SUPERDUPERKERRY's SparkPeople Blog SUPERDUPERKERRY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Ahh, yes. I remember now one of the reasons I stopped coming here. aorithawprngalf;kdjna;ofdjn;kjangfdal;k !!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> I just spent an hour writing a blog entry about what I've been doing since last using Spark People, all jazzed up about my positivity and my progress. Then I go to post it and it says "no html please!" AND DELETES THE WHOLE DARN THING!!!! (really, I want to swear right here, but the site won't let me. No adults here, I guess.) <BR> <BR> In a nutshell: <BR> <BR> Things sucked. I was exhausted. Found a new doc. She is amazi... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 23:51:25 EST Home Improvement: The most productive workout I haven't been on SparkPeople much lately because the processor fan on my computer bit the dust and in fixing it something else broke on it, so now we're waiting for parts to build a new computer for me! Woo hoo! Its been probably four years since I've upgraded so its time. Merry Early Christmas to me and thank goodness for credit cards. <BR> <BR> But, even if my computer was fine, I've just been so darn busy around the house I wouldn't have time to log on anyway! My daughter's 2nd birth... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 19:54:15 EST My All-Time Favorite Workout DVD I just got done with my 45 minute workout and I have about ten minutes to type this blog before I need to hop in the shower so I can get out and get my daughter off the bus in a half hour. I want to write it all down while I'm still psyched! <BR> <BR> So, I've had this video for a while: Cardio Burn Weight Loss by Madeleine Lewis (less than $7 at Amazon! What a steal!) produced by Gaiam. It is a step up from the walking DVDs but not all dancy and definitely something you can easily follow... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 11:14:11 EST I annoyed myself in to exercising. So, I was pretty disappointed in myself while writing my previous blog, I sucked it up, bundled the Wee One up in three layers and a hat and took a walk. Yep, it was still 45 out. And windy. I only walked about 1.5 miles down the road a while and back, but that was enough. We live on a fast road with some blind corners I didn't feel safe pushing a stroller on. I do feel better for getting out there and moving. Besides wanting to get some exercise in, I really just wanted to show myself ... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 10:34:46 EST Please don't read this, I'm just complaining a lot but need to write it down. ***I'm not proud of this blog post. Actually I'm really annoyed by it because its basically me complaining about why I suck. They're not good excuses, but they're mine. I'm not looking for anything from anyone by writing it, just need to get it out and get it down so I can move on. I hope.*** <BR> <BR> ****************************************<BR>**************************************<BR>**************************** <BR> Hi Spark. Well, here it is, the end of September. I think about yo... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 09:30:35 EST I don't know what has come over me! I've noticed something new about myself. I've got more energy. I've got more patience with the kids. More desire to get up and do things. The silly Kerry I knew when I was younger has made a comeback. I go through my day generally in a good mood. <BR> <BR> I'm happy. <BR> <BR> I didn't realize I wasn't before, but I can definitely say for the past few days I've got a smile in my heart if not on my face. <BR> <BR> I've been thinking and I think I can put my finger on it. I've been m... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 08:28:57 EST Wow! Mowing is awesome!!! When I was a teenager, there was no bigger torture than having to mow the lawn. We had a sizeable lawn for living in the village, but could get it done in less than 2 hours. After college my husband and I got married and moved around a bunch, living in apartments where someone else took care of the lawn, and that was just fine with us. Then we rented a property his parents owned and suddenly had 2 acres to mow. Luckily for me, around that time I got pregnant and then had babies to look af... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 14:41:35 EST Rasafrassin web site... SO, had a nice long blog post about what I'm doing lately, but when I went to post it, this site popped up and said "no html please!" and deleted everything I wrote. It took me a long time to write it too. Rawrs. <BR> <BR> So in a nutshell: Doing well, eating better, started exercising low impact, pilates is awesome and don't tell me different, yay me! <BR> <BR> Buh. It was a nice post too. Sun, 23 Jun 2013 20:20:12 EST Biting off more than I can chew: slowing down to lose more I had a sort of epiphany today. I was thinking about that quote that says "insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results." That led me to wonder how many times I have tried to "diet" and failed. I figure it is about five times a year since puberty started, around 10 years old, so 24 years times 5... I have failed at dieting 120 times. If that isn't insane, I don't know what is. How is this time going to be different? <BR> <BR> Then I started examining t... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 22:11:55 EST Small, scary steps. Pitching my comfort zone into the garbage, literally. Be prepared, I haven't blogged in awhile and have been doing a TON, so since this blog also doubles as a sort of journal entry, it's probably going to be a long one. <BR> <BR> This past Friday my daughter turned 4. I have been working my butt off for weeks to throw her an awesome party. She wanted a dinosaur theme, and boy did she get it! <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src="http:/... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 23:42:15 EST I'm still here! In one way or another. With my daughter's fourth birthday on the horizon, me getting a stomach bug over the weekend and working like crazy, I haven't had much time for this site, though I am trying hard to stay in its guidelines. I jump at any chance I get to exercise, which is a new concept for me! <BR> <BR> On Saturday, in the midst of some awful nausea, I helped my father clean out his house for 5 hours (the kind of cleaning out that involved repeated bending over, lifting heavy things, stuffing garbage bags... Tue, 21 May 2013 07:46:47 EST Yep, missed a couple days. This cold weather really sapped my motivation. We had two weeks of summer-like weather. It was simply wonderful and motivating! I got out of the house and got moving and logged every bite. Then this past weekend came and it was cold and dreary and super busy, with mother's day and visiting relatives and a lot to do for work. I was busy and tired and depressed the whole time. (The depressed comes from money woes. My daughter's fourth birthday is at the end of the month and we're trying to find some money to throw a party for her. Som... Tue, 14 May 2013 15:42:29 EST Water with lemon: The secret to not snacking I am a night time snacker. I need texture, I need salt, then I need sweet, and sometimes creamy. I crave the whole gambit. Once the girls go to bed around 7:30, I'm usually on the computer until midnight working (like I should be doing now). I snack to relieve stress, I snack to relieve boredom, to help me stay awake. Its usually where I take my awesome day of staying on track and throw it out the window. <BR> <BR> I've had a lot more motivation lately since I am back on the Spark bandw... Sat, 11 May 2013 22:25:03 EST If only stressing out burned more calories A short blog entry tonight because I have a lot of work to do. I don't want to take a night off from blogging though because I feel it is a small source of motivation for me, to accomplish something that day so I can write it down. I think all day about what I can write about that night, and it gives me that extra little nudge to get things done. <BR> <BR> What a busy day! Brought my kids to their friend's house for a play date from 10-12, got them lunch in the car as we drove 30 minutes ... Fri, 10 May 2013 21:33:59 EST Give Yourself a Chance Yesterday was a terrible day. We all have them. I felt the way I did before I got back into Sparking. Tired, stressed, achy, unaccomplished and somehow stuck in a time warp. The day flew by without me doing a whole lot, and by the time I looked up at the clock, it was already 4 pm, I hadn't done the dishes or cleaned anything, the house was a wreck, I didn't exercise and I ate like crap. The only thing I did get done besides take a shower and dress the girls (and feed them of course) was... Thu, 9 May 2013 20:52:13 EST No Pictures Please! Wait! Scratch that. CHEESE! I'm sure many people can relate with me and my desire to stay out of pictures. I'm usually the one behind the camera, taking pictures of my kids and family with not a lot to document that I was there. I make it a point to scuttle out of the picture frame when I see someone about to snap a photo because I don't want my heft documented. Since I was a teenager, having my picture taken was close to a form of torture. I would imagine my mom looking at the pictures from the most recent holiday ... Wed, 8 May 2013 09:43:11 EST Day Five: On a first name basis with motivation. Had a great day! I'm pretty sore and tired and have a very dirty house, since I spent more time Sparking than anything else, but I'm happy. <BR> <BR> This morning, I dropped my eldest off at nursery school. My youngest and I drove to the local school where I've spied a lot of people from all ages walking their trails around the school. I got the stroller out and the baby in and we set out, not knowing how long it was or how long it would take me. I had