SUPERDORK76's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SUPERDORK76 SUPERDORK76's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ sodium http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4713166 Sodium. <BR> <BR> Can't figure out how to bring my intake down :( <BR> <BR> I don't eat that much processed stuff...I don't use added salt...and yet I have only have 1 day in the past week where my sodium levels have been within range. <BR> <BR> Any advice? Mon, 30 Jan 2012 21:24:15 EST Untitled unless I decide otherwise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4711398 So, it's been a couple of weeks since I posted a blog. Figured I should post some kind of update, and maybe even see if I can have an epiphany or two... <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> So for the past two weeks, I have done alright. Nothing spectacular, but I'm losing, and that's the point, right? The week of my mom's memorial, there were two days where I did not track, intentionally...but even with those days, I did ok. I am sure that I was over, and I know I did not drink enough water, but... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 00:47:44 EST Not this time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4683418 Almost 6 months ago, I gave up on myself. Really it didn't happen in just one day. It happened over the course of hours, day and weeks...and then all of a sudden it was 2012. I decided...not a New Year's Resolution, I decided...it was time to come back to SP. This works. Even though I am not a social person, do not reach out, am not so good and keeping in touch with the few people I have met on this site, I am a fantastic stalker, and the people who I feel I know, and I can relate to on ... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 01:35:52 EST Feeling totally derailed. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4379958 Yesterday I binged. First binge I have had in over three months. I am still amazed that I was able to go that long, but I am so disappointed in myself because I was totally conscious of what I was doing while I ate and ate and ate. :( I was actually able to stop myself twice...but both times, something set me off again and I just ate again...This went off and on for nearly 24 hours. <BR> <BR> Now that I have that out of the way, it's time to figure out why I did it, so that I can learn... Fri, 22 Jul 2011 20:13:00 EST What!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4350385 I went into my setting this afternoon and changed my fitness settings to more accurately reflect the amount of calories I am burning in a week. This, of course changed my calorie intake needs in my nutrition tracker. It now says that my minimum is 2260 calories a day! WTF!?! I was having a difficult time reaching 1600 calories. How am I going to take in that many???Can that even be right? Fri, 8 Jul 2011 22:13:42 EST I want chocolate! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4349965 I sincerely hope that today's title does not set anyone else's horrific cravings off. I also sincerely hope that it helps me get rid of this craving. I think I have worked myself up into a frenzy over this. It only started as just a thought, and now, it's all I can think about. Ugh! <BR> <BR> OK. Distraction. <BR> <BR> I did C25k Week 1 Day 3 today. Boy am I beat. Better than day 2 though. Day 2, I came home and slept for an hour. Both days, in addition to the prescribed program,... Fri, 8 Jul 2011 17:40:08 EST C25K and other stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4341684 Ok, so I did it. I managed to hit the 25 pounds lost mark this week. Not that it was really that hard. I only needed to lose 1 pound. I lost 1.6. That's right ladies and gentlemen, I am now less that 5 pounds away from being in the 2's. <BR> <BR> It's funny, part of my is absolutely disgusted and embarrassed about saying that, and the other part of me, just says "Go for it sister, claim it!" So I am. I am claiming it. I weigh more than 300 pounds. Deal with it. It's not your prob... Tue, 5 Jul 2011 02:34:07 EST Note to self http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4337993 You have been deluding yourself. <BR> <BR> Yes, You are fantastic, 24 pounds that you have lost so far in 7 weeks is wonderful. But the reality is you still have 155 pounds to go to reach your goal and I am already finding that you are slacking off. <BR> <BR> In the times before, where you have lost weight, you have managed to sabotage yourself with injuries and health concerns. Like the time where you had lost 80 pounds and were sitting a mere 70 pounds from your goal weight, and you... Sat, 2 Jul 2011 22:40:27 EST Do you ever feel like all you are doing is eating? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4322703 I am having that kind of day today. One of my goals this month was to not eat after dinnertime. I have been unable to stick to this, because I just cannot seem to get enough calories or nutrition in earlier in the day. Today for example, I am about to eat dinner, and still have 350 calories left to eat just to hit my minimum for the day. This happens nearly every day. Does this happen to everyone? Should I increase portions? I just don't know... Sat, 25 Jun 2011 22:10:44 EST Day 42 Learning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4312283 It seems it has been a while since I wrote. I surprise myself with that, until I remind myself that it mostly has to do with the challenges I have with this computer that I am sitting at, or the connectivity in my house...oh well. At least I am writing today. <BR> <BR> As of yesterday, I have surpassed my first 20 pound weight loss. For the most part, I feel that this met goal will sustain me, and motivate me to continue. For some reason though, I have not put enough effort in to my fitn... Tue, 21 Jun 2011 03:24:18 EST June goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4273827 1. Get organized. I desperately need some structure in my life. I have always struggled with this, but it has gotten particularly bad since I got laid off. <BR> 2. Incorporate structured strength training into my weekly routine. I know I need to do this, structure will help. (see goal 1) <BR> 3. Add a class or video (got Zumba videos today!) 3 time per week. Again with the needed structure! <BR> 4. Stop eating after dinner. This will mean I will have to plan better to get my calorie intake ... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 23:49:17 EST Day 21 - A New Life is Emerging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4266359 Three week and 12.6 pounds gone! <BR> <BR> Today I bought a new scale and a heart rate monitor(the heart rate monitor being my 10 pound weight loss reward). I spent the same amount of money that last month I would have spent on fast food in a month. Pretty amazing how much my priorities have shifted within that time. I am so proud of how my priorities have shifted in these past three weeks. I am even more proud of the fact that I am actually losing weight. This time I am doing it for me... Tue, 31 May 2011 01:26:33 EST Day 13 - changes, changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4248166 i have been on this weight loss adventure before. but i don't think i have ever been so proud of myself. i have done 6 days of boot camp videos and stuck with the tracking and being really good to myself for 13 days. i have even dyed my hair and started moisturizing, reminding myself that i am a woman and not just some flat blob! <BR> i love that i am disappointed when i am just sitting on the couch and that every day i am ready for the adventure that is my life. <BR> my scale doesn't wa... Sun, 22 May 2011 01:44:10 EST Day 10, day 3 of bootcamp and I am a-ok http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4242456 Emotionally today has been a thoroughly craptacular day. Despite that, I stayed at the low end of my calorie range, drank more than 8 glasses of water, did my third day of bootcamp, and went for a walk. On top of that, I just did something I haven't done in ages - moisturizer my face. Amazing that this is so quickly becoming a journey of self care :) <BR> <BR> I love myself today, in light of all my failings, I am worth it! <BR> <BR> Thank you Spark People for bringing the light back into ... Thu, 19 May 2011 01:22:06 EST Day 7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4235260 Well, one week has gone by. And for the first time in a long time I feel as though I had a week of success. I can taste that word. Success. One little blip does not make me a failure. I got back up. I will not back down and allow my own negativity be my downfall. <BR> <BR> I have struggled this week with getting physical activity into my days. So tonight I signed up for the 28 day bootcamp. Structure is the thing I am lacking most these days. I am sure that with the support that I wick fin... Mon, 16 May 2011 01:47:19 EST Day 5. Started well... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4231447 I am incredibly disappointed in myself right now. I exceeded my calorie count today. And now I feel ill. <BR> <BR> The day started well. Had breakfast and went for an hour long trail hike. I know what the triggers were that caused me to exceed today. <BR> <BR> 1. My other half went out for the evening - this hadn't been planned and that always catches me off guard. <BR> 2. I have been watching episodes of intervention. Sets of emotional roller coasters! <BR> 3. Tonights dinner was no... Sat, 14 May 2011 00:05:47 EST Woo Hoo for sweat! Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4226898 So today I bought a step, along with an exercise ball and toning band. I love the feeling of being sweaty for doing something good for me! I am amazed that I am managing to stick with this despite everything going on in my world. Today is the third day in a row that I have tracked everything that I have eaten and gotten sweaty - all in the name of making a new life for myself. <BR> <BR> I grocery shopped today, for the first day since I started seriously tracking and holding myself acc... Wed, 11 May 2011 23:27:28 EST Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4224521 I did it again today! Yay for me! Not only did I get through a second day of sticking to the plan but I also managed to avoid emotional eating bit days. Things are rough being at him all the time and not having a schedule to follow, but I will overcome and recreate my life, healthier and better than ever. Wed, 11 May 2011 00:34:33 EST Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4222116 Today was a good day. I feel like I actually succeeded with living my goals. I ate within my range, I tracked everything I ate and I got physical activity in. I even had the opportunity to share the Spark! <BR> I decided last week that today would be day 1 of my new life. I will keep it up! I will succeed. Today I am proud of me. :) Tue, 10 May 2011 01:38:51 EST 35 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4215649 Today I turned 35. Twenty years of struggling with my weight. For over 20 years I have been over 200 pounds. I'm done. No more quick fixes, no more giving up. This is my life and I am claiming responsibility for it! No longer will I rebel against my mother. No longer will I play the blame game or pity myself for what I have become. I will live each day to the fullest because it is mine for the taking. Sat, 7 May 2011 01:05:08 EST This one's just for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4211307 I need to remind myself. I need to write it down and make it real. It is important. I DO NOT WANT TO DIE. The way I am living is going to kill me. I have to change. I want to change. No more smoking. No more crap food. No more hiding in my bedroom hoping for an easy answer. Life is worth the effort. My son is worth every effort and a million times more. Just get up every day and make an effort. Thu, 5 May 2011 01:06:27 EST I emotionally ate today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4208581 I wish I could stop. It just makes me feel sick. Food does not make me feel better. I need to figure out better things to do with myself when I start to get upset and turn to food to cope. Tue, 3 May 2011 22:46:16 EST How many times have I started over? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4203773 Too many times to count. I know that I am not alone. <BR> <BR> Last week I started to write a blog post here. I am actually thankful that I lost what I was writing because the negativity that was spewing from me was...well it was not the positivity that I would like to have as my foundation. <BR> <BR> Tonight I changed my goals, the one I set over a year ago when I first found spark people. Perhaps they were just too lofty. I know that I am more than capable of losing the nearly two hun... Mon, 2 May 2011 01:13:58 EST Gonna succeed this time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3552288 Last week I spent the week in the hospital. I was diagnosed with Diverticulitis and Fatty Liver disease. This put things into perspective for me in a whole new way. I really realize now how important it is for me to take control of my health and make the changes that I need to in order to change my life. Thu, 19 Aug 2010 00:48:49 EST Fitness Fantasy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2976083 Today my SO and I were invited to be interviewed for the chance to participate in a "Fitness Fantasy" contest run through some local media. We were one of 25 couples invited to be interviewed, with 4 couples participating in the contest. Being chosen to participate in this would be just the push that we need to make the changes in our life, and to kick start the long road that I have ahead of me. I hope it happens :) I have such a long way to go, I need to get started! If I don't get cho... Tue, 9 Mar 2010 00:05:33 EST