SUEZNEWME's SparkPeople Blog

two weeks until doctor check in

Mon, 19 Nov 2012 09:56:07 EST

I know I probably should be further along and I know no matter what that scale with clothes on at the doctor will record my weight higher. I was ready to give up this morning really because I have been exercising and eating right a whole lot and the scale was not budging much lately. But this morning I hoped on and low and behold I dropped two pounds and another half inch from my waste. Now I feel like I am getting somewhere. I am at a lower weight than I have been in a while and although...

Busy, busy, busy

Sat, 18 Aug 2012 00:26:28 EST

Yesterday was such a busy day from start to finish I woke up and did my walking in the morning and then I worked hard on a big project until nearly two or three in the afternoon and then still managed to put some other things in order that I had been meaning to once that was done. When I came home I got busy folding laundry and matching socks. I also did random household chores that always seem to crop up. It feels good to be regaining my energy again. I think doing my cardio again is giv...

Getting results

Tue, 7 Aug 2012 08:43:22 EST

Slowly but surely I am making progress and doing what I need to do to achieve weight loss and better health. Right now I am not going too crazy and pushing my body to the point of exhaustion. I am trying to make sensible choices in both my eating and activity. It is good to feel more of a sense of control and start to see results. I want this to be a successful lifetime journey not just a temporary state where I get to reap the rewards for just a little while. I need to try to figure out...

Reflections - Day Three

Thu, 2 Aug 2012 09:02:59 EST

Funny how at first after muddling through for months and really not following a sensible program in any way that suddenly you can pick yourself up and dust yourself off and realize that you can take the steps to make a healthier lifestyle for yourself. No you will not always be perfect but you can strive to do more right than wrong. You can pay more attention to what you eat and drink. You can make a real effort to move more and even place reminders around so you are less likely to just sl...

One Day and Sometimes One Moment at A Time

Wed, 1 Aug 2012 09:24:10 EST

It is hard to realize how far you slipped down the slippery slope and that you have a way to go before you climb completely back out. I am taking each moment and each challenge as it comes. I must defeat whatever mental or physical block that is keeping me from staying where I truly want to be. I know that I just feel better when I treat my body better by eating right and getting enough activity everyday. It is not about looking good but that good feeling inside. It is funny when I feel ...

Wake Up Call

Tue, 31 Jul 2012 12:14:57 EST

Of course my weight has been creeping up slowly and sometimes rapidly it seems over the last while and now I have reached the highest weight I have been in some time. I went to the doctor's office and I weigh 201 pounds with clothes and no shoes but no matter because it is a total wake up call that screams "Get yourself under control!" I have gained forty pounds since last year and I am barely squeezing into my clothes. It is time to gather myself together and really focus on being healthi...

Tough week

Sat, 2 Jun 2012 22:52:34 EST

This has been one of those tough and stressful weeks when I could not seem to reach all my fitness goals and was just stressed to the max with my wireless down etc which took days to figure out but finally happiness is restored in my household. Now maybe I can get back to business as usual.

a work in progress

Sat, 26 May 2012 21:15:07 EST

I am so happy that I am slowly but surely reaching my goals. I know I do not have to be perfect to make it to my goal just keep working in the right direction and I will get there day by day. I am paying attention to what I am doing more rather than being oblivious to what I am doing. It is so easy to fool yourself into thinking you are doing better than you really are so keeping track and making records really gives you a clear indication of what is going on and what you need to change ab...

Nearly three whole weeks down

Sun, 20 May 2012 11:52:40 EST

It has been nearly three weeks since I renewed my health and fitness efforts and I am making progress all around. I am pretty proud of how well I am doing at this point. I have lost seven pounds and I have a whole lot more energy. It is funny how quickly your body gets out of shape when you stop exercising regularly but when you get through the aches and pains you feel so much better about yourself. It is having the determination to realize that your body has to adjust to the new level of...

