SUNSHINE20113's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SUNSHINE20113 SUNSHINE20113's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Paris! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5745415 My husband planned a surprise holiday for us - a long weekend in Paris! Oo-la-la!! <BR> <BR> I love Paris and have not been there since I was 19, so to be back as an adult was just fabulous. It's a city that to me is simply a place of dreams. I love the way people walk, talk, dress, and, just be. I love all the little cafes and ornamental architecture everywhere, and, now I've learned that there are also little parks all over the place where you can sit and relax. <BR> <BR> The aim of this... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 04:09:41 EST Stress and cookies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740499 Things didn't go well, yesterday. I sat in front of a computer screen for hours trying to get the words and the thoughts to flow, and they just didn't. Every so often I'd pop down to the kitchen for a cookie. By the end of the day I'd lost count over just how many of those cookies I had. <BR> <BR> At about 5pm I decided it was time to stop. I was not achieving what I was hoping to and with every minute I was getting more and more frustrated and angry with myself. I was not going to get the ... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 04:35:54 EST Knowing what to do, having the will power to do it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732605 The title is borrowed from a comment made by PMRUNNER on one of my previous blogs, where I was talking about needing to start tracking calories properly again. I've been thinking about this a lot over the last week as I've been getting back into the habit of tracking my calories. <BR> I've adjusted my spark people weight goal to be back at my goal-weight within a month, which then automatically adjusted my calorie range down by about 300 calories. For some reason when that happened, I knew t... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 15:57:01 EST Ards Half Marathon - first sub 2hour time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727543 After all the drama with my foot a few days before the race, I ended up doing really well. <BR> <BR> 1hr58.46 was my finishing time and 1hr58.25 my chip time. <BR> <BR> I decided to stick right next to the pacers for this race, which was probably the best thing that I could have done. Their coaching and conversation helped me through the hills, prevented me from slowing down more than I needed to and also taught me the value of how going faster in the flatter parts of the race can help to ... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 06:51:21 EST Playing with the numbers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724573 I'm a kilogram heavier. There's no denying it now, especially as the Maintenance Challenge has my average quite firmly set there. I'm still within my weight range, but, I think it is now time for the reality check. <BR> <BR> I say this because last night as I was tracking my food I was not happy with the numbers and instead of accepting them, I found myself denying them. I knew that my morning portion of milk was more than one glass, but I didn't put down two glasses, I left it at one so th... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 03:22:39 EST Tougher than I think! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709448 Yesterday I had my first running wipe out. I was fifteen minutes away from the end of my run and then suddenly "Splat!" I found myself falling instead of running. <BR> Who knows what it was, just a miscalculation of my footing. What I found remarkable was that within seconds I was up and running again. I caught myself in my fall (meaning my upper body strength must be better than I think it is), found my water bottle (which may have helped cushion my hand from being grazed) and carried on. I... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 03:40:39 EST I did it! The Castleward Half Marathon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670455 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1787458192.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My time was 2.05.09, which I'm incredibly happy with as it was an off-road course which meant that if you weren't going up a hill you were going down one! So, not a course to set a personal best, but definitely one for outstanding scenery and endurace testing. <BR> <BR> The grounds of Castleward are amazing. We ran past farmland, through forests and along the Strangford Lough, with the race starting and ending a... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 11:41:41 EST Last training run before my half marathon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668353 I look forward to the week before my races. It's a little like rehearsal week before a performance. The hard training is done, and now it's all about being strong for the race. I know everyone does it a little differently; I do two slow runs of half an hour. I go as gently as possible, concentrating more on my posture rather than pace. This week, my husband (who does not run at all) agreed to go with my on my first taper run. That was quite wonderful. We ran just under 3 miles in half an hour... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 15:17:43 EST Of course it's hard!