STEPH-KNEE's SparkPeople Blog STEPH-KNEE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Good Thing I'm Not On A Diet... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> In this case it wasn't an argument... but I hate when I think of things later that I should have said. When you are losing weight people have their own ideas of what you are doing. It doesn't matter what you tell them or how many times, they have their own ideas and rules of what you should be doing. I have tried various different plans... in fact this particular coworker knew about my 21 Day Sugar Detox (So mine w... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 05:37:48 EST Disneyland Alone = 30,000 Steps Badge & Feeling Unstoppable! <img src=""> <BR> ^Don't tell Pluto, but I think I'm in love. <em>211</em> <BR> Okay seriously... going to Disneyland alone was an amazing experience on so many levels. For starters, I walked a record 12 miles alone. I was only there from at 10:15 to 7! I walked Sparky when I got home and my ending total was 13.63 miles and 30,077 steps! There were times that I walked just to walk. I rode 8 rides, and I took a bazillion pictures. I met... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 04:31:06 EST Set Yourself Up For Success! <em>228</em> Warning: This is super cheesy, and I know it's cheesy, but I've found it to be true. <BR> <BR> All these little tips we hear along the way: <BR> "Set out your workout clothes so you see them first thing in the morning" <BR> "Bring a bottle of water with you so you can drink it throughout the day" <BR> "Plan your meals ahead of time" <BR> "Don't bring foods that might be too big of a temptation into the house" <BR> <BR> Blah blah blah, yada yada yada. When I was starting this... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 03:16:46 EST My Weight Loss Journey In Photos... <img src=""> <BR> I found some new before photos, and I am noticing that even just 30-40 pounds ago I look like an entirely different person! Of course I look even more different 80 pounds ago, but it is amazing to see how much I have changed. It is hard for me to find pictures that really show what I looked like, because I didn't have many photos taken. The ones that were taken were always cropped or deleted because I didn't like how th... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 03:05:02 EST I Forgot How Sweet The "Sweet Spot" Was! <img src=""> <BR> In 2013, I wrote a blog about how on my journey, there are 3 phases of weight loss. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507580 </link> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The shorter version of that blog is this: At any point in time on my journey I am in one of my 3 phases... <BR> <BR> The Sweet Spot, The Pit of Despair o... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 03:59:22 EST Disneyland Amazement & Slipping Up... *The video is nothing interesting, the poor lady didn't know how to work my camera, so Snow White and I were just kinda chillin' and started to laugh. She was such a trooper and so patient! It just shows how dang cute we are* <em>211</em> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> What do you think are the odds of the Fairy Godmother can help me out with the last 30 pounds? <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 04:21:33 EST As The 21 Day Sugar Detox Comes To A Close... I'm supposed to be asleep and waking up in 2 hours for Disneyland, but I couldn't sleep so I thought... might as well just get up. <BR> <BR> Today (Wednesday) will mark day 20 for me for the 21 Day Sugar Detox. I want to say that I have not been absolutely perfect on this challenge... no one is perfect and unfortunately I am no exception. <em>246</em> But I counted each day as successful because I think I did very well. Some days were indeed spot on... but I will say I had a few iced latt... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 08:03:40 EST An Apology To My Body... <img src=""> <BR> Today I am thankful for my body! <em>40</em> Did I just say that? You know that thing that I've hated for years, told it how ugly and large it was and how it disgusted me? Well I really am learning to be thankful for my body. Am I bothered my hanging stomach? Yes, it gets in the way and it doesn't look adorable. <em>246</em> Do I like when I'm exercising and the flying squirrels (as my friend Susan calls the flapp... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 05:29:01 EST Different Stages Of A Weight Loss Journey... <img src=""> <BR> I have been incorporating some great changes in the last couple of weeks, and boy is it exciting! I have learned a new way of eating through the 21 Day Sugar Detox (just finished day 12!) and I can tell a difference in so many things. I fall asleep faster and stay asleep, I have more energy and my tummy isn't always bloated and uncomfortable. Although restrictive it has taught me how much eating veggies really helps me ... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 03:51:36 EST What Is This 21 Day Sugar Detox All About? <em>230</em> I am not at all pushing this plan on anyone or even inviting anyone to join me. We all have to figure out what works for us. I have failed at many plans, but that doesn't mean they are bad plans... it just means they weren't for me! I have been asked quite a few questions about what plan I'm following and what it entails, so that is my reason for this post. If you weren't one of the ones asking questions, you are going to want to skip this. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> What pl... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 03:04:33 EST Started Off 2015 With A Bang! It's crazy to think just 10 days ago I was so off track that I was scared that I couldn't pull this together. So much has changed in just those 10 days and I am so thankful. I got back on track on Christmas Eve and on December 26th I started the 21 Day Sugar Detox. I have tried many different programs and I have never stuck with anything for the full length of time. The farthest I've gotten I think was 10 days. But this has actually become a pretty decent way of eating and I'm not dreading it... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 03:08:55 EST A Different Kind of Reflection on 2014... <img src=""> <BR> At the end of 2012 and 2013, I sat down and looked at all I had accomplished during the year in terms of weight loss. (I have lost a total of about 80 pounds since starting my journey, and kept it off). I figured out how much weight I lost that year, how well I was doing, maybe even how many miles I walked. But as everyone knows, 2014 has not been the greatest year for me in weight loss. Just for the record to reflect...... Thu, 25 Dec 2014 03:01:38 EST Do You Run Towards The Good Or Away From The Bad? <img src=""> <BR> So I was watching an awesome vlog from my girl Susan (IMSOOZEEQ) <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836195 </link> ... and she has a way of really making me think. I am much in the same boat as her, trying to figure out where to go from here... and how I want to go about it. <BR> <BR> The thing that she said in this video that really got me thinking was this: What motivated h... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 04:33:31 EST I'm Caught In A Trap... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Or can I? I feel like I'm stuck in the Pit Of Despair... and that I've been there so long that I'm thinking about redecorating. <em>246</em> That is definitely not the right attitude, I should be planning my escape, not deciding which blinds would brighten the place up... it's the pit of despair, nothing can make it pretty. <em>20</em> It's amazing how things can snowball out of control, and get away from you... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 03:03:06 EST It's Always SOMETHING, & A New Goal... <img src=""> <BR> I am going to tell you why so many weight loss journeys fail. They either never make it past the first week, or they make it to a certain point (3 months, 30 pounds lost, etc.) before life throws the person an unexpected curve ball and everything gets destroyed! I'm just gonna call it like I see it: This crap is hard! There, I said it! <em>246</em> On the surface it sounds easy... and anyone who just tells you to "ea... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 04:33:06 EST Hitting Rock Bottom At The PERFECT Time! <img src=""> <BR> I have done it again, hit rock bottom... but this time is different! In the past, hitting rock bottom came after regaining all the weight I had lost, and then MORE. It was admitting I was at an all time high weight, and realizing I needed to do something about it. I lost 40 pounds 3 times in my life, only to gain them back and then some. When I started in March of 2012, I decided this was going to be the final time losi... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 03:02:03 EST Hitting The Panic Button! <em>228</em> This blog isn't interesting or informative, it is for me to document what I am feeling today... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My weight this morning was 196.6... my lowest weight on this journey was 181 in September. Then I went back up to 190 or so. I got back down to 184, then went to Florida in November and am now sitting at 196.6. That is not okay, it is too close to Twoterville! Numbers aside, I FEEL heavy. I feel... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 21:01:55 EST STEPH-KNEE Uncensored... Volume 3 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have been very blessed in my life recently, and have been having a lot of awesome days! I was blessed enough to have 30 days of vacation time, and most of those days I took advantage of. I went to Florida, I went to the Zoo twice, and Friday morning will be my 3rd and final trip to Disneyland for this vacation. I am getting ready go to back to work on Saturday, and well, that stinks. <BR> <BR> I have had a lot ... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 03:02:05 EST Bestest Day EVER! For Real-sies This Time! A video of the beautiful It's A Small World at Christmas time at Disneyland! <BR> <BR> I can't even express how much it was the best day ever! Despite my foot hurting and twisting my ankle while I was there, it was still the best day. It was crowded but not as crowded as the previous time. The weather was gloomy but no rain which was awesome! We were able to ride all the big rides and do everything we wanted to do. I felt like I was 7... as we were walking by, several characters came out to ... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 21:13:02 EST Sometimes You Feel Like A Nut... <img src=""> <BR> Anyone remember those commercials? I never liked the candy, but that slogan came to mind while thinking about this blog. <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> I still can't get over how different someone can feel about themselves from one day to the next. It really has been confusing to me, especially lately. Example? Monday I went to Disneyland, had a blast, loved the majority of my pictures, felt great, walked 10 miles, and enjo... Sat, 29 Nov 2014 03:30:56 EST Disneyland Christmas Edition: Volume 1! Why Volume 1? Because I get to go twice next week, and am thinking about venturing out alone the week after that. I have to say, I've never been a big Christmas person... or a picture person (until recently)... but being able to enjoy all the lights and decorations was awesome! Disneyland is such a busy place, there are so many photo opportunities and so many characters to meet... and call me immature but I love meeting some of those characters. <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> My favorite photo fr... Wed, 26 Nov 2014 03:26:57 EST Another Fun Day In The Life of Steph-knee! Okay, so I don't go around referring to myself in the 3rd person, but in some of my blogs some of my Spark friends have commented that it was another fun day in the life of Steph-knee! I figured that was super cute, so I decided to go with it! <BR> <BR> As I've been back from Florida, I have been dealing with some terrible jet lag. The combination of switching my sleep around in Florida so that I could be up during the day (I work graveyard shifts) was hard enough... but now that I'm home my... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 06:13:01 EST The Magic Boots... I will TRY to keep this short and sweet, these boots must have a super power. <em>530</em> Other than the fact that my poor baby toes were not quite happy with my choices in footwear, they made me feel good. The jeans helped too. I am by no means done with my journey, I can still be self critical and think "wow, your stomach looks pretty bad", but overall I FELT good, I felt pretty and I had a blast. I never once felt like the fat chick, and I didn't care if anyone was looking at me. I tol... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 03:00:26 EST Getting Back To "Weight Loss Mode"... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have been talking A LOT about the last year of my journey because I've been reflecting on it and preparing to move forward. While maintaining an 80 pound loss, I gained and lost the same 10ish pounds several times. I am about 3 pounds away from getting back to my lowest weight... and I feel like I am gearing back up for weight loss mode. <BR> <BR> If you were to ask me if I had been trying to lose weight this l... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 05:05:33 EST Whoa Whoa Wait! November Already?! <img src=""> <BR> The last few months I have been learning a lot about perspective. Choosing to look at things in a positive light is what has prevented me from giving up! Now I don't mean that we should sugar coat things, and bury our head in the sand when things aren't going well. That just creates even more problems, and that is how we can let a 5 pound gain spiral into a 50 pound gain. But I am talking about finding the positive in t... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 05:52:19 EST Size 14?! <img src=""> <BR> I had to go back and look through my blogs to see when I bought these size 14 jeans. I remember I bought a size 14 and a size 12 because at that point I was in about a 16/18. I thought it would be a good goal to have to fit into the jeans. Well, I found the date... it was November 17th! My first instinct was to look at the glass half empty, despite my best efforts to be positive. A year, an entire year, wasted?! Okay, s... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 03:02:09 EST Just Another Day In Paradise... Okay, so Knott's Scary Farm isn't exactly paradise, but it sure was a blast! <em>20</em> It was our shortest trip yet, just about 3 hours there once the park had opened, but we had done 3 mazes right away, went Zombie Hunting early... found my monster girlfriend who I just adore, walked 6 miles, did 2 more mazes, rode in the Sky Cabin, walked through the fog several times and got to take a picture with the Headless Horseman! It is funny to think it was our shortest time there, but yet it w... Sun, 26 Oct 2014 03:00:54 EST Okie Dokie, Let's Spill The Beans! So I mentioned before that I was quite embarrassed because I felt like I was always coming up with these new ideas and plans, getting super excited about it, telling all of you, and then finding out it wasn't for me a few short days or a week later. You were all so supportive (as always), and said that there was nothing to be embarrassed about. I am just trying to figure out how to lose the rest of this weight... and while I wanted to stick to what has got me this far (calorie counting/portio... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 03:02:15 EST Spark Friends Are Great For... Giving you new perspective! My awesome Spark Friend Marilyn (AMarilynH) had brought something to my attention. She asked me to take one of my before and after collages, and add a 3rd picture to it. The thing of it is, the 2nd and 3rd pictures are a year apart... but I am pretty much the exact same weight. But she asked me to do it because she said I look a lot smaller... I couldn't really understand how that would be possible, given that they were at the same weight. <BR> <BR> So here are th... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 20:56:04 EST Why I've Been So Quiet... No, no big news, there are no life changing events going on. Nothing super awesome or super bad has happened, so I guess that's a good thing... although super awesome sounds like it could be fun... maybe someday! I was in quite a little rut with my eating, it was like I could have 2 or 3 good days and then have 3 or 4 bad days... I was just feeling so blah. Today is officially 2 years and 7 months on this journey. Through all the ups and downs, I have been here on Spark, and I have never hid ... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 06:20:26 EST I Never Thought Of It That Way... <img src=""> <BR> <em>189</em> Has someone ever said something to you and you stopped and went "Wow, I never thought of it that way!" I have talked a lot about how we are so much harder on ourselves than we are on others, so it's no surprise some outside perspective can really make us see things in a different light. <BR> <BR> When my uncle and I were on the way home from Disneyland we were talking about lots of stuff, weight loss, he... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 03:04:27 EST Best Day Ever... Again! Okay, okay... so since September I've now been to Disneyland 3 times, Knott's Scary Farm once and Universal Hollywood Horror Nights once... I know that no one really cares. Okay, well actually you are all incredibly sweet and supportive people that always give me the KINDEST words... but I guess I can't help but share my joy and excitement, even if it's old news. <em>246</em> <em>334</em> Every time I have gone to one of these events, I have declared it was "the best day ever"... and to... Fri, 10 Oct 2014 04:57:46 EST Trial & Error: Round 1! In an attempt to get this last 30ish pounds off, I started researching various "plans"... I thought what can I do and follow to get the last 30 pounds off? Then I had a light bulb moment. <em>189</em> I lost 80+ pounds from calorie counting/portion control and exercise... why should the last 30 pounds be any different? Granted they will be harder to get off, and they might involve cutting calories a little bit more and exercising harder... but I need to just tinker with it, I don't need a ... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 07:31:37 EST Knott's Scary Farm & 2 NSV's! I had a blast at Knott's Scary Farm! We did about 8 miles, and it was just an all around great time! We managed to do everything! We saw it all, even the 2 shows and rode a couple rides! We got an "unlimited pass" for the month of October, and can go to the Halloween Haunt as many times as we want. We are going to go a 2nd time for sure and maybe even a 3rd. <BR> <BR> So I had 2 huge NSV's, the first is... <BR> <BR> I was having so much fun, I forgot to eat!! I work graveyard shift, so I wo... Sun, 5 Oct 2014 03:02:50 EST I Don't Have 32 Pounds To Lose... I just have to lose 1 pound, 32 times! <em>246</em> I shared that as my status update earlier, and I'm so glad that no one thought I was super dooper silly! For someone who has last 80+ pounds, you would think 32 pounds would be a drop in the bucket. What's even more frustrating is it was 21 pounds before I gained 11, but live and learn I guess! <em>198</em> So I don't know what it is about 32 pounds that overwhelms me. I am more than 3/4 of the way done with my weight loss, but for the... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 03:03:09 EST When Life Gets In The Way... <img src=""> <BR> This is one of my "non-problem-problems" or "first world problems" if you will! <em>20</em> I've recently realized that in some ways I am the happiest I've ever been. Life is good. My job is great, my house is great (albeit too messy, but great)... I've been getting OUT and doing STUFF more than ever. In fact I have probably done more "fun things" this year than I have in the last 5 years combined. <BR> <BR> I have b... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 03:25:52 EST I'm Guilty As Charged! So it was only just Friday when I posted that blog about how others see us vs. how we see ourselves... and how we are so much harder on ourselves than we are on our friends, loved ones, or even strangers! I was really learning from that and working on loving myself, and accepting certain flaws... or at the very least, not pointing them out to everyone that was willing to listen. <BR> <BR> But I posted a status update yesterday that read like this: <BR> <BR> My self esteem got kicked in the... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 03:02:03 EST How Others See Us VS. How We See Ourselves... <img src=""> <BR> I know many of us know that we are often harder on ourselves... most of us have been guilty of this at one point or another. <BR> <BR> Example: You went over your calories for the day, by A LOT. So you beat yourself up, get down on yourself for ruining your day and tell yourself you're a failure. <BR> <BR> Yet a Spark friend posts an update that they overate, and they are upset about having such an awful day... you ... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 04:50:46 EST Take Joy In The Little Things! :D <img src=""> <BR> <BR> As much fun as I've been having, going to places like the Zoo or Disneyland... or planning my upcoming adventures for Universal, Disneyland and eventually Florida... all days can't nearly be that exciting! There is a part of me that wishes they COULD all be that awesome, but I would probably end up pretty exhausted! <em>20</em> Rest is good, and important! So I am doing my best to find joy in the little things! ... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 03:02:30 EST Dland Part 2: Revenge Of The Mouse + Game Has Begun! Okay, so I totally went to Disneyland again, but this time with a friend/coworker! I had a blast with my uncle, but boys aren't as "picturey" as girls are! LOL. We like to take pics, and go do little silly stuff that maybe a guy wouldn't be interested in doing. We had a blast and are headed back the first week of October, the second week of October I'm headed back with my uncle... but this coming Saturday I'm headed to Universal Studios Hollywood Horror Nights! So excited! The thing with that... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 03:54:59 EST Who Wants To Play A Game? <img src=""> <BR> Okay, so not a scary game, but a fun game! Okay, maybe fun is over advertising a little bit! <em>246</em> I was trying to come up for a way that my coworker and I could get back to business and kind of feeling like we are working on our weight loss together. As everyone knows, our Disneyland goal kind of went in the toilet, but we are going to Disneyland on Friday anyways. <em>246</em> We are ready to have some fu... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 03:00:59 EST So Here's The Problem... LOL! <img src=""> <BR> This is totally one of this ridiculous "non problem problems"! <em>246</em> I have been thinking a lot about everything. How I am still up 8ish pounds from my lowest weight... That I am still almost 30 pounds away from my goal weight and I was trying to really figure some things out. Before I think I was scared of the success... I think I'm to a point now where I'm not really scared and I'm definitely not self sabota... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 07:31:15 EST Opinions Are Like ________... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So every quote about opinions ended in something quite inappropriate... so I will just let you fill in the blank the word of your choice! <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> I am often open to hearing other people's ideas and opinions... a lot of the time I learn something new or different! I don't always agree with them, but I typically don't mind listening to what others have to say. I also do my best to remember that i... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 03:01:46 EST Is The Glass 1/2 Empty Or 1/2 Full? September 2014: 190ISH <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> July 2013: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> ^It may be only a few pounds difference, but I definitely see big changes in my face comparing those 2 photos! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I have to say, I can be very fickle, with just about everything! I change my mind, my plan, my goals, everyth... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 03:04:16 EST Disneyland, The Zoo & 25,000 Step Badge, OH MY! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Wednesday was just an all around amazing day! <em>334</em> I could go on and on for hours about how Disneyland wasn't really crowded, we rode about 15 rides and our longest wait was a mere 30 minutes! We met lots of characters and we walked an amazing 9 miles! So the fun part isn't Spark related, but let me repeat, we walked 9 miles! Not only did we walk 9 miles, I came home and walked Sparky 1 1/2. Then I paced... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 05:03:30 EST Sometimes You Just Gotta Do It Yourself... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Weight loss journeys are not easy, we need all the support and accountability we can get! In an ideal world, everyone in your household would hop on board, eat the same foods you do, and walk hand in hand with you as you embark on this healthy journey! Some are lucky enough to have that support, but that isn't the case for everyone. I have always admired anyone who can lose this weight in a household where h... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 03:01:09 EST Quiet Time Is Over & No Weigh September! It was a mere 2 days ago that I said I needed to take some "quiet time" for myself to kind of figure out what was going on with me. Well, quiet time is over! <em>246</em> So seriously, I really can't stay away from Spark. It just goes to show how much this is a part of my life, my weight loss journey and my everyday routine. I think I was just feeling really overwhelmed, but luckily that feeling has passed! I'm not back on track, but I am ready to be! That might sound silly, but I guess th... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 05:15:04 EST Day 4: SPLAT! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> In my last blog I talked about how the ball was rolling in the right direction... but I was like Indiana Jones, trying to stay ahead of it, hoping not to get squished! I wish I could tell you that some unforeseeable circumstance came in, tripped me up through no fault of my own, and that is what caused me to fall down and get squashed by the giant boulder. <em>246</em> But one thing that is pretty cool about me ... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 06:35:38 EST The Ball Is Rolling In The Right Direction... But I'm trying to make sure the ball won't crush me! <em>246</em> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <em>145</em> I don't like to count my chickens before they're hatched, so I'm trying to be extra careful here! <em>20</em> It's not that I really believe I am actually going to jinx it... I just know that sometimes when things are going well, something unexpected can pop up and throw me off my game! <BR> <BR> But Friday I completed ... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 03:10:39 EST A Backslider VS. A Quitter... So it's no secret I have been having a rough time, I am oh so very vocal about it! <em>211</em> I have been working on "shaking it off" and moving forward... and I am definitely taking baby steps in the right direction. My 2 most important things that I am working on are getting back on track with my weight loss journey and getting my house organized. Those are two pretty big tasks, especially when you feel overwhelmed. There's so much to do it's one of those things where it's like "where ... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 03:17:05 EST