Enjoying the little successes along the way

Tue, 15 May 2012 09:14:34 EST

There are many triumphs along the way to making it to your goal. To others it might seem trivial but as you go through the process you need to pause and realize how wonderful the journey is. It does not matter what the rest of the world thinks about your little tiny goal or triumph of the day. It matters that you see it as progress. How you feel about yourself on this journey will help you make progress toward the next step. The better you feel about what you are doing will be reflected ...

progress being made

Sat, 12 May 2012 23:48:06 EST

Slowly but surely I am getting back to where I want to be and I am extremely glad for this.

Headed in the right direction

Fri, 11 May 2012 13:28:23 EST

I have definitely picked up my activity this week. I haven't had one day where I was below 10.000 steps and my morning walks are certainly helping me with this. I have lost four pounds to date. I am eating much better as well. I pack my lunches and try not to over do it on the food in any area. I am pretty sure the spark calorie range is way too low and I know I often go above what they have. I check other sites and the allowance is much more than what is offered here. I am very happy w...

From Hard Days to Better Days

Tue, 8 May 2012 23:57:49 EST

I had a tough day emotionally. I was really down in the dumps about being where I am as far as my weight was concerned. It seems so darn hard sometimes to think positive and strive ahead. This whole weight loss/gain cycle is so difficult and I want to get off this crazy roller coaster ride. The thing is I know exactly what I need to do and I know how to do it. I look at all of the information out there and I know I do not want to live in the gym. I want to do enough exercise to lose wei...

Heading in the right direction - sort of

Mon, 7 May 2012 10:51:40 EST

Ok you would think during the happiest time in my life that my body weight would get more stable and I would not have ballooned up but here I am at 193 lbs and I gained this weight in a blink of an eye. Mind you it takes more than a blink of an eye to get it back off. For a split second this weekend I was 191 lbs but then I overindulged a bit and messed that up.

I really was not totally monitoring my eating as I should this past week but I am on an exercise streak once again. I n...

I wonder why

Wed, 4 Apr 2012 09:13:37 EST

I wonder why I can reach my goal but then I can't stay there. I wonder if there is some emotional/mental block that keeps me from being comfortable here. Sometimes I really think there is. I wonder is it the attention or the stress on my body or just what keeps me from staying at the optimal level.

I am going to try to get myself back on track and get my weight down. I know I feel better when I am not so heavy. I just wish I could achieve my goal without feeling like the who...

Out of my Complacent Funk

Fri, 5 Aug 2011 09:31:12 EST

OK I am headed in the right direction and glad for the 160 scare because it snapped me right back into gear again. I was getting a little too comfortable with not trying so hard especially with the eating because exercise is second nature. So here I am really working at getting the rest of the weight off and keeping it off. You can't take your health for granted.

As of this morning I am 157 and woke up extremely hungry but not under calorie range daily so I must be doing somethi...

Wow - 5 years already

Thu, 4 Aug 2011 10:29:54 EST

Until I was updating my spark page I had no idea I have been a member here since 2006 wow. Yes it has been a slight roller coaster ride but here I am still doing my spark thing and doing my best to keep my weight off.

The things that inspired me to get here still weigh heavy on my mind. My grandfather passed away in 2006 and my mom continues to have health issues that I do not want to have in twenty years. Most of my family is overweight and some are morbidly obese which is sa...

159 and headed back in the right direction

Thu, 4 Aug 2011 10:10:51 EST

Nothing is more unnerving than seeing your weight creep up and sometimes overnight. Thankfully I am being more conscious of what I eat because this is the area I have trouble with. I need to control this area as much as possible. I am good about eating healthy overall and keeping things balanced but I tend to like treats here and there. I am going to try to keep the treats more minimal so that I can keep it all in check. This is why writing things down regardless needs to be a priority f...

