STARSUB99's SparkPeople Blog STARSUB99's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Day 4 - mid day catch up So my cold turns out to be acute bronchitis. I knew something was up after a week of not getting any better... took myself to the walk in clinic and good thing I did. I'm glad I listened to my body and did not go to work. It is always hard making that choice - I like many need that steady income and always feel stressed when I am not at work. <BR> Anyways... <BR> I'm milking it for all its worth. I could use a little down time. But I'm not totally down for the count. just not my usua... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 13:43:46 EST Day 2 Well today is day 2. Yes I feel better mentally that I"m taking action and doing something about turning myself from fat to fit. <BR> <BR> I actually made a smoothy this morning. Yup. Frozen mixed berries, low fat milk and protein powder. I had breakfast. Did I feel better. Yup. <BR> <BR> Mid day - No Diet coke. Water with fresh lemon squeeze and ice cubes. <BR> All Afternoon - - No Diet coke. Water.... Get my drift???? do I feel better . Yup. <BR> <BR> Grocery shopping on the w... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 21:47:36 EST Easing Back into Sparking Ok I say to myself today... enough with the "thinking about it". Stop anaylyzing and just do it. <BR> So today with my miserable cold I am back to this. I have been eyeing everything that has gone across my lips for the past 2 weeks and thinking - Really? and a few things stayed on the platter. Boxes of chocolates got handed over to neighbours as happy new years gifts. <BR> <BR> And another year has passed by. My birthday (thanks for all the wishes) was on December 29. <BR> And I though... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 20:01:01 EST 11 months and 30 lbs UP - But I"m BAck!!!!!!!!!! Hey to anyone who meanders by this blog post.... <BR> NO GIVE UP! That's the message. After 11 months and 30 lbs added to my not so keen physique - I am back. <BR> I got all caught up in working a new job... being busy and not looking after myself. What did I learn? <BR> When I don't look after myself I get cranky. I don't hang out enough with my friends to get that much needed laughter... I can spend amazing amounts of time on the couch when no one in looking .. <BR> <BR> ....and most ... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 20:50:14 EST Round Round We Go…. How is it 2014 already? Yikes! so much for my 2013 goals….. let's just say that it was like running around in a big circle - moving forward but not increasing the fitness or decreasing the weight - ended up right where I began…. well not really… I learned a lot about myself along the way. <BR> <BR> Let's just say I had more than a few major stressors this past year and I was not good at staying on track and looking out for me when things slid sideways. <BR> <BR> I had 2 new job starts th... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 16:15:06 EST What's in a Month Well, all I can say is I've been gone for about a month and I'm trying very hard to get back into the swing of things. It has been stressful with family stuff and getting used to a new job…time has been tight and I confess to not making many nutritious meals - opting for frozen pizza and hamburger helper on more than one occasion…. <BR> But it hasn't been all bad. The cold winter came early so I have been hunkering down on the couch in the evening complaining to myself about the cold while... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 19:37:18 EST This Week I Will... I will work hard to stay on track.... I'm starting a new job tomorrow and I have to be super vigilant with what I eat during the day when I am out and about in the community. <BR> <BR> I will walk at least 5 kms over the week. <BR> <BR> I will drink my water - every day - throughout the day... and so far so good with no diet coke for 4 days now... <BR> <BR> I will pack my lunch and eat it instead of giving in to fast food drive thru's. <BR> <BR> I will cuddle up with my husband on the cou... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 15:50:11 EST Saying Goodbye to Diet Coke. This is one of my top Love-Hate relationships. Diet Coke. Cold right from the can. Love it! <BR> Hate being addicted to it. <BR> <BR> I know - I've been eating fresh - home made = got rid of all the processed foods.... but this was my last hold out. I've been downing this stuff since my early 20's - was it out then? That seems to be the memory - from Tab to Diet Coke 30 years of this???? (Now there's a blast from the past - who remembers Tab!) <BR> <BR> Time to get smart. I ha... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 20:06:52 EST Okay - This is going better.... So it is halfway through the month and I am finally getting it together. <BR> This past week I really focused on getting the eating under control. And I lost 2 lbs. <BR> Yeah for me! <BR> <BR> I think at times I get so crazy trying to do it all that nothing sticks. So I'm working on keeping a focus where it counts the most. Food and nutrition. I heard from a nutritionist that with weight loss it is 80% what you eat, 10% exercise, and 10% supplements. Weird I thought. And then she said ... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 11:42:10 EST Stacking the Deck In my favor. Everyone has been very polite "not noticing" that on my weight tracker I've packed on 13 lbs over the summer. OMG. There I said it out loud. Now with the family issues and new job that was just a big fiasco - let's just say that I forgot everything I learned in the past year and just went into survival mode..... <BR> <BR> I did not eat healthy. I was running between work and the hospital and the most exercise I got was walking from the parking lot to palliative care. Why is it so hard ... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 20:48:48 EST Another Day One! Here I go again... I know I get better at this every time I get back into the groove. <BR> So I have updated my spark page and bought my fresh food for the rest of the week. <BR> I'm easing into this - food and water first - exercise will be added next week. I am not going to overwhelm myself trying to do it all at once. <BR> Simple easy steps. <BR> Getting out the slow cooker for the weekend....tomorrow I wash and fold all my exercise duds so I am ready to go next week. <BR> Switched from f... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 15:37:09 EST Easing Back into " normal" Well..... the summer was emotionally the toughest I've ever been through. My mom died peacefully two weeks ago after a tough battle with pancreatic cancer. She went downhill fast after her diagnosis in June. Early August she went into palliative care and passed the first week of September. We are all struggling and shuffling through the days as we move forward. <BR> <BR> I know that for me getting back into a normal routine is what I need. Some stability after a rocky emotional time. I ... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 11:59:56 EST Checking in - Summer is moving right along..... Hey - I'm looking on the bright side of things today. I have a few minutes alone to catch up with my spark family - chicken is baking in the oven... I have some green beans ready to steam up and team up with my chicken... and I'm just kicking back with my cats while hubby is out at the lake on vacation. <BR> My mom is having her struggles adjusting to new pain medications but they are doing a wonderful job of looking after her through Cancer Care at the Health Sciences Centre. I have a frie... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 19:23:38 EST Tough Times Hi Everyone: Many have noticed that I have been away for a month or so. My mom was diagnosed with terminal cancer a month ago. She has never been sick and this came out of know where. The cancer is in her abdominal organs and she is going down hill fast. <BR> <BR> They say 6 months or so - but she is struggling to keep food down and has lost her will to fight. She is using her faith in God to get her through these last months and is quite at peace wiyh the whole thing. <BR> <BR> It i... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 21:15:55 EST Back to Work Literally. My quest to have my own business hit a big road bump last month - 2 upcoming contracts for the spring/summer got postponed and here I was caught with my proverbial pants down..... and I did not freak out. <BR> <BR> I think all this planning and doing with spark has helped me keep my eye on the big picture. So I loaded up my resume on every site I could find - and someone found me. I lucked out big time. Not any dream job... just a steady sales job with a professional company. ... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 20:38:09 EST Skulking in the background I am having one of those months -- - not on track not off track but not able to pull it all together. Feeling out of sorts. Out of the loop. All that kind of stuff. You know when you don't bother to pick up the phone to call or text anyone cause you feel like there is absolutely nothing to talk about??? That's me - skulking in the background.... <BR> <BR> Hubby and I have been watching what we eat and I'm still hovering in the low 200's. Just can't seem to get myself back intoonederland ... Mon, 27 May 2013 13:32:37 EST EAt to live - Day 4 I'm trying this EAt to Live program again. We did this a few years ago and had some good results and some of the habits stayed with us - eating less starches... less bread etc.... for those of you who aren't familiar with this plan - check it out on the internet - - - Eat to Live is a book/program by Dr. Joel Fuhrman... <BR> <BR> Hubby is doing it with me. We are not fanatics - but we are doing it 95% - I'm refusing to give up my morning coffee at this point and once a week we will enjo... Mon, 13 May 2013 21:28:44 EST My new weight loss buddy. Hubby went for his annual physical 2 weeks ago. Went for his results yesterday....Cholesterol good. Blood pressure okay. Prostrate healthy. Weight - over board. <BR> <BR> He comes home and announces - I must lose 30 lbs - I am going back in 2 months and the doctor wants to see results! We gotta get serious about this!!!!! <BR> <BR> Well I've been doing modified Eat to Live plan - and its working somewhat for me but it's been tough going full bore on it when hubby is eating and snacking ... Sat, 11 May 2013 20:24:24 EST 10,000 Spark Points! Well yesterday I was moping around about my "nots" - not doing this and not doing that.... and I was wallowing about nearing 10,000 spark points and barely dragging myself across the line.... <BR> <BR> Well screw that! Today I put on my shoes and went out for a walk. 5kms worth thank you very much - so I moved my way across the 10,000 point marker and I feel better about myself already. <BR> <BR> Tracked my vector cereal with banana and low fat milk for breakfast. Had some water. Did my w... Mon, 6 May 2013 17:38:36 EST Time for an Attitude Overhaul Oh my! Have I been in a bad space or what? I've just browsed over my past few blog entries over April and overall - I NEED an OVERHAUL!. <BR> <BR> It has just been a tough month. I have zero fitness minutes. Yup. Zero. Not a proud moment. And the tracking has been sporadic at best.... and I see I am fast approaching 10,000 spark points - and I have to take a minute and pause to reflect... 10,000 is like a milestone and I'm just dragging myself over the marker instead of doing a high fiv... Sun, 5 May 2013 18:16:58 EST Okay - So I lied - I'll start today instead The best of intentions went out the window this week. Okay that's a bit harsh. Why is it that when I have a good plan to start something new all kinds of crazy things come my way. It's the proverbial BIG TEST OF GRIT! <BR> <BR> I had my veggies and salad and beans and all that stuff stocked up on Monday morning. The day went just fine and I was right on track... and then wednesday rolls along and someone has quit at work and they need me in as many evenings as I can cover... and I need t... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 14:52:15 EST Getting back in the driver's seat Last night I was lying in bed thinking about the past few days, weeks etc.... how up and down it's been and how I've started being too reactive - giving in to junk foods, not making time to work out and just letting the days slide by without looking after me. <BR> <BR> So i had a good talk with myself and decided that I need a little structure. I need to get into the driver's seat and get control of this ride of life that I am on. Sitting in the back row just ain't doing it for me. <BR> <... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 14:21:23 EST Mini Blow outs and all that jazz OH it's been a rough week. Ups and downs. And my eating has followed suit. What I have learned from my mini blowouts ( the whole box of mini eclairs, a family size bag of chips - - ok not on the same day but you get my drift) they aren't worth it. <BR> <BR> I felt like crap after the mini eclair episode - why I even bought them ... well lets not go there... feeling like I"m owed something... like I deserve a treat - - but let's face it = they are evil and should not come into my ca... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 13:17:43 EST Turning it around I am not liking the view from where I am standing - so I'm going to go stand somewhere else. HA! How bout that. I had my rant last week about being stuck... and I got some great advice from great supportive people on all the things I can do to get unstuck. <BR> <BR> So the first one I thought I'd tackle was being nicer to me. I know - do the hardest one first and the rest will come easier..... I curled up on the couch at the lake and read a romantic mystery for most of Friday night. Sat... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 21:53:13 EST Stuck Stuck and More Stuck I am having one of those stretches.... stuck - stuck and more stuck.... That's how I feel. <BR> <BR> It is as if the world is conspiring against me. I want my April to be a kick start - to get me off that plateau that I've been sitting on for months. And it's barely a toe in the dirt. I set the great challenges for myself and then I crap out. <BR> <BR> So much for 1000 fitness minutes this month - I'm sitting at zero on the 11th. <BR> So much for hitting 10000 spark points this month.... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 12:53:53 EST Circles of Friends... the ins and outs Well there sure is no spring in the air here today. Cold windy and miserable outside - the rain is sure to start up any minute. And I've been thinking about things... <BR> <BR> Today I was missing my " good weather river walk"... so I went for a drive. And I drove alongside the river checking out the bare scenery. The river is open in some spots but overall - it's still a frozen wasteland. And what is with the geese that have shown up already? Did they get their signals crossed???? I ... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 12:29:32 EST April - game on! Join Steph-Knee and me This is going to be a short one..... <BR> <BR> Steph-Knee and me have been sort of stuck in a rut - stuck on a plateau - and just sort of stuck overall.... <BR> <BR> So for April - we have a simple challenge.... 1000 fitness minutes and 10 pounds down. <BR> That's it. Figure out how to make it happen. Switch up the foods - I'm doing lots of fresh produce, lean protein and lots of ice water... <BR> <BR> Fitness DVD's with Bob Harper and walking - that's what I"m doing for fitness minutes ... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 17:09:02 EST I feel good - da da da da da da da.... This afternoon I went to workout. Yup. After two weeks of sloth and shaking my fist at the crappy winter weather outside my door - I met up with my fitness buddy and we went for a 60 minute walk on the indoor track. <BR> <BR> Oh the sunshine was streaming in the windows - the tunes were blaring and we caught up on two weeks worth of gossip and work news and all that stuff. I feel refreshed.... and she was so glad that I had called her - turns out she had fallen off that wagon too! <BR> ... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 18:20:23 EST My Date with Fitness Tomorrow. Yup. Tomorrow - that's what I've been saying for over 3 weeks now and when I looked at my meager 105 fitness minutes for the month of March - I was ashamed. What the heck did I do ( or not do?) with this month. I've fallen right off the fitness wagon into the closest snow bank and stayed there. <BR> <BR> This is just not like me. I was bitten by the fitness bug in November and I was doing pretty darn good making it to the gym for some treadmill time and a few laps in the pool..... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 17:27:48 EST Pretending to lose weight... This is me all dolled up in my front yard yesterday afternoon after clearing yet another foot of snow from the driveway and front walk.... <img src=""> <BR> Notice that big drift beside me??? And what is the date today??? <BR> Enough already. <BR> I have been avoiding going out unless it is absolutely necessary. It is also minus 30 today. Ridiculous. <BR> <BR> My motivation is right out the window! I don't even want to think how long i... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 17:17:16 EST Sparking with the boys I work part time at an adolescent assessment center where 6 boys rotate through the center - and they each spend 4 - 6 months in residence while they wait to find out where their permanent placement will be. These teens have all been surrendered by whomever cared for them for a variety of reasons.... they come from a variety of backgrounds, but they all have one thing in common. They are hungry all the time! And they are in a weigh station in the journey of their lives. <BR> <BR> Now I pers... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 20:01:31 EST Anyone else feeling stuck??? ARGHHHHH!!!!! That's the best way to describe how I am feeling this week. I have been stuck in the 198 - 202 range for a month now. I so want to put that 200 solidly into the rearview mirror and it just ain't happening......Just like that darn snow outside just doesn't seem to want to go away - it's the same with this extra weight.....I tend to get stuck here alot. Now I"m trying to work on pushing through to get a few extra pounds between me and the dreaded 200. <BR> <BR> I know - I know... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 11:30:57 EST The Big Burger Bit me Back The spur of the moment invitation for a lunch out got me all excited earlier today. My husband called - a friend of ours wanted to try out the new restaurant in the next town over - and my day was dragging - so YES! I was all in. Let's do it! Yummy salad someone else put together - I can do this! <BR> <BR> Now I've been doing really well with managing my calories and staying on track ..... and then I saw that big juicy burger in the menu - with the jack daniels bbq sauce and the crispy on... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 18:49:58 EST BMI - The good the bad and the ugly Today I decided to check out where I am at with BMI. <BR> 40.1 - Obese Class lll, <BR> Shame on me for letting it get so far out of control. <BR> I fooled around with it to see where I need to be to get out of the obese category and into the overweight category. 