two hours until I had to pick Leah ... Tue, 7 May 2013 22:59:29 EST Day Four: Surviving Kid Stress I had a great weekend. Friday was my birthday and this weekend my husband and I got a bunch of things done around the yard and dug a garden and he helped watch the kids while I had "Me" time (like showering AND shaving. I know, incredible!). Plus, I started back on the SparkPeople bandwagon, and I feel like I'm actually behind that wagon pushing it along faster I'm so revved up and ready to go. I ate healthily, I exercised, I felt good. And today when Monday came again and my husband wen... Mon, 6 May 2013 23:16:42 EST Day Three: Inch by inch, Row by row. Gonna make this garden grow! First I want to celebrate a tiny moment in my Sparktivity. After dinner last night I didn't snack at all. AT ALL. To know me you would know that this is truly amazing. Food is a de-stressor for me. After I put the girls to bed, I grab a snack and a drink, sit at the computer and usually work. Even when I don't work, I find myself venturing into the kitchen a handful of times until bed. What happened differently last night was a switch in my brain that said, "Nope, you're done for today... Sun, 5 May 2013 16:34:25 EST The best thing happened today - My scale broke! I have a bad habit. I weigh myself at least once a day. I see that number and how it hasn't budged, then usually swear at the scale under my breath. My scale even tracks tenths of a pound, so I can see if I go up even a little giving me more to stress over. If I don't exercise, I weigh myself so I can see how badly I'm treating myself. If I overeat the day before, I weigh myself the following day so I can say, "Yep, I told you so." I don't treat myself right and so the scale doesn't mov... Sat, 4 May 2013 13:34:52 EST A Birthday Present from Me to Me I'm 34 today. I remember being a teenager and thinking life was over at 40, you basically hit a mid-life crisis and the rest is downhill. I'm getting closer and closer to that number and feel like I'm already there. Every day I tell myself "You can't keep doing this Kerry. You need to change." but yet I don't. I have nothing but excuses, and hate that I have nothing but excuses. My first impulse is to list everything here for the reader to make their own conclusions, but the fact remain... Fri, 3 May 2013 08:46:50 EST A new reason to lose weight and be healthy After having a very healthy, and variably stress-free pregnancy, I gave birth to a healthy baby girl after 6 hours of active labor. I wanted it to be entirely natural and drug-free, but my water had broke and 24 hours later I still wasn't having any contractions, so I was given pitocin which started the labor. Once it started, there was no stopping it, those contractions rolled one right after another with maybe 30 seconds in between to rest, and they were far worse than even the worst stor... Tue, 21 Jul 2009 14:12:50 EST Baby Update - 20 weeks We had an ultrasound on Monday and thankfully the baby has all of the correct number of limbs, heads, digits even. We looked at dark spots that we were told were the stomach and kidneys and saw the heart move. Pretty neat. The baby was in a breech position, all scrunched up facing my back do we didn't get any great shots of the face and we weren't able to find out the gender. And after I had asked it so nicely to cooperate! That's it baby! When you get out of there you're grounded! <BR>... Thu, 15 Jan 2009 21:07:17 EST My Absence Hello Sparkers! I have been absent for a while because I was sick for a few weeks...with morning sickness! I'm 13 weeks pregnant at the moment and had all-day sickness for 6 weeks. Feeling great now, but probably won't be working hard at the diet thing for a while. I'll check in after June! Thu, 27 Nov 2008 14:34:47 EST Ok, I think I can do this After Colleen let me know that she's been exercising everyday while I've been sick with a cold, I really need to catch up! I'm not going to win our challenge if I don't put more effort into it! <BR> <BR> I just got done with 60 minutes on my recumbent bike. The circuit I did went from 8 mph then gradually up to 11 mph where it stayed for about 30 minutes, then gradually back down again. According to the digital reader I just did 9 miles and burned around 600 calories. Woo! <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 1 Oct 2008 21:05:37 EST Operation: 20 lbs. by Christmas This past weekend was my sister's wedding. The few weeks leading up to it were quite hectic and not only did I not manage exercise, but I also didn't track my food and cheated a bunch. I was clearly aware of the repercussions of my actions the entire time, knowing that I would have to make up for my bad decisions, but I was confident that starting today I would begin again. <BR> <BR> So, step one. Tracking my food. Its funny how much hungrier I am today since eating whatever I wanted for... Wed, 24 Sep 2008 12:28:13 EST WARHAMMER!!! The NEW