Still @ 160

Wed, 3 Aug 2011 12:28:15 EST

Ok I am still at 160 but I am definitely getting my eating habits back in line. For me doing exercise is the easy part. Eating right on a fairly consistent basis always poses some problems. Today I am tracking my food and ordered the food journal that helped me before so I can really keep track of progress. I know it is silly but it is good to be able to see that progress on paper. I do this for my workouts too. Yes I am the dork at the YMCA carrying my little folded up paper and markin...

time to reign myself in

Mon, 1 Aug 2011 09:54:43 EST

darn scale said 160 today and now I need to get myself together again before we lose focus. I can do this and I will do this.

The Hot Sister

Wed, 27 Jul 2011 11:18:55 EST

Most of my life my sisters were generally the thinner ones and in my mind thin equated better looking. Yes I got to endure always being the fat sister. Over our adulthood my sisters have both gained a considerable amount of weight and have not embraced the healthy lifestyle as I have.

So fast forward to this weekend one of the family friends said to me "So how does it feel to be the hot sister?" It feels pretty good actually and not just for the hotness factor but for the "I fee...

Getting Closer to Where I Want to Be

Fri, 8 Jul 2011 10:08:49 EST

Just realized something that borders on amazing for me at least, for over 7 months (almost 8 months) I have kept my weight in the 150's or below. Even back in 2007 I was only in this zone for 5 short months. Since my ultimate goal is to maintain my weight at a normal healthy level I feel like I am doing exceptionally well.

I know I want to go for more but I want to pause for just the second and realize how far I have come to get where I am. Exercise has literally become a part o...

Thinking of Taking it to the Next Level

Tue, 28 Jun 2011 00:11:28 EST

I am thinking about losing even more weight and it has got me nervous but I really want to give it a shot. I have somewhat maintained for about 6 months and I think I am ready to try.

Rough year relationship wise

Wed, 22 Jun 2011 11:57:15 EST

Have gone through a lot with men this year. It has been a relationship roller coaster from HE double hockey sticks kind of year and I want to get off this ride. I am doing okay. Actually made it down to 146 at one point this year (sorry no pics was probably too stressed to take any) Would like to try to get back down to 146 but first let's work on getting to normal BMI weight of 152 and then we'll try for more.

Finally updated my page a bit to freshen things up a bit. Not sure...

Reached Normal BMI and beyond :-)

Thu, 20 Jan 2011 10:54:29 EST

So much going on in my life that could stress out or derail all I have been doing but instead I am forging ahead continuing on the path I set myself on. I am proud that I didn't use the bumps in my life's road as an excuse to give up on my health goals.

Crazy steps

Tue, 28 Dec 2010 12:11:27 EST

I did over 17,000 steps yesterday because I had to shovel a crazy amount of snow and then worked out later. Today I am pretty tired - whew.

Relieved

Tue, 21 Dec 2010 12:18:02 EST

Glad that the weight gain seems to be temporary. Good to reign myself back in right away and not get caught up in a downward spiral. I am just continuing to plug along.

Reel myself back in

Mon, 20 Dec 2010 12:12:10 EST

okay up 3 lbs from my low this year and need to get and stay focused. I am going to try to get the 3 lbs off by years end. I know I have been overeating and I need to keep that in check. I can do this I need to get this weight off and keep it off. this is for life so I am going to have to deal with these little challenges.

Almost Normal

Tue, 14 Dec 2010 10:32:42 EST

Well I am 2 lbs from a normal BMI and considering about six months ago I really thought I would never be here that is pretty incredible. Funny how you don't know how far you got out of shape until you see a picture and then your like whoa. I am thankful that even then I was exercising so I wasn't completely out of shape. I feel much better lighter so many things seem easier especially since I am doing cardio and strength training. It just makes my whole life easier being in good shape. I...

For Life

Thu, 9 Dec 2010 12:28:15 EST

Realizing that these changes I am making need to be for life. I have to make exercising and eating right my life long choice if I want to keep the weight off. I can't go back to my lazy and overeating ways if I want the weight to stay off. Well all the people who see me in the gym all the time will just have to get used to my presence. Call me extreme or intense but don't call me a quitter. Actually for me the exercise is the easy part the eating could still use improvement because tempt...

