SUMMER2203's SparkPeople Blog SUMMER2203's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community changes and starting again! so, firstly on the weight front -- i am almost at the size that i was when i started this in 2013. how depressing. i have turned it around from here before, though, and i am ready to do it again. <BR> <BR> i am definitely in a period of transition at the moment, and this is the perfect time to get myself together. my dad died unexpectedly about 10 days ago and i am moving to a new state to start a new job in about 10 days. a lot is happening and i have allowed myself to spiral completely ou... Fri, 23 Jun 2017 11:44:18 EST it's happening! i reread pretty much all of my old blogs (there were a lot, haha) and i think that i have finally figured out what works for me: <BR> <BR> -low carb <BR> -lots of exercise <BR> -lots of water <BR> <BR> oh my god, this is ground-breaking, right?!?! <BR> <BR> i have been getting caught in the diet/binge cycle for the past 2 (3?) years, and i am so over it! i need to follow the lifestyle that i know keeps me healthiest. <BR> <BR> so, here i am, day one again. i am getting rid of slimming wor... Wed, 3 May 2017 12:46:01 EST recap 4.18 another (mostly) successful day - i had a work event at dinner time, so was somewhat limited in my options. miraculously did not go majorly over my carb goal, even though i definitely expected to... also, i was starving when i got home from work (at 9.30 pm) which 9/10 times leads to a binge. but not yesterday! i packed my lunch for today and went to bed! <BR> <BR> breakfast - 2 egg whites, 2 pieces of uncured turkey bacon, 2 pieces of light wheat bread with veggie cream cheese. coffee w/ su... Wed, 19 Apr 2017 08:47:04 EST recap 4.17 i have two successful days in the books :) <BR> <BR> my weigh in day is tuesday, and i came in at 165.4 this morning. i have been hovering between 170-172 for a while, so i am hoping to escape the 170s for good! (way too close to my initial starting weight!) <BR> <BR> i had a totally on-plan day yesterday: <BR> <BR> breakfast - 2 egg whites, 2 slices of light wheat bread with 1 tbsp of veggie cream cheese, 2 slices of uncured turkey bacon + coffee w/ sugar free creamer <BR> <BR> snack - ... Tue, 18 Apr 2017 14:52:24 EST dipping my toe back in the blogging water... so, according to my last blog, i was supposed to be in the 140s by now - SPOILER ALERT i am far from it! <BR> <BR> i did decide, however, to give this a serious go. again. last easter was the beginning of the end for me, and i put on about 15ish pounds since then (and have not been able to lose more than 5-7 of those pounds all year). not only is that a nice annual marker for me to make a fresh start, but also, one of my best friends was just diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, and i agreed to f... Mon, 17 Apr 2017 16:43:47 EST consistently inconsistent! i totally rocked the first week of my exercise challenge. 7/7 days of working out, hitting at least 10K steps and choosing the right foods. <BR> <BR> then, there was the 8th day. and then 9th. and today. <BR> <BR> i have had pizza 2 of the past 3 nights, and have not prepped my lunches at all this week. i also have not been to the gym since monday. <BR> <BR> guys, how am i ever going to make progress haha??? <BR> <BR> as usual, i am rededicating myself to the process. my eating has been p... Thu, 19 Jan 2017 14:36:09 EST day 4 of 40 guys, i am officially 10% done with my workout challenge, haha. i was not feeling the 5k run this morning, but i still got my sweat on! <BR> <BR> i jog/walked 1.25 miles, did 5 extremely painful minutes on the stairmaster haha (how come some days i can do 30 mins, and some days 5 mins makes me want to die?) and then a mile on 15 incline/15 min mile -- talk about a fat burner!! this might be my new go-to (i feel like it will help to shape me bum haha, and i burn calories at a rate over 1,000 ... Tue, 10 Jan 2017 11:03:24 EST monday workout! guys, i actually did it! woke up at 4.40, ran a 5k before work (and straightened my hair before work, whatttt???). <BR> <BR> i am really proud of myself. i also officially have my starting time: 36 mins for 3 miles (jogging and walking). i am still not to the point where i can run 3 consecutive miles on the treadmill without brisk walking breaks, but i will get there! the entire 5k took me 39 mins (i had a 3 min cool down for the final .2 kilometers). <BR> <BR> looking forward to improving! Mon, 9 Jan 2017 09:22:31 EST 2 days down :) i have successfully completed days one and two of the forty day workout