SWEESIN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SWEESIN SWEESIN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Life Patterns http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6439038 I recently went to a family reunion. I looked around and saw many of my cousins and their children and their grandchildren. I noticed many of my cousins and their children all suffers from the same problem that I do. We learned at an early age that to celebrate togetherness and family we all gathered around to eat and talk. When we were very much younger, we used to have group activities which included family baseball games people taking turns on the churn making ice cream people weren't just... Sun, 10 Dec 2017 09:41:39 EST THE BODY SLOW DOWN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6431959 AS WE BECOME OLDER THINGS SLOW DOWN, DUE TO LIMITED MOBILITY, SLOWED DOWN METABOLISM, LIFE CHANGES AND PEOPLE MOVE IN AND OUT OF YOUR PATH- FRIENDS BECOME FEWER, GOALS FOR YOUR FUTURE ARE NOT AS LONG LASTING, ETC. <BR> I HAVE MOBILITY ISSUES BUT REFUSE TO SIT AND WAIT FOR THINGS TO COME TO ME. I GET UP IN THE MORNING AND THANK GOD FOR THE PAIN IN MY KNEES OR BACK THAT LET ME KNOW I AM STILL ALIVE. I WORK OUT WITH WEIGHTS 4-5 TIMES WEEKLY AS STANDING FOR PERIODS OF TIME INDUCES PAIN. I WALK SH... Thu, 16 Nov 2017 11:59:35 EST Our Self-imposed Prison http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6419038 Bible study for today from There's Hope for Today- David Crabtree summary: <BR> For we are God’s fellow workers; You ae God’s field, God’ s building. I Corinthians 3:9 <BR> How do you picture God? He is the master builder. He looks over desolate wasteland and becomes a Creator. He inspects his equipment, each footing, strengthening each column, assigning every task, and empowering us the willing workers. Look at him in divine ability, perfect planning, uninterrupted supply, power to dig, p... Sat, 7 Oct 2017 11:04:51 EST STRONGER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6416053 https://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=stron<BR>ger&view=detail&mid=849189EA93F07141D2<BR>91849189EA93F07141D291&FORM=VIRE <BR> Kelly Clarkson had a song a few years back called Stronger. I like to call it my fight song now. Each of us have our own battles in life regardless of race, sex, religion, age, it is how we face those battles(challenges) that defines our character. Do you cringe in the corner with a coloring book saying boo hoo things did not happen as I wanted? Do you cower in fear of... Thu, 28 Sep 2017 15:59:17 EST MOVING ON UP! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6410759 TODAY STARTS WEEK 8 OF WORKING OUT. DUE TO INJURIES UNABLE TO DO A LOT OF CARDIO YET, BUT I DO HAVE AN ARM ERGOMETER TO START. I WORK OUT IN THE GYM NOW 5 DAYS A WEEK. I DO UPPER BODY, LEGS, AND CORE ON MACHINES THAT ALLOW ME TO SIT FOR NOW. AS iT GETS EASIER AM INCREASING WEIGHTS. WHEN STRONGER AND BETTER BALANCE WILL DO MORE STANDING. I HAVE ALSO BEEN MEASURED FOR NEW DIABETIC SHOES WHICH WILL GIVE ME MORE COMFORT ON STANDING AND MOVEMENT. I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS AND AT 68, I FEEL GOD AIN'T... Wed, 13 Sep 2017 10:26:26 EST Choice of Addiction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6397431 Over the last couple of weeks, I have heard the words of sadness over those lost to the devil's inducement to drugs as the panacea for worldly woes. HE IS A LIAR! <BR> I never got into street drugs, but I hid behind cigarettes for 46 years. I have hidden behind another drug far too long, a drug that is always present. A drug that is given as a sign of love. <BR> A whole TV show is about how this addiction destroys lives. This addiction allows you to grow a cloak of protection to hide behind... Tue, 8 Aug 2017 09:56:27 EST Crossing the Chasm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6337808 Commitment raises all things to a higher plain. Commitments are frightening, but liberating. Without them no great advance is made, nor any great cause embraced. <BR> In relation to weight loss or dietary changes leading to weight loss., we have to give it our all. Many people have often spoken about self- disciple. I will say only one thing. If you are not truly committed to the changes necessary, the journey will end without the liberation from years of your body shield. <BR> You cannot... Thu, 23 Mar 2017 11:03:27 EST Resolve http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6305791 Through this morning of devotionals I gleaned some things that I would like to share. The biggest is the thought presented in a book of devotionals by David Crabtree, "There's HOPE for today". Most of talk about something that we want to be different, but few of us succeed. WHY? After your New Year's Resolutions where are you now.? <BR> Most of say things in passing but we lack committment or resolve to accomplish. We do not plan. We do not set steps to monitor progress. We set a goal, BUT do... Thu, 26 Jan 2017 18:51:12 EST SEIZE THE OPPORTUNITY TO MOVE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6301242 By now, many of you know that I enjoy Joyce Meyers teachings. Today she was speaking on seizing the day. It reminded me of the shows 600 lb. life, My Great Big Fat Fabulous life and my lifelong battle with weight. <BR> She used the illustration of the man, who lied at the pools edge waiting for a miracle. <BR> John 5:6-8 <BR> When Jesus saw him lying there, and knew that he already had been in that condition a long time. He said to hime. "Do you want to be made well?" The sick man answered H... Thu, 19 Jan 2017 09:06:35 EST TOO??