SUZ_1968's SparkPeople Blog SUZ_1968's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Focus! Why do I so easily fall off the proverbial wagon? Am I afraid of failing? Worse, afraid of success? <BR> <BR> This journey gets so challenging. Yet here I am, in the midst of a trip, heading home tonight and all I can think of is fitting into the middle seat and hoping, again, that I don't need a seat belt extender. <BR> <BR> I'm a smart woman, I know I can't wish the weight away. <BR> <BR> But I do know after I am home, I need to focus on my exercise routine... I was going so regularly... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 09:34:51 EST Craziness never ends, does it? :) So...I am dedicated to working out 3x a week and have been consistent on that since mid November 2011, which is great - yay me! <em>345</em> <BR> <BR> It's challenging for me to stick with a way of eating more than a week, and ironically I am on the 17 day diet plan. Which isn't that much longer than a week really. The problem is I modify it to suit my needs and I know that needs to end. <BR> <BR> Things have been hectic (much like everyone else, I am sure) with work and seemingly ginorm... Fri, 4 May 2012 18:11:29 EST Giving up - NOT So, a few weeks pass by. <BR> <BR> * Family reunion looming - why am I planning a reunion in WI when I live in CO? <BR> * Work - new rate plans, which isn't rocket science yet oh so detailed <BR> * How can I improve this process? <BR> * Wow, am learning so much but really want to take a nap <BR> * Home - Hubby had back surgery on 3/20 and this is back surgery V2. He's doing great, I think but it's these first months of remaining upbeat and positive will be tough. Did ... Mon, 26 Mar 2012 12:46:39 EST Really, life? So much going on and still busy at work and I want to have that perfect span of time to stick with my plan! Yeesh. I do well, just want to see what can really happen when I DO follow the plan. Thu, 23 Feb 2012 16:53:35 EST A little daughter guilt and more busy.... So yesterday would have been my parents 55th wedding anniversary. My father passed over 17 years ago and this was the ver first year I missed calling my Mom just to see how she was. <BR> <BR> I mean when is it ok to let go? I know whenever I am ready and I shouldn't feel guilty for not calling her... But anyway. Enough about that. That guilt was short lived. Lol <BR> <BR> Now back to busy. We drove 2 hours to the mountains for kiddos ski team... Race this weekend and I'm volunteering tomor... Fri, 10 Feb 2012 23:21:28 EST Ugh, busy busy and busy <em>101</em> <BR> <BR> Yeesh. I am super annoyed that life gets in the way of a healthy lifestyle. (LOL) <BR> <BR> Hubby is traveling, kiddo needs to be toted to swim practice and band practice, new high visbility project at work has me working 60 hours a week.... and little to no time to focus on implementing my eating plan and integrating it into my exercise plan. <BR> <BR> I think I am going to take 30 minutes of "me" time to focus on journaling, blogging, tracking... <BR> <BR> An... Thu, 9 Feb 2012 15:42:52 EST The kiddo pictured? INSPIRES me Take a gander at my son, who is an avid competive alpine skiier as well as swimmer. Yep, shameless Mom brag. <em>20</em> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> He is just 10, but has these amazing bright blue eyes. His enthusiasm for my weight loss is inspiring. <BR> <BR> With my MS, sometimes it's hard for me to walk "normally". It's kind of hard to explain, but when I am in an exacerbation (aka flareup) of my MS, it's like walking on sand with flip... Thu, 9 Feb 2012 15:27:13 EST Cheryl, honoring you to honor myself.... A few weeks ago, one of my best friends decided taking her own life was better than staying here with us. I continue to struggle with why she did it.... what I do know is that she was overweight and was dxed with prediabetes. <BR> <BR> Having MS and being overweight, sure I can get it. Sure I have a family and you didn't...but for today, I need you to know I will take on my own struggle to look to you and try to make you laugh with my sarcasm as you called me "Babelicious" ...going to look ... Sat, 4 Feb 2012 15:41:13 EST