challenge, and i am already feeling great! i have also been on plan with eating both days, and am looking forward to keeping this momentum going. <BR> <BR> my workout yesterday was 30 mins/100 floors on the stairmaster, plus 25 minutes of walking/jogging 2 miles. <BR> <BR> today, i did 15 mins/55 floors on the stairmaster, one mile walking/jogging, and 25 minutes of weights. <BR> <BR> i am definitely going to play my ... Sun, 8 Jan 2017 15:06:07 EST 40 day gym challenge i am getting over this cold and starting to finally feel human today, so i feel like i can actually get a start on my "new year, new me" at this point haha. <BR> <BR> i just watched a video on facebook of a woman who made a commitment to go to the gym every day for 100 days (and lost 50ish pounds in the process!). <BR> <BR> i have some travel coming up in late february/march, so i can't commit to 100 days, but i have decided to commit to 40. starting tomorrow, i will go to the gym for 40 da... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 10:29:54 EST january goals i have heard that a goal does not become official until it is written down, so here it goes :) <BR> <BR> goals for january: <BR> -work out 4 or more days each week <BR> -lose 10 pounds (ending month at 161) <BR> -no more than 5 days off-plan (eating-wise) <BR> <BR> i bought a desk calendar for my house, and will be tracking my workouts/eating/weekly weigh-ins. my cold is worse and i am feeling awful, so it is safe to say that i will not be working out today (or possibly tomorrow) but as lon... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 11:57:34 EST new year check-in i have been surprisingly on-point with my workouts (despite the holidays) but have totally let myself spiral out of control with eating! <BR> <BR> yesterday was my first day back "on plan" and my eating was perfect. i took my starting measurements for 2017, and i am ready to FINALLY get to my goal weight this year. <BR> <BR> starting point: <BR> <BR> weight: 170.6 <BR> waist: 31" <BR> lower belly: 36" <BR> hips: 43.5" (holy shi*! i swear, the rest of my body stays the same, and my hips jus... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 09:03:47 EST slimming world is the best :) hi guys! cruising along over here, loving slimming world (wondering why i went off of slimming world before??). down 5.6 lbs, on a consistent work-out schedule, and feeling good! <BR> <BR> this week will be pretty challenging, because i have work lunches and evening networking events almost every day <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> it should be easy enough to stay on plan during the lunches -- the networking events might get tricky, though. <BR> <BR> money is still very tight, so that is helping... Mon, 12 Dec 2016 09:37:02 EST i'm still here :) after an impressive 7 pound weight gain over thanksgiving break, i have finally gotten myself back on track. i typically jinx myself by writing these blogs haha, but i am going for it anyway! <BR> <BR> i restarted slimming world on sunday, and have been to the gym three days in a row, including two days at 5 am before work (small victories!). i am down 2.6 lbs since sunday, and feeling motivated. <BR> <BR> i have been too broke for a full grocery shop, so am excited to get paid on wednesda... Tue, 29 Nov 2016 09:23:46 EST 30 PERFECT DAYS hi all!! now that i have been tracking on myfitnesspal, i have been missing the spark community! <BR> <BR> i will continue to track over there, but am committed to blogging this month as i embark on...(dun, dun, dun) the 30 PERFECT DAYS CHALLENGE!!! (disclaimer: thanksgiving will not be a perfect day, so this challenge will be ending on december 2) <BR> <BR> there are three parts to this challenge: <BR> -8 cups of water per day <BR> -10K steps per day (can be running/walking/whateva) <BR> -... Tue, 1 Nov 2016 09:37:57 EST 10.13 recap first day back in the game was a success :) <BR> <BR> here's the food recap: <BR> <BR> breakfast - egg white omelette w/ broccoli, mushrooms, feta (this was a staple for me when i first lost weight in 2013, and never does me wrong [until i get sick of it, haha]). coffee w/ almond milk. <BR> <BR> lunch - baked potato, cup of homemade vegetable soup sprinkled with grated parmesan <BR> <BR> snacks - small apple + coffee with pumpkin spice creamer, beets w/ chicken and a sprinkle of feta <BR... Fri, 14 Oct 2016 09:30:33 EST rock bottom??? so, weighed in this morning to the highest weight that i have seen in a looooong time. then...proceeded to eat the following "breakfast": <BR> <BR> -turkey croissant + coffee (not a horrible start...) <BR> -half of a snack size of doritos (why did i buy these in the first place?) <BR> -2 bagels with cream cheese <BR> <BR> ya know, just a normal start to a wednesday. <BR> <BR> so anyway I AM OVER IT!