SWEESIN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SWEESIN SWEESIN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ And I continue http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823014 I am writing this to update all on my presence. I continue on program and logging in and out daily. <BR> I weigh and measure foods. I am maintaining weight but am ready to lose weight. <BR> I am still getting over the loss of my son, who's birthday will be soon. It is hard to believe it is now 3 years. It is harder to believe another holiday season without him is near. I cannot say that it has been easy, but I praise God daily for His ever present strength that gets me through every day. <BR... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 21:54:04 EST Anger, hatred, and unforgiveness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735122 I am not entirely sure this is an appropriate post but one that needs expressing for myself and others that I know. I grew up a child in the 50's and 60's and discipline and the rod were not spare. (This however is not entirely bad.) I was a strong willed child and very intelligent. <BR> My dad was a weekend alcoholic and the product of strong discipline too. He was abusive physically and mentally with words. I turned to food for comfort as my sister was 7 years younger and no one to talk too... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 07:35:26 EST The Cloak of Fat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729078 This may be a hard blog for me to write, but a necessary one. <BR> For many years I hid behind my self-made cloak of fat. I wore it as armor. <BR> It protected me from attention. When thin I attracted unwanted attention. <BR> When fat I was denied attention needed for career momentum. <BR> Did I fear failure? Or did I fear success? <BR> This cloak that I earned through years of dedicated devotion to solving <BR> all my problems of love, fear of rejection, fear of acceptance for me even if ... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 12:45:03 EST Remarkable http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712995 One of the members wrote me today and asked to be friends. She made my day. The a few minutes later another did. One said I was and amazing lady. <BR> The other: <BR> <BR> "You are an incredible woman with strength. You devoted your life to helping the sick and infirm. You have endured one of the greatest losses known--to lose a child. My heart goes out to you. You are doing awesome in living a healthier lifestyle. Congrats on the weight loss and best wishes as you continue to develop a he... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 19:28:52 EST Happy Mother's Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691874 What a wonderful expression when you have a child who loves you. Part of that means you were as good a mother as you could be. When my son got older, our relationship was such that he would still come to me with problems. I would always preference my response with who would you like to hear from first; your mother, a nurse or a friend because each of us would give you a different answer. His response- all of them mom. I lost this special young man almost 3 years ago now in a car wreck and th... Sat, 10 May 2014 11:02:04 EST What I READ on My Christian Walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637571 As study the Bible I learn more and more about what He wants for His body. We are the housing for His spirit. We must continually nurture our mind and body with spiritually blessed foods and information to educate our minds from the Bible and information on nutrition. Many people go down the path to failure as they do not feed their minds with proper knowledge. The other thing is they do not listen, as many do not listen to the word of the Master. <BR> <BR> Most concern in the New Testament... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 11:08:22 EST I AM TIRED OF HEARING THAT I HAVE WILL POWER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625420 <BR> I SPENT THE FIRST 43 YEARS OF MY LIFE BEMOANING MY LIFE SITUATION AND BLAMING OTHERS. IT WAS NOT THEIR FAULT THAT I WAS MORBIDLY OBESE. I WAS THE ONE THAT ATE FOR COMFORT. I ATE FOR COMFORT BECAUSE I WAS TOO LAZY OR TOO UNMOTIVATED TO CHANGE. CHANGING A LIFETIME OF BAD HABITS DOES NOT HAPPEN OVER NIGHT. IT HAPPENS THROUGH A HEART AND HEAD CHANGE OF YOUR OWN MAKING. IT DOES NOT TAKE WILL POWER. IT TAKES CHANGE POWER. THE WILLINGNESS TO ACCEPT RESPONSIBILTY FOR YOUR ACTIONS. IT TAKES PLAN... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 10:08:43 EST To my friend Jo, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590216 I got your goodie, and thank you and how apropos. Life is like a roadmap. <BR> So many twists and turns, shortcuts that end up getting us lost and if we are lucky <BR> they may help find hidden treasures <BR> When I look at a road map I see big roads hat gets somewhere in a hurry They are straight but we get to see little except a highway unless we turn off for gas or food. <BR> Sometimes we have to get off the main road to visit others. Sometimes we have to get off to visit special places... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 12:00:49 EST Mirror Deception http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549359 A few years ago I saw a movie called, "The Mirror has Two Faces." Lauren Bacall was the actress who iterated the meaning of this by saying, "I thought I had time. It got away from me. I feel as though I am young inside but I know I cannot do what I once did. I now know that I settled in life. " <BR> <BR> I agree with the concept that many of us settle in life for less that what we are worth. We are deceived by others into believing that we are not worthy. We do not look as good as they do.... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 20:19:38 EST Evidence of Things not seen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540326 Just MY Perspective: Several years ago, in a previous marriage, and suffering from severe clinical depression, I found my self at over 400 lbs. My mom was still alive. I had a beautiful son and had started a new job. <BR> <BR> I was aware subconsciously that my marriage was shaky. I need to lose weight. I did not have money to seek the professional help that I needed. I sought solace and comfort in the words of our Savior. <BR> <BR> I knew then we had to have personal relationship with th... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 16:37:43 EST I Lost A Dear Friend Yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523958 I will always think of Dianne as a fighter and she did beat breast cancer. On her annual check this year they found a bubble in her chest that turned out to be cancer. She strapped on her fighting gear and faced this challenge as she did all others in her life. She was a bubbly, positive, woman that enjoyed life, family, and friends. She was especially bonded to her family and children. Her friends will miss her too. . <BR> <BR> I feel that if we armed ourselves in our war against weight as ... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 14:12:33 EST Wow, you must think I left. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522422 Hi one and all, <BR> No I did not leave. I am still at it. Problems with sciatic and plantar fasciitis slowing the exercise down for a while, but got fitted for new shoes and plan to get on that elliptical bike again soon. <BR> I have been logging in daily. <BR> Keeping up with food entries. <BR> Reading blogs. <BR> Preparation of veggies and gathering nutritious recipes. <BR> Reading more on nutrition. Gmo, nitrites, organic vs. inorganic. At 64 I am not overly concerned about GMO, mostly... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 15:49:30 EST "If I can do it, anyone can" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417793 Pardon me, but BULL! I get so tired of these weight loss commercials with some star telling me this. They have personal trainers, cooks, or they can pay that exorbitant price for some company to prepare the meals and ship them to their home. Most of us are not that privileged and cannot feed the whole family on what we pay for the program. Our budgets do not allow us that much flexibility. <BR> <BR> Besides, this we are all so individual with such different lifestyles. We have allergies, li... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 11:37:08 EST A Bad Decision does not have to destroy the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5415127 How many times have you been on a diet and had a slip up, and said well that day is ruined? It can be someone's excuse to blow the whole day. If you are wanting to fail, this is good an excuse as any. I for one believe that a slip up should be a learning experience and is not a failure in itself. <BR> <BR> Whatever you did could be important for future success. Let's say you slipped up and ate a piece of cake. On the diabetic diet you can look up the exchange for what you did and lesson t... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 05:59:42 EST Just My Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5409688 When growing up one of my favorite quotes from my mom was."can't never did do anything". This adage made me try and try again to do things I initially could not. There were many things physically that I have never been able to do but I still try. You never, ever fail if you really try. That simply means that trying is winning in itself. <BR> <BR> Now that being said, as a person who has battled weight issues most of her life I will say, I continue to try. I never ever want to be a size 12 ag... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 13:34:48 EST My 3 accomplishments this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407780 weighing and measuring consistent except for the one night off allow on Friday or Saturday. <BR> sleeping better at night <BR> blood sugar get more into normal range again <BR> <BR> little by little- every journey has to begin with one step- and each step edges closer to where we want to be. Mon, 1 Jul 2013 19:05:14 EST One full week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5404389 Things have been going very well. My motivation for losing is back. I am preparing to fight a battle for the Lord. I know He wants me to be in shape for the job at hand. The enemy is among us and he wants to destroy us anyway that he can. He will encourage us to eat mindlessly whenever he can. He does not want us well if we were then we could not execute the Lord's plan for us as easily. The devil wants us sick, bedridden. The sin of gluttony. We can eat what ever we want prepared correctly a... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 09:09:19 EST Getting Stronger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5397176 I have always found music a source of inspiration, and strength. It has uplifted me in times of grief and sadness. It has inspired me in times of unwanted change, as divorce. It has energized me when I was feeling low. I was challenged to pick a song that spurs me toward my goal. I like the song "Stronger" by Kelly Clarkson. Below is the revised words and thoughts that may help you on your journey to better health. <BR> <BR> You know my life feels warmer <BR> I'm not in this fight alone <B... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 09:41:42 EST Riding The Horse Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396800 Breakfast as written-check <BR> Lunch as written - Check <BR> Dinner decided to do Italian- I had a Mediterranean salad with feta crumbles, grilled chicken; balsamic vinaigrette on the side; rosemary bread with dipping olive sauce for bread <BR> <BR> Out to grocer's today: found turkey breasts on sale <BR> boiled them, skinned them, chopped up turkey meat- 1 pound exactly <BR> I made Greek Turkey Salad <BR> <BR> ! LB CHOPPED WHITE TURKEY MEAT <BR> 1 SMALL CAN OR 4 T. OF SLICED BLACK OLIVES ... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 22:32:43 EST Planning for success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395443 Tomorrow morning, will have a serving of steel cooked oats with a banana, cinnamon and sweetener + 1 ounce cooked ham <BR> <BR> Lunch- 1 cup of green beans with diced onion and 1 tsp olive oil <BR> 3 ounce cube steak country fried <BR> 1 small baked potato <BR> <BR> Out to dinner for <BR> chicken fajita mix with corn chips and salsa <BR> <BR> Plan snack with Orange and 5 crackers with tuna 2 oz <BR> This my preparation for a successful day with good eating <BR> 2 cups coffee, 6 glasses of... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 17:15:19 EST Busting Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5390732 I completed the plateau busting phase, but do not ask me how I did. I have not weighed and do not plan to until visiting the dr. next month. I feel a difference in my clothes and getting up and down steps seems easier. I have been bothered with allergies for last 2 + weeks, coughing, sneezing, wheezing of asthma, so workouts mostly strength training. <BR> I have been more diligent in weighing and measuring food and charting fluid intake. <BR> I have tried to be more aware of adding salt to... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 11:15:05 EST set backs and how to move it forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386193 My set back this week has been sickness. When you are sick, you appetite is different. I ate more soup- has a lot of salt. I did not go to gym, which is difficult to do with respiratory ailments. <BR> What I have learned. I need to prepare some healthy soups for times such as these. I need to return to my chair exercises and do some weights. I can no longer do floor exercise, because God help. It is too hard to get down and then get up with bad knees. I exercise in the chair or using the doo... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 19:42:12 EST C A R E http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5370315 Many of my spark friends probably wonder how I am doing. I do not hear from many of you any more, which makes me feel that too much of life got in your way too. I have been experiencing some of the grief issues from losing my son and pain of weather changes, staying cold longer and pollen hanging around too long, plus lots of rain here. NO, I do not attribute this to global warming, but to sun activity changes and the cycles that the earth has gone through for many a thousand years. <BR> <B... Tue, 28 May 2013 11:31:42 EST Thank you guys: Motivators all http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5333097 I went to the Y today. I road the elliptical bike for 3.06 miles and 20 minutes plus, then did strength training for 15 minutes. I was sweating and proud when I walked out. Thank you for reminding the reason for this journey is life to its fullest. <BR> I do not want to be limited by a cane or by a cart anymore. <BR> I want to be able to walk freely. <BR> I know that I will never be able to manipulate steps as when younger. I am just aiming to make my load easier to bear. <BR> I do not need... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 15:05:52 EST oh my http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5332806 I awoke today to receive messages thanking me for my motivation to others. I appreciate this honor. Over the last year and half since my son's death I have gained 30 pounds, and have become less persistent with my goal. This honor is motivating me to kiss myself in the ___ like a 3 legged mule, I have to get on track once again. In about an hour I will go and ride the elliptical bike and do some strength training. I will have a lunch of low cal soup and a half sandwich with tomato. For supper... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 10:37:43 EST Bullying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195923 During most of my school career I was bullied due to my size. "Fats" "Lard Ass", and other names were used. I was the only child when I started school and did not know how to defend myself. To this day I remember that pain. The pain of not being accepted for being me. <BR> In junior high I was a little chunky but in the 7th grade I lost weight when the dr. put me on medication for my nerves. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/2/l729485122.jpg"> <BR> <BR> No one noticed or mad... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 22:05:57 EST What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5160491 After my son's passing, one of his closet buddies remarked to me, "you are one of the strongest women I have ever had the pleasure to meet.' Kelly Clarkson came out with a song called Stronger, which addressed this statement. It is actually a fight song and for my journey in life and my weight loss journey it has become my anthem. <BR> <BR> Life is a series of events and some are not very pleasant. Many of us smoke, use drugs, eat, have excessive habits that compensate for what we feel that... Sat, 8 Dec 2012 20:45:07 EST Things I "Can" Do http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5133189 I have been reading several things from Joyce Meyer who is an awe inspiring speaker gifted by God with common sense applications of the Bible and its teachings. <BR> I have learned many things from her. The other night as I was reading she spoke of how we self-sabotage ourselves with things we say we "cannot" do. Her way of looking at things is the "can' do method. I immediate had a visual image of an empty can to fill up. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1820659470.jpg"> ... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 19:37:22 EST Waking up from a fog, induced by grief http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5079827 The reality of my son's death finally sunk in over the last 3 months. I was not weighing ormeasuring as accurately as I once did. I slid on exercise. I had things I should not have. Now it is time to pay the piper so to speak. <BR> On Tues. I went for a check up. A1c up slightly. Need to push more water. Dr. recommended water exercise due to arthritis. Up sugar pill. Return one month to see how things going. <BR> I start aquatics for seniors on Monday. I am weighing and measuring again. Taki... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 18:19:28 EST On the Road to a Healthy Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5049782 On the road to healthy me, I had to decide what I wanted to see <BR> Did I need to see the scales go down to have victory <BR> Did I have to dress like the emaciated idols of screen and TV <BR> I had to decide what my measurements for success would be <BR> <BR> I learned quickly and still know at the age of 63, what my goals would be <BR> I could not depend on the scales to be there every day <BR> So what other things should I weigh to keep me on the right way <BR> How would I know which thi... Sat, 8 Sep 2012 13:34:40 EST Memories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5031611 In life memories, misunderstandings, losses, and changes can always be good or bad. Yesterday I had a DO DROP BY party, as a memorial for my son. Several of his friends came throughout the day as well as some family, and some of my friends. People came to see the changes in our home that we did in honoring my son. He has a memorial garden now and a final resting place in the newly remodeled upstairs, His place is in the foyer. The first thing that I see every morning is his smile and brown ey... Sun, 26 Aug 2012 11:53:46 EST Close-minded http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4979045 I was informed the other day that I was close-minded because I expressed an opinion different than the liberal masses. It does not make a difference what I said it is the reasoning that is the issue. You are and your thought processes are the compilation of a lifetime of living, religious and familial influence, observations, truths that you have learned, actions that you provide for yourself to give guidance in day to day function, guidance that disciplines your behaviors, etc. Your thought... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 10:34:54 EST Self- Sabotage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4962074 I looked this up because I have learned as will you that you can be your own worst enemy. In this world today many try to do a lot of blaming of others at the highest government level for the failure of policies to at home for failure of marriage to children for failure of their behavior to to the right thing. It really all boils down to one thing. We self-sabotage our efforts by not changing, not listening, not properly evaluating but most of all by not realizing who is really in the driver... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 11:42:17 EST Every Day is a Gift http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4907373 Since my son's departure for heaven in September, no truer words were ever spoken. <BR> In his memory we have his new home here in the upstairs foyer. I say good morning to him daily and as I do I thank God for every moment that we shared. What a special and precious gift he was. <BR> Each of us have gifts in our life which we do not count as we are too busy complaining about what we do not have: what some insignificant and perceived hurt that another caused; what that terrible company is ... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 12:19:41 EST It is not what you lose> It is what you have GAINED http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4891049 I have often said in my life to others that life is not always fair. We do not always get what we think that we deserve. There are other forces that oppress us. It can be office politics, perceptions of what is needed and not what is really needed, opinions based on former actions and people assuming that you did not learn or grow; the time of day, a hasty word not forgotten, etc. The thing that we would be better off doing is focusing on what we have GAINED, even in our personal goals. <BR... Mon, 21 May 2012 10:39:40 EST Another Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4880684 Yesterday was Mother's Day, I survived but not without tears and some frustrations. You know what, everyday of our lives is that way filled with some laughs, some tears, some frustrations, and some spilt milk. So how do we survive for years. WE do it one day at a time! We look at the whole picture. What did I learn from my last experience? What can I do to make it better next time? <BR> Life does not happen to us in a neat little formula as does some mathematical equations. <BR> Human bein... Mon, 14 May 2012 10:56:14 EST OBESITY: THE NATIONAL TERROR! REALLY? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4874401 Just read the article that says Obesity is the US's greatest terror from the Obama Administration. Obesity is an individual choice, oh excuse me that only counts if you want to abort a baby per some peoples' standards. I did not say it is a healthy choice. I know I have battled my entire life. Finally coming to grips with the core reason for my plight has been a lifelong struggle. <BR> I am a retired nurse, therefore had the knowledge. The problem is that obesity is a multifold issue. It is ... Wed, 9 May 2012 18:19:23 EST The Best You http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4853135 <BR> I am having many reflective thoughts now that Mother’s Day is nearing. <BR> My son is with his Father in heaven. I am have many memories of our times together. There are days in which many tears flow. Some of these tears are with laughter, some are with heartache, but none of them are with regrets. <BR> <BR> I am reminded of things I taught him as I read things his friends wrote about him on Facebook, things on sympathy cards, things I see in his actions in pictures that we took on t... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 10:45:55 EST Mother's Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4847150 This year mother's Day will take on a whole new meaning for me. Jack, my one and only child is gone. My mother is gone. My mother-in-law is gone. My husband's 101 year old grandmother is living and she will get my attention. I... think if my cousins will let me, that I will go and see my Aunt Leona, she and Uncle Bill have always been there for me after dad left and then mom. <BR> To all my friends, say a special prayer for me on Mother's Day and if you have time to come or to send a hug it ... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 21:10:14 EST Dragonfly: lessons in life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4826890 "The dragonfly, in almost every part of the world symbolizes change and change in the perspective of self realization; and the kind of change that has its source in mental and emotional maturity and the understanding of the deeper meaning of life. <BR> <BR> The traditional association of Dragonflies with water also gives rise to this meaning to this amazing insect. The Dragonfly’s scurrying flight across water represents an act of going beyond what’s on the surface and looking into the deep... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 11:22:40 EST Surprising joy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4808599 Today I realized since moving my bedroom upstairs that walking up those stairs is not causing pain. I know to some this is a little triumph To me this is a surprising joy. Over 12 years ago I moved my bedroom downstairs because I could not climb up to my bed without many stops, serious leg pain, and shortness of breath. I did not go upstairs for much of anything for all those years. <BR> When my son died his stepfather and I embarked on revamping the upstairs. The main reason for this was to... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 09:01:34 EST What Difference Does It Make? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4793156 Most of the time when I write the blogs here, I am hoping someone will read the blog and it will spur them on or touch a hidden cord to boost them to better health. My main reason however is really for me. Changing my lifestyle which includes eating correctly, preparing foods correctly, getting more educated about do's and don'ts of eating, learning portion control and increasing my space in life by moving more and living longer. <BR> <BR> I do not get any responses to my blogs but to those... Sun, 18 Mar 2012 10:20:13 EST Accountability http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4787178 We are living in sad days in many ways. Some things we have control of and some things we do not. We do have control of what we choose to do to make us healthier. We have control of our behavior unless mentally deficient in some manner, that is what supposedly separate us from animals. <BR> <BR> I have been following closely the debate cause by Ms. Fluke. I personally feel that she should be responsible and accountable for her own actions. She should not expect others to pay for behavior th... Wed, 14 Mar 2012 11:30:51 EST I Do have a sense of humor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4745995 I think sometimes people must think I am either preachy or overly serious. Actually I have quite a sense of humor. I love laughing. My DH is a man of great humor who know when to be serious and how to let out his inner child. I used to be envious of Clair Huxtable because Cliff was such a romantic and humorous man. I found a man of equal talents in that area. <BR> He has helped me bring out my inner child. <BR> As a nurse, professionals for some reason are not supposed to act silly. If you d... Sun, 19 Feb 2012 11:43:25 EST DO NOT let another's perceptions of you dictate your reality! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4737288 I read today a note from a friend and I cried. I cried for many people that I know. I cried because I spent a large part of my life letting others dictate who and what I was and was not. <BR> I am Not unworthy of anything. I am a child of God and He makes no mistakes. <BR> I am Not unworthy of love. I deserve to be loved. Do Not let someone, man or woman, whatever is your preference, to make you feel that you are not worthy, valuable or useless. Run like there is hot coals under your feet fr... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 18:16:34 EST Will Power http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4678241 Many, many times in the three years that I have been with Spark People, I have heard how do you keep will power and motivation. Will Power is defined as the trait of resolutely controlling your own behavior. Motivation is defined as factors within a human being or animal that arouse and direct goal-oriented behaviour <BR> <BR> Personally I do not see how you can accomplish one without the other. They are symbiotic and parasitic in nature. To succeed at a goal you must have both. <BR> <BR... Fri, 13 Jan 2012 12:09:16 EST JUST COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4653769 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l305727909.jpg">Many people that I know want to spend what precious time they have on earth with excuses for why they do not do something. I choose to count my blessings at this point of my life. As Dolly Parton said in her movie "Straight Talk", "it is time to get off the cross, because someone else needs the wood." <BR> <BR> 1. I can't lose weight because I was injured, am disabled, can't afford it, who cares, etc. <BR> You have heard t... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 10:36:30 EST "It is what it is" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4621156 Over the last several weeks i have learned this phrase. I suppose it is meant to answer the question of life's things that happen over which we have no explanation and have to accept at face value. Example, my son's death, there are things in life over which we have no control. We have to accept them. I am through the acceptance phase and there is no denying that he is gone. Now I have to move on with life somehow. <BR> There are people, however, who use this expression to serve as an excuse... Sun, 11 Dec 2011 10:09:04 EST Holiday Fever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4612890 Here we are getting ready for the second leg of the Bermuda Triangle of weight gain woes. <BR> So, what are you doing? Are you making healthy treats to share? Are you eating portion controlled snacks? Are you exercising to relieve the stress of the holidays or nibbling to get through them? Are you preparing your menus ahead of time? <BR> There are so many things to do. Buy gifts, wrap gifts, shop for the perfect gift, prepare treats for sharing and gifts, etc. The most important thing however... Mon, 5 Dec 2011 08:23:50 EST Thanks Giving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4596613 Tomorrow is a national day designated for thanks. I give thanks today and every day for a God who loves me. <BR> I no longer have my son here, as you know he went to the loving arms of his Father, on 9/4/2011. I was not supposed to have had him. I had a piece of IUD still inside that I did not know about. I was 34 and had low hormones. My husband had low sperm count. I was sent the best blessing and gift of my life on December 21, 1983. He came home with me Christmas Eve. As the holidays app... Wed, 23 Nov 2011 10:18:02 EST