SUZYKBACK's SparkPeople Blog SUZYKBACK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Real life is.... Not easy! I separated from my husband of 32 years and found my way back to who I want to be. After 6 months (and losing 20 pounds) I began to realize that I take ME with me wherever I go and I make the choices that impact my life/health/outlook etc. so I went home. The adjustment period to being back in my "old" life was hard and I gained back 7 pounds in a month. Panic!! But then I realized - I don't have to do this the same way - MAKE NEW CHOICES. So, today I am back on SparkPeople an... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 09:44:26 EST Surprise! Well, the SparkPeople plan has blown a BIG self-delusion I've had for years out of the water. I have been convinced that I can't lose weight "no matter what I do" but since tracking, following along with all the SparkPeople suggestions I'm down 17 guess I just really need to be much more aware and intentional about what I'm doing. Sat, 27 Oct 2012 21:28:37 EST What I really want.... I need to lose about 85 more pounds but what I WANT is to be healthy. I want to feel good, have energy for the things I want to do and have the quality of life we all deserve. That is what I want. What has been keeping me from it is the poor health that poor eating and exercise habits have produced. It is all in my control. I just need to remember what I want and that it really isn't a candy bar. Wed, 3 Oct 2012 15:00:17 EST What a shock! Went to the movies yesterday with my husband and grown son and then to dinner at Applebee's. I had 3 sweet/spicy boneless wings, a four ounce steak w/chipotle cream on the side, 4 grilled shrimp (small side of medium) and a brownie bite. Came in at over 1800 calories and over 5,000 mg of sodium!!! Felt sick the rest of the evening......are you kidding me?? Had been almost two months since I had eaten in a restaurant and I was feeling really good - now I remember how I felt all the time! Wh... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 15:18:27 EST YIKES!! Since early August when I joined SparkPeople I have been doing my best to eat "clean" - no preservatives, artificial colors, flavors, etc. and I've been fairly successful. The biggest thing I noticed (besides physically feeling much better) is my mental/emotional state has been terrific! Upbeat, positive, CALM.....AND THEN......Friday I fell off the wagon. I had a horrible day at work and the break room had junk food (as usual) and I ate some. After work I went grocery shopping and I boug... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 14:28:11 EST Really?? I don't know what to say......I need to exercise (it must be true because EVERYBODY says so!) but the truth is I DON'T WANT TO! There I've said it. No excuses, just bald-faced truth. I know - I have a BAAAAAAAAD attitude about this. My spark coach gave me the assignment for today to blog about how I'm going to "overcome" my excuses for not exercising. Guess for right now - I'm not. Fri, 21 Sep 2012 09:38:09 EST Yes, please! I have always been a "yes, please!" kind of person. Would I like to go on an outing? Yes, please! Would I like to see your pictures of your new puppy? Yes, please! Would I like another piece of chocolate cream pie? Yes, please!! So for me dieting was always a time of saying NO to everything - and that wasn't really very fun. But with a SHIFT OF MIND to thinking about being healthy - everything becomes "yes, please" once again! Now my questions are in terms of good health. Do I want ... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 09:38:45 EST Protein, protein, whose got the protein? So I've been doing the research and the consensus seems to be that, for women, 75 - 90 g of protein a day is called for - depending on if one is exercising or not. THAT is a lot of protein! I really really tried to eat as much protein as possible within my calorie budget, etc. and only got to 53 g! I suspect I've spent most of my life eating about 20-25 g per day. So.....this leads me to the conclusion that protein drinks/shakes are definitely in my future. One interesting side note is th... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 01:04:37 EST You know what's EASY?? Being fit. Yep. Easy. It's hard to GET fit and hard to STAY fit......but being fit? Very easy! <BR> <BR> You know what is HARD?? Being fat. Yep. Hard. It's easy to GET fat and easy to STAY fat.....but being fat? Very hard! <BR> <BR> My choice? I can do nothing (=easy) and stay FAT (=hard) or I can do something (=hard) and be FIT (=easy). <BR> <BR> So I'm lazy and I don't like hard......only guess what? There is no way to avoid hard - hard is just plain unavoidable. So I made ... Sat, 1 Sep 2012 16:55:40 EST