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651072 I've been going through my blogs over the last few months and there seems to be a running theme: I'm finding it hard to stay on track. <BR> <BR> I've taken a moment to think about it and realised that I need to be a bit more honest with myself and a whole lot kinder- of course I'm finding things hard! I've just changed my entire lifestyle. Nothing is familiar!! Of course it's hard!! <BR> <BR> Even though I'm living a dream, so to speak, it doesn't take away that this dream is different to ... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 20:46:23 EST Sometimes saying "no" can be a good thing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578924 Thanks to a link in the "At goal and maintaining" team, I came across the Refuse to Regain blog ( http://www.refusetoregain.com ) last night, and something that struck me quite strongly was how the author was encouraging me to say "no". "Refuse" is not a gentle word. It's tough and it's quite stubborn, and, in my mind at least, not the most positive of words. But, here the author was pointing out that after all the hard work of losing weight (think about it: the hours exercising, deciding to... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 04:14:20 EST Two Years since reaching my goal weight! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565955 <em>244</em> <BR> Because, really, I am absolutely thrilled that I've managed another year in maintenance and that by reaching the two year mark there is my chances of gaining the weight back are now 50%. That's an odd I can beat!! <BR> <BR> The last month has been a tough one, but that is where spark people comes in. I started tracking again and being mindful of my food in-take and my daily exercise, and began to feel in control of my weight again. <BR> <BR> The change in lifestyle to ... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 19:40:58 EST The joy of food! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555201 Today, as an evening treat, I ordered a hot chocolate with marshmallows. I knew it was decadent, but I also knew I had that I would still be within my calorie range, even with this little indulgence. I hadn't had real hot chocolate for ages, and I really wanted one. <BR> <BR> The hot chocolate arrived and I popped the two marshmallows on top, leaving them to melt a little bit before taking my first sip. As I was putting the cup down after savouring my first sip, I noticed that there were two... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 15:47:11 EST 3 months since moving and still in goal range - Phew! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5535503 In fact, I came third in the last maintenance challenge, so go me!! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> This week has not been a good week. I came down with a cold that also managed to affect my ear. This meant that when I got out of bed in the morning, or made any sudden movements I got a sudden case of vertigo! Fortunately, I'm feeling much better today, so I think the worst of it has passed. <BR> <BR> The thing about colds is that it is harder for me to get out the door and exercise and much eas... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 07:01:10 EST Adapting to change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511290 This last week has been a tough one for me. This was the week when the University set down their expectations for Phd students and I spent a lot of time getting to know my (much younger) fellow students and getting to grips with what achieving a Phd will actually mean! <BR> <BR> More than the workload, I began to realise that my usual training schedule was going to need to change, too. I have always gone jogging in the evening, and, although I didn't realise it, seen it as something to look ... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 06:12:22 EST My First Half Marathon! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5492729 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l824175037.jpg"> <BR> <BR> There we are. My ever supportive DH and me. He has seen me progress from my first 5km in 2009 (at 148 pounds) to my first half marathon (at 120 pounds). At the end of the race he said, "your body has certainly changed since your first race!!" <BR> <BR> In spite of my IT band giving me a bit of trouble this last week, I managed quite well. I've learned that if I concentrate on relaxing my shoulder it somehow helps ... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 11:53:53 EST One week until race day!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484823 And all I keep thinking is: 'don't get an injury now!!' <BR> <BR> I'm ready. My past two long runs have both been 21km in about 2 hours. I know I can do it, now I just need to taper for this week, get enough sleep and eat well. <BR> <BR> We've been away on holiday in Scotland and have not eaten as well as we usually do. I haven't jumped on the scale yet, so hopefully I haven't gained too much, but I do look forward to a week of balanced, healthy eating before race day. <BR> <BR> I'll be ru... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 17:49:52 EST Anniversary time: Two years of sparking! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477787 <em>408</em> <BR> <BR> Although anniversaries are frequently the opportunity to look back and reflect on what we've achieved over the last year, this time I very much feel like I'm looking forward to the future. Much of the reason for this is because I find myself preparing for a few things that have been on my goal list for just a little bit too long. <BR> <BR> Here's what I think has happened: <BR> <BR> When I started spark people, I was given a few simple ideas to keep me on track t... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 12:35:49 EST The real secret to weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5451698 Yesterday I watched a programme on the BBC documenting the various weight loss gurus over the years. Two of the diet programmes that were reviewed were Weight Watchers and the Atkins diet. The whole premise of the show was that diets don't actually work and that, statistically, people can end up gaining even more weight than they started with after dieting. <BR> <BR> This is not new information. The news really tends to be quite bleak for people who want to keep their weight off, so I got t... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 11:51:55 EST Running update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435875 Everything is looking good for my upcoming half marathon. I had signed up for a 15km race, but it got cancelled, so I created a virtual 15km with the team 'Runner Girls United' which was one way of giving myself a goal halfway towards the half-marathon time. <BR> <BR> I also decided to measure my long runs according to time as opposed to distance. Now I try to increase my long run by 5-10 minutes a week, depending on how I'm feeling. My last run was 1hr 37 (I was 500m away from hitting 17km,... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 04:19:00 EST Emotional over-eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5427301 It's just so busy at the moment. And when it's busy it's hard to keep up with exercise, healthy eating, and my newest focus: emotional well-being. <BR> <BR> This last week I became painfully aware of the power of emotional eating. As part of maintenance plan I allow myself small treats almost every day. Incorporating these small treats was one of the things that helped me break the restrictive dieting/ overeating cycle that I was once in, and I'm sure has been really helpful in keeping my w... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 11:39:55 EST The Countdown to our move begins....how do I do this without gaining weight?!?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407673 That seems to be my main concern. Not, will anything break? Will the journey be a safe one? Have we budgeted properly? No, no, no...... it's: can I do this without the ever familiar 10 pound weight gain? <BR> <BR> Moving and weight gain go together with me. Then once I'm settled, I manage to lose some of the pounds (never all) just in time for the next move. I don't want to go through that again. <BR> <BR> Fortunately, my support network for weight loss in on-line (which means I can take Sp... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 16:37:49 EST Is the first step the biggest step? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393685 <BR> Today I've found myself thinking about how small changes in life can eventually lead us to achieving our greatest dreams. The small step approach works, definitely, but as I've been thinking about it, I realised that when I started Sparkpeople, I didn't feel like I was taking a small step at all. In fact, it took me about two months to just get myself to sign-up for the programme!! <BR> <BR> That was my big step - taking a chance at something that I wasn't very sure would work for me. ... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 17:44:58 EST Half marathon training: Things are looking good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381416 After listening to the advice from folk here on Sparkpeople, I set off for a long run with two goals: to keep myself at a 6min/km pace (about 3.5 miles, think) and to run for 70 minutes - my longest distance so far. I knew that would get me to about 12km (7.5 miles, I think). <BR> So, off I went, and I loved every minute of it! I reached the 60 minute mark with no leg pain and got to 70 minutes feeling quite strong, which was wonderful - quite a difference to the last time I tried it! <BR> Al... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 11:52:49 EST I just ran in a 10km event with Mo Farah - he beat me!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5369299 <em>334</em> Of course he did!! As I was crossing the finish line, he was receiving his trophy for coming first, but at least I got to see the Olympic 10km champion in the flesh and know that I ran in a race that he was competing in. <BR> <BR> He finished the course in 29 minutes. I finished in 47.44. It still astounds me that people are doing a 10km course at double the speed I am - how do they do it? <BR> <BR> I'm very happy, though. I achieved a new personal best and I managed that w... Mon, 27 May 2013 12:41:20 EST Increasing my jogging distance - some questions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5352105 I'm a comfortable 10km distance runner and am now training for a half marathon. Today was my first 65 minute run and I need a bit of advice. <BR> <BR> Do I need to take water on my run? <BR> <BR> I have not taken water with me for at least a year now, but never run for longer than 60 minutes (until today). If I'm on the road for over 60 minutes, should I be hydrating while running? <BR> <BR> Should I be slowing my pace down? <BR> <BR> My easy pace for a 10km is 5,30/km (give or take) whi... Fri, 10 May 2013 11:58:06 EST There are the big dreams....and then there are the even bigger ones! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5344263 I'd say this has been a serendipitous week for me. One of those 'everything is coming together ones', and, after such incredible support and attention from the 'At Goal and Maintaining Team' it seems only right to follow on the progress of those ninja antics in my mind! <BR> <BR> For many years I've said that I have wanted to further my studies and get a Phd. Although I've applied for a few programmes, I've never had any luck with them. <BR> <BR> At the beginning of this year, my husband... Fri, 3 May 2013 10:49:09 EST Injuries happen, but recovery does come (eventually!!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5338408 Jogging is a journey. Truly. <BR> <BR> My injury in December meant I needed to cut back quite drastically and then once again build myself up slowly to the 10km distance. Time has taught me that I have to take it slowly after an injury. Time has also taught me that injuries happen and will keep on happening BUT recovery happens too. <BR> <BR> I've been back at the 10km distance for three weeks now, and, yesterday began increasing my distance to 11km as I have signed myself up for my first... Sun, 28 Apr 2013 15:58:48 EST Destroying my negative thoughts, one karate chop at a time!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308898 Around this time last year I started buying cute little Spring dresses that were a size that I hadn't ever imagined would fit me. I was nervous about these purchases, mainly because I still wasn't feeling skinny and was so nervous I'd just end up putting all the weight back on again, and these dresses would end up staring at me in the wardrobe reminding me of the few minutes in my life when I was thin. <BR> <BR> Well, anyway, it turns out that I was wrong. I've been at a fairly stable weight... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 12:50:13 EST My biggest weapon against emotional eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5278580 Tracking. <BR> <BR> Yes, tracking my food intake. <BR> <BR> When my head is so full of if's and but's and, as a quote I recently read, my greatest judge is living right inside me, the best weapon is to track. <BR> <BR> Tracking makes eating objective rather than subjective. It takes food away from the emotional monster and turns it into a simple game of numbers. <BR> <BR> The monsters says 'you're too fat', but the numbers show me I've eating within my range. <BR> <BR> The monsters ... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 09:20:38 EST What a difference a week makes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5268001 After my last blog, I went and bought a lot of fruit and veggies and then spent most of the weekend cooking (Somehow a lemon meringue pie ended up as part of the cooking plan, and all I can say in my defence is that I got excited about using fresh lemons!!) <BR> It's really hard to tell if it has made any difference after only a week. I certainly felt a little bit more energetic, but still have this niggling cough. I did try making smoothies, but it wasn't as exciting as I thought it would be... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 03:33:51 EST Winter blues!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5258792 Well, I'm still listening to my body and it is telling me that it is cold!! Colder than it has ever been!! <BR> I have been trying to get myself out jogging again to get back into shape for a 10km race in May and then for a half marathon in October. But, something is not working. I get out, jog, and then the next day have the sniffles. Then, the next day it gets worse and then I'm sick. So, my training pattern is: jog for thirty minutes, spend five days recovering, repeat!! <BR> It's not wor... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 13:18:03 EST Paying attention to my body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5193010 It has been a very relaxing and easy holiday this year. DH and I have been working on being more accepting with each other and with events in our lives and the result has been a holiday where we have found ourselves doing very little, but loving every minute of it. We slept a lot. At first this was unnerving, but, seeing as our mantra was acceptance, we just went with it. We found ourselves thinking more carefully about what we actually wanted to do, so when we did go out it was always a plea... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 11:44:10 EST One year maintenance anniversary today!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5167349 <em>244</em> I'm overjoyed!! <BR> I decided I needed to lose weight two days before this photo: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1316757798.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Every time I look at this photo I remember how awful I was feeling about myself. My desire to change was extremely strong - strong enough to join spark people!! <BR> <BR> My first goal was to fit into my wedding dress again: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1020731700.jpg"> <BR> <... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 13:46:16 EST Sometimes maintaining is just not giving up! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5161134 I've been unable to jog for about a month now. A year ago, this would have been the signal for me to completely give up on the habit, but I've now learned that a setback doesn't mean the end. It just means a brief pause before starting again, and doing a bit more yoga in the meantime!! <BR> <BR> It's the same with food. Eating too much chocolate on Friday (yes, I did that) doesn't mean I have to eat too much chocolate on Saturday and Sunday too. It was a little setback, not the end of the ro... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 13:47:45 EST Calling all gym instructors: fat bellies work differently to thin ones! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5151656 Since injuring my foot, I have been revisiting some old exercise DVDs, one of which is a power yoga DVD that I've been using for years and years. <BR> This instructor frequently says 'hollow your belly' and it has always been a bit of a mystery to me. How do you do that? <BR> For the most part I would just tighten my belly and hope for the best, but this week as I was tightening my belly, I noticed something: As I tightened my belly, and my belly moved itself closer to my spine, it curved in ... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 12:34:15 EST When everything falls in place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5143919 Tomorrow is my birthday. I remember my birthday last year so clearly because the challenge was not too eat too much food! It's funny how a year later eating only one cupcake to celebrate my birthday feels perfectly reasonable, when last year I was freaking out because it seemed like too little. How perceptions change. <BR> <BR> This week I had an exciting interview for a phd scholarship. It has been a dream of mine to be able to go back to school to complete a Phd, but the practicalities of ... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 04:41:12 EST Clothes, clothes, clothes!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5122268 Yesterday, I planned my entire outfit. I spent time wondering about how clothes would work together and even what kind of impression I would give the world by what I was wearing. <BR> <BR> This is something new for me. <BR> <BR> As I was walking down the street in my skinny jeans, chunky sweater and leather jacket, I found myself thinking that I felt ten years younger! But, after a bit more thinking, I realised that it wasn't that I was feeling ten years younger, just that I was now dressi... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 08:34:53 EST Some new goals: Project cookie monster http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5087366 Project cookie monster! <BR> I managed to conquer the chocolate binges by allowing chocolate into my life everyday, but in very limited quantities. DH and I have one chocolate every evening after dinner and then give the chocolate a score out of ten (It's from a company called 'Hotel Chocolate'. They have these tasting boxes - only two chocolates in each flavour and if you have one a day the box lasts for about a month). This works because the chocolates are delicious and very rich, and there... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 02:55:26 EST I think this may be why this diet has worked for me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5066694 Yesterday I felt fat. I pointed this out to my husband, who got that panic stricken 'Oh my word, how do I respond to this' look on his face, and then asked me when last I had tracked my food. 'I'm not sure,' was my reply. He then said (very carefully) ' Well, you seem to be getting all emotional about your eating, and if you go back to tracking you'll be taking the emotion out of your eating and that might help you.' <BR> <BR> Ah. <BR> <BR> I hadn't thought about tracking like that, but he ... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 16:51:32 EST Here I go again..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5045723 I'm coming up to my one year anniversary at Sparkpeople and I must say, I'm very proud that I'm still standing! <BR> <BR> I've been thinking about how I've made it through a year of birthdays, seasonal celebrations, parties, mood swings, illness, work, holidays, etc, etc, AND, about how I'm about to go through the same cycle all over again. <BR> <BR> Honestly, I'm not very excited about it. In fact, I think it has finally hit me that I can't ever 'ditch the diet' so to speak. That's the o... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 14:59:12 EST Moving away from the scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5026674 I had a big family reunion this weekend and I decided to leave my trusty travel scale at home for the first time since I started the Spark people programme. <BR> <BR> This was a big deal for me because I use the scale to gauge how my weight is doing and help me judge how much I can eat that day. But, I'm beginning to feel it is time to move away from this ritual. <BR> <BR> I decided that I would track my calories religiously to help me survive the long weekend without gaining weight. Unfo... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 16:34:25 EST When exercise turns into a chore. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5012198 My parents are in town. Now, I haven't seen them in two years and the primary purpose of their visit is to see as much of the Olympics as possible, so you can imagine the shift in my lifestyle this has made. <BR> Suddenly I'm chaperoning them all around London - for me we are walking rather slowly, for them, this is the most they have ever walked in their lives!! I'm getting the things I need to do done in half the time, because I'm wanting to spend most of my time with them and also finding... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 14:33:15 EST One of THOSE days..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4974994 where for some unexplainable reason I seem to want to burst into tears all the time! I can easily trace back this high state of emotion to a very stressful last few days, so I know where it's coming from and I know that it will all pass soon, but sitting in the midst of it is still hard. <BR> <BR> At lunch, I went and got myself a cappucino and a selection of four cookies from a nearby bakery. I got them, enjoyed them, and immediately felt better. As I was aware that I needed to treat myself... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 18:22:35 EST Don't forget about the baby steps! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4941905 I've been reflecting. <BR> <BR> Mainly about how I got from where I was 10 months ago to where I am now. And I needed to remind myself that it was lots and lots of very small steps! <BR> <BR> Ten minutes of exercise each day, saying no to the delightful little snacks that seem to be everywhere, being diligent with tracking food, joining challenges, blogging, being courageous. <BR> <BR> Before and after pictures may be dramatic and inspiring, but don't forget the little steps!! That's wha... Mon, 25 Jun 2012 15:45:21 EST Tidying up and melting down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4923688 Two weeks ago I began an on-line program to help me become better at keeping our apartment clean. This program is a very gentle one and starts with one step: shine your sink, which is something I know I can do, so a good place to start. <BR> <BR> Well, well, well. <BR> <BR> It's amazing how one little activity can spark a bit of a kitchen revolution! Two weeks in and the sink is still sparkly, and both DH and I have been inspired to clean a little more, a little bit more often. The main fo... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 17:55:55 EST Why you need the exercise AND the diet - the proof is in the pictures! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4899869 Three years ago I trained up for my first 5Km, my only motivation for it being that I wanted to lose weight. I was under the impression that as long as I started an exercise routine I would lose weight. I trained up and managed to run the race in 37 minutes, but only lost 4 pounds! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l980882171.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I managed to gain back the weight I had lost and came to the conclusion that I needed to train for a longer race - maybe... Sun, 27 May 2012 11:25:55 EST 20 weeks since reaching my goal! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4864097 And I'm still skinny <em>334</em> !! Because I still find myself a little surprised by that whenever I jump on the scale. <BR> <BR> I think I have been at my current weight now for about two months. My original goal was 59kg (130 pounds, I think) and I went on to lose another 5kg while I think I was still making sense of what maintenance actually means!! I've been at 54kg for about two months now (give or take, I seem to be able to stay within half kilo of that weight every week for the las... Thu, 3 May 2012 03:16:35 EST The exercise that never quite feels like work...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4845397 Saturday afternoon, DH is out of town and I am making the most of a flat to myself by dancing up a storm! <BR> <BR> This is the exercise I do when I'm tired and home alone. For me, there is nothing quite like it because it seems to feed my soul, my body and my mind more than any other exercise. My main sport is jogging, which I work hard at, but it is different in that it is a discipline: something I have had to follow a training plan with, and something that I need to do on a regular basi... Sat, 21 Apr 2012 13:08:24 EST The junk food that stayed......and the junk that has gone away. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4829187 DH and I shared a delicious bag of chunky fries today from our local chippy, and, as I was busy adding it to my nutrition tracker, I realized that I still eat fries quite a bit - not every day - but they must make their way onto my nutrition tracker every two or three weeks. <BR> BUT <BR> ice cream is not very common at all for me now. This is one junk food that I've had quite a bit of in the last week, but can't actually remember the last time I ate it! That seems to have been one of the ju... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 19:04:57 EST I may look skinnier, but...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4823540 This last week has been eye opening for me. It has been my first proper break in a long time, and, it seems that when my mind realizes it is on holiday, it feels like it needs to be on holiday from calorie counting too! <BR> How strange to observe my hand as it reaches for the popcorn/ chocolate/ dessert just the way it used to six months ago. Mentally I knew this was not the thing to do, but at the same time, I needed to relax. And, 'this is what I do when I relax' was what my mind was tell... Fri, 6 Apr 2012 16:12:30 EST