SUMMER2203's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SUMMER2203 SUMMER2203's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ avoiding the scale... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837291 so...had a bit of a slip up yesterday...that involved many crackers w/ salmon cream cheese + onions + capers after work, and two pieces of pizza for dinner... <BR> <BR> lets just say that my body wasn't a huge fan of these choices haha and has handled this is in a natural way, but i am sure that i still have some consequences on the scale. alas, i have decided to avoid it. i know that if i see a higher number on the scale, it is going to lead me to eat tons of leftover pizza and throw my hea... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 07:21:12 EST recap 12.21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836828 yayyy yesterday was my healthiest eating day in forever! and with the dog walk and errands, my step count wasn't too shabby, either :) <BR> <BR> massive breakfast - 4 egg whites scrambled w/ leftover chicken thigh, raw cauliflower, baby bella mushrooms, salsa verde, arugula and a bit of olive oil. 1 piece of ezekial sprouted grain bread on the side, and a mug of coffee. <BR> <BR> late afternoon snack - 6 oz of canned salmon w/ salt, pepper, 1 tsp of olive oil and capers. 9 blackberries. <BR... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 12:09:21 EST recap 12.20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836367 woops! i have missed a couple of recap days in there - no worries, not because i've been off-track! the scale is still going down, slooooowly but surely :) <BR> <BR> i have not been able to get myself in the gym mode this weekend, but i am not letting that make me lazy. i am headed out now to take the dog for a walk, and then off to do laundry...blah. my eating has been pretty on-track -- i ate way too much for lunch yesterday, but then decided to skip dinner so that i was still on-target wi... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 13:52:32 EST recap 12.17 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834809 while obviously nothing dramatic has happened yet on the scale, i am already feeling much more comfortable in my clothes :) looking forward to having time for the gym this weekend! <BR> <BR> recap: <BR> <BR> breakfast - 3 turkey sausage links, coffee w/ half and half <BR> <BR> snack 1: blueberries + blackberries with 5 pecans <BR> <BR> snack 2: 56 cals of kale popcorn, a bunch of mini baby carrots, clementine <BR> <BR> late lunch: buffalo chicken salad and an activia light (the salad bar... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 08:13:59 EST recap 12.16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834413 ugh today is super busy and no time to take a lunch break until like 3...i am trying to keep consistently snacking on healthy stuff until i have time for a meal! <BR> <BR> yesterday was weird eating-wise, but i went to the gym and ate intuitively, so i feel good about it! <BR> <BR> breakfast - 4 egg whites w/ 4-ish oz of southwestern chicken, covered w/ shredded cheddar cheese (yum!!!!) <BR> <BR> morning "snack" - a HUGE mug of coffee w/ 4 tbsp of creamer <BR> <BR> lunch - a couple of pie... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 12:16:55 EST recap 12.15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833858 finally under the 165 hump and into the lower 160s -- ready to see some real progress being made! i know that as a small step, i will feel much better back under 160. my body composition changes dramatically once i get into the 150s. <BR> <BR> i am actually home sick from work today, so planning to keep it clean eating-wise and get lots of rest. i have a book club meeting with some friends tonight, but i don't plan to have more than a couple of glasses of wine. <BR> <BR> recap- <BR> breakfa... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 11:08:29 EST weekend recap and other things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833262 firstly, i am just feeling kind of bleh. my bf and i were having a conversation about body norms in different cultures yesterday (maybe a slippery slope?) and he made a comment about how most white girls would not want my body. i know that he meant nothing by it, and would never mean to offend me, but it reallllly upset me (more than i expected). at first i just kind of brushed it off, but then i brought it up later and he apologized...but i couldn't let it go. i was like locked-in-the-bathro... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 08:23:46 EST recap 12.12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832468 my weekend goal of hitting the gym friday, saturday and sunday is well on its way...i had a solid workout yesterday, and im heading to the gym right after writing this! <BR> <BR> i will make this brief, but wanted to be sure to keep the recaps comin. <BR> <BR> as i mentioned yesterday, my food choices were not the best. i had an emotional morning, and let that steer me in the wrong direction. i did, however, stop myself before heading to bingetown, and brought things back in the right direc... Sat, 13 Dec 2014 15:36:42 EST recap 12.11.