SUMMER2203's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SUMMER2203 SUMMER2203's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 7.21 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204785 another day on-track! looking forward to making this a three day streak. i did what i promised myself i wouldn't do, and i stepped on the scale. to my dismay, it said that i gained a pound! i know that i shouldn't judge anything off of two days being off track (or one pound, for that matter) but still kind of a bummer when i pushed myself so hard for the past two days. <BR> <BR> anyway, here's the recap! <BR> <BR> woke up late, so had more of a brunch than breakfast: salad with corn, black... Fri, 22 Jul 2016 09:09:41 EST 7.20 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204039 guys, i am so SO proud of myself! for a "day one" back in the game, i think i crushed it!! <BR> <BR> (also, i have no idea how i am going to manage going back to work haha. i am way too accustomed to having all of this free time!) <BR> <BR> i had to handle some work calls in the morning, so i had a pretty leisurely morning (healthy breakfast + coffee). after i handled my work, i headed to the gym for the first time in a loooooooooong time. although it was way more painful and sweaty than it... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 22:29:01 EST rnc "vacation" check-in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203711 having the past few days off of work has been absolutely amazing, and i am totally getting used to the life of leisure haha. i have been successful with my eating/exercise during the day (and have been hitting my 4 mile target each day!), but as usual, everything falls apart at night. i am binging when i am home alone, or going out (too hard) with my bf is he is off of work. <BR> <BR> i was getting dressed for my part-time job yesterday, and everything looked AWFUL! i don't weigh that much m... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 10:46:17 EST getting my mojo back!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6200993 i am finally back in the swing of doing things that should have been coming naturally to me for these past few months (but weren't). i.e. - drinking water! getting exercise! eating well! my mood has boosted immediately since making these changes in the past couple of days. <BR> <BR> i decided today to try to go bread-free for a while, as this is always a good kick start to keep me on track. i have already walked 3 miles today, and am looking forward to taking the pup for a walk when i get ho... Fri, 15 Jul 2016 13:47:19 EST recap 7.13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6200358 i promised daily blogs, and i am going to follow through with daily blogs - even though yesterday was not as perfect as i had hoped... <BR> <BR> breakfast - 3 egg whites with hot sauce, 2 pieces of 60 cal whole grain toast, coffee w/ sugar free creamer <BR> <BR> lunch - salad w/ broccoli, cucumber, bell peppers, chicken, roasted red pepper, feta, corn, black olives, and a tiny bit of tomato vinaigrette <BR> <BR> snacks - grapes, cashews <BR> <BR> dinner (aka going back and forth to the ki... Thu, 14 Jul 2016 10:50:51 EST daily blogging is back!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6199767 for MONTHS i have been all over the place - focusing for two days, and then getting completely off-track. my schedule is finally normalizing a bit, and i am ready to get back in a routine! <BR> <BR> i am also setting a new challenge for myself: operation "goal weight by halloween" is officially in effect! <BR> <BR> due to the craziness expected with the rnc, my job has decided to shut down operations next week. which, despite the 90 degree heat, will give me plenty of time for physical acti... Wed, 13 Jul 2016 10:38:19 EST vacation mode!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6192424 i am so happy to be off of work for the next 5 days!! (even if i spent 2 hours this morning answering work emails haha...it felt a lot better to do it in my pjs!!) <BR> <BR> i had my first healthy, sit-down breakfast in WEEKS and am planning to take my dog for a walk soon :) <BR> <BR> there are obviously holiday bbq's in the upcoming days, which will be challenging, but i am feeling happy and ready to be back on track and IN CONTROL!!! i treated myself to a whole foods grocery shopping trip... Thu, 30 Jun 2016 12:52:28 EST turns out the poverty diet doesn't work... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6191661 as referenced in earlier blogs, i have got a serious debt situation on my hands...which leads to me being super broke for most of the month. because of this, i have had very limited funds for grocery shopping, and have been relying on pasta for about 75% of my meals haha. turns out...eating only pasta makes you fat!!! <BR> <BR> i am VERY excited because i got a paycheck from my part-time job this morning, and i can go grocery shopping! in fact, i am going to treat myself to a whole foods tri... Wed, 29 Jun 2016 09:00:22 EST i'm back!!