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> my bf and i are broke as a joke right now (what's new) so i am planning to... Wed, 12 Oct 2016 11:10:17 EST whole 30 day 5/the big switch! i just got my first iphone, and the health app doesnt sync with sparkpeople (which is so annoying!). because of this, i have decided to switch to tracking my food through myfitnesspal, which DOES sync with my phone! <BR> <BR> therefore, i will still use spark for tracking my weight and doing my daily blogs, but will not be tracking my food/fitness here (aside from the recap in my blogs <em>41</em> ) <BR> <BR> anyway, i am feeling absolutely wonderful!!! i have so much energy, and wish th... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 11:22:01 EST whole 30 day 4 you may have noticed that i skipped a couple of whole 30 days in there...all i can say is...labor day weekend?? i have not been too crazy, but i was definitely not totally on plan saturday and sunday. (aka i ate a burger and fries for brunch/dinner on sunday, but still stayed below calories ranges!) <BR> <BR> anyway, i am really dedicated to doing all 30 days of whole 30, so here i am at day 4 :) (counting thursday, friday and monday as days 1 - 3). <BR> <BR> i prepped tons of protein for t... Tue, 6 Sep 2016 11:42:56 EST whole 30 day two so, might've had some alcohol on my first day of whole 30, but that's all good! i already decided (before starting) that alcohol was going to be my one area of wiggle room <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> here's the recap of day one! <BR> <BR> breakfast - 3 egg whites cooked in ghee with tomatoes, mushrooms and chicken sausage. blackberries, strawberries and blueberries on the side, plus a cup of coffee with light coconut milk <BR> <BR> lunch - turkey picadillo (ground turkey + jalapenos + chilis... Fri, 2 Sep 2016 08:37:21 EST whole 30 day one happy september!!! the cleveland weather gods have blessed us with a glorious fall-feeling day today, and i could not be happier :) <BR> <BR> this is the perfect time to start whole 30, as i will be all recharged and rebooted for fall!! <BR> <BR> i bought a (disgustingly expensive) grocery haul from whole foods last night to kickstart my whole 30 stockpile -- veggies, fruit, ground turkey, chicken sausages, tahini, ghee - the good stuff! <BR> <BR> i think that i overdid it on the fats last... Thu, 1 Sep 2016 10:58:36 EST starting whole 30!! a couple of my coworkers are planning to start whole 30 tomorrow, and i thought...why not? <BR> <BR> i have not LOVED whole 30 in the past, but i am ready to give in another go :) i will still be tracking to make sure that i am not exceeding my calorie intake goals. i am already planning to give myself some wiggle room with alcohol (i mean, come on) but will stick to the eating 100% and will not weigh in until october 1!!! <BR> <BR> i just got an iphone, and i am excited to use the health a... Wed, 31 Aug 2016 15:34:56 EST monday! feeling good! fall! things! hahah i lost track of what day i am in as far as the challenge goes, soooo i will just do a little check in. <BR> <BR> i am feeling wonderful, and so ready to crush this week! i did some meal prep for lunches, and have NO evening obligations until friday, so i should be able to get a workout in every day this week!!! (i have a training tomorrow, so lunch will be unplanned - but otherwise, i will be prepared!!!). <BR> <BR> i weighed in this morning at 163, which i am actually happy/ok with. ... Mon, 29 Aug 2016 12:54:29 EST 1 month until fall challenge: day 5 recap not the best, not the worst? i didn't feel like i was super on my game yesterday, but looking back, it wasn't too bad. <BR> <BR> breakfast: homemade bagel w/ cream cheese, iced coffee w/ almond milk <BR> <BR> lunch: open-face chicken pita delicious thing (only had about .25 of the actual pita) with a side salad (about 1 tbsp of dressing) <BR> <BR> early dinner/big snack: zoodles w/ diced tomatoes, mushrooms and chicken sausage <BR> <BR> still hungry 5 hours later: about .75 of a jimmy joh... Sat, 27 Aug 2016 10:51:31 EST 1 month until fall challenge: day 4 recap sooooo yea. yesterday was not quite as successful haha. for accountability, i still tracked everything, and i am still publicly airing my shameful eating in this blog, but it was definitely a failure of a challenge day. <BR> <BR> breakfast (everything started off innocently enough!!): omelette w/ 3 egg whites, mushrooms and tomatoes. 