STARSUB99's SparkPeople Blog STARSUB99's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Freshing Up for Fall I met Melissa the Dietician last spring when I decided once again that I had to do something different if I wanted to be successful this time around. I have 100+ pounds to lose. <BR> <BR> I had some success in the first few months. And I'm not talking about pounds magically melting away. She was helping me learn how to feed myself properly. I never learned this growing up. As an adult I made some headway when I was on weight watchers and picking up info from magazines etc. But it nev... Mon, 26 Sep 2016 17:02:55 EST Tough to Stay on Track Today I'm having one of those days - you know - when you want to eat everything you can think of??? <BR> I had breakfast. I brought lunch. And of course it's been a busy day at work and when I stop to think... NO WATER!!!!!! - I haven't had any water since this morning.... <BR> Time to start sucking it back! <BR> <BR> It's funny how if I make the time to listen to myself - I find the answers. Thirsty not hungry. <BR> Oh well - another mystery solved. <BR> <BR> tonight I'm going to get my ha... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 16:10:55 EST Weekend Success Well... we finished installing the pine ceiling throughout our cottage this weekend. Another major project completed. <BR> And I survived the weekend staying within my calorie range each day. It was a struggle I admit to stick to one cocktail a day when many around me were having beer breaks - I was chugging water with lemon. I must admit I miss a cold beer on a hot day. But really? It's not that big of a deal. NO one noticed I was chugging water. No one commented. <BR> <BR> I enjoyed ... Tue, 6 Sep 2016 11:10:31 EST Melissa My Dietician How much can I say about how much I love Melissa? <BR> I have been off the rails from my quest to lose weight and shape up for most of the summer. I cancelled appointments with Melissa. I didn't go to the pool. I didn't drink enough water.... and the slide was all consuming. <BR> <BR> Last week I got an email from Melissa. " Just checking in. Would enjoy hearing how your summer is going..." I felt guilty. Then I remembered how much better I was doing when I showed up for our appointme... Tue, 30 Aug 2016 09:35:48 EST Struggling with a Low Point in my Journey I can't pinpoint the day ... or the week... but oh have I gotten off track. <BR> I was so pumped up this spring - I was seeing the dietician... swimming a few mornings a week and eating healthy meals most of the time. <BR> <BR> And there I was yesterday surfing the net looking at bariatric surgery options, info etc. The struggle to stay on track has been overwhelming with work, family, renovations.. visitors - all the stuff that makes up life... and here I am back up at 236 lbs. I lost my m... Tue, 16 Aug 2016 11:49:19 EST I was Stuck til I Changed it UP! This whole healthy lifestyle to lose weight and feel better can be downright frustrating some days. I'm working on doing it right this time. Not trying to change a million things at once - instead doing one thing till it feels right - then adding another new change. <BR> <BR> But I must admit I had become complacent. I was pretty much saddled up with eating in my calorie range. Drinking my 8 or more glasses of lemon water daily. Struggled a bit with making exercise a priority but I w... Thu, 9 Jun 2016 10:24:10 EST Looking beyond the numbers on the scale. I've been a bit stuck on the weigh scale this past month. Learning how to eat properly and getting my exercise routine down has been harder than I thought it would be. <BR> <BR> I have over a hundred pounds to lose and that is daunting. Its smaller things I need to celebrate to keep the momentum going. I was sharing with the dietician yesterday that it is seeming like so much work and I am only down 7 lbs. <BR> <BR> She's smart - so how do you feel? Less bloated. Could you say that 75... Tue, 31 May 2016 17:06:10 EST Finally in the 220 group <img src=""> <BR> So after 3 months of working at changing my eating drinking my water and working with the dietician I have dropped 7 lbs. I was stuck at 230..232 for a month... today 229. I know feeling better and learning a new lifestyle is important and motivating... but my old school inner self is chhering for the external confirmation that the needle on the scale moved. Tue, 31 May 2016 07:34:06 EST Time Out was Time well spent WE had our long weekend up here in Canada over the past 3 days. I was frustrated and knew that the weekend was going to be a danger zone to the Nth degree. I knew my husband had a big project on the plans - complete the siding on the shed at the lake - which means little or no time to go exercise. <BR> <BR> I know that 80% is what you eat - so that was where I put my efforts. We started Friday night with grilled chicken breast and steamed broccoli. Saturday morning - 2 eggs omelet fille... Tue, 24 May 2016 10:17:22 EST Time for a 30 day Challenge OKay. I am not waiting for the beginning of June. I'm starting today. 