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6188668 i am already feeling 3,000 times better than last night. i followed through with my plan to wake up early and go to the gym, which totally started my day off on the right foot! (if only i had a gym in my apartment at home, haha...). <BR> <BR> quick workout done (ran 1.5 miles, did some weights), healthy breakfast eaten (egg white wrap and iced coffee from starbucks), feeling ready to tackle my day!!! <BR> <BR> i am so excited to start focusing on my health and caring about myself again :) Fri, 24 Jun 2016 07:58:44 EST day one, again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6188479 i can't imagine how old it must get to read all of my "fresh start" blogs, but alas...here i am again! <BR> <BR> everything has been getting worse - my body image, anxiety, overeating, purging, everything. i am ready to take accountability for the fact that all of these things are under my control, and that i have the power to improve my situation. <BR> <BR> summer is just beginning, and i really do not want to spend the next two months feeling awful about myself. i want to go out and enjoy... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 21:58:21 EST Fresh start! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6182142 I am all moved in to the new apartment! My boyfriend and I beasted the move yesterday by ourselves, and we are already all unpacked! I have been ALL over the place with my eating, and the scale is definitely reflecting that. I am super, super ready to be back in a routine. I will not be able to go grocery shopping until Wednesday, but am counting tomorrow as my official fresh start. Summer is here, and I want to fit into my clothes! Back to tracking consistently,10k steps a day, 1200ish ca... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 14:52:18 EST june 6, 2016 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6177613 the wedding is behind me, and i am ready to get into a routine! i definitely did not hit anything close to my goal for the wedding, but i still felt pretty darn good (getting hair and makeup done makes a world of difference!). <BR> <BR> my high school reunion is this weekend, so there is some motivation there, but i am really just excited to get back to eating well and exercising. <BR> <BR> i am off of work all week after today, so am planning to hike with the pup as much as possible, and b... Mon, 6 Jun 2016 12:50:39 EST checking in/three days 'til the wedding! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6174373 so, memorial day happened, and i let loose! bachelorette party + cookouts + alcohol + food = bloating and weight gain of 7 lbs in 4 days (pretty impressive!). thankfully, 3 of these extra lbs are already gone, so i am looking forward to shedding the other 4. <BR> <BR> i have pushed aside my goal of hitting the lower 150s in time for the wedding, and would be happy to settle for the upper 150s. i was 156 in my friend's wedding last year, and felt AMAZING, so would be extra, extra happy if i w... Wed, 1 Jun 2016 10:53:02 EST day 17 + keto day 3 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6170858 the countdown is on until memorial day weekend! this is kind of a break, kind of not... i am off of work from my "real" job until tuesday, but have 2 shifts at my side hustle this weekend. <BR> <BR> my friend's bachelorette party is also this weekend, so i am assuming that i will have one day off-plan... <BR> <BR> i ended up being way under on cals yesterday, because i was too tired to eat dinner after work (i did manage to sneak in a glass of rose, though...). i am so, so broke, so not rea... Thu, 26 May 2016 15:50:23 EST day 16 + keto day 2 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6169972 weight starting the 26-day challenge: 12 stone (168) <BR> weight today: 11 stone 4.2 (158.2) <BR> <BR> i am going to be so bold as to say that i am officially ten pounds down after 16 days in the challenge!! i think the keto switch-up is helping to keep the momentum going. with another 10 days until the wedding, i am excited to see what my final progress from this challenge will be! <BR> <BR> i had a super busy day at work yesterday, followed by a productive evening of grocery shopping, l... Wed, 25 May 2016 08:09:55 EST day 15 + keto day 1 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6169332 i was a bit over on cals + carbs yesterday, but still a solid start to getting to ketosis! i am heading to the grocery store after work today, which is super necessary and will help a lot :) i am also not planning to go out until my friend's bachelorette party this sunday, which will also help to keep me on-track. <BR> <BR> i have a work lunch today, and do not know if the food will fit into my plan. if not - i will probably grab a lettuce wrap or something on my way back to the office! <BR>... Tue, 24 May 2016 08:11:39 EST 2 weeks left!