SUSANPEI's SparkPeople Blog SUSANPEI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I feel like my battle with food is over!!! PLEASE READ. Hi everyone! I really wanted to share some of my story with the Spark community, because I know that a lot of you are struggling. Maybe this information can help. Sorry in advance for the long post! <BR> <BR> I have struggled with my weight since I was about 12. It is something that has affected our whole family for many years. At my heaviest, I was about 215 pounds. I’ve had several “successes” (and I use that term loosely) where I lost 30 and even 50 pounds at once. I achieved this by foll... Fri, 2 Oct 2015 13:30:52 EST My first 10k race! As some of you remember, I did my first 5k race in April, and I LOVED it! I was inspired to sign up for a 10k race, and thought it would motivate me to keep up with my running through a training program. Unfortunately, I got lazy and didn't train much at all. I did short runs here and there, but never ran more than 5k. I did keep going to bootcamp several times per week, but I was really nervous about running double the distance I had ever run before. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was race day! It w... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 09:24:28 EST What to tell myself when I want to give up: You hate when your pants are too tight. <BR> You walk with your head held high when you are feeling good. <BR> You enjoy shopping at this smaller size. <BR> Your energy goes through the roof when you are following the Actual Nutrition plan. <BR> You have come so far and don't want to sabotage your efforts. <BR> You don't want to end up back where you started, where you were so miserable. <BR> You are setting a good example for your family. <BR> You save money on food when you are eating prope... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 13:29:43 EST Mud run!! Yesterday, I was able to cross something off my "bucket list" - I completed a mud run!! <BR> <BR> It was Mud Hero Halifax, and it was SOOO much fun! I wish my husband would have run it with me, but my 2 friends and I had a great time. Maybe I can talk my hubby into it next year. <BR> <BR> I had butterflies in my stomach as we got closer to our start time. The energy and excitement of the crowd was contagious though. The worst part of the whole race was the very first part: running up... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 08:23:46 EST Maintenance Plan I can't believe I'm getting close to maintenance. <BR> <BR> In the past, I have lost weight and gained it back over and over. This time, I have lost 50+ lbs, and I am determined to keep it off for good! I have learned that NOT having a maintenance plan does not work. I want this time to be the last time I have to lose this weight, and having a maintenance plan will help me achieve this goal. Even though I'm not quite at goal yet, I thought it would be helpful to set up a plan so that... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 12:38:06 EST BIG milestone!! I am SO excited to say that I have reached the milestone of 50 POUNDS LOST!! In June 2013, I set a goal for myself to lose 54.2 lbs in a year (to get to 160 lbs). I didn't quite make it, but I came close. I've been working hard to make my goal, and I KNOW I'm going to get there. My new timeline is to get there in time for our professional family photos we're having taken on September 13. <BR> <BR> I'm still going to bootcamp 4 times per week, which I've been doing for 10 months. I'm LOV... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 07:27:46 EST Thinking about giving up the scale I've been obsessed with scales since about the 9th grade. Weight was a very popular topic at our house. Everyone always seemed to know what everyone else weighed. My mom got weighed daily (pretty sure she still does), and I adopted the same habit. Every morning, it's just part of my routine to hop on the scale. <BR> <BR> Since June 11, 2013 when I started eating better and exercising, I have lost 49.2 lbs. That means I have exactly 5 lbs to lose before reaching my goal weight of 160. ... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 14:23:45 EST Feeling AMAZING!!! This is my 5th day on my nutrition plan, and I feel SOOO great! It takes a lot of planning, but other than that it's really easy to follow. It's a large volume of food, so I never feel hungry. And it's a much better balance of foods than I was eating before. I've always been the type to get home at 5:00 and ask the question "What are we gonna have for supper?" There's something sort of calming about knowing the day before what I'm going to have for all of my meals and all of my snacks. ... Fri, 16 May 2014 13:10:48 EST Nutrition Program So, setting up an accountability chart for myself hasn't been working to get myself back on track. I gained about 8 lbs back over the last 2 months, and my clothes were starting to feel uncomfortable. I had to admit to myself that I needed help to turn things around. I decided to go back to the nutrition program run through the bootcamp that I go to. It's 8 weeks where they give you an individualized plan, setting out how many servings of things you need for your meals and snacks (e.g. Br... Mon, 12 May 2014 14:15:44 EST Picking myself back up again Hello SparkFriends! <BR> <BR> I was doing so well... and then Easter weekend happened. We had houseguests for 4 days, and our families gave our 2 kids TONS of candy. They are only 2.5 years and 13 months old, so we didn't want them eating too much junk. So that meant we had a lot leftover. Was I strong enough to stay away? No. No, I was not. I was even eating the chocolate that I don't really like (the small eggs wrapped in coloured foil, the big hollow cartoon character chocolate, et... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 08:12:18 EST April 9 - 15 recap This was my first week using my new checkbox accountability system. I think it worked fairly well. It helped me focus on the basics, and since I didn't expect perfection from myself it kept me feeling positive about my week. <BR> <BR> Here are my results (the first number is the number of days I accomplished the task, the second number is the goal I had set): <BR> <BR> Bootcamp - 4/4 <BR> Run - 2/2 <BR> 6 water - 2/7 <BR> Track food - 6/6 <BR> Stay within range - 4/5 <BR> Blog - 1/1 <BR>... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 14:50:35 EST My first 5k race! Today, I checked something off my bucket list that has been there for a LONG time... to run a <em>364</em> race! <BR> <BR> Last summer when I started running, a 60 second jog seemed like a lifetime. But I kept at it, and little by little it got easier. I never aimed for faster times, I only focussed on increasing my distance. Through the winter I was really lazy about running because I didn't want to run outside in the freezing cold on icy sidewalks in the dark. I'm just not that hardc... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 19:42:38 EST 44 lbs down, 11 to go After a hiatus that lasted longer than intended, I'm ready to get back on track and LOSE the last 11 lbs to get me to 160. I don't know if I'll ultimately aim for a weight that's lower than that, but it would be such a huge mental boost to get to 160 since that's been my goal for years and years. <BR> <BR> I have had great success with BLC23 and BLC24 here on SparkPeople and I loved it. However, I've been feeling overwhelmed lately with working full time and having 2 toddlers, so I decid... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 13:14:52 EST Updated Goals for 2014 I had posted a blog in January setting out my goals for 2014 ( <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597074 </link> ). <BR> <BR> I have been slipping lately, and have gained back about 6 lbs. It's time to re-evaluate my goals and get the scale moving in the right direction!! <BR> <BR> Updated goals: <BR> <BR> 1. Reach weight of 160 lbs by July 5, 2014. (I may re-evaluate whether this will be my ultimate goal weight or if I might try for lower. But f... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 09:35:08 EST Before and After Last year, I wrote a blog about how I wanted to get to my goal weight by my son's first birthday: <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388095 </link> <BR> <BR> I wanted to go from 214 lbs to 160 lbs. Well, his birthday was last week. I didn't quite make it to my goal, but I made it to 170!! So, I still have 10 lbs to go, but I'm THRILLED that I managed to lose that much. <BR> <BR> Here is a pic of me and Marcus in June 2013: <img src="http://ph... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 19:07:45 EST I'm worried I'm getting too comfortable... I am now down 44 lbs!! <em>244</em> I go back to work on Monday after being on maternity leave for a year. I decided to go on a bit of a shopping spree and get a whole new wardrobe for work. I had SO MUCH FUN shopping!! I haven't had fun shopping for clothes in more than a decade. I got so used to hating every part of the experience that I forgot it can actually be fun. <BR> <BR> My concern is that I've been letting myself off the hook a bit. I haven't been tracking my food, and ... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 21:01:21 EST Measurements - before and after When I joined the bootcamp I'm doing, they took all my measurements. I'm a little disappointed that I had already lost 17 lbs by then so I don't have my true "before" measurements. Oh well... At least I have a good idea of how far I've come. <BR> <BR> The first measurement is from August 17, 2013, and the second one is from today, February 23, 2014 (a little over 6 months). <BR> <BR> Shoulders 46" to 39.5" <BR> <BR> Bust 41" to 38" <BR> <BR> Ribs 38" to 34" <BR> <BR> Waist 43.5" to 39... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 09:01:32 EST Goals for 2014 Happy New Year!!! <em>411</em> I am excited to see what 2014 brings! <BR> <BR> I started running and logging my food on SparkPeople in June 2013. Since then, I have lost 39 lbs!! <BR> <BR> I am feeling SO great. I don't dread getting dressed in the mornings anymore. I plan on going on a bit of a shopping spree for some new clothes before I go back to work in March. <BR> <BR> I have been LOVING the BLC23 and now BLC24 challenges!! My teammates on the Sunset Stingrays are SOO e... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 13:51:28 EST 30 lbs GONE!! Today was a great weigh in day: I hit 30.0 lbs lost, and my BMI is under 30 which means I'm no longer obese!! <em>9</em> I believe the last time I was at this weight was 2007. <BR> <BR> This week, I went over my calorie range 5 days out of 7. I had my sister's birthday party and Thanksgiving dinner, which were both very challenging. I didn't go "all out", but I indulged enough that I didn't feel deprived or left out. I knew it had been a rough week, so yesterday I was determined t... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 09:10:36 EST I've hit a wall I just posted this in my BLC 23 chat room, and thought I may as well include it in my blog section. I always find it helpful to look through my old blogs to see where I had successes, failures, what worked, what didn't, etc. <BR> <BR> I've been feeling pretty "blah" about weight loss this week. I've been on track and losing for 4 straight months. And now my inner 3 year old is saying "I'm tired of this! I don't WANNA eat well and exercise anymore!" I'm doing my very best to ignore this voice... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 18:21:48 EST Exercise didn't help my stress... but it didn't hurt. I've had a very upsetting couple of days. It's a complicated story that I don't want to go into, but the short version is that we lost a lot of our digital photos off our computer, mostly of our kids. I've gone back and forth between being really angry and being really sad/depressed. I was really teary about it this morning. I know in the grand scheme of things, it's not that big of a deal. But I'm having a hard time with it. After moping around the house, I thought a walk might help cheer me... Fri, 4 Oct 2013 14:35:17 EST Ran my first virtual 5k!! A couple of months ago, I signed up for a SparkPeople virtual 5k run. Yesterday I ran it!! I didn't have to take any walking breaks, and had a time of 37:11. I had 7 days to finish the run, but I figured why not do it on day 1? I was worried something might come up to prevent me from doing it later in the week. I definitely pushed a little harder knowing my run was being timed, and I don't know if I would've gotten out if not for the virtual race commitment. I think I'll sign up for another ... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 07:19:28 EST Very happy with my weigh in! I got weighed today and saw that I lost 1.8 this week, which means I am now down 20.0 pounds since June 11 when I came back to SparkPeople. I am SO HAPPY! <BR> <BR> I read a secret of success on here that said to string together paper clips, one for every pound lost. The idea is to keep it somewhere you will see it, and it will serve as a reminder of how far you've come. I've been doing this all summer. It's great for me because I have a bad habit of focussing on how far I have left to go ... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 20:47:53 EST BLC23 - goals, measurements, and before pics I have signed up for a 12 week weight loss challenge here on Spark called BLC23. It hasn't started yet, but we've been asked to write down our goals for the challenge, take our current measurements and some pictures. So here goes!! <BR> <BR> My goals are: <BR> <BR> 1. Exercise at least 5 days per week for at least 20 minutes, including at least 1 run ( __/12) <BR> <BR> 2. Track my food at least 6 days per week (__/12) <BR> <BR> 3. Drink at least 8 glasses of water 7 days per week (_... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 18:57:59 EST I can't be trusted with 100 cal snacks Confession time. <BR> <BR> I knew my husband would be eating chips tonight, so I wanted to get a snack too. I chose Twistos (Asiago flavour). At only 100 cals per serving I thought it'd be a lot better than chips. But I assumed I could limit myself to one or maybe two servings. <BR> <BR> Before I knew it, the whole bag was gone. Turns out there were 7.5 servings in the bag. That means I ate 750 calories. Empty calories. *sigh* <BR> <BR> If any of you have the discipline to limit yourself... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 20:10:25 EST My scale and I disagree this week Today was my weigh in day. My <em>192</em> told me I had a bad week because I gained 0.2 lbs. It said that I didn't work hard enough and that I had somehow failed. I disagree. <BR> <BR> I had an AWESOME week! My calorie intake was great (almost always within range). I focused on trying to get the right balance of carbs, proteins, and fat. And, for the most part, I stayed away from empty calories. The only time I ate out was once at Subway, and I chose a healthy option instead of the col... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 07:27:00 EST First 2 Bootcamp classes Monday was my first day at Bootcamp. It was tough but I was surprised at how well I could keep up. I was really glad I had been exercising all summer. It would have been brutal to go from nothing to an intense workout like that. The part that gave me the most trouble was the burpees. The next day I wasn't really sore, and I'm thinking "this isn't so bad". <BR> <BR> Then came class #2 on Tuesday. <BR> <BR> Oh. My. Goodness. Probably the toughest 45 minutes I've ever gone through. This is j... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 07:44:29 EST Great app for iPod Touch / iPhone I track my weight in SparkPeople weekly. I don't know about you guys, but I've never loved the weight loss reports, graphs, stats, etc that you get on this site. <BR> <BR> I've discovered a free app called "Monitor Your Weight" and I LOVE it! Super easy to use, and it has great graphs and stats. Here is a screen shot that I found on Google: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My favourite thing is the progress bars where I see how far ... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 20:31:29 EST Thoughts about goals Last night I finished my second complete 5k jog. I still can't believe that this is something I can do. It's always something I've wanted to do, but I'll be honest it's something I never thought I WOULD do. <BR> <BR> I've always focussed on weight loss goals. And I've never ONCE reached an ultimate weight loss goal. When I was 150 lbs (as a teenager), I wanted to weigh 140. When I weighed 160, I wanted to be 145. And since I've been hovering around 200, I've wanted to weigh 160. To... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 08:15:57 EST Feeling good about things So last week I was feeling pretty down about my 3.6 lb weight gain. This week, I got back into my regular routine, and lost exactly 3.6 lbs!!! <em>244</em> I figure being at the same weight I was 2 weeks ago is pretty great, considering I ate whatever I wanted while my family was visiting. Plus, I'm back in ONEderland!! <BR> <BR> I hit a huge milestone this week... I jogged 5k without stopping!! That has been on my list of goals for as long as I can remember. It feels so good to actual... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 07:45:36 EST 15 steps forward, 4 steps back I knew it was going to be a bad week. I had lots of family visiting, lots of social functions, and LOTS of food. And no tracking. But I was still surprised to see a gain of 3.6 pounds this morning. <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> It's frustrating to know how much work it takes to lose 1 or 2 pounds, and how easy it is to gain. <BR> <BR> Half of my visiting family went home yesterday, and the other half leave this Friday. So, this week may still be difficult, but not nearly as intense. And... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 07:22:27 EST Doing great with exercise / doing crappy with food I'm definitely struggling this week. Not that this is an excuse, but all my sisters and their families are visiting from out of province and we've been having a lot of get-togethers with lots of food. It's unusual for me to have so many social functions going on. When I'm not eating at home and preparing my own meals and snacks, it's WAY to easy to just eat whatever is in sight and forget about tracking. I don't usually have desserts at home unless we're having company. For the past week... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 08:02:55 EST First run outside Today was my son's baptism. I planned on having a high calorie day because I knew there would be a ton of people and a ton of food. I had a healthy breakfast, a huge amount of food (including lots of unhealthy choices) in the afternoon, and I might just have a small healthy snack tonight. I wasn't feeling bad at all about my food choices because I had planned for them and had an AWESOME week leading up to it. I was feeling pretty sluggish after eating that much though. So after everyone left,... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 19:22:58 EST Just signed up for a virtual 5k!! I've never even heard of SparkPeople's virtual races until today. I love this idea! I signed up for a 5k running race at the end of September (8 weeks from now). After running the race you enter your time and get a trophy! If anyone else is interested, here is the link: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>race-home.asp </link> <BR> <BR> I'm in week 6 of the couch to 5k program, but wanted to give myself lots of time to prepare. I haven't done any running outside yet;... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 13:38:20 EST Every decision counts!! I know losing weight is a long-term thing. Instead of using the phrase "take it one day at a time", I'm starting to use the phrase "take it one decision at a time". Every day is filled with tons of decisions that can support healthy living. I wasn't feeling so great about my day because I'd eaten an English muffin, large tea biscuit, and 2 cookies all within a pretty short time period. My gut reaction is to say "I messed up today. I'll start again tomorrow." I'm so happy that's not what I did... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 18:11:26 EST My mission = push-ups from my toes I have always wanted to be able to do push-ups from my toes. Even one measly push-up. But I have never done it. I am tired of just wishing I could do it. I'm ready to do what it takes to MAKE IT HAPPEN! <BR> <BR> I found this article on how to go about training to do it: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>_articles.asp?id=1003&page=3 </link> <BR> <BR> I am going to start working on my wall push-ups and gradually work toward full push-ups from my toes. I'll be hones... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 12:19:08 EST Long way to go I've been on track for a little over a month now (counting calories, exercising regularly, drinking more water, etc). I'm down 11 pounds, and am really proud of myself. I'm starting to get a little more energy, and I'm finding it easier and easier to choose healthy foods over unhealthy ones. Unfortunately I still don't really see a difference in my appearance or in my clothes. Hopefully that will come soon. <BR> <BR> I'm still completely motivated, and am committed to keep at this. But... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 08:39:11 EST Gold star anyone?? I'm a sucker for all the rewards here on SP. I love getting SparkPoints, trophies, etc. I've discovered a new one: on the Start page there is a "SparkSummary Calendar" which gives you a snapshot of calories, points, weight, etc. Every day that you are within your target calorie range, it shows a gold star. It may be silly, but I find it motivating!! I'm trying to accumulate as many as I can. I just hit 7 days in a row! <em>224</em> Tue, 16 Jul 2013 20:44:27 EST I'm in Super Spark Mode! The last 4 weeks have been awesome for me! I've been taking advantage of as many things as I can from SparkPeople. I've been using the website religiously, I signed up for the free week of SparkCoach, I'm listening to SparkPeople radio, and I'm reading the book "The Spark". Yes, it may be a little overkill, but for now it's working for me! <BR> <BR> I'm not tracking my calories every day, but fairly frequently. I've committed to exercising at least every other day, but I often end up doi... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 08:48:03 EST Best SparkTeams, Challenges, etc??? I've been browsing different SparkTeams and Challenges because I'd like to participate in something and meet more people on this site. I just can't seem to find the right fit. There are SOO many to choose from. <BR> <BR> I love the idea of a Biggest Loser type challenge, but I don't want to do one where team members get eliminated. I did that before and got eliminated in Week 2. I found it really depressing. <BR> <BR> Basically, I want to develop a small circle of friends who check in... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 18:46:55 EST My only 2 rules I have been having such a great week. And I don't just mean that I've been eating well and exercising... I mean that I've been finding it EASY to eat well and exercise!!! It's SO much better than forcing yourself to do things you don't want to do. <BR> <BR> I'm guilty of always setting up rules for myself (don't eat after 8pm; no junk food, etc) and I inevitably end up breaking them. I go full steam ahead for a very short time and then I fall flat on my face. <BR> <BR> This time around... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 18:41:38 EST Boot Camp There is a local Boot Camp that everyone is talking about. I keep hearing all these amazing stories of how much weight and inches people are losing and how they love the instructors and classes. I'd love to join. They even have 8:30pm classes, so I could go when my kids are in bed. The only downside is the price. It's very expensive. It's $250 plus tax for only 8 weeks. Am I crazy??? <BR> <BR> I've paid a lot of money for different things in the past (Weight Watchers, a personal nutri... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 18:28:28 EST I need to shed the baby weight Here I am again. My daughter (Maria) is now 19 months old, and my son (Marcus) is 3 months old. Things are definitely busy around here! <BR> <BR> I'm sad to say that I'm up to my heaviest weight again. Grrr. I suppose having 2 babies in less than 2 years is a bit of an excuse to have some extra pounds on, but I'm ready to get rid of them. I currently weigh 214, and am setting a goal to be at 160 by Marcus' first birthday which is exactly 9 months from now. <BR> <BR> His birthday i... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 14:02:15 EST 3 things I'm proud of today I'm starting to take small steps toward my goals. Today, I am proud of these 3 things: <BR> <BR> 1. I was going out and my hubby asked me to pick up treats. It would've been so easy to do. I love treats! And I was going to be right next to a convenience store. But I asked him, "We don't really need treats tonight do we?" And he (begrudgingly?) said no. So we are going treat-free tonight. <BR> <BR> 2. I made us a healthy salad with chicken for supper. Although it's not something I would ev... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 19:50:51 EST Starting to Make a Plan I've been away from SparkPeople for a long time. I'm just starting to come back, slowly. I've been reading a few articles here and there, and thinking about what I want to accomplish this year. <BR> <BR> Right now, I am 34 weeks pregnant. So obviously weight loss isn't my goal right now. And after I have my c-section, I will need some time to recover. But, I figure I can start working on eating healthier and making a plan for how I'm going to get the weight off after the baby is born. ... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 14:12:08 EST clean environment saved me Today was one of those days that I was VERY lucky there was no junk food in the house. I would definitely have binged on it this afternoon. I'm not sure why I felt so out of control. I almost broke down and baked something from scratch, but I didn't. If there had been something quick and easy available, it would have been bad. Very, very bad. <BR> <BR> Having self control and will power are great, and on most days they would be enough for me. But it's days like today that make me reali... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 18:18:23 EST 110 calorie cake - YUMMY! My sister told me about this... it's easy, delicious, and only 110 calories. It's called 3-2-1 cake. <BR> <BR> In a large ziplock bag, you mix equal parts of angel food cake mix and whatever other kind of cake mix you like (I like the Duncan Heinz lemon cake). Shake well, and keep it in your pantry. <BR> <BR> Whenever you want a little treat, put 3 tablespoons of the mixture in a bowl, add 2 tablespoons of water, stir until mixed, and microwave for 1 minute. It's a small serving of ... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 12:32:13 EST Motivational Quote I found this quote the other day on SparkPeople: <BR> <BR> "There's a difference between interest and commitment. When you're interested in doing something, you do it only when it's convenient. When you're committed to something, you accept no excuses; only results." <BR> <BR> Honestly, it has stuck with me ever since I read it. Whenever I find myself making excuses and wanting to skip a workout, make a bad food choice, not track my calories, etc. I've been asking myself: am I interested ... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 08:05:43 EST 26 lbs down, and plenty of NSVs! I can't believe I've lost 26 pounds in 10 weeks!! I have had 2 or 3 occasions over the years where I've lost this much weight, but never this fast. I do have one big advantage this time around... I'm not working or in school right now. I'm home on maternity leave, which means I have time during the day to plan and prepare meals, exercise, go on SparkPeople, etc. I'm nervous about what will happen when I go back to work (mid-October). I'm really hoping I will be at my goal weight of 160 b... Fri, 9 Mar 2012 06:52:30 EST February Recap Well, February has had some ups and downs. The first half was awesome. I tracked every day, stayed within my calorie range, etc. The second half was horrible. I didn't track my food/calories, which led to me eating very poorly, including some binges. <BR> <BR> I'm down 6 lbs for the month, but at one point I was down 9 and then gained 3 back. Booo. I guess I should be happy about any loss for the month, but I know I could've done a lot better. <BR> <BR> One thing I'm REALLY proud of... Thu, 1 Mar 2012 07:46:05 EST