2 pieces of sprouted 7 grain toast, coffee w/ unsweetened almond milk <BR> <BR> snack: apple <BR> <BR> lunch: panera bbq chicken salad + baguette (this is whe... Fri, 26 Aug 2016 08:24:33 EST 1 month until fall challenge: day 3 recap another successful day! woop woop! i took a flex day, so i had most of the day to myself (i have to work on saturday). instead of being a lazy bum, as i often am on my days off, i filled my day to the brim! i went to a coffee shop to do work in the morning, then to the laundromat, then grocery shopping, and then to the gym!! i made a healthy and delicious meal midday, showered, and went to book club with the ladies in the evening. <BR> <BR> here is the food recap: <BR> <BR> breakfast: sandw... Thu, 25 Aug 2016 15:11:50 EST 1 month until fall challenge: day 2 recap another successful day in the books!!! i always have trouble with over-eating on the days that i work my part-time job after work (i will usually have a dinner before AND after work) but i managed to (mostly) avoid that yesterday. <BR> <BR> here is the recap: <BR> breakfast - 2 hard boiled egg white + half a yolk on 2 pieces of wheat toast (with sriracha). cup of coffee w/ 1 tbsp cane sugar and unsweetened almond milk <BR> <BR> lunch - brown rice + tuna + hard boiled egg + veggies. 1 dark c... Wed, 24 Aug 2016 08:30:43 EST 8.22.16 recap first day of challenge is completed! <BR> <BR> i am not in the mood to write a full blog haha, so will just post the following: <BR> <BR> ate 1,360 cals <em>248</em> <BR> drank only 3 cups of water <em>42</em> <BR> walked 3 miles <em>248</em> Tue, 23 Aug 2016 08:16:11 EST one month until fall!!!! i have been obsessively looking for fall clothes that i can buy to treat myself once i lose weight...but then i realized...i have a closet full of fall clothes that i have pretty much never worn, because i have been too fat! they are sitting and waiting to be my treat clothes!!! <BR> <BR> if i continue on the weight-loss path i have set for myself, i should be the perfect weight to fit into my fall clothes by the first day of fall. how is that for motivation??! <BR> <BR> because i typically... Mon, 22 Aug 2016 17:46:46 EST weekend recap firstly, my weigh-in was a total failure today, because my scale has become unreliable!!! within the matter of a minute, it showed me three different weights (from 160-165). i have no idea which one to trust, so i am deciding to disregard my weigh-in this week, and just focus on my eating/exercise (and shop for a new scale). <BR> <BR> i was pretty proud of myself this weekend! i went to the gym for the first time in forever on saturday, and i think i crushed it (i am still sore, so that's a ... Mon, 15 Aug 2016 12:14:50 EST 8.12.16 check in we are currently in the midst of thunderstorm season, which is definitely messing with my outside walk time! when it is not storming, it is 90 degrees and muggy - bleh. this did not stop me from getting 2.3 very sweaty miles in yesterday, though!! <BR> <BR> i have somewhat abandoned the cleanse, but am still totally on-track, and totally proud of myself! as of this morning, i am down 6 lbs since august 1. my goal for monday's weigh in is 162, which i hit this morning, so i would be very happ... Fri, 12 Aug 2016 09:19:59 EST cleanse #2 in winter 2014, i was having a weight-loss rut, and i tried a cleanse that really got me back on track: <BR> <BR> breakfast smoothie - 10 ounces almond milk. banana, handful spinach, 1/2 c. blueberries, 1 scoop protein powder, 2 tbsp. apple cider vinegar + 2 supplements (probiotics and multi-enzyme) <BR> <BR> lunch + dinner - either protein w/ veggies or grains with veggies...or a combination of the two (except for dinner on the last day...not allowed to mix protein + grains). there are al... Tue, 9 Aug 2016 13:36:34 EST goal #1: achieved!!!! yay yay yay yay yay! for the first time in forever, i was so excited by my weigh in. i actually stayed on-track, and i hit my goal this week! (actually, exceeded it by a teeny bit <em>30</em> ) <BR> <BR> i went for a 6 mile jog/walk on saturday, which is literally double what i usually do. i was SO proud of myself for setting that goal and achieving it! i actually ended up taking another walk that day, and got 8 miles in!!! i think that i am going to try for the 6-mile outing on the weeke... Mon, 8 Aug 2016 09:55:51 EST stitchfix sadness :( i just randomly decided to reactivate my stitchfix account, which i haven't used in a long time. i went in to edit my sizes/style preferences, and things have changed A LOT!!!! <BR> <BR> old sizes: <BR> dress: 4 <BR> skirts/pants: 6 <BR> shirts: medium <BR> <BR> new sizes: <BR> dress: 10 <BR> skirts/pants: 10 <BR> shirts: large <BR> <BR> SO SAD!