eat the cookies with the SpI. It surprised me how much of a difficult time I had eating the cookies, today. It didn't hit me until I entered it into the Nutrition Tracker, here. <BR> <BR> It hit me pretty hard. <BR> <BR> The cookies are HEAVY! I mean, sure, I don't eat anything the ... Mon, 1 Nov 2010 14:42:02 EST The Angry, Sad, Depressed, Frustrated and Lonely Fat. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3750270 Oh, boy. I didn't consider this before I started my pound-shedding program. (Smack me if I ever use the term that rhymes with "Date Boss." <em>234</em> ) <BR> <BR> From my many Thursdays sitting in front of "the Toob" watching "House," I know that fat cells can store a great many things. It can store myriad chemicals that people can take in from either the environment or ingestion. <BR> <BR> I neglected to configure the EMOTIONS buried within the goop. <BR> <BR> If you're at all like... Sat, 30 Oct 2010 13:53:39 EST The Surprise is in the Push http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3746185 I had to push myself this week. I started walking, I started doing everything I could to get in shape- this week... Tuesday. <BR> <BR> I started with walking the bike path by my home, about three blocks away, for about 1-2 miles. I set this as a goal, to walk that much for 2-3 days a week. But I didn't realize how out of shape I've gotten. I don't think anyone gets it until they feel like they're crawling back on a return trip- be it walking, skating, hiking, biking- that they let thems... Thu, 28 Oct 2010 11:45:01 EST