STARSUB99's SparkPeople Blog STARSUB99's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community January slip slip slipping away Well as we round the corner to the last week in January - I realize that my intentions are still good - just the delivery is a little weak. <BR> <BR> I committed to eating clean - and besides the KFC dinner with friends last night - and 2 6" subs at subway - I can say - I did really well with this one. Still struggling with portion sizes... but getting better at bringing lunch to work. Breakfast is the challenge. Getting to this regularly - well I know that some planning would be best in... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 12:30:03 EST In Fits and Starts Getting back into gear has been more of a challenge this time than I thought it would be. <BR> <BR> The eating clean and watching portion sizes - I'm about 65% there. I have made the effort to make a few pots of soup and I bring soup to work for lunch. Still having issues with eating breakfast. Not a habit I am into. I have that stupid idea I can "save" those calories for later.... which turns into a fit of spooning PB and Honey out of the jar at 11 pm... not good. <BR> <BR> The working... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 12:26:43 EST Swimming Swimming in the Swimming Pool I LOVE swimming. but I have been lazy. I haven't gone swimming for fitness for over a year. <BR> <BR> Last week I made a commitment to myself to start swimming again. No more excuses. It's good for me. I like it. So get going! I recently started working in a different city - smaller place and did not know where the local pool was. TIme to investigate.. Found it inside the local high school. <BR> <BR> So I went on my lunch break to find out what the score was. I met the Pool manager a... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 11:40:41 EST Swimming Swimming in the Swimming Pool I love swimming. I haven't gone swimming for over a year. <BR> <BR> My commitment to myself was to get back in the pool this new year. <BR> <BR> I did it. Went last week to check out the local pool in the new city where I now work. <BR> Got the morning lap swim schedule and bought a pool pass. <BR> <BR> I got up this morning. Had a bite of breakfast. Packed my swim bag and work clothes. <BR> Off I went. <BR> <BR> YES I DID IT!!!!! I made it to the pool and swam for 30 minutes. Breas... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 11:31:47 EST Its Time for a Do OVer Last spring I came back to spark. I was doing blazes til mid summer and then I fell off the proverbial wagon. Financial Stress, Marriage stress - health stress... too much stress. <BR> I just stopped looking after me. <BR> <BR> Well things are settling down now. I found a new job and after 6 weeks I can say I'm enjoying it. The hours are more regular. I don't have to bring work home. I have weekends off. It is so different from the crazy job I have had for the past 2 years. And the p... Sun, 29 Nov 2015 17:24:47 EST 100 + deays back with Spark Wow! 100 + days - I've been on holidays for 2 weeks. Hanging at the cottage. <BR> I checked into spark daily to keep the streak going - so every morning I grounded myself to stay on track. <BR> <BR> My big success is I did not gain 1 pound. I stayed the same - 219. I am so happy with this result because I was sort of loosey goosey with my tracking. <BR> <BR> I've learned to be more reasonable with myself during this 100 days. I have confidence now that I can move the scale number downw... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 11:29:14 EST 85 days on spark It can be a bit deceiving this 85 days. How tuned in have I been? I'd say about 75%. At the start I was all in..... dropped 10 lbs the first month - then another 5 now I've creeped up 2... but overall - let's take the positive and say we are in abetter place now than 85 days ago. <BR> <BR> I must admit the last few weeks I'm tracking food and paying attention -just not staying in the zone. I can feel it when I go over on the calories and eat foods that aren't very healthy choices. <BR> <... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 12:35:17 EST Feeling Good! Like I know that I should! Well - Let me say that getting myself moving again has done wonders for my confidence and mood. It was a struggle ... since April 1 when I started back on spark - it took me weeks to get out there and get moving. <BR> <BR> I am so proud to have earned a 500 fitness minutes award for June - already. Yes. Lazy me. Excuses me. I have got on the movement bandwagon and it is working. Gardening and walking. I feel better. My mood is improving. My confidence has gone up as the scale starte... Tue, 16 Jun 2015 10:22:54 EST Finally moved off the darn plateau OMG - talk about frustrating. First 6 weeks I dropped 11 lbs - focus - attention.... layering in all the good things.... then came the challenge. Sticking it out. Surviving a few weekend party situations. up and down the same few pounds.... <BR> <BR> So I stayed off the scale which was messing with my moods and confidence.... focus on the calories... got out to move in the yard doing some gardening... drinking my water and stayed on track for the weekend - and there goes the poundage -... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 12:32:20 EST gotta get moving I'm having some issues with getting myself moving again. <BR> Yes I did some gardening yesterday - getting the beds ready and today will be planting. <BR> <BR> Getting my sneakers on and going for a walk. Not so great. I've been doing the visualization and I know I will feel better if I just get out and do it. <BR> <BR> What is it that stops me from doing what I know will make me feel better in the long run? <BR> <BR> Hmmmm. I know its like doing dishes. Nobody wants to do the dishes bu... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 11:52:34 EST 40 days and 40 nights Wow! I've made it 40 days with Spark. And 40 nights. <BR> <BR> When I came back I wanted to drop my BMI from obese to fat as a first course of action. And you know what - no I didn't get there in 40 days - but I am down from 47.7 to 45.4. <BR> Moving in the right direction! <BR> <BR> Did I lose some weight? Yes - 11 lbs. Do I wish it was more? Of course. But hey I am working on the positives - so YES!!! I am DOWN 11 whole lbs. <BR> <BR> Nice to have it reinforced that I can make the... Fri, 22 May 2015 13:51:13 EST still working at it.... .working at it ... the small things. I tend to be an all or nothing kind of gal and I'm working hard at changing that. Starting with the small things. What I can control. What I can't control. <BR> <BR> Last weekend was not one of my stellar times. We had company coming and going at the cottage. Saturday evening I made myself take a time out - because I knew I was sliding fast into stuffing my face territory - - and drinking too many cocktails territory. <BR> <BR> It worked somewhat - ... Wed, 20 May 2015 15:31:44 EST 28 day streak! Wow! I have amazed myself. I'm still here. Still tracking and it is working. <BR> <BR> I finally feel like I'm back again. Started with tracking all the food I put in my face- that stopped a lot of the craziness. For me tracking food really works. I feel accountable to myself when I'm on spark. And I'm just tire of being the fat girl. I can't even connect with the pictures of myself. Who is that??? When I look in the mirror - I finally hit - my level of disgust with myself on what b... Sun, 10 May 2015 13:26:56 EST No gain - No loss - Lesson Learned Okay - 1st week with no change on the digital scale. <BR> The good news is no gain. <BR> The sad news is no loss. <BR> But really - I need to be honest - I did not plan the week or the weekend last 7 days. <BR> And clearly - If I want to lose - I have to plan better. <BR> <BR> I'm still not good at knowing the calories in foods - so back to the drawing board. I plan out the week for the main meals on the tracker and adjust as I go every day. That worked. And the type of food makes a diff... Fri, 8 May 2015 11:51:09 EST Need some beef Well that's just how I feel today. We don't eat a lot of meat. We've cut down significantly over the past 2 months. But somedays I just need the beef. Not sure if I'm not getting enough protein... or whatever... but I just want to get away from the salad and lentils for a day. <BR> <BR> It's probably the weather too. It's been grey and rainy. So I've defrosted some lean ground beef and I'm gonna make my version of home made hamburger helper. It's so easy to make - I added the recipe to... Thu, 7 May 2015 15:07:01 EST may - maybe - may oui! Four days into May. Time to get on track. The weekend was a little bit overboard. Poor planning. That's all it was. And then there was the guacamole on Saturday afternoon with multigrain tostidos and a cold beer. OK. That was so worth it. Our first warm afternoon up here. I don't regret that sidebar at all. <BR> <BR> So maybe I need to spend more time planning the weekends. I realize that last weekend we planned all our meals and it went smooth. This past weekend - not so good. We... Mon, 4 May 2015 15:27:53 EST April in Review Ok. I came back this April after a year of sloth and stress... up 36 lbs from my original spark days. <BR> <BR> I decided to focus on food first - as the saying goes - " you can't out run your fork". <BR> So... I started tracking food to be accountable to myself - cause it works for me. And I had more good days in the range than tough days. Proud to say - I'm down 10 lbs since April 1. <BR> <BR> The other thing I did that really helped me feel better was to start drinking my water. An... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 12:11:44 EST Tomorrow is weigh in day I am hoping that the scale agrees with how I am feeling and comes down a pound this week. <BR> I am t.rying not to step on the darn thing daily. <BR> I know I feel better this week. <BR> I am more in control of my choices when it has come to eating and preparing meals. <BR> I am drinking my water - daily - and it makes a difference feeling the hydration. <BR> I read an article recently that showed a woman in her forties who changed only one thing. For a month she drank her 8 glasses of wate... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 14:14:01 EST Breakfast out with the neighbours Another curve ball. my husband is working split shift this week. So he calls on his way home from morning shift and says " let's call the neighbours and go out for breakfast" <BR> <BR> Okay. So I was only on my morning coffee. That was good. But breakfast out - danger!! Ding Ding Ding!!! goes my brain. <BR> <BR> But it all turned out okay. We went to the place up the highway. I ordered the morning special. I looked down at the whole plate full of food and said to myself. Nope. Yo... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 14:07:37 EST Survived the Weekend Weekends are always tough. We did pretty good sticking to our plan this weekend. <BR> I did find myself mindlesslessly downing party mix at the Tanners on Saturday night - Woah!!!!!! There. After a few handfuls I moved my butt to the other end of the room. <BR> <BR> I do like to have a bit of alcohol on the weekends.... kept it tight this weekend. Had one beer with the guys when we finished building the deck addition and Had 2 glasses of wine with dinner Saturday night. Ok so Saturday calo... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 21:14:47 EST Getting into the Groove Today I ate breakfast. First time I n forever. Just a slice of rye toast with some peanut butter and jam. I initially grabbed the 2 slices - so they aren't lonely - but put one back in the bread bag. <BR> <BR> I sat and ate it with my c.offee. Did it make a big difference to my day? Honestly no. <BR> But I know breakfast is important so I'm making an effort. <BR> <BR> We are at the lake now for the weekend. It's beautiful out here. And it's all about the food. <BR> I carefully packed... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 17:36:20 EST When losing is winning Wow. April 1st I decided that enough was enough. I had ballooned up to 236 lbs. At just under 5 Ft tall that is not a good thing. <BR> <BR> I was even brave enough to look at the BMI calculator on the internet for the truth. BMI - 46.6 OBESE. Okay - no way to spin that one. The bold ugly truth. No more - I'm getting a little big here. No more - I could lose a few pounds. <BR> <BR> I made a list of what was tough with the extra weight. Getting my socks on. Shaving my legs. Wipin... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 13:03:03 EST Well there goes Wednesday Today was a good day. I did some errands in the morning and when I got home I made a pot of soup. Felt good chopping and adding seasonings. The house smelled wonderful. <BR> <BR> In the afternoon my husband came home and we spent the afternoon in the yard. <BR> Super windy.... so forget trimming the trees on the windbreak. Instead we emptied out the shed. PUlled out the ride on mower and put away the snowblower. <BR> <BR> Now it really feels like spring. The lawntracker is out! And ... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 21:36:07 EST Birthdays and Families Yesterday evening we went to see our youngest sons family after dinner. <BR> It was Gabriella's 15th birthday on Friday so we went to celebrate, drop off a little gift and hang out with the kids. <BR> <BR> Now none of us are lightweights if you know what I mean. I brought ice cream birthday themed sandwhiches for portion control. They loaded up the coffee table with chips and salsa - butter tarts, ice teas etc. <BR> <BR> I visited. I forced myself to sit back in the chair and not lean ... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 11:36:57 EST Spring has Sprung Oh well.... it seems all I accomplished last winter was gaining 6 pounds. Not anything to be proud of. <BR> <BR> But its getting better. The last few weeks I got back into the eating healthy and clean and got rid of the 6 nasty lbs. Now I still have 100 to go - but it's being in the less than 100 to lose that I am focusing on. <BR> <BR> My friends Lisa and Glenys came by for a visit on Thursday and came with a roasted chicken and kale salad. Now that's friends. Glenys has lost 40 lbs s... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 14:09:24 EST Day 4 - mid day catch up So my cold turns out to be acute bronchitis. I knew something was up after a week of not getting any better... took myself to the walk in clinic and good thing I did. I'm glad I listened to my body and did not go to work. It is always hard making that choice - I like many need that steady income and always feel stressed when I am not at work. <BR> Anyways... <BR> I'm milking it for all its worth. I could use a little down time. But I'm not totally down for the count. just not my usua... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 13:43:46 EST Day 2 Well today is day 2. Yes I feel better mentally that I"m taking action and doing something about turning myself from fat to fit. <BR> <BR> I actually made a smoothy this morning. Yup. Frozen mixed berries, low fat milk and protein powder. I had breakfast. Did I feel better. Yup. <BR> <BR> Mid day - No Diet coke. Water with fresh lemon squeeze and ice cubes. <BR> All Afternoon - - No Diet coke. Water.... Get my drift???? do I feel better . Yup. <BR> <BR> Grocery shopping on the w... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 21:47:36 EST Easing Back into Sparking Ok I say to myself today... enough with the "thinking about it". Stop anaylyzing and just do it. <BR> So today with my miserable cold I am back to this. I have been eyeing everything that has gone across my lips for the past 2 weeks and thinking - Really? and a few things stayed on the platter. Boxes of chocolates got handed over to neighbours as happy new years gifts. <BR> <BR> And another year has passed by. My birthday (thanks for all the wishes) was on December 29. <BR> And I though... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 20:01:01 EST 11 months and 30 lbs UP - But I"m BAck!!!!!!!!!! Hey to anyone who meanders by this blog post.... <BR> NO GIVE UP! That's the message. After 11 months and 30 lbs added to my not so keen physique - I am back. <BR> I got all caught up in working a new job... being busy and not looking after myself. What did I learn? <BR> When I don't look after myself I get cranky. I don't hang out enough with my friends to get that much needed laughter... I can spend amazing amounts of time on the couch when no one in looking .. <BR> <BR> ....and most ... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 20:50:14 EST Round Round We Go…. How is it 2014 already? Yikes! so much for my 2013 goals….. let's just say that it was like running around in a big circle - moving forward but not increasing the fitness or decreasing the weight - ended up right where I began…. well not really… I learned a lot about myself along the way. <BR> <BR> Let's just say I had more than a few major stressors this past year and I was not good at staying on track and looking out for me when things slid sideways. <BR> <BR> I had 2 new job starts th... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 16:15:06 EST What's in a Month Well, all I can say is I've been gone for about a month and I'm trying very hard to get back into the swing of things. It has been stressful with family stuff and getting used to a new job…time has been tight and I confess to not making many nutritious meals - opting for frozen pizza and hamburger helper on more than one occasion…. <BR> But it hasn't been all bad. The cold winter came early so I have been hunkering down on the couch in the evening complaining to myself about the cold while... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 19:37:18 EST This Week I Will... I will work hard to stay on track.... I'm starting a new job tomorrow and I have to be super vigilant with what I eat during the day when I am out and about in the community. <BR> <BR> I will walk at least 5 kms over the week. <BR> <BR> I will drink my water - every day - throughout the day... and so far so good with no diet coke for 4 days now... <BR> <BR> I will pack my lunch and eat it instead of giving in to fast food drive thru's. <BR> <BR> I will cuddle up with my husband on the cou... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 15:50:11 EST Saying Goodbye to Diet Coke. This is one of my top Love-Hate relationships. Diet Coke. Cold right from the can. Love it! <BR> Hate being addicted to it. <BR> <BR> I know - I've been eating fresh - home made = got rid of all the processed foods.... but this was my last hold out. I've been downing this stuff since my early 20's - was it out then? That seems to be the memory - from Tab to Diet Coke 30 years of this???? (Now there's a blast from the past - who remembers Tab!) <BR> <BR> Time to get smart. I ha... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 20:06:52 EST Okay - This is going better.... So it is halfway through the month and I am finally getting it together. <BR> This past week I really focused on getting the eating under control. And I lost 2 lbs. <BR> Yeah for me! <BR> <BR> I think at times I get so crazy trying to do it all that nothing sticks. So I'm working on keeping a focus where it counts the most. Food and nutrition. I heard from a nutritionist that with weight loss it is 80% what you eat, 10% exercise, and 10% supplements. Weird I thought. And then she said ... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 11:42:10 EST Stacking the Deck In my favor. Everyone has been very polite "not noticing" that on my weight tracker I've packed on 13 lbs over the summer. OMG. There I said it out loud. Now with the family issues and new job that was just a big fiasco - let's just say that I forgot everything I learned in the past year and just went into survival mode..... <BR> <BR> I did not eat healthy. I was running between work and the hospital and the most exercise I got was walking from the parking lot to palliative care. Why is it so hard ... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 20:48:48 EST Another Day One! Here I go again... I know I get better at this every time I get back into the groove. <BR> So I have updated my spark page and bought my fresh food for the rest of the week. <BR> I'm easing into this - food and water first - exercise will be added next week. I am not going to overwhelm myself trying to do it all at once. <BR> Simple easy steps. <BR> Getting out the slow cooker for the weekend....tomorrow I wash and fold all my exercise duds so I am ready to go next week. <BR> Switched from f... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 15:37:09 EST Easing Back into " normal" Well..... the summer was emotionally the toughest I've ever been through. My mom died peacefully two weeks ago after a tough battle with pancreatic cancer. She went downhill fast after her diagnosis in June. Early August she went into palliative care and passed the first week of September. We are all struggling and shuffling through the days as we move forward. <BR> <BR> I know that for me getting back into a normal routine is what I need. Some stability after a rocky emotional time. I ... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 11:59:56 EST Checking in - Summer is moving right along..... Hey - I'm looking on the bright side of things today. I have a few minutes alone to catch up with my spark family - chicken is baking in the oven... I have some green beans ready to steam up and team up with my chicken... and I'm just kicking back with my cats while hubby is out at the lake on vacation. <BR> My mom is having her struggles adjusting to new pain medications but they are doing a wonderful job of looking after her through Cancer Care at the Health Sciences Centre. I have a frie... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 19:23:38 EST Tough Times Hi Everyone: Many have noticed that I have been away for a month or so. My mom was diagnosed with terminal cancