SUPER_ACE115's SparkPeople Blog SUPER_ACE115's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Starting Over I'm ashamed to admit that I broke my fast. I won't make excuses....I gave into the temptation. Well, I'm picking myself back up and starting over. I'm asking that you all keep me in your prayers as I begin day 1 of my fast again. <em>249</em> Mon, 13 Jan 2014 04:56:31 EST Trusting God and Kicking the Devil's A$$ Every year I do a 40-day fast. I usually do it in the middle of the year, but decided to start 2014 with the fast. Well the last few days have been a little rough. I've been good about keeping temptations out of the house, but I can't prevent all the junk at work. Luckily I haven't eaten anything. Now to make things even harder...finances are horrible. My paycheck was about half what I'm used to. I normally work overtime and there isn't any overtime at work. I'm a single mom and I rel... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 00:22:07 EST Staying strong I know it's only 10 days into the new year, but so far so good! <em>244</em> I must admit tonight has been rather difficult. There is a big box of croissants here at work. I LOVE croissants. Luckily I haven't given in. I've been praying and sparking instead. <em>334</em> Fri, 10 Jan 2014 06:05:45 EST Kyle and his family went to my church <link> </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> Mon, 6 Jan 2014 03:19:12 EST Smoke-free and a few other things.... I know the new year has just started, but I'm am doing great! I haven't had any cigarettes and I'm meeting all my goals. <em>244</em> The great thing is I have no desire to smoke. I thought for sure I'd have some serious cravings. <em>270</em> I hope the rest of the year goes this great! <em>521</em> Fri, 3 Jan 2014 00:54:31 EST Starting 2014 right Every year (usually in the middle of the year) I do a 40-day fast. I've been doing it since 2011. This is my fourth year doing it. I do it for the sole purpose of growing in my walk with God. This year I have decided to start 2014 with my annual fast. Please keep me in your prayers and I start 2014. You are all in my prayers and I pray that God will pour His love and blessings upon all of you. <em>247</em> Wed, 1 Jan 2014 00:52:41 EST Single Again It's a blessing and I am trusting that God has a plan for my life. I'm trying not to use this as an excuse to overeat. I have been 'off track' for a few days but I am getting back on track. Keep me in your prayers as I continue on my path to a being a better person. Sat, 21 Dec 2013 01:24:57 EST Family Dinner Today we are celebrating Christmas early with my ex in-laws. My ex brother-in-law and his family are in town. I'm planning on sticking to eating mostly raw for the day. Luckily, there will be some raw choices ~~ namely a salad. I really have no desire to eat the ham and potatoes that will be served. I just hope I will be able to stay away from those foods. Keep me in your prayers, PLEASE!!! Sat, 14 Dec 2013 01:07:23 EST Christmas Plans In order to stay on track I have decided to make one simple change this year. Instead of celebrating Christmas over the course of a few days, I'll be celebrating for one day. How often do we eat all those treats over the course of a few day? How often do we end up have Christmas dinner 3 or 4 nights in a row with all the leftover we have? I won't be doing that. I will allow myself to have "free time" between Christmas Eve and Christmas Day ~ either picking one full day or dinner on Chris... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 05:35:31 EST Feeling Great I need to hold on to this feeling. I find that when I eat mostly raw (the only exceptions are the coffee I drink and a few foods that I'm not absolutely positive are raw) I fee so good. When I combine eating raw and exercising...... <em>345</em> ! It's only been a few days but I am feeling great. I don't feel deprived or hungry at all. I'm eating when I want and what I want (as long as it's raw). My only problem is I can't keep produce in my house. I keep eating it all. And my syst... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 06:40:33 EST Pizza eating and ornament tossing The tradition started when I was a kid and I've carried it over to my family. When we decorate the Christmas tree, the first ornaments of tossed on to the tree. Each person grabs an ornament and tosses it onto the tree ~~ starting with the oldest person and ending with the youngest. It is so much fun, especially when someone has to toss their ornament 5 or 6 times because it doesn't land on the tree and falls off. <BR> The year my ex-husband left I decided to start a new tradition. That... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 07:54:29 EST The Sweet Stench Of Fast Food My son works at a fast food restaurant and is allowed to bring home food. I have told him he can bring something home ONCE a week. Well, tonight was the night. As we were driving home I noticed the stench of the food and for the first time in ages I didn't like it. It smelled of greasy salt and nothing else. It was a great (mental) victory for me. Needless to say, when we got home I was not tempted to eat any of the food. Fri, 6 Dec 2013 04:42:38 EST The Raw Life I know that I do and feel better when I eat mostly raw foods. So, I have decided to go back to eating mostly raw (90% or higher). I know this is the best thing for me. Plus, I love creating new dishes. I make things like raw corn chips, raw cake pops, raw taco salad. They are all so yummy and I know exactly what is in them. And even when I buy raw foods, like cookies, I can pronounce every ingredient in the food and there is usually less than 10 ingredients. This is a big difference fr... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 03:44:29 EST Black Friday I do not shop on Black Friday. To any of you that are....good luck! <em>334</em> Fri, 29 Nov 2013 03:16:24 EST Happy Thanksgiving <em>429</em> Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. It is one of the very few holidays that isn't about gift giving. It's about being grateful for what you have, not what you get. Today I am grateful for so many things. Here are just a few things: <BR> * Jesus Christ <em>458</em> <BR> * my wonderful family. I have the best kids ever! <BR> * my fiancé. He loves me unconditionally. <BR> * my church family <BR> * all the love and support here <em>252</em> <BR> * my health <BR> * my jo... Thu, 28 Nov 2013 05:12:01 EST First Thanksgiving This is the first time in years that I'm not cooking Thanksgiving dinner. The kids and I are going to my fiance's family's for dinner. I'm very excited! Wed, 27 Nov 2013 02:03:51 EST Yesterday.... Yesterday was an okay day. I ended up eating a chicken sandwhich from Burger King. <em>24</em> And I ate when I wasn't hungry. On the plus side the rest of my eating was semi-healthy. I also did work out. I did 30 minutes of walking/jogging and 20 minutes of yoga. So all in all it was a decent day. Tue, 26 Nov 2013 06:36:40 EST Goals for the week (11/24-11/30) I keep reading that writing down my goals is a good thing. I do write them down and now I'm going to make them public. So here they are: <BR> <BR> * Spark ~ 5 days this week <BR> * Do my online Bible study ~ 7 days this week <BR> * Do yoga and visualize ~ 5 days this week <BR> * Pray for help with weight loss ~ 7 days this week <BR> * Run/Walk ~ 5 days this week <BR> * Tone ~ 4 days this week <BR> * Keep an exercise journal ~ 7 days this week <BR> * Blog/Journal ~ 6 days this week <BR> * D... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 02:50:50 EST It's an endless roller coaster ride..... One day I'm right on track with my eating and exercising and the next I'm not. <em>46</em> I haven't been working out like I should be. I know I need to do it ~~ I have no excuse for not doing it. I just need to get off my butt and get moving! Sat, 16 Nov 2013 07:52:15 EST Baby, I'm back! For the last 3 days I've been doing <em>250</em> I've been eating all raw (except my coffee) and I've been exercising every morning. I work overnights and for the last 3 mornings I've been working out as soon as I get home. <em>244</em> I'm headed in the right direction and I'm so excited!!! <em>334</em> I know if I just <em>386</em> I will reach my goal weight. <em>521</em> Wed, 6 Nov 2013 22:41:24 EST Worth a thousand word They say a picture is worth a thousand words. In my case, I'm hoping it'll give me a thousand reasons to lose the weight. Ok. Maybe NOT a thousand, but enough reasons to keep me going. I have decided to create a personal file on my computer (if I get gutsy enough I'll even share it on here). I will be taking my picture every Sunday morning, saving it to my file along with the current weight. I'm hoping this will be another tool in my "toolbox" to help me stay on track. Sun, 3 Nov 2013 06:45:01 EST Great Bible Study I'm in the middle of doing this <em>345</em> on-line Bible study on weight loss. Check it out! <BR> <BR><BR>e-weight-loss-scriptures Tue, 29 Oct 2013 09:29:18 EST The Yummy Smell This morning before church I made a big batch of chili and put it in the slow-cooker. My house smelled so yummy when I walked in the door. <em>4</em> I enjoyed a bowl with some cornbread and I didn't overeat. I had one bowl and stopped. I must confess....I can't wait to get home to have another bowl. Mon, 28 Oct 2013 01:30:06 EST Thanks, Ed! My co-worker just asked me if I've lost weight! Talk about a nice ego-boost. <em>9</em> And the other day I had someone else say to me "still slimming down, I see." It is so nice when other's take notice. Fri, 25 Oct 2013 01:56:00 EST The New START Page I finally checked out the new "Start" page and I do like it. I had fun creating my new goal board ~~ uploading pictures of wedding dresses was fun. <em>336</em> Tue, 22 Oct 2013 06:51:00 EST Positive Self-Talk I will not give up! I will reach my goals! I am strong and can do this! I am a runner! I am a healthy eater! I will fit into the wedding dress I picked out! I will not stop! I am better than junk food! <em>521</em> I will <em>386</em> <em>521</em> I will <em>386</em> <em>521</em> I will <em>386</em> <em>521</em> I will <em>386</em> <em>521</em> I will <em>386</em> <em>521</em> I will <em>386</em> <em>521</em> I will <em>386</em> ... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 06:52:16 EST HELP!!! I don't know what's wrong with me, but I just can't seem to stop eating. It wouldn't be so bad, but...I'm eating crap. <em>15</em> I know what to do. I know this is an emotional thing, but I can't seem to figure it out. Life is going good. I'm blessed beyond what I deserve. I I trying to sabotage myself? Why? Anyone ever have this problem. Any insight would be great. Mon, 14 Oct 2013 05:26:20 EST Wild Rice Salad I threw this simple salad together before work. I didn't have any lettuce, so I ate it without, but you can always throw this one some mixed greens. You simply mix everything together and enjoy! <BR> <BR> Raw wild rice (soak in water for 2-3 days, changing the water every 8-12 hours) <BR> Chopped raw mushroom <BR> Chopped olives <BR> Chopped rosemary <BR> Raw Basil cheese (see below) <BR> <BR> <BR> To make the basil cheese place raw walnuts (or almonds) in your food processor and enough ... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 02:13:36 EST Apples & Cashew Butter...YUM The other day I made some homemade raw chocolate cashew butter. I've been eating it with apples and it tastes soooo good! The super simple recipe is below. <BR> <BR> <BR> 1-2 cups raw cashews <BR> 2-3 tbs. raw cacoa powder <BR> 1-2 tbs. raw agave nectar <BR> <BR> * Process cashews in food processor for 20-30 minutes, stopping to scrap bowl as needed. The cashews will eventually become "butter-like" about about 30 minutes. <BR> * Add cacoa powder and agave nectar. Mix everything togethe... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 05:55:45 EST Make progress! Yesterday was an <em>345</em> day. I did great with my eating. I even made some new raw dishes that I can't wait to try. <em>4</em> I also started my C25K training. The plan is suppose to be 20 minutes, but I did 30 minutes. <em>364</em> Today is the start of a new day and I can't wait to make today another great day! <em>104</em> Fri, 4 Oct 2013 06:47:36 EST October Goals for Me My biggest goal for this month is to simply get back on track and do what I was doing before. I was making serious progress and I need to get back to where I was. Below are my goals for the next 31 days. I need all your support!!! <BR> <BR> * Focus on my walk with God (this is broken down into several goals for me) <BR> * Spark daily <BR> * Exercise daily <BR> * Work on the "Couch to 5k" plan daily <BR> * Drink more water <BR> * Eat 90% raw foods <BR> * Do yoga daily <BR> <BR> I know I... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 10:34:55 EST Sparkler of the Week I'm so honored to named the "Sparkler of the Week." <em>8</em> So many of you wrote on my wall and it's so sweet. Thanks so much. I will try to get to everyone for a personal <em>304</em> but until I do, please know that I appreciate all of your support and all the nice comments on my page. Mon, 30 Sep 2013 23:28:02 EST I've missed you! Awhile ago my computer crashed and I'm just getting back online. I haven't been ignoring any of you. Fri, 13 Sep 2013 02:33:55 EST God is good! Do I really need to add to that? I'm truly amazed how God is just blessing me and my family. The other day we received a $100 gift card for Wal-Mart from our family's "secret angel" for school supplies. For the past week or so, I've been praying for financial blessings and this is how God answered my prayers. <em>334</em> Tue, 20 Aug 2013 00:30:32 EST Today is a good day! I've been doing great with meeting my goals. Praise God! I find that when I seek God everything falls into place. Like Matthew 6:33 tell us.....Seek FIRST His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Thu, 15 Aug 2013 00:32:29 EST God answers prayers This has NOTHING to do with weight loss, but I have to brag. I've hit a bit of a financial snafu. I've been praying about this for about a week or so. Well, God has answered my prayers. <em>458</em> Greg (my fiance) received a bonus from work and has offered to help me out. A co-worker is taking me grocery shopping after work in the morning. This co-worker is on a very tight budget, but received some money (another story for another day). Last but not least, I was able to postpone ... Sat, 10 Aug 2013 00:28:49 EST "All or Nothing" isn't working for me I've been that type of person. If I made one mistake with my eating, I'd then give myself permission to eat horrible the rest of the day. I'm sure a lot of us are like that. We often think "I messed up. I'll just start over tomorrow." Well, I came up with a new system and it seems to be working. I "rate" myself on each goal ~~ on a scale of one to ten. At the end of the day I average out my day and see how I'm doing. This also helps if I did 'bad' in one area but 'good' in another. My... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 01:51:24 EST Greg's birthday dinner Today wasn’t as good as I had hoped. I did well with my eating until the birthday dinner. I even made myself a nice salad and planned to stay on track, but didn’t. &#61516; I ended up eating way too much junk food ~~ Italian sausage, chips, cake, ice-cream. I’m still praying and seeking God. I know God will help me to improve. My spirit is being very stubborn. I keep praying that God will break the “stubborn” in me, so that I can be the person He wants me to be. I was reading in Isa... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 00:34:34 EST Remember when... I remember when I was on the right track with my eating and exercising. I remember how wonderful I felt. I remember when my pants actually fit me. I am going to focus on that and continue to get back on track with things. I need all your prayers! Fri, 26 Jul 2013 15:12:03 EST Starting Over ~~ need some serious help! For longer than I care to admit, I've been on this downward spiral ~~ overeating, eating the wrong things, not exercising. It's been a hot mess. I've gain over 20 pounds! <em>15</em> I need a fresh start with everything. I'll be resetting my goals, groups, and everything else. I'm not going to focus on all the wrong I've been doing. Instead I need to focus on getting back on the right track. I need everyone's help, support and prayers. I could also use one or two accountability p... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 00:36:13 EST New Resolutions My birthday is on Tuesday (Happy birthday to me! <em>107</em> ). I have decided to something a little different this year. I have decided to write some "Life Improvement" resolutions. I have 5 of them. And with each one I have written some "steps" to help me reach those goals. Here are my 5 'life improvement' resolutions: <BR> <BR> 1) I will improve my walk with God (I always have this goal at the top of my list) <BR> 2) I will improve my physical health and appearance. <BR> 3) I wi... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 06:26:10 EST Broken Scale My scale hasn't been working for the past few weeks. <em>193</em> I have decided not to fix it or replace it. I will be basing my progress on how I feel and how my clothes are fitting, instead of a number on the scale. Sun, 19 May 2013 00:41:54 EST Getting to know me...all about me. :) I stole this off someone else's blog ~~ thought it was cute. <BR> <BR> Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. (Try to) use one word answers, get an easy three SparkPoints, and help your SparkFriends get to know you. <BR> <BR> So here goes: <BR> <BR> Where is my cell phone? <BR> Don't own one <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> Waiting for the ring. <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> Curly <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> In heaven <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> Narcissistic <BR> ... Thu, 16 May 2013 01:10:13 EST Happy Mother's Day! To all the moms out there ~ I hope you have a wonderful day! <em>125</em> <em>146</em> <em>87</em> <em>214</em> <em>184</em> <em>126</em> <em>375</em> Sat, 11 May 2013 23:56:41 EST I fell off the wagon and got ran over! The past few weeks have been HORRIBLE! I've been eating like crap, not exercising, not drinking's been a real mess. It occurred to me last night that I have slipped back into the same habits I had when I was married to my ex. I'm not going to beat myself up over this. I'm not going to feel guilty for my 'relapse.' What I am going to do is PRAY like crazy. I'm also going to focus on great I feel when I do eat right and exercise. I have decided to avoid the scale for awhile. ... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 00:25:25 EST Prayers Needed... This has NOTHING to do with weight loss, but I have learned I can post just about anything here. My ex husband has moved out of the state and I have no contact information on him. Please pray that he will start paying child support soon. Thanks!!! Mon, 25 Mar 2013 01:41:37 EST Hello, my name is.... I've come to the definite conclusion that I am a food addict. I've come to the conclusion that there are just some foods I will NEVER be able to eat again. I realized this last night when I ordered pizza and promised myself that I would only have one slice. I ended up eating 4 slices, 2 bread sticks and half an order of dessert sticks. <em>15</em> <em>46</em> <em>24</em> If yesterday had been a bad day or if something had gone wrong or if I was upset....or something....then it ... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 06:49:05 EST Confessions from a backslider These past few days have been HORRIBLE!!! <em>46</em> I've been dealing my ex leaving PA and going back to Kansas ~~ third time in 3 years. I'm having to help my kids get through this and dealing with just life in general. Well, I fell off the raw foods wagon and fell HARD. I've been eating all sorts of crap the past 4 or 5 days ~~ fast food, processed foods, meat. I've been eating all the foods that I used to eat....the foods that I have worked so hard to give up. And now I realiz... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 10:11:49 EST I almost ate the pizza! Today (or I guess I should say 'yesterday') was a day to remember. My ex husband and his crew (girlfriend, her 4 kids, and their 1 kid) have been living in PA for about a year. Well, they left today to go back to Kansas. I got the call this morning and they left around 5pm. They did come see the kids and my ex told the kids. It went better than I thought. But I'm still what he's doing to the kids. For dinner tonight, I ordered a pizza for the kids. I was too tired to cook.... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 06:21:03 EST Shame on me! My goal was to blog everyday and I haven't been doing that. Don't worry, I'm "grounding" myself for not blogging on a daily basis. <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> I'm still doing great with raw eating and I'm still loving it. My problem now is smells. The other night I got into work and someone had ordered pizza and the smell of the pizza was NASTY! Normally, I like the smell of pizza, but not this time. And I'm finding when I cook for the kids the smell can sometimes bother me. <BR> <BR>... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 00:29:22 EST