STORMYBELLE56's SparkPeople Blog STORMYBELLE56's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Need more discipline; not motivation... Don't misread this. Of course I need motivation, but DISCIPLINE is the only key that will turn that tumbler and get me going. I hate DISCIPLINE but unless I put DISCIPLINE in its place, I am going nowhere. <BR> GET GOING G; JUST GET GOING! <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> <BR> <BR> <em>313</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Sun, 28 Sep 2014 15:05:57 EST Getting Out of the Rut.... I have been is a terrible rut for about 6 weeks. I got the stomach flu, then got really fatigued. <BR> I went to the doctor & had all kind of tests done; everything was fine. Then the weather, schedule changes, family know the game. I then just got depressed. I had to do something, Part of what helped is that I had verbally made a commitment to myself and my family. I knew in my brain that there was no I just know like Michael Jordan said, <BR> Just do it!! <BR> Ev... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 07:30:01 EST Let that cycle go in another direction... I am continuing to break the cycle of denial that has protected me from looking at myself. <BR> <BR> I am proud of myself and I know that I can accomplish my goals. I just need to quit beating up on Gail and give myself credit of what I do on a daily basis. <BR> <BR> I also need to set my mind by taking those small steps. It may sound insignificant, but I really do have to break it down in that manner like putting my exercise shoes on, gating In my car to go to the Curves Program, e... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 10:28:03 EST Back & Forth...Back & Forth Made a decision to not beat myslelf up, that I slip in and out of doing what I need to do and slipping back to what I want to do. I am learning that recovery is a process; however, continuing to make the best decisions for myself rather than giving into my desires will help me attain the bigger desire (excuse the irony) to get to my goal weight. My confession: 258 lbs; My goal weight: 158 <BR> Any encouragement would be helpful. <BR> <BR> Thanks, <BR> Stormybelle56 <BR> aka Gail Sat, 11 Jan 2014 10:48:02 EST GOOD NEWS, BAD NEWS... I thought I had gained because I had not logged in since first part of July. But, actually, I have lost 4 lbs. The same 4 lbs I keep losing and gaining, but nevertheless. <BR> So, I thought that was the bad news, but really, I don't have any bad news. <BR> <BR> The good news TA---DAH is: I have started my Zumba classes & have fallen in love with them. I also came across a very caring instructor, who is a great support. So, I am commited to doing Zumba 3 x weekly. Today, I even went out to t... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 21:01:16 EST Acknowledging my independence... Just ordered a FIRM workout and stair step from Amazon. <BR> Proud of myself. My schedule at work has changed, and I am not able to <BR> do my walking or Zumba as regularly, but I am making a commitment to stick to it! <BR> I am determined to make this weight loss a priority! <BR> StormyBelle56 <BR> aka Gail <BR> <BR> <em>232</em> <em>206</em> <em>27</em> Thu, 4 Jul 2013 14:30:16 EST Wanted: Structure June 9, 2013 <BR> <BR> I know (for me) I do so much better with structure and preparation. I had not planned to have Friday off and got it due to inclement weather( flooding in our area), so it gave my addict permission to eat baked biscuits with butter and jam. I offsetted it with eating little for the rest of the day; however, I have to know (for me), that, as much as I love biscuits, I cannot keep frozen biscuits in my freezer under the premise that I will only eat 1 or 2. What a joke! A... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 07:44:42 EST I really did great today.. This is a wonderful journey I am embarking on...BECAUSE...not only am I learning to eat differently, I am also learning to love Gail more & it is a wonderful experience. I am learning that eating the extra food when I am not hungry is a real way of beating myself up. I am setting more and more boundaries for myself to not let any one hurt me anymore. And, although I do not have control over how others treat me, I have control over how I react and it does not have to be a slap (figuratively) o... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 22:23:01 EST I am finding that.. it helps me to continue to be honest with myself, to track my food, and prepare ahead what I am going to eat. I am finding that I do not have to limit myself to good food just because I am watching what I eat. <BR> <BR> I am also finding that I make mistakes, overeat at times BUT have stopped beating myself as much. Because, when I have made a mistake and have beaten myself in the past, that was a reason to just go back to my bad habits. <BR> <BR> I vow: <BR> I AM NOT GOING BACK TO MY OLD ... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 19:25:42 EST Bringing it to the light.... I gave into temptation with the false lie that I would just get some grilled chicken bites, wound up getting the whole 2 piece grilled chicken with MAC -N-Cheese, (my real downfall), biscuit, another downfall, slaw, and a Diet Pepsi. <BR> Putting my calories down was not as bad as I thought it would be. I was about 400 calories off my limit...BUT, <BR> I stayed in the limit of the carbs, protein, and only went 3 grams over my fat limit! <BR> <BR> I am so proud of myself for keeping track of... Tue, 28 May 2013 20:13:03 EST Still keeping on.. A lot of the people I connect with at Spark People encourage me to take baby steps and to give myself credit for my successes, not matter how small. <BR> I am proud today that I have not overeaten, <BR> Proud, That I fixed fajitas with peppers, mushrooms, and oinions instead of pasta. <BR> I have made my weight loss a priority, but not the ONLY thing in my life. <BR> I know that as I continue on this journey, I am not going back to 261 and as I lose, <BR> I will continue to fill in that blan... Mon, 27 May 2013 20:18:05 EST I bypassed temptation today.... by thinking through what 3-5 fried chicken tenders would do for me. I wanted so badly to give into it, but I thought it through and reminded myself to eat for fuel not for taste. ( you know what I mean). <BR> <BR> Now, to speak the truth, I ate about a half of bag of sour cream potato chips last night. <BR> NO EXCUSES for my behavior. I take two steps back and one step forward....the cha-cha of life. But, one thing i know, is I am given up on beating up on Gail! <BR> <BR> StormyBelle56 <... Sun, 26 May 2013 15:59:34 EST Keeping on Keeping On! I am so proud of myself today for sticking to my plan to walk and to do my morning exercises (leg lifts and movement with the 4 lb exercise ball). Also, yesterday, I set up my plans by measuring myself, thinking through, and planning some of my upcoming snacks <BR> (ie. cutting up celery sticks, cutting veggies for dinner, etc.) <BR> <BR> I am starting to see more and more that this journey will take planning and patience. <BR> I also need my motivation and stick-to-it-viness! (FANCY WORD PE... Mon, 6 May 2013 19:58:01 EST Try, try, try again... Well, I thoght I had re-started this program the other day, but somehow my blog and my page did not stay. And...I gained 3 lbs since I started AND....this is not my first walk around the Spark Page block. . Not a happy camper! <BR> "> <img src="">!. In fact, I know that I am getting depressed and I definitely do not want to go down that road again. It has pot holes that I go around, etc and I know, I need to just walk down another street,... Sun, 28 Apr 2013 19:26:24 EST