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831955 firstly: goal for this weekend -- break past the 165 barrier and into the lower 160s by monday! it will be crucial that i work out every day this weekend to achieve this. for once, i have no obligations, so there is no excuse other than laziness for not achieving that! <BR> <BR> i had a little emotional eating spiral earlier this afternoon, but reeled it in just in time haha. i was ready to continue on to eating a cookie at the office and then getting junk food for lunch...but i tracked what... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 12:55:54 EST recap 12.10 and making better choices! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831261 hey yall! so firstly, my work event went GREAT last night - seriously everything that i could've hoped for. my eating was pretty on-track, despite the crazy scheduling. i did eat about 10 tortilla chips at dinner, but still well within ranges, so i'm not gonna beat myself up about it! <BR> <BR> i was dead tired after the event and dinner last night, and didn't prep my food before bed. i was all ready to grab a bagel this morning, and had already done the whole "it's fine to have one bagel, t... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 08:39:15 EST recap 12.9.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830902 ughhh last night was one of those couldn't-fall-asleep-until-4.30am-and-waki<BR>ng-up-and-6am-nights. aka i am tirrrrrred. i had an event starting at 7.30 this morning, and have another one until at least 8.30ish tonight. whinnnne. <BR> <BR> anyway, i'll just get to the recap cuz i don't really have any news...(minus being down another lb today, woop woop!). i was also STARVING after dinner last night, and had one of those nights where i had to like lock myself in my bed and not allow myself... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 14:10:28 EST a 2-blog day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830381 ok so i felt the need to double-blog today for two reasons: <BR> -i have a new mini-plan <BR> -i need advice <BR> <BR> MINI-PLAN: <BR> i have been struggling with 2 major things recently -- getting enough exercise, and not blowing my food plan at dinner. i'm on a three-day streak, but i want that to continue! therefore, i am setting two very manageable goals for myself. <BR> 1) get at least 15 minutes of exercise per day. this can be a lunchtime walk, dog walk, or the gym. there is no reaso... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 15:25:59 EST recap 12.8.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830276 so yesterday didn't go exaaccctly according to plan, because i was all pumped to walk the dog and cook a healthy dinner...and then i started feeling super headachy-sick :( so i just made myself a quick dinner in bed and slept on and off from 8 pm - on. that being said, my nutrition was still bangin yesterday, and i can still walk the dog and make dinner tonight!!! i am finnnnally down a pound, so happy to get things moving in the right direction again :) <BR> <BR> recap: <BR> breakfast - 3.5... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 11:37:29 EST recap 12.7.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829510 it felt good to finally get myself organized yesterday - cleaned the apt, did my laundry, stocked the fridge -- i'm ready for a much more structured week than last week!! <BR> <BR> also -- a complete sidenote -- we recently got my dog a crate, which we had been avoiding doing. it has been SUCH game changer! surprisingly, she loves it...there are no more accidents...everything is better! <BR> <BR> anyway, recap: <BR> <BR> breakfast - egg white omelette w/ cornish hen, 5 kalamata olives, .... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 07:50:05 EST whew http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5828082 this week has been a doozy. finishing up two classes, work events almost every night...i feel so out of sorts! my eating has been ehhh my exercise has been ehhh and i have been pretty overwhelmed. <BR> <BR> i am finishing my last class of the semester tomorrow, and it is not a day too soon! <BR> <BR> i have my work holiday party tonight, and the menu includes veggies, garlic shrimp and meat, so i think i should be able to keep it pretty high protein/low carb (of course there are also three... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 11:21:49 EST recap dec 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826252 ugh i have been in such a bad mood that i can't seem to shake! everything at work is annoying me soooooo much! i have to be here until 8 tonight for class and i am dreadddding... <BR> <BR> anyway, yesterday was a pretty solid day! <BR> <BR> breakfast - 2 egg whites + 3 turkey sausage links, cup of coffee with half and half <BR> <BR> morning snacks - activia greek w/ grapenuts, blueberries and raspberries. <BR> <BR> lunch - homemade southwestern chicken, tiny salad w/ spinach, brussel spr... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 08:06:51 EST recap november 30th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825665 today is day two back on the wagon! i have TONS of food prepped for work, and as long as it doesn't rain today, i am all set for a lunchtime walk :) <BR> <BR> i am aiming to get back to my sunday weigh-ins -- i reallllllly need to stop weighing in daily! <BR> <BR> yesterday was a bit higher in carbs than i would like, and i am making an effort from here on out to really cut down on bread products (i am thinking that i will allow grapenuts -- and that's it!) <BR> <BR> breakfast - 3 egg whit... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 09:14:47 EST i am done beating myself up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825298 so my friends came in town. and they saw me fat again. we had fun, but i am not going to deny that i was extremely self-conscious the entire time. i ate whatever i wanted on thanksgiving, and i didn't wear my fitbit for three days in a row. basically...i stopped caring. and it didn't feel good. in fact...it felt pretty gross. <BR> <BR> so today, i got back at it. originally, i was going to start with a fresh slate on dec 1, but it didn't seem to make sense to wait an extra day! i am back to ... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 17:15:45 EST :( :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823327 guyssss i am feeling so fat and bad about myself :( :( it is so hard not to think about the fact that i was in the low 150s last thanksgiving, getting compliments from everyone about how great i looked (and the last time i saw some of these people, i was in the 130s). i am in the upper 160s now, feeling like sh*t. <BR> <BR> i know that i can get it back together, but i just still can't believe that i gained all of this weight back! i know myself, and i know that i am going to feel so self c... Wed, 26 Nov 2014 11:42:07 EST recap 11.23.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822101 so i had a bit of a binge on saturday - which i have really resolved to be my last. it is not overeating that is keeping me at this weight, it is binging. and i am ready to really focus on controlling this. <BR> <BR> but regardless. i had a friendsgiving thing yesterday, and i was determined not to let it get me more off-track on the scale...so i tore myself away from cuddling with my boyfriend in the morning and went to the gym! i ran 1 mile, did some weights, ran another half mile, did som... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 08:20:02 EST recap 11.20.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820532 i am feeling the beginning of a sore throat...which is not cool, because i was just sick a month ago! i thought that my annual illness had already come and gone! <BR> <BR> anyway, yesterday was a highlllllly unusual day in that i didn't really get hungry until 5 pm! i am always hungry! i kept thinking "oh, i should eat one of my snacks now!" but then i realized that i wasn't hungry...so i didn't eat (also quite rare!). <BR> <BR> anyway, recap! <BR> <BR> breakfast - three egg whites + 3 tur... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 08:06:41 EST great spark advice, as always!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819988 so i followed the advice on my previous blog, and decided to focus on being positive! <BR> <BR> i am also glad that i decided to start taking measurements, because i am already down .25" from my waist and 2" from my lower belly - from yesterday!! so eff the scale - i am making progress :) <BR> <BR> recap from yesterday -- <BR> <BR> breakfast - 1 turkey sausage link, grande soy latte <BR> <BR> lunch - (work lunch -- tried to make the best choices from my boxed lunch options!) 1/2 turkey s... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 09:18:47 EST blehhhh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819443 so i have been eating well and cooking and drinking tons of water....but my body image is at an all-time low. i just feel so, so gross. i have to say -- gaining the weight back feels much worse than being fat did in the first place. i'm pretty sure that i felt great when i was in the 160s on my way down...but now i feel disgusting. all i can think about is everyone noticing how fat i've gotten, and how my clothes don't look good on my anymore...etc. etc. i am very eager for some significant p... Wed, 19 Nov 2014 10:26:17 EST being nice to myself...plus a recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818788 so i have realized that being kind to myself is a constant process - that is not necessarily my instinct. today's example: i was really irritated with my bf last night - we did not have a fight or anything, but my negative emotions kept me up all night. (literally - i went to bed at 6 and woke up at 7.) i usually wake up at 6.15, so i was way behind schedule. i pre-packed all of my snacks + lunch, but not breakfast. my first thought was "oh, i'll buy a bagel when i go to buy coffee this morni... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 08:36:03 EST recap 11.16.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5817923 since im already all tucked up in bed, i figured i may as well do my recap for today now! <BR> <BR> i am pretttty proud of my food choices today, and i packed so many healthy snacks for work tomorrow!!! <BR> <BR> breakfast - mixed green salad w/ leftover avocado/tuna salad, celery, tomato, 4 hardboiled egg whites, 4 pecans <BR> <BR> snacks - a couple of spoonfuls of my homemade chicken vegetable soup, about 1 oz of fage 0% mixed w/ ranch mix and about 10 baby carrots <BR> <BR> lunch - 15 ... Sun, 16 Nov 2014 20:15:24 EST recap 11.15.