30 days of being the DONE GIRL. <BR> I am done with working at weight loss some of the time. I need to do it ALL of the time. <BR> I am done with making excuses for not working out. Really - how hard is it to go for a walk? <BR> I am done with other people forcing food my way. JUST SAY NO! GO AWAY! <BR> I am done with my bad attitude. I want to feel the JOY and looking after me makes me happy. <BR> 30 days - giving... Fri, 20 May 2016 14:04:25 EST Slow and Frustrating I know it took over 6 years to put all this extra poundage on - but really? It is becoming very frustrating trying to loose even a few pounds. <BR> I also know I have myself to blame. Made all kinds of excuses last week - didn't get one workout in. Yes I watched my calories during the week but had a total blow out on the weekend well actually Saturday all hell broke loose. <BR> It was my husbands 65th birthday on Saturday. I had planned a small party in the evening at the cottage - 10 peo... Mon, 16 May 2016 15:17:38 EST I can do this! wow. It's may already. Spring has sprung - the weather is way better - and I'm pumped to get out there and get moving. I've been out with a hip injury for 8 weeks. <BR> <BR> Last week I got the green light to do some walking and swimming. Did both and the hip held up. So this week I will crank it up another notch to 4 workouts. <BR> <BR> I've been seeing a dietician. Changing small things. One thing at a time. And it's working. I feel so much more in control of my eating - espec... Mon, 9 May 2016 17:26:34 EST January slip slip slipping away Well as we round the corner to the last week in January - I realize that my intentions are still good - just the delivery is a little weak. <BR> <BR> I committed to eating clean - and besides the KFC dinner with friends last night - and 2 6" subs at subway - I can say - I did really well with this one. Still struggling with portion sizes... but getting better at bringing lunch to work. Breakfast is the challenge. Getting to this regularly - well I know that some planning would be best in... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 12:30:03 EST In Fits and Starts Getting back into gear has been more of a challenge this time than I thought it would be. <BR> <BR> The eating clean and watching portion sizes - I'm about 65% there. I have made the effort to make a few pots of soup and I bring soup to work for lunch. Still having issues with eating breakfast. Not a habit I am into. I have that stupid idea I can "save" those calories for later.... which turns into a fit of spooning PB and Honey out of the jar at 11 pm... not good. <BR> <BR> The working... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 12:26:43 EST Swimming Swimming in the Swimming Pool I LOVE swimming. but I have been lazy. I haven't gone swimming for fitness for over a year. <BR> <BR> Last week I made a commitment to myself to start swimming again. No more excuses. It's good for me. I like it. So get going! I recently started working in a different city - smaller place and did not know where the local pool was. TIme to investigate.. Found it inside the local high school. <BR> <BR> So I went on my lunch break to find out what the score was. I met the Pool manager a... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 11:40:41 EST Swimming Swimming in the Swimming Pool I love swimming. I haven't gone swimming for over a year. <BR> <BR> My commitment to myself was to get back in the pool this new year. <BR> <BR> I did it. Went last week to check out the local pool in the new city where I now work. <BR> Got the morning lap swim schedule and bought a pool pass. <BR> <BR> I got up this morning. Had a bite of breakfast. Packed my swim bag and work clothes. <BR> Off I went. <BR> <BR> YES I DID IT!!!!! I made it to the pool and swam for 30 minutes. Breas... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 11:31:47 EST Its Time for a Do OVer Last spring I came back to spark. I was doing blazes til mid summer and then I fell off the proverbial wagon. Financial Stress, Marriage stress - health stress... too much stress. <BR> I just stopped looking after me. <BR> <BR> Well things are settling down now. I found a new job and after 6 weeks I can say I'm enjoying it. The hours are more regular. I don't have to bring work home. I have weekends off. It is so different from the crazy job I have had for the past 2 years. And the p... Sun, 29 Nov 2015 17:24:47 EST 100 + deays back with Spark Wow! 100 + days - I've been on holidays for 2 weeks. Hanging at the cottage. <BR> I checked into spark daily to keep the streak going - so every morning I grounded myself to stay on track. <BR> <BR> My big success is I did not gain 1 pound. I stayed the same - 219. I am so happy with this result because I was sort of loosey goosey with my tracking. <BR> <BR> I've learned to be more reasonable with myself during this 100 days. I have confidence now that I can move the scale number downw... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 11:29:14 EST 85 days on spark It can be a bit deceiving this 85 days. How tuned in have I been? I'd say about 75%. At the start I was all in..... dropped 10 lbs the first month - then another 5 now I've creeped up 2... but overall - let's take the positive and say we are in abetter place now than 85 days ago. <BR> <BR> I must admit the last few weeks I'm tracking food and paying attention -just not staying in the zone. I can feel it when I go over on the calories and eat foods that aren't very healthy choices. <BR> <... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 12:35:17 EST Feeling Good! Like I know that I should! Well - Let me say that getting myself moving again has done wonders for my confidence and mood. It was a struggle ... since April 1 when I started back on spark - it took me weeks to get out there and get moving. <BR> <BR> I am so proud to have earned a 500 fitness minutes award for June - already. Yes. Lazy me. Excuses me. I have got on the movement bandwagon and it is working. Gardening and walking. I feel better. My mood is improving. My confidence has gone up as the scale starte... Tue, 16 Jun 2015 10:22:54 EST Finally moved off the darn plateau OMG - talk about frustrating. First 6 weeks I dropped 11 lbs - focus - attention.... layering in all the good things.... then came the challenge. Sticking it out. Surviving a few weekend party situations. up and down the same few pounds.... <BR> <BR> So I stayed off the scale which was messing with my moods and confidence.... focus on the calories... got out to move in the yard doing some gardening... drinking my water and stayed on track for the weekend - and there goes the poundage -... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 12:32:20 EST gotta get moving I'm having some issues with getting myself moving again. <BR> Yes I did some gardening yesterday - getting the beds ready and today will be planting. <BR> <BR> Getting my sneakers on and going for a walk. Not so great. I've been doing the visualization and I know I will feel better if I just get out and do it. <BR> <BR> What is it that stops me from doing what I know will make me feel better in the long run? <BR> <BR> Hmmmm. I know its like doing dishes. Nobody wants to do the dishes bu... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 11:52:34 EST 40 days and 40 nights Wow! I've made it 40 days with Spark. And 40 nights. <BR> <BR> When I came back I wanted to drop my BMI from obese to fat as a first course of action. And you know what - no I didn't get there in 40 days - but I am down from 47.7 to 45.4. <BR> Moving in the right direction! <BR> <BR> Did I lose some weight? Yes - 11 lbs. Do I wish it was more? Of course. But hey I am working on the positives - so YES!!! I am DOWN 11 whole lbs. <BR> <BR> Nice to have it reinforced that I can make the... Fri, 22 May 2015 13:51:13 EST still working at it.... .working at it ... the small things. I tend to be an all or nothing kind of gal and I'm working hard at changing that. Starting with the small things. What I can control. What I can't control. <BR> <BR> Last weekend was not one of my stellar times. We had company coming and going at the cottage. Saturday evening I made myself take a time out - because I knew I was sliding fast into stuffing my face territory - - and drinking too many cocktails territory. <BR> <BR> It worked somewhat - ... Wed, 20 May 2015 15:31:44 EST 28 day streak! Wow! I have amazed myself. I'm still here. Still tracking and it is working. <BR> <BR> I finally feel like I'm back again. Started with tracking all the food I put in my face- that stopped a lot of the craziness. For me tracking food really works. I feel accountable to myself when I'm on spark. And I'm just tire of being the fat girl. I can't even connect with the pictures of myself. Who is that??? When I look in the mirror - I finally hit - my level of disgust with myself on what b... Sun, 10 May 2015 13:26:56 EST No gain - No loss - Lesson Learned Okay - 1st week with no change on the digital scale. <BR> The good news is no gain. <BR> The sad news is no loss. <BR> But really - I need to be honest - I did not plan the week or the weekend