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> as with everything else, this is just added motivation for me to get back to where (or wear!) i used to be. <BR> <BR> i am g... Fri, 5 Aug 2016 14:34:37 EST 8.4.16 i feel like 90% of my blogs in the past year have the same theme: i feel like shi*, i am finally ready to get back on track...well, here i am again. <BR> <BR> one day on track in the books, ready for day two. <BR> <BR> i am feeling SO fat and so gross and bllahhhh. i have no one to blame but myself, and i am going to change this. <BR> <BR> yesterday: <BR> <BR> breakfast - multigrain toast w/ 1 scrambled egg, chipotle aioli, a tiny bit of goat cheese, a tiny bit of homemade pesto, and iced... Thu, 4 Aug 2016 09:25:19 EST love a new month! i always love the clean slate that a new month brings! i am so excited to make some progress this august :) <BR> <BR> i have a kind of crazy week this week, because i am working my part-time job almost every day after work <em>29</em> <BR> <BR> i am planning to meal prep almost everything, so that i have no excuses! i will be able to go to the gym or have some type of work out today + tomorrow, and will hope that i hit 4 miles from walking at my job the rest of the week. <BR> <BR> i am... Mon, 1 Aug 2016 08:55:56 EST frustrated/need to avoid the scale! i had another super on-track day, and then weighed in this morning (WHICH I REALLY SHOULDN'T DO!) and i gained back the 2.8 pounds that i have lost so far. i know that there are a million reasons why this could have happened (water weight, period week, etc.) but it is still discouraging! <BR> <BR> alas, i will remain on plan :) <BR> <BR> here is yesterday's recap: <BR> <BR> breakfast - egg white omelette with chicken and broccoli (and topped with some black bean and corn salsa). coffee w/ ... Fri, 29 Jul 2016 09:27:55 EST 7.27 recap i am feeling amazing! being on-track does wonders for the psyche :) <BR> <BR> here is yesterday's recap: <BR> <BR> breakfast - smoothie w/ cold brew coffee, coconut milk, banana, protein powder <BR> <BR> lunch (work training) - small portion of salad w/ tiny bit of italian dressing + the inside of a quartered turkey sandwich + the top of the bread (1/4 a piece of foccaccia) and the inside of half of a veggie wrap (basically just cooked mushrooms + zucchini). also had a pickle spear. <BR> ... Thu, 28 Jul 2016 14:35:47 EST 7.27 check in so, i had the worst binge/purge session possibly of all time last night. i felt awful while it was happening, and felt awful this morning. i am SO OVER being out of control with my eating. <BR> <BR> the good news: i have money for grocery shopping today, and for the 349,823,123th time, i am ready for a fresh start. i reread a bunch of my blogs from when i was most successful, and came to a couple of realizations. in addition to my calorie/carb goals and fitness goals, i need to focus on gett... Wed, 27 Jul 2016 09:16:36 EST 7.26 check in i am feelin good over here! i weighed in yesterday morning, and was finally down a couple pounds (and an inch on my waist!). <BR> <BR> yesterday was an annual all-out wine tasting event, so i was not exactly "on-plan". i had a healthy breakfast, and actually tracked everything, but still ended up 4.2 lbs higher on the scale this morning <em>40</em> i know that it is water weight, and i got right back in the game today (i really need to stick to my once a week weigh-ins!). having one off-... Tue, 26 Jul 2016 14:37:13 EST 7.21 recap another day on-track! looking forward to making this a three day streak. i did what i promised myself i wouldn't do, and i stepped on the scale. to my dismay, it said that i gained a pound! i know that i shouldn't judge anything off of two days being off track (or one pound, for that matter) but still kind of a bummer when i pushed myself so hard for the past two days. <BR> <BR> anyway, here's the recap! <BR> <BR> woke up late, so had more of a brunch than breakfast: salad with corn, black... Fri, 22 Jul 2016 09:09:41 EST 7.20 recap guys, i am so SO proud of myself! for a "day one" back in the game, i think i crushed it!! <BR> <BR> (also, i have no idea how i am going to manage going back to work haha. i am way too accustomed to having all of this free time!) <BR> <BR> i had to handle some work calls in the morning, so i had a pretty leisurely morning (healthy breakfast + coffee). after i handled my work, i headed to the gym for the first time in a loooooooooong time. although it was way more painful and sweaty than it... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 22:29:01 EST rnc "vacation" check-in having the past few days off of work has been absolutely amazing, and i am totally getting used to the life of leisure haha. i have been successful with my eating/exercise during the day (and have been hitting my 4 mile target each day!), but as usual, everything falls apart at night. i am binging when i am home alone, or going out (too hard) with my bf is he is off of work. <BR> <BR> i was getting dressed for my part-time job yesterday, and everything looked AWFUL! i don't weigh that much m... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 10:46:17 EST getting my mojo back!! i am finally back in the swing of doing things that should have been coming naturally to me for these past few months (but weren't). i.e. - drinking water! getting exercise! eating well! my mood has boosted immediately since making these changes in the past couple of days. <BR> <BR> i decided today to try to go bread-free for a while, as this is always a good kick start to keep me on track. i have already walked 3 miles today, and am looking forward to taking the pup for a walk when i get ho... Fri, 15 Jul 2016 13:47:19 EST recap 7.13 i promised daily blogs, and i am going to follow through with daily blogs - even though yesterday was not as perfect as i had hoped... <BR> <BR> breakfast - 3 egg whites with hot sauce, 2 pieces of 60 cal whole grain toast, coffee w/ sugar free creamer <BR> <BR> lunch - salad w/ broccoli, cucumber, bell peppers, chicken, roasted red pepper, feta, corn, black olives, and a tiny bit of tomato vinaigrette <BR> <BR> snacks - grapes, cashews <BR> <BR> dinner (aka going back and forth to the ki... Thu, 14 Jul 2016 10:50:51 EST daily blogging is back!!! for MONTHS i have been all over the place - focusing for two days, and then getting completely off-track. my schedule is finally normalizing a bit, and i am ready to get back in a routine! <BR> <BR> i am also setting a new challenge for myself: operation "goal weight by halloween" is officially in effect! <BR> <BR> due to the craziness expected with the rnc, my job has decided to shut down operations next week. which, despite the 90 degree heat, will give me plenty of time for physical acti... Wed, 13 Jul 2016 10:38:19 EST vacation mode!!! i am so happy to be off of work for the next 5 days!! (even if i spent 2 hours this morning answering work emails felt a lot better to do it in my pjs!!) <BR> <BR> i had my first healthy, sit-down breakfast in WEEKS and am planning to take my dog for a walk soon :) <BR> <BR> there are obviously holiday bbq's in the upcoming days, which will be challenging, but i am feeling happy and ready to be back on track and IN CONTROL!!! i treated myself to a whole foods grocery shopping trip... Thu, 30 Jun 2016 12:52:28 EST turns out the poverty diet doesn't work... as referenced in earlier blogs, i have got a serious debt situation on my hands...which leads to me being super broke for most of the month. because of this, i have had very limited funds for grocery shopping, and have been relying on pasta for about 75% of my meals haha. turns out...eating only pasta makes you fat!!! <BR> <BR> i am VERY excited because i got a paycheck from my part-time job this morning, and i can go grocery shopping! in fact, i am going to treat myself to a whole foods tri... Wed, 29 Jun 2016 09:00:22 EST i'm back!!!!!!!!!! i am already feeling 3,000 times better than last night. i followed through with my plan to wake up early and go to the gym, which totally started my day off on the right foot! (if only i had a gym in my apartment at home, haha...). <BR> <BR> quick workout done (ran 1.5 miles, did some weights), healthy breakfast eaten (egg white wrap and iced coffee from starbucks), feeling ready to tackle my day!!! <BR> <BR> i am so excited to start focusing on my health and caring about myself again :) Fri, 24 Jun 2016 07:58:44 EST day one, again i can't imagine how old it must get to read all of my "fresh start" blogs, but i am again! <BR> <BR> everything has been getting worse - my body image, anxiety, overeating, purging, everything. i am ready to take accountability for the fact that all of these things are under my control, and that i have the power to improve my situation. <BR> <BR> summer is just beginning, and i really do not want to spend the next two months feeling awful about myself. i want to go out and enjoy... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 21:58:21 EST