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5817823 ok - i am going to start with a spoiler alert for tomorrow's recap blog -- i went to the gym AND prepped inventive + healthy food today! i literally think this was my first time in the gym in the past 6 months...eek! i will say that it felt very natural and good to be back, and i made an effort not to be hard on myself for my (obviously) lower cardio level. i did what i could cardio-wise, and then spent a bunch of time on the weights. <BR> <BR> anyway...to the recap! <BR> <BR> breakfast - 2... Sun, 16 Nov 2014 15:45:52 EST recap 11.13.14 and 11.14.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816912 i didnt have a chance to do my recap of yesterday yt, so i will do yesterday and today at the same time! <BR> <BR> 11.13.14 <BR> breakfast - coffee with half and half, 4 egg whites, 3 jimmy dean turkey sausage links <BR> <BR> morning snack - activia greek yogurt w/ .25 cup of grapenuts + 10 raspberries. 2 clementines <BR> <BR> lunch - leftover salad (mixed greens + pear + pecan) + 3 oz of chicken <BR> <BR> afternoon snack - handful of holiday popcorn (cheddar + caramel) <BR> <BR> evening... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 20:02:41 EST recap 11.12.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816005 i know that daily recaps keep me accountable, so i plan to start these up again! i am happy to say that i am down 4.8 lbs since yesterday, so it seems that a lot of that was water weight. my boyfriend and i prepped a TON of food last night, so that should last for most of the weekend. <BR> <BR> food yesterday: <BR> <BR> breakfast - cup of coffee w/ half and half (i didn't mean to skip breakfast, but i was running super late for an event...) <BR> <BR> lunch- mixed greens w/ chicken, sweet p... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 08:00:31 EST pretty much...starting from scratch http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815626 so, i am more or less disgusted to say that i woke up in the 170s this morning. this means that since march, i have gained back 33.7 lbs. this is not a little slip-up. this is an average weight gain of 4.8 lbs per month for the past 7 months. <BR> <BR> i am very close to my highest weight...very few of my clothes fit...my back fat is back in full force (obviously along with my front fat)...my face is bigger...my arms are bigger...i am winded more easily...all in all, this is a hot mess. <BR... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 15:46:12 EST finally a recap that i'm proud of :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811176 yesterday was my first fully on-track day in god knows how long...not only did i eat according to plan, but i made sure to prep dinner for the week and breakfast/snacks for today, despite the fact that i did not get home from work and class until 9. <BR> <BR> i was a little bit higher on cals and carbs than i would like, but i am just going to celebrate the simple victory that i was well within my ranges for once! <BR> <BR> breakfast: 3 egg whites, 2 turkey sausage, low-carb everything wra... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 08:29:05 EST the birthday challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5810553 so...i have reset my goals again. i won't go into detail about how bad my weekend has been (both eating-wise and otherwise), but i will go into detail about why i am doing this "for real" this time: <BR> <BR> -my dad was diagnosed with diabetes this weekend, and was in the hospital for 3 days (largely because of poor eating habits) <BR> <BR> -my best friend's wedding is in may, and i am shopping for a bridesmaid dress in january <BR> <BR> -i have a closet that is filled to the brim with ne... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 09:06:16 EST it's halloweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808053 which feels kind of anticlimactic at the moment, as it is just another day at work haha. but i will be going out tonight! and tomorrow! <BR> <BR> i have been SERIOUSLY sick and am finally starting to get over it...although i definitely could've used another day off... <BR> <BR> i figure it is a good time to get back to recaps! i was re-reading old blogs yesterday, and i really want to get back to being as good as i used to be! i feel like i was actually really healthy yesterday, but somehow... Fri, 31 Oct 2014 10:10:49 EST practicing being nice to myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806191 so firstly, i successfully followed my plan for yesterday -- got home from work, popped laundry in, and cooked up a storm. i do NOT cook, so this is itself was a huge achievement haha (i was texting my boyfriend every 10 mins with cooking updates haha). <BR> <BR> the paleo jambalaya actually turned out pretty delicious! i am proud! there's also nothing in there that is really remotely unhealthy, which makes it a good staple for the week. the egg cups that i made looked so delicious and healt... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 08:27:04 EST updates updates!