STORKBYTE's SparkPeople Blog STORKBYTE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Monday a new week It seems that I really struggle to track my food and to get my exercises in when I am working. It doesn't matter if it is day shift or night shift. My motivation is low, and I'm so tired. A lot of the tiredness is due to the incredible amount of stress and worry I am experiencing right now. When it comes to your children, no matter the age, your mom instincts kick into high gear. You have that need to protect, help and nurture and when it seems like you are failing it becomes personal. ... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 12:37:23 EST On Saturday I..... .........did my 30 Day Challenge(s). 75 squats! Impressive. It would be more impressive if it was continuous. But, broke that one down to sets of 20 with a 30 second rest between. Felt the burn. Ended up doing a total of 17 minutes to get through all of it. And, watching Hard Days Night at the same time. The Beatles could not act. But entertaining all the same. This evening, I had the pleasure of seeing Jim Gaffigan live. I laughed so much. It was a much needed respite from my ver... Sun, 16 Nov 2014 02:15:02 EST Plugging away So, my one "rest day" of my 30 Day Challenge became 2. Not sure how that happened. Thighs were crazy sore, and it probably wasn't a bad idea. I do feel like I cheated though. My challenge is done for the day. Tonight, I get to enjoy dinner out with my friend of 45 years. She no longer lives in my city, and is in for some work. Unfortunately, she has picked Montana's. I will have to be very careful of my menu choice tonight. Other wise, I feel pretty good today. In fact, this is the ... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 15:51:56 EST Day 3 I'm sore. Had a lousy day at work. Finally, at 11:30, I convinced myself to do my 30 day challenge. Ugh. Happy I've exercised, but down because now I'm late going to bed yet again. Glad tomorrow is my last day and I have a few off. <em>40</em> Wed, 12 Nov 2014 01:39:32 EST Can't stay consistent It always amazes me how an injury can set one back so far. I was able to get into a great walking routine over the summer. One evening in August, I developed an intense burning sensation in one of my toes. Ignoring it, I finished my walk. Once home, I had a look and my poor toe (left foot) was inflamed, red and bruised from tip to base of foot. As I waited for it to heal, the weeks passed, and so did my motivation to exercise. Add on top of that a huge amount of stress in my personal li... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 19:28:53 EST Picture I wonder if I should take a "before" and an "after" picture? <BR> Though the scale hasn't changed much in the last few weeks, I tried on some clothes today/yesterday and found some stuff on the loose side. So, there may not be a change on the scale, the clothes fit better. Thu, 7 Aug 2014 00:53:58 EST Some days............. Another crazy busy day at work. Didn't have time to take a lunch break and gobbled down my lunch at the desk. Got home tired and frustrated. Son said "what's for dinner". I don't know, left overs? He said "McDonalds".....sigh.......fine. Some days you just have to eat a Big Mac. I haven't had one if over a year.<BR>. And I felt aweful afterwards. I should have done yoga instead. Hind sight is wonderful. Tomorrow is another day though. Tue, 5 Aug 2014 00:34:06 EST I am........... .........determined. <BR> <BR> First day back to work after a 2 week vacation. I feel good. Work was busy. Had the potential to go to hell in a hand basket.......but it didn't. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Oh yeah.......weighed myself this morning. Down a whole pound. It's a start. Tue, 22 Jul 2014 17:58:04 EST First walk in for ever.... Tonight I did it. Pushed away from the computer and took advantage of a gorgeous evening. <BR> I used a new app on my phone...walking mate. It calculated my steps, distance and calories burned. So...I walked 5.6 km in 60 mins and burned approx 275 cal. yay! I mapped it out on SP's map...the distance was a little less as was the calories. Neither here nor there as far as I'm concerned. Either way, I am glad I did this. I feel great. I kept pace with my usually walking at a ... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 23:16:26 EST It's me..........again So.......after a long hiatus from this site, thinking I might do better with WW on line program, I am back. Still going to follow WW, but I don't get the people connection on that site like I do here. My biggest road block continues to be tracking my meals! It is so friggin' tedious! And overtime, I just quit. Not sure how to keep that going. I've been able to maintain my weight at 161 for the last several months, but it is a weight I am not happy with being only 5'5". I would like to... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 12:02:04 EST Sunday is not my day of rest. After much procrastination today, I eeked out Day 6 of Insanity. As I wrote to a friend, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. That is a quitting attitude BUT, I'm curious to see how much better I get the longer I do it, so I will persevere. I also found last night, this neat 100 Push Ups Program, and 200 Squats Program. There's also dips, but I think that can wait for a bit. I did the push up test and know where to start. The squat test I haven't done yet but plan on doing it. <BR> To... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 21:50:09 EST 9 Days to Vacation Well, after procrastinating most of the afternoon, I have completed day 5 of the Insanity program. I laugh at the word completed though. I did the full 38 minute workout but so much slower. I wonder if it would be easier to do in the basement on the thin carpet down there rather than in the living room. Suicide jumps......well, I think I completed 5 during that segment. My co-worker says keep plugging. One day I will do 6, then 8, then 10. <BR> I haven't been completely following m... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 18:33:55 EST Work out Came home from work tired even though we were not busy. We were about as far from busy as one could get. It's a nice break from the chaos as we know it. It took about an hour and a half to convince myself to put on my work out gear and find Day 4 on You Tube. I was 10 minutes into the program when my phone rang. I wasn't going to answer it but it was a co-worker, who had called a few days previously, and I had yet to return her phone call. So, I answered it. I guess we chatted about 3... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 00:22:12 EST Working Hard So an acquaintance at work has challenged me. She works in a different area than I do, but we see each other often. She has completed Insanity once already. I told her I had tried the first two days and struggled with some of it. Partly, I'm finding my ankle isn't as strong as I thought it was. I feel it the next day. Maybe continuing to work hard will improve that? Or, make it worse? Well, there's only one way to find out I guess. Plug on. Anyway, she is doing Insanity again and s... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 17:38:27 EST Grrrrrrrrrrowling at myself So, I'm a blob. Well, not really. Just feel like one. <BR> No motivation in 3 days to work out. I'm just so tired. Did my Spark Coach check in tonight. I haven't done it for a few days, nor tracked my food, as I was too tired. Anyway....back to the coach. Commentary for the day....sleep. I read it. I listened to the video. And I've come to the conclusion half my weight problem is probably my lack of sleep. This is short tonight. It's 12:10 am and I have to be up at 5 am for work... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 01:13:30 EST 24 hours with braces is my excuse day. My week of nights was crazy busy. I guess back to what has been normal the last year. It has been very cold and bitter. This all added up to "ugh, tired". <BR> I forgot to track my food one day and the following day, couldn't remember what I had actually had the day I missed. The next day, missed again. I'm okay with that though because I know my food choices were on track and excellent. I just don't have proof. I did not bike. I did not do any str... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 15:25:17 EST Monday, Monday Just managed to squeeze in 30 mins on the bike before getting ready for work. Considering there was a full moon last night, we actually had a decent shift. Yay. <BR> Spark Coach: " reasons behind your fitness and weight-loss goals. What is your true motivation? What do you hope to achieve or experience after reaching your goal?" I've decided this coach asks some pretty tough questions. I think the main reason behind my fitness and weight loss goal is to simply feel better about myself. I... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 22:09:04 EST Today......... Last evening, I had the pleasure of having a wonderful dinner prepared my sister who was here for a visit. Her reason for the visit was to see her new grandson, my second great nephew, who is adorable. Her husbands siblings and their children were also in attendance as was one of my sons and my parents. It was truly a nice way to spend a cold Saturday evening. I was absolutely amazed when my brother-in-law's middle sister walked in the door. We have a history of a friendship which ended ... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 18:21:39 EST So today I did Core Concentration.......for beginners. Beginners? I found it just a little on the tough side. Maybe that's the point. If it's easy, there's no benefit? In my head, I kept saying "I hate this, I hate this." I came close to saying enough, I'm done for the day, but I stuck it out and did the full 45 minute workout. Today, core, tomorrow....lower body. Sun, 13 Jan 2013 20:29:54 EST Here I go.........once again Where do I begin? <BR> I've been negligent. Christmas was a killer this year. Goodies left by physicians and patients. The temptations were too great to ignore. Food always spread out on the table in the staff lounge. I had no will power. One here, one there. I've gained since April when I broke my ankle, but not to the point I was at 3 years ago. I'm travelling again in March and I need my summer clothes to fit, so the crunch is on........yet again. I thought I'd return to HM as I... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 00:32:12 EST What's My Biggest Excuse For Not Exercising........ Hm. I have a million of them and frequently can talk myself out of doing a work out. As I've just returned from my conference in Hawaii, I have new found incentive. I didn't feel ugly there, but I did feel chubby/fat. My friend assured me I didn't look fat, but I know how I felt. <BR> <BR> So, my number one excuse is "I'm tired". I'll have to work hard on that one. I'm always tired it seems. Sun, 4 Nov 2012 17:27:42 EST No Excuses, Just Didn't .....and now I'm ticked off at myself. <BR> I did absolutely nothing this last week of work. I came home and parked my butt in front of the computer. I had no desire, energy, or motivation to say "enough"!! "Go exercise". Why does this feel like so much work to me right now? I despise tracking food. It's like........homework. No weight loss for two weeks due to cheating. Not bad cheats, but enough. Or, I will eat well until the last days of the week and then say "ugh, what's the ... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 16:22:16 EST Is anger a real motivator I've done nothing for a week. Since I have returned home from my "retail therapy" trip, nothing. I think because it wasn't really therapy. I just realized how crappy I feel and look. You know the feeling, trying on jeans, and every style fits differently or doesn't fit at all? Or, the jeans that used to fit but now the cut has been changed and the same style doesn't fit, even though you're wearing a pair you bought last year?? Yeah, that was my weekend. I did get nice boots though. Th... Sat, 22 Sep 2012 13:39:45 EST A big sigh I need to get out of this slump!! <BR> I had today off work to deal with the window mess. Hopefully, I'll have a new window in a week. I don't want to look at the plywood anymore than I have to. It depresses me. <BR> <BR> I did nothing today. I did eat better and tracked my food. I guess that would be a woohoo for me. <BR> <BR> I hope I am feeling more like me tomorrow. <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> Tue, 4 Sep 2012 23:47:10 EST Crappy weekend Where to start? I was looking forward to this, the long weekend, summer's last kick at the can so to speak. The long range started out looking good. I made plans to head up to my parents cottage. Mom wanted to have a yard sale and it was her birthday on Sunday. By Thursday, the forecast was for rain, both days. "Oh well" I thought, "maybe it won't". The drive up Friday was good. Some traffic but nothing that made you hold your breath. I had a car full of boxes for the sale. I was op... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 00:52:47 EST Cardio workout Today was my first real cardio workout since breaking my ankle @ the end of April. Even though, hauling my butt around on crutches was no easy feat. I think if I can find good workout videos on Youtube and get back to the gym I belong to I can meet my goal for March 1st, or at least come very close to it. My other motivation is the Hawaii conference in October. I am sure that variety is what I need to continue to exercise and because I can no longer run, I have to find some other ways to ... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 16:51:51 EST Discouraged I still can't get through an 8 hour shift without wearing my aircast. I've had some crazy shifts where I'm basically on my feet for 7 of my 8 hours. I limp to my car and drive home knowing exercise is out for the day. <BR> I'm going to Hawaii in October. The 24th to be exact. I'll be attending a conference but lucky for me, am stretching it out for a week so I can soak up some sun before dealing with our dreaded long, cold winter. If that isn't motivation, what is? How can I find mo... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 15:32:12 EST Tracking Food------FAIL Uh huh, what is it about tracking food that I find so tedious? Already have fallen off the wagon on this one. <BR> For the most part, my food choices have been wise with the odd "treat". Except last night. Went out for coffee with a good friend and ended up with a large, warm apple jack on a plate in front of me. <BR> When I have a moment to sit down and plug in my food choices, I procrastinate and say "later" and then never do. Usually because it's bedtime. <BR> Anyway, will start ... Sun, 24 Jun 2012 10:48:50 EST Green light I got the okay to return to work. Still need to arrange a meeting @ HR with the union, manager, me and the HR rep for a gradual return to work. Is 5 shifts in 2 weeks before returning to a regular .8 rotation gradual?? LOL. Crossing my fingers I will be doing this next week. I have it planned perfectly. Return to my position July 3rd (after the holiday) Then I'll work 8 shifts and be off for 2 weeks on holidays. It sounds good to me. <BR> <BR> Got a bit more of my saturated non used... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 02:12:17 EST Cloudy & Rainy & Cloudy Sigh. The weather is crap this week. The temperature went down to 3 last night. Really? Mid June? <BR> I'm supposed to be trying to walk some distance with the air cast on. I can't bring myself to go outdoors when it's damp, windy and cool. I don't like wind. Especially the chilly type that gets through your clothes. This is when a treadmill would come in handy. Tomorrow is my appointment with the doc. Hoping to get the green light to return to work. I never thought I'd hear myse... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 20:40:58 EST Saturday They say never start anything new on a Monday. They say, never start anything new on a day, where you previously tried something new and failed. Hm. So, rather than wait until Monday to "be careful" with my food choices, I started today. Because it's Saturday. And, I put it on the food tracker. Not sure if I'll keep doing that though as I find it so so so tedious. I do have my HM journal though which I can use. They say, when you crave a cigarette, you should drink water. No, I'm not ... Sat, 9 Jun 2012 20:07:00 EST Typical Me Today is June 2, 2012. On April 27th, I twisted my ankle for the second time in a week sustaining not only a severe sprain but an avulsion fracture of the talus (part of the ankle bone). So, my weight loss program at Herbal Magic was put on hold. My re-entry into the gym was put on hold and I've basically been sitting on my fat ass for 4 weeks. Yes, I went to Herbal Magic. Because of a picture of me. It was taken at our staff Christmas party and when I saw it, I knew I needed to be acco... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 00:20:34 EST February Today is Feb. 5th. I should have been out of this house hours ago. I should have gone to my Zumba class. Oh well, no sense flogging myself. There's always next weekend. I made it to the gym on Monday and Wednesday and started back on my couch 2 5k program. I've made it through once, I can do it again. Running for 1 min is easy compared to the first time I did the program but I thought I should err on the side of caution and start right from the beginning. My foot was sore after both r... Sat, 5 Feb 2011 13:40:11 EST Ah sweet bitter January I did it! I broke the plateau...finally. After sitting at 148 for 2 months, I weighed 145 on Monday. A reason to carry on. 5 lbs from my first goal weight of 140. My second goal weight is 135 and the final being, 130. That one is for re-evaluation though. As I sit on the cusp of 50, I'm not sure 130 will suit me. I think I'm okay with that. It would be awesome though, to be at my goal weight when I head off for my "end of winter" trip. This year...the Dominican Republic. I'm excit... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 13:43:28 EST A New Year So, here it is, January 2nd now. I have so much work to do in my life. The biggest rock around my leg is my computer. I am an addict. I can sit for hours and research, read, listen to music, play games, edit photos and the list goes on. It's especially easy for me to sit here in the winter when the roof cracks from the cold and I can hear the wind. When -20c feels like -38c because of the wind. Yes, I can sit here. And so I must clean up. I need to get last years income tax done. The... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 13:32:57 EST Half way there. July 4th. One week left of work and then 3 weeks of holidays. I'm hoping I can maintain my eating habits while not at work. When I'm home I tend to eat very little as I'm just not hungry. The weight is finally coming off. Sad to say that it wasn't this site that allowed that to happen. Not enough structure and accountability. I found the same with Weight Watcher's on-line. I was only accountable to myself and I can lie so easily. I still cheat some days but I journal it. My food coa... Sun, 4 Jul 2010 19:17:40 EST Making progress slowly I've managed to finally move my ticker!! I've lost 10 lbs and my clothes are loose on me. What a feeling. I've lost a total of 14 " from my body. I haven't had the chance to go to the gym as much as I'd like. I can't seem to push myself to get there on those days when work is crazy busy. I know I should simply take my gym things with me and rather than turning left to come home, turn right and just go. I'm doing Zumba almost every Saturday morning though and loving it. The weather ha... Sun, 16 May 2010 12:53:20 EST Keep on plugging So, it's been 3 weeks since joining the gym. I hired a personal trainer for 12 weeks. I figure the extra money will be well spent. So far it's going well. I never remember the weight I'm using for each exercise. I guess I should check with my trainer to see if I'll get a routine to follow when we're finished. I'm trying to increase my running time on the treadmill. Yesterday, I struggled with only 2 minutes. Rather than risk injury, I stayed at a 2 min run with a 1 min walk. I guess ... Sat, 20 Feb 2010 15:48:58 EST Feeling better about me. First of all, it was nice to see the comments posted on my last blog. Made me feel that out there are these invisible people who feel the same way I do. Just those few written words lifted my spirit. I'm sure there are a lot of women out there that weigh more than I do and wonder what I'm so worried about. But as I say to my friends, "for me, this isn't right and it doesn't feel good". I know I'll never look like a super model and doubt I could ever be the same size I was when I got marr... Mon, 18 Jan 2010 18:53:08 EST Reality Bites So, I cried today. I've stared at that scale for several weeks now. Can't even remember the last time I stepped on it. But I've been living in major denial. I thought I'd gained approximately 5 lbs. Whoa! 10!! Can't believe it. hard as it is to say, I've tipped the scales at a whopping 170 lbs. I haven't weighed this much since I was, 18 years ago. It sucks. So I stood there in the bathroom feeling gross and fat and asked myself "So, what now?" "What ... Mon, 18 Jan 2010 04:33:02 EST Sunday...Day 1 of Trying again Okay. So yesterday, I stared that bike down and did it. Conquered the " I don't want to do this" attitude. I threw in a DVD and pedaled for 60 mins. Logged 23 km ( I think...I need to check my book and see if it's miles or Km). Then I pulled out my new DVD on Core exercises with the stability ball. It wasn't great. Not what I thought it would be. But that's okay. I did something. Today......I need to revamp my resume for a job posting, go out and buy ink and a few groceries. Then ... Mon, 11 Jan 2010 11:14:31 EST Christmas picture equals MOTIVATION Oh dear. My manager at work pinned up a picture of me taken with two other women at our Christmas party. I looked at it and thought OMG I look fat! I have no idea how much I weigh as I'm too afraid to step on the scale. I haven't bought any larger sizes of clothes (yet) but my jeans and some shirts are snug. I just don't know why I can't do this. I could sit at the computer all day and read articles, surf, and play games and chat with friends close to home and long distance. To actuall... Sat, 9 Jan 2010 18:17:08 EST Day 5 of my return I avoided lunch out yesterday with some friends from work. Part of my inner excuse was I didn't want the temptation of drink (alcoholic of course, it is summer after all) nor the temptation of dessert which.....I just can't say no to. I ended up going out for coffee in the evening with a friend only to find myself drinking a Café Carmilla( with skim milk) but I also had a mile high brownie. It wasn't really a mile high and it wasn't huge, but it was chocolate and ohhh so yummy. Otherwise,... Fri, 17 Jul 2009 20:19:11 EST Here we go again Nothing like trying on last years pants and you get that "oh shi*t" feeling. Tight. Too tight to wear. Sigh. If that isn't motivation what is? For a year, I've done very little. The full time job plays a huge part. 12 hour shifts. And, days and nights. It really makes finding the energy to do something hard. The full time position is only a term position and then I'll be back to part time. Although the fewer hours will be nice, I'm quite enjoying the money and the fact I don't worr... Sun, 12 Jul 2009 12:15:34 EST