STEPH-KNEE's SparkPeople Blog STEPH-KNEE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Losing Weight For Luke Bryan... LOL! I already posted a status about this, but basically a few months ago my brother told me that he wasn't going to dog sit for me unless I got back to 190. I picked the number, he didn't. All he knew was I used to weigh an amount where I felt better and I was now fighting regain, 190 was that number. My brother is the only one that can dog sit because my dog is not a fan of strangers, and likes very few people. He doesn't even like my own Dad. My brother watched my dog last year when I went to A... Sun, 4 Feb 2018 05:34:39 EST No Caffeine Update I am now 18 days with no caffeinated drinks. To be super technical I have had small amounts of chocolate which have a small amount of caffeine, so I can't say I'm entirely caffeine free. But I am not drinking anything with caffeine and I feel so much better. The headaches lasted about 4 days, feeling super tired lasted a little over a week. Then I started sleeping better and as a result feeling better. I will not say that I'm never tired, but getting more restful sleep is definitely a step in... Tue, 23 Jan 2018 20:51:52 EST Kicking The Caffeine Habit! So I was a total diet soda addict and well over a year ago I managed to give it up. I went through major caffeine withdrawals during that time. I would often have iced coffee at work (I work night shift), and then Starbucks came out with these amazing Strawberry Refreshers and I was hooked. They have a lot of sugar and of course have caffeine. I essentially just substituted one habit for the next. The thing that kills me about the caffeine is that I never feel a boost from drinking it. It's j... Sun, 14 Jan 2018 05:08:34 EST How Do You Define Success? Since we are on a weight loss site, it only makes sense that weight loss can give us a sense of success or a sense of failure if we don't reach the goals we set out for ourselves. I have had my share of ups and downs on the scale over the years, the good, the bad and the ugly. I've never given up entirely but I've had times where the effort certainly wasn't there. <BR> <BR> This year I started out at 233 and if we only looked at weight loss, it was a very mediocre year. I am currently around... Tue, 19 Dec 2017 20:03:59 EST Dreams Do Come True! The first thing I EVER did alone was go to my first Luke Bryan concert! No one really wanted to go, and I was like you know what... it might be scary to go alone but I think I can do it. Once I realized no one cared that you were alone, and that it wasn't scary at all, I felt like I could do anything alone. From then on I've been to many Luke concerts alone, and Disneyland alone. I traveled all the way to Atlanta to do a trip to see Luke on my own, and it is really an amazing feeling. <BR> <... Mon, 30 Oct 2017 00:17:07 EST More Up Than Down My last blog was more of a downer so I'm going to focus more on the good. The thing is I wanted to start losing weight so that I could live life. It took me losing the initial 90 pounds to start living life and doing all the things I wanted to do. But then I realized I could have been living life at 270, but I chose not to. I think since then I have been making up for lost time. Once I went to a Luke Bryan concert alone and realized it wasn't as scary as I thought it would be, being out in th... Wed, 18 Oct 2017 04:48:54 EST The Ups & Downs I am not going to rehash all of my weight loss journey up and downs, because for starters it's looooooooooong. Then on top of that my handful of Spark Friends that I still have (and adore btw) know all about it and have heard it countless times before. I'll just let this graph that starts in 2012 when I got really serious about weight loss speak for itself. (I've been on Spark since 2009 btw lol) <BR> <img src=""> ... Fri, 13 Oct 2017 03:45:14 EST First Disney 5k! Friday was my second 5k ever, but my first Disney 5k! For all the Run Disney events, they say there is a strict 16 minute mile pace. My uncle at 6' tall did it on the treadmil and said it was a light jog. So while they say you can technically walk their races, a 16 minute mile for most people is at the very least a light jog... <BR> <BR> So I did a bunch of research and the consensus was that for the 10k and the half marathon they are VERY strict about the pace, and will pick you up in a gol... Sun, 