SUNSHINE4747's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SUNSHINE4747 SUNSHINE4747's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ This is 40 : The Year of the Phoenix http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729855 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/6/l765194944.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I turned 40 a few days ago and I'm excited! My motivation is more fierce than it has been in a long time. I no longer require outside affirmation. This decade will be my best yet: I'm getting healthy! <em>30</em> Tue, 1 Jul 2014 12:51:49 EST Blahhhhhhh~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722138 <em>198</em> <BR> I'm in such a 'blah' mood today. The good thing: I'm learning to deal with negative things, feel these emotions -as opposed to bury them (by eating food, or doing other things that are a detriment). However, I can't seem to pull myself out of it. Sort of difficult to go do something positive when I'm at work... my job is not very mentally stimulating or difficult so I have lots of time to think while I work. I try not to let my mind wander. <BR> <BR> Writing this ... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 12:53:05 EST Changes in the Sunshine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678050 I've started 2014 with many changes. Even on a road to positive changes are potholes in the road. (Anyone living in Northeastern Ohio will get that joke regarding this past winter.) <BR> The potholes make me realize how much 'the new' means, how much it makes me happy. <BR> I will gladly trip, fall down and get back up. One step at a time, one day at a time. <em>67</em> Tue, 22 Apr 2014 16:27:22 EST Less ... Just Less http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385728 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1965085448.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I chose a picture of Tweak from South Park for this blog entry -as Tweak wants/ loves coffee (caffeine) too much. I have an addictive personality. Too much food has been a problem... or too much fat... or too much carbs and like Tweak, too much caffeine. <BR> <BR> I've been drinking more H2O <em>194</em> . I do not get jacked up on water. As a busy person, I was drinking coffee and 5 Hour Energy shots. I de... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 11:09:05 EST Five Years http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5378083 I just read my first SP blog from 6/28/2008. That is really another lifetime ago, in a good way. <em>247</em> I now do not care as much about comparing myself to other people. And... I've learned not to compare myself to Mary from 2008 or 2002. There is only Mary of 2013 in front of me. And I am happy to be here. Meaning alive and somewhat healthy. <em>338</em> With the help of a dog and my GOD <em>459</em> , I've had as close to an enlightenment as I can, at this time. <BR> ... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 14:42:34 EST Spring into Shape: A Renewal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359493 I haven't seen my Personal Trainer in about a month. A string of reasons, but today: here I go again, try again, renew my commitment to physical activity. <em>319</em> <BR> <BR> It's funny: I know I need to work out but I feel lazy, pure and simple. I usually do not admit that (when it applies). I'm blogging so I remember I have a road of health to travel, that ultimately will not be as difficult as it is now. <em>381</em> <BR> <BR> I have requested that my trainer be hard on me...... Fri, 17 May 2013 15:56:39 EST Work Challenge: Think Well, Do Well, Be Well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5341652 It's been AGES since I've posted here on Spark. 2013 has been a huge step in a healthy direction for me. I've left my toxic job... finally. My blood pressure went from so high I was hospitalized... to very good: slightly below 120/80! <em>224</em> I'm drinking less. I'm doing more, not just shutting down when I get home from work. <BR> Changes are good. Very good. <BR> I've hired a personal trainer... another smart change. <BR> I'm selling my house... a smart financial change, as I'... Wed, 1 May 2013 08:13:26 EST 2000 + Calorie Drink http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2297692 Found the stats on below on Yahoo! Health- Geez, and I thought eating a 1000 calorie burrito from Chipotle was bad.... And no, I've never tried this! <BR> <BR> "1. THE WORST DRINK IN AMERICA <BR> Cold Stone Creamery Gotta Have It PB&C Shake <BR> 2,010 calories <BR> 131 g fat (68 g saturated) <BR> 153 g sugars" <BR> <BR> Sat, 8 Aug 2009 09:46:44 EST Weight Loss Treasures Goal for August 2009 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2282279 Working towards a 5# weight loss in August- <BR> <BR> I have gained this year, in general... it's been really tough. <BR> So, I signed up for a yoga class. Looking for meditation & challenging myself -to alleviate stress. <BR> <BR> As much as I want to lose weight, I want to lose the stress first. I'm a realist- and that only makes sense. <BR> <BR> This month will be about variety- doing