last 7 days. <BR> And clearly - If I want to lose - I have to plan better. <BR> <BR> I'm still not good at knowing the calories in foods - so back to the drawing board. I plan out the week for the main meals on the tracker and adjust as I go every day. That worked. And the type of food makes a diff... Fri, 8 May 2015 11:51:09 EST Need some beef Well that's just how I feel today. We don't eat a lot of meat. We've cut down significantly over the past 2 months. But somedays I just need the beef. Not sure if I'm not getting enough protein... or whatever... but I just want to get away from the salad and lentils for a day. <BR> <BR> It's probably the weather too. It's been grey and rainy. So I've defrosted some lean ground beef and I'm gonna make my version of home made hamburger helper. It's so easy to make - I added the recipe to... Thu, 7 May 2015 15:07:01 EST may - maybe - may oui! Four days into May. Time to get on track. The weekend was a little bit overboard. Poor planning. That's all it was. And then there was the guacamole on Saturday afternoon with multigrain tostidos and a cold beer. OK. That was so worth it. Our first warm afternoon up here. I don't regret that sidebar at all. <BR> <BR> So maybe I need to spend more time planning the weekends. I realize that last weekend we planned all our meals and it went smooth. This past weekend - not so good. We... Mon, 4 May 2015 15:27:53 EST April in Review Ok. I came back this April after a year of sloth and stress... up 36 lbs from my original spark days. <BR> <BR> I decided to focus on food first - as the saying goes - " you can't out run your fork". <BR> So... I started tracking food to be accountable to myself - cause it works for me. And I had more good days in the range than tough days. Proud to say - I'm down 10 lbs since April 1. <BR> <BR> The other thing I did that really helped me feel better was to start drinking my water. An... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 12:11:44 EST Tomorrow is weigh in day I am hoping that the scale agrees with how I am feeling and comes down a pound this week. <BR> I am t.rying not to step on the darn thing daily. <BR> I know I feel better this week. <BR> I am more in control of my choices when it has come to eating and preparing meals. <BR> I am drinking my water - daily - and it makes a difference feeling the hydration. <BR> I read an article recently that showed a woman in her forties who changed only one thing. For a month she drank her 8 glasses of wate... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 14:14:01 EST Breakfast out with the neighbours Another curve ball. my husband is working split shift this week. So he calls on his way home from morning shift and says " let's call the neighbours and go out for breakfast" <BR> <BR> Okay. So I was only on my morning coffee. That was good. But breakfast out - danger!! Ding Ding Ding!!! goes my brain. <BR> <BR> But it all turned out okay. We went to the place up the highway. I ordered the morning special. I looked down at the whole plate full of food and said to myself. Nope. Yo... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 14:07:37 EST Survived the Weekend Weekends are always tough. We did pretty good sticking to our plan this weekend. <BR> I did find myself mindlesslessly downing party mix at the Tanners on Saturday night - Woah!!!!!! There. After a few handfuls I moved my butt to the other end of the room. <BR> <BR> I do like to have a bit of alcohol on the weekends.... kept it tight this weekend. Had one beer with the guys when we finished building the deck addition and Had 2 glasses of wine with dinner Saturday night. Ok so Saturday calo... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 21:14:47 EST Getting into the Groove Today I ate breakfast. First time I n forever. Just a slice of rye toast with some peanut butter and jam. I initially grabbed the 2 slices - so they aren't lonely - but put one back in the bread bag. <BR> <BR> I sat and ate it with my c.offee. Did it make a big difference to my day? Honestly no. <BR> But I know breakfast is important so I'm making an effort. <BR> <BR> We are at the lake now for the weekend. It's beautiful out here. And it's all about the food. <BR> I carefully packed... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 17:36:20 EST When losing is winning Wow. April 1st I decided that enough was enough. I had ballooned up to 236 lbs. At just under 5 Ft tall that is not a good thing. <BR> <BR> I was even brave enough to look at the BMI calculator on the internet for the truth. BMI - 46.6 OBESE. Okay - no way to spin that one. The bold ugly truth. No more - I'm getting a little big here. No more - I could lose a few pounds. <BR> <BR> I made a list of what was tough with the extra weight. Getting my socks on. Shaving my legs. Wipin... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 13:03:03 EST Well there goes Wednesday Today was a good day. I did some errands in the morning and when I got home I made a pot of soup. Felt good chopping and adding seasonings. The house smelled wonderful. <BR> <BR> In the afternoon my husband came home and we spent the afternoon in the yard. <BR> Super windy.... so forget trimming the trees on the windbreak. Instead we emptied out the shed. PUlled out the ride on mower and put away the snowblower. <BR> <BR> Now it really feels like spring. The lawntracker is out! And ... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 21:36:07 EST Birthdays and Families Yesterday evening we went to see our youngest sons family after dinner. <BR> It was Gabriella's 15th birthday on Friday so we went to celebrate, drop off a little gift and hang out with the kids. <BR> <BR> Now none of us are lightweights if you know what I mean. I brought ice cream birthday themed sandwhiches for portion control. They loaded up the coffee table with chips and salsa - butter tarts, ice teas etc. <BR> <BR> I visited. I forced myself to sit back in the chair and not lean ... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 11:36:57 EST Spring has Sprung Oh well.... it seems all I accomplished last winter was gaining 6 pounds. Not anything to be proud of. <BR> <BR> But its getting better. The last few weeks I got back into the eating healthy and clean and got rid of the 6 nasty lbs. Now I still have 100 to go - but it's being in the less than 100 to lose that I am focusing on. <BR> <BR> My friends Lisa and Glenys came by for a visit on Thursday and came with a roasted chicken and kale salad. Now that's friends. Glenys has lost 40 lbs s... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 14:09:24 EST Day 4 - mid day catch up So my cold turns out to be acute bronchitis. I knew something was up after a week of not getting any better... took myself to the walk in clinic and good thing I did. I'm glad I listened to my body and did not go to work. It is always hard making that choice - I like many need that steady income and always feel stressed when I am not at work. <BR> Anyways... <BR> I'm milking it for all its worth. I could use a little down time. But I'm not totally down for the count. just not my usua... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 13:43:46 EST Day 2 Well today is day 2. Yes I feel better mentally that I"m taking action and doing something about turning myself from fat to fit. <BR> <BR> I actually made a smoothy this morning. Yup. Frozen mixed berries, low fat milk and protein powder. I had breakfast. Did I feel better. Yup. <BR> <BR> Mid day - No Diet coke. Water with fresh lemon squeeze and ice cubes. <BR> All Afternoon - - No Diet coke. Water.... Get my drift???? do I feel better . Yup. <BR> <BR> Grocery shopping on the w... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 21:47:36 EST Easing Back into Sparking Ok I say to myself today... enough with the "thinking about it". Stop anaylyzing and just do it. <BR> So today with my miserable cold I am back to this. I have been eyeing everything that has gone across my lips for the past 2 weeks and thinking - Really? and a few things stayed on the platter. Boxes of chocolates got handed over to neighbours as happy new years gifts. <BR> <BR> And another year has passed by. My birthday (thanks for all the wishes) was on December 29. <BR> And I though... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 20:01:01 EST 11 months and 30 lbs UP - But I"m BAck!!!!!!!!!! Hey to anyone who meanders by this blog post.... <BR> NO GIVE UP! That's the message. After 11 months and 30 lbs added to my not so keen physique - I am back. <BR> I got all caught up in working a new job... being busy and not looking after myself. What did I learn? <BR> When I don't look after myself I get cranky. I don't hang out enough with my friends to get that much needed laughter... I can spend amazing amounts of time on the couch when no one in looking .. <BR> <BR> ....and most ... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 20:50:14 EST Round Round We Go…. How is it 2014 already? Yikes! so much for my 2013 goals….. let's just say that it was like running around in a big circle - moving forward but not increasing the fitness or decreasing the weight - ended up right where I began…. well not really… I learned a lot about myself along the way. <BR> <BR> Let's just say I had more than a few major stressors this past year and I was not good at staying on track and looking out for me when things slid sideways. <BR> <BR> I had 2 new job starts th... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 16:15:06 EST What's in a Month Well, all I can say is I've been gone for about a month and I'm trying very hard to get back into the swing of things. It has been stressful with family stuff and getting used to a new job…time has been tight and I confess to not making many nutritious meals - opting for frozen pizza and hamburger helper on more than one occasion…. <BR> But it hasn't been all bad. The cold winter came early so I have been hunkering down on the couch in the evening complaining to myself about the cold while... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 19:37:18 EST This Week I Will... I will work hard to stay on track.... I'm starting a new job tomorrow and I have to be super vigilant with what I eat during the day when I am out and about in the community. <BR> <BR> I will walk at least 5 kms over the week. <BR> <BR> I will drink my water - every day - throughout the day... and so far so good with no diet coke for 4 days now... <BR> <BR> I will pack my lunch and eat it instead of giving in to fast food drive thru's. <BR> <BR> I will cuddle up with my husband on the cou... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 15:50:11 EST Saying Goodbye to Diet Coke. This is one of my top Love-Hate relationships. Diet Coke. Cold right from the can. Love it! <BR> Hate being addicted to it. <BR> <BR> I know - I've been eating fresh - home made = got rid of all the processed foods.... but this was my last hold out. I've been downing this stuff since my early 20's - was it out then? That seems to be the memory - from Tab to Diet Coke 30 years of this???? (Now there's a blast from the past - who remembers Tab!) <BR> <BR> Time to get smart. I ha... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 20:06:52 EST Okay - This is going better.... So it is halfway through the month and I am finally getting it together. <BR> This past week I really focused on getting the eating under control. And I lost 2 lbs. <BR> Yeah for me! <BR> <BR> I think at times I get so crazy trying to do it all that nothing sticks. So I'm working on keeping a focus where it counts the most. Food and nutrition. I heard from a nutritionist that with weight loss it is 80% what you eat, 10% exercise, and 10% supplements. Weird I thought. And then she said ... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 11:42:10 EST Stacking the Deck In my favor. Everyone has been very polite "not noticing" that on my weight tracker I've packed on 13 lbs over the summer. OMG. There I said it out loud. Now with the family issues and new job that was just a big fiasco - let's just say that I forgot everything I learned in the past year and just went into survival mode..... <BR> <BR> I did not eat healthy. I was running between work and the hospital and the most exercise I got was walking from the parking lot to palliative care. Why is it so hard ... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 20:48:48 EST Another Day One! Here I go again... I know I get better at this every time I get back into the groove. <BR> So I have updated my spark page and bought my fresh food for the rest of the week. <BR> I'm easing into this - food and water first - exercise will be added next week. I am not going to overwhelm myself trying to do it all at once. <BR> Simple easy steps. <BR> Getting out the slow cooker for the weekend....tomorrow I wash and fold all my exercise duds so I am ready to go next week. <BR> Switched from f... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 15:37:09 EST Easing Back into " normal" Well..... the summer was emotionally the toughest I've ever been through. My mom died peacefully two weeks ago after a tough battle with pancreatic cancer. She went downhill fast after her diagnosis in June. Early August she went into palliative care and passed the first week of September. We are all struggling and shuffling through the days as we move forward. <BR> <BR> I know that for me getting back into a normal routine is what I need. Some stability after a rocky emotional time. I ... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 11:59:56 EST Checking in - Summer is moving right along..... Hey - I'm looking on the bright side of things today. I have a few minutes alone to catch up with my spark family - chicken is baking in the oven... I have some green beans ready to steam up and team up with my chicken... and I'm just kicking back with my cats while hubby is out at the lake on vacation. <BR> My mom is having her struggles adjusting to new pain medications but they are doing a wonderful job of looking after her through Cancer Care at the Health Sciences Centre. I have a frie... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 19:23:38 EST