STLRFNS's SparkPeople Blog STLRFNS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Here Motivation..Motivation...Motivation With the ending of the BLC round, I really have lost my motivation - lost it and can't seem to find it. I always do okay food wise - my cousin always said I eat exactly what I need to in order to maintain whatever weight I'm currently at. However, I don't want to stay at the weight I'm at. <BR> <BR> I made it to Onderland twice in the last 12 weeks only to move back to Twohundredland again. I really don't like it here. The scenery is so much nicer in Onderland. Colors are brighter, life... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 20:59:16 EST Being a Co-Captain So during the last BLC challenge, a question was put the team - have you ever thought of being a co-captain. And my initial thought was not to respond. Then I thought - why haven't I thought about it? It wasn't the first time the question was asked. <BR> <BR> I would say my main reason last year was my health. I went through nine months of limited everything. It was exhausting being sick - I've never been sick. How could I possibly be a captain and motivate anyone when I was ... Tue, 19 May 2015 23:18:25 EST BLC 26 The past two BLC challenges have not been good due to health issues. However, now I'm back on track. I still tire easily but I can do more than I've done in months. <BR> <BR> My goals for this challenge are to get back to basics - food, exercise, and participation. <BR> <BR> I lost 10 pounds in the original challenge I participated in using the three things above. Now is time to get back to what I know works and just do it! Mon, 22 Sep 2014 18:40:02 EST Smart Goals I really liked the challenge to write down your goals and make sure what you are setting is achievable. <BR> <BR> Goal is to lose 12 lbs in the next 12 weeks. <BR> 1. I like the way I look when I'm thinner. <BR> 2. I like having more energy to keep up with my kids. <BR> 3. I want to stay away from medications. <BR> <BR> How I'm going to do it. <BR> 1. Strength training twice a week. <BR> 2. Cardio twice a week. <BR> 3. Yogurt once a day. <BR> 4. One green vegetable daily. <BR> 5. 16 oz o... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 17:36:46 EST Why does life always get in the way of weight loss? I have spent the last week traveling for my job then returning home on Friday. Happy to be home - excited to see my husband and kids - tired from a 2 hour time zone difference. And then I threw a birthday party for my son yesterday. <BR> <BR> I feel like life continually gets in my way. I have never been very fond of exercise. I'm not the person who gets up early so that she can sweat a bunch of calories before work. In fact, I don't really see that ever happening. I'm the person who d... Mon, 11 Nov 2013 17:26:01 EST To Blog or To Chat - Now That is the Question? I'm channeling my inner Shakespeare! <BR> <BR> Since staring the BLC Challenge, one of the first things I've noticed is that I really don't blog any longer. Blogging for me was my talk to myself - it was either a beat me up/pick me up for what I've been doing wrong or a congratulations on what I'm doing right. But the one thing they both had in common was it was me talking to me. And in some cases, when things weren't going well, me hoping that someone else might find my title interesti... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 21:53:57 EST OMG - It just got real I said it last night and I'll say it again today - the fact that I joined a Biggest Loser Challenge just got very real to me. <BR> <BR> Going to spend some time this weekend making sure I understand exactly what I'm doing - I'm a planner - I like to be prepared. <BR> <BR> I think the most amazing thing about this is that I need to focus on me if I want to be successful. My life like most people's nowadays is hectic at best. Full-time job, Mom, wife, Home & School president, friends, famil... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 23:03:56 EST Planning - most important part of my day I find myself always needing a plan - I work best with a plan. My problem - I don't have a plan for tomorrow. Tomorrow is my birthday. My employees are planning a food day for me - my daughters are making me dinner. I know I'm getting baked chicken tomorrow night but no clue what's in store for lunch. My plan as of now - very small portions as to not hurt anyone's feelings but try to stick with right types of food. <BR> <BR> My next worry - I fly to Portland on Sunday and will be there until... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 23:23:57 EST I hate not knowing what to do My husband and I have been friends with another couple for 15 years. We were next door neighbors for 5 and their whole family has just been a huge part of our lives. <BR> <BR> Their marriage hasn't been great for a couple of years and on July 3rd, he left while she was sleeping and hasn't been back. My friend has always been healthy but I've watched her lose 20 lbs in 2 months. She was never one who was outwardly emotional and now she can't stop crying. She hugs like I'm a lifeline and I jus... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 22:39:28 EST Not starting off the weekend challenge well One thing can be said for me - when challenged, I love to meet the challenge. The past two weekends - I made sure I had all my points in every category. I have this strong desire to never fail - always succeed. <BR> <BR> But like many Fridays in my life - I let yesterday get away from me. Yesterday morning, I made a point before work to visit someone's page. I then thought to myself you have the rest of the day to meet the rest of those goals. I manage 42 people and right now is very bu... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 10:09:55 EST Endodontist - no good news I've had a bump on the roof of my mouth since April. My dentist tried to treat it but when that didn't work, he sent me to an endodontist. It was determined the infection was coming from an old root canal/crown I have. Lets just say the cure is worse than the sickness. <BR> <BR> Three weeks ago, they drilled through bottom of crown, removed filling and root canal, injected antibiotics, and refilled. It took 2 hours and 2 days for my head to recover. These are supposed to be easy 30 minute pr... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 14:43:33 EST 1/2 pound loss - was hoping for more After the first week with a 2.4 loss, I was very excited and very motivated. I felt like I was doing everything right. Today, I only had an additional .5 to add. Disappointing for certain. Then I put on the jeans I wore a week ago and they had a little more room. I'm going to be proud of the loss no matter how small and keep pushing myself. I'm not giving up. Wed, 11 Sep 2013 21:21:17 EST Working out with a 16 year old - now that's a challenge! Yesterday, I went to the gym with my 16 year old, Mikayla. I felt old, out of shape, and fat. She looks like I did at her age - string bean. She is also very fit. I jumped on a bike first which is usually my favorite but I was getting bored with it. <BR> <BR> Mikayla was on a treadmill so I decided to hop on the one next to her. We walked side by side for about 25 minutes. She is definitely encouraging and I got up to an incline of 6 while she did 7. She just keeps saying - come one M... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 23:02:26 EST Selfies for BLC23 So part of my BLC training is posting front and side selfies. This is the type of clothes I always wear - jean capris, layered tees, no show socks (that don't match), and black/hot pink Nikes. Hoping by the end of this challenge - these clothes will be way too big (except my shoes - <em>20</em> ) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Fri, 6 Sep 2013 19:18:22 EST First Training BLC Weigh In - Success I was very excited this morning when I got on the scale to see that I've lost 2.4 pounds since last Wednesday. <BR> <BR> I have worked really hard to document all the food I have eaten. I've only made it to the gym once but have managed to do some walking at lunch each day as well as lots of outdoor activities this weekend. <BR> <BR> I have found that with drinking water so much - I sleep so much better. I've also been forcing myself to go to bed earlier and get more sleep. Overall, I j... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 21:12:23 EST Feeling Accomplished! Survived my first weekend BLC challenge. I didn't do as we'll food wise today but overall the weekend was on track. Going to keep pushing myself with food, exercise, and tracking! <em>386</em> Mon, 2 Sep 2013 23:42:18 EST Friday Night at the Gym - Very Few People I've signed up for the BLC 23 challenge. It has already really motivated me to stay on top of my eating and exercise. I went to the gym tonight which is a first for me. Usually after a long week at work and activities at night with the kids, I just tell myself I'm too tired to go. <BR> <BR> I was tired tonight - I got to go to work and then spend an hour at the DMV before going to the gym. Even though my IPOD was charged with all my super fast cardio music, I decided to do cardio and str... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 22:16:03 EST More Success When I Blog During the course of this weight loss journey, I find that I have a greater weight loss when I'm blogging. I think part of the reason is that I'm really thinking about what I'm doing, the choices I'm making, and how they will affect me. <BR> <BR> Some of my friends tease me - me and my conversations with myself. But really - isn't that the main person I should be talking to? Me? No one else can lose this weight for me - if they could, I would pay a lot of money for it. But sadly no - it... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 21:53:13 EST How did it happen? In early February, I reached what my sister and I refer to as Onderland. That is that beautiful spot where you weigh less than 200 lbs. I got all the way down to 196 - I was so proud. Yet, here I am today with a weight of 205.9 - really? Really! Really..... <BR> <BR> So it started when my daughter started throwing up blood on February 6th. We went to the ER - they sent us home - nothing was wrong with her. We spent the next three weeks with her vomiting everything she ate. She had to... Mon, 6 May 2013 21:54:06 EST I'm back because this is my year! So I stopped blogging in September right before I went to Vegas. I was so dedicated before our trip. When I got back, I stayed on track with my food but stopped working out all together. <BR> <BR> I made myself a promise with the new year that I'm going to concentrate on losing weight, getting fit, and taking care of myself. I've been very proud of myself for not gaining any weight but I do notice that the clothes I wore in Vegas look different than they did then. I've lost a lot of de... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 21:16:30 EST Sick and nervous I have been sick for the past two days - sicker than I have been in a really long time. To add to that, I have a second interview tomorrow for a new management position in my department. My first interview was Monday and since I was called within two hours of it ending for a second one - I'm thinking it went pretty well. <BR> <BR> But how am I supposed to be in top form tomorrow. If I call in sick again which I should probably do, how will that look? If I go in weak as I am, how good of ... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 19:36:20 EST Heading to Onederland My sister and I call being under 200 lbs - Onederland and I'm so heading there. I took my cousin's advice and have been eating 1200 calories a day and 1500 when I work out since Saturday. Imagine my surprise this morning at the 2 lb weight loss this week! <BR> <BR> I'm feeling very accomplished because my birthday was Monday and even with my daughter making my favorite cheesecake - I'm staying on track. I think writing everything down is such a huge key for me. It really keeps me on trac... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 10:18:34 EST And the light bulb went on I talked to my cousin before boot camp about my snail pace of losing. I love my cousin - she is an amazing person and she so helped me. #1 - we discovered that I have dropped about 8 inches total since February so add that to the 22 pound weight loss and that is great. <BR> <BR> She also told me I have to eat 1200 calories a day no matter what. If I work out and burn 300 calories, she expects me to put the 300 back in there. She believes my body thinks it is starving and that's why it is... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 23:09:45 EST I'm gonna keep swimming and swimming and swimming..... Well not literally but figuratively. The scale is not my friend - the scale is currently my tormentor. <BR> <BR> I made a comment today to a friend that I feel like if I'm not focused on my husband, kids, and job - I spend all of my time planning my food and workout. And miraculously, I'm managing to fit it all in. So why is the scale such a hater. My calories are great, the type of food I'm eating is good, my water is good, and my exercise is good. Put it all together and it should equ... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 22:56:47 EST Boot Camp Kicked My Butt Saturday, my friend and I went to my cousin's boot camp. OMG, an hour and a half of complete intensity. I still hurt today so it was a good workout! I'm the heaviest one and probably one of the oldest people there so I know it's all harder for me but I won't give up. <BR> <BR> I went to the gym tonight but only did 11.35 on the bike in 32 minutes. I'm hoping it helps the soreness in my legs at least a little. <BR> <BR> Happy Tuesday! <BR> Mon, 10 Sep 2012 23:46:03 EST Do you hear that - that is the sound of the happy dance! Who would have ever thought that a .5 lb weight loss could generate so much joy? But when you have been on what feels like the longest plateau ever (not really - only a month) - it feels like forever. And I am doing the happy dance - jumping on the scale to see it was finally under 208 made my day! <BR> <BR> Yeeha! <em>9</em> Thu, 6 Sep 2012 14:20:04 EST Finished strong - 159.53 miles in August! Well I did it - I beat my goal of 100 miles in August and managed to even beat 150 miles. Life is crazy so I don't always get a chance to document what I've done the day I do it. <BR> <BR> I'm really happy that I made my goal - not sure what I'm going to do for September yet. I'm starting a boot camp on Saturday mornings when my sons aren't in soccer. I think I need to add weights to my cardio but sometimes that bike is just my zen after a crazy day. I find that I ride faster the better ... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 14:28:54 EST 115.62 miles and counting for August! Yesterday was super busy so I didn't get a chance to update my mileage. I'm up to 115.62 - I have a few days left in August to see where I end up. It will be a busy week though of meetings and kids' activity so I don't think I can make 150 but I sure would like to attempt it! Sun, 26 Aug 2012 22:29:51 EST I'm an Aunt again! Emma was born today - she is beautiful and I can't wait to see her tomorrow. This brings my grand total to 27 nieces and nephews, 14 great nieces and nephews, and 2 great great nieces and nephews! <BR> <BR> I have a very large family as you can see! Fri, 24 Aug 2012 23:47:38 EST Only .15 miles left to hit my 100 mile goal! I thought I would do it tonight but I only rode 20.78 leaving me .15 miles short of my 100 mile goal for August. But guess what - I'm going to make it because I still have 8 days left in August! Now I wonder how close to 150 I can get? <BR> <BR> We shall see..... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 22:59:02 EST Staying on track but need to add some weights It is so easy for me to be lead down the path of sin or in this world bad food choices and no exercise. <BR> <BR> I'm proud to say that so far this week I have walked 3 miles on Monday and today did 16.5 miles on the bike at the gym. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow night is back at the gym. I need to start doing the machines but just keep going back to the bike - I know I need to tone and push my other muscles as much as I've pushed my legs but I just keep hitting the bicycle. Promising myself that to... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 22:46:32 EST Can I really look skinny at 210 lbs? I am one of those people who never had to worry about their weight. I ate and drank what I wanted and never gained an ounce - until I had four children. Wow - did they pack on some pounds! <BR> <BR> With every child, I weighed the same amount at delivery 221. Imagine my surprise when I got on a scale in February and weighed 229. I literally weighed more than I weighed when I had my kids and they were really big kids - 9 lbs 3 ozs, 8 lbs, 10 lbs 5 ozs, and 8 lbs. So literally not little ... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 00:04:27 EST Snap Peas - Who Knew? I have a few friends at work who are like me and attempting better lifestyle choices. One of them offered me snap peas today. Ever a skeptic, I was like I don't think so - I hate peas. Another friend said she hates peas too and to just try one. What a pleasant surprise. I dipped it in light ranch and it was really good. A crunchy surprise to say the least. I'm hitting the store tomorrow to grab some - I can always use some new green veggies in my diet! Mon, 16 Apr 2012 23:42:39 EST Back from the weekend - emotionally happy - physically ick I blogged last week that I knew this weekend was coming and the food pushers were going to be out and they were. I feel like I've had two days of eating someone else's food and I'm bodily paying for it. I just don't feel nearly as good as I have been. <BR> <BR> Right before I left town, I was diagnosed with a double ear infection and double impacted ear canals - talk about painful. Saturday I woke up feeling better and ready for the trip. <BR> <BR> Let's just say Saturday I was good beca... Mon, 26 Mar 2012 20:48:17 EST Starting to worry about the weekend My sister, cousin, and I are going to spend a couple of days away from home with our aunt this weekend. I informed both of them that I refuse to go off of my eating plan just because we are going out of town. <BR> <BR> My sister is on board with me as she is also trying to lose weight. My cousin, however, isn't. She has just lost 22 lbs which is amazing and I'm proud of her but her comment to me is we are splurging this weekend. I just hit a 5 lb weight loss - I'm gaining momentum - I do... Wed, 21 Mar 2012 23:16:00 EST The scale likes me for the moment! No one would probably believe this but I do not own a scale. I never have. In order to weigh myself, I either have to go to my Mom's or go to the gym. <BR> <BR> I stopped at my Mom's yesterday to pick up my daughter and was happy to see it finally shows me losing - I lost 3 lbs! It really helped motivate me today to stay on track with my food. While dinner was in the oven, I walked a mile. <BR> <BR> We are expecting a lot of rain this week so I was glad for the opportunity to walk out... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 23:38:13 EST Friends on the Same Journey Some people come into your life, leave, and you never see them again. Some people come and never leave. And sometimes a person who has left, returns and that's what happened to me and my husband. <BR> <BR> My husband had a friendship that started 18 years ago. Dan fell out of our lives about 12 years ago when his life and ours were heading in different directions. Last year, he reappeared and their friendship resumed but with a bonus. He has a longtime girlfriend and 8 year old daughter... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 01:05:16 EST Happy Happy Joy Joy I have been completely disheartened the past couple of weeks because the scale is just not moving at all - not gaining but not losing. <BR> <BR> I've been tracking everything I eat even when it's bad. I've been working out - doing everything that I should and nothing! But I resolved that I'm going to keep doing what I should even when it's not happening because it has to pay off right? <BR> <BR> This morning I got up for work and grabbed my jeans that I thought were the ones I usually wea... Sat, 17 Mar 2012 00:10:23 EST I feel like I won today over emotional eating. Again today, my 10 year old son wakes up with a migraine. After four straight days of this, I'm beyond worried and tired. We call the doctor who directs us to the ER. My head is racing with what is going to happen, what are they going to do, is there something really more serious going on than just a migraine. <BR> <BR> The ER confirmed a migraine and due to my vigilant record keeping the past four days were able to quickly move to what they thought would be a resolution. They inserted a... Wed, 14 Mar 2012 21:41:14 EST It was a good food day! My son is still suffering from migraines and we are on Day 3. We have given him the last dose of meds and he is sleeping. Praying it works - otherwise, doctor said to hit the ER. I so do not want to do that. <BR> <BR> I've had a headache from worrying about his migraines. Ironic, right? So the thought of exercise just didn't appeal today. I'm just trying to keep mine under control. <BR> <BR> However, I did really good eating today so I'm taking it for the victory it is! <BR> <BR> Her... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 22:24:46 EST I fell off the wagon and then the darn thing backed up and rolled over me again! I was doing so well and then as always I let my emotions control my habits. I've been very worried about my Mom and son. I spent Friday with my Mom for a five hour glucose test. She has hypoglycemia but they think it may be turning into diabetes. So I completely derailed there and let the derailment continue with a busy weekend. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I had planned today and I was back on track. Then my son (whose 10) gets a migraine at 10:00 last night so I dose him with his migraine pil... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 23:33:42 EST I Love to Dance So today I switched to Just Dance 3 and did the Sweat Workout. I seriously love to dance and was going to buy a dance workout when I discovered the 'Sweat' portion of this game. <BR> <BR> I did 35 minutes of fast dancing and loved it. We had a basketball game to go to or I don't think I would have stopped until I had finished the last two songs. My food was also on track but my fats are still a little low. I have to figure out a better combination to keep the good food coming and hit my ... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 23:18:32 EST I'm like that LMFAO song except 'I'm 40 and I know it! I bought the UFC Trainer workout for the Wii. Wow - can I tell I haven't been to the gym in a while. My legs ache and I'm sure tomorrow will be worse but I'm SO GLAD that even though it was late and I had every reason to wait until tomorrow - I didn't wait. I did it! I burned 81 calories because I only did the quick workout but I feel like I accomplished something and met my goals for today. <BR> <BR> #1 - I'm only weighing once a week and measuring once a month - don't want to become ob... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 23:07:08 EST One Step at a Time Life throws curve balls all the time and I often use that as my reason to not stay on track. But I'm sick and tired of being tired. So now it's time to start taking one step at a time. <BR> <BR> #1 - I weighed and measured myself. <BR> #2 - I have planned my food for tomorrow. <BR> #3 - I'm going to exercise tomorrow. <BR> #4 - Forgive myself for any screw ups along the way <BR> #5 - Stay on track <BR> <BR> I can do it - I know I can - now to just remember that...... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 00:45:12 EST Goodbye Vacation - Hello Reality I take two weeks vacation every year. The first week we travel - the second I spend with my kids. Today is my last day - tomorrow I head back to work and what I call reality. Work commitments - kid commitments - my life is not my own. <BR> <BR> I've thoroughly enjoyed myself although the bags are not gone under my eyes. Seems no matter how much sleep I get - it just isn't enough. I think it's because four kids keep me so busy but I do feel better. <BR> <BR> The bad part is that I weigh... Sun, 17 Jul 2011 13:05:22 EST Pepsi Anonymous So I really need to get off this Pepsi. I've been on vacation for two weeks and it has become the drink of choice (it's my favorite). However, I'm remembering why I try to stay away from it - hello 3 lbs. I haven't missed you and you need to go! <BR> <BR> I have a couple of more days off before I head back to my normal life. First point of order - give up Pepsi (again). Second - get back to the gym. <BR> <BR> Now I just need to get this goals accomplished! Fri, 15 Jul 2011 17:43:12 EST Good day - forgot about the taco salad I had a good day with food and exercise. I love this Parmasean Panko Tilapia that I have found for lunch. Low cal and oh so yummy. <BR> <BR> After my Women's Weekend, I came home and bought so much fruit and veggies because I just felt awful. I have been eating fresh watermelon, cantaloupe, pineapple, and grapes. It is funny because I don't have a lunch bag so I've been taking my son's WWE wrestling lunch box to work. My employees find it hysterical but it keeps my fruit cold and I have... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 22:39:22 EST Gained - yes, Surprised - no, Regret - yes and no I have had two crazy weeks - my daughter graduated 8th grade, we had last day of school, two family picnics, baseball, and Women's Weekend. I haven't been to the gym in more than two weeks. <BR> <BR> I went back to the gym tonight and faced my hater - the scale. She wasn't kind - I gained 5 lbs but in her defense - I'm quite certain I was the cause of the gain and have no one to blame but myself. <BR> <BR> I regret the gain because I know I'm going to have to work hard to get back down bu... Tue, 7 Jun 2011 23:46:43 EST Self awareness - why didn't I realize this sooner? So last month I was dropping really well - lost 11.2 pounds. Was feeling awesome then I plateaued, then I gained two pounds, then I plateaued, then I just got mad. <BR> <BR> So as I was venting my frustration this morning to a friend and bemoaning my two pounds - I started talking about things. Last month, I really worked hard to try and get my water in - this month I really haven't tried hard. Last month, I really worked to hit all of my nutrition points (especially fruits and veggies) -... Thu, 19 May 2011 22:38:49 EST I need a personal shopper I would love to have a personal shopper to take care of not only making sure I have fruits and veggies in the house but cutting them up for me would be even better. I love them - I just sometimes have trouble finding the time to cut everything up. If it's cut up, I will always eat it. <BR> <BR> This week has been hectic. The only thing I have going tomorrow night is the gym and I'm so grateful. I've been running full speed for a week and a half - no downtime to speak of. I would just ... Tue, 17 May 2011 23:43:21 EST