something different each day (or @ least not the same thing every day). <BR> <BR> *Yoga 1-2x/ we... Mon, 3 Aug 2009 07:16:21 EST Doctor's Advice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2240740 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/4/5/b457973714.jpg"> <BR> I went to see my doctor this week and described to her my dissatisfaction with my weight gain. (This is not why I went to see her but figured I may as well bring it up while I was there.) I'm still reading about it... but I am finding it interesting and thought some of my Spark buddies might find it interesting too- as many of us eat obsessively, have food addictions. Maybe one of you will find it as interesting. Have a... Sun, 19 Jul 2009 09:30:17 EST Taking Things Too Seriously http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2213999 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/3/3/b335582979.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I had this killer project today at work - it's virtually all I did - all day, finished up at four. I just accepted that it put me even further behind... and I accepted it. <BR> <BR> I did not get super-upset; I did not swear (much) and I stayed pretty calm. <BR> <BR> My workload today is just as stupid as it was six months ago; and it's just as ridiculous that any one person could do it. <BR> <BR> I am learning... Wed, 8 Jul 2009 22:14:29 EST Make Dreams a Reality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2203640 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/7/5/b756856288.jpg"> <BR> <BR> What a tough year I've had with my job! <BR> <BR> What a sub-standard workout year I've had- because I let my job get to me! <BR> <BR> I have said so many times: I'm done with that! And somehow, I keep slipping back. The will-power weakens; easier to slip into the role of the victim. <BR> <BR> I am not weak- but I need to remember that. I am a very strong woman. <BR> <BR> I just finished reading a book: "Insati... Sun, 5 Jul 2009 09:55:28 EST Can a Lamb become a Lion? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2200393 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/1/4/b147304799.jpg"> <BR> "It is better to live one day as a lion, than a thousand days as a lamb." <BR> <BR> - Roman proverb <BR> <BR> This quote was sent to me in a Spark e-mail on May 30th- I'm just reading it now. I want to be that LION! <BR> <BR> I've allowed stress to steam-roll me. Some of the time. It's the Sunshine / Storm rollercoaster of life. I have not accepted the stress as a temporary thing- I hold it with me most of the day. ... Fri, 3 Jul 2009 12:33:40 EST Still Walking the Walk- Getting Fit with Faith & Leslie! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2154617 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/9/b893062842.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm halfway into June and have been walking the walk with Leslie almost every day! The only days I have not gotten sufficient exercise was two of the four days I was on vacation: 50% is not too bad- and I'm back in it. <BR> <BR> I'll tell you- having two days off in a row, I felt it a little bit- I felt a bit tight but I guess that's why I know the program was / is working. <BR> <BR> I only did two miles yesterday.... Tue, 16 Jun 2009 07:15:17 EST Tomorrow's June 1st- http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2110713 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/4/7/b478145831.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have been borrowing Leslie Sansone's Walking the Walk- Getting Fit with Faith for the last month or so... and I finally bought it. <BR> <BR> It's a book with a DVD- and it's speaking to my soul, not just my brain. <BR> I'm wired in a way that ... just knowing facts about anything- be it nutrition/ exercise/ whatever ... will not help me. <BR> <BR> I need something- MORE... and having Faith (doing it for God, if no... Sun, 31 May 2009 22:37:53 EST Biggest Loser Challenge 10 is HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1995347 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/2/b822288174.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> "Whatever is flexible and flowing will tend to grow; whatever is rigid and blocked will wither and die." <BR> <BR> - Tao Te Ching, Lao Tsu's teachings <BR> <BR> I am going to lose 21# in the BLC10 (starts today)- not only do I know that I'm capable, I'm not going to overthink things- like I tend to do. <BR> I will not dwell on past failings- because most people fail before succeeding. <BR> <BR> I also am... Wed, 22 Apr 2009 07:14:40 EST My One Year Spark Anniversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1993526 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/1/2/b121715812.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have not hit my weight loss goal; actually, I'm up in weight since this day last year. <BR> <BR> But I'm smarter than I was last year and now understand what it will take for me to be successful: <BR> <BR> Dedication <BR> <BR> It's not that I did not want to be dedicated in the last 12 months- it's just that- LIFE HAPPENED, or rather- Massive Amounts of Stress Pulled Me into a Quicksand of Despair <BR> <BR> Yes... Tue, 21 Apr 2009 16:12:04 EST Sad today :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1990664 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/6/b865775719.