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6236728 I HAVE HEARD. I HAVE MADE, ALL THE EXCUSES. I AM TOO BIG, I AM TO WEAK, MY BREATHING TOO SHORT, I CANNOT AFFORD A GYM. <BR> <BR> PERSONALLY, WITH MY LEG INJURY AND BEFORE IT, I COULD NOT GET UP AND DOWN FROM THE FLOOR. I HAVE A WALL. I CAN MODIFY EXERCISES IN A CHAIR. I CAN MODIFY ALL EXERCISES. I CAN, I CAN, i CAN! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. ... Philippians 4:13 …BEFORE WORKING OUT PRAY FOR GUIDANCE AND WISDOM IN YOUR EFFORT. START OUT SLOWLY WITHIN YOUR LIMI... Fri, 16 Sep 2016 08:11:47 EST The Body is a Temple http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6221881 Corinthians 10:31New International Version (NIV) <BR> <BR> 31 So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. <BR> <BR> This is the verse we should think about when we eat. If we overeat and become morbidly obese, is this for His glory or the satisfaction of the flesh. It is the way that the great tempter destroys your ability to live the life that He has planned for us to live. It is the way the life that we really want to live is destroyed. Watch the show ... Sun, 21 Aug 2016 10:21:18 EST GLAMORIZING AN UNHEALTHY LIFESTYLE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6110965 CHERYL TIEGS UPSET SOME PEOPLE THE OTHER DAY BY SAYING THAT THE REGAL SIZED MODEL ON THE COVER OF SPORTS ILLUSTRATED GLAMORIZED AN UNHEALTHY LIFESTYLE. SHE ALSO FOLLOWED UP SAYING THAT ANOREXIA AND BULIMIA WERE NOT HEALTHY EITHER. I TEND TO AGREE WITH BOTH STATEMENTS. <BR> <BR> MOST OF MY ENTIRE LIFE I HAVE BATTLED WEIGHT. I LIVED IN A CULTURE WHERE LOVE AND FOOD WERE EQUATED AS NECESSARY. I MODELED EATING HABITS AFTER MY PARENTS AND GRANDPARENTS. FOODS HIGH IN FAT, SALT, FRIED, AND COATED ... Fri, 4 Mar 2016 08:40:24 EST AN UNEXPECTED JOURNEY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6108434 It was November 6th that this journey began. My hubby and I were on our way to supper. I walked up the drive to get the mail. He was to pick me up at the mailbox. For whatever reason, I walked slower than usual. He started backing up, and I was on the blindside of the car. I heard the sound of the car back, turned in time to see the bumper heading toward my body. I yelled, he did not hear. The bumper knocked me forward. He ran over my right leg. The look of sheer horror on his face when he re... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 10:23:04 EST Mentoring http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913868 Much is made today about the mentoring role in many things. A mentor is defined as someone older, and with experience in the area that the person needs to learn <BR> The things a mentor does is: <BR> ◾Teaches the mentoree about a specific issue <BR> ◾Coaches the mentoree on a particular skill <BR> ◾Facilitates the mentoree’s growth by sharing resources and networks <BR> ◾Challenges the mentoree to move beyond his or her comfort zone <BR> ◾Creates a safe learning environment for taking risks <... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 10:17:21 EST Happy Easter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905834 Remember the real reason for this celebration. It was to free you from sin, worry, in a cold world or insolence. Remember to honor His temple within you. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1483685278.jpg"> Sun, 5 Apr 2015 12:06:17 EST Ignoring the Temple http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880373 I have for many years struggled with weight issues. As a young child, undernourished, to a doctor to stimulate my appetite and for growth. As an youngster with mounting weight gain and for most of my life been overweight to morbidly obese. The last 7 years have been a battle to continue to lose and to maintain a 150 pound weight lost. So far I have teetered with 40 of that back, and not moving up or down. The devil uses many weapons to keep us from serving the Jesus. He deludes us with sexua... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 09:08:08 EST A new year, a new day, a new way to think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842742 Most of you that know me know I have had weight issues most of my life. <BR> At this point in my life, I ain't looking for skinny. I am looking for better flexibility. I am looking for less creaking in the knees. I am looking for the ability to enjoy a day shopping without pain. I am looking to stay as healthy as this body will let me with my participation in good diet and exercise. <BR> <BR> That being said, I do not judge anyone for their weight issues. I may think they have poor choices ... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 11:31:10 EST And I continue http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823014 I am writing this to update all on my presence. I continue on program and logging in and out daily. <BR> I weigh and measure foods. I am maintaining weight but am ready to lose weight. <BR> I am still getting over the loss of my son, who's birthday will be soon. It is hard to believe it is now 3 years. It is harder to believe another holiday season without him is near. I cannot say that it has been easy, but I praise God daily for His ever present strength that gets me through every day. <BR... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 21:54:04 EST Anger, hatred, and unforgiveness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735122 I am not entirely sure this is an appropriate post but one that needs expressing for myself and others that I know. I grew up a child in the 50's and 60's and discipline and the rod were not spare. (This however is not entirely bad.) I was a strong willed child and very intelligent. <BR> My dad was a weekend alcoholic and the product of strong discipline too. He was abusive physically and mentally with words. I turned to food for comfort as my sister was 7 years younger and no one to talk too... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 07:35:26 EST The Cloak of Fat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729078 This may be a hard blog for me to write, but a necessary one. <BR> For many years I hid behind my self-made cloak of fat. I wore it as armor. <BR> It protected me from attention. When thin I attracted unwanted attention. <BR> When fat I was denied attention needed for career momentum. <BR> Did I fear failure? Or did I fear success? <BR> This cloak that I earned through years of dedicated devotion to solving <BR> all my problems of love, fear of rejection, fear of acceptance for me even if ... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 12:45:03 EST Remarkable http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712995 One of the members wrote me today and asked to be friends. She made my day. The a few minutes later another did. One said I was and amazing lady. <BR> The other: <BR> <BR> "You are an incredible woman with strength. You devoted your life to helping the sick and infirm. You have endured one of the greatest losses known--to lose a child. My heart goes out to you. You are doing awesome in living a healthier lifestyle. Congrats on the weight loss and best wishes as you continue to develop a he... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 19:28:52 EST Happy Mother's Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691874 What a wonderful expression when you have a child who loves you. Part of that means you were as good a mother as you could be. When my son got older, our relationship was such that he would still come to me with problems. I would always preference my response with who would you like to hear from first; your mother, a nurse or a friend because each of us would give you a different answer. His response- all of them mom. I lost this special young man almost 3 years ago now in a car wreck and th... Sat, 10 May 2014 11:02:04 EST What I READ on My Christian Walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637571 As study the Bible I learn more and more about what He wants for His body. We are the housing for His spirit. We must continually nurture our mind and body with spiritually blessed foods and information to educate our minds from the Bible and information on nutrition. Many people go down the path to failure as they do not feed their minds with proper knowledge. The other thing is they do not listen, as many do not listen to the word of the Master. <BR> <BR> Most concern in the New Testament... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 11:08:22 EST I AM TIRED OF HEARING THAT I HAVE WILL POWER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625420 <BR> I SPENT THE FIRST 43 YEARS OF MY LIFE BEMOANING MY LIFE SITUATION AND BLAMING OTHERS. IT WAS NOT THEIR FAULT THAT I WAS MORBIDLY OBESE. I WAS THE ONE THAT ATE FOR COMFORT. I ATE FOR COMFORT BECAUSE I WAS TOO LAZY OR TOO UNMOTIVATED TO CHANGE. CHANGING A LIFETIME OF BAD HABITS DOES NOT HAPPEN OVER NIGHT. IT HAPPENS THROUGH A HEART AND HEAD CHANGE OF YOUR OWN MAKING. IT DOES NOT TAKE WILL POWER. IT TAKES CHANGE POWER. THE WILLINGNESS TO ACCEPT RESPONSIBILTY FOR YOUR ACTIONS. IT TAKES PLAN... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 10:08:43 EST To my friend Jo, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590216 I got your goodie, and thank you and how apropos. Life is like a roadmap. <BR> So many twists and turns, shortcuts that end up getting us lost and if we are lucky <BR> they may help find hidden treasures <BR> When I look at a road map I see big roads hat gets somewhere in a hurry They are straight but we get to see little except a highway unless we turn off for gas or food. <BR> Sometimes we have to get off the main road to visit others. Sometimes we have to get off to visit special places... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 12:00:49 EST Mirror Deception http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549359 A few years ago I saw a movie called, "The Mirror has Two Faces." Lauren Bacall was the actress who iterated the meaning of this by saying, "I thought I had time. It got away from me. I feel as though I am young inside but I know I cannot do what I once did. I now know that I settled in life. " <BR> <BR> I agree with the concept that many of us settle in life for less that what we are worth. We are deceived by others into believing that we are not worthy. We do not look as good as they do.... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 20:19:38 EST Evidence of Things not seen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540326 Just MY Perspective: Several years ago, in a previous marriage, and suffering from severe clinical depression, I found my self at over 400 lbs. My mom was still alive. I had a beautiful son and had started a new job. <BR> <BR> I was aware subconsciously that my marriage was shaky. I need to lose weight. I did not have money to seek the professional help that I needed. I sought solace and comfort in the words of our Savior. <BR> <BR> I knew then we had to have personal relationship with th... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 16:37:43 EST I Lost A Dear Friend Yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523958 I will always think of Dianne as a fighter and she did beat breast cancer. On her annual check this year they found a bubble in her chest that turned out to be cancer. She strapped on her fighting gear and faced this challenge as she did all others in her life. She was a bubbly, positive, woman that enjoyed life, family, and friends. She was especially bonded to her family and children. Her friends will miss her too. . <BR> <BR> I feel that if we armed ourselves in our war against weight as ... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 14:12:33 EST Wow, you must think I left. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522422 Hi one and all, <BR> No I did not leave. I am still at it. Problems with sciatic and plantar fasciitis slowing the exercise down for a while, but got fitted for new shoes and plan to get on that elliptical bike again soon. <BR> I have been logging in daily. <BR> Keeping up with food entries. <BR> Reading blogs. <BR> Preparation of veggies and gathering nutritious recipes. <BR> Reading more on nutrition. Gmo, nitrites, organic vs. inorganic. At 64 I am not overly concerned about GMO, mostly... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 15:49:30 EST "If I can do it, anyone can" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417793 Pardon me, but BULL! I get so tired of these weight loss commercials with some star telling me this. They have personal trainers, cooks, or they can pay that exorbitant price for some company to prepare the meals and ship them to their home. Most of us are not that privileged and cannot feed the whole family on what we pay for the program. Our budgets do not allow us that much flexibility. <BR> <BR> Besides, this we are all so individual with such different lifestyles. We have allergies, li... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 11:37:08 EST A Bad Decision does not have to destroy the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5415127 How many times have you been on a diet and had a slip up, and said well that day is ruined? It can be someone's excuse to blow the whole day. If you are wanting to fail, this is good an excuse as any. I for one believe that a slip up should be a learning experience and is not a failure in itself. <BR> <BR> Whatever you did could be important for future success. Let's say you slipped up and ate a piece of cake. On the diabetic diet you can look up the exchange for what you did and lesson t... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 05:59:42 EST Just My Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5409688 When growing up one of my favorite quotes from my mom was."can't never did do anything". This adage made me try and try again to do things I initially could not. There were many things physically that I have never been able to do but I still try. You never, ever fail if you really try. That simply means that trying is winning in itself. <BR> <BR> Now that being said, as a person who has battled weight issues most of her life I will say, I continue to try. I never ever want to be a size 12 ag... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 13:34:48 EST My 3 accomplishments this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407780 weighing and measuring consistent except for the one night off allow on Friday or Saturday. <BR> sleeping better at night <BR> blood sugar get more into normal range again <BR> <BR> little by little- every journey has to begin with one step- and each step edges closer to where we want to be. Mon, 1 Jul 2013 19:05:14 EST One full week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5404389 Things have been going very well. My motivation for losing is back. I am preparing to fight a battle for the Lord. I know He wants me to be in shape for the job at hand. The enemy is among us and he wants to destroy us anyway that he can. He will encourage us to eat mindlessly whenever he can. He does not want us well if we were then we could not execute the Lord's plan for us as easily. The devil wants us sick, bedridden. The sin of gluttony. We can eat what ever we want prepared correctly a... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 09:09:19 EST Getting Stronger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5397176 I have always found music a source of inspiration, and strength. It has uplifted me in times of grief and sadness. It has inspired me in times of unwanted change, as divorce. It has energized me when I was feeling low. I was challenged to pick a song that spurs me toward my goal. I like the song "Stronger" by Kelly Clarkson. Below is the revised words and thoughts that may help you on your journey to better health. <BR> <BR> You know my life feels warmer <BR> I'm not in this fight alone <B... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 09:41:42 EST Riding The Horse Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396800 Breakfast as written-check <BR> Lunch as written - Check <BR> Dinner decided to do Italian- I had a Mediterranean salad with feta crumbles, grilled chicken; balsamic vinaigrette on the side; rosemary bread with dipping olive sauce for bread <BR> <BR> Out to grocer's today: found turkey breasts on sale <BR> boiled them, skinned them, chopped up turkey meat- 1 pound exactly <BR> I made Greek Turkey Salad <BR> <BR> ! LB CHOPPED WHITE TURKEY MEAT <BR> 1 SMALL CAN OR 4 T. OF SLICED BLACK OLIVES ... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 22:32:43 EST Planning for success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395443 Tomorrow morning, will have a serving of steel cooked oats with a banana, cinnamon and sweetener + 1 ounce cooked ham <BR> <BR> Lunch- 1 cup of green beans with diced onion and 1 tsp olive oil <BR> 3 ounce cube steak country fried <BR> 1 small baked potato <BR> <BR> Out to dinner for <BR> chicken fajita mix with corn chips and salsa <BR> <BR> Plan snack with Orange and 5 crackers with tuna 2 oz <BR> This my preparation for a successful day with good eating <BR> 2 cups coffee, 6 glasses of... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 17:15:19 EST Busting Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5390732 I completed the plateau busting phase, but do not ask me how I did. I have not weighed and do not plan to until visiting the dr. next month. I feel a difference in my clothes and getting up and down steps seems easier. I have been bothered with allergies for last 2 + weeks, coughing, sneezing, wheezing of asthma, so workouts mostly strength training. <BR> I have been more diligent in weighing and measuring food and charting fluid intake. <BR> I have tried to be more aware of adding salt to... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 11:15:05 EST set backs and how to move it forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386193 My set back this week has been sickness. When you are sick, you appetite is different. I ate more soup- has a lot of salt. I did not go to gym, which is difficult to do with respiratory ailments. <BR> What I have learned. I need to prepare some healthy soups for times such as these. I need to return to my chair exercises and do some weights. I can no longer do floor exercise, because God help. It is too hard to get down and then get up with bad knees. I exercise in the chair or using the doo... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 19:42:12 EST C A R E http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5370315 Many of my spark friends probably wonder how I am doing. I do not hear from many of you any more, which makes me feel that too much of life got in your way too. I have been experiencing some of the grief issues from losing my son and pain of weather changes, staying cold longer and pollen hanging around too long, plus lots of rain here. NO, I do not attribute this to global warming, but to sun activity changes and the cycles that the earth has gone through for many a thousand years. <BR> <B... Tue, 28 May 2013 11:31:42 EST Thank you guys: Motivators all http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5333097 I went to the Y today. I road the elliptical bike for 3.06 miles and 20 minutes plus, then did strength training for 15 minutes. I was sweating and proud when I walked out. Thank you for reminding the reason for this journey is life to its fullest. <BR> I do not want to be limited by a cane or by a cart anymore. <BR> I want to be able to walk freely. <BR> I know that I will never be able to manipulate steps as when younger. I am just aiming to make my load easier to bear. <BR> I do not need... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 15:05:52 EST oh my http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5332806 I awoke today to receive messages thanking me for my motivation to others. I appreciate this honor. Over the last year and half since my son's death I have gained 30 pounds, and have become less persistent with my goal. This honor is motivating me to kiss myself in the ___ like a 3 legged mule, I have to get on track once again. In about an hour I will go and ride the elliptical bike and do some strength training. I will have a lunch of low cal soup and a half sandwich with tomato. For supper... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 10:37:43 EST Bullying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195923 During most of my school career I was bullied due to my size. "Fats" "Lard Ass", and other names were used. I was the only child when I started school and did not know how to defend myself. To this day I remember that pain. The pain of not being accepted for being me. <BR> In junior high I was a little chunky but in the 7th grade I lost weight when the dr. put me on medication for my nerves. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/2/l729485122.jpg"> <BR> <BR> No one noticed or mad... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 22:05:57 EST What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5160491 After my son's passing, one of his closet buddies remarked to me, "you are one of the strongest women I have ever had the pleasure to meet.' Kelly Clarkson came out with a song called Stronger, which addressed this statement. It is actually a fight song and for my journey in life and my weight loss journey it has become my anthem. <BR> <BR> Life is a series of events and some are not very pleasant. Many of us smoke, use drugs, eat, have excessive habits that compensate for what we feel that... Sat, 8 Dec 2012 20:45:07 EST Things I "Can" Do http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5133189 I have been reading several things from Joyce Meyer who is an awe inspiring speaker gifted by God with common sense applications of the Bible and its teachings. <BR> I have learned many things from her. The other night as I was reading she spoke of how we self-sabotage ourselves with things we say we "cannot" do. Her way of looking at things is the "can' do method. I immediate had a visual image of an empty can to fill up. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1820659470.jpg"> ... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 19:37:22 EST Waking up from a fog, induced by grief http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5079827 The reality of my son's death finally sunk in over the last 3 months. I was not weighing ormeasuring as accurately as I once did. I slid on exercise. I had things I should not have. Now it is time to pay the piper so to speak. <BR> On Tues. I went for a check up. A1c up slightly. Need to push more water. Dr. recommended water exercise due to arthritis. Up sugar pill. Return one month to see how things going. <BR> I start aquatics for seniors on Monday. I am weighing and measuring again. Taki... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 18:19:28 EST On the Road to a Healthy Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5049782 On the road to healthy me, I had to decide what I wanted to see <BR> Did I need to see the scales go down to have victory <BR> Did I have to dress like the emaciated idols of screen and TV <BR> I had to decide what my measurements for success would be <BR> <BR> I learned quickly and still know at the age of 63, what my goals would be <BR> I could not depend on the scales to be there every day <BR> So what other things should I weigh to keep me on the right way <BR> How would I know which thi... Sat, 8 Sep 2012 13:34:40 EST Memories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5031611 In life memories, misunderstandings, losses, and changes can always be good or bad. Yesterday I had a DO DROP BY party, as a memorial for my son. Several of his friends came throughout the day as well as some family, and some of my friends. People came to see the changes in our home that we did in honoring my son. He has a memorial garden now and a final resting place in the newly remodeled upstairs, His place is in the foyer. The first thing that I see every morning is his smile and brown ey... Sun, 26 Aug 2012 11:53:46 EST Close-minded http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4979045 I was informed the other day that I was close-minded because I expressed an opinion different than the liberal masses. It does not make a difference what I said it is the reasoning that is the issue. You are and your thought processes are the compilation of a lifetime of living, religious and familial influence, observations, truths that you have learned, actions that you provide for yourself to give guidance in day to day function, guidance that disciplines your behaviors, etc. Your thought... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 10:34:54 EST Self- Sabotage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4962074 I looked this up because I have learned as will you that you can be your own worst enemy. In this world today many try to do a lot of blaming of others at the highest government level for the failure of policies to at home for failure of marriage to children for failure of their behavior to to the right thing. It really all boils down to one thing. We self-sabotage our efforts by not changing, not listening, not properly evaluating but most of all by not realizing who is really in the driver... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 11:42:17 EST