145 lbs. HOLY CRAP! I'm 199 lbs. That is quite a way to go and that will only be part of the way to where I need to end up - hmmmm a mid term goal....... <BR> <BR> The good thing is I can remember about 20 years ago I was that we... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 13:51:40 EST Getting my groove back Oh phooey on me - I've been back from vacation for two weeks and today is the first time I made it back to the gym. I confess. I have been shoveling snow and I did a DVD one morning - but overall I've been on the lazy side of the fitness equation. And the weird thing is I was able to lose the weight I put on during vacation while not working out - just watching what I ate. <BR> <BR> So maybe there is some truth to the rumor that diet is more important than working out? Hmmmm - not saying... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 14:57:02 EST 11 Months on spark - thanks everyone.... Well this is coming up to one year since I joined Sparkpeople last April and I have one month left in this " year" to end it off with a bang! <BR> <BR> I've dropped pounds through weeks of sheer determination to stick with the program and I've gained pounds back through other months of sloth and a couple weeks vacation. Overall I'm coming out ahead by 21 pounds so far. <BR> <BR> Now I know the scale is only one way to measure - so I am going to slide past it for now and recognize other t... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 16:52:56 EST I won this weekend Okay .- it's not officially over yet - but I am claiming a victory over the weekend today! You see the weekends are always tough for me - all those foods and fancy drinks teasing me - winking at me - testing me to give them a try. It is the hardest time of all for me.... I can be great all week and then blow the whole thing on a weekend of food lust. <BR> <BR> So this weekend we were at the cabin and had company. Two strikes for the weight control police. I planned menus with my friend ... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 20:41:34 EST Back to Onderland Oh how happy I was stepping on the scale yesterday and seeing that 199 smiling up at me. YES! I waited until today to own it - and there it was again - 199. I'm taking it! <BR> <BR> After gaining 7 lbs on holidays - 6 are now officially gone and I'm most happy about being back in Onederland. I just feel so accomplished when I see the 1 on the scale. I was so mortified when I ate my way up to 220 - my first real goal was to get back into the one hundreds. It might just be a number b... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 13:21:44 EST Dealing with change is tough some days.... I've just felt all over the map since I got back from holidays. I've been having trouble getting back into a good routine and I can't imagine I'm saying this but I miss my routine. I am changing my ways and I feel a bit off kilter with the changes inside me. This is a bit introspective and I'm trying to figure things out - so I apologize for the length but want to share this struggle. I don't think I'm alone here - but I wonder how others have fared with their friends as they have made c... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 13:42:26 EST One pound at a time will still get me where I want to go. Whew! Last week I never made it to the gym once. I never worked out at home - not once. But I did stay on track with my food plan and tracking. I was nervous stepping on the scale this morning - but Woo Hoo! Down a pound. Now I'm only 1 pound away from my pre- vacation weight and only 2 pounds from Onderland. <BR> <BR> I'll take it! Someone once reminded me that one pound is a lot. Nothing to scoff at. One pound of butter. Yup - that's a fair size of fat to slough off in just 7 d... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 15:12:04 EST Where did the week go? How can March be creeping up this fast? How did it become Sunday afternoon already? Here comes my big whine fest... this is not pretty..... We got back from holidays last week and I had all these great intentions about getting back into my groove - and poof! The week is gone and my workout bag is still sitting in the bedroom where I left it after packing it all up and getting it ready to go last weekend. <BR> <BR> I had all these great intentions -and never made it to the gym once - never mind the gym I didn't even slide a dvd in... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 17:35:28 EST Gaining Control It is a wonder some days how to gain control over so many things that can seem so out of control. I've been working on being mindful. On slowing down and thinking about what I am doing before I do it. It works to some degree - and I'm sure as I get better at it - it will come more easily. <BR> <BR> I'm taking a lunch break today in my home office. Enjoying the sunshine coming in through the patio doors. I can't control the weather - it is minus 24 outside. But it is warm inside. Letti... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 13:38:11 EST A little evil motivator is on my shoulder.... Two weeks of holiday behind me - and 5 new pounds on my behind! I was gonna wait til tomorrow to step on the scale - give myself a couple of days to adjust - but then this morning the scale was looking up at me from the bathroom floor and I decided to just get it over with.... Back up to 205. Crap. <BR> <BR> But it was so worth it - we had such a good time away - now its back to reality. Yesterday we went shopping for groceries and picked up lots of fresh fruit and salad stuff. Some chic... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 17:01:19 EST What I learned on my winter vacation. We are back home after a wonderful two weeks in Punta Mita Mexico. The weather here back home in Manitoba was rather gentle coming back - only minus 10 - but there is a weather watch out today - expecting a storm tonight........ I will post some pictures of the holiday later when I get organized and download from my camera. We rented a car for the whole two weeks - quite the splurge for us - so we went all over the area checking out beaches and small towns, bartering at the markets - stum... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 13:42:56 EST Sparking in Mexico Well it is a great holiday so far.... lots of walking.... hanging out with great friends some new some from last year and having a blast. <BR> We have been walking most mornings around our little Mexican village. The shoes I bought with stability inserts are working great on the cobblestone streets. Have also done some walking on the beach but I must confess I have spent more time watching the surf roll in with a light beer in my hand, lounging in a comfy beach chair. <BR> We are staying at... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 22:51:18 EST Getting it over with...getting back on track after a blow out. So day 1 on the road trip and I do well for the first few hours. Found a market placea and got a grilled chicken breast sandwich on foccacia bread with veggies and a bowl of melon pieces. Water. Then I went looking for drinks to fill up my mini bar. Hmmmed over beer or wine for a treat... light beer won. Then I got some waters and a couple of diet cokes. <BR> <BR> My buddies were busy for dinner so I was on my own. I'm at the Westin hotel and there is not much for light eating around ... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 15:03:36 EST Getting ready for the road trip Today I started getting ready for my trip to Ottawa ON for the Cannexus 13 convention. I went to Walmart and treated myself to a few new make up items - sparkly nailpolish and a new poof for the shower. New undies a size smaller thank you very much! And a couple of scarves with some glitter running through them to jazz up my wardrobe. <BR> <BR> Then I spent some time thinking about what I"m going to eat. Before on road trips I would stash some choclate bars and a few cans of pringles int... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 20:48:12 EST 3 day streak - no night time snacking I think this is a first in a long time. 3 days not snacking at night after dinner. It is tough but I m focused. I turned out the lights in the kitchen as a reminder that food time is over. <BR> I did sip down 2 diet cokes - I know these are not good for you - but they are my one last vice that I am not ready to give up. I 've had an on again off again relationship with the diet coke - right now I am on again. <BR> <BR> 3 days doesn't sound like much but for those who struggle with this o... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 14:18:31 EST Eating the Essentials I've been thinking on and off today - between calls and work and everything else about food as fuel. I read this on a spark blog - sorry I can't recall who's it was... but the jist of it was that the person had got to goal by thinking of food as fuel first. <BR> <BR> I mean really - how much food do I really need to keep me going? Obviously less than I've been eating based on my weight! So now the deal is to get to eating less so that I don't stall out - but I'm also getting the requireme... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 19:02:29 EST With my husband on board.... Mr. Husband announced this afternoon that he needed to lose some weight. This was on the way to the grocery store. "Challenge number one coming up" I thought to myself - and out loud I said... " Tell me more about this losing weight - What does that look like to you?" <BR> <BR> So he talked about when he was 40 lbs lighter and felt better. I asked him if the lunches I've been packing have helped him feel better and he agreed that yes they did ( he used to grab fast food on the run) - and ... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 19:23:05 EST