Finding excuses to do

Mon, 22 Nov 2010 15:30:38 EST

I used to always find excuses not to exercise and not to eat right. Now I look for excuses to do both. I fit my exercise in wherever I can to get it in. Morning or evening it gets penciled right into my schedule like any other appointment. When I can't eat completely right I try to only eat 1/2 of what I am given on a plate. Or I start with veggies to get full on them so by the time I get to the other food I am pretty full. My pedometer is also my constant companion counting every step ...

In the 150's and going down :-)

Fri, 19 Nov 2010 08:33:39 EST

Finally in the 150's today. So darned proud of myself for being persistent and strong. Really feeling good. Only 7 lbs from "normal" weight based on the BMI. Feel good about getting healthier and lowering my risk for so many health issues that plague my family. My younger sister just got diagnosed as pre-diabetic. My mom and dad both have diabetes as well as other health conditions due to be overweight and inactive. I must make this a way of life eating mostly healthful food and exerci...

Just plugging along

Tue, 26 Oct 2010 14:27:47 EST

I will not say this journey is easy but it is definitely worth the effort. I look better and I feel better than I have in a long time. I can see the changes in my body due to the effort I have put into eating mostly right and exercising regularly. I am proud that I am putting myself first because it is truly making me a better person all around. It may be weeks before I get down to that "normal" weight but I am sure I will get there and my next goal will be to stay there or maybe take my ...

Back at my lowest this time around :-)

Thu, 14 Oct 2010 12:37:46 EST

Gotta keep this going no matter what. Some days are hard to stay motivated and I do splurge here and there but I know I need to be careful in order to not get out of control. You want to say oh I will skip my workout and this or that but you have to be your own biggest cheerleader because some people are comfortable seeing you fail. Every day is not easy and carefree. You have to get through no matter what and if you slip you dust yourself off and get back up and keep on going. If you st...

teeter tooter - OK :-)

Fri, 8 Oct 2010 11:52:54 EST

well want to rant about going back and forth a pound but just thinking that a few months ago I couldn't even get myself started. So even though my weigh seems to want to jump up and down one pound I will be happy. I am 18 lbs down from where I was in July. Sometimes you just have to sit back and enjoy the ride and not get hung up in those little things. I love that all kinds of people are really noticing my weight loss even when others don't want to acknowledge it for their own personal r...

why doesn't he say anything?

Tue, 5 Oct 2010 10:28:44 EST

Everyone is complimenting me and saying good things about my weightloss except my boyfriend. We are both losing weight and I tell him how well he is doing but he never says the same to me. He has lost about 45 lbs and I have lost 18 lbs in the same time. I am closer to what would be considered a normal weight than he is and everyone is noticing my weight loss even strangers but he never says anything positive about my weight loss as if he is jealous of my success or even trying to sabotage...

Things that make me so mad - grr

Thu, 23 Sep 2010 12:48:34 EST

I don't like it when those closest to you say mean things in an attempt to break your spirit or maybe because they are not doing so well so they want you to falter. I cry foul and no matter what you say I am going to reach my goals.

1 more lb down

Wed, 22 Sep 2010 11:07:50 EST

The plateaus are wretched but it is like your body is taking a little admustment break and then the weight slides off again for a while.

Feeling good about my progress and my mind set. I am very goal oriented and focused on keeping my food and exercise in balance. I know if I want this to work for good I have to reel myself in and stay focused on a more permanent basis. It is weird how it is so easy to get into that funky zone and lose your grip. I want to be a leader not a f...

And 2lbs down - WOOT WOOT!

Tue, 21 Sep 2010 08:24:16 EST

So excited haven't been here in a while and I am going to continue to make progess. I feel so motivated and excited and ready to take on the world. I also am feeling really healthy because I am overall eating right and exercising. I have a lot of supporters in my corner looking out for me that are both near and far and I love them all for just being there when I need them.

