STODD251's SparkPeople Blog STODD251's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Long time no post.. So clearly, life has been busy. I was away in NH for the long weekend. And for the first half of the weekend, I did pretty well. I drank my water, I chose healthier sounding menu items, I limited myself to no more than two drinks a day... I was doing pretty good, but then the second half happened... Brett and I visited a bunch of breweries (3 in one night) and I did away with my two drink minimum. It could have been worse, but combined with a lowered intake of water and a higher intake of foo... Thu, 16 Oct 2014 16:21:52 EST Fall is in the air I love the clean crisp air of the fall months. I've walked to school every day this school year so far, and it has been so great to get that little bit of time outside in the morning. Granted, I do live less than half a mile from the school.. so some people might walk farther from a parking lot to their workplace, but I enjoy it nonetheless. It starts to make me want to wake up and take a longer walk in the mornings, but then I remember how much I don't really want to wake up early. <BR> <B... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 08:20:46 EST Planning for the weekend This weekend, I am heading up to North Conway with Brett and my parents. Brett has met my parents several times, but this will be the first time that we all go away together. Brett loves trains and my father has been wanting to take the Notch train up there during foliage season. So, that's what we're doing. We'll probably also hit many of our favorite North Conway attractions like Zeb's and Moat Mountain, and hopefully do a few nice walks. (Although that might be just my dad and I if we're b... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 08:32:34 EST New incentive to lose weight. So I now have an even greater desire to lose that last 20 pounds (at least). <BR> I bought a dress. My wedding dress. <BR> The awesome news is that I found the dress that I've loved ever since I started dreaming of weddings years ago. <BR> The other awesome news: I got it for $150 <BR> <BR> See full length frontal picture... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Close- up of the Beading/embroidery (It reminds me of my doodles when I was in hi... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 21:46:26 EST Still keeping on keeping on So far, heading back to school has really helped me to get some of my habits back on track. I've lost about 10 pounds from my highest weight this summer. I've gotten to the point where I can wear a good portion of the clothes in my closet (although still not totally comfortably at times) I no longer feel uncomfortable all the time. It's all good. <BR> <BR> However, there are still some things I need to work on. I have not been exercising as much as I would like to. I have been consistently ... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 08:28:35 EST My losing streak I've been on a roll for the past couple of weeks, moving from the 190s into the 180s made me very happy. Right now, I'm weighing in at 187.8 lbs. I did not eat super super healthily this weekend, but was still able to maintain a loss from Friday and even lose a pound simply by making healthier choices when I did go out to eat and getting out to do a little bit of walking. <BR> So far I've not made the best choices this week at work. There were a few too many sweets around that I indulged in... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 07:56:02 EST Starting to feel like I'm back on track again Over the last year, my weight has started to go crazy! In January 2013, I decided to really work at losing weight. I was working out a minimum of twice a week, but often went five times a week. I was eating right. I did hour long strength training sessions with a personal trainer and a friend. By June of 2013, I had gone from about 185 to 165. I was feeling awesome. I still wanted to lose a little bit more weight, but things were on track... Then sometime during the summer of 2013, I lost con... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 09:21:20 EST Managed to lose a few pounds when there were many factors against me So, I am shocked. Last Monday, I stepped on the scale. It said 196.6 (yikes! how did that happen?!?) Anyway, I decided that this was not acceptable, clearly, and decided to do something about it. I started making the healthiest choices that I could at home and worked out quite a bit. By Thursday, I was down to 195.7... then, I went away for the weekend. We had already scheduled a trip on the first ever Cape Cod Railroad Beer Tasting Train. Plus, my fiance wanted to visit a bunch of breweries ... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 09:17:22 EST Back to the Real World (sort of) ... and a recap of vacation So, it has been a very busy couple of weeks for me... I got out of school for the summer just two weeks ago. Although, admittedly it seems like it's been a lot longer. <BR> So, what have I been doing all that time? <BR> Neglecting sparkpeople? a little bit. <em>39</em> <BR> Having fun? absolutely! <em>237</em> <em>311</em> <BR> Traveling the world? Not quite, but it sure felt like it... <em>652</em> <em>636</em> <BR> Getting engaged? Yeah, that too <em>30</em> <BR> <B... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 12:36:23 EST Weekend report This past weekend I knew I would face some challenges and I wanted to try to stay on track over the weekend. I came up with a basic plan to drink water, exercise, avoid alcohol, and eat a bunch of fruits and veggies. This is how I did. <BR> <BR> Friday- Fifth grade moving on party was full of a bunch of greasy crap. They served the kids pizza, mozzarella sticks, fries, hot dog bites wrapped in crescent rolls, and fried chicken tenders. I took some chicken and a few bites of mozzarella sticks... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 12:58:23 EST Weekend plan I'm heading down to my parents this weekend since my sister will be up with the baby for a couple of days. Unfortunately I do have work Monday and Tuesday, so I'll only be able to spend a couple days with her. Anyway, I'm starting to get myself back on track and I am determined to not let this weekend derail me. So here's my plan: <BR> <BR> Friday night: dinner in Plymouth and a stroll down by the waterfront. We will probably end up splitting something unhealthy like nachos or fish and chips... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 09:53:02 EST ...determination... I started off today determined that the next ten days, I would be super committed, eat only fruits, veggies, and lean protein, drink a bunch of water, and get myself back on track... As the day has gone on, that determination has begun to waver. I've started to think I can't really do that. We have a lunch/dinner party for a coworker today, a union meeting tomorrow where dinner will be served, a field trip in to Boston culminating with ice cream, a birthday party lunch on Thursday, a party to... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 13:18:40 EST In a rut So... I feel like I've fallen into a rut on my road to a healthy life. I had been doing great about a year ago. Then I stopped exercising. I started dating my current boyfriend. We started going out a lot, enjoying good food and lots of microbreweries. Then I realized that this wasn't good, and I started making some changes. For a few weeks, I was really good again. I was eating right. I was exercising. I was doing lots of good things. But, I saw no results. I got discouraged. And, to compoun... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 08:55:13 EST Up, down, all around... So last weekend was a fun-filled, but sort of crazy weekend. I had a reenactment, a graduation party, a cook-out. I got to meet my niece for the first time and spent a lot of quality time with family, but it definitely wore me out. So, when I finally got home on Sunday night, I was really looking forward to a good night's sleep before work on Monday. But nope... I ended up getting up sick, puking for the first time in a long time (I absolutely hate vomiting), and of course, that woke Brett as... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 12:43:40 EST One year's time... So, looking at people's recently posted before and after photos got me to thinking about how far I have come in a year... And the sad thing is... I've gone backwards. In a lot of ways. Last June, I weighing in at 166 pounds. I was feeling good. I was exercising at least twice a week. I ran a 5K. I was actually happy with the pictures from my sister, Kristen's wedding. I even rocked a bikini at the pre-wedding pool party. Not that I looked skinny or anything, but I was getting pretty close to ... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 14:29:17 EST BBQ weekend So, this weekend I am going to be part of one of my boyfriend's famous "BBQ weekends". Basically his friend and his girlfriend are staying the weekend at his place and according to Brett there will be "lots of meat and lots of beer". Great... Just what I need as I recover from this cold. I think I'm going to have to find a way to help fruits and veggies make an appearance this weekend.... Any good recipe ideas? Fri, 30 May 2014 10:52:22 EST The Weekend. Weekends are so good, but so bad at the same time. I love having weekends. I love the chance to relax, spend time with friends and family, and do fun stuff. But, the weekends also kill my diet. Part of it is my own fault for thinking that it's the weekend, I'm having fun, let me enjoy it... but it's also just more temptation and less structure. I just need to figure out a better plan for weekends. Clearly my weekday plan is not really working for me on the weekends. I either need to become mo... Tue, 20 May 2014 12:59:47 EST Fish Tacos and other inspired cookery... Those of you who have been following my blog already know that after last night's workout, I had the inspiration to cook up some delicious fish tacos. <BR> Here is a lovely picture of the completed tacos with an enormous glass of my all-time favorite beverage, water. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I started off by cooking up some tilapia, seasoned with cracked red pepper, garlic powder, and a touch of salt. <BR> I then cooked up a bunch of ass... Thu, 15 May 2014 13:08:10 EST Daily Checklist Update For accountability purposes, I have decided that my sparkfriends will now be subjected to a daily update on my goals for the day... I might do a catch up blog after weekends, because sometimes I don't have time to go online on weekends. But, regardless, you're all going to get to hear how I do every day. It's probably more for me than you, but it helps me to know that someone is out there reading how I am doing each day. Somehow it makes it all worth it... I'm supposed to be doing this point ... Wed, 14 May 2014 20:15:40 EST Tough Day Today So, recently Wednesdays have been really rough days. I go straight from work to a