3 Sep 2017 00:11:22 EST Just Cuz I'm Not Sparking... Doesn't mean I'm hiding he he! I feel like people think I'm hiding and I promise that's not the case... but I just much prefer Instagram these days for my motivation and accountability and it is just so much easier to navigate from a phone. I try to post some of those updates here as well... but Spark sure doesn't make it easy. <BR> <BR> For a quick weight update I started the year at 233 and I'm currently 218 but should have been farther along. Sadly I've been enjoying life and doing fun t... Thu, 17 Aug 2017 23:09:17 EST Atlanta Pics Part 1 So sadly my aquarium pics are on my other SD card so this is just Luke stuff LOL! And the few pics I had either on my ipod of my phone of other stuff ha ha!! <BR> <BR> In that video you have to know what you are looking for but basically this picture of me (slightly cut off) is scrolling on the screen and I'm super excited about it LOL! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Wed, 21 Jun 2017 03:07:15 EST The Atlanta Saga So I am going to have a separate post just with pictures in case anyone cares to see LOL! I am going to cut this up into sections in case you only want to hear about a certain part. This is for my hardcore friends who want to know how my solo Atlanta Adventure went! ;) <BR> <BR> <BR> Basically what happened was I went to the Georgia Aquarium, I went to Nic & Norman's restaaurant (it is owned by Norman Reedus who plays Daryl on THe Walking Dead, went to 3 Luke shows, met Luke Bryan & came ho... Wed, 21 Jun 2017 02:30:45 EST Here's The Scoop... About why there is no scoop... <em>246</em> My brother hasn't fixed the laptop, so at home I only have a very cheap tablet which I refuse to "type" on... but then on the days I work I have access to a computer (like I'm typing on right now). So at first I thought well I'm just not posting any blogs because it's really inconvenient to post anything while at home. But that's an excuse because obviously I could do it the days that I work. <BR> <BR> Then I realized there's really nothing to u... Sat, 27 May 2017 21:54:38 EST I Conquered Vegas + ACM Awards! In all my trips to Vegas to see Gammie I think I lost weight one other time, and maintained one other time... but the majority of trips I usually have a 3-5 pound gain! Thanks to the support of my fellow Sparkers, and the added accountability of my 100 Day Challenge, I kicked Vegas' butt! <BR> <BR> I tracked every single thing I ate. The rule for my 100 Day Challenge was to not go over 2000 cals. There were several days I went right up to that limit, but I didn't go over and that was so imp... Sat, 8 Apr 2017 22:36:51 EST Measurements This is just my Instagram post but thought I'd share it here too. <BR> <BR> On 12/4/16 I took various measurements with ribbon. The reason for the ribbon is not to get caught up on the actual numbers of the measurements but just to focus on the progress. I was about 230 and today I am 222.8 and yet had lost several inches overall! I have been really frustrated because the scale has been stuck at 222 for over a week. But I know the scale isn't the end all be all and taking these measurements ... Sun, 19 Mar 2017 18:57:17 EST 100 Day Challenge Update! St. Patrick's Day marked the end of day 14 for me! I'm not going to rehash my personal guidelines for the challenge, since I did that in the last blog. Let's just say that catering this challenge to what I was already TRYING to do was the perfect way to do this. Instead of making it a challenge to do new things I thought I SHOULD do, I went back to what has always worked for me and I put those guidelines in place. <BR> <BR> I am excited to say I am 14/14 good days on track! I am glad to say ... Sat, 18 Mar 2017 04:11:47 EST 100 Days <img src=""> That is the picture I posted on Instagram and I will explain it here just for funsies. I'm sure you all know I have tried various things that didn't pan out. I was going to do vegan for 30 days (I think I made it 20) and other things. The problem was that I was forcing myself into a habit or plan that I THOUGHT I SHOULD be doing. Truth be told I love the idea of a vegan diet, but I have not figured ... Wed, 8 Mar 2017 22:30:12 EST When There's Nothing To Talk About... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It's amazing how time flies when there isn't much to talk about. I haven't blogged since mid February and I have gotten such nice goodies and spark mails asking how I'm doing. I am always so amazed by how sweet you sparkers are! It's like who cares about lil ol' me?! LOL! Then it makes me feel like I should update but then I feel like there is nothing to update ha ha! <BR> <BR> Funnily enou... Sun, 5 Mar 2017 21:38:54 EST Going Back To What Works Okay so for starters, any time I mention the past I get yelled at by at least 3 people. "Don't look back look forward!" Before you get your panties in a twist, one of my friends and I were talking about our regain and I was trying to remember how long I stayed in Onederland before going back to Twoterville... so I was looking at past data. I have to say that is one thing I for sure love about Spark, I have all the data at my finger tips from years and years ago. Anyways, I found out that I ha... Sun, 12 Feb 2017 03:21:17 EST Snapchat Chronicles: Part 1 Just a quick glimpse into my weekend, with fun Snapchat filters LOL! ;) Mon, 6 Feb 2017 00:00:23 EST How Did My Brother Get So Smart? So my brother and I were talking about my regain and how I was able to keep it off for two years and then I just got exhausted (no excuse btw LOL) and lazy and I just gave up. That is how I slowly regained half of the weight I lost. He gave me the best analogy I have heard in a very long time. <BR> <BR> He said it's like the worst sports team in the league. They are in last place, they lose all their games and they decide they've had enough. They get a better coach, a better game plan, they ... Sun, 5 Feb 2017 22:09:04 EST Going It Alone... In my last blog I mentioned that I am planning a trip to Atlanta, alone, to go and see Luke Bryan! While this may not sound like something that has anything to do with weight loss, I assure you it does. <BR> <BR> Before losing weight, the idea of going somewhere BIG alone was one of the scariest things I've ever heard. I'm not talking about simple daily tasks like going to the grocery store or running errands, I am talking about things like going to Disneyland or a concert. Years ago when I ... Mon, 30 Jan 2017 03:22:04 EST Well... It Happened.... I had an amazingly perfect 20 days on track before the bad day hit. The good news is that I had mentioned that I knew it was not possible for me to be perfect forever, and that a bad day would hit eventually. I also am aware that over the last few years, my bad days always manage to be 3 days (and sometimes even longer). So just being aware of that pattern helped. I had two bad days recently (oh and don't tell me not to call them bad days, I'll call them what I want, it drives me crazy when p... Sat, 28 Jan 2017 23:29:07 EST 3 Days At A Time... I know the classic phrase is 1 day at a time, but I have been doing things 3 days at a time. Basically we all know to lose 1 pound of fat we need to have a deficit of roughly 3500 calories. We also know that a healthy rate of weight loss for most is 1-2 pounds per week. Since I'm diligently tracking my food intake and exercise... in addition to the fact that I had an RMR test not that long ago that tells me a good estimate of my calories burned at rest, I thought it would be great to work tow... Mon, 23 Jan 2017 03:07:58 EST Rough Road.... This is today's instagram post... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Sparky and I saw this sign on our walk... at first I didn't think anything of it, but then I realized that this journey can be a rough road. If it was easy, everyone would be healthy/fit/skinny and at their ideal weight. But this journey is a rough road, there are a lot of twists and turns, good days, bad days, good weigh ins, bad weigh ins... but we ha... Tue, 17 Jan 2017 04:47:02 EST Thankful.... This is just my instagram post, not a full blog or anything. ;) Do you instagram? Let me know, I have been on a big instagram kick lately and would love to follow you (if you want to be followed LOL)... My user name is starchystephy <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> While it's truly disappointing that I am pretty far from my lowest weight of 181 it's also a relief to know I'm still pretty far from my highest... Sun, 15 Jan 2017 21:22:57 EST False Starts... Right now I am focused on breaking my cycle of false starts. You have seen them from me over and over in 2016. I would do really well for a week or two, maybe even lose almost 10 