STEVEN2GO2's SparkPeople Blog STEVEN2GO2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Hey, I will make this a Wacky Wednesday with 10 wacky quotes by Groucho Marx! "I find television very educating. Every time somebody turns on the set, I go into the other room and read a book." <BR> <BR> "I've had a perfectly wonderful evening, but this wasn't it..." <BR> <BR> "Marriage is a wonderful institution, but who wants to live in an institution?" <BR> <BR> "When you're in jail, a good friend will be trying to bail you out. A best friend will be in the cell next to you saying, "Damn, that was fun..." <BR> <BR> "I refuse to join any club that would have me a... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 21:40:07 EST Tiring Tuesday I did three loads of laundry. I spent time cleaning and organizing my home. I also went to the VA. I am in the middle of hopefully ending the use of my rep-payee and being in total charge of my VA pension. I also enjoyed a pleasant long walk and even did jumping jacks! <BR> <BR> Around 6pm I was watching TV and feel asleep, luckily I woke about an hour ago to finish my sparking for the day. I think tonight my bed is calling my mind and body so I wish you all a good night of rest and some ple... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 22:08:43 EST A Manic Monday! Today was a Manic Monday. For those who enjoy music, I borrow the words 'Manic Monday' from the song by one of my favorite all woman bands the 'Bangles' who came out with this song in 1985. <BR> <BR> Today I had to arrange for my ride to the VA with my driver for tomorrow to meet with a Social Worker concerning my finances. Also I had to get in touch with my peer support counselor to get together on Friday. I also had to call Kohl's to update my credit card. As some of you know I do not enjo... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 23:02:06 EST The scale When I was reading an article here on sparks I came across a quote: <BR> <BR> "You are so much more than the number you see on the scale!" <BR> <BR> Under this Sparks explained what they meant about this. I will paraphrase this: <BR> <BR> The scale does not tell how good you feel. The scale does not tell you how much you are loved. The scale does not tell you how strong you are. It is just a measure off how much gravity effects your body. <BR> <BR> I graduated High School weighing 120 pou... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 22:39:08 EST Summer fun! Today was our community end of summer pool party. I had a lot of fun! I enjoyed throwing a ball around the pool. I knew almost all the people at the party. The most fun were the kids. There were about 10-12 kids there. I think I over did it a bit as my left knee hurts and I scraped up my right knee getting the ball when it went out of the pool. The food was great, Mexican, was also pop, water and beer for thirst. I personally choose not to drink alcohol though. There was also a live DJ and h... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 23:54:50 EST Fun Friday, looking forward to Sunny Swimming Saturday I had a great Friday and am looking forward to a sunny, swimming Saturday! Tomorrow is our annual end of Summer pool party. The weather is expected to be great, lots of sunshine and in the low 80's. There will be a DJ, free food and free drinks. <BR> <BR> <em>67</em> <em>236</em> <em>237</em> <em>262</em> Fri, 15 Aug 2014 21:39:27 EST THANK YOU SPARK FRIENDS AND COMMUNITY All of you who read my blog yesterday and responded so kindly, I thank you from the bottom of my heart! <BR> <BR> YES, I too am very happy I failed in my suicide attempt. Since then I enjoyed being an Uncle and Godfather to my amazing nephew Mike. Also I will always cherish being allowed to be the step father to Dominic an amazing kid. He has Autism and he taught me so much about enjoying this life we are given. He is the one from whom I learned, "DON"T GIVE UP!" <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> ... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 21:30:19 EST Sometimes an attempted suicide is not selfish, it is because you care too much for those you love! The first time I tried to commit suicide was not selfish, it was just the oppisite. I had been honorablly discharged from the Navy and living with my parents. At the time I was on medication for being Bi-polar. 30 years ago before the introduction of generic medications, medication was very expensive. Also treatment was very costly. In my family there was no previous history of mental illness. Because of this fact my medications and treatment was not covered by my parents insurance. So the bu... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 21:52:41 EST Depression One thing I like about Sparks are the well written health articles. If you go to the orange tab: ARTICLES & VIDEOS in the blue section there is: Health & Wellness. First place your cursor on this and then go to the right where you can scroll down to Depression. With the news of Robin Williams death by suicide, here is great advice if you or know someone who is suffering from depression and there is useful information on ways to help or get help for depression and aid in preventing suicide. Tue, 12 Aug 2014 22:45:59 EST In mourning right now for comedian, actor and performer Robin Williams Robin Williams was one of my favorite artists. I always watched Mork & Mindy, his reports to his superiors were always full of wisdom concerning humans. I once had the chance to enjoy him in concert while attending Penn State University years ago. <BR> <BR> Depression can occur no matter how well or great your live is. Myself, I have struggled with depression at times in my life too. I also have attempted suicide three times in my life. I was very fortunate that help arrived in time. <... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 23:14:12 EST Slow Starting, Sunny SONday As I wrote yesterday I am a slow morning started. I am a night owl. Both my body and mind work much better later in the day. Once I got going though I had a super SONday. Made it to the store and a lot of the stuff I wanted was on sale!!! <BR> <BR> The Pirates and Steelers lost last night, still they were great games! It was fun switching from one to the other keeping up. The Pirates are doing very well even though there best player is injured. The Steelers looked good. I rookie mistake caus... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 21:53:05 EST Satisfying Saturday and I still have the evening!!! I am a slow starter in the morning. I think of all the things I want to accomplish in the day, then try to keep my head under the covers as long as possible. Then my body and mind say enough is enough, the things you are going to do will for the most part be fun!! <BR> <BR> I did something today that I have not done in a long time, I danced! Charlie Daniels was on the radio with the old song, "The Devil Went Down to Georgia", this just got me pumped and so I danced!!! <BR> <BR> Then I went ... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 21:09:01 EST Frantic Friday!!! I think the plate today was overfilled. When you are retired life is suppose to be easy, YEAH RIGHT!!! <BR> <BR> I hope Saturday is a stress free Saturday!!! <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> Fri, 8 Aug 2014 21:38:10 EST A terrific Thursday for me, but very concerned for many Americans right now!!! Hey a late blog, but it has been an active day! I did a lot of walking and swimming, beautiful day here in Pittsburgh! <BR> <BR> Please pray for those who live in and around the State of Hawaii! They are at the focus of two hurricanes and some quakes right now! <BR> <BR> Thu, 7 Aug 2014 22:42:23 EST Wonderful Wednesday I walked to the store. I worked out hard at the gym and talked with friends during breaks. On the way home Vinnie, who I have known since he was a pup was happy to see me. He now weighs over 160 pounds!!! I talked to a social worker from the VA about my VA pension. I talked to my VA peer support counselor for a meeting on Friday. I sparked a lot! <BR> <BR> <em>100</em> <em>200</em> <em>104</em> <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> Enjoy a terrific Thursday!!! Wed, 6 Aug 2014 20:49:17 EST Wet Tuesday Today I had to dance through the raindrops to walk. I did meet a friendly pup along the who was happy for attention. I spent most of the day inside working on my weakest body part my core. I even enjoyed following coach Nicole through core exercises. Well not much else happened today. Onto Wednesday. I just hope it is not a Wet Wednesday! <BR> <BR> <em>27</em> <em>402</em> Tue, 5 Aug 2014 22:23:17 EST Fun in the sun at our pool. Our neighborhood is a mixed community with dogs, cats and children. Today at the pool I was able to get my laps in then parents and kids came. One little girl whose name is Dakota was a joy! She was funny. I learned to swim when I was 5 at the YMCA. Since I was 6 through high school I swam competitively. I had just finished my laps when Dakota and her parents came to the pool. I have goggles to swim to protect my eyes and see while swimming. Dakota had her own pair. She is just starting to g... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 21:31:19 EST Super Sonday Last night I talked one the phone to a dear friend for hours into the about 6am in the morning. Thank goodness when I retired to bed sleep came quickly. At 2 pm I managed to wake. A hot shower got me moving for the day. I like to work out in the afternoon or early evening and so I did. Today was a combined strength and cardio workout. I felt strong with the weight machines then had a fantastic 35 minutes on the elliptical. On my way home some of my friends were enjoying the evening so I join... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 23:08:07 EST Surprise Saturday As I was about ready to begin my cleaning of my apartment, my sister surprised me and asked if I wanted to see a movie with her and my nephew. So I quick changed from cleaning clothes, just in time for my sister to pick me up. She was planning yard work today but the weather forecast was calling for rain, so she surprised me with the invitation to the movie. I think the title was something like Heroes of the Galaxy, it was very enjoyable! And I spent surprise time with my sister and nephew! <... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 22:07:15 EST August 1st I went to our pool on a beautiful first day of August. Many of my neighbors were out and many attractive young women at the pool. The most beautiful sight I saw was looking at some flowers within ten feet of were I was relaxing after a swim and seeing a humming bird feeding on the flowers. <BR> <BR> Hey I am 49 and the most embarrassing thing was seeing my own white chest hairs. Now do I shave them off to look younger? <BR> <BR> <em>246</em> Fri, 1 Aug 2014 22:12:14 EST Thursday Last night I talked to a dear friend for over 4 hours, until the phone batteries gave up. I was up till 4am, she only had to be up to 2am, living west of me two time zones behind. I did not wake till noon but moved my b@@@ to get my walking in for the day. Also here it was a warm sunny last day of July, so I did laps at our crumbling community pool. <BR> <BR> Last week a new neighbor, John, moved in. I saw him today and he will be getting a new pup this Friday. I am looking forward to meetin... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 21:50:48 EST Wonderful Wednesday When I went to take my morning shower the maroon umbrella I had left to dry from yesterday had stained my white tub. IT IS BAD LUCK TO OPEN AN UMBRELLA IN YOUR HOME. Bleach will remove the red stain, I hope. I enjoyed walking my neighborhood. One friendly pup placed a huge slobbery kiss on my face! When I walked to the store for supplies, the drivers were cordial and aware of me, thank goodness. One more day of Jumping July, I say jumping July because a friend tried to get me to join her hul... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 21:32:34 EST Trying Tuesday I like to start my day relaxing reading the newspaper. Today, instead of my paper waiting on my door mat, there was a notice from my apartment complex hanging on my outer door handle. As I quickly looked over this I was concerned I was a bit behind with my rent payment. It was a detailed line by line account over the past three months. In it I read that I had a pet, that I was behind in rent because I had not paid some pet fees. If you know me by now I love animals, but at this time I do not ... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 23:09:56 EST Misty Monday <em>245</em> Another blog about Pittsburgh weather. I was just starting walking to the store and the sky opened up blowing pouring rain, so I retreated back home. I relaxed at home for an hour and then my new neighbor offered a one way trip to the store. I took the offer and brought an umbrella, just in case, for my 15 minute walk home. This past week I have had a congested head cold, so I purchased Orange Juice with calcium and Vitamin C, Centrum multivitamin, which was a good deal because... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 21:45:09 EST Another storm a coming! It is so dark now outside, rumblings are occurring! Last night was awesome! I love lightening, thunder and rain, when I am inside protected! I somehow did not loose electricity, but my alarm clock must have at one point. I enjoyed the show lying on my couch looking up at my sky light, felt the vibrations from the thundering in my second story top apartment and hearing the thudding rain on my roof and sky light, with candles light. It was very soothing. <BR> <BR> I remember storms in my young... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 16:54:26 EST A late Saturday blog during a thunderstorm! Tonight's blog has to be short! So far some how my electricity is still working. But the lights keep flickering on and off. Somehow my computer is still alive! It is time to light candles in case the electricity dies. So good night, I wanted to spark more but all heck is brewing outside so I am going to listen and watch the show of Mother Nature going on! Sat, 26 Jul 2014 22:55:16 EST Friday I had a full day today. My peer support counselor took me to breakfast and some shopping at Target. During breakfast I told him about the near miss anxiety attack earlier this week at check out at Giant Eagles. Then we went shopping at Target. I finally purchased the statistical calculator that I wanted. I always bought Texas Instrument calculators in the past. This time I bought a Casio science calculator. It has all the same abilities as a TI and is solar powered, which I like since I hate ... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 22:45:56 EST Time to jump through hula hoops! As I said yesterday my Doctor said yes to my ability to manage my funds. The next step is dealing with a VA Social Worker. My Doctor gave me a telephone number to contact this Social Worker. But when I tried this number, it rang three or four times, then my ear was assaulted by a shrill high pitch from a fax machine. I tried this three times and I think my poor ear is still in shock from that noise. So I called another number to connect me with my VA and after two calls received the correct n... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 21:59:48 EST My Doctor said I am doing very well! I had my four month check-up with my Doctor today. Before I met with him he read over the notes from my VA nurse and Peer Support Counselor. The major subject that was important to me was the concern of wether I still need a Fiduciary (representative pay-ee). He said that he feels I am doing so well now that I am not in need of the Fiduciary. I like my Fiduciary but I do pay her and now that I really do not need her, why continue? <BR> <BR> The main reason I have a Fiduciary is when I was ma... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 22:55:24 EST Tuesday I went to our community pool today. The lifeguard saved three tiles from drowning. I guess during the bitter cold winter (remember that) the tiles had become loose. Today while I was taking a break from swimming I noticed the lifeguard hurry over to the side of our pool and with a fishnet sweeping the bottom of the pool. Then next she got into the pool and rescued the drowning tiles. <BR> <BR> I also accomplished three loads of needed laundry and some wanted general house cleaning while w... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 21:38:01 EST Monday: Did I blog or not? I was in the middle of writing my Monday blog when my computer froze. So I shut my computer down and restarted the nasty thing. It took several attempts and about 10 minutes then finally I was back online. I went to rewrite my Monday Blog, but I had received credit from sparks for a blog, but no blog showed upped for Monday. I guess this was just this crazy computer not wanting me to write a blog today. So Sunday I had vivid God dreams and Monday has been a manic Monday with my computer! <BR>... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 22:10:02 EST Sunday Dreaming I have been having interesting dreams. Last night I had a dream in which God asked me if I would like to take over for Him. I defiantly replied "NO" in the dream and then went on to recite the "Our Father". <BR> <BR> I have no idea where this dream came from but do understand that it was a confirmation of His importance to me! Sun, 20 Jul 2014 20:11:54 EST Saturday Today it was misting. It was a very relaxing weather for walking! I had an umbrella but the wind was blowing the mist so I still was getting wet. But I did not get soaked. I really enjoyed the walk! I also met a friendly puppy along the way. Poor thing as I was leaving I said Bye Bye, to him this means a car ride which he loves. So he was extremely excited! <BR> <BR> <em>257</em> <em>338</em> Sat, 19 Jul 2014 19:35:04 EST Friday: Plan B Yesterday, I thought today I would sunbathe by the pool and swim. I would of worn a speedo swimsuit because I think my neighbors would not enjoy the sight of a near 50 year old in his baby suit :)! Well the sky was dark all day and threatening with rain, so plan B, hit the gym. It was not extremely hot today but the humidity was through the roof. I am glad we are allowed to move the fans in our gym, no AC, and when I go I adjust them to my liking. I still was dripping sweat during my workout... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 22:08:52 EST A gorgeous day It was a great day to just walk around my neighborhood! I stopped along the way a few times to pet the dogs and chat with their owners. I sort of meditate while I walk, noticing how my feet touch the ground and my breathing. The air smelled fresh and thank goodness the humidity was low for a change. Hopefully tomorrow it will be another good weather day as I sort of plan to sunbathe ( yes I will wear sunscreen) and do laos in our pool. <BR> <BR> <em>67</em> <em>200</em> <em>331</em... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 22:04:30 EST Stress Things that caused stress for me today: <BR> <BR> 1) Meeting new people at our pool. <BR> 2) Having to hike to the bank/grocery store to put deposit money. <BR> 3) My Kindle Fire will not charge, I am concerned about where to get it fixed and the cost. <BR> 4) Just feeling overwhelmed with everything. <BR> <BR> Things that helped with de-stressing: <BR> <BR> 1) Taking my as needed anti-anxiety medication. <BR> 2) Praying. <BR> 3) Walking meditation, where I focus on my feet as I walk. <BR>... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 21:43:27 EST Tuesday I met with my VA Nurse today, all is swell! I hit our gym and had a great strength and cardio workout. I walked around my neighborhood. The weather here today was perfect. About 80 degrees, sunshine with passing clouds to keep comfy. The hardest part of the day was logging in my fitness for the day. I had to fight to log my minutes and activities. <BR> <BR> <BR> Take this <em>326</em> <em>387</em> !!! <BR> <BR> Have a great Hump Day!!! Tue, 15 Jul 2014 22:34:45 EST Monday As my update earlier said a wacky weather day here. I woke up to rain this morning. So I decided to clean my apartment in anticipation of my meeting with my VA Nurse tomorrow. Then there was sunshine, so I hoofed it over to Giant Eagle for 0% milk, tea and fresh produce. Coming home dark clouds were threatening to down pour. Luckily I made it home before the rain came. After a while the sun came out. I did get a lot accomplished today. It is good to have plans A, B and C especially with thi... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 22:14:37 EST Sunday If you do not want to read about the Pirates just skip this paragraph. Last night the Pirates were behind 6 -5 headed into the top half of the 8th inning. I decided I did not want to watch them loss another game, so I went in my computer room and sparked for 45 minutes. After Sparking I went and turned on my TV, to find out the game was tied 6 - 6 in extra innings in the bottom of the 10th. The Reds tried to score the winning run, but our rookie outfielder threw a rocket to home plate and th... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 20:01:02 EST Saturday A good friend was concerned that my leg movement was from RLS. Thursday night I took an extra pill of my antidepressant/sleep aid medication, which my Doctor allows me too. One side affect of this medication, for me, is sometimes having extra leg movement. Last night I took the usual amount and my legs did not bother me at all. I slept for 9 hours. So I was able to make up for the loss of sleep the previous night. <BR> <BR> When I woke this morning around 9 am I headed outside for my walk. ... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 22:24:55 EST Friday I went to bed last night at midnight. I drifted in and out of sleep due to restlessness in my legs. My legs just wanted to keep on moving. Around 4 am I gave up on sleeping. From 4 am until 8 am I played my video game. Then I took a shower to be ready for my Peer Support Counselor from the VA. He called a half hour before he came to make sure I was ready. After he called I went outside to wait and walked around my apartment complex. I noticed that when the sun hit my back, I felt as if my bac... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 22:44:54 EST Happy Birthday Mike, my nephew and Godson! Today is Mike's 25th birthday. Our Pirates gave him a present by winning 9 -1. Mike graduated from college two years ago with High Honors. His Major was in Secondary Education Social Studies and a Minor in Theater. A 30 page final paper was about how the Pirates influenced Pittsburgh's History. <BR> <BR> I had a great day. I went to our pool and enjoyed swimming laps and reading a book while working on my tan. After watching the Pirate's win, I was hungry for strawberries, so I walked to the... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 23:15:32 EST Thankful for wonderful Spark Friends Last night was a rough night for me. I was depressed, I think it was due to a poor telephone conversation with my Dear Aunt. Then it kept sliding from there, it just seemed everything kept going wrong and/or depressed me more. This is the dark side of being bi-polar. I am glad I kept sparking. Goodies, email and likes for activities came to me from spark friends. It is amazing how supportive Sparks is. I have found when you give some, you get so much more back. I guess the best part for me ... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 22:39:56 EST Tuesday <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Last night the Pirates were tied 0 - 0 with St. Louis going into the 9th inning. St. Louis won with with a 2 run home run blast. Tonight it was 4 - 4 going into the 9th. St. Louis struck lightening again with a home run. <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> My meeting with my nurse went well, she said that I am doing great. Also now my home is nice and clean! <BR> <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Tue, 8 Jul 2014 23:12:40 EST Monday I did not know yesterday the Pirates for the first time this year swept a series! Today while reading my newspaper I found out they did so against the Phillies, one of the games I enjoyed with my family on Saturday! Today was an active day for me, I walked. Then did three loads of laundry, one of which is still in the dryer. Also I cleaned up because tomorrow, Yvonne, my VA nurse visits my home. She helps me keep track of my meds. and appointments with the VA. I like her to see that my home i... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 22:10:50 EST Sunday I had a great night of sleep last night after the exciting day at the Pirate ball game with my family! I enjoyed a long, hard strength and cardio workout at our gym today! Looking forward to a healthy week coming up! Hope you all had a safe, fun Forth of July weekend celebration those who live in the USA! One note I was woken up to the sound of fire crackers this morning! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <em>100</em> <em>386</em> Sun, 6 Jul 2014 22:21:09 EST Fun in the Sun at the Pirate - Phillies baseball game with family! I had a great time with my sister, Joyce and nephew & Godson Mike at the Pirate - Phillies game here in Pittsburgh earlier today. The attendence was a sell-out crowd and with many Phillies fans. Sitting to my right in the stands was a Phillies family fans. The kids were fun, they were dancing in their seats for the songs that the Pirates play when certian batters on the Pirates came to the plate. It was great because they were baseball fans first, then Phillies fans, as the Mother said to me ... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 23:25:35 EST The 4t of July I will recall on of my favorite memories of the 4th of July. It is a bit fuzzy in my head since it was about 45 years ago. When I was young only my Mom's mother was my only living Grandparent. My Dad's Mom died when he was in his twenties before he met and married our Mom. His Dad and my Mom's Dad both died before I was born. My grandma Shultz (Elizabeth) and her sister my Great-Aunt Helen, my Mom, my Dad, my sister Joyce and my bother Tom spent the Holiday at our Communitty Park, Moon Park. ... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 23:16:36 EST July 3rd A tough day today! When I woke up my stomach hurt. For the next two hours every 15-20 minutes I was in the bathroom times! Well thank goodness that cleared up! I was able to get some walking in after that, great weather day here today! Next I was able to accomplished three needed loads of laundry, doing core exercises as the washer and dryer did their thing. <BR> <BR> I think whatever was wrong with my stomach has passed and plan to go swimming with friends tomorrow. Now I am listening to t... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 22:06:25 EST Hump day! A interesting day! I got up early enough that it was not too hot for my 2 hour walk. I took a shower, then did some house cleaning. Around 3pm I went to get my mail. Linda the mail women asked me to refill her water bottle, because her water was warm from the heat today. So I jammed as much ice into her bottle and filled it with water! I also received my check for July along with the check for my nephew's 25th Birthday Gift. I then walked to Giant Eagle because my bank is inside. It was just... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 22:13:07 EST