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6168613 i am officially in crunch-time until the wedding, and have decided to do keto for the next two weeks. i do not like this as a long-term plan, but it definitely helps to give me a boost/recharge, and is easy for me to stick to without cheating. <BR> <BR> i should be able to take a nice long lunchtime walk today, which will help me to get to 10K steps. <BR> <BR> i kind of let loose this weekend, but am feeling super positive about being back on track today and hitting my wedding goals! (whic... Mon, 23 May 2016 08:31:01 EST day 11 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6166802 i can feel myself getting a little bit too lax with my eating, and need to get back to being strict about 1200 cal per day - it is 100% doable, sustainable, and i see major results. <BR> <BR> i finally exceeded 10K steps yesterday, and am going to try to hit that again today. i am working both jobs today (and working my second job again tomorrow) so it will be a busy weekend, but i have time to fit in nutrition and exercise! <BR> <BR> i always naturally wake up around 7-7.30 am on saturdays... Fri, 20 May 2016 08:42:21 EST day 10 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6166335 cruisin right along over here! i am sick (sinus infection) so my eating was really weird yesterday, but i am finally back under 160!!! (11 stone 5 lbs, as of yesterday!) <BR> <BR> i just went for a long walk to hit my 10K steps today (and to give my sick body some sunshine), so hopefully that will help me to hit 11 stone 3 lbs by this weekend. <BR> <BR> here is my weird food from yesterday (i promise that i am eating healthier today!): <BR> <BR> breakfast - nothin <BR> <BR> lunch - hummus... Thu, 19 May 2016 13:25:24 EST day 8 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6164725 still holding steady at 160! i am going to kick things up a level to try to hit my goal of 157 by saturday. <BR> <BR> i usually eat a smaller breakfast, with equal-sized lunches and dinners. i do not know if i will be able to eat dinner today, so i switched it around! i had a pretty big breakfast, and am going to go for a normal-sized lunch. anyway, we'll see how that goes! <BR> <BR> anyway, here is zee recap: <BR> <BR> breakfast - 2 egg whites + 1 yolk, sauerkraut (my bf made fun of me fo... Tue, 17 May 2016 09:37:25 EST day 7 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6164264 19 days til the wedding! things are getting real! i didn't lose any more weight over the weekend, but i also didn't gain. i have work lunches almost every day this week, so will do my best to structure my dinners to make up for it! i am heading to the grocery store today, and am just going to pick up the most basic of basics for the week. (actually, as i am typing this, i am so not in the mood to go grocery shopping haha...so we shall see.) <BR> <BR> my bf and i found a new apt, so will be m... Mon, 16 May 2016 16:43:06 EST day 4 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6161999 weight starting the 26-day challenge: 12 stone (168) <BR> weight today: 11 stone 6 (160) <BR> <BR> food: <BR> breakfast - 4 turkey sausage links, egg white omelette with mushrooms, zucchini, cauliflower and tomatoes, iced coffee w/ homemade almond milk <BR> <BR> snack - grapes + raspberries <BR> <BR> patio day w/ bf - 2 glasses of white wine, 3 vodka + pineapple + soda water, tortilla chips, guacamole, salsa, 1 small flour tortilla, 2 oz of chicken, 2 oz of steak, about .5 cup of rice, ... Fri, 13 May 2016 08:01:31 EST day 3 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6161457 i forgot to weigh in this morning, so i will catch up with that tomorrow! <BR> <BR> here is the food recap, though: <BR> <BR> breakfast: 3 egg whites, 3 turkey sausage, iced coffee w/ homemade almond milk <BR> <BR> lunch: whole foods salad bar creation - kale caesar salad, chicken breast, asparagus, 2 egg whites and artichoke hearts <BR> <BR> snack: mango chia pudding <BR> <BR> pre-second-job-snack: iced coffee, 2 egg whites, grapes, 12 almonds <BR> <BR> late dinner: beer brat (no bun)... Thu, 12 May 2016 11:11:43 EST day 2 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6160754 weight starting the 26-day challenge: 12 stone (168) <BR> weight yesterday: 11 stone 11 (165) <BR> weight today: 11 stone 7.6 (161.6) <BR> <BR> food: <BR> breakfast - 3 turkey sausage links, 3 egg whites + hot sauce, coffee w/ half and half <BR> <BR> lunch - 2 cups of homemade turkey chili w/ sour cream <BR> <BR> snack - pear <BR> <BR> dinner - salad w/ blackened tuna, tomatoes, blue cheese crumbles, hard boiled egg, bacon and avocado ranch dressing on the side (just a teeny bit for dip... Wed, 11 May 2016 10:41:04 EST day 1 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6159923 weight starting the 26-day challenge: 12 stone (168) <BR> weight today: 11 stone 11 (165) <BR> <BR> food: <BR> breakfast - 4 egg whites with salsa, 1/3 avocado, 1 rice cake, coffee w/ half and half <BR> <BR> lunch - 1.5 cups of homemade turkey chili, salad with cauliflower, zucchini, celery, bibb lettuce and 2 tbsp of light ranch <BR> <BR> snack - grapes + blueberries <BR> <BR> dinner - tuna w/ onion and celery, baked potato w/ sour cream and salsa <BR> <BR> totals: 1,121 cals, 119 g of... Tue, 10 May 2016 08:09:57 EST switching to...26 day challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6159484 so, i have been a total failure at the 6-week challenge, and have totally wasted the past