SUSAN-IS-WORTHY's SparkPeople Blog SUSAN-IS-WORTHY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Here I go again Hello Spark! <BR> I am writing this, somewhat depressed, frustrated at my self and my inability to stay on track. I feel like I am falling down a big black whole that I can't get out of. Even my sweat pants feel tight. Uugg. <BR> So, I am back again. No matter what, I will not give up on myself. Sun, 24 Nov 2013 21:03:27 EST Feeling better about my choices! Motivational Quote of the Day: "One mouthful at a time." This one came from me! <BR> <BR> I am happy to report that I am slowly but surely getting back on track. I have been first focusing my my food--taking advantage of the Farmer's Market, increasing my protein in my snacks by eating hard boiled eggs and a handful of nuts along with ordering from a great snack company called 'Nature's Box'. Find them on Facebook--the snacks are great and healthy too! <BR> Tonight, I connected with my si... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 20:58:37 EST Looking for a fresh bottle of inspiration and motivation. Does anyone have some? I don't know if it is good or bad to have been stuck this long, but still trying to come back for inspiration. I feel like I can stay in control of so many other aspects of my life except when it comes to food and exercise. My motivation seems to come in waves and I have been on the low side for a while now. My weight is staying relatively the same-only up by a few pounds, so it could be worse. <BR> <BR> As Barry Manilow says, 'I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again.' Wed, 3 Jul 2013 20:59:27 EST I am still here, sort of, in limbo I guess Motivational Quote of the Day: "Never ever, ever, ever, ever give up." I know someone already came up with the 'never give up' part, but I added the ever, ever, ever! <BR> <BR> That's about all I can say about that. My weight has stayed the same, which should be a good thing, but I am just trying to figure out how to come out of my little funk. My four year old is driving me crazy and we are going through a rough growing pain with her stating her mind, asserting her independence, etc, and wi... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 22:42:19 EST Feeling stuck Motivational Quote of the Day: "I love real food!" From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> Although the quote I chose today is really true, because I am really enjoying all the new fresh foods I continue to add to my daily intake, I'm frustrated at times that I am not yet seeing the continued results I want to see. I'm just feeling stuck. <BR> <BR> I know one huge contributing factor is the fact that my exercise routine has declined, due to my new job, child care issues with my husban... Wed, 8 May 2013 20:55:00 EST I forgot to eat my vegetables this weekend Motivational Quote of the Day: "I will not give up." This is from me, but I'm sure someone else said this somewhere else too! <BR> <BR> The past several days have been a bit of a blur. I had been back on track, but then we went out of town, and I am pretty sure I forgot to eat a single vegetable all weekend. How bad is that? Actually, I had horribly unhealthy all weekend and my body is paying the price today-a headache, tired, sluggish, etc. I was too tired to go grocery shopping tonigh... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 20:53:32 EST Bordeom, old habits and true hunger Motivational Quote of the Day: "Dear Stomach: You're bored, not hungry, so shut up." I actually got this one from Pinterest! <BR> <BR> Old habits can be really hard to break. The one I am working on at the moment is trying to tell myself that it is not an automatic "requirement" that I have to have something sweet after each meal. This is a tough one for me. It seems like it is etched in stone in my brain that I need to have dessert or something sweet after lunch and dinner. I'm trying... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 21:03:41 EST Eating out too much at restaurants Motivational Quote of the Day: "Our eyes are placed in front because it is more important to look ahead than to look back." From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> I needed to hear this today! Although I do feel I am really getting back on track with making the best choices possible, my weekends are not easy. Mainly because my husband travels for work and when he gets home on the weekend, he wants to spend time going out and about town to do things together as a family, and that incl... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 21:27:00 EST I am not giving up-I just need a tune up! Motivational Quote of the Day: "I am not abandoning my initial plan for health and wellness-I am revising it to make it even better!" This is actually a quote from me <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Each day this week I have made just a little more progress than the day before. Last night was really difficult--I just could not stop snacking!!! However, I realized I got pretty busy during the day and as I tracked my food I realized I had not eaten very much at all, so I was too hungry and grazin... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 19:36:56 EST I want so badly to succeed, but........ Motivational Quote of the Day: <BR> "Your soul is rooting for you ." <BR> <BR> From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> I am nearly in tears tonight. So disgusted and frustrated with myself for a binge filled weekend. Why couldn't I say no to the food? I knew exactly what I was eating and I ate it anyway. Angry with myself, as usual. What a broken record. This wasn't just a little binge either--I swear I ate enough for three... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 23:09:49 EST Help! Looking for dinner ideas for me and my 4 year old... Motivational Quote of the Day: "Wake up with determination. Go to bed with satisfaction." From the Motivational Spark pages. <BR> <BR> Today was so hard!!! I started off well at breakfast, did fair for lunch and then felt lost at dinner time. It is so hard to get motivated to take the time to plan and prepare meals when it is just myself and my four year old daughter at home when my husband is traveling. I have just got to find a way to get a handle on this because I want to continue bui... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 21:53:12 EST Must walk away from the Cadbury eggs....... Motivational Quote of the Day: "Eat better to feel better." From the Motivational Spark pages. <BR> <BR> The last few days have been spent with loving family and too many chocolate bunnies, along with my real challenge-cadbury eggs! <BR> <BR> And with that, I will forgive myself--I know that I enjoyed what I ate, however, I didn't feel that great afterwards and I will move forward with each new mouthful. <BR> <BR> I will renew my committment to myself by putting myself first in health an... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 21:29:58 EST Note to self Motivational Quote of the Day: "I must remember to put myself first" This is just a personal quote from me:) <BR> <BR> This means planning my meals ahead of time so I'm not eating the vending machines (almost literally!) at work , saying 'no' when I need to, because I am not Superwoman, and making sure I give my body the rest it needs to recharge for the next busy day. <BR> <BR> Although I am still doing ok, the past several days have been unfocused at times for my eating and newly revised... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 22:42:29 EST Going to bed early so I am not tempted to eat late Motivational Quote of the Day: "Set goals. Reach goals. Make new goals. Repeat." From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> So glad to see the results on the scale this morning that I am getting further away from that 200 pound mark. My total loss since October is 25 pounds! <BR> <BR> It felt like it took me forever to reach that first goal of getting below 200 pounds, and I reached it almost 6 weeks after I had originally targeted myself to lose it by. I am trying to make my new go... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 21:22:55 EST Setbacks versus Failures Motivational Quote of the Day: "A setback is when you slip up, get busy, or become distracted from your goals. A failure is when you decide your health isn't worth the effort." From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> This week is definitely going to be a challenge. My husband is out of town for two weeks, I work every day along with going to a conference at the end of the week, and along with that, my daughter has been sick all weekend-yikes! <BR> <BR> I have been striving to make i... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 20:52:55 EST Slow, steady and consistently, despite the bumps in the road Motivational Quote of the Day: "I'm not losing weight. I AM GETTING RID OF IT! I have no intention of finding it again!" From the Motivational Spark pages. <BR> <BR> I still can't believe I am finally out of the 200s. I definitely have a long way to go, but I am going to do my best to focus on how far I have come over the past 6 months--not just in getting rid of this weight, but my overall health. I was pretty debilitated last summer before my back surgery, so it feels good to be in co... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 09:01:15 EST Finally-I am under 200lbs! Motivational Quote of the Day: "It doesn't get easier--You just get better." From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> I am so, so excited and happy to report that I have met my first real goal--I am finally under 200 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<BR>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<BR>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> I got on the scale this morning and it read 198.6. Finally, I am over that hump and on my way to the next level! My ultimate goal at the momen... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 20:06:31 EST "Just keep going" Motivational Quote of the Day: "Just keep going." from the Motivational Spark pages. <BR> <BR> I am happy to report that today was a good day! I ate pretty well and I made it to the gym for a great work out. I am doing my best to continue to put one foot in front of the other and to keep moving forward. I cannot change the past, although I do need to remember just how far I have come in the last 6 months. <BR> <BR> And so today is another day. I am also dong pretty well with my streak ... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 22:05:10 EST I am scared of falling and not being able to get back up again.... Motivational Quote of the day: Stop focusing on being skinny. Start focusing on being healthy. From the Motivational Spark pages. <BR> <BR> Well, I definitely appreciated all of the comments and support on my last blog. I really needed it! I ended up compromising with myself and did an easy walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes. This is a much slower pace than I have been used to lately. I can honestly say it felt good to move, even if only a little. I had a rotten cold last week, so ... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 21:26:36 EST Help! I need a little motivation.... Motivational Quote of the Day: I actually need some motivation tonight-help please! <BR> <BR> Ok, my Spark friends-I have to admit it--I need help! <BR> I haven't been to the gym in a week due to illness. <BR> My husband will be home in about 45 minutes-I know I need to go to the gym, but all I want to do is go to bed. <BR> Help! I need to remind myself why this is so important. I can do this, right? Gosh I hope so! Tue, 5 Mar 2013 20:50:05 EST Grocery stores and the battle of the bulge Motivational Quote of the Day: "Even if it's low calorie, low fat, high fiber, high protein and low carb--if it is processed and full of chemical substitutes, it's just not worth it." Susan Browning--that's me! My own personal quote;) <BR> <BR> I just watched Dr. Oz today--he usually gets on my nerves, but he does have some good topics for shows. So today's episode really made me tune in. I have to check out his website to get the specifics, but in a nutshell there was a guest on the sho... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 21:44:50 EST Taking things moment to moment and baking substitutions? Motivational Quote of the Day: "At any given moment, you have the power to say, 'This is not how the story is going to end'." From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> I just found this quote and I love it!!! If I am unhappy with a choice I have made, I know I have the power to change things for the better with my next choice. This may be at the next bite of food, or the next meal or my next move at the gym. I like to take things moment to moment, not necessarily day to day. Hey, on... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 15:23:13 EST Stayed the same Well, I stayed the same. ! <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I'm trying not to let it get me down, but it is a bit of a let down considering I have really been working it at the gym. My eating has not been perfect, but it really never is. I know it should only be about a pound or two loss per week, but I really want to get under 200 so badly that I can almost taste it!!!! Trying not to let it get me down--I will get there, and when I do, it will feel amazing! <BR> <BR> I know for sure that if i... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 23:00:27 EST Increasing my protein on the go? Motivational Quote of the Day: "I love real food." From the motivational Spark pages. <BR> <BR> This blog is actually more a question for my fellow sparkers out there--how can I get more protein on the go? I am back to work now, so I am trying to plan and pack my lunch as much as possible so I am not raiding the vending machine. As I enter my food into the tracker, I find I am fine with carbs and in the range for fat intake, but way below what I should be taking in for protein. <BR> Al... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 20:37:51 EST Giving myself the gift of health and strength Motivational Quote of the Day: "Yesterday, you said tomorrow." From the Motivational Spark pages. <BR> <BR> I've been telling myself this for the last couple of days. I have made it to the gym two days so far this week, but I am really aiming for at least 4 days a week. This is my 'Lenten promise' to myself to keep me going when it gets tough during this long stretch of winter. Instead of giving something up for Lent, I want to gain something for Lent--my health and strength! <BR> <BR>... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 21:13:56 EST "Stop saying 'I wish'. Start saying, 'I will." Motivational Quote of the Day: "Stop saying 'I wish'. Start saying, 'I will." From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> I will admit I really did have to drag my butt to the gym tonight, but I did make it! Happy to report I did a total of 50 minutes. <BR> <BR> I try to remember that just like I take a shower every day to clean myself on the outside, I have to go to the gym nearly every day to clean myself on the inside too! <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is having a great start to the week!... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 21:19:31 EST Keeping myself honest Good morning, my Spark friends! <BR> <BR> I only have a quick moment, but I wanted to post my next 30 day progress picture. <BR> <BR> I only lost 4 pounds in the last month, but I still felt I should take the picture so I could keep myself on track. <BR> <BR> Hopefully next month I will see more progress. There really wasn't much change this time, however, I do think I see a slight improvement in seeing my colar bones. I wish it was in my hips though! Oh well, I won't give up! <BR> <BR... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 09:22:38 EST Letting down my fellow Sparkers:( Motivational Quote of the Day: "I am stronger than food." I just made that one up, it sounds silly, but I needed to say it. <BR> <BR> Today was a rough day and I'm trying to pinpoint where my binge came from today. Boredom? Stress? I did start a new job this week, but things seem to be going fine so far. Trying to figure out why I just couldn't seem to get myself out of the pantry today--too many carbs and I stopped at the store for candy and ate it---grrr. <BR> <BR> At least I did ... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 22:38:48 EST "Do one thing today to make you feel proud of yourself." Motivational Quote of the Day: "Do one thing today to make you feel proud of yourself." From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> I am proud of myself today because I am not beating myself up for eating a few too many treats this weekend. I ate them, I enjoyed them, and now I am back to my healthy eating plan! <BR> <BR> I had a great time scrapbooking with friends over the weekend. I am glad to be home and back on my eating and exercise plan. I didn't eat as 'fresh' as I have been l... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 21:41:39 EST "The only disability in life is a bad attitude." Motivational Quote of the Day: "The only disability in life is a bad attitude." by Scott Hamilton <BR> <BR> I love this motivational quote! I belong to a gym called 'Planet Fitness' and I absolutely love it! It's not one of those ultra-competative gyms, where only the sexy people seem to go. People of all different ages and physical abilities are exercising together on the treadmills, bikes, elipticals, etc. I see many seniors there--some walking with canes, but my goodness they are mov... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 21:05:17 EST "Eating healthy makes me happy" That is my motivational quote of the day from the Spark pages: "Eating healthy makes me happy." <BR> <BR> I started my morning with some oatmeal and was sure to portion out all of my other foods using my food scale throughout the day. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I am looking forward to my new love, greek yogurt, with fruit. I am also heading out to Sam's club to stock up on apples, oranges, raspberries and a fresh veggie tray for easy snacks to grab and go. <BR> <BR> I am trying more and more to ... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 21:50:09 EST The cold will not keep me away from the gym This day has been a challenging one. My four year old daughter has a nasty cold, so I have decided to keep her home today from her swimming lesson and gymnastics class. The weather is less than 10 degrees outside, so we are stuck inside. <BR> <BR> So, what am I doing? I have worked on some much needed cleaning projects, but inbetween, I have been munching and crunching all day. This has got to stop!!! I wish I could say it was all on fruits and veggies, but sadly, it has been on too muc... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 16:30:15 EST Bring on the 'Mission Impossible' theme song! Motivational Quote of the Day: " Ask your doctor if getting off the couch is right for you." From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> Not much going on to start the week, but I will say that I did 60 minutes on the treadmill today with a slight incline! I've really been pleased with myself for making it to the gym at least 4 days a week lately. My goal is to keep it up and not let the weather, or boredome get the best of me! I'm not very comfortable branching out too much from the ... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 21:51:22 EST I will not let food be a source of stress Motivational Quote of the Day: "You can crumble, or you can conquer." From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> First of all, thank you guys so much for your support on my last blog! I really needed it more than you know. I will refer to it often, especially when I feel like throwing in the towel. It really helps to know we are not alone in this! <BR> <BR> I have great things planned this weekend--dinner with my parents tomorrow and my daughter's birthday party on Sunday. Food will... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 15:39:54 EST My husband is losing weight faster than me:( Motivational Quote of the Day: "Don't go looking for strength and willpower--create it!" From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> I am so frustrated! My husband is losing weight at nearly 3 times the rate I am and it is driving me crazy!! I have been working longer, and, I feel harder on losing weight and he has barely started and is having amazing success at an astounding rate compared to me. I know this is typical, but i still hate it. Darn that natural muscle tone! <BR> <BR> I ... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 14:33:13 EST Glad to be moving forward from my binge Thank you so much to all my fellow Sparkers for lending their support on my last blog!!!! I am pleased to say that I am making progress in getting passed last week's binge, instead of dwelling on it and continuing to binge. This weekend wasn't perfect, but progress was made and I am only moving forward! <BR> <BR> To get myself back on track, I follow 3 rules: Drink all my water, exercise at least 30 minutes, and do not eat after 8 pm. Even if I only follow these three rules on a particul... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 22:29:47 EST Getting over a binge I freely admit that I am a binge eater and have been dealing with food addiction for many years. Right when I think I have things under control, but ugly binge monster rears its ugly head and here I go again. <BR> <BR> The last two days have not been good. Granted, I did make it to the gym both days, which is definitely a good thing, but I have been logging my food and have gone way over my calorie range. I think the culprit that was making me feel more hungry to eat more was bread. I ha... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 20:48:02 EST Darn it, weight loss is painfully slow! Motivational Quote of the Day: "Good things come to those who work their butts off and never give up." From a post on Pinterest. <BR> <BR> We live in a world today with such instant gratification, but weight loss is just not one of the things we can get with the click of a button. <BR> <BR> I posted my progress pic and I am using it as my new profile picture too. Not much change--still in the same jeans. I was hoping to be down a size by now. Guess I must have really stretched them out... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 22:48:22 EST The road has been bumpy over the holidays, but..... Motivational Quote of the Day: "I love walking!" From the Motivational Spark pages. <BR> <BR> Needless to say, my exercise and eating habits have been a bit bumpy over the last few weeks, but luckily I am looking at the road ahead and things are starting to smooth out a little bit! <BR> <BR> I know I have Spark to thank for that! <BR> <BR> I will be posting a new progress pic by the end of the week, so we will see how my monthly progress has been going. No matter what, I will keep movin... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 22:24:29 EST Mirrors versus photographs Well, the Christmas photos are in--why is it that I look in the mirror and see myself in one way, then I see the photos, and I look like I gained 20 pounds overnight. <BR> It's like I am in denial or something about my true size/what I really look like. These mind games I seem to be playing with myself are constantly driving me crazy! I am really trying to focus more on pant size, etc, but it's just hard to get out of my head. <BR> <BR> Today has been a good day--actually, the last few day... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 21:46:31 EST Glad to be back!!! Missed you guys!!! I can't believe it has been nearly a week since I logged on--not good! I think I would have done better over the past seven days if I had logged on, even if only once a day. Time got away from me and it cost me. <BR> <BR> I had a 2.5 pound weight gain, but I will not let that discourage me on how far I have come! <BR> <BR> I will be able to get to the gym tomorrow--I was last on the treadmill on December 23. Hoping to work it out to go over the next two out of three days before the end o... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 23:45:50 EST Focusing on small spark streaks to help get me through.... Motivational Quote of the Day: "Even baby steps forward are better than large steps backward." I just made this up actually:) <BR> <BR> O.K.--let's be honest--this time of the year is certainly challenging, to say the least. So, to help myself still feel successful, even when I eat a few too many Christmas cookies, I am focusing on a few Spark streaks to at least try to maintain my weight, instead of gaining. Here they are: <BR> <BR> 1. Drink my water. <BR> 2. Stop my eating no later ... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 21:40:17 EST Today the cookies won the battle, but I WILL win the war!!!! Motivational Quote of the Day: "You are one workout away from a good mood." From the Motivational Spark pages. <BR> <BR> Today was another cookie baking day with my sister. I have resisted pretty well, or only in moderation at the last two baking sessions with friends. Today, the cookies took over. It usually helps when I make cookies I don't really like, but the ones today were my favorites. I tried to track everything I put into my mouth, but sadly, I lost track. <BR> <BR> With that... Thu, 13 Dec 2012 22:28:05 EST Posted a progress pic on my spark page Motivational Quote of the Day: "You don't have to go fast; you just have to go." From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> I have decided to take monthly photos of myself to help monitor my progress. I posted my first monthly progress pic on my spark page--it's not very dramatic, but I can see subtle changes, mostly in my face. This is the first time I have done this and I really think it will help keep me on track. <BR> <img src=" Tue, 11 Dec 2012 21:42:00 EST "You can crumble, or you can conquer." Motivational Quote of the Day: "You can crumble or you can conquer." from the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> I am determined not to let all these holiday cookie baking extravaganzas I seem to find myself involved in ruin all of the progress I have made thus far. I am going to continue to give more cookies away than I keep in my house! <BR> <BR> I went to the doctor today and I am officially down 12 pounds! Not bad, since I just started after Halloween. <BR> <BR> As I have mentio... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 22:06:03 EST Feeling stronger every day! Motivational Quote of the Day: "It doesn't get easier, you just get better." From the Motivational Spark pages. <BR> <BR> I realize it has been a few days since my last blog, so I just wanted to check in with my wonderful Spark friends! <BR> <BR> All is going pretty well--just taking it day by day, one meal/snack at a time. I have been making it to the gym at least 3 days a week pretty consistently and I can see and feel my endurance building on the treadmill. Soon I want to try the eli... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 21:14:48 EST Some Success!!! Motivational Quote of the Day: "Eat Better, Feel Better." From the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> This is my motto today and how true it is. I really feel like I am gaining more energy every day by eating as many natural foods as possible, and less food from a card board box. <BR> <BR> As a result, I am down 10 pounds!!!!! It is not showing quite yet, but I am starting to feel more energized, so this must mean it's working. <BR> <BR> I will continue this journey one bite at a time... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 16:46:23 EST Food is a challenge all year long--not just during the holidays Inspirational Quote of the Day: "If you wait for the perfect conditions, you'll never get anything done." From the Motivational Spark pages. <BR> <BR> My Thanksgiving weekend was a good one. Even though I ate more than usual, I still was able to drink my water and I didn't eat late at night--I consider that a success for me. <BR> <BR> If it's not Thanksgiving, it's something else--a birthday party, a celebration of good things happening, dinner with friends just because it's Tuesday, bor... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 22:19:18 EST Keep moving over Thanksgiving Motivational Quote of the Day: "There is no elevator to success. You have to take the stairs." Author Unknown from the Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> This is going to be my motto this weekend--meaning, I am going to keep myself moving as much as possible this weekend, especially since I know my eating will be less than perfect. <BR> <BR> I am working on Thanksgiving Day and the day after, but I am actually looking forward to it. Keeping busy will keep me focused. I work in a rehab ... Wed, 21 Nov 2012 21:19:40 EST Nothing is ever that easy Motivational Quote of the Day: <BR> <BR> Losing weight is hard. <BR> <BR> Maintaining weight is hard. <BR> <BR> Staying overweight is hard. <BR> <BR> Choose your hard. <BR> <BR> From Motivational Spark Pages. <BR> <BR> I needed to hear this today. <BR> And so it goes--moving forward only and not looking back! <BR> <BR> Spark on, my friends! Mon, 19 Nov 2012 14:03:57 EST