STEVEISAWESOME's SparkPeople Blog STEVEISAWESOME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community In a relationship - what Romance means to me. Part 7 <BR> Romance is different things to different people. I am a hopeless romantic. <BR> Partnership - This is about doing and lots of it. What you to for each other the little things add up. I believe romance in partnering or marriage is doing things (big or small) for each other ..permanently courting each other. <BR> Married - A smile, a touch, a kiss, a hug, a rub, studying what gives pleasure. Courting. I love her. <BR> Separated - Romance fails and you begin to look back at where you... Tue, 29 Sep 2009 13:54:31 EST In a relationship - what Honesty means to me. <BR> Part 6 <BR> Honesty is almost synonyms with respect. The cornerstone of communication. <BR> Partnership - You aren't always honest with yourself but your working on it. You say what you think you have to say and tell white lies (there is no such thing). You think there are things you could learn to live with about each other without discussing simply because "its the right thing to do" <BR> Married - The center point of communication to speak without being judged to be able to speak you... Thu, 24 Sep 2009 15:00:04 EST In a relationship - what Finances means to me. Part 5 <BR> <BR> Partnership - My money and your money ...I will court you and I love to buy you things as I can afford them. <BR> Married - Our money but we both have things we want and buy sometimes for both of us and sometimes for each other but large decisions we make together. We still have our own allowances <BR> Separated - My money and her money. Currently my ex-wife is living off of me like a leach and everything she seems to take she does so "for the sake of the children" even thou... Tue, 15 Sep 2009 11:15:49 EST In a relationship - what Support means to me. Part 4 <BR> <BR> Partnership - You tolerate and make suggestions to the other trying to be helpful and understanding. <BR> Married - You bounce ideas off one another and when one is weak the other becomes stronger. A bridge connects two sides with support. Together you uplift and support one another. Both support the family as a single unit. <BR> Separated - Your support comes from friends and family. Financially you begin to rely on yourself. <BR> Divorced - Support comes from your friends... Tue, 8 Sep 2009 14:22:42 EST In a relationship - what Loyalty means to me. Part 3 <BR> Loyalty means faithfulness, devotion, dependent. and honest in a one to one relationship. <BR> Partnership - To yourself, its a defensive position to remain loyal to yourself, your friends and your new romance. You dont want to change anything but its just like the little secret whispers of a new relationship ...they are creating a new boundary of loyalty. <BR> Married - dedication to one other in such a way that no one even old ex's have doubts about who you are with and who you ... Mon, 7 Sep 2009 19:54:30 EST In a relationship - what Caring means to me. Part 2 <BR> Partnership - You care about appearances, you care what other people thing, you go out of your way to show how much you care. Maybe you do little things but you have plans to do big things for each other. You could equate caring with selfless acts at this stage. <BR> Married - caring at this stage is more like routine - you do things for each other - you listen constantly and take mental notes. The song by janet jackson "what have you done for me lately?" (well it was 1986 so keep... Sun, 6 Sep 2009 09:43:34 EST In a relationship - what LOVE means to me. Part 1 <BR> Partnership - very physically into each other, constant need for doing for each other, cannot talk to each other enough, every moment is better spent together than apart <BR> Married - peace and happiness, sharing, being emotionally invested into each other, you can actually be married and not in love or fall out of love while being married, couples stay together for various reasons. I love being in love while married ....I never want to it to be about the love of things (about h... Sat, 5 Sep 2009 10:54:00 EST Recipe for a relationship did I leave out anything? The differences between being in a partnership, being married, and being separated and being divorced what would that list look like: <BR> Love <BR> Caring <BR> Loyalty <BR> Support <BR> Finances <BR> Honesty <BR> Romance <BR> Responsibility <BR> Control <BR> Unconditional <BR> Enjoyable <BR> Hard <BR> Passionate <BR> Complimentary <BR> If you start striking stuff off this list ...well you can see what will happen. Over the next 14 days I will write about each one and what I think. Its cathar... Fri, 4 Sep 2009 11:55:40 EST Stolen but worth sharing: Those of You Born 1930 - 1979 TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED THE <BR> <BR> 1930's, 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's!! <BR> <BR> First, we survived being born to mothers Who smoked and/or drank while they were Pregnant. <BR> <BR> They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, <BR> Tuna from a can and didn't get tested for diabetes. <BR> <BR> Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-base paints. <BR> <BR> We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, Locks on doo... Wed, 2 Sep 2009 10:41:28 EST Running with BEP One of the things I enjoy running with is BEP I have had their music on my nano for a while now. This kinda made me giggle though: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I know its repetitive but for running and thinking about other things I love listening to them :) <BR> <BR> Mon, 31 Aug 2009 15:21:55 EST Stolen but I wanted to share: 45 Life one Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio <BR> <BR> "To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written." <BR> <BR> My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more: <BR> <BR> 1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. <BR> <BR> 2. When in doubt, just take the next small step. <BR> <BR> 3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. <BR> <BR> 4. Your job wo... Sat, 29 Aug 2009 18:40:44 EST Hi! My name is Badsector and I am a romantic. Ok understand this ...I am a romantic. I love women. I am now in the best relationship I have ever been in and here is why: <BR> communicates with me! <BR> she listens to me <BR> believes in me <BR> she has the same interest as me <BR> I have never really had this close a connection with anyone. I read this article and I felt I needed to share it with my sparkfriends your partners and if you don't have one ...know deep down there is someone out there for you and I hope this helps ... Wed, 26 Aug 2009 09:12:00 EST Why do I look for signs in everything :( <img src=""> <BR> And a painting by a shiba lover: <BR> <img src=""> Sat, 22 Aug 2009 20:16:04 EST Ok after yesterdays creepiness I must share this: <img src=""> <BR> It makes me giggle. <BR> <BR> Ok I am a dork so shoot me. <BR> <BR><BR>tumblr_kojs29L9OU1qzd1jno1_r2_1280.jpg<BR>?AWSAccessKeyId=0RYTHV9YYQ4W5Q3HQMG2&E<BR>xpires=1250955895&Signature=Yne%2FFWbR<BR>3sqE0clnsLdD7I7IQJk%3D Fri, 21 Aug 2009 11:43:12 EST Whose problem is it? The old me just didn't care about ...well pretty much anything. I had a wife and a job and a few friends. After some hard work I had 2 boys, a wife, a job and a few good friends. I did not care about things or feelings or really anyone else. When people told me things or started telling me stories i would zone out completely and being that I didn't care ...I forgot about what they were talking about almost as quickly as they told me. It wasn't forgetfulness it was carelessness and thoughtles... Tue, 18 Aug 2009 08:59:18 EST Chalean Extreme and my method I am learning all the moves ...alot of times she says things like she thinks I know what she means ...I have a hard time mimic-ing some of the moves in a mirror like fashion ...but I am trying. I am going to continue to do them ...I am sore and sweaty and exhausted but I dont want to look like this any more. Mon, 17 Aug 2009 20:56:38 EST Privacy and Damage Control Long post sorry! <BR> I changed my sparkpage to private that means if you are reading this you are a friend and I trust you. Because of the nature of what I do at work I am inherently untrusting. I don't believe or trust people mostly and if I do extend trust all it takes is pretty much one betrayal and we are done. That was the old version of myself ...this version of myself forgives memory is so bad nowadays I tend to forget faster than I forgive. My boys have also taught me forgivene... Sun, 16 Aug 2009 12:44:01 EST Tired tonight I had a long day ...i mean for a tuesday. My oldest son lost a tooth today ...his first and for me its a big deal ...another first I will have missed since the divorce ....he is so excited but me missing that is sad. Not like oh I wish I could be there with her sad but I wish he had lost it with me kind of sad. He was more upset that he lost so much blood and told my s2bx that he