two weeks eating, drinking, having fun and not losing weight. <BR> <BR> BUT IT IS NOT TOO LATE! <BR> <BR> i still have about 4 weeks to get this shi* together, and I WILL! <BR> <BR> to make this SUPER simple for myself, i am making the challenge even easier than before haha. here it goes: <BR> <BR> around 1300 cals a day. around 100 g of carbs a day. daily blogging. THAT'S IT. <BR> <BR> Mon, 9 May 2016 14:42:28 EST 6 week challenge: week 2, day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6156082 sooo this challenge is not going as swimmingly as i would've hoped haha. time is ticking away towards the wedding, and i am making no progress. i am honestly just not exercising any self-control! <BR> <BR> there are exactly 30 days until the wedding. a lot can be done in 30 days, but i have to actually try haha. this is the first day that i will be working my part-time job after work, so i have prepped tons of food for lunch and dinner (i think dinner will be eaten in the car on the way to j... Wed, 4 May 2016 08:16:46 EST 6 week challenge: week one, day seven recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6154554 definitely still need to work on my eating. i was "within ranges" yesterday, but let myself have a bit too much of a sunday funday haha. i bought food for this week, and am feeling super motivated to stay on-track. i also made a big dent in my 60K steps per week challenge yesterday, so i am hopeful that i will hit that goal this week! <BR> <BR> here is yesterday's recap: <BR> brunch - bison burger (ate half of the bun and about 2/3 of the patty) with fries. 1 irish coffee. <BR> <BR> dinner ... Mon, 2 May 2016 08:17:03 EST 6 week challenge: week one, day three recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6152155 back to bread-free! still not an ideal eating day, because i went out with my bf, but i think i did the best i could've with my options! <BR> <BR> recap: <BR> breakfast - i didn't prep anything, so i ate a weird car breakfast of cold chicken and punjabi chhole haha. also had iced coffee w/ half and half <BR> <BR> snack - oz of cashews <BR> <BR> lunch - salad with chicken, cucumber, brussel sprouts, crumbled blue cheese and caesar dressing on the side <BR> <BR> dinner - beer brat (no bun),... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 12:30:28 EST 6 week challenge: week one, day two recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6151276 sooo taco tuesday happened, and led to a bit of a slip-up at dinnertime. i am right back to bread-free this morning, though, and not letting it throw me off!!! <BR> <BR> here's yesterday's recap: <BR> breakfast - 1 hard-boiled egg, coffee w/ half and half <BR> <BR> snack - 1 oz of cashews <BR> <BR> lunch - salad with chicken, jalapenos, tomatoes, celery and light italian dressing <BR> <BR> snacks - strawberries, 1/2 cup of punjabi chhole (chickpeas with potatoes and onions) and 1/3 cup... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 08:05:28 EST 6 week challenge: week one, day one recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6150534 i can't explain how good it feels to be back on track. my body was begging for this!! i still don't have a ton of groceries due to #povertymode but i am making the most of what i've got :) <BR> <BR> here's yesterday's recap: <BR> breakfast - 3 egg whites w/ hot sauce, coffee w/ half and half <BR> <BR> snack - 1 oz of cashews <BR> <BR> lunch - "taco" salad (kinda). i mixed my bean-less beef chili with lettuce, onion, jalapeno peppers, and 2 tbsp of light italian dressing <BR> <BR> snacks -... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 07:28:07 EST fresh start monday!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6149813 i had an amazingly fun weekend, and am officially at the biggest size that i will let myself be haha. i have not weighed in, but i am kind of feeling like i ate myself and am just a giant, bloated version of who i should be! <BR> <BR> i actually had a crazy-good workout on friday, which is pretty motivating for me to jump back into things. i am officially bread-free as of this morning, and am so excited to be in a routine. i was able to do a bit of grocery shopping, and prepped some bean-fre... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 08:47:17 EST april 20: the day i get in control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6145997 so, as you may have intuited from my last blog, i have been out of control both with eating and finances. my credit card debt has become absolutely unmanageable (is that a word?) hence why i cannot afford groceries. <BR> <BR> rather than allowing myself to completely drown, i have decided to meet with a banker tomorrow to discuss consolidation loans/options. at the same time, i have decided to cut the shi* with my eating. i have been so ridiculously out of control, i am going to gain 50 lbs ... Tue, 19 Apr 2016 20:51:31 EST quick check in! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6144754 i have been all over the place, weight-wise. i have probably fluctuated in a 7 pound range for the past two-ish weeks, going back and forth from losing to gaining to losing. i am also FLAT broke at the moment, which is both good and bad. good, because i cannot afford to eat out at the moment. bad, because i would really like to cut out bread/pasta/rice to jump-start my weight-loss, and that is pretty much all i have in the house haha. <BR> <BR> i will be broke for the rest of the month, so a... Mon, 18 Apr 2016 08:40:16 EST recap: april 7! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6137687 a third day on-track!!! woop woop! <BR> <BR> i finally got my cals down, so went to bed feeling much less bloated :) i limited myself to one glass of wine and no food at a work event last night, so i will call that a success haha. i am going out for drinks with a friend tonight, so trying to keep it syn-free until then. i have no idea when i am going to be able to have lunch today (mid-day event) so i packed myself a huge tupperware filled with raw cauliflower and asparagus to keep me going!... Fri, 8 Apr 2016 08:20:52 EST recap: april 6! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6137009 i was on-track again yesterday, but feel like i ate too many cals (i was around 1,600, when i prefer to be closer to 1,200). i am still feeling pretty bloated, but am not losing my morale! i am heading to the gym mid-day today, in between work stuff (actually, i am putting on my workout clothes now, before i have two more work calls - no excuses!!). i am definitely going to aim to be closer to 1,200 cals today, too, just to hopefully help with the bloat. <BR> <BR> here is yesterday's recap: ... Thu, 7 Apr 2016 10:08:49 EST recap: april 5! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6135789 i am not planning to eat anything else today, so why not do an early recap?? <BR> <BR> i finally, FINALLY, finally had a totally on-plan day. i am still feeling a bit bloated (i think due to eating lots veggies + beans this time, though, not due to junk). <BR> <BR> i worked from home this AM, so went to the gym around 9.30 - aka the best time to go to the gym, because it is so empty!! i ran 2 miles in 12 minutes, did a cool down half mile, and then walked a mile in 15 mins. i transitioned t... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 19:38:30 EST feeling HUUUUUUUUGE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6134852 i had an entire weekend of continued birthday fun, and have been eating anything and everything. it has been wonderful, and so much fun, but i feel absolutely enormous. i have also had the worst digestive issues, which is a total throwback to how i felt all the time when i was at my biggest (i actually didn't realize how much better i have been feeling digestively until it reared its ugly head again...) <BR> <BR> i prepped food for lunches and dinners this week, which will hopefully last unt... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 15:10:05 EST #blessed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6132731 this birthday has been so different from any other. i am a total type a planner, so i usually have my birthday planned months ahead (my bf's bday is the week before mine, so i plan his first...but yea). anyway, this year, i decided to plan NOTHING, and go with the flow. <BR> <BR> i have been so humbled, and, well, hashtag blessed, by the amount of love i have been shown! not only did my bf completely plan the perfect bday, but my best friend drove from out of town to take me to dinner tonigh... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 17:39:05 EST birthday mode http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6131942 so - very quick blog check in! my bday was absolutely perfect and wonderful...long walk in the woods with my dog, healthy lunch with my bf, DECADENT dinner with my bf at my favorite restaurant, and then wine outside on a patio! (i live in cleveland, so wine outside in march is a total win haha). <BR> <BR> i have been in birthday overeating mode, and i am embracing it haha. fresh start on april 1!! Thu, 31 Mar 2016 18:52:32 EST new year's resolutions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6130440 it seems to me that a birthday is as good a time as any to reassess where i am and where i want to be! everyone can celebrate jan 1, but only a select few get to celebrate march 30 :) <BR> <BR> (plus, i have to work until 10.30 tonight, so i need to do something to fill my time haha) <BR> <BR> 1). EXERCISE! it may not be the key to my weight loss, but it makes me feel good. annnnd now that it is getting warmer outside, i can spend lots of time in the woods, which is my fave! my goal is to a... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 20:54:52 EST (very small) victories! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6129164 so, i don't know how easter usually goes (i'm jewish, and this is my first year joining my bf's family easter celebration) but mine ended up very...drunk. like, very. <BR> <BR> i woke up this morning with the same craving that i get every time i am extremely hungover on a workday: bagels. all of the bagels. <BR> <BR> i made a deal with myself - if i have to drive my bf to work, i will not stop for bagels. if i don't drive him, i will. he decides to sleep in, which means that i am free to ... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 08:14:15 EST march 24th recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6127193 3rd day on-track! i didn't get many steps in yesterday (5,071), because i was just straight up too tired after work to go to the gym, but i had a great evening with my bf! he made dinner and i was in bed by 8.30 haha (pretty much the dream). <BR> <BR> breakfast - fave breakfast sandwich! multigrain bread (hexb) w/ homemade pesto (2.5 syns), 1 scrambled egg, chipotle aioli (4 syns), a teeny bit of feta and fresh spinach. also had coffee w/ homemade almond milk (only used a teeny bit, so count... Fri, 25 Mar 2016 07:43:26 EST balance works! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6126514 i officially have 2 days in the bag of heeding my own advice, and focusing on healthy balance with eating and exercise (and, as expected, already feeling much better!). <BR> <BR> my bf's birthday was yesterday, so i had more alcohol than a typical day, but still focused on my food choices, and didn't over-do it with the drinks (one at lunch, 2 at dinner, and one after dinner). <BR> <BR> i will now bore you all will my recaps from the past two days, for accountability's sake!: <BR> <BR> tu... Thu, 24 Mar 2016 08:44:35 EST 3 steps forward, 2 steps back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6125077 i guess that's just how this goes! i would love to be consistent for more than a week at a time... <BR> <BR> anyway, yesterday was not good (spark-wise). i was totally on-track for breakfast and lunch, and then had the binge of all binges. or should we say, binges of all binges, because i am pretty sure that there were 3 separate binges haha. anyway, moral of the story - not good. <BR> <BR> i went to sleep thinking "i will just do an 'egg fast' and only eat eggs for the next two days, unti... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 11:04:33 EST recap 3.18.16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6122896 i am seriously already feeling so much better. it is AMAZING how quickly eating well and exercising can change how you feel (in general, and about your body). it probably helps that i did not have chicken noodle soup for every meal yesterday, as well :) i did not have a perfect day yesterday, but i am all about just taking steps in the right direction! i think that today should be more on-plan. regardless, i am feeling positive about hitting my goal for the next weigh-in! <BR> <BR> here's th... Sat, 19 Mar 2016 12:53:04 EST steps in the right direction...kind of... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6122128 overall, i am not too bummed about how i did yesterday. i am not counting it as my first day on-track, though, because things went a little bit off the rails haha... <BR> <BR> my bf made a TON of chicken noodle soup, which i ended up eating pretty much all day haha. <BR> <BR> breakfast: chicken noodle soup, 5 grapes, coffee w/ a splash of almond milk (1/4 hex a) <BR> <BR> lunch: jam-packed delicious salad! mixed greens, green beans, cucumber, beets, black olives, green peppers, a little bi... Fri, 18 Mar 2016 10:23:33 EST regaining control! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6121257 i took a workshop last week that partially focused on maintaining balance (heart/body/mind/spirit). at the time of that workshop, i was feeling totally in balance...and then somehow managed to veer off-course! <BR> <BR> i am excited to be back in control, and feeling balanced and content. <BR> <BR> i am focusing not only on being a slimming world angel, but also getting plenty of exercise, drinking plenty of water, and doing fun things to stretch my brain! <BR> <BR> to celebrate this st. ... Thu, 17 Mar 2016 08:42:54 EST short-term goals: the next two weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6120093 this is looking like a double-blog day haha! <BR> <BR> thank you for the kind words on my last blog -- i am ready to pull myself out of this slump. i know how bad binging and purging is for my body, and i do not want to do that to myself! i want to take care of my body! <BR> <BR> since i have been totally out of control, i am going to try to do something different. rather than looking long-term (i.e. all the way until the wedding in june) i am just going to focus on the next 2 weeks until m... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 19:54:49 EST t-15 days until my bday, t-81 days until the wedding... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6119786 ...and i have been completely off-track since friday <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> i don't know what happened, but i have not been following any sort of eating/exercise routine for the past three days! i have also binged and purged 3 times in the past four days, which is pretty much awful. <BR> <BR> i woke up this morning ready to get back on plan, and still feel this way, but have an absolutely crazy day with no structure (or pre-planned meals) so i am feeling kind of lost. time is flyin, and ... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 11:13:53 EST