SUNSHINEKIAH's SparkPeople Blog SUNSHINEKIAH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I'm all tak and no game So I have totally fallen off the track and down the hill. I haven't worked out in weeks. Not even a little. I have been eating whatever i want. I even caught myself doing what I call fat people eating. You know those things that some of us put together and we know other skinny people would never eat. Afterwards I felt so horrile...but that still wasn't enough for me to get up off my butt and workout. <BR> <BR> So starting tommrow becasue I am at school till late tonight I am going to start ... Thu, 8 Sep 2011 17:52:26 EST Today I learned something important So the inportant thing that I learned about myself is that when I don't sleep I have no motivation. Like one at all. When I sleep past 8 in the morning I feel even worse than if I would ahve gotten up early. One of the things I am going to work on is to get to sleep on time. Or at least not so late in the night. Hopefully that will also cut down on my late night cravings for Taco Bell. My midnight firend lol Thu, 11 Aug 2011 15:14:43 EST August goals Hello everyone. It is the beginning of the month so that maesn it is time to set this months goals. This month they go a litlle like this: <BR> <BR> 1. Take some full body pics. I want to be able to have a refrence point. Even thinking about taking them in my i said ...thinking about it lol <BR> <BR> 2.Continue to take the stairs everyday at school. This has been working well for me ( except for the one day i only made it to the second floor and then took the elevator to t... Wed, 3 Aug 2011 15:18:11 EST No motivation I have no motivation here lately. Like not even a drop. I don't wanna work out. I don't want to clean I don't want to do anything. I just lay on my couch and think about working out but I never do any more than that. I have to find a way to fix it otherwise I'm never going to get anywhere with my weight loss goals. I can already feel the excuses and old mind set start to creap back up. I think I need to find a buddy to help keep me accountable. <BR> <BR> So for the rest of this week my mini ... Thu, 28 Jul 2011 20:30:44 EST Vending machine temptations At school on break and I have found it is better to not go in the break room to eat. My lovely freind the vending machine is there and it whisphers bad things in my ears. Like eat these cookies. Eat these donut sticks. I have chips you know you want a bag... or two. I'm trying really hard to say no and stay strong . What tips do you use to keep from eating somewhere or something you shouldnt? Thu, 14 Jul 2011 20:10:36 EST Starting over again ....sorta So for the past few months I have been absent from SP. No money to pay your internet bill will do that to you. After months of struggling with my weight finances and just life for a 22 yr old in general I have decided to pick myself and my family up out of this hole and make it work. So here I go starting over again I guess. Let me tell you it really sucks. <BR> Thankfully though even while I have been absent I have still been working on my healthy living skills. Working out when I have t... Wed, 13 Jul 2011 14:52:58 EST Week 1 of April goals So week one has gone pretty well. I haven't been tracking my food so I will have to work on that one. I have been doing pretty well with getting my workouts done around like 11 am but I'm really going to try and make it like 8 am. I have been doing great with the housework and laundry. I washed every piece of fabric in my house this today and hung it up. Today I plan on tackling the dishes and kitchen. Need to mop the floor it's sticky. <BR> <BR> The one thing I am having problems with is... Sun, 10 Apr 2011 01:53:38 EST April Goals Goals for this month : <BR> <BR> 1. Track food everyday. <BR> ** This is very hard for me. I usually eat on the fly and just try to make healthy choices. This month I'm going to try following the food plan and hope that makes it better. <BR> <BR> 2. Try and convince hubby to follow his food plan. <BR> ** We have agreed to lose weight together and inspire each other to be healthy. We want to make a healthy family. Problem is that we have a fundamental diffrence on the way to l... Sun, 3 Apr 2011 18:17:10 EST I feel good. So I had the opprotunity to go this resturant that I have been dying to go to. A brazillian Steak house named Fo De Chao. All you can eat meat very nice and upscale. Has a creamy polenta to die for. Been asking y hubby for months. <BR> <BR> Guess what I did instead...... I bought a bike. I feel so good and great about my choice. Wish I could take it out now but it's old and rainy here and I already have a cold. So my weahter man better be nice to me and bot say anything else about snow Sat, 2 Apr 2011 00:44:52 EST Just a little off the path This week has been hetic. No sleep, sick kids, spring break, and my bday week all wrapped into one. Got a little of track but it's going to be ok because I can run and catch up. Bdays over no more drag queens ( special bday suprise rom my bff, going to have to find some payback). I though I was going to pass out from all the craziness. But tommorw I will work out and in the mean time I will clean my house. See everybody tommrow. Tue, 29 Mar 2011 20:38:57 EST Fitness streaks So I have walked 2 miles in two days and I feel great. As I speak my thighs and legs are on fire and I love it. Even came home and made myself a healthy lunch of tilipia with sauted greens and fresh peas. Going to me yummy. <BR> Feel like lately I have been doing a much better job of being on track. I have been using my food tracker. Tracking all my fitness minutes and keeping my house clean. Even contacted my school about going back and finishing my RN. Overall today has been an awesome d... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 14:27:58 EST Comfortable with my fat Today I made up with my best friend which I was totally excited about. I am super happy. And true to woman form we cried and in depth emotional convo. Now I love my bff to death and I trusted her and she is always honest with me and today she dropped a bomb on me about me. She thinks the reason that the reason I have a hard time losin weight is because I'm comfortable with my fat. <BR> <BR> Huh???? I know right same thing I said. <BR> <BR> She thinks that I am comfortable where I am. ... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 01:44:36 EST This week's Goals So I find it easier to sit and make my goals on Saturday because my week is always so busy. That being said here they are: <BR> <BR> 1. I will work out outside on all days that are warmer than 40 degrees. <BR> ( This goal is because I often say it is too cold to be outside I will work inside but I never do) <BR> <BR> 2. I will clean my house from top to bottom without taking excessive breaks or quiting after I get one room done. <BR> <BR> 3. I will use my fitness tracker and meet my fit... Sat, 12 Mar 2011 09:00:13 EST Today will be a great day Last night was a long night. Lots of drama. By the way I hate drama. I think my best friend and I badly damaged our firendship and it hurt. So on top of it being a bad day I lost my support buddy. I have been pop free for about a month now but I caught myself in the car on the way to the store to by a two liter. Then I realized that wouldn't make me feel better. So indstead I took a shower and went to bed. <BR> Now it's a new day. I got up early and had a great workout. I cleaned my house, ... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 11:18:30 EST Life Sucks Today has been a hard week. My husband and I are splitting. I have to buy a car now and I have to find daycare for my three kids. The old me would have shoved my face full of food. I would be walking around with my pants undone and full all the time. ( Embarrasing to say here but true) But this week was diffrent there was no midnight cookie runs to stop the tears. No china buffet because I would rather not sit by myself at home. I rocked this week. Ate reasonably healthy, didn't work out li... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 11:19:30 EST Birthdays This weekend is my oldest son's birthday. He will be two which is great. The thing about holidays, birthdays, celebrations and achievements is that my family celebrates them in the kitchen. It never fails that we all end up stuffing ourselves to no end. People unbutton their pants. They take plates of food home. There is always two or three different kinds of beer. I mean it is a true party. So that being said I have a plan that involves the following: <BR> <BR> 1. I will find a recipe for c... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 21:36:49 EST Cake is calling me... help In my kitchen right now, within smelling distance, there is a golden butter cake with chocolate frosting. My awesome husband made it for me for valentines day. I had one small piece and it was great. I WANT SOME MORE OF THAT CAKE. I'm trying to resist. I even did a twenty minute workout to help take my mind off eating. It's so hard. <BR> I'm trying really hard because I have gained so much weight. I keep thinking I'm going to lose weight and that I will wake up and the weight will be gone.... Mon, 14 Feb 2011 18:36:15 EST A letter to Fried Chicken Dear Fried Chicken, <BR> <BR> This is a dear john letter. I'm sorry to say that I must let you go. I can no longer be your friend. I can no longer eat your salty fried goodnes. You go straight to my thighs and you never leave. You are chocked full of calories that takes me hours to work off.Ii can never have just one piece. You whisper in my ear and you are so hard to ignore. As much as it pains me we shall only glance at each other once in a while. Never to speak with each other again. ... Sun, 15 Aug 2010 18:03:53 EST I Can't believe that I am here again It seems to me that every six months I am starting over. Whether it be in my life, losing weight, shooping healthy, sticking to a budget, what ever it may be it never seems to last more than a week or so. I think that I just get so exicited jump the gun and then when things aren't speeding along i get mad and give up. Today that is going to change. i can be the person I want to be inside it's just going to take some hard work and time. My goals are as follows: <BR> <BR> 1. I want to be able... Sun, 11 Jul 2010 15:15:03 EST Think that I'm finally ready. So I have always been one fo those people that are big. My dad is big my mom was big and then got gastric, which she has since gained back most of the weight. My brothers are big... you get the picture we are all big. I have always felt a little out of place but not ever unloved ot anything. I never really thought it was that bad. Now after having two children I realize that I am big. I have to do something to change. I have said I was going to change my life stlye, that I was going to follow... Tue, 5 Jan 2010 15:13:10 EST My first blog Ok well this is my first blog entry. I am 20 and have two kids. I weight a whole 288 lbs. I have always been heavy. My family is all heavy and I was comfotable being heavy. Then after having my son I was told that all of the weight was making my heart weak and that I have to make a change. <BR> <BR> I have been exercising for about two weeks now and I am sorta getting the hang of this. I paid for some lesson with a personal trainer and that is great. At first when i walked int... Wed, 5 Aug 2009 19:58:12 EST