SUZIEQIAM's SparkPeople Blog

A Little Teary Eyed

Sun, 22 Jan 2012 08:59:56 EST

I have so many mixed emotions today. My daughter and I have decided to close our children's consignment shop. We have struggled with the finances and have come to the realization that we are fighting for a lost cause. The economy is just not going to let us prosper. I wish I could wave a magic wand to just POOF it gone. I am overwhelmed at the thought of liquidating all our inventory in the weeks ahead. I know that in the next few weeks I am going to be so stressed.
I just rejoined Spar...

Why?

Wed, 28 Sep 2011 07:59:00 EST

Just sitting here trying to figure out WHY I quit coming here...I have been back for two days now and already feeling better about myself even though I have gained all my weight back and have a Blood Glucose Average that is ALARMINGLY HIGH! Why do we do these things to ourselves? This was the place where I could come for so much encouragement...yet I let life get in my way...

I guess I am writing this as a reminder when I start to let myself slip again....I can come here to remi...

A Lesson Learned???

Tue, 2 Mar 2010 11:45:07 EST

I have been doing so good since I have been on the BLC. I get so much encouragement from reading all the post on my team thread ...I am even in the top 10 of all the people that are on the whole challenge, which gives me more & more incentive to keep going....BUT! I am trying to figure out WHY I got up this morning with a yearning for ice cream. There was about 2 cups left in the freezer this morning & now it is gone! 40 OK, I logged it on my nutrition page....NOT GOOD NUMBERS!!!...

spring blog Saturday.. My Busy Busy Day!

Sat, 27 Feb 2010 20:48:32 EST

I was up before the crack of Dawn. Off to the gym by 5. two hours there, home again, get ready for work (be there by 10) got off at 2, rush home, change clothes, got to daughter's house by 3:15 for my grandaughter's birthday party, leave there by 6 p.m. go by Walmart to get hot dogs & marshmallows for a bonfire for the grandchildren that are visiting, 7 of them here tonight (ranging from 8 to 16) rushed in to log on my food diary for the day, sitting here listening to laughing , joking, argu...

Spring blog.... Friday Feb. 26...The CRAZY LADY & THAT THING!

Fri, 26 Feb 2010 19:22:13 EST

OK What shall I blog about?

When I first joined the Gym at the beginning of the of the BLC12, The trainer told me to do 15 minutes on the Eliptical. (YEAH! RIGHT!) I did 7 minutes & thought I was going to die before I could get down from that thing! (Is SHE CRAZY???!!!!!!) Who did she think this 62 year old lady was???? A STAR ATHELETE?????!!!! I knew we were supposed to wipe down the machines after we used them & I didn't even know how my wiggly legs were going to carry me tha...

Isn't it funny??? (not really)

Fri, 5 Feb 2010 21:44:21 EST

I was a little dissapointed in my weigh in this week. I gained .4 lbs.. 234
Now, I know .4 lbs is not too bad...but if you look at it the way I did, I weighed 187.6...Tell me now, doesn't that look much better than 188???

Now look at it this way...If I LOST .4 lbs... I would still be unhappy because .4lbs doesn't seem like a whole lot... 24

So I say to myself....GET OVER IT...don't let it derail you...even though you think it should have been m...

Emotionally Spent

Sat, 23 Jan 2010 21:44:28 EST

I am tired...I am hurt...I am dissapointed...I have been hurt by someone that I thought was my friend...This is when I would ordinairly binge...but I won't. I am determined to make this time work. I have to do this for my health...I have to do this for my well being...I have to do this for my sanity. Why binge??? will it make things better? It will only make things worse...because that is when I will start hating myself every time I look in the mirror...knowing what I am doing to my body. ...

Why I want to (WILL) lose 65 lbs

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 05:32:45 EST

1. I can be healthy
2. I can look in the mirror & not be ashamed of myself
3. my family will have me around a lot longer
4. I will have more energy
5. I can wear nice clothes in a decent size
6. I want to be able to run & jump, & PLAY!
7. I will have more confidence in myself
8. I won't cry myself to sleep sometimes
9. I won't have to look down at my swelling feet
10. I will gain control of my appetite
11. I can give others encouragement

copied from one of my first blogs

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 11:51:19 EST

This is a blog that I started on another site in January of 09...before I found Sparkpeople.
I know it sounds depressing, but blog's are supposed to be for writing your feelings down...so that is what I was doing. Things have changed for me since I wrote it. I am doing a lot better. I have changed the situation at work, I am doing much better with my eating habits, and I am feeling a lot more hopeful since I have found Sparkpeople.

The picture below is of my sis, One of th...

What are you going to do with the rest of your life?

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 20:02:53 EST

How many times have I asked myself this question? Answer? TOO MANY
I have a history of Diabetes in my family...both sides...I thought I was invincible, that I wouldn't wind up that way. Even when my sister (who was only one year older) was diagnosed with it, I thought, "that won't be ME"
When my sister's blood sugar would get so out of control, I would think, "If I was told that I had Diabetes, I would never let my blood sugar get out of control! WHY was she doing this to he...