STEPHENTDAILEY's SparkPeople Blog STEPHENTDAILEY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Forgive me for I slipped. Today I was kind of upset with myself because for the two days prior to today (Saturday and Sunday), I had let myself completely go. Yesterday I must have eaten three bar-b-que sandwiches and two or three peanut butter and jelley sandwiches as well as eating some bar-b-que from the pot. I just got a feeling of I DON'T CARE ANYMORE for some reason. I also had a LARGE mixed drink of Bacardi Rum and Vanilla Coke yesterday (but I did share it with Lacie and David) (It has been soooo long). I thin... Mon, 6 Sep 2010 23:31:06 EST Just an observation. It is easier to be gung-ho when you first begin a great trip. The motivation alone will take you a long way. You become excited at the thought of a "new you" and your blood gets pumping and your mind, body and spirit are all in agreement! "I'm gonna do it this time!" But it gets a little harder later down the road, when the idea is not so new anymore and your body doesn't want to keep playing this stupid game that you have been making it play. <BR> <BR> It tells you, "Man, you don't have a... Tue, 17 Aug 2010 12:14:21 EST Yesterday my little girl came home. Yesterday my little girl came home. You see we went to Cherokee, N.C. last weekend to act as volunteers for the Ninth Annual Talking Trees Trout Derby for Kids" on the Cherokee Indian Reservation. Well, my mother's side of our family lives there in the mountains and my sister asked could she keep my daughter for a week and she would bring her back home this weekend. <BR> <BR> To make a long story short, I allowed her to stay and me and my son headed back to South Carolina without her. He, b... Sun, 15 Aug 2010 12:09:43 EST Answer to a poster's question about lack of enthusiam. How beautiful. And thank you for sharing those feelings so openly. The world needs more heartfelt people like you. I too have those feelings sometimes and I have been up and down so many times that I just don't even remember them all anymore....Unless I look at the pictures. <BR> Of course everything in my life has pretty much always been like that, as far as I can remember. I came from a broken, dysfunctional family and a childhood of foster homes and abusive parents. As far as I can rememb... Tue, 10 Aug 2010 20:11:04 EST I read a mother's blog today........ I read a mother's blog today...Today I read (and commented on) a blog post by a person (female) whom spoke of how hard it is for a "single woman" to raise a child, go to work, take care of problems at home and take care of herself all at the same time. In this blog she reitterated what it is like to juggle the things that life hurls at you many times and how women should be proud. I find it interesting because we constantly hear how hard it is to find a "Good Man". I happen to be a single man... Wed, 28 Jul 2010 17:24:31 EST How do you add up a day like today? We haven't walked in three days (the kids and me) because the weather has been to hot. We are under a heat advisory right now and everyone has been asked to remain indoors under air conditioning and check on their neighbors, so we did and then we played some games!.....And laughed our behinds off! I found out that my son has a play button and when you push it he giggles! We also played music together, son on guitar, me on harmonica and daughter on clarinet. We are practicing Silent Night for ... Sat, 24 Jul 2010 22:37:59 EST Today my children joined me for my (mostly) daily, two mile walk. Today my children joined me for my (mostly) daily, two mile walk. Sometimes I get a little discouraged when they don't join me out of consideration and love, but I am truly realizing now that this is my weight problem and not theirs. Although they have somewhat of an issue to deal with of their own, I put myself where I am and I am the adult. I try now to encourage them to better themselves more than to try and force them because I want them to exercise because it is the right/good/fun thing ... Thu, 15 Jul 2010 23:02:52 EST Another day down Walked this morning with my daughter (two miles) and we got to talk for a while. She will be thirteen in a few months and it dawned on me that I will never be able to love on her at twelve again, or eleven or ten........She has grown so much in the last eight years since her mother (I use the term loosely) left us. She reminded me today that I wanted two boys and how she was with me today and her older brother wasn't (she is quick to point those things out). I assured her that God must have k... Wed, 14 Jul 2010 21:17:20 EST I used to love to run. I was a track runner in highschool (distance). I tell my children sometimes about the "HIGH" that I would get when I was so sore I couldn't feel my legs anymore. It was like I was taking great strides in slow motion. I could feel and hear myself breathing and I would dare anything to catch me (LOL). I can remember it in my mind like it was last night. It's a feeling that you truly can't explain, you have to love it enough to reach that point. Well, I started here at SP two weeks ago weighing ... Tue, 13 Jul 2010 23:13:25 EST That's my girl. Today has turned out wonderful! <BR> Last night (before bed), I told my children that I was going for a walk this morning and they were welcome to come if they wished. I say this constantly because they have small weight issues also and I love there company also. When we are together things become somewhat competitive and it makes most of our excursions more fun. Well since I am a self employed contractor, I have to get up early to drive to whatever job I am working on at the time and the ki... Mon, 12 Jul 2010 10:52:33 EST WHEW!............. LOL....HAHAHAHA....LMAO! I would have binged today had there been anything bad here to binge on! Thank the Lord I have pretty much emptied our house of the "BAD STUFF", outside of drinking strait syrup or eating jelly out of the jar and that is just plain sick..........or is it?..........Just kidding, how would I explain to the kids what happened to the syrup? Still hanging in there. Sun, 11 Jul 2010 22:57:16 EST It has been almost a week now. It has been almost a week now and I find myself walking alone. The children started with me (my son 16 and daughter 12) a few days ago with the same zeel as myself, but they are starting to die off now. I know that I cannot quit, no matter what because I have set a goal for myself and I am trying to get some of my neighbors to start but alas, they are just not ready. I quit smoking on January 1st of this year after smoking for thirty years and I will make it to my goal! Pray for us. Fri, 9 Jul 2010 22:27:35 EST Today is the first day........ I actually started my Sparkpeople program today. It has taken me a few days to figure out this site but now that I think that I am getting the hang of it, I intend to use it, as well as any tool layed at my disposal, to change the yo-yo weight thing that has plagued my life and most of the people on my mother's side of the family ever since I can remember. I have two children whom look to me as their example and I have done well with guiding them in their education, morals, manners and charac... Tue, 6 Jul 2010 23:30:56 EST