STODD251's SparkPeople Blog STODD251's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A new plan After talking with my friend and also with Brett, who had recently talked to the friend who is selling him the Herbalife; I have formulated a new plan. From comments on my blog and from talking with my friend, I had determined that Brett and I don't need to be doing the same thing. However, I did want to create a sense of "we're in this together"ness... Brett's friend suggested some sort of a points system to help keep him motivated. That gave me the idea that maybe we could make this into so... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 14:23:01 EST Dieting in a Relationship I have been thinking a lot about how my relationship affects my weight loss. I feel like so far, it has been sort of a bad thing for me weight-wise. I have been very slowly gaining weight since I've been in this relationship. Granted a lot of it has to do with our love of beer, and also our love of good food. But something needs to be done. I am just not happy with the status quo. I also feel a little bit of a burden to try to support my boyfriend in his efforts. While I am hoping to lose a m... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 13:13:53 EST Relaxing? I might not know how to do the relaxing thing very well. This weekend turned into a bit of a whirlwind, but it was all fun, so I guess it's okay. <BR> <BR> Friday, I worked. A fairly normal day for the most part. A bit hectic at times, but that's normal. I had Brett meet me at the school so we could walk home together. That was pretty nice. We also had to do a little bit of grocery shopping so that we could cook a nice meal for dinner. So after we did our shopping, we returned home. Watched... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 09:03:16 EST Relaxing I think that this weekend needs to be all about relaxing, while enjoying the nice weather, of course... I have been going non-stop since last weekend with birthday festivities and work commitments and I just need some time to relax. Thankfully, Brett is here for the weekend, and we have nothing on the agenda except enjoying each other's company. Speaking of which, I want to make a nice healthy meal tonight... Any suggestions/favorites? Fri, 11 Apr 2014 12:07:27 EST This time last year... I just decided to finally update my numbers here on Sparkpeople. (I sort of stopped exercising last June and it has definitely caught up with me.) Anyway, when I recorded my current weight (180lbs), I decided to look at the report. This report showed by weight from last April to this April. And it was not a pretty graph. In fact, while the goal line was steadily decreasing, my actual weight has been steadily increasing. Not good. In fact, this time last year I actually weighed about 12 pounds... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 13:19:09 EST Went to the gym for the first time in a long time... I went to visit my boyfriend out in New York this weekend. I'm typically not a fan of long distance relationships, but so far it's working out okay. It's kind of hard right now. We've been friends for so long, but this whole dating thing is a whole different experience. We've been seeing each other at least once a week so far. He's definitely been doing the lion's share of the driving, so it was high time for me to go out there. It was a really nice weekend. A couple splurge meals, mostly jus... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 12:39:51 EST It's cold and I have a cold I don't like these things. It makes me not want to eat healthy. It makes me not want to exercise. All I want to do is sleep. But since I have had to work all week, I've been drinking copious amounts of tea to keep myself awake. You'd think that as the special ed teacher, I could get away with being absent a few days, but I have meetings I couldn't miss and I have to cover for all the other teachers going to meetings and being out sick. I'm just really glad it's the weekend. I'm also really ho... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 15:09:54 EST Recap of Vacation (With pictures for anyone who needs an infusion of warmth) Let me just say that it was super nice to get away to a warm place for a little while, but absolutely nothing compares with the awesome guy that I've recently reconnected with. The whole time I was out in Arizona, I was thinking how it would only be better if I had him to share it with. But without further ado, let me share my pictures. <BR> <BR> Driving down to Tucson <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The Tucson Botanical Gardens <BR> <img... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 12:54:49 EST Impromptu Vacation! Next week is February vacation here in Massachusetts and I sort of thought I was just going to make it a lazy week at home. However, a couple days ago, my old college roommate messaged me asking about when I was going to visit. I said" I don't know" at the time, but it got me thinking... I do have next week off, and Arizona sounds awfully nice and warm compared to the single digits, ice and snow we've been having here lately. And so, I decided to look up flights. I set myself a budget of $1,0... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 11:00:00 EST Weekends are not an excuse So, when I'm by myself, living life, and everything is normal. I do okay with food choices. However, when I go home for the weekend, I tend to throw it all away and eat like crazy. After gorging myself on Saturday night (because we couldn't take home two slices of pizza for later), Sunday was no better. My father has this thing about finishing everything. Even when it's more calories than any one person should eat. So that was Saturday. Then on Sunday, I went to breakfast with my parents. We ... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 11:06:19 EST A Cold, Snowy Week This week has been cold and snowy and no me gusta! I can't wait for the warm weather to come back so I can take the dog for a walk, or even a run, after work. Even if it weren't so cold, there are literally no sidewalks to be seen right now because they are all covered with snow. While I love the beauty of a snowy day, (See picture below ) I hate that it means I can't be outside doing stuff. I'm tired of being cooped up inside. <BR> <img src=" Fri, 7 Feb 2014 13:33:41 EST Fun weekend, but still exhausted So, last week I was completely MIA from sparkpeople. I finally finished the fast and it's nice to have the freedom to eat whatever again. Although, I think my diet will probably include less meat than it did before now. <BR> <BR> Last week was just a really hard week. First of all, I slept really poorly all week. Second of all, a co-worker sent me a nasty email and made me cry. And I was just really stressed about a lot of things. <BR> <BR> However, the weekend sort of, kind of, made up f... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 13:12:18 EST Heading to a Party 18th century selfies for your enjoyment. Hopefully someone else will take some better photos tonight. I spent all day figuring out the hair <img src=""> <img src=""> Sat, 25 Jan 2014 17:40:12 EST what i like about me So this is how I felt when I woke up this morning. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I kept waking up last night. It's that time of the month and let's just say my body was very unhappy. It didn't improve until I took a couple ibuprofen, sat in the shower for an hour and then went back to bed. That made me very tired and not interested in going to work this morning. But I put on lots of bright pink to try and fake people into thinking I was awake...... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 13:01:25 EST Jumping on the ABC train A is for Age: 26 (for a couple more months) <BR> B is for Booze: Almost anything, but dark beers, white wines, and fruity drinks are my favorites <BR> C is for Car: 2013 blue Toyota Corolla <BR> D is for Dad's name: Robert Lincoln (He goes by Linc, because he's a Jr.) <BR> E is for Ego: I can think pretty highly of myself, but I try not to talk about it <BR> F is for Favorite song or music: A little of this, a little of that: top choices are classic rock, country, showtunes, and hymns <BR> G... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 12:21:05 EST Sick of blogging I've reached the point again where I don't feel like I have anything interesting to say. I've also been trying to take a selfie every day, but that's gotten super boring. It's the same boring pose, same boring smile... I thought about taking a picture today... Then I decided to make silly faces. I'm not really good at silly faces... <BR> <BR> Here is a backlog of pictures. <BR> Sunday night: Fifties style pampered chef party! <BR> <img src=" Tue, 21 Jan 2014 13:01:52 EST Fast modifications I've been thinking about this fast a lot, obviously... Those of you have read my blogs about my concerns know what I'm talking about. I actually am not finding myself as hungry as you might think. I think that my body has gotten used to eating this way a little bit. However, last night I had a long conversation with my best friend. We talked about why I'm doing this fast. She doesn't share my faith, but she knows what I believe and we're able to have a lot of open discussions about this sort ... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 11:26:15 EST Almost gave in last night... So, those of you who have been following my blogs know that I've been doing a partial fast. I've noticed that the nights are the hardest part for me. I get hungry at work, but I'm okay with saying no. Which is good, but then when I get home, I have been especially tired and hungry and craving bread and/or protein. I had a headache last night. Also, despite being tired, I have had a very hard time sleeping. The part that I think is really messing with me is that I'm not understanding what the ... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 12:43:18 EST Guess what day it is? I have nothing clever to say, but it's Wednesday, otherwise known as hump day. I actually find that ad to be terribly annoying. <BR> <BR> Anyway, on this Wednesday morning I was astonished to find frost on my windshield. I thought it was supposed to be warmer this week. (Checking the temperature, it's actually a balmy 37 degrees out there) But, what was interesting about this frost is that it looked really pretty. I even took a picture of it. See? <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeop... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 08:55:51 EST A Gloomy Tuesday and the start of my fast Today is such a gloomy day. It's dark and grey and rainy outside. It makes me want to go back to bed and cuddle up under a blanket. But I am at work instead, so that's not an option... <BR> <BR> Today also marked the (somewhat belated) start of my partial fast. Basically, what I've decided to do is just have veggies, water and tea. The fast is supposed to last until February 2. Unfortunately I had previously scheduled to host a party on Sunday, so I'm considering the idea of letting myself h... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 12:54:58 EST Monday, Monday.... It's amazing how quickly a weekend can pass and suddenly it's Monday all over again. This weekend was both good and bad. Good because I had fun most of the time. Bad because my eating habits were not very good. I overate sometimes. Sometimes I went long periods without eating. I drank probably more than I should have. I don't know how to break those habits around my family. It's why both of my parents are overweight and also why if I keep it up, I'm going to be even more overweight than I alr... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 08:13:01 EST It's Friday! Well, it's nice to finally reach Friday. In case you're wondering about the pictures. KABMPH inspired me to take a picture of myself every day. Hopefully it will help me really appreciate myself and grow comfortable not just with the image of me in my mind, but the image on the camera as well. <BR> <BR> So here is me today! <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 10 Jan 2014 15:44:30 EST Happy Thursday I hope everyone is having a good day! We're one day closer to Friday! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Thu, 9 Jan 2014 13:43:30 EST Fasting Starting January 12th through February 2nd my church is challenging all members to fast for 21 days. I'm considering what this could mean for me. I do want to try it. I have fasted completely for short periods of time in the past, but I don't think that is something I would want to do for this length of time. Of course, I would definitely learn to rely on God to sustain me. I'm sure. While I think that there are times God might call someone to do this, I don't feel like this is a healthy th... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 12:57:52 EST Here we go again. Yesterday I restocked my fridge. The selection was quite sparse since I hadn't been home since before Christmas. But that's fixed now. I got some fresh fruits and veggies, some meat, some yogurt, some cheese. Lots of staples of my healthy (ish) eating lifestyle. I did not, however, do any sort of exercise. I think I have determined that I need to start up going to a personal trainer again. When I had that appointment scheduled there was no way I was going to miss it. Left to my own devices, I... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 12:57:12 EST Another New Year It seems like just yesterday I was sitting here thinking about my goals for 2013. At the beginning of 2013, I set some financial, spiritual, social, and health-related goals. I guess now is the time to evaluate how I did on all those fronts and set some new goals for myself. <BR> <BR> Financially, I had hoped to save $10,000. I checked my bank account recently and I do in fact have over $10,000 in savings, so Yay! One goal met! <BR> <BR> Spiritually, I wanted to begin doing daily devotiona... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 09:10:06 EST I have decided that today will be a good day! Of course, on sparkpeople I should be writing this blog and thinking of how healthy I'm going to be. But you know what? I believe that how good or bad a day might be is not ultimately determined by how much junk we avoided, how much exercise we did, or how close to our caloric range for the day we were. Our daily lives are so much more than that. Today I enjoyed some good conversations. I got a gift from a student. And I have a date tonight. It's the first time in a while that I've gotten exc... Fri, 13 Dec 2013 12:44:19 EST Hot rolls are my nemesis... I just tracked my calories from last night, and i realized that those hot rolls that I love so much are really, really not good for me. They're light as air and puffy and you think they can't possibly be that bad. But alas, put it into the sparkpeople nutrition tracker and you find out that all that deliciousness has a cost of 450 calories for only two rolls. I just can't say no to hot rolls, especially when I was already hungry. Grr... what's a girl to do? Thu, 12 Dec 2013 09:04:12 EST Snow and Christmas preparations I just have to say that snow really is beautiful and today's snow was just perfect. The snow fell lightly all day long, just enough to be beautiful, but not enough to stick on the roads and make a mess. It also means that it's starting to feel more like Christmas. The downside is that the kids are going nuts. Also, it's cold. I don't love that. The cold means that I want to snuggle up inside and be warm which means I don't make the effort to get off my butt and exercise, which I definitely ne... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 16:30:53 EST First day without a headache all week So, I think it might mean I'm too stressed if I've had a headache every day this week. Now besides the fact that headaches are no fun, this has really been impacting my attempts to live a healthy lifestyle. When I'm at work and I have a headache, I seem to have this idea that maybe food will fix the problem, so I eat. Then when I finally get home, I just want to go straight to bed which means I make no attempt to work out and usually stuff my face with whatever is most easily accessible befor... Fri, 6 Dec 2013 14:11:02 EST I am such a slacker I just realized that the last time I blogged or tracked or really did anything on Sparkpeople was almost a week ago. I know my life's been crazy, but how does a week go by and I hardly realize it? Thu, 21 Nov 2013 13:23:41 EST TGIF It has been a crazy week, even though it was a short week. We've had a million observations (not literally, but close) at work. Everything has been mixed up and it just gets hectic. Let's just say I'm glad it's Friday... My father called me around 6 am this morning to ask me about my weekend plans. Apparently he and my mother are thinking of taking an impromptu weekend trip and were going to invite me. I don't think I'll be going though. I need to have some time to relax and catch up on sleep... Fri, 15 Nov 2013 11:44:14 EST Feeling thin Feeling thin is a weird thing. Whether my weight is up or down, I just have some days when I feel thin and some days when I don't. This morning, I woke up feeling thin, so I decided to hop on the scale and see if I'd lost any weight recently. Lo and behold, I was at 172.8, so nope. No weight loss, but weirdly I just feel thin. I don't get it. <BR> <BR> Although as the day goes on, the feeling is not lasting... even though I have definitely not eaten too much. Fri, 8 Nov 2013 11:45:52 EST Long time no blog... I've been MIA for a little while now. I keep trying to come back, but it has been difficult for me to be consistent about tracking, blogging, or even exercising. Since I've last blogged, nothing has really changed. I'm still about 172 pounds. I'm still not exercising other than walking to work. But at least that's something I've gotten better about doing. It's not a long distance, but between walking there and back I just about get 10 minutes of "exercise" in my day. Of course, it would be be... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 08:14:21 EST White as a Ghost In honor of Halloween, our school does a character parade every year. This year the fifth grade theme was similes and metaphors. Even the teachers got in on the action. Here is a picture of me looking as white as a ghost (or snow, the kids are kind, they say I look like snow) Some of the kids got really creative. It makes for a really fun day. And usually I wouldn't wear this much (head to toe) white, because I always thought white was not flattering on me. But I've gotten a lot of compliment... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 10:50:10 EST Pictures can be so frustrating I'm sharing one very unflattering candid shot of me from my sister's wedding in August. There are some angles that look a little better and there are definitely some that are worse, but I felt like this was probably a good representation of what I actually look like. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The problem with this picture is that it so does not match the picture of myself that I have in my head. So I really need to work on bringing my body... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 09:44:48 EST Long Weekend Having Monday and Tuesday off this week, I decided to use the weekend to go visit my baby sister out in the Middle-of-Nowheresville, NY. It was a great weekend. I really enjoyed spending time with her, but I totally ate/drank like a college kid all weekend. What this means is that I ate too little and what I did eat was generally unhealthy. Also I drank too much, so I probably went way over on calories, but it was a fun weekend. And since I'm not likely to repeat it in the near future, I am o... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 10:41:47 EST New plan On Monday, I blogged about being stuck in the 170s and I've been thinking of what to do a lot since then. Then last night, I was reading a book called Identity Theft. It's about how all these things in life steal our true identity as children of God and I realized that even though trying to be healthy is a good thing, I devote way too much of my time to worrying about trying to lose that weight. It's starting to steal my focus from more important things. So I've decided to take a step back. I... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 08:29:02 EST Stuck I feel like I have been stuck for my whole adult life. I have been on sparkpeople and trying, but I really haven't seen any drastic changes in my body. I've tried restricting calories. I've tried working out multiple times a week. I've tried everything people say. But I just keep fluctuating in the same range. Sometimes I'm up in the 170s, sometimes I drop into the 160s a bit, but I have been in the same 10 pound range for most of my adult life. I am sick of it. I don't really "need" to drop ... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 12:50:14 EST Comparing I was reading a blog yesterday, and then another today; and I realized that I spend a lot of time comparing myself to others. I will look at others who weigh about the same as me. I will look at others who once weighed the same as me and have dropped the weight. And it doesn't stop with weight. I compare myself to where other people are in their lives. I've spent all too much time over the last year thinking about how this weight is hanging on for me, but others are losing it. I also spend to... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 12:37:37 EST October I need new motivation for October. Therefore, I am going to join a challenge. I think I have decided to join Spark's 30 Day Skinny Jeans Challenge. From the looks of it, it consists of 1 mini-challenge every day for 30 days. That should be pretty manageable. (Famous last words, right?) Hopefully October will bring some change in the weight department. I have been in the 170s way too long! Tue, 1 Oct 2013 16:29:16 EST Not losing I have not been losing weight this week. I also have not been gaining weight. I have been eating around 1,100 calories a day, which is probably not enough, but I haven't really been hungry either. This is weird. I'm also not exercising much, but if I'm honest, I haven't been exercising for most of the summer and that trend has only continued. I also know that I have not been getting enough sleep. I'm thinking some combination of those factors is why I'm not losing any weight. It's too bad tha... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 14:44:47 EST Not enough calories These past couple days I haven't had an enormous appetite and it's been making it difficult for me to get enough calories in each day. I am not trying to eat an absurdly little amount. I'm just eating what I want when I want and I'm starting to think that it could negatively affect my weight loss. Opinions? Tue, 24 Sep 2013 13:08:52 EST Just one night Last night my grandparents came to visit. We went out to dinner at this nice pizza place by the beach. It was a lot of fun and I didn't fill myself to the point of being stuffed, but it was definitely more than my normal caloric intake for dinner. I did indulge and have a beer, which probably wasn't necessary. We got a salad which was mostly healthy and of course, we got a pizza too. The only thing I sort of regret is the spinach and artichoke dip we got as an appetizer. It was delicious and ... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 14:05:00 EST Idle hands... So, I've realized something; something that I probably should have realized long ago... When I have a project to occupy me, I spend a lot less time eating. I have been working on sewing a new 18th century gown in my spare time this week, and having my hands busy doing that kept me from eating a lot once I got home from work. <BR> <BR> I am basing my new gown on this gown which was made in 1780. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'll be doi... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 08:27:09 EST Getting there... So for the past couple days, I have been trying to be conscientious about my food choices and apparently it's been paying off. I must definitely have been bloated last week because it's dropping right back off again this week. Much too fast for me to actually believe I'm losing any fat or anything, but at least I feel better. I have plans to go out Thursday and Friday this week, but I'm hoping that won't throw me off too much. On Thursday, my grandparents are coming to visit. I've been very c... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 08:27:47 EST Monday, Monday So finally starting to feel unbloated and the weight is back to 173. Not ideal, but not the scary place that made me literally jump off the scale before it settled on a weight either. This I can work with. I just need to be dedicated to it. There are people who started this journey after I did and weighing more than I did. Those people now weigh less than me. That is because they have been more dedicated to making it happen. I think part of the reason it is so hard for me is because I am not ... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 08:26:46 EST Today's Challenges So today is going to be an interesting day, nutrition-wise. I have a couple of things planned which have the potential to make it a bit difficult. <BR> <BR> First, my grade level team has decided to do pizza and salad for lunch. My plan of attack will be to load up my plate with salad first and then have no more than 2 slices of pizza. Since I ate a protein filled breakfast of egg whites, I'm hoping to last most of the day without too much additional snacking, but I do have cucumbers, an ap... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 08:29:16 EST Random Ramblings.. I think I figured out why it has been so hard for me to renew my efforts this week. I've been ravenously hungry, but also getting headaches and I know I'm getting enough food and water, so I couldn't figure out why... but then it hit me... it's that time of the month. So it's no wonder that I am ravenously hungry and feeling like I'm gaining weight even though I'm eating less. I just wish that I had a good solution to feeling this way, but the only thing I know to do is wait it out and try to... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 08:16:52 EST One of those days I feel so discombobulated today. I woke up a little later than normal, but still needed to fit everything in. I did shower and make breakfast, but of course I forgot little (but important) things like deodorant. And because I was so late, I decided my best option was to power walk to school. With all the traffic from parents dropping kids off, it is faster for me to walk than to drive when I'm that late. Arriving that late also means that I don't have time to get my head together before the k... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 08:24:05 EST