STUKINA21's SparkPeople Blog STUKINA21's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Continued Accountability With my goal of get healthy, and holding myself accountable I have finally spoken to my PCP about my goals. Getting her involved hold me more accountable. We have discussed options and are moving forward. I have also finally opened up with my husband a let him know about all my crazy. He has always been super accepting of my families crazy... but for me to let him know that it is not just my family that is crazy... that I did actually come from the crazy tree was hard. Being the most amazing ... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 21:33:08 EST life getting in the way So I have a ligitimate excuse for not writing for while, we survived hurricane sandy...not in the same terms as others... but none-the-less, I had no real good way of accessing the internet and when I did, I was trying to catch up with school. Once I got caught up with school, thanksgiving break was here so I again was not in the best place to write. <BR> <BR> SOOOO... now that all that is over I can write. <BR> <BR> I spread my father ashes of thanksgiving break, which was theraputic, but... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 21:53:52 EST Pride I am proud of the changes that I have made... though they have been very hard... I mean very hard. Remind myself that I have to work out, no eating out, and to write. That I am accountable for my health! That my bad health today will be my bad health tomorrow. So here is to success for the past couple of weeks, and hope for the future Tue, 23 Oct 2012 20:47:40 EST Remember I must remember why I am doing this, tiny set backs are ok, but I must remember why this is important. This is important because my poor health choices now will be the same poor health choices when I am older. So making the hard choices is what it is going to take so I can eventually have a healthy now for a healthy future. <BR> <BR> My Goals <BR> 1. Writing <BR> 2. No Eating Out <BR> 3. Working Out Thu, 18 Oct 2012 16:09:25 EST Life LAST week sucked, it has been an emotional roller coaster since August. They are things I can't controll, but it does not make it hurt any less. Talking to people and about it is helping my heart not ache as much. So there is... hopefully was that issue. <BR> <BR> My goals <BR> 1.Writing <BR> 2. No Eating out <BR> <BR> It has been two weeks for writing, and I think I am doing pretty good, and no eating out, next Saturday, will be two months, I think it is time to add another goal... I wi... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 09:01:45 EST Not the Enemy As of late I have been having a hate- hate relationship with my scale. I will wegh myself and gain a pound the lose a pound. I think slowly I am deconditioning myself from seeing that number and automatically criticising myself. Like what could I have done better... I am finding that weighing myself more frequently, I am asking myself, what have I done to positively effect my health, not what more can I do. I know I am making great strides to being healthy and I will keep on the path, and m... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 06:56:26 EST Too Much August was hard, my father passed a way and when I found out I was comletely alone. I mean completely my husband was out of town on business and my one friend away on vacation. I am a person of faith and believe that God has a plan for all of us. But lately I have been shaken and questioning wondering. <BR> <BR> Shortly after the passing of my Father, a close friend of mine lost her brother and colleague of mine lost her son, my husband lost his aunt and today I lose friend. I want to scream... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 14:23:23 EST Overload So, this week has been... meh. I am these next hree weeks I am expecting to be quite involved, as far as school goes, because I have 3, 8page papers I have due... and it is overwhealming the thought. Generally I try to stay relaxed but yezsterday while working on another paper got the worst computer and light overload!!! I could do a thing... I even had to make dinner in the dark, which btw was delish!! :) it was about 10pm when I finally started to feel better and was able to focus on what n... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 09:26:03 EST Life So, today was an ok day. Being a full time student, homemaker, mom and part time worker life is always full. Monday through Wednesday I devote majority of my days to doing school work and making meals for the family. Thursday is chore day, i.e. laundry, cleaning, yard work, and meals for the family. Friday and Saturday I spend 12+ hours working. I have found, that I eat sooo much better at work, especially on Fridays (fry free Friday at work). However, besides my goal of writing more frequent... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 19:56:34 EST New Goal My new personal goal is to start journaling/ writing again. To say what I need to say. I think for quite sometime I thought I was ok not writing, but I need to get my thoughts out there. Also maybe I will be more accountable. I expect so much from others yet I let myself slide all the time. So I will start to write and see where it goes. Sun, 7 Oct 2012 18:49:21 EST Accountable I am not recording what I eat everyday, nor what exercise I do. But I did work out 4 times last week. I have made a 'deal' with myself, that I set an exercise/food goal for the week... and I don't change it during the week. If I feel like adding an exercise that is fine... but I don't change what I am expected to do for an entire week. I think limiting this and sticking to it for a whole week is helping me to stick with it .. for now. <BR> <BR> Still cynical. Sun, 6 Feb 2011 19:40:24 EST Perfection Spiritually stresssed. <BR> <BR> That is all I can really say. Sat, 29 Jan 2011 21:15:06 EST Honesty I have been thinking about what the right words are. I have read so much about this, that and the other on being healthy, but have not lived it. I have also been hiding from the fact that I am so overweight like it is some secret that only I know. But people have eyes, they can see me. It is not a secret. SO, I want to stop living like I am trying to hide my goal and journey from people and be honest. That is my plan. I may not blog everyday... I may not blog after this. But I will be honest ... Tue, 25 Jan 2011 10:23:18 EST