SUMMER2203's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SUMMER2203 SUMMER2203's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ whole 30 day 19 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860806 so, it seems that the cravings have finally hit me. i think that most people experience cravings in weeks 1 or 2 of whole 30, but apparently mine held out until week 3! for the past two days or so, i have been SO tempted to just call it a day with this, and go back to eating dairy. and bread. etc. i haven't necessarily been craving unhealthy food, just things that i can't eat for 11 more days! <BR> <BR> i think part of this is coming from frustration with the slow weight loss... i was expect... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 07:58:12 EST whole 30 day 18 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860063 whew! finally, finally hit my 10K step goal yesterday! it has been wayyyy too long since that has happened. i really need to sneak more activity into my work day so that this happens more often! i drank way too much caffeine yesterday, and had my first negative reaction to it ever - my heartrate wouldn't slow down, i was super nauseous...everything. i also had a horrible night's sleep. i woke up feeling much better, but still jittery!!! <BR> <BR> food yesterday: <BR> <BR> breakfast - 4 egg ... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 07:52:28 EST whole 30 day 17 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858997 i am already in bed, so might as well do my recap now! i have a bit of a tummy ache, so didn't really have a formal dinner tonight - i ate my snacks in class and then called it a day. <BR> <BR> bag is packed to go to the gym after work tomorrow, and i'm excited!!! <BR> <BR> today's food: <BR> <BR> breakfast - 4 egg whites + half an egg yolk (cooked in the microwave!!!) with ghee. this is my first time trying eggs in the microwave -- it is so easy!!! i also had a cup of coffee w/ unsweetene... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 20:08:57 EST whole 30 day 16 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858487 it was so nice to have an extra-long weekend...i definitely enjoyed the opportunity for a lazy day/afternoon trip to the gym! i did get to work extra-early this morning, though, because i was a little too much in weekend mindset and did not finish my reading for class today...oops! hoping to get that done this morning. <BR> <BR> food yesterday: <BR> <BR> breakfast - 4 egg whites cooked in ghee, blueberries + strawberries on the side. cup of coffee w/ unsweetened coconut milk <BR> <BR> lunc... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 07:31:33 EST yeesh...the countdown... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858027 so, i definitely had a nightmare yesterday about brideamaid dress shopping haha. it is 31 days away, and i am terrified that i am going to be the same size then that i am now!!! speaking from recent experiences with rent the runway, absolutely no dresses look good on me when i am this size. <BR> <BR> in 31 days, speaking realistically/hopefully, i can lose 11 lbs. this would put me at 152 - which is definitely not optimal, but i should be able to fit easily into a size 8 (and possibly 6) at ... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 15:24:54 EST whole 30 days 14 + 15 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857774 oops! completely forgot to blog yesterday...but not because i have been off-track! just in super-weekend mode :) <BR> <BR> day 14 (saturday): <BR> <BR> breakfast - 4 egg white omelette w/ mushrooms, broccoli, olives and 1 piece of prosciutto, cooked in ghee. i ALSO had a lara bar and cup of coffee on the side <BR> <BR> lunch - 3 pineapple spears (due to my huge breakfast!) <BR> <BR> dinner - chilean sea bass w/ mixed stirfried veggies on the side (only whole30-friendly ingredients used in... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 10:09:58 EST whole 30 day 13 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856383 so close to being half-way through!!! i have to say, i am pretty excited to eat wine and cheese again haha. otherwise, i plan to stick to this for the most part! <BR> <BR> i went out last night and although i was kinnnnnd of tempted to drink, i stuck to water! <BR> <BR> i took a half-day yesterday, which meant an afternoon trip to the gym and a trip to the hairstylist :) pretty solid friday! <BR> <BR> recap: <BR> <BR> breakfast - cup of coffee w/ coconut creamer. apple w/ 2 tbsp of nuttzo... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 11:22:37 EST whole 30 day 12 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855591 so...approaching weekend #2 of no alcohol -- and feeling good about it!!! i honestly can't wait to just have a couple of days off. class weekends + full work weeks = exhausted me. <BR> <BR> i woke up with a horrible headache today, but it seems to be going away with medicine + caffeine. still can't figure out if this is my body taking a very long time to detox haha, or what is going on! <BR> <BR> i opted to take the dog for a long walk yesterday instead of going to the gym -- it finally got... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 07:57:49 EST whole 30 day 11 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854870 so, while yesterday i was still feeling very lethargic/out of it/etc - i am feeling the complete opposite today! i was actually feeling so bad yesterday that i was talking to my bf about going to the doctor to get blood work....but i am feeling amazing this morning! and...best of all...i can finally go to the gym today! i packed my gym stuff and i can't wait to finally work out again. i really want to maximize on my weight loss in these 30 days, and i KNOW that won't happen without exercise. ... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 08:09:02 EST whole 30 day 10 recap (AKA 1/3 done!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854275 yesterday ended up being a very long day -- i had a headache that refused to go away, and i just felt very "off" all day. i really feel like my body is fighting something off - i haven't felt like myself all week!! <BR> <BR> still no food cravings - and pretty proud of myself for the work that i have been doing in the kitchen!!! so far this week, i have made a simple chicken curry, as well as a whole30-friendly shepard's pie. i have never been so creative with cooking in my life! <BR> <BR>... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 11:50:32 EST whole 30 day 9 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853365 feeling 100% better than i did yesterday! the stressful situation has dissipated, i finally got a full night's sleep annnd had time to grocery shop and do a bit of meal prep - feeling good! <BR> <BR> i feel like it's worth mentioning that i have not had a single craving that would put me "off-plan" so far, which i find interesting! i have not been drawn to bread, or pizza, or fries, or any of the usual culprits! i do, however, have a headache today, which i am hoping will go away shortly... ... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 09:43:12 EST whole 30 day 8 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852523 ugh streeeessssful morning that i will not be going into at the moment haha, but it is related health-wise, because i made breakfast and didn't end up eating it. i also have to be at work until 8 pm today, and didn't have any groceries to pack meals. should be interesting! <BR> <BR> anyway, dinner out last night was honestly not that much of a challenge -- i think that i made good choices, and was not tempted to drink. i have to say, i have been feeling super lethargic and not myself for the... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 09:48:59 EST whole 30 day 7 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851618 woop woop! officially one week down!! i am happy to say that i lost 4.2 lbs in the first week :) i really couldn't hope for better results! next week will probably be a bit slower as i can really only go to the gym on thursday/saturday/sunday. <BR> <BR> again, sitting in class, so i will make it short! <BR> <BR> recap: <BR> <BR> breakfast - 3 egg whites cooked in ghee, jalapeno chicken sausage, cup of coffee w/ light coconut milk <BR> <BR> morning snack - banana, 1 oz of mixed pecans/cas... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 08:56:48 EST whole 30 day 6 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851041 first night out with no drinking was a success!!! i did not feel like i was missing out on anything at all. next challenges: dinner out tonight annnd tomorrow night. eek! i will make it work. <BR> <BR> i am in class so i will make this brief and straight-forward! <BR> <BR> recap: <BR> breafast - 1 egg + 1 egg white cooked in ghee. trader joe's jalapeno chicken sausage. cup of coffee w/ light coconut milk <BR> <BR> morning snack - banana <BR> <BR> lunch - salmon, 1 tbsp guacamole, about .5... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 12:26:28 EST whole 30 day 5 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850528 cruisin' right along over here! i went to the gym right after class today, and got a solid workout in. i scheduled an appointment on feb 19 to try to bridesmaid dresses, so that is DEFINITELY extra motivation to keep my butt in gear. there's no motivation like avoiding public humiliation! <BR> <BR> i have completely failed at my goal of avoiding the scales for whole30, so i have decided to make each new week on the plan my weigh-in day (aka sundays). i am excited to see what my results will ... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 17:55:16 EST mmm...a triple blog day?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849726 ok. i just feel the need to get this on paper because i am so proud of myself! <BR> <BR> a) just had the best workout in MONTHS!!! <BR> <BR> b) just made a legitimately delicious dinner! and i never thought i could cook!!! <BR> <BR> a-- i ran 1 mile in 7 mins, then did intervals for the next two miles (1 min slow, 1 min full sprint). i ended up finishing 3 miles in 21 miles, and then did another .25 mile cool down (and some weights) <BR> <BR> b-- i made a homemade marinade for chicken th... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 19:20:49 EST revisiting the list http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849485 so...i was reading some old blogs, and i came across my original "reasons for weight-loss" list. i had revisited this list on 4/1/14, in honor of my one-year sparkversary. at that time, i was able to check off almost everything on the list. i decided that it was time to look at it again... <BR> <BR> -to look good in clothes (nope) <BR> -to look good naked (nope) <BR> -to not constantly be aware of my weight (nope) <BR> -to not wear out the insides of my leggings (check!) <BR> -to not cha... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 12:13:30 EST whole 30 day 4 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849256 got the calories back under control yesterday, and feeling great! i NEED to go to the gym today, so that is happening haha. -20 temperatures be damned! it is dawning on me how quickly the ireland trip is approaching, and i seriously want to see some results by then!!! <BR> <BR> recap of yesterday: <BR> <BR> breakfast - 3 egg whites cooked in 1.5 tsp of ghee, 2 slices of uncured turkey bacon. coffee w/ coconut creamer. <BR> <BR> morning snack - apple w/ 2 tbsp of pecan + cashew butter <BR>... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 07:47:57 EST whole 30 day 3 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848360 so, i have realized something - with this new eating plan, i have given myself the "ok" to eat more calories than i was -- i.e. i have eaten around 1740 cals for the past two days. that is NOT going to help me to achieve my goals haha. i am glad that i realized this early on, so that i can be sure to focus both on whole30 and calories for the next 26 days. <BR> <BR> i SERIOUSLY need to step up my workout game, as well. i didn't do anything yesterday, and i do not think that i will have time ... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 08:24:07 EST whole 30 day 2/placebo effect? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847605 2 days of whole 30 in the books! i was super tempted to weigh myself this morning, but i am really trying to focus on how i feel instead of the scale! i am actually determined to make it the month without weighing in, as dictated by the program (we'll see haha). <BR> <BR> i was actually super hungry yesterday, and i ate kind of a lot...but still 100% on plan. <BR> <BR> breakfast - 2 slices of uncured turkey bacon, 1 egg + 2 egg whites cooked in ghee. 1/4 of an avocado and pico on the side.... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 11:41:23 EST whole 30 day 1 recap! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846428 ok, so obviously it is too early to say haha - but i love this! i am feeling super super healthy and energetic and everything good haha. yesterday was kind of a funky eating day since i was just hanging around the house - i didn't exactly eat 3 solid meals, but i was FULL all day. i ended the day under 1,000 cals, which i am going to try to avoid doing again. <BR> <BR> anyway, here's what i ate yesterday! <BR> <BR> breakfast - 2 slices of uncured turkey bacon, 1 egg + 2 egg whites cooked i... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 08:53:47 EST whole 30!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845616 sooo i was looking at a fitness account on instagram yesterday, and the girl was just starting whole 30. i have always been a bit intimidated by this plan, but i decided to look into it again yesterday. and thennn i decided to start it today!!! i could definitely use a reboost, and this seems like a super healthy way to go about it. <BR> <BR> i bought tons of healthy groceries this morning, and am meal-preppin a storm -- coffee and chili-braised beef in the crockpot, mashed rosemary sweet po... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 12:35:05 EST recap 1.2.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845013 yesterday was definitely my best spark day in a while! today has not been as perfectly on-track due to brunch with friends this morning and residual snacking throughout the day...but i did just go to the gym, and will avoid eating dinner unless i get really hungry! <BR> <BR> tomorrow is my last day of break and i am so saaaddddd :( i am planning to go to the gym first thing in the morning while my boyfriend is still asleep, and then stay on target eating-wise the rest of the day! if i get a ... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 18:52:04 EST feeling good about 2015 :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844083 after a few days of being back on track, i am feeling great! i have big goals to achieve this year, and i finally feel that i am out of my rut. <BR> <BR> my bf and i had a great new year's day yesterday -- relaxing morning, then went to his work holiday party. we didn't really eat much until 6 pm, so we decided to treat ourselves to new years burgers :) <BR> <BR> i currently have beef stew simmering away in the crockpot, and we are planning to stay in tonight and watch game of thrones (we a... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 17:03:59 EST recap/last blog of 2014! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842099 i am happy to say that i am really digging being back on track and NOT WEIGHING MYSELF haha. i kind of want to hold off an extra week to weigh in -- let's see if i can make it :) <BR> <BR> my boyfriend and i have decided to go out just the two of us tonight, and i am excited! i always put so much pressure on NYE and i am excited to just dress up and have stress-free fun. i am also about to make my second gym trip of the day! i know that if i hang around the house all day, i am just going to ... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 15:44:24 EST advice needed: bridesmaid edition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841082 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1298078887.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ok, so. my best friend's wedding is in may, and we are looking at bridesmaid's dresses now. i know the dress that i am ordering, but i have NO CLUE what size to order it in, because i am hoping to loose 40ish lbs between now and then. <BR> <BR> what do i do?!?!? i don't need to order it right now -- i can wait probably a month or so...but i still don't know! should i get a bigger size and have it taken in? should... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 08:27:28 EST whew. the holidays. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840505 so, it appears that what they (whoever they are...) say about the holidays is true. we will overeat. we will overdrink. we will have fun. we will resolve to be our new selves in the new year. <BR> <BR> my slowly improving weight has rapidly moved in the wrong direction, and i was not exactly where i wanted to be when my friends were in town. buttttt i didnt really care! i had fun! i ate delicious foods (which are all kind of a blur to me right now haha, but i am sure that they happened!) i ... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 10:55:41 EST avoiding the scale... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837291 so...had a bit of a slip up yesterday...that involved many crackers w/ salmon cream cheese + onions + capers after work, and two pieces of pizza for dinner... <BR> <BR> lets just say that my body wasn't a huge fan of these choices haha and has handled this is in a natural way, but i am sure that i still have some consequences on the scale. alas, i have decided to avoid it. i know that if i see a higher number on the scale, it is going to lead me to eat tons of leftover pizza and throw my hea... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 07:21:12 EST recap 12.21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836828 yayyy yesterday was my healthiest eating day in forever! and with the dog walk and errands, my step count wasn't too shabby, either :) <BR> <BR> massive breakfast - 4 egg whites scrambled w/ leftover chicken thigh, raw cauliflower, baby bella mushrooms, salsa verde, arugula and a bit of olive oil. 1 piece of ezekial sprouted grain bread on the side, and a mug of coffee. <BR> <BR> late afternoon snack - 6 oz of canned salmon w/ salt, pepper, 1 tsp of olive oil and capers. 9 blackberries. <BR... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 12:09:21 EST recap 12.20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836367 woops! i have missed a couple of recap days in there - no worries, not because i've been off-track! the scale is still going down, slooooowly but surely :) <BR> <BR> i have not been able to get myself in the gym mode this weekend, but i am not letting that make me lazy. i am headed out now to take the dog for a walk, and then off to do laundry...blah. my eating has been pretty on-track -- i ate way too much for lunch yesterday, but then decided to skip dinner so that i was still on-target wi... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 13:52:32 EST recap 12.17 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834809 while obviously nothing dramatic has happened yet on the scale, i am already feeling much more comfortable in my clothes :) looking forward to having time for the gym this weekend! <BR> <BR> recap: <BR> <BR> breakfast - 3 turkey sausage links, coffee w/ half and half <BR> <BR> snack 1: blueberries + blackberries with 5 pecans <BR> <BR> snack 2: 56 cals of kale popcorn, a bunch of mini baby carrots, clementine <BR> <BR> late lunch: buffalo chicken salad and an activia light (the salad bar... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 08:13:59 EST recap 12.16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834413 ugh today is super busy and no time to take a lunch break until like 3...i am trying to keep consistently snacking on healthy stuff until i have time for a meal! <BR> <BR> yesterday was weird eating-wise, but i went to the gym and ate intuitively, so i feel good about it! <BR> <BR> breakfast - 4 egg whites w/ 4-ish oz of southwestern chicken, covered w/ shredded cheddar cheese (yum!!!!) <BR> <BR> morning "snack" - a HUGE mug of coffee w/ 4 tbsp of creamer <BR> <BR> lunch - a couple of pie... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 12:16:55 EST recap 12.15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833858 finally under the 165 hump and into the lower 160s -- ready to see some real progress being made! i know that as a small step, i will feel much better back under 160. my body composition changes dramatically once i get into the 150s. <BR> <BR> i am actually home sick from work today, so planning to keep it clean eating-wise and get lots of rest. i have a book club meeting with some friends tonight, but i don't plan to have more than a couple of glasses of wine. <BR> <BR> recap- <BR> breakfa... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 11:08:29 EST weekend recap and other things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833262 firstly, i am just feeling kind of bleh. my bf and i were having a conversation about body norms in different cultures yesterday (maybe a slippery slope?) and he made a comment about how most white girls would not want my body. i know that he meant nothing by it, and would never mean to offend me, but it reallllly upset me (more than i expected). at first i just kind of brushed it off, but then i brought it up later and he apologized...but i couldn't let it go. i was like locked-in-the-bathro... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 08:23:46 EST recap 12.12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832468 my weekend goal of hitting the gym friday, saturday and sunday is well on its way...i had a solid workout yesterday, and im heading to the gym right after writing this! <BR> <BR> i will make this brief, but wanted to be sure to keep the recaps comin. <BR> <BR> as i mentioned yesterday, my food choices were not the best. i had an emotional morning, and let that steer me in the wrong direction. i did, however, stop myself before heading to bingetown, and brought things back in the right direc... Sat, 13 Dec 2014 15:36:42 EST recap 12.11.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831955 firstly: goal for this weekend -- break past the 165 barrier and into the lower 160s by monday! it will be crucial that i work out every day this weekend to achieve this. for once, i have no obligations, so there is no excuse other than laziness for not achieving that! <BR> <BR> i had a little emotional eating spiral earlier this afternoon, but reeled it in just in time haha. i was ready to continue on to eating a cookie at the office and then getting junk food for lunch...but i tracked what... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 12:55:54 EST recap 12.10 and making better choices! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831261 hey yall! so firstly, my work event went GREAT last night - seriously everything that i could've hoped for. my eating was pretty on-track, despite the crazy scheduling. i did eat about 10 tortilla chips at dinner, but still well within ranges, so i'm not gonna beat myself up about it! <BR> <BR> i was dead tired after the event and dinner last night, and didn't prep my food before bed. i was all ready to grab a bagel this morning, and had already done the whole "it's fine to have one bagel, t... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 08:39:15 EST recap 12.9.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830902 ughhh last night was one of those couldn't-fall-asleep-until-4.30am-and-waki<BR>ng-up-and-6am-nights. aka i am tirrrrrred. i had an event starting at 7.30 this morning, and have another one until at least 8.30ish tonight. whinnnne. <BR> <BR> anyway, i'll just get to the recap cuz i don't really have any news...(minus being down another lb today, woop woop!). i was also STARVING after dinner last night, and had one of those nights where i had to like lock myself in my bed and not allow myself... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 14:10:28 EST a 2-blog day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830381 ok so i felt the need to double-blog today for two reasons: <BR> -i have a new mini-plan <BR> -i need advice <BR> <BR> MINI-PLAN: <BR> i have been struggling with 2 major things recently -- getting enough exercise, and not blowing my food plan at dinner. i'm on a three-day streak, but i want that to continue! therefore, i am setting two very manageable goals for myself. <BR> 1) get at least 15 minutes of exercise per day. this can be a lunchtime walk, dog walk, or the gym. there is no reaso... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 15:25:59 EST recap 12.8.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830276 so yesterday didn't go exaaccctly according to plan, because i was all pumped to walk the dog and cook a healthy dinner...and then i started feeling super headachy-sick :( so i just made myself a quick dinner in bed and slept on and off from 8 pm - on. that being said, my nutrition was still bangin yesterday, and i can still walk the dog and make dinner tonight!!! i am finnnnally down a pound, so happy to get things moving in the right direction again :) <BR> <BR> recap: <BR> breakfast - 3.5... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 11:37:29 EST recap 12.7.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829510 it felt good to finally get myself organized yesterday - cleaned the apt, did my laundry, stocked the fridge -- i'm ready for a much more structured week than last week!! <BR> <BR> also -- a complete sidenote -- we recently got my dog a crate, which we had been avoiding doing. it has been SUCH game changer! surprisingly, she loves it...there are no more accidents...everything is better! <BR> <BR> anyway, recap: <BR> <BR> breakfast - egg white omelette w/ cornish hen, 5 kalamata olives, .... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 07:50:05 EST whew http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5828082 this week has been a doozy. finishing up two classes, work events almost every night...i feel so out of sorts! my eating has been ehhh my exercise has been ehhh and i have been pretty overwhelmed. <BR> <BR> i am finishing my last class of the semester tomorrow, and it is not a day too soon! <BR> <BR> i have my work holiday party tonight, and the menu includes veggies, garlic shrimp and meat, so i think i should be able to keep it pretty high protein/low carb (of course there are also three... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 11:21:49 EST recap dec 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826252 ugh i have been in such a bad mood that i can't seem to shake! everything at work is annoying me soooooo much! i have to be here until 8 tonight for class and i am dreadddding... <BR> <BR> anyway, yesterday was a pretty solid day! <BR> <BR> breakfast - 2 egg whites + 3 turkey sausage links, cup of coffee with half and half <BR> <BR> morning snacks - activia greek w/ grapenuts, blueberries and raspberries. <BR> <BR> lunch - homemade southwestern chicken, tiny salad w/ spinach, brussel spr... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 08:06:51 EST recap november 30th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825665 today is day two back on the wagon! i have TONS of food prepped for work, and as long as it doesn't rain today, i am all set for a lunchtime walk :) <BR> <BR> i am aiming to get back to my sunday weigh-ins -- i reallllllly need to stop weighing in daily! <BR> <BR> yesterday was a bit higher in carbs than i would like, and i am making an effort from here on out to really cut down on bread products (i am thinking that i will allow grapenuts -- and that's it!) <BR> <BR> breakfast - 3 egg whit... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 09:14:47 EST i am done beating myself up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825298 so my friends came in town. and they saw me fat again. we had fun, but i am not going to deny that i was extremely self-conscious the entire time. i ate whatever i wanted on thanksgiving, and i didn't wear my fitbit for three days in a row. basically...i stopped caring. and it didn't feel good. in fact...it felt pretty gross. <BR> <BR> so today, i got back at it. originally, i was going to start with a fresh slate on dec 1, but it didn't seem to make sense to wait an extra day! i am back to ... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 17:15:45 EST :( :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823327 guyssss i am feeling so fat and bad about myself :( :( it is so hard not to think about the fact that i was in the low 150s last thanksgiving, getting compliments from everyone about how great i looked (and the last time i saw some of these people, i was in the 130s). i am in the upper 160s now, feeling like sh*t. <BR> <BR> i know that i can get it back together, but i just still can't believe that i gained all of this weight back! i know myself, and i know that i am going to feel so self c... Wed, 26 Nov 2014 11:42:07 EST recap 11.23.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822101 so i had a bit of a binge on saturday - which i have really resolved to be my last. it is not overeating that is keeping me at this weight, it is binging. and i am ready to really focus on controlling this. <BR> <BR> but regardless. i had a friendsgiving thing yesterday, and i was determined not to let it get me more off-track on the scale...so i tore myself away from cuddling with my boyfriend in the morning and went to the gym! i ran 1 mile, did some weights, ran another half mile, did som... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 08:20:02 EST recap 11.20.14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820532 i am feeling the beginning of a sore throat...which is not cool, because i was just sick a month ago! i thought that my annual illness had already come and gone! <BR> <BR> anyway, yesterday was a highlllllly unusual day in that i didn't really get hungry until 5 pm! i am always hungry! i kept thinking "oh, i should eat one of my snacks now!" but then i realized that i wasn't hungry...so i didn't eat (also quite rare!). <BR> <BR> anyway, recap! <BR> <BR> breakfast - three egg whites + 3 tur... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 08:06:41 EST great spark advice, as always!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819988 so i followed the advice on my previous blog, and decided to focus on being positive! <BR> <BR> i am also glad that i decided to start taking measurements, because i am already down .25" from my waist and 2" from my lower belly - from yesterday!! so eff the scale - i am making progress :) <BR> <BR> recap from yesterday -- <BR> <BR> breakfast - 1 turkey sausage link, grande soy latte <BR> <BR> lunch - (work lunch -- tried to make the best choices from my boxed lunch options!) 1/2 turkey s... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 09:18:47 EST blehhhh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819443 so i have been eating well and cooking and drinking tons of water....but my body image is at an all-time low. i just feel so, so gross. i have to say -- gaining the weight back feels much worse than being fat did in the first place. i'm pretty sure that i felt great when i was in the 160s on my way down...but now i feel disgusting. all i can think about is everyone noticing how fat i've gotten, and how my clothes don't look good on my anymore...etc. etc. i am very eager for some significant p... Wed, 19 Nov 2014 10:26:17 EST