three hour class. This is bad for a few reasons. I am usually hungry and bored during the class, and my classmates bring lots of yummy snacks. That means I usually eat snacks instead of dinner. And since I get home later than usual, I usually am not in a good mood to work out when I get home. In order to make my points for the day, I am definitely going to have to make working out a priority this evening. I will... Wed, 14 May 2014 13:11:00 EST another successful day So today wasn't quite as impressive a day as yesterday, but I still pulled it off.. Here is my checklist for today. Just need to squeeze in a little bit of strength training to get to my goal of 10 points for the day. I like that this system is helping me to reflect on my choices for the day, but is quicker, easier, and more all-encompassing than tracking calories. I wouldn't necessarily recommend that most people should avoid tracking, but at this point, I have worked out what I need to do. ... Tue, 13 May 2014 18:41:01 EST Starting over... again So, in the interest of complete transparency, I've decided that it's time to share some pictures of my current body with my sparkfriends. I have decided that I absolutely NEED to make some changes in my life. <BR> <BR> Right now, I'm working with a starting weight of 185 lbs. On my 5'7" frame, this works out to a BMI of 29, which is on the upper end of the overweight range. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople... Mon, 12 May 2014 18:36:10 EST Why? How is it possible? I know all the right choices. I have made them before. I know what I need to do. I just can't do it this time. I am making some right choices, but not enough. Too often lately, I just keep eating and I feel sick to my stomach. I want to eat healthy food. I don't like the way I feel right now, but I can't seem to stop. I want to do this the right way. I want to be healthy, but I am just so aggravated. I don't want to do anything. I don't want anyone to see me. I feel fat. I... Wed, 7 May 2014 07:54:15 EST Assessing the "new plan" We've now been doing this "new plan" for a couple weeks... or should I say I have been trying to do this "new plan". I like tracking points each day since it's a little less work than tracking calories, but still keeps me on track (because after being on sparkpeople for literally years now, I have figured out what I should be doing on a regular basis). My problem is always that I let myself slip up. Even looking at the spreadsheet that we've been creating, I'm noticing that I rarely get more ... Thu, 1 May 2014 13:00:36 EST A new plan After talking with my friend and also with Brett, who had recently talked to the friend who is selling him the Herbalife; I have formulated a new plan. From comments on my blog and from talking with my friend, I had determined that Brett and I don't need to be doing the same thing. However, I did want to create a sense of "we're in this together"ness... Brett's friend suggested some sort of a points system to help keep him motivated. That gave me the idea that maybe we could make this into so... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 14:23:01 EST Dieting in a Relationship I have been thinking a lot about how my relationship affects my weight loss. I feel like so far, it has been sort of a bad thing for me weight-wise. I have been very slowly gaining weight since I've been in this relationship. Granted a lot of it has to do with our love of beer, and also our love of good food. But something needs to be done. I am just not happy with the status quo. I also feel a little bit of a burden to try to support my boyfriend in his efforts. While I am hoping to lose a m... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 13:13:53 EST Relaxing? I might not know how to do the relaxing thing very well. This weekend turned into a bit of a whirlwind, but it was all fun, so I guess it's okay. <BR> <BR> Friday, I worked. A fairly normal day for the most part. A bit hectic at times, but that's normal. I had Brett meet me at the school so we could walk home together. That was pretty nice. We also had to do a little bit of grocery shopping so that we could cook a nice meal for dinner. So after we did our shopping, we returned home. Watched... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 09:03:16 EST Relaxing I think that this weekend needs to be all about relaxing, while enjoying the nice weather, of course... I have been going non-stop since last weekend with birthday festivities and work commitments and I just need some time to relax. Thankfully, Brett is here for the weekend, and we have nothing on the agenda except enjoying each other's company. Speaking of which, I want to make a nice healthy meal tonight... Any suggestions/favorites? Fri, 11 Apr 2014 12:07:27 EST This time last year... I just decided to finally update my numbers here on Sparkpeople. (I sort of stopped exercising last June and it has definitely caught up with me.) Anyway, when I recorded my current weight (180lbs), I decided to look at the report. This report showed by weight from last April to this April. And it was not a pretty graph. In fact, while the goal line was steadily decreasing, my actual weight has been steadily increasing. Not good. In fact, this time last year I actually weighed about 12 pounds... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 13:19:09 EST Went to the gym for the first time in a long time... I went to visit my boyfriend out in New York this weekend. I'm typically not a fan of long distance relationships, but so far it's working out okay. It's kind of hard right now. We've been friends for so long, but this whole dating thing is a whole different experience. We've been seeing each other at least once a week so far. He's definitely been doing the lion's share of the driving, so it was high time for me to go out there. It was a really nice weekend. A couple splurge meals, mostly jus... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 12:39:51 EST It's cold and I have a cold I don't like these things. It makes me not want to eat healthy. It makes me not want to exercise. All I want to do is sleep. But since I have had to work all week, I've been drinking copious amounts of tea to keep myself awake. You'd think that as the special ed teacher, I could get away with being absent a few days, but I have meetings I couldn't miss and I have to cover for all the other teachers going to meetings and being out sick. I'm just really glad it's the weekend. I'm also really ho... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 15:09:54 EST Recap of Vacation (With pictures for anyone who needs an infusion of warmth) Let me just say that it was super nice to get away to a warm place for a little while, but absolutely nothing compares with the awesome guy that I've recently reconnected with. The whole time I was out in Arizona, I was thinking how it would only be better if I had him to share it with. But without further ado, let me share my pictures. <BR> <BR> Driving down to Tucson <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The Tucson Botanical Gardens <BR> <img... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 12:54:49 EST Impromptu Vacation! Next week is February vacation here in Massachusetts and I sort of thought I was just going to make it a lazy week at home. However, a couple days ago, my old college roommate messaged me asking about when I was going to visit. I said" I don't know" at the time, but it got me thinking... I do have next week off, and Arizona sounds awfully nice and warm compared to the single digits, ice and snow we've been having here lately. And so, I decided to look up flights. I set myself a budget of $1,0... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 11:00:00 EST Weekends are not an excuse So, when I'm by myself, living life, and everything is normal. I do okay with food choices. However, when I go home for the weekend, I tend to throw it all away and eat like crazy. After gorging myself on Saturday night (because we couldn't take home two slices of pizza for later), Sunday was no better. My father has this thing about finishing everything. Even when it's more calories than any one person should eat. So that was Saturday. Then on Sunday, I went to breakfast with my parents. We ... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 11:06:19 EST A Cold, Snowy Week This week has been cold and snowy and no me gusta! I can't wait for the warm weather to come back so I can take the dog for a walk, or even a run, after work. Even if it weren't so cold, there are literally no sidewalks to be seen right now because they are all covered with snow. While I love the beauty of a snowy day, (See picture below ) I hate that it means I can't be outside doing stuff. I'm tired of being cooped up inside. <BR> <img src=" Fri, 7 Feb 2014 13:33:41 EST Fun weekend, but still exhausted So, last week I was completely MIA from sparkpeople. I finally finished the fast and it's nice to have the freedom to eat whatever again. Although, I think my diet will probably include less meat than it did before now. <BR> <BR> Last week was just a really hard week. First of all, I slept really poorly all week. Second of all, a co-worker sent me a nasty email and made me cry. And I was just really stressed about a lot of things. <BR> <BR> However, the weekend sort of, kind of, made up f... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 13:12:18 EST Heading to a Party 18th century selfies for your enjoyment. Hopefully someone else will take some better photos tonight. I spent all day figuring out the hair <img src=""> <img src=""> Sat, 25 Jan 2014 17:40:12 EST what i like about me So this is how I felt when I woke up this morning. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I kept waking up last night. It's that time of the month and let's just say my body was very unhappy. It didn't improve until I took a couple ibuprofen, sat in the shower for an hour and then went back to bed. That made me very tired and not interested in going to work this morning. But I put on lots of bright pink to try and fake people into thinking I was awake...... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 13:01:25 EST Jumping on the ABC train A is for Age: 26 (for a couple more months) <BR> B is for Booze: Almost anything, but dark beers, white wines, and fruity drinks are my favorites <BR> C is for Car: 2013 blue Toyota Corolla <BR> D is for Dad's name: Robert Lincoln (He goes by Linc, because he's a Jr.) <BR> E is for Ego: I can think pretty highly of myself, but I try not to talk about it <BR> F is for Favorite song or music: A little of this, a little of that: top choices are classic rock, country, showtunes, and hymns <BR> G... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 12:21:05 EST Sick of blogging I've reached the point again where I don't feel like I have anything interesting to say. I've also been trying to take a selfie every day, but that's gotten super boring. It's the same boring pose, same boring smile... I thought about taking a picture today... Then I decided to make silly faces. I'm not really good at silly faces... <BR> <BR> Here is a backlog of pictures. <BR> Sunday night: Fifties style pampered chef party! <BR> <img src=" Tue, 21 Jan 2014 13:01:52 EST Fast modifications I've been thinking about this fast a lot, obviously... Those of you have read my blogs about my concerns know what I'm talking about. I actually am not finding myself as hungry as you might think. I think that my body has gotten used to eating this way a little bit. However, last night I had a long conversation with my best friend. We talked about why I'm doing this fast. She doesn't share my faith, but she knows what I believe and we're able to have a lot of open discussions about this sort ... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 11:26:15 EST Almost gave in last night... So, those of you who have been following my blogs know that I've been doing a partial fast. I've noticed that the nights are the hardest part for me. I get hungry at work, but I'm okay with saying no. Which is good, but then when I get home, I have been especially tired and hungry and craving bread and/or protein. I had a headache last night. Also, despite being tired, I have had a very hard time sleeping. The part that I think is really messing with me is that I'm not understanding what the ... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 12:43:18 EST Guess what day it is? I have nothing clever to say, but it's Wednesday, otherwise known as hump day. I actually find that ad to be terribly annoying. <BR> <BR> Anyway, on this Wednesday morning I was astonished to find frost on my windshield. I thought it was supposed to be warmer this week. (Checking the temperature, it's actually a balmy 37 degrees out there) But, what was interesting about this frost is that it looked really pretty. I even took a picture of it. See? <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeop... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 08:55:51 EST A Gloomy Tuesday and the start of my fast Today is such a gloomy day. It's dark and grey and rainy outside. It makes me want to go back to bed and cuddle up under a blanket. But I am at work instead, so that's not an option... <BR> <BR> Today also marked the (somewhat belated) start of my partial fast. Basically, what I've decided to do is just have veggies, water and tea. The fast is supposed to last until February 2. Unfortunately I had previously scheduled to host a party on Sunday, so I'm considering the idea of letting myself h... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 12:54:58 EST Monday, Monday.... It's amazing how quickly a weekend can pass and suddenly it's Monday all over again. This weekend was both good and bad. Good because I had fun most of the time. Bad because my eating habits were not very good. I overate sometimes. Sometimes I went long periods without eating. I drank probably more than I should have. I don't know how to break those habits around my family. It's why both of my parents are overweight and also why if I keep it up, I'm going to be even more overweight than I alr... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 08:13:01 EST It's Friday! Well, it's nice to finally reach Friday. In case you're wondering about the pictures. KABMPH inspired me to take a picture of myself every day. Hopefully it will help me really appreciate myself and grow comfortable not just with the image of me in my mind, but the image on the camera as well. <BR> <BR> So here is me today! <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 10 Jan 2014 15:44:30 EST Happy Thursday I hope everyone is having a good day! We're one day closer to Friday! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Thu, 9 Jan 2014 13:43:30 EST Fasting Starting January 12th through February 2nd my church is challenging all members to fast for 21 days. I'm considering what this could mean for me. I do want to try it. I have fasted completely for short periods of time in the past, but I don't think that is something I would want to do for this length of time. Of course, I would definitely learn to rely on God to sustain me. I'm sure. While I think that there are times God might call someone to do this, I don't feel like this is a healthy th... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 12:57:52 EST Here we go again. Yesterday I restocked my fridge. The selection was quite sparse since I hadn't been home since before Christmas. But that's fixed now. I got some fresh fruits and veggies, some meat, some yogurt, some cheese. Lots of staples of my healthy (ish) eating lifestyle. I did not, however, do any sort of exercise. I think I have determined that I need to start up going to a personal trainer again. When I had that appointment scheduled there was no way I was going to miss it. Left to my own devices, I... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 12:57:12 EST Another New Year It seems like just yesterday I was sitting here thinking about my goals for 2013. At the beginning of 2013, I set some financial, spiritual, social, and health-related goals. I guess now is the time to evaluate how I did on all those fronts and set some new goals for myself. <BR> <BR> Financially, I had hoped to save $10,000. I checked my bank account recently and I do in fact have over $10,000 in savings, so Yay! One goal met! <BR> <BR> Spiritually, I wanted to begin doing daily devotiona... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 09:10:06 EST