STEPH-KNEE's SparkPeople Blog STEPH-KNEE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Working On Day 5! Day 5 is in progress! Basically my goals are to have everything I eat be 100% Vegan, and 90% of what I eat to be whole foods. I think by putting the pressure on me to have 100% of my food be unprocessed was setting me up for a binge. I really struggle with that all or nothing attitude and if I feel like I've "messed up" even just a little, it will lead to be just throwing in the towel for a day or even a week. The best part is, the book that I am following she even says that if you are eating... Sun, 4 Dec 2016 20:53:07 EST Because Starting on the 1st is So Cliche.... I am back from vacation and we will just say I ate my way through Vegas & vacation. I didn't even pretend to try to eat well and I'm mostly okay with it because hey, what's done is done right? LOL. <BR> <BR> The good news is I bought this ebook before I went on vacation... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Basically, High Carb Hannah is my favorite youtuber who also happens to be Vegan. She has lost 70 pounds followin... Wed, 30 Nov 2016 09:08:11 EST Today's The Day, Dang It! I have been off track for sooooooooooooooooo long. I could get you actual numbers, but the length of time doesn't matter, well over a year that is for sure. I have had little chunks of time of being on track but nothing long term. My highest weight for this regain was 237 and I got down as low as 222. The last 2 1/2 weeks I have been eating the world. Each day I would wake up and say today's the day, but low and behold those days weren't the day. I wanted them to be the day, I wanted to do be... Sat, 5 Nov 2016 20:58:58 EST Throwback Thursday Halloween Edition <img src=""> <BR> This again is just my instagram post, not a proper blog.... and here are the photos separated so that they are larger. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Thu, 20 Oct 2016 05:26:48 EST Journey To The Jeans <img src=""> <BR> This is just my Instagram post... <BR> <BR> So let me tell you a sad story about this girl... She used to weigh 272 pounds and wear a size 24 jeans. In 2012 she finally got serious about weight loss and lost 90 pounds weighing in at 181. Just through calorie counting and walking she was able to lose this weight. She felt so much better she was wearing a size 16 and a stretchy size 14 and she felt... Mon, 17 Oct 2016 21:01:40 EST BLC 32 Challenge Blog & Daughtry For this weeks Weekend Challenge, to get some Bingo points I need to blog about what I've done right so far this BLC. We are in our 5th week and I haven't given up. I have participated in the Weekend Challenges and I have been as active as possible in posting in the Chat Thread. I will say things I could improve on is make a little more time for chatting, and getting in more exercise! It is a 15 week challenge so we are just 1/3 way through so there is still plenty of time to lose some weight... Fri, 7 Oct 2016 23:22:40 EST Life + Weigh In I haven't blogged since last month... that is so not like me yet I don't really have much to share. My life has been more fun stuff than weight loss. For those only here for the weight loss, two weeks ago I was down to 222 and over the last two weeks I've rebounded up to 226. I have been more focused on fun and food than I was on weight loss and it shows on the scale. I am working to turn it around and am back to tracking all my calories, so hopefully next week will show that on the scale. <B... Wed, 5 Oct 2016 21:15:15 EST Weigh In & Road Trip! Overall I was happy with my weigh in. I mentioned before I need to stop the daily weighing, which is true, I still do. But more days than not I would weigh in... what frustrated me was seeing smaller numbers until weigh in day, then the day that I actually track and count it would go up a little. Talk about frustrating. So I'm gonna try to cut it down to 2-3 times a week, the goal is going to be 2 times a week. That will give me enough information but it will also prevent the full blown obses... Wed, 14 Sep 2016 04:23:10 EST #Throwback Thursday I saw these pictures of myself from May 15, 2015... and I couldn't help but notice how much slimmer, healthier and just all around BETTER I looked. I thought surely I must have been in the 180's to look so awesome. The lowest I ever saw on the scale was 181... well I love Spark because I can easily go back and check my weight... I was shocked to see 199! 