pounds before I'd start going back downhill. Anyone can have a good first week or two, but it's what happens after that that counts. That is where I have continuously fizzled out in the past. The only good thing to come from those false starts is I am so focused on not having this fresh start end up the same way. <B... Sat, 14 Jan 2017 21:27:23 EST Starting Fresh... I'm gonna keep this short and sweet and hope it makes some sense LOL! ;) When I started in March of 2012, I vowed that I would never start over. I was in this for the long haul, one long life long journey that never stops. It truthfully never does, weight loss, followed by maintenance is never ending. I have never "started over" but I have had a few fresh starts in my day. I have always kept my ticker with my starting weight of 272... until yesterday. <BR> <BR> While I will always keep trac... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 23:32:43 EST 5k Fever & Christmas Lights! <em>228</em> Warning: This blog contains a ton of pictures,BEWARE!! <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> I did my first 5k on Sunday! It was the Jingle Bell Run for The Arthritis Foundation. I had always wanted to walk a 5k, and I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis at age 5, so I knew this was the 5k for me. Not all 5k's allow people to walk the race. For example the Disney 5k's say that walking is okay, but you must maintain a 16 minute per mile pace, and I am by no means some super speedy wal... Mon, 12 Dec 2016 23:43:56 EST Bad Day This is just my Instagram post from today... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Let's start with what I WISH would have happened... I wish that I would have paid attention to the fact I'd be pmsing, and probably have some cravings for some salty sweet stuff. Expecting these cravings, I would have packed some good old fashion #vegan junk to snack on (sweet chili doritos, vegan chocolate, etc). What actually happened is I ... Sat, 10 Dec 2016 00:23:00 EST Working On Day 5! Day 5 is in progress! Basically my goals are to have everything I eat be 100% Vegan, and 90% of what I eat to be whole foods. I think by putting the pressure on me to have 100% of my food be unprocessed was setting me up for a binge. I really struggle with that all or nothing attitude and if I feel like I've "messed up" even just a little, it will lead to be just throwing in the towel for a day or even a week. The best part is, the book that I am following she even says that if you are eating... Sun, 4 Dec 2016 20:53:07 EST Because Starting on the 1st is So Cliche.... I am back from vacation and we will just say I ate my way through Vegas & vacation. I didn't even pretend to try to eat well and I'm mostly okay with it because hey, what's done is done right? LOL. <BR> <BR> The good news is I bought this ebook before I went on vacation... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Basically, High Carb Hannah is my favorite youtuber who also happens to be Vegan. She has lost 70 pounds followin... Wed, 30 Nov 2016 09:08:11 EST Today's The Day, Dang It! I have been off track for sooooooooooooooooo long. I could get you actual numbers, but the length of time doesn't matter, well over a year that is for sure. I have had little chunks of time of being on track but nothing long term. My highest weight for this regain was 237 and I got down as low as 222. The last 2 1/2 weeks I have been eating the world. Each day I would wake up and say today's the day, but low and behold those days weren't the day. I wanted them to be the day, I wanted to do be... Sat, 5 Nov 2016 20:58:58 EST Throwback Thursday Halloween Edition <img src=""> <BR> This again is just my instagram post, not a proper blog.... and here are the photos separated so that they are larger. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Thu, 20 Oct 2016 05:26:48 EST Journey To The Jeans <img src=""> <BR> This is just my Instagram post... <BR> <BR> So let me tell you a sad story about this girl... She used to weigh 272 pounds and wear a size 24 jeans. In 2012 she finally got serious about weight loss and lost 90 pounds weighing in at 181. Just through calorie counting and walking she was able to lose this weight. She felt so much better she was wearing a size 16 and a stretchy size 14 and she felt... Mon, 17 Oct 2016 21:01:40 EST BLC 32 Challenge Blog & Daughtry For this weeks Weekend Challenge, to get some Bingo points I need to blog about what I've done right so far this BLC. We are in our 5th week and I haven't given up. I have participated in the Weekend Challenges and I have been as active as possible in posting in the Chat Thread. I will say things I could improve on is make a little more time for chatting, and getting in more exercise! It is a 15 week challenge so we are just 1/3 way through so there is still plenty of time to lose some weight... Fri, 7 Oct 2016 23:22:40 EST Life + Weigh In I haven't blogged since last month... that is so not like me yet I don't really have much to share. My life has been more fun stuff than weight loss. For those only here for the weight loss, two weeks ago I was down to 222 and over the last two weeks I've rebounded up to 226. I have been more focused on fun and food than I was on weight loss and it shows on the scale. I am working to turn it around and am back to tracking all my calories, so hopefully next week will show that on the scale. <B... Wed, 5 Oct 2016 21:15:15 EST Weigh In & Road Trip! Overall I was happy with my weigh in. I mentioned before I need to stop the daily weighing, which is true, I still do. But more days than not I would weigh in... what frustrated me was seeing smaller numbers until weigh in day, then the day that I actually track and count it would go up a little. Talk about frustrating. So I'm gonna try to cut it down to 2-3 times a week, the goal is going to be 2 times a week. That will give me enough information but it will also prevent the full blown obses... Wed, 14 Sep 2016 04:23:10 EST #Throwback Thursday I saw these pictures of myself from May 15, 2015... and I couldn't help but notice how much slimmer, healthier and just all around BETTER I looked. I thought surely I must have been in the 180's to look so awesome. The lowest I ever saw on the scale was 181... well I love Spark because I can easily go back and check my weight... I was shocked to see 199! 30 pounds from where I am now, and what a world of difference! It has me that much more motivated to get back to 199 (and beyond)! I really ... Thu, 8 Sep 2016 05:18:46 EST Blogging, Pot Luck & Weigh In So I have to say my blogging has completely changed over the course of 2016. I really do miss the days of trying to write REAL stuff, that other people could relate to, and things that I was learning about myself and my journey. When I started in 2012 I learned so much over the first couple years about the physical and emotional aspects of weight loss. By sharing it helped me to learn that I wasn't alone in a lot of those feelings and that helped me even more. <BR> <BR> Then as I was regaini... Tue, 30 Aug 2016 20:45:06 EST Relieved! I know a lot of people were reading my status update and feeling bad for me. It doesn't sound good, but I am actually ecstatic. The bridesmaid dress was always too tight around my rolls... the problem is I have no boobs. If I would have went up a size for my rolls I would have had to pay more money to take in the bust. Truth be told I am not a fan of the dress, I will never wear it again and I have to wear a camo sash around my waist... I'll pause while that sinks into your brain. LOL! So I r... Sat, 27 Aug 2016 20:37:54 EST Vacay Over + Long Term Goals I am going to try to make this short and sweet (which never happens LOL)! I had a blast in Minnesota. My two Spark BFF's are the best! The thing that I hate is because my schedule at home is working 5pm to 5am with sleeping from 6am to like 2-3 in the afternoon I am kind of a walking zombie. They were so sweet and understanding when I needed to sleep and didn't give me grief about it. But I tried to get up so that I could actually visit with them.... which was the whole point of the visit! Th... Wed, 24 Aug 2016 06:56:24 EST Ready 4 Minnesota & Luke! + Mini Goal It is almost time! Wednesday morning I leave to see my two MInnesota BFF's and on Friday we go see my love Luke Bryan at the brand new US Bank Stadium! I have been to 4 Luke concerts, but never one at a stadium and never one with such awesome ladies so this is going to be a blast! <BR> <BR> I will not even lie when I say my mind and my eating are already in vacation mode. I am ready to go and I am not paying attention to the little things. <BR> <BR> I had a busy weekend, a lot of time spent... Tue, 16 Aug 2016 04:17:21 EST That Awkward