STODD251's SparkPeople Blog STODD251's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Baby on Board and Goals for Later <img src=""> <BR> So, it's been a really long time since I've been on here, and now I'm pregnant, so weight loss is currently on hold. However, I definitely plan on coming back around after November because I will now have all the baby weight, plus the 30-50 pounds I wanted to lose before this happened. I've definitely got some serious work to do, so I would definitely appreciate all the support that I can get. I'm... Tue, 26 Sep 2017 19:21:54 EST Three sides to every story... Today is one of those days... a "lazy" Saturday... or at least so my husband thinks. He's been taking a couple baths, working on his paper for his MBA and begrudgingly helping me clean up some cat puke. During this time, I have probably been facebooking, playing candy crush, cuddling with our cats, happily decorating the christmas tree, and for some reason, complaining about a little light cleaning, at least if you asked my husband. <img src=" Sat, 3 Dec 2016 15:05:14 EST Bittersweet I just got a call from one of my little sisters. She told me she's pregnant again. Her firstborn was born less than a year ago. As much as I'm happy for her, I am frustrated. My husband said we can start trying in December, but I know he's not excited about it. He doesn't even want to talk about it. Nor does he seem to have any sexual desire for me anymore. I'm wondering if that is going to change at all by December. Otherwise, how in the world, am I supposed to get pregnant? Being a mother h... Thu, 27 Oct 2016 18:07:11 EST More than a Number, but not Fat and Happy I recently wrote a blog post describing my life right now, as an obese woman, including all sorts of details about the generally healthy lifestyle that I currently lead, and all the things that make me feel good about myself that have nothing to do with my weight. In the words of some sparkfriends, I exuded confidence in that post. For those that know me well, confidence has been something I've only acquired in the last five years or so. Many may have assumed from my recent blog that I am con... Mon, 24 Oct 2016 00:09:01 EST A Portrait of Obesity This morning, on a whim, I decided to look at my BMI. I am a 5'7" woman who now weighs 210 pounds.(That makes me obese) I have super pale skin, light blue eyes, golden blonde hair and very light freckles on my arms. If you looked at a typical day in my life, it would look something like this... I wake up at 6:30 am. I shower, get dressed, make some oatmeal and black coffee and jump in the car to go to work. I eat my oatmeal and drink my coffee as I drive to work, often singing along to songs ... Mon, 10 Oct 2016 12:26:08 EST Still at it Working my weight down slowly but surely... Today I finally did a little bit of exercise (30 minute p90x video). It was really hard! Apparently I have gotten really out of shape in the last 9 months.. Hopefully I can remember this feeling next time I decide to all but give up on exercise. It makes it way harder to start again when you take too long off and gain a bunch of weight. I also went shopping today because I needed something reasonably nice to wear for Easter. I've determined that t... Sat, 26 Mar 2016 16:00:34 EST So I guess this is Day 3 So far, my only focus has been on tracking my food. As much as I want to lose this weight for good, I'm taking it very slowly this time. I've been cutting down on alcohol, which is not easy when you have a kegerator in the kitchen and a husband who likes to have a beer every night. It's made a little easier by the fact that I'm realizing how little I really want to drink. I still do love my water more than anything. But it's hard to give up beer entirely since one of our favorite things to do... Mon, 14 Mar 2016 12:08:39 EST Starting again I've reached the point where I feel like I've lost control. I don't think I'm eating that badly but my weight had skyrocketed. Since my wedding, I've gained 40 pounds. I don't like the way I look. I don't like the way I feel. My clothes don't fit anymore. I just want to get back to normal. I thought I could be okay without tracking. I thought I had it under control. But I don't. So, I'm back here. I'm going to commit to tracking my food. I am going to make an effort to do some exercise every ... Sat, 12 Mar 2016 11:01:40 EST 4 days until the wedding So, my plan for the week before this wedding is to just make a point to eat as many vegetables as possible, and keep up with my water intake. I thought it was a reasonable goal. I know when I focus on eating vegetables, I eat less crap. In fact, I've removed most of the bad stuff I'd want to eat from my house. However I told my friend that I was planning on eating lots of veggies and drinking water, and she accused me of trying to starve myself. That is not my intention at all. It kind of mad... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 09:02:55 EST 15 days The countdown is really on. We only have 15 days until our wedding, which seems like it came very suddenly. Now everything is very real and there are all these final details to settle. I'm trying not to get overwhelmed and to keep up my healthy lifestyle in these last two weeks. So far, I've got a pretty good healthy streak going. I just can't let myself get derailed over the weekend. I've started falling into a pattern of get down to 181, go up to 184 over the weekend, work my way back to 18... Fri, 29 May 2015 10:35:24 EST One last big push We are now into crunch time before the wedding. We're only about 5 weeks away from the big day, so there's a lot that needs to be done. I am slowly, but surely working on getting as much stuff in my apartment packed or donated as possible. We are also still finishing up a few wedding details. We have to finalize transportation, chase down RSVPs, order favors, get a guest book, take dance lessons, and decide on a first dance song.. I think those are the biggest things left on the list.. Of cou... Thu, 7 May 2015 08:49:21 EST Getting better Whatever nasty cold got a hold of me over the past week, it is finally subsiding. Thank God! I do not like being sick. The only vestiges of it are a sore throat from all the coughing, and a slightly stuffy nose, and general tiredness. But, I feel like it's getting better. Best of all:only two more days of work til April vacation. I even get our about an hour early on Friday. I am definitely excited about that. Although we will make time to relax, I also need to make sure that we get some wedd... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 08:35:47 EST Trying hard, even though my body seems to be trying to derail me. I'm now one week into my April challenge. I did great at first, but then this weekend I started getting sick. And it kept getting worse and worse. I did get my workout in on Saturday, plus 5 miles of walking. Then yesterday I went hiking for about an hour and a half, but then I got home and tried to do my workout for the day. Five minutes in, I had to give up. I was coughing way too much to finish. I took a long, hot shower. The steam helped things start to feel better. I decided about 7 pm, ... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 08:18:36 EST Happy birthday to me... ringing in my 28th year in the best way possible Since I started this challenge on Monday, I've been thinking this is really a great way to start off the 28th year of my life, which officially starts today. I have a lot of good things to look forward to, and they will all be better if I am healthier and happier. So now, is a good time to commit to myself. To commit to working out. To eating healthy, because I know I feel it when I don't. To commit to just being the happiest me I can be. <BR> <BR> Last night, working out was a little bit m... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 07:44:56 EST Another good day on the books! Yesterday was the second day of my April challenge, and I've still got that momentum going. I drank over 5 liters of water throughout the day, but by the end of work, I was a little lacking in steps. Unfortunately the weather was not cooperating with me as far as getting outside for a walk, so I decided to start with my workout DVD inside. Yesterday was an upper body day. I've been doing planks in boot camp for a few months now, but that and pushups were probably the toughest part of my worko... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 08:36:52 EST Rocked the after work work-out yesterday! Yesterday, I had the benefit of a nice long night of sleep. I woke refreshed and had a good, productive day at work. I even stayed late to get a few extra things done. When I got home, I put on my workout pants right away. I posted in my April Challenge facebook group, and I seriously thought about ending it there, but then I looked out the window and saw that it was still light out. I also remembered that my walk home had actually been quite nice since the weather had warmed up to somewhere ... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 08:28:40 EST April Challenge I decided a little bit ago to sign up for an April Challenge which starts today. That makes today as good a day as any to mention it on Sparkpeople. Basically, I'm going to be following Beachbody's 21 Day Fix. For those of you who don't know: the basic idea is portion control and clean eating, supplemented by workout DVDs and shakeology. I personally am not a huge fan of the shakeology component, but I am going to give it a shot for this month and see what happens. The challenge is being run ... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 07:58:56 EST Over halfway to the end of March As some of you know, I am very anxious for the end of March to get here ASAP. This month is starting to get to me. I am tired. I am lonely. And I don't feel that great right now. Brett continues to work nights. I get to talk to him maybe 10 minutes every couple of days and maybe get a text or two in the interim. On top of that, my best friend has been keeping herself very busy with her dating life. I can't really fault her. Honestly it's good that she's getting herself back out there (Her boy... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 08:21:07 EST Getting through a tough month So not only is this a long month because Brett is working almost nonstop, I don't even get to talk to him much because we are working the exact opposite schedule. Already in the first week, it has been very frustrating. Add to that a car accident Sunday night (no injuries, just a hassle to fill out paperwork and get the car fixed), sleeping poorly all week, being busy at school, feeling a bit under the weather, and I've definitely been feeling like this month can't end soon enough. What is ge... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 08:23:10 EST March is Coming So I'm aiming to start now and make this coming March the time when I really buckle down and get my weight under control. For some reason, this year it has just not been happening. I think probably because I am not consistent enough with anything. I have been seriously considering using this upcoming month to try the Whole30 thing. I don't know a lot of the details, but I know a few people who have done it and loved it. I also think it could be a good way to break myself of bad habits like su... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 08:23:30 EST And all of a sudden, it is February Slow progress has been made over the month of January. However, accelerating things would be good. <BR> <BR> January 4, I weighed in at 192 pounds. <BR> <BR> Now I weigh 189.4 pounds. <BR> <BR> I also did some measuring and I'm down 2 inches in my waist and down in most other areas too. However, my thigh gained half an inch... too many squats and lunges, I guess. <BR> <BR> Here's to seeing even more progress this month. <BR> Sun, 1 Feb 2015 10:30:06 EST A week into the New Year and I've yet to blog... Sorry everybody. I feel like I have nothing to say, at least not anything that I haven't already said a million times. I'm feeling all discombobulated since the start of the year. My body needs to readjust to work mode now that the holidays are over. I'm tired and cranky, which doesn't make me want to exercise, which is probably something I should be doing more frequently. Monday was the first day back at work for the year. There was chocolate in the teacher's room. Despite my intentions, I a... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 13:09:48 EST Moving in the right direction... So I stepped on the scale this morning, again. (I probably weigh too often, but it helps me to stay accountable) This morning, the scale showed 185.2, so I broke the 186 barrier at least a tiny bit. That really motivates me to keep making good choices. We're hanging out with Brett's best friend and his fiance this weekend, so I've taken it upon myself to start planning a reasonably healthy menu for the weekend. Since both of us girls have been trying to eat clean and healthy lately, I've deci... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 11:27:43 EST Reflections on why I might be stuck... As I posted before, I've been stuck weighing about 186 for probably a month (or possibly longer) I am not willing to just accept that, so I've been reflecting on possible reasons. <BR> <BR> 1) Looking at last time I lost weight, I am working out less than I was at that point. Back then, I worked out 3-5 times a week and sometimes for as long as an hour and a half. I also did a lot more intensive cardio including running. <BR> <BR> 2) I recently started birth control... since that's hormon... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 10:57:14 EST Stuck I feel like I've plateaued. Every time I've stepped on the scale for the past month or so, it has read basically the same plus or minus a few tenths of a pound. 186-ish. I'm sick of 186. I want to see 170s, 160s, even 150s... I've been eating healthy and low-calorie. I've been exercising. I can't figure out why I'm just stuck. Mon, 8 Dec 2014 09:05:53 EST Torn If you've been keeping up with my status updates, you heard about me stepping on a christmas tree ornament yesterday... Great idea, I know... It actually damaged me more than the ornament, but I still didn't put that ornament on the tree. Anyway, I have been walking every day to make sure that I get at least 6,000 steps on my Spark Activity Tracker. I even limped around yesterday to get it in. I did it. Just barely. But, I did. Now I'm torn. Do I break the streak and give my foot a chance to ... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 12:59:51 EST Hungry It's probably a combination of factors, but these last couple of days I have been ravenous. Which is not necessarily good if you're trying to lose weight. The other side could be it might be my body telling me that I need to eat more. I have recently started doing more exercise (as my muscles are attesting to with their soreness this morning), so that could be.. Especially since I seem to be craving protein (eggs, specifically) Anyway. I don't like being hungry all the time. Especially when I... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 12:57:45 EST Checking in again I realize it's been a while since I last posted a blog on here. That's mostly because lately I feel like it's been a lot of the same old, same old. I've been walking. I've been doing boot camp. I've been eating healthy-ish. I'm currently a bit tired, but hopefully I'll sleep better tonight. I just couldn't seem to settle my brain last night. In good news, boot camp is seeming much easier these days. I think the first day was the hardest because I jolted my body out of it's comfy no-exercise z... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 13:37:06 EST Feeling awesome! Yes, I'm still sore from Tuesday's boot camp workout, but I feel awesome! I don't know if it's linked to daylight savings time or my new shift in diet and exercise, but I am feeling awesome this morning. I woke up at about 6:10 this morning (20 minutes ahead of my alarm) and I was feeling pretty awake. Lying in bed I thought, "Maybe I'll run this morning." Then I tried getting out of bed and realized I was really, really sore. Okay, change of plans. I will walk to loosen those muscles. I call... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 08:28:13 EST Boot Camp... I'm still alive So boot camp kind of kicked my butt... I haven't worked out that hard in over a year now. That's a long time. But, I survived. And I got a really good workout... And then I came home and walked around my house for an hour because I didn't have enough steps on my spark activity tracker. Granted, I walked like a zombie, but I feel like it will benefit me in the long run (and I'm hoping possibly reduce my soreness tomorrow. I already think the stairs will likely be rough tomorrow. But, I'm glad ... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 19:20:51 EST Spark Activity Tracker Recently, Sparkpeople alerted me to a sale they were having on their spark activity tracker. For some reason, I decided to give it a shot. I bought one. Now, I love it. It has inspired me to get up and get moving, and draw my attention to the fact that while I already move a significant amount on an everyday basis, my exercise on the weekends when I'm hanging out with Brett are pretty much deplorable. Having this tracker reporting my daily activity has inspired me to start moving more. I even... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 08:27:56 EST How do I forget this feeling? When I make good choices, I feel awesome! This past week, I have been walking half an hour to an hour every day. It is a small workout, but nonetheless, I feel awesome. I feel energized. I feel healthy. I feel strong. I feel confident. It's a good feeling. It's the feeling I used to have about myself in those days when I was rocking it at the gym 2-5 times a week, doing strength training, running, stretching, eating healthy. I don't know how I let myself forget how good that all feels. I let ... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 08:24:51 EST Long time no post.. So clearly, life has been busy. I was away in NH for the long weekend. And for the first half of the weekend, I did pretty well. I drank my water, I chose healthier sounding menu items, I limited myself to no more than two drinks a day... I was doing pretty good, but then the second half happened... Brett and I visited a bunch of breweries (3 in one night) and I did away with my two drink minimum. It could have been worse, but combined with a lowered intake of water and a higher intake of foo... Thu, 16 Oct 2014 16:21:52 EST Fall is in the air I love the clean crisp air of the fall months. I've walked to school every day this school year so far, and it has been so great to get that little bit of time outside in the morning. Granted, I do live less than half a mile from the school.. so some people might walk farther from a parking lot to their workplace, but I enjoy it nonetheless. It starts to make me want to wake up and take a longer walk in the mornings, but then I remember how much I don't really want to wake up early. <BR> <B... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 08:20:46 EST Planning for the weekend This weekend, I am heading up to North Conway with Brett and my parents. Brett has met my parents several times, but this will be the first time that we all go away together. Brett loves trains and my father has been wanting to take the Notch train up there during foliage season. So, that's what we're doing. We'll probably also hit many of our favorite North Conway attractions like Zeb's and Moat Mountain, and hopefully do a few nice walks. (Although that might be just my dad and I if we're b... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 08:32:34 EST New incentive to lose weight. So I now have an even greater desire to lose that last 20 pounds (at least). <BR> I bought a dress. My wedding dress. <BR> The awesome news is that I found the dress that I've loved ever since I started dreaming of weddings years ago. <BR> The other awesome news: I got it for $150 <BR> <BR> See full length frontal picture... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Close- up of the Beading/embroidery (It reminds me of my doodles when I was in hi... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 21:46:26 EST Still keeping on keeping on So far, heading back to school has really helped me to get some of my habits back on track. I've lost about 10 pounds from my highest weight this summer. I've gotten to the point where I can wear a good portion of the clothes in my closet (although still not totally comfortably at times) I no longer feel uncomfortable all the time. It's all good. <BR> <BR> However, there are still some things I need to work on. I have not been exercising as much as I would like to. I have been consistently ... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 08:28:35 EST My losing streak I've been on a roll for the past couple of weeks, moving from the 190s into the 180s made me very happy. Right now, I'm weighing in at 187.8 lbs. I did not eat super super healthily this weekend, but was still able to maintain a loss from Friday and even lose a pound simply by making healthier choices when I did go out to eat and getting out to do a little bit of walking. <BR> So far I've not made the best choices this week at work. There were a few too many sweets around that I indulged in... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 07:56:02 EST Starting to feel like I'm back on track again Over the last year, my weight has started to go crazy! In January 2013, I decided to really work at losing weight. I was working out a minimum of twice a week, but often went five times a week. I was eating right. I did hour long strength training sessions with a personal trainer and a friend. By June of 2013, I had gone from about 185 to 165. I was feeling awesome. I still wanted to lose a little bit more weight, but things were on track... Then sometime during the summer of 2013, I lost con... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 09:21:20 EST Managed to lose a few pounds when there were many factors against me So, I am shocked. Last Monday, I stepped on the scale. It said 196.6 (yikes! how did that happen?!?) Anyway, I decided that this was not acceptable, clearly, and decided to do something about it. I started making the healthiest choices that I could at home and worked out quite a bit. By Thursday, I was down to 195.7... then, I went away for the weekend. We had already scheduled a trip on the first ever Cape Cod Railroad Beer Tasting Train. Plus, my fiance wanted to visit a bunch of breweries ... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 09:17:22 EST Back to the Real World (sort of) ... and a recap of vacation So, it has been a very busy couple of weeks for me... I got out of school for the summer just two weeks ago. Although, admittedly it seems like it's been a lot longer. <BR> So, what have I been doing all that time? <BR> Neglecting sparkpeople? a little bit. <em>39</em> <BR> Having fun? absolutely! <em>237</em> <em>311</em> <BR> Traveling the world? Not quite, but it sure felt like it... <em>652</em> <em>636</em> <BR> Getting engaged? Yeah, that too <em>30</em> <BR> <B... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 12:36:23 EST Weekend report This past weekend I knew I would face some challenges and I wanted to try to stay on track over the weekend. I came up with a basic plan to drink water, exercise, avoid alcohol, and eat a bunch of fruits and veggies. This is how I did. <BR> <BR> Friday- Fifth grade moving on party was full of a bunch of greasy crap. They served the kids pizza, mozzarella sticks, fries, hot dog bites wrapped in crescent rolls, and fried chicken tenders. I took some chicken and a few bites of mozzarella sticks... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 12:58:23 EST Weekend plan I'm heading down to my parents this weekend since my sister will be up with the baby for a couple of days. Unfortunately I do have work Monday and Tuesday, so I'll only be able to spend a couple days with her. Anyway, I'm starting to get myself back on track and I am determined to not let this weekend derail me. So here's my plan: <BR> <BR> Friday night: dinner in Plymouth and a stroll down by the waterfront. We will probably end up splitting something unhealthy like nachos or fish and chips... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 09:53:02 EST ...determination... I started off today determined that the next ten days, I would be super committed, eat only fruits, veggies, and lean protein, drink a bunch of water, and get myself back on track... As the day has gone on, that determination has begun to waver. I've started to think I can't really do that. We have a lunch/dinner party for a coworker today, a union meeting tomorrow where dinner will be served, a field trip in to Boston culminating with ice cream, a birthday party lunch on Thursday, a party to... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 13:18:40 EST In a rut So... I feel like I've fallen into a rut on my road to a healthy life. I had been doing great about a year ago. Then I stopped exercising. I started dating my current boyfriend. We started going out a lot, enjoying good food and lots of microbreweries. Then I realized that this wasn't good, and I started making some changes. For a few weeks, I was really good again. I was eating right. I was exercising. I was doing lots of good things. But, I saw no results. I got discouraged. And, to compoun... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 08:55:13 EST Up, down, all around... So last weekend was a fun-filled, but sort of crazy weekend. I had a reenactment, a graduation party, a cook-out. I got to meet my niece for the first time and spent a lot of quality time with family, but it definitely wore me out. So, when I finally got home on Sunday night, I was really looking forward to a good night's sleep before work on Monday. But nope... I ended up getting up sick, puking for the first time in a long time (I absolutely hate vomiting), and of course, that woke Brett as... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 12:43:40 EST One year's time... So, looking at people's recently posted before and after photos got me to thinking about how far I have come in a year... And the sad thing is... I've gone backwards. In a lot of ways. Last June, I weighing in at 166 pounds. I was feeling good. I was exercising at least twice a week. I ran a 5K. I was actually happy with the pictures from my sister, Kristen's wedding. I even rocked a bikini at the pre-wedding pool party. Not that I looked skinny or anything, but I was getting pretty close to ... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 14:29:17 EST BBQ weekend So, this weekend I am going to be part of one of my boyfriend's famous "BBQ weekends". Basically his friend and his girlfriend are staying the weekend at his place and according to Brett there will be "lots of meat and lots of beer". Great... Just what I need as I recover from this cold. I think I'm going to have to find a way to help fruits and veggies make an appearance this weekend.... Any good recipe ideas? Fri, 30 May 2014 10:52:22 EST The Weekend. Weekends are so good, but so bad at the same time. I love having weekends. I love the chance to relax, spend time with friends and family, and do fun stuff. But, the weekends also kill my diet. Part of it is my own fault for thinking that it's the weekend, I'm having fun, let me enjoy it... but it's also just more temptation and less structure. I just need to figure out a better plan for weekends. Clearly my weekday plan is not really working for me on the weekends. I either need to become mo... Tue, 20 May 2014 12:59:47 EST Fish Tacos and other inspired cookery... Those of you who have been following my blog already know that after last night's workout, I had the inspiration to cook up some delicious fish tacos. <BR> Here is a lovely picture of the completed tacos with an enormous glass of my all-time favorite beverage, water. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I started off by cooking up some tilapia, seasoned with cracked red pepper, garlic powder, and a touch of salt. <BR> I then cooked up a bunch of ass... Thu, 15 May 2014 13:08:10 EST