30 pounds from where I am now, and what a world of difference! It has me that much more motivated to get back to 199 (and beyond)! I really ... Thu, 8 Sep 2016 05:18:46 EST Blogging, Pot Luck & Weigh In So I have to say my blogging has completely changed over the course of 2016. I really do miss the days of trying to write REAL stuff, that other people could relate to, and things that I was learning about myself and my journey. When I started in 2012 I learned so much over the first couple years about the physical and emotional aspects of weight loss. By sharing it helped me to learn that I wasn't alone in a lot of those feelings and that helped me even more. <BR> <BR> Then as I was regaini... Tue, 30 Aug 2016 20:45:06 EST Relieved! I know a lot of people were reading my status update and feeling bad for me. It doesn't sound good, but I am actually ecstatic. The bridesmaid dress was always too tight around my rolls... the problem is I have no boobs. If I would have went up a size for my rolls I would have had to pay more money to take in the bust. Truth be told I am not a fan of the dress, I will never wear it again and I have to wear a camo sash around my waist... I'll pause while that sinks into your brain. LOL! So I r... Sat, 27 Aug 2016 20:37:54 EST Vacay Over + Long Term Goals I am going to try to make this short and sweet (which never happens LOL)! I had a blast in Minnesota. My two Spark BFF's are the best! The thing that I hate is because my schedule at home is working 5pm to 5am with sleeping from 6am to like 2-3 in the afternoon I am kind of a walking zombie. They were so sweet and understanding when I needed to sleep and didn't give me grief about it. But I tried to get up so that I could actually visit with them.... which was the whole point of the visit! Th... Wed, 24 Aug 2016 06:56:24 EST Ready 4 Minnesota & Luke! + Mini Goal It is almost time! Wednesday morning I leave to see my two MInnesota BFF's and on Friday we go see my love Luke Bryan at the brand new US Bank Stadium! I have been to 4 Luke concerts, but never one at a stadium and never one with such awesome ladies so this is going to be a blast! <BR> <BR> I will not even lie when I say my mind and my eating are already in vacation mode. I am ready to go and I am not paying attention to the little things. <BR> <BR> I had a busy weekend, a lot of time spent... Tue, 16 Aug 2016 04:17:21 EST That Awkward Moment... That awkward moment when you feel like you SHOULD update but you don't want to relive the horror that has been your life the last few days! <BR> <BR> I sure don't want to go through it all again, because it makes my blood pressure rise, and I am finally now just getting over things. <BR> <BR> I will give you the biggest annoyance and the short version of that one detail of my madness... <BR> <BR> Some buttheads decided to hack our cell phone account, upgrade our phones to iphones, which me... Sun, 7 Aug 2016 20:44:44 EST Fed Up VS. Ready This concept didn't come from me, but boy has it really hit home! I learn so much from my friend Lynn, and sometimes she even shares what other friends have shared with her. This concept came from her friend which she shared with me, and I couldn't be happier that she did! <BR> <BR> How many times have you thought to yourself "I'm fed up with my weight, now is time to do something about it?" Fed up is great in theory... fed up means we are done with this nonsense and we WANT to do something ... Fri, 29 Jul 2016 03:36:59 EST The Results Are In.... For those not in the know, during this round of Biggest Loser, I had an idea for a side bet between my two Minnesota BFF's and I. The two losers would have to buy the winner a Luke Bryan Shirt at the concert in August. Michelle who doesn't really care for Luke could opt out for the big cash pay out of 30 bucks. Well 8 weeks have come and gone and the results are finally in. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> It has been a long... Wed, 27 Jul 2016 21:40:27 EST It's Never Too Late To Recreate! <em>230</em> Disclaimer: If you are one of those people who tells me not to look at the past and just look forward, click the X now. I don't think you will fully understand what I am saying or where I'm coming from, so it's better if you just leave now. <em>253</em> <BR> <BR> <em>524</em> Okay good, now that it's just US, I can proceed. <em>211</em> Some of the best things that come up happen when I'm chatting with Lynn. We have both decided to look at what is going on NOW, and no... Sun, 17 Jul 2016 03:03:08 EST Bridesmaids Dresses & Fun With Spark Friends... Let's start with the fun one and then we can end with the not so fun. So the fun, I love watching Dawn's (DAWNSUCCESS) vlogs. I used to tease her that if she made a 20 minute vlog I could easily watch it, and I have. She is just so up beat and I love the way she just chats with all of us. It is always a treat when I see there is a new video to watch. I took note of the length, 21 minutes. I knew without a doubt in my mind, I would be watching this video. Normally I'm just watching and enjoyin... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 04:05:56 EST FINALLY, THAT IS WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT! Not that long ago I said I was bothered by some of the very fun but pointless blogs Spark chooses to feature in the Spark Mail. I think I was partially misunderstood, but the incessant morning cups of solitude, the dogs ;) (seriously, winky face in the title!) in the Spark Mail really upset me. It wasn't that these blogs weren't fun and bringing smiles to people's faces, but I felt it was Spark's way of saying NO ONE in the entire Spark-Verse had written anything worth sharing. That is why I ... Thu, 14 Jul 2016 21:29:15 EST Empty Promises & Ramblings It's funny how such a tiny, sweet, perfectly timed comment can make your day. Today I had not one, but two very sweet comments from two of my favorite Sparkers! (Deb & Bess I'm talking about you!) I was going to write them back, but then I thought why not update in a blog? It's funny though because I feel like there is nothing going on... but i do realize that people start to wonder what is going on when you are quiet. (Deb & Bess, not talking about you in that instance, you ladies always che... Wed, 13 Jul 2016 00:38:25 EST STEPH-KNEE UNCENSORED: VOL 6 - It Just Got Real <img src=""> <BR> I have done a few of these in the past, hence volume 6! These blogs are a little different because they usually stem from some journaling that is meant just for myself and my eyes. <em>246</em> But this one actually came from me responding to my good friend Lynn. She not only listens to me, gives me advice, but she shares so much of herself with me that it really makes me think! <BR> <BR> So I... Wed, 6 Jul 2016 06:37:59 EST Doctors & Haircuts & Weight Gain (Oh My) Yes, I totally sang the title in my head like Lions and Tigers and Bears, OH MY! <BR> <BR> So let's see, I changed doctors, I did not at all care for the first 2 (long stories) and thought maybe 3rd times a charm. My biggest pet peeve is when I go in for my annual physical I want all my blood work tested. Is that such a crime?! Apparently it is. I tell them ESPECIALLY my A1C as my dad, uncle on dad's side, grandma on mom's side, uncle on mom's side are all diabetic. Not to mention I am obese... Tue, 28 Jun 2016 20:54:59 EST Weigh In Woes I was going to write a blog about this, but instead I am just going to let my quickie Facebook/Instagram post speak for itself. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This weeks weigh in was not the best, but I am counting it as a win all thing considered. The challenge I'm in started on June 1st, I weighed in at 236.6, I amazed even myself losing a bunch of water weight and bloat and losing 11 pounds ... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 03:23:37 EST Quick boring Vegas update <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is a quick iPod update from Vegas. I will be heading home tonight (Thursday). I've had a great visit but I'm always happy to get home to my own bed. <BR> <BR> I am glad it did not break 100 degrees but it was still hot. It will be heating up to 108 again so I'm glad to be heading home. <BR> <BR> I had a great time at Gammie's! We played cards, we watched London Has Fallen, we gambled ... Thu, 16 Jun 2016 04:31:43 EST Greatest Weigh In Of ALL TIME! Okay, so not really of ALL TIME, but MY greatest weigh in of ALL TIME! <em>246</em> All I can think about is wanting to make a speech, like the guy from the movie Clueless when he has the most tardy's in the entire class! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Without further ado, here is my week 1 weigh in for BLC! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR>... Wed, 8 Jun 2016 03:53:40 EST That Girl IS Still There! This is an excerpt from my blog on May 20th: <BR> <BR> If you are rolling your eyes going how many more things is she going to swear she's going to do and not do it, I am not even mad at you! In fact I am right there with you, rolling my eyes at myself! I just can't figure it out guys. I'm not going to lie to you all, I am annoyed with myself, I am confused as to why I can't find my groove again, but most importantly I am scared. I am scared that I am going to continue to gain weight until I... Mon, 6 Jun 2016 05:40:39 EST It's Nice To Have Support! (Mini Video) <link> </link> <BR> ^We have 4 cats at work. I work in an area that has a feral cat problem... About 2 years ago my mom and I came to work on my days off and we caught the cats, one at a time, got them fixed and got them their shots and had their ears tipped. So at least we don't have more kittens (the visiting cats haven't had any babies, ours of course are fixed)! We feed them and give them water (a few of us), and one of my kitty friends really enjoys walking laps wi... Fri, 3 Jun 2016 05:21:55 EST New Beginnings & A Friendly Wager! BLC starts on June 1st and I couldn't be more ready. I am super excited to be a minion and I can't wait to get this challenge going. I know it is a smaller challenge, as a lot of BLCers have taken the Summer off, and I know it is a more laid back and shorter version but for me I am just so excited! This is going to be 8 weeks of fun and hard work! <BR> <BR> The most exciting part for me is my two Minnesota friends are on my team with me. Not only that but Dawn is also on my team which is exc... Tue, 31 May 2016 04:39:10 EST Redecorating Fridge & Shred Power Cleanse I'm gonna start off by saying that just by the title, there are people clicking on it because of the word cleanse. Without knowing anything about it they will come in to say it's not sustainable weight loss and cleanses don't work. If you are that person, the X can be hit now! <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Okay, now that it's just us nice, level headed people... we can chat. <em>211</em> I am not a cleanse person at all. I totally get it, it is a momentary shift, an initial water weight loss ... Mon, 30 May 2016 03:09:09 EST RMR (Metabolic Testing)! Before I get started, the short and sweet version of what the test is, and what it is used for, can be found at the following link (if it works) or google RMR testing. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I have always wanted to do one of these tests. Basically, it tells you how many calories your body burns at rest so you can have a more accurate way of knowing how many calories you burn in a day. We have probably all used the online calculators, and based on... Sun, 29 May 2016 20:32:57 EST MISSING: COLLARBONES! REWARD IF FOUND! <img src=""> <BR> Okay all jokes aside, we know I've gained weight. In fact we know I've gained A LOT of weight. I found an extra chin, extra back fat and a lot of extra stomachs. But when I was looking through some 2014 photos trying to find a picture of my brother to show a friend, I realized something: I used to have collarbones, and now they are looooooooooooooong gone! <BR> <BR> Now this shouldn't be shockin... Sat, 28 May 2016 07:33:50 EST Ghosts of BLC's Past... <img src=""> <BR> I am going to be a Minion for BLC 31 which is starting on June 1st... so I went back to see the various rounds I participated in over the years. I have had a love/hate relationship with BLC in the past, and it wasn't the competition, it was me. <em>246</em> Some teams were a great fit, and others... well... not so much. So I gathered up some of the data from the rounds I completed. Some of the ... Fri, 27 May 2016 04:27:00 EST Trip To Catalina! (Video Blog) <link> </link> <BR> ^I was delighted to see that while the words on the shirt were backwards when I was filming, it ended up getting flipped the right way. Technology is amazing LOL. ;) <BR> <BR> Just me rambling in front of the camera about our trip and the souvenirs I got! I still feel awkward and uncomfortable, but I thought if I could get a few of these short silly ones out of the way maybe one day I would feel comfortable enough to do a video blog for realsies. I ... Mon, 23 May 2016 19:30:46 EST Old Tools + BLC! (Video blog) I attempted to upload this directly on Spark, but the youtube route seems easier, faster and I can just provide the link here (hoping it works LOL). Spark, me & links don't seem to mix. But with all the fancy updates maybe the links will