Moment... That awkward moment when you feel like you SHOULD update but you don't want to relive the horror that has been your life the last few days! <BR> <BR> I sure don't want to go through it all again, because it makes my blood pressure rise, and I am finally now just getting over things. <BR> <BR> I will give you the biggest annoyance and the short version of that one detail of my madness... <BR> <BR> Some buttheads decided to hack our cell phone account, upgrade our phones to iphones, which me... Sun, 7 Aug 2016 20:44:44 EST Fed Up VS. Ready This concept didn't come from me, but boy has it really hit home! I learn so much from my friend Lynn, and sometimes she even shares what other friends have shared with her. This concept came from her friend which she shared with me, and I couldn't be happier that she did! <BR> <BR> How many times have you thought to yourself "I'm fed up with my weight, now is time to do something about it?" Fed up is great in theory... fed up means we are done with this nonsense and we WANT to do something ... Fri, 29 Jul 2016 03:36:59 EST The Results Are In.... For those not in the know, during this round of Biggest Loser, I had an idea for a side bet between my two Minnesota BFF's and I. The two losers would have to buy the winner a Luke Bryan Shirt at the concert in August. Michelle who doesn't really care for Luke could opt out for the big cash pay out of 30 bucks. Well 8 weeks have come and gone and the results are finally in. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> It has been a long... Wed, 27 Jul 2016 21:40:27 EST It's Never Too Late To Recreate! <em>230</em> Disclaimer: If you are one of those people who tells me not to look at the past and just look forward, click the X now. I don't think you will fully understand what I am saying or where I'm coming from, so it's better if you just leave now. <em>253</em> <BR> <BR> <em>524</em> Okay good, now that it's just US, I can proceed. <em>211</em> Some of the best things that come up happen when I'm chatting with Lynn. We have both decided to look at what is going on NOW, and no... Sun, 17 Jul 2016 03:03:08 EST Bridesmaids Dresses & Fun With Spark Friends... Let's start with the fun one and then we can end with the not so fun. So the fun, I love watching Dawn's (DAWNSUCCESS) vlogs. I used to tease her that if she made a 20 minute vlog I could easily watch it, and I have. She is just so up beat and I love the way she just chats with all of us. It is always a treat when I see there is a new video to watch. I took note of the length, 21 minutes. I knew without a doubt in my mind, I would be watching this video. Normally I'm just watching and enjoyin... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 04:05:56 EST FINALLY, THAT IS WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT! Not that long ago I said I was bothered by some of the very fun but pointless blogs Spark chooses to feature in the Spark Mail. I think I was partially misunderstood, but the incessant morning cups of solitude, the dogs ;) (seriously, winky face in the title!) in the Spark Mail really upset me. It wasn't that these blogs weren't fun and bringing smiles to people's faces, but I felt it was Spark's way of saying NO ONE in the entire Spark-Verse had written anything worth sharing. That is why I ... Thu, 14 Jul 2016 21:29:15 EST Empty Promises & Ramblings It's funny how such a tiny, sweet, perfectly timed comment can make your day. Today I had not one, but two very sweet comments from two of my favorite Sparkers! (Deb & Bess I'm talking about you!) I was going to write them back, but then I thought why not update in a blog? It's funny though because I feel like there is nothing going on... but i do realize that people start to wonder what is going on when you are quiet. (Deb & Bess, not talking about you in that instance, you ladies always che... Wed, 13 Jul 2016 00:38:25 EST STEPH-KNEE UNCENSORED: VOL 6 - It Just Got Real <img src=""> <BR> I have done a few of these in the past, hence volume 6! These blogs are a little different because they usually stem from some journaling that is meant just for myself and my eyes. <em>246</em> But this one actually came from me responding to my good friend Lynn. She not only listens to me, gives me advice, but she shares so much of herself with me that it really makes me think! <BR> <BR> So I... Wed, 6 Jul 2016 06:37:59 EST