I have just 16 lbs to get to a "normal weight". I can do this. I need to get it off and keep it off - I k...

Lost 3/4 inch in one week

Mon, 20 Sep 2010 11:30:50 EST

So surprised this morning to find out my waist went down 3/4". My weight is at a stand still but I am losing inches :-)

Yes below lowest weight last year @ 170 lbs

Wed, 8 Sep 2010 09:41:18 EST

I thought I would not get here and not so fast either but here I am. Next goal into the 160s. OK I am 1 lb away but I will be thrilled to get there and stay in 160's until I am onto the 150's and so forth. Fitting into clothes I haven't fit in for a while and not busting out of them either. I am feeling so much better mentally and looking so much better physically.

I will not let anyone get in the way of my goals for myself. I feel like taking care of me helps me take care o...

weight sliding off

Fri, 3 Sep 2010 10:10:06 EST

Wow it is funny how you get stuck and then the weight starts to slide off. Not that I am not making quite an effort to get to this point but it is good to be off the plateau. I know eventually I will reach a new plateau as my body tests me to see if I am really serious about my weight loss.

Ultimately eating right and exercising on a regular basis really does pay off.

Loving the Compliments

Mon, 30 Aug 2010 13:21:26 EST

Only 10 lbs down and all the people that didn't see me over the summer are commenting on my weight loss. Talk about great inspiration and motivation.

Ah yeah I am passing on the pizza today (already ate my lunch) and just keeping up on this weight loss and more importantly the ultimate weight loss maintenance.

In the words of my teenage daughter WOOT! WOOT! :-)

doing this for quality of life

Sun, 29 Aug 2010 20:53:41 EST

Hard to only be able to watch while loved ones stubbornly refuse to take care of themselves. It teaches me that what I am doing for me now matters and I will not give up on myself or my quest for better health.

Patience pays off

Fri, 20 Aug 2010 12:14:25 EST

Woke up this morning and two pounds lighter than I was after my weight got stuck for a while. All this eating better and working out every day is definitely paying off. I definitely feel better and look better. I am looking forward to the day I walk by a mirror or a window and don't recognize that the woman looking back at me is actually me. I know I can do this.

Feel stuck

Wed, 18 Aug 2010 12:10:40 EST

hate being stuck and still forging ahead. I just want the weight to come off consistently. I will feel better when my body agrees it is time to let go of the weight.

Looking forward to every meal

Fri, 6 Aug 2010 12:30:05 EST

Funny how when you are trying to lose weight that every meal is a blessing. I look forward to my next chance to eat.

Still hanging in there even though it is not easy. I just need to keep moving and eating right and I will get there. I know I will still have cake and pizza etc once in a while but I need to limit it and keep myself in check.

In the zone

Wed, 4 Aug 2010 12:26:51 EST

Happy to be in the zone of eating right and exercising. It is rough sometimes but the rewards outweigh the draw backs so I am going to forge ahead. I know there will be plenty of challenges ahead but I really want to keep my head right and not get to the point where I am making excuses for not eating right and not exercising. I am not saying I will never eat goodies again I am just saying I don't want a slip to turn into a free fall again. Being off track just ends up making me feel reall...

Sometimes it is the little things

Mon, 2 Aug 2010 10:40:47 EST

So happy to be back into the 170's. Ok I am 179 but still it is a victory for me. Now my next goal is 176 so I can get myself back down to my lowest weight of last year. Baby steps all the way but I will get there and I have to gear myself up to stay there because I hate this up and down roller coaster. I just want to get off now.

Getting my 10,000 steps in

Sun, 1 Aug 2010 23:04:09 EST

It is tough but I am getting it in every day. I need to stay moving. I feel good to get in at least the 10,000 and on days I get more I feel that much better for really being active. Some days I force myself to get it all by even marching in place or whatever to get it in but I need to do this. I don't want my inactivity to be the reason my life gets cut short.

I saw my mother today and she is so overweight and out of shape she can barely walk. She seems to be so unhealthy a...