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805612 so...i was so so so on track this weekend. i was down to 161 and dropping rapidly -- totally on-track to hit my 159 goal today! i was seriously really proud of myself this weekend. <BR> <BR> until yesterday. i had the undeserved "cheat" day of a lifetime. just because it eases my guilty conscience, i will share my gluttony: <BR> <BR> breakfast: <BR> -egg white + turkey sausage on a bagel <BR> -turkey chipotle club on a bagel <BR> -ham & swiss croissant <BR> -nutella croissant <BR> (yes...th... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 10:35:02 EST trying to juggle all of the balls!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802890 i had a realization earlier today...i have been pretty much on fire work and school-wise (more than ever before). i am feeling so confident and on top of my game. i would LOVE to feel that way in all aspects of my life. i feel like i have been doing well as a girlfriend, friend and daughter...but i haven't been good to myself! i just CANNOT seem to get my old level of motivation back! i will eat well for breakfast and dinner and then eat tons of junk. i don't even recognize myself! my eating ... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 15:10:46 EST weekend recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801326 so...still weighing a lot more than i would like, but i had a pretty on-track weekend! i was definitely not perfect, but i think my choices balanced out for the most part... <BR> <BR> saturday brunch: egg white omelette w/ feta, bell pepper and gyro meat, 2 slices of buttered rye bread, a bit of hash browns <BR> <BR> dinner: 2 slices of pepperoni pizza + 4 sugar free redbulls + vodka <BR> <BR> exercise: 6,823 steps, 429 cals burned <BR> <BR> ok, so obviously not the best choices...but i a... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 08:18:20 EST recap 10.13.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797931 in the spirit of fall and change, i impulsively dyed my hair BRIGHT RED yesterday. like...bright. haha. (pretty close to this:) ob <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1637204887.jpg"> <BR> <BR> i get to work at 7.30 and no one else gets here until around 8.45, so i am nervous to see how people react...it is a pretty drastic change! <BR> <BR> anyway - yesterday was a good food day!! i didn't stick to no bread, but i didn't get out of control. <BR> <BR> breakfast - very very w... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 08:55:53 EST weekend recap and moving forward... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797393 so, the start to the weekend was great. i was completely on-point calorie and step-wise, and had the healthiest day that i have had in a long time! <BR> <BR> then...saturday. my bf is the gm of a restaurant, and they were having a chili cookoff - i was one of three judges. this in itself wouldn't have necessarily been bad, as chili is all protein! but...i accidentally got kind of drunk. which led to total bingetown. in a serious way haha. i was so sick from this binge that i had to cancel my... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 11:38:12 EST one more countdown to add to the list... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795775 i am going to ireland!!!!! my boyfriend and i are going with another couple...i cannot freaking wait! i used to live in ireland and i miss it so much, all the time. what's a better motivator than looking good in ireland pics? :) <BR> <BR> i wasn't fullllly successful with my first day of no bread yesterday, but my carbs were still well under 100, so i'm not stressed! <BR> <BR> i am on a mini hiatus from the scale (hopefully i can hold out on weighing in until monday) so no weight update to ... Fri, 10 Oct 2014 10:38:49 EST countdowns! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795190 i have two upcoming exciting events that are giving me extra motivation to drop deez pounds! <BR> <BR> i totally FAILED at my dietbet (womp womp $65 down the drain) but i am ready to at least hit some weight loss targets that i am setting for myself!! <BR> <BR> #1 - i am going to a cabin w/ my boyfriend on oct 24th, and there will be a hot tub involved. aka a bathing suit. obviously, my boyfriend knows what i look like...but a bathing suit adds a whole different level! other than trying on ... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 10:31:59 EST recap 10.6.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793906 yesterday was one of those "starving all day" days where i just could not get full!!! also, i took my dog on a short walk, but it started pouring - so my steps didn't quiiiite make it to where i was hoping. anyway, while i am really doubting (aka definitely not going to) that i am going to win my dietbet, i am still on track! i am planning to recreate my new post-work, pre-class tuesday tradition of grabbing half a salad and a cup of soup at zoup today - i am already excited haha. <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 08:43:09 EST i'm really, really back!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793310 i feel like i remember how to do this now!! :) i am feeling like my old self, and i think i am finally on track - for real. i am re-starting my daily accountability blogs, and i am excited to be on the right track again :) <BR> <BR> as mentioned, i am supposed to be at 157.2 by this wednesday for the diet bet that i am participating in. i got down to 158.2 a cpl of weeks ago, and was thinking that i would be way ahead of my goal... but then the scale started creeping again...and by friday of... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 10:08:07 EST it's been a while! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5789823 i just realized that it had been a while since i have checked in with a blog! fear not - it is not because i haven't been "sparking"... i have been diligently watching what i'm eating, trying to get my steps in as much as possible, and tracking my food. <BR> <BR> i am back to no bread, which always works for me, but the progress is slow to show on the scale. i am still not at my target weight for the diet bet (157.2 on oct 7th) so i am crossing my fingers that things fall into place by then.... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 15:03:17 EST 6 weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5782072 so i am writing this at 5 am in a hotel room in the middle of nowhere (business travel!). i had the binge of all binges last night, and i feel incredibly disgusting at the moment. like INCREDIBLY disgusting. but i refuse to dwell on this feeling, and i refuse to go a single pound further in the wrong direction. i am headed back to my starting weight at an alarming rate, and it needs to stop. seriously. <BR> <BR> i got almost 14,000 steps yesterday, but then i decided to order food to my room... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 05:09:12 EST recap 9.15.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780817 i woke up this morning with the familiar urge to binge, and i am happy to say that i ate a healthy snack and put that monster to rest. <BR> <BR> i was super hungry all day yesterday, but i think that i managed to make pretty healthy choices. <BR> <BR> breakfast - grande soy latte, 2 oz of turkey, .75 cup of grapes <BR> <BR> lunch - salad w/ 2 egg whites, 3 oz of chicken, 2 tbsp of cottage cheese, 2 tbsp of black olives, 1 cup of cauliflower, a bunch of banana peppers and 10 pepperoni. 12 o... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 08:11:45 EST monday morning!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780131 soooo no time like a monday morning for a fresh start, right?? i totally overindulged all weekend, and barely got any exercise (i don't think that one 45-minute walk with my puppy counts as adequate exercise for a 2-day period...) <BR> <BR> the battery is dead on my scale, and i have decided that i am not going to replace it until the day before my dietbet (i need to take a picture of myself on the scale on october 7). i tend to get crazy about the scale and sabotage myself, so i am just goi... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 08:25:18 EST feelin a little better :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777757 so...this is the first really fall-like day, and i am wearing brand new boots, so how can i be in bad mood?! i am down 4.4 lbs since i started my dietbet on tuesday, so that also helps! i am down 0.5 inch on my waist and 1 inch on my lower belly, so i look forward to seeing more progress there. <BR> <BR> recap: <BR> <BR> breakfast - flatout wrap w/ 2 ounces of turkey + pickle relish (i'm weird). medium iced soy latte <BR> <BR> snack - a doubletree chocolate chip cookie (eek it was deliver... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 08:00:43 EST this sucks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777322 i am trying so hard to be body-positive and not be hard on myself about how much weight i've gained...but the bottom line is that it sucks!!!!!!! none of my clothes fit. i feel huge. my stomach feels huge. my legs feel huge. my face feels huge. <BR> <BR> i know that i am on the right track, and should just be focusing on that, but it is so hard! i just want to buy cute fall clothes, but i would probably have to buy size ten when i was wearing a size four. blahhhhhhhhhhhh. i need a serious mi... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 14:38:46 EST money for weight loss!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776371 i have entered my very first diet bet! (well, actually two!) <BR> <BR> i entered bids of $35 and $30 to lose 4% of my body weight by october 7th - depending on how many other people in the bet achieve the same goal, i could win up to $70 per bet (i think haha). regardless - a little healthy competition never hurts! <BR> <BR> since 4% isn't very much, i am challenging myself to lose 8% by october 7th, which would put me at 151. i am hoping that this extra accountability helps me to stay on ... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 08:06:57 EST a season of change :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775730 i always love fall - something about the change of the seasons always makes me feel refreshed and ready for change...which is something that i desperately need right now. i was looking back at my old entries, and i have not been this weight since june 2013...aka only 2 months into my weight loss journey. eek. <BR> <BR> but that's ok! according to the spark recommendations, if i lose 2 lbs per week, i will be at my goal by the first week of january. i can spend the fall and winter focusing o... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 09:25:51 EST