work now. ;) <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> ^For those who don't want to see the video, the main thing was bringing back the marble j... Sat, 21 May 2016 22:31:23 EST When People Tell You "You Can't!" Nothing bugs me more than when people tell me I can't do something. I do some of my best work when people doubt me. <em>246</em> At the end of 2014 I did a 21 Day Sugar Detox, and I passed with flying colors... this was because a Sparker essentially said I would never be able to do it. So bound and determined to prove them wrong, I rocked that detox like a champion of the world. But the thing that has stuck out the most was how amazing I felt on that plan. I felt on top of the world! I did... Fri, 20 May 2016 03:04:48 EST Thinking About What Could Have Been... I don't know why I torture myself, but I do. <em>246</em> I sit here and play that whole what if game and it can be downright depressing. What if I never got off track? What if my knee didn't have a horrible arthritis flare up and I wouldn't have injured my foot? What if this whopping 43 pound gain never happened? What might life be like? How might I feel? How would things be different? <BR> <BR> All of those things go hand in hand. My knee flaring up and foot injury took away the one exe... Sun, 15 May 2016 03:00:18 EST For Real-sies This Time This is not a real blog, but just a post taken from my Facebook page. I had a very sweet Spark Mail from a Sparker, and I realized I have gotten so caught up in posting on instagram and Facebook that I have neglected Spark, so from time to time I might share one of those posts here. The update from this is day 2 is going alright, I am working on it LOL. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Let's be real... I have so ... Sun, 15 May 2016 02:04:38 EST A Weekend I'll Never Forget! <BR> ^The clickable link didn't work but copying and pasting this one seems to work! <BR> <BR> Those are two of my favorite videos of the night! They aren't as clear uploaded as they are on my computer but what can you do?! PS. If you are bothered by drinking/alcohol don't watch those videos! <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Initially I was headed to Fresno alone to see Luke Bryan & go to the Fresno Zoo. Normally my mom would enjoy going and doing those things (and sh... Tue, 3 May 2016 19:50:34 EST Days 3-7 After this post I will just do them weekly. I should really stop calling it 2 shakes + 1 meal because that very rarely happened. I think instead I'll call it 30 days of accountability! 30 days of being accountable to myself and not trying to hide anything. It has also got me into the habit of tracking even when I know my calories are waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay over. <BR> <BR> I'm also celebrating 200 days meatless (as of Sunday), super excited about that! <em>334</em> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 04:10:28 EST I Didn't Disappear! Just a note to say that while my days haven't been going as well as I hoped, I have still kept up with my daily posts. I got tired of transferring them to a blog daily, and more importantly I don't like clogging up your feed with just a little mini post. I decided I will post the entire weeks worth of posts here in one shot. Since I already did the first couple of posts I will put the rest of the week in one final post, then do weekly posts from there. <BR> <BR> I will say that Friday was a ... Sat, 23 Apr 2016 22:06:35 EST 0 Shakes + 2 Meals: Day 2 (Oops) Again, just sharing my Facebook posts. I will admit HERE that I knew I wouldn't be perfect but I didn't expect to "mess up" so quickly. I still consider a day within calorie range a success, and I am glad I am posting regardless of if I'm doing as well as I had originally hoped or not LOL. ;) <BR> <BR> I am not upset with my food choices, I lost 90 pounds initially eating whatever, counting calories and portioning. Everything was portioned, accounted for and in calorie range... but the goal ... Wed, 20 Apr 2016 06:09:18 EST 2 Shakes + 1 Meal: Day 1 These do not qualify as blogs, but I am going to post the photo and the update I post on my Starchy Stephy Facebook page and I might add a little more to it as well. The thing I will add to this one is when I got on the scale I just about fainted! 229 was the wake up call I needed to turn this around. I plan to take a picture of the scale each day for 30 days and make a little animation/flip book of it. Let's hope the weight starts coming off. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Today is Day 1 of 2 Shakes... Tue, 19 Apr 2016 04:13:27 EST 2 Shakes + 1 Meal (Not A Blog) I know you are thinking how is this not a blog? This is a blog entry! Well this is just a copy of the Facebook post I posted on my Starchy Stephy ( page! <BR> <em>230</em> Any negative or judgy comments will be deleted, I'm too old for these shenanigans! <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> There were 2 reasons I had stopped doing the daily accountability posts ... Mon, 18 Apr 2016 05:37:50 EST Timing Is Everything & Baby Steps 2.0 Timing really IS everything, and if the timing is wrong you can sure set yourself up for failure, which is exactly what I did. I have been off track for the majority of a year. I have had good days, even good weeks, but the bad definitely out numbers the good. So for me picking Dispatcher's Week to really give it a solid effort was one of the dumbest things I could have done. <BR> <BR> During the other 51 weeks in the year, there's plenty of stupid goodies hanging around my work place. An on... Sat, 16 Apr 2016 22:12:23 EST So What's Worse? I have been thinking a lot lately, and I have been thinking a lot of people (myself included) who say they are going to do something (make a big change, turn things around, etc) and don't follow through. I am one of those people for sure, guilty as charged! <BR> <BR> It's not just on Spark but in "real life" also. I have mentioned things on Spark so very many times and had to come back with my tail in between my legs admitting that I quit very early into whatever the "new thing was" and that... Sun, 10 Apr 2016 03:25:51 EST Parasailing! This is just a quickie to say what an amazing time I had parasailing! This is something I would have never done at my highest weight so I am glad I have found the confidence in myself to go out and try new things! My friend got to hold a camera on a stick and film our adventure! She was able to get a few screen caps of the video which was awesome. It was so amazing and I'm so glad I did it. I'm truly happy learning how to enjoy life and get out there and do fun things! <BR> <BR> Afterwards w... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 20:24:47 EST Hitting Those Milestones... AGAIN! I have said at least 20 different times, in different blogs, to different people I had NO desire to celebrate the weight loss milestones again. The way I was looking at it was kind of a been there done that kind of thing. I have already celebrated 60, 70, Onederland, 80, 90 pounds lost! I have been there, I have done that and it was amazing. I guess I didn't feel like I deserved to celebrate those accomplishments again, and I was pretty much embarrassed at the thought of doing it again. I mea... Thu, 31 Mar 2016 03:22:21 EST Getting Real & Skipped Anniversary? Thanks to everyone who took the time and read and respond to my blog yesterday. Despite my ramblings, I think people actually got what I was attempting to say, even if I didn't explain myself in the best way. I was also expecting some shady comments which didn't happen, so <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> One thing I said yesterday was from me, directed to me, and it was this paragraph: <BR> <BR> I believe that no one can reverse their regain until they get real with themselves. We must first be ... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 03:02:38 EST STEPH-KNEE Uncensored: VOL 5 - A Fall From Grace <img src=""> <BR> I have written a few of these in the past, that is why this is Volume 5. While I always say what I feel or think in my blogs, these are even more uncensored. Where I just want to say what I want to say, I don't want to apologize ahead of time of anyone doesn't like what I'm saying, and I just want to blurt it out. So I guess that is the non-disclaimer disclaimer if you will. <em>211</em> <BR> ... Sun, 27 Mar 2016 22:08:30 EST Changing My Goal Weight! <img src=""> <BR> First off, I love my new fancy scale! Do I fully believe the body fat% is accurate? Not at all, but it is consistent, so even if it's off, it's consistently off! <em>211</em> But the weight part I know is accurate. <BR> <BR> So I have told a few people I changed my goal weight to 220. They look puzzled and ask "why?" I say because I've maintained it effortlessly within a 3 pound range for 4 mo... Sat, 26 Mar 2016 03:43:29 EST