SWEETYOUROCK's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SWEETYOUROCK SWEETYOUROCK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Here we go again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4878939 Well, after a year, I am back. <BR> <BR> It makes me sad, really... I'm back because I'm right back up to the same weight I was a year ago when I hit my all time high. In the past year, I managed to lose 12 lbs, going up and down. And now I'm back up and right where I used to be, and I hate it. I feel huge and uncomfortable in my own skin. <BR> <BR> The thing is, the worst part is that I feel like everyone can see that I've gained weight. It's like it's plastered on my forehead, and it ma... Sun, 13 May 2012 00:40:06 EST SOS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4142301 I've completely fallen off the wagon... <BR> <BR> I've lost all momentum. <BR> <BR> This is the second day in a row that I went on an emotional-inspired binge fest... and that's after a weekend of not tracking my calories very carefully and not working out much due to being out of town... <BR> <BR> ahh I don't know what to do! I just don't want to start back up again even though I know I need to... I just hated not seeing results fast enough, and it's sooo hard to keep up with this in coll... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 19:14:00 EST getting my mindset back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4125598 I binged today. Badly. I have an emotional eating problem... It had been over a week since i last binged... today it just happened suddenly. I was filling a mix of emotions, and I was just craving food so badly... and on top of that, I was getting sick of eating healthy... so I caved, and without think I ended up eating half a bag of the smart pop popcorn, a ton of almonds, some peanut butter, a TON of cereal (my main weakness), and a box of yogurt covered raisins... <BR> <BR> needless to sa... Tue, 29 Mar 2011 01:11:18 EST I just feel like quitting... and I don't know why. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4125485 I suddenly just want to quit this. I dont get it.. I've been so motivated. I was so great last week, and I guess in the past few days I've just gotten worse and worse.. I mean, I didnt go crazy. I still ate within my calorie range, just on the higher end of it... except for today, when I definitely went over. and that's making me feel terrible because I always tried not to go above the middle ground of my range... <BR> <BR> And I didn't work out hard today even though I went to an aerobics ... Mon, 28 Mar 2011 23:46:23 EST I'm guilty of buying things just because they're cute http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4119570 I admit it. I've done it. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/4/l440706965.jpg"> <BR> <BR> But LOOK at how adorable this mini individual-size smoothie maker is! how can you not resist that?? and it's also the most useful things I've bought in a longgg time. It is absolutely perfect for breakfast. I just make my smoothies at night, put them in my fridge, and then take them with me to class the next morning! And it's so much fun to make different smoothie recipes and e... Sat, 26 Mar 2011 12:28:40 EST found that lovin' feeling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4118549 I made a blog post a couple hours ago that was essentially me whining about my day and trying to resist emotional eating. <BR> <BR> individually, none of the issues were that big of a deal, but it was just one of those days where little things kept piling on to make one massively sucky day. <BR> <BR> But you know, it's no longer sucky anymore. Because for the first time in as long as I can remember, I didn't eat to deal with it. I didnt go raid my roommates' stashes of chocolate or snacks.... Fri, 25 Mar 2011 21:27:00 EST bad mood.. no emotional eating for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4118220 I'm a really bad mood for various reasons right now, and, normally, my first action would be just to essentially eat my feelings. Like I want chocolate so badly right now... but I obviously can't do that, so I quickly logged on sparkpeople to post so maybe this will make me feel better. <BR> <BR> My bad mood is just for various reasons... school, people, home, drama. I dont know. I'm just annoyed with life, I guess. Nothing too major. <BR> <BR> I don't know what to do! How do I deal with m... Fri, 25 Mar 2011 17:54:09 EST lameee http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4113984 I just accidentally subscribed to my own blog. epic fail. <BR> <BR> ANYWAY what's even lamer is that I gained weight in the past 24 hours somehow. I didn't cheat! And I even got myself to work out for 25 minutes even thought I was exhausted from my 2 hour workout the day before. i dont understand this nonsense. <BR> <BR> But it's okay. Because at first I was pretty dejected and started thinking, 'ugh well if this isnt going to work, I don't want to stop eating chocolate!' because, i mean, ... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 22:40:30 EST I love SparkPeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4110285 I love this. I really do. I've never been so excited and motivated to lose weight... and I owe part of that to SparkPeople. <BR> <BR> I especially love this blog feature. I'm that kid who writes everything down always. I've kept a daily journal since before my freshman year in high school. This is PERFECT for me. <BR> <BR> I guess here's a mini backstory on why I'm doing SparkPeople now. <BR> <BR> Mid-February, I joined SparkPeople. I didn't really commit to it, but in the next month I di... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 14:35:12 EST Are you emotionally ready? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4108826 In 5th grade, my teacher showed us a calculator trick that somehow ended with our weight appearing on the screen. That was the first tim I remember being self-conscious about that number. I've wanted to lose weight ever since. <BR> <BR> like many, I've tried and failed. and then tried and failed again. I would start out so strong and determined, but it often took mere hours for that determination to fall and for me to give up. <BR> <BR> I wasn't emotionally ready. I wasn't ready for the co... Mon, 21 Mar 2011 22:59:21 EST