downfall of exercise. I've been playing the Warhammer Online beta for the past couple of days and really loving it. I've only tried out the Arch Mage profession, because I usually play healer types, but I enjoy the public quests a lot. I've tried a couple professions, alchemy and cultivation, which I don't see why/how one could do one and not the other, and I liked how interactive they were. I'm not used to the interface yet, but its growing on me. My husband has told me that its going to focus more on PvP, b... Tue, 9 Sep 2008 23:07:59 EST A week (or two) in rewind I don't know what happened but suddenly I started losing weight again. For about two months I hit a plateau. Mentally I needed a break, I didn't exercise much, I didn't track my food. I still watched what I ate, but life was too busy to stick to a schedule. About a month ago, I started back up, logging (almost) every day, exercising more frequently (though I must admit maybe only 3 times a week). <BR> <BR> Because of many people's reactions on Spark to the Twilight series by Stephenie ... Thu, 4 Sep 2008 10:28:34 EST Looking for suggestions I have subscribed to many weight loss programs and videos in the past. The problem is, I get bored easily. Well actually, its more like I come across something in the video my body just can't do, I fast forward through it and get frustrated. That was the main reason with P90. I have a bum knee. I know its because I've been over weight for so long, and I'm somewhat genetically predisposed to have crappy knees, both my mom and dad have had surgeries, etc., because their knees are crap. I ... Sat, 23 Aug 2008 08:43:04 EST Sometimes my impulses just make me laugh. I am the first person in the office every morning. I start the coffee, turn on the lights, and log into the phones before anyone else is there. Yesterday one of the girls brought in boxes of Friehofer's donuts, and there were still some there. I've been aware of their presence, but refused to do anything more than look at them. <BR> Anyhow, I turned on the lights this morning, and walked by them, briefly for a second stopping in my tracks in front of them. Though it was only a second, I h... Tue, 19 Aug 2008 12:28:09 EST Why I am awesome. I am awesome because: <BR> <BR> - I am sticking to a plan of healthy eating and discovering all sorts of new foods! <BR> <BR> - I crave vegetables. How weird is that?! <BR> <BR> - There are three opened boxes of donuts sitting 15 feet away from me and I don't even want one. (Well, maybe just a little, but its NOT going to happen.) <BR> <BR> - I went to lunch with a group of girl friends the other day and ordered dessert, but only took a few bites and gave the rest away. <BR> <BR> - I ... Fri, 15 Aug 2008 12:44:19 EST I'm not calling it a break, just a lapse in focus. For the past two months I don't want to admit that I've fallen off any sort of band wagon, because I'm still somewhat conscious of what I'm eating. I haven't been exercising and haven't been journaling my food. I haven't lost any weight. So ok, yeah I guess I fell. I guess its because I lost more weight than I have before and have been pretty psyched that I look the way I am now. I'm loving that I have a waist again, that I can wear a smaller size, that I constantly get complements from ... Wed, 9 Jul 2008 15:40:24 EST Not a woman anymore, now I'm a lady! So, my husband and I went shopping this weekend for various things we needed, and I was wandering through the clothes section of the store and instead of going to the women's section (plus sizes) I said "I wonder" and went to the ladies section and tried on some of the 'normal' sizes. Woo! I can fit into normal clothes again! Its been.... gosh...7 years? 8? Right around there. So instead of being a 1X (18W), I'm an XL (16-18). It may not seem like a huge change to most people, but beli... Mon, 19 May 2008 11:50:46 EST New (old) jeans I get to dress causally every day for work, which is definitely one of the drawing points of my job. Much to my delight, my jeans are getting pretty loose and the butt is rather saggy and looks (and feels) pretty gross. Monday night I pulled out of my cedar chest a bunch of old pairs of jeans that stopped fitting years ago, but that I refused to throw away. I tried on jeans that I wore four years ago, and they all fit! One pair was actually too big! Holy crap that is awesome! I honestly... Wed, 2 Apr 2008 11:45:13 EST The Dirtiest Word There Ever Was Obese. What an ugly, nasty word. I prefer chubby, because its friendly. Even calling yourself fat can be ok because its been accepted to a certain degree culturally, even people who aren't will sometimes call themselves fat. But obese, there's no joking around there. Its clinical, its cold, its deadly. <BR> <BR> I'm 5'8" tall, and the BMI calculator on Spark People says I'm obese. This is something I already knew, but its not something I can laugh off or joke about like I do every othe... Thu, 27 Mar 2008 16:02:51 EST I must have measured wrong... Because according to my measurements now as opposed to my measurements when I first started Spark People back on February 4th, I have lost 9 inches total on my body. Four from my waist, four from my hips and one around my neck. Holy crap. This is so surreal. I really don't feel any different physically than when I first started, though my knees don't hurt nearly as much when I use the stairs. So this is what happens when you exercise, eh? I could get used to this... Thu, 13 Mar 2008 23:53:52 EST Ok, now we're cookin.' This past week wasn't the greatest one on record. I didn't exercise much (see previous blog), and wasn't terribly strict about my food intake because I was away from home/computers for three days. We went to a wedding downstate near Binghamton, spent time with my husband's family down there and rode in the car a lot! Three large adults crammed in the back of a station wagon is definitely not my idea of fun, but I brought a book. We stopped and ate at Arby's yesterday for lunch. I got a P... Mon, 3 Mar 2008 15:41:15 EST Has it been a week? I've been a little busy lately, and though I log on here everyday and enter into my nutrition journal, I haven't had a chance to write anything. <BR> <BR> This past Friday was my father's birthday and I went over to his house and made dinner with my brother for him. Honey Mustard Pork Tenderloin, asparagus, some sort of beans and rice (my bro is a vegetarian), and sauted portabellos. It didn't really go together as a meal, but it was all yummy and good for us. Saturday my dad, sister, bro... Wed, 27 Feb 2008 16:26:28 EST Audaciously Guileless: Being Honest with Myself Its been remarked on how open I've been in my blogs, throwing my insecurities out there for everyone to see. First of all, thank you everyone for reading my thoughts! It really feels great to know there are people out there who care. <BR> <BR> I've recently realized that I've been hiding for a long time now, personally and physically from not only my friends and family, but from myself. I've been so self conscious for so long, I've almost convince myself that this is who I am, nothing b... Thu, 21 Feb 2008 15:44:16 EST A trying weekend for self-esteem This weekend I went with my sister, mother and my sister's maid of honor dress shopping for a wedding gown. My sister doesn't pay attention to what size she wears and usually wears men's clothing anyhow. We start pulling dresses for her and turns out she's a size 6. Every dress she puts on is gorgeous on her. Then mom insists I stand next to my sister and have my picture taken. I said no, I don't want my picture taken, I haven't done laundry in a couple weeks (i have to go to a laundry m... Mon, 18 Feb 2008 15:07:07 EST Teeth problems About a month ago I went to a local dentist and had a couple cavities drilled and filled. Two days went by and I started having the worst pain in my jaw that would wake me up at night. I couldn't chew on that side of my mouth without excruciating pain. When I called that dentist back he said that he the cavity was deeper than he thought and I would need to see a specialist in a city 80 miles away to have a root canal. Umm...I don't think so. I called a dentist in the area that I went to ... Thu, 14 Feb 2008 11:50:34 EST My support network Since I am at work for 8-9 hours a day, thats more awake time than I would get at home on a regular basis. Though my husband will always be there for me and support me when I ask it of him, the people that make a huge difference in my life are the people I see the most, the women I work with. I am one of the fortunate people to work with a great group of people who like me for who I am, who enjoy the different aspects we all bring to the collective, and who are there to support me in everyt... Wed, 13 Feb 2008 11:03:02 EST I survived the weekend Well, I made it through the weekend with only minor deviations. My mother and brother had their joint birthday dinner on Friday. I made the main course, Chicken Marsala, using a recipe from SparkRecipes. I've never had it before, but it sounded fancy. I guess it turned out well, dredging the chicken breasts in flour before browning them made the marsala sauce a little thick like gravy. Next time I'll try it without flour. I also made a salad, Mom contributed veggie lasagna which was gre... Mon, 11 Feb 2008 15:53:06 EST Day 1 Today was the first day of really keeping track of what I ate, every bite! It was hard and I can't believe how many times I found myself in the kitchen looking in the refrigerator after we ate dinner. I think I need to journal that too! What really helped is drinking tea when I really had the inkling to find something to eat. Herbal tea is a taste unto itself and really helped me quell the urges. I'm going to put a movie in and get on my gazelle for at least a half hour tonight. Not goi... Tue, 5 Feb 2008 20:45:52 EST