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Just dragging a bit today... <BR> <BR> I seem to have gained all my extra weight in my belly... I've had two people in the last four weeks or so... inquire if I'm pregnant... which I'd love to be but am not- due to my fertility issues. <BR> <BR> I'm happy to say that I've finally gotten off my duff & called a new specialist (but the person I talked to said I'd have to call back in the morning for an appointment- I ... Mon, 20 Apr 2009 19:34:44 EST Spark Friends are the Best! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1980444 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/0/b805183073.jpg"> <BR> Thanks to Yo- my BLC buddy. So nice to have lunch w/ you. Although my moniker is Sunshine, I felt like I was the one basking in positivity. <BR> <BR> I feel re-invigorated w/ all Spark People has to offer. -Thank you to all of my Spark Friends- those I met in the beginning and those who I've met recently. All of you have touched me in your way. <BR> <BR> I shared w/ Yo how much I love my Orange Blossom team. BLC9 w... Fri, 17 Apr 2009 06:57:56 EST Ready For a New Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1946127 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/9/0/b905705760.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is my first weigh in for my April Challenge- I signed up to lose 5# during the month of April. I have not got on the scale yet, but I know I haven't lost any weight this week. I can just tell by how my clothes fit. My skinny jeans no longer fit. <em>46</em> But that's okay. <BR> <BR> In the past, I would have given up. Not anymore- this is a new week. Tomorrow is only the 5th day of April- that g... Sun, 5 Apr 2009 21:04:27 EST Here's to you Brenda! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1934646 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/4/2/b426037071.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Okay, Brenda- I accept your 1500 minute workout challenge for APRIL 2009. <BR> <BR> I will post on my Spark Page... <BR> <BR> I like Brenda's idea of a schedule... now, mine is going to be a bit more flexible- I have to do one of these workouts & note which day of the week I did it per 7 day perioc... because... like tonight, stuff comes up & I wanna day off today. But I have 5 days a week noted- 6th day optional. ... Wed, 1 Apr 2009 20:03:54 EST Must Work Hard for AWESOME Results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1927762 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/4/7/b471320802.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I love Jillian!! She's sooooooooooooooooooooooooo dedicated. And I... am back to square one- workout-wise; eating-wise. <BR> <BR> I weighed in today and was not very happy. But I had promised myself that I would find Inner Peace <em>437</em> first- work on everything else later. <BR> <BR> Well, things are better. -At work. And will be getting better still. I'm lucky <em>137</em> , as is my boss, that we've... Mon, 30 Mar 2009 20:35:59 EST Blessed Sunday- At Peace http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1923507 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/3/2/b326534518.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am in a good mood today. Sometimes on a Sunday, up till recently, I would start getting tense around now, worrying about the work week. My boss is keeping her word & getting me help in the office. <BR> <BR> Although I do have a mound of work to tackle, I also have five people who've been helping me out. That speaks volumes- that it takes multiple people to assist me in a job I've been doing by myself. Vindicati... Sun, 29 Mar 2009 16:23:32 EST Words of Wisdom from an Unlikely Source- for the 2nd Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1921675 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/2/7/b279537452.jpg"> <BR> <BR> "I act like sh#! don't phase me/Inside it drives me crazy/ My insecurities could eat me alive..." <BR> <BR> That's from Eminem... I know most people would find him an unlikely motivator- but he's actually has some very true words in his songs. <BR> <BR> The above quote does apply to me- speaks about me... I worry too damn much about what others think of me. I call them words of wisdom because- he knows that lett... Sat, 28 Mar 2009 22:11:15 EST Happiest Time in Six + Months http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1909770 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/6/0/b608562688.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well, the last blog post had me walking out the door of my current job, after six years. <BR> <BR> But... that must not have been in the cards. As far as the other company that I interviewed with- they were interested. However, fate kept me exactly where I'm at. <BR> <BR> It's been a hard time... six + months... since September 2008, that I have completely abhorred my job- to the point: <BR> I became helpless to: ... Tue, 24 Mar 2009 20:44:27 EST I Believe... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1858615 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/5/8/b586095196.jpg"> <BR> I believe... <BR> <BR> *that great things are on the horizon because I am choosing to change <BR> *that I am in charge of my destiny <BR> *that my passion & intensity can sparkle bright in the workforce once again <BR> *that this risk is DEFINITELY worth it - for my peace of mind & health <BR> *that I can achieve whatever I put my mind to <BR> *that success can be mine (yes, pretty confident I'm getting the new job... <e... Sat, 7 Mar 2009 16:10:34 EST INTERVIEWED AGAIN! :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1853674 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/2/7/b276893331.jpg"> <BR> INTERVIEW PART TWO- <BR> <BR> Okay- the interview process is going well; I got together three times last year w/ four different people from the company I'm interested in. <BR> <BR> I had my first FORMAL interview last Friday & it went great. <BR> I had my second FORMAL interview today & it went even better. <BR> Up until today, I was undecided if I wanted to leave my company or not. <BR> <BR> I'm decided- I do want to le... Thu, 5 Mar 2009 17:24:03 EST Breaking Point http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1818570 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/7/4/b742622044.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Work was going better & now... I think I'm done there. I physically left a meeting in progress at my customer's establishment, leaving my boss & my customer with their jaws dropped open as I left the room & went outside to cool off for a bit. The job & the people affiliated with it- are driving me to breaking point. And Friday (yesterday) was that day. I cried a lot at work & at home & out in public yesterday, jus... Sat, 21 Feb 2009 22:17:07 EST 25 THINGS ABOUT ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1797856 Thanks for the idea, Heather! <BR> <BR> 1. My husband Brian is my heart- yes, I'm a hopeless romantic. <BR> <BR> 2. My mom is one of my best friends- she was/is a great mother & a wonderful friend. <BR> <BR> 3. I want to have a baby- but I have some fertility issues. We tried artificially once and it has not worked yet. <BR> <BR> 4. I'm an avid reader- current obsession: TWILIGHT- I've only read the series once but I own it & am ready to go for my second go around. <BR> <BR> 5. I've se... Sat, 14 Feb 2009 10:34:16 EST Truly Challenged http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1794014 <em>28</em> I was sooooooo mad ... and I did not give in to food as a solution!!!! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> My job has been troubling me for over 6 months now- the job market is not good and I've been trying to deal with the stress. I would not say I've done the best job. I'd go so far to say that the weight I lost last year & gained back- I've blamed on eating while in stress mode from the job. I let this one person (who happens to be my customer) get to me. She's stuck with me and I w... Thu, 12 Feb 2009 18:08:39 EST Healthy at Last http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1785904 Oh- I am FINALLY feeling better- I miss my workouts tremendously. And although my pants are looser than before getting bronchitis/ asthma/ sinus infection- it's a heck of a way to lose weight. Or inches... I'm a wus and haven't gotten on the scale. Tomorrow is weigh in for BLC9 -so we'll see then. <BR> <BR> I'm being proactive today. <BR> <BR> I have packed my lunch/ planned ahead on food & workouts- I'm proud. I promise I will stick to it. That's the hardest thing. I sometimes pack... Tue, 10 Feb 2009 06:23:26 EST Trouble Breathing... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1763899 <em>425</em> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I think my bronchitis is still here- I'm having trouble breathing still- which makes my asthma worse... At the 2nd Super Bowl party I went to yesterday, I was hanging out in a room with smokers. Not a good idea, though I was fine at the time. I woke up and have been tight in the chest all day. <BR> <BR> Guess I've learned that lesson- stay awake from smoke: cigarettes/ cigars/ pipes... <BR> <BR> And I am also concerned about the steroid inhaler I'm u... Mon, 2 Feb 2009 19:46:54 EST 2/1/09 - SUPER BOWL SUNDAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1759429 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/6/7/b675945494.jpg"> <BR> Well, none of my teams are playing today... but one of my least favorite teams is- so I have to root for the other team: GO ARIZONA!!!!!!! <BR> <em>281</em> <em>215</em> <em>84</em> <BR> Pittsburgh- you're going down!!!!!!!!! Sun, 1 Feb 2009 13:38:31 EST On an exercise kick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1712405 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/6/2/b623928287.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This picture is from August- I've gained a few #s back since then.... but if I did it last year, I can do it again this year. <BR> <BR> I seem to do well in the winter- stuck in house/ or gym @ work... not dying to get outside to go to Lake Erie or our beautiful park system. <BR> <BR> I've been exercising consistently -AGAIN... I was not doing the best in November & December. I did some but not like I had as I had ... Sun, 18 Jan 2009 11:36:59 EST BLC9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1696159 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/2/3/b238273339.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Biggest Loser Challenge 9 starts tomorrow- <BR> <BR> I am pumped- <BR> <BR> Wanna get as skinny as Jasmine, my favorite Disney princess. <BR> ** She's strong, not caught up in material things and a hopeless romantic, like me... Now, I'm already an hour-glass figure type gal, just want to get it closer to Jasmine... than to Lucille Ball...** <BR> <BR> Here's to finding my inner Jasmine- she would not give up her go... Tue, 13 Jan 2009 21:00:34 EST New Year, New Focus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1676942 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/4/3/b435192344.jpg"> <BR> <BR> What can I say? This year has been good so far. I changed my attitude...which is not easy. Work gets to me. I let work get to me. Right now, I'm taking it as it comes. I'm still SUPER busy, but I know after this week- it will calm down after months and months of extreme craziness. I've got my eye on the prize. <BR> <BR> And I've been eating healthy/ limiting my calories- saying NO to the goodies at work, packin... Fri, 9 Jan 2009 06:34:43 EST On the Upswing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1634452 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/6/b865322306.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Things are getting better........ at work, at home... I do not feel down and mopey today- I am beginning to feel a bit more like the Mary I know and love... <BR> <BR> I am sad that I let myself get so overcome by outside influences- work stress, others' opinions- <BR> <BR> I am ready to try again and to be the Sunshine I want to be! Tue, 30 Dec 2008 21:43:47 EST To Hope... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1613276 Didn't realize how depressed I was until I verbalized it to my husband today... I know I am frustrated and unhappy about work and impatient about having a family, but I'm doubting myself- why can't I handle life's curve balls better? <BR> <BR> "LIve Like You Were Dying" by Tim McGraw <BR> <BR> "...I took a good long hard look, <BR> "At what I'd do if I could do it all again, <BR> "And then: <BR> <BR> "I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing, <BR> "I went two point seven second... Tue, 16 Dec 2008 17:28:48 EST Luck of the PoBoGerm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1610888 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/7/1/b710140437.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This picture reminds me of one of my goals I've listed as a desired spark streak... which I have not been doing: CRUNCHES every night before bed- 50 of them. <BR> Today, I will get back on track & do them. NO EXCUSES! <BR> <BR> Everyone's heard of the 'Luck o' the Irish'- well, I'm not Irish- though I love their yummy food and have been known to enjoy St. Patrick's Day like an Irishwoman... <BR> <BR> Anyways, m... Mon, 15 Dec 2008 08:04:40 EST Not This Time Around... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1604250 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/2/3/b2300541.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Guess it's not my time... right now- the pregnancy test was negative/ even science did not help me achieve my dream- this time around. <BR> <BR> They say that what doesn't kill us makes us stronger... well, after the year I have had- I think I must be the Incredible Hulk- between work and infertility... I keep trying to remember that my patience and happiness is being tried for a reason... <BR> <BR> Only God Knows ... Wed, 10 Dec 2008 07:13:30 EST Work Work Work- Obsession with an unhealthy partner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1599662 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/9/7/b972820464.jpg"> <BR> <BR> "According to the researchers, being a good boss includes consideration for employees, setting clear goals, setting realistic expectations, communicating and giving feedback, managing change, including people in decision-making and delegating authority..." excerpt from Bad Bosses Are Hard on the Heart (SP Health News article) <BR> <BR> SETTING REALISTIC EXPECTATIONS??? That is my #1 gripe- and I think that doing the... Sun, 7 Dec 2008 11:53:23 EST Today's the Day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1580546 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/5/5/b555858836.jpg"> <BR> Above is a picture of me holding my parents' dogs last Christmas- maybe next Christmas... I'll have a baby in my arms instead. <BR> <BR> My procedure for the artificial insemination is in less than 5 hours. I'm excited. Things looked good at my ultrasound appointment on Saturday morning. You know I'm praying. <BR> <BR> Mon, 24 Nov 2008 06:09:08 EST Tired- but Happy to be up early on Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1578087 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/6/1/b617977360.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm leaving my house in less than an hour to get an ultrasound which will confirm if I'm ready for the next step. I am hoping that I'm ovulating so I can schedule an appointment early next week for artificial insemination. I've been trying to get pregnant since October 2005 and it has not happened for me. This past April, my husband & I went to a fertility specialist. AI is the best way to go. <BR> <BR> I know ... Sat, 22 Nov 2008 06:33:26 EST On the Way Towards the Positive... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1575019 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/3/0/b305187474.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I really hate waking up depressed, unrested. Or perhaps it's the dread of going to work?! <BR> I feel like such a downer lately but am happy that I'm taking corrective measures to get out of this funk. I've heard of people hating their jobs but having no choice but to stay with it. And even moreso now in this economy. <BR> <BR> I am a good point- because my company is not looking to get rid of me, and no person ... Thu, 20 Nov 2008 06:58:16 EST Decisions to Be Made http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1569403 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/4/b846264081.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This picture was me at my company in Spring 2006. I was really happy at my job then. <BR> I was so eager and excited to take on the world. <BR> Now, I'm burnt out- hard core. Although I've learned a lot through my experience at my current job- been doing it over 3 years- I am intelligent to know when it's time to make a change. I've been hemming and hawing over the change because I was afraid. It's not any less sc... Mon, 17 Nov 2008 06:48:29 EST No Exercise/ No Results? -A Post in Being Overworked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1566872 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/3/b836330610.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am at a crossroads with my job- I've been going back and forth, do I leave or do I stay since the summer. I am not satisfied with my job. I am an extremely conscientious, hard working, professional woman. But I'm overworked- and my company will not hire another person. I receive help to a point- but it's not enough. I need an assistant in order to service my customers better and to have some inner peace. Even ... Sat, 15 Nov 2008 10:29:17 EST One Week into November... Autumn is now truly here- http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1555639 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/4/2/b421840905.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I AM GETTING FOCUSED!!! <em>104</em> <BR> I know I said w/ my last post that November was my month. Truly, I'm off to a slow start... but... I'm in full gear now. I have not been a little piggy <em>117</em> <em>287</em> <em>76</em> -at least, I'm doing better at eating a better amount of portions... in the past few days... trying to up my water consumption <em>274</em> <em>274</em> <em>274</em> . <BR> <BR... Sat, 8 Nov 2008 17:12:01 EST November Focus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1543376 I have not been very focused- I am for a few days and get disappointed. <BR> <BR> Being hard on myself- definitely not doing myself any favors. <BR> <BR> Still struggling with the work thing... it's good for a few days or weeks and then I get a doozy of a day when my head hurts and I want to walk out... then I eat bad food / drink and skip a workout... <BR> <BR> I owe myself better than that. Letting others poor attitudes and unhappiness take a way my dreams and goals- not their fault ... Sat, 1 Nov 2008 13:53:17 EST I love food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1530608 I studied Psych in school- we studied Freud. Many people know he listed three stages in human development: <BR> +Oral <BR> +Anal <BR> +Phallic <BR> I know it all sounds horribly sexual...and it is on one level but on another, there is something to it. <BR> I think I'm an Oral person- I like to eat, talk, sing, wear lipstick, chew gum, drink beverages of any sort, kiss... my mouth... <BR> I'm satisfied- <BR> when I talk- probably a good thing since I'm in sales <BR> when I give my hubby a ki... Fri, 24 Oct 2008 20:15:11 EST Biggest Loser Challenge 8 (Oct- Dec 2008) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1506171 I was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited when my co-worker told me that his wife found this site. Spark People sounded like- exactly what I needed. I was going strong for awhile: April/ May/ June... and then work got me down. The work load was too much; I began emotional eating. I was tired and not working my weight loss program to full potential. There will always be something, some roadblock ... life is not easy. <BR> <BR> I found that relaxation, time for me, not worrying about th... Sat, 11 Oct 2008 09:22:58 EST