wanted his blood in his body. lol Tue, 11 Aug 2009 23:39:19 EST Why Exercise Won't Make You Thin By John Cloud oooh look i plagiarized :O just like in high school <BR> <BR> "Whether because exercise makes us hungry or because we want to reward ourselves, many people eat more — and eat more junk food, like doughnuts — after going to the gym. <BR> _______________________________________ <BR> As I write this, tomorrow is Tuesday, which is a cardio day. I'll spend five minutes warming up on the VersaClimber, a towering machine that requires you to move your arms and legs simultaneously. Then I'll do 30 m... Mon, 10 Aug 2009 20:15:20 EST The Complex Human Heart <img src=""> <BR> Do you know or remember what it feels like to be "in love". Have you studied your own heart? Do you know what your heart desires? <BR> I do. <BR> I have. <BR> I do now. Sat, 8 Aug 2009 12:26:46 EST Summoner Geeks If you have ever played DnD or a MMO you will probably "get" the jokes of this video. This is my favorite online video showing how geeky I am. /LOL all you want but I bet I can make your computer do what I want it to :P Thu, 6 Aug 2009 21:21:20 EST Last song in my run The last song in my run is unbelievably prophetic. <BR> Its from Black Eye Peas cd its Intro (The Energy Never Dies/Boom Boom Pow. <BR> So more then likely you have heard BBP but not the intro <BR> <BR> <BR> Welcome. <BR> Welcome to The END. <BR> Do not panic. <BR> There is nothing to fear. <BR> Everything around you is changed. <BR> Nothing stays the same. <BR> This version of myself is not permanent. <BR> Tomorrow I will give you The Energy Never Dies. <BR> Energy can not be destroyed or ... Wed, 5 Aug 2009 10:49:54 EST Going for a jog <img src=""> <BR> I don't really have alot to write about today. I am still looking over my options for working out ...I don't know why but today I feel heavy ...sluggish even. So I am going to run it out of me. I am determined to make a difference in my life and those around me. I weighted this weekend and this morning against my own advice to ignore the scale. <BR> I now weight more than when I started SP wtf. <BR> So ladies and the ... Mon, 3 Aug 2009 20:34:25 EST Plan for August = PAIN <img src=""> <BR> I am in process of sifting through 3 or 4 programs to start. I haven't decided yet but I know I will be starting this week. I plan on 3 days cardio and 3 days strength ...its alot considering I just started this running thing about 3 months ago but I have to do something. I am getting no where with weight loss but I feel better and I actually enjoy (OMG) the time I have to exercise. I am not worrying about anything while I ... Sun, 2 Aug 2009 18:22:48 EST Does that make me crazy? Crazy-Gnarls Barkley Sat, 1 Aug 2009 17:50:41 EST Grey's Anatomy <img src=""> <BR> Ok I started watching Grey's Anatomy season one. I know I know I am like 6 years behind everyone else. <BR> I am enjoying it I remember when er came out I watched it ...even when George Clooney left ...and when Anthony Greene got beat up ...but the last straw is how then they never explained him getting pummeled ruined the show for me. I quit watching it cold turkey. <BR> Now I work at a hospital and honestly everythi... Sat, 1 Aug 2009 11:56:14 EST Have you heard? I thought everyone had heard Thu, 30 Jul 2009 14:45:00 EST i swallowed it I was on a run this evening it was hot but I wanted to get the run in. <BR> 30 minutes in and I was still feeling pretty good. Until a bug went in my open mouth /sigh water and I wanted to puke. Seriously? Does this ever happen to anyone except me? GAG! <BR> I finished my run shortly afterward ...stupid lights attracting too many bugs. <BR> UGGH! Mon, 27 Jul 2009 23:32:46 EST My first 5k today I was slow ...slower than 3littlebirds. I finished though and for someone would said they would never run even from a bear or a fire. I did complete with a 44 minute run time. I am very happy with myself. I will now not be nearly as worried on the next one. I will say this ...I will never ever ever run another race without music ...I thought earphones werent allowed and I see they are not will never happen again. <BR> Woohoo yay me! Sat, 25 Jul 2009 19:08:46 EST Ok I have to share this Yesterday in starbucks I am hanging out with friends and this song comes on i know I have seen a commercial with this song and its one of those ...ok this is going to drive me crazy until I figure it out kind of things. <BR> So I go back to my desk I can remember some of the words from the last time I saw the commercial ...something something something give and take <BR> And that is exactly what I type in google. Here was the first result ...and it was the exact song I was looking for... Fri, 24 Jul 2009 15:43:52 EST Dragon: the Bruce Lee Story One of my favorite movies. Movie trailer Tue, 21 Jul 2009 22:51:06 EST Cold Souls I am interested in seeing this movie ...are trailers allowed to be uploaded? Thu, 16 Jul 2009 23:24:38 EST Stupid food ...I hate you <BR> <BR> I love eating ...socially, going out, take out, stopping at a drive thru on the way home, getting ice cream ...before I was married I was working but I never spent money of food. Once I was married I relaxed and let myself go ...i got tired of trying to be in shape ...trying to look good and just wanted to feel good. I ate whenever and whatever I wanted. I am a picky eater ..I hate vegetables - I mean I eat corn, potatoes, green beans - occasionally a salad but its mostly lettuce ... Thu, 16 Jul 2009 22:51:41 EST Going Home Today I leave to go home from my trip to visit my girlfriend and her family. I am sad but I am trying to be positive ....I am trying to look at it as from now on everyday I get apart from her is another day closer to being with her forever. Saying goodbye is never easy ever. Especially when I know we will talk again tonight before I go to sleep. I have never been a phone user ...I am of the opinion if I have something to say I can say it better in person. Its just she is so far away talking o... Tue, 14 Jul 2009 14:32:22 EST 1 2 3 Boom goes the dynamite I don't know where my boys got this saying but tonight they said it over and over every time some fireworks went off. They are wiped out but I had an awesome day. <BR> Sun, 5 Jul 2009 00:03:41 EST Can't - my most hated word and BBQ Sauce :) I detest the word "can't". I mean I know the word has its place like I "can't" wait for the weekend ----but you will unless you ignore all responsibilities and start your weekend early. <BR> I can accept try even if yoda does not. ("Do or do not there is no try") <BR> Can't is a defeatist word, negative, to me it means you will give up without even trying. <BR> I tell my boys when they say they can't do something I say try show me you "can't" and they usually can. I lol. <BR> and now ...... <... Thu, 2 Jul 2009 11:06:47 EST Divorced Dad part 1 "Being a divorced dad means your are not Mr Mom it means you are Dad." <BR> I believe I felt I was a bad father. The routine of me coming home everyday after work with no real down time and seeing the boys hurt my relationship with them. I considered it job part 2. I even said many times how I felt like I was a bad father. I was very short with them and I have alot of patience. Looking back I feel like I was trying to control them the way I was controlled. I tried to be a surrogate mom and no... Wed, 1 Jul 2009 12:34:43 EST Learning to let go. <img src=""> <BR> My s2bx and I have been saying since this division between us came around that we are trying not to fight. She had a huge range of control over me. Its hard to explain and I let it happen. My dad said something to the effect of "Son, you are letting her control the situation you need to think before you respond to her. You responded like she still has control." <BR> I have spend almost 16 years letting her run everything (f... Tue, 30 Jun 2009 15:53:54 EST Ready for monday? <img src=""> <BR> I did come home and run tonight but my day today was insanely busy. My S2BX made my day kinda rough but I am letting it go. I am ready for monday ..and I am never ready for monday's! Sun, 28 Jun 2009 23:28:26 EST Got my boys for the weekend <BR> They wear me out and I am thrilled to have them. I dont have anything really big planned to do just spend time with them. Planning on getting in some game time and enjoying my family. <BR> I am slacking on c25k ...its not intentional its just timing. Next week I'm back on. <BR> Its all running with no pauses right now so its easy to figure. <BR> I am smiling. Thu, 25 Jun 2009 21:17:24 EST My fathers day <BR> Well the s2bx had her father, her step dad, and her mom's birthday to take the boys. it is her weekend with them so I had to drive over and pick them up at 11am then have them back by 2:30 or I would have to wait to bring them back at 6pm or even later. Bowling I thought would have taken too long ...the movies started in 5 minutes and I hadnt even paid for lunch. i had planned on taking them to a park and they were really excited to go out and play but when we went by the park and it w... Sun, 21 Jun 2009 17:30:41 EST Work Work Work I am oncall this week thats never a big deal EXECPT when I have to work on one of my days off. Today infact, We had an 8 hour down scheduled to move a rack of servers. Easy enough we finished our part in short order ...then the problems began. <BR> 12 hours later -and its still not working 100%. <BR> Monday will be overly hectic ....and tomorrow well its my day with the boys ...screw work. Sat, 20 Jun 2009 22:58:12 EST Good day, rough evening, good night <BR> I had a good day! I missed my friends who I could NOT get a hold of but I knew they were in good hands and I was smiling. <BR> I left work a little early to go eat dinner with my grandparents ...i arrived had a awesome meal and left. I had a flat on the way home ...I made it to a gas station filled up and it was flat before icould check to see if I had enough quarters if it needed a little more. <BR> I didnt have enough quarters and the atm inside was busted ..I bought fix-aflat and tir... Thu, 18 Jun 2009 23:22:14 EST "A master is out" - a web translation of confusion <img src=""> <BR> <BR> A master is out is an interesting meme which is actually two different memes depending on what side of the Pacific you're on. <BR> <BR> The American "master is out" <BR> A Japanese user on a web forum tried to introduce the immensely funny "a master is out" meme to the new forum's fledgling userbase. Unfortunately, he had no knowledge of English, and only a machine translator to attempt to get the message across. So... Wed, 17 Jun 2009 14:16:31 EST Sunday doesnt have enough hours in it I tried hard to get things done today ...and while I accomplished somethings - I have run out of time and energy to do anymore for today. My friend completed his first 5k 122 out of 220(something?) ...I am proud of him and proud of his extraordinary wife (for tolerating his shenanigans) . <BR> I have some uphill issues of my own but I am working on them. I am smiling today so thats a good thing. Sun, 14 Jun 2009 23:33:20 EST Dropped the kids off at the pool ...literally I went to the private pool where my brother lives today. I let the boys swim and jump in for about an hour and a 1/2. We went back had pizza and the kids played while my brother and I watched UFC99 (99 I remember when it use to be one UFC a year) and then we played some xbox360 and the boys were asleep in the car before I got them home. I had to carry them in ...all in all a great day. Sat, 13 Jun 2009 23:09:32 EST D's Birthday Oddly enough I get both of my boys on their birthday this year. Because its summer time for both of them and most friends are relatives ... the S2BX and I agreed to do what we have always done which is a birthday party for both of them between their birthdays. It has always worked out int he past the biggest difference being now we are not together. <BR> Its kind of awkward but the S2BX picked the location (a gym called romp and roll) and has planned everything and sent out invitations and wh... Fri, 12 Jun 2009 20:48:50 EST Day in the life Today I was worrying alot ...dont get me wrong it was a good day and honestly I am not that much of a worrier but I was concerned for a friend. I was worried my boys were going to be out of control. I was worried that my night was not long enough to get done everything. <BR> Tonight ,,,everything turned out great no need for all the worry /sigh <BR> I can sleep with a smile ...tomorrow is D's birthday. <BR> woohoo! Thu, 11 Jun 2009 23:25:09 EST Tomorrow is going to be a good day. For one thing its PCD (Pork Chop Day) for those of you in Richmond or passing through and get the chance if its a thursday let me know I will get you hooked up ...I live for PCD as does about 5 of my friends ..we love it. <BR> I also get my boys and since its summer I am taking them on weeks that are my friday off ...which makes this PCD my "friday" and I am looking forward to spending time with them. Its going to be fun. I love just watching them play. Wed, 10 Jun 2009 23:23:10 EST Bubbles for the weekend My oldest turns 6 this weekend. "We" (the s2bx and I) are cooperating on the combined birthday parties of the oldest and the youngest since they are about a month apart. So while we were at the pirate festival this weekend we stopped in target on way home and D commented on the bubbles this weekend I have bought 2 bubble guns a huge bubble wand and a gallon of bubble juice. <BR> Gonna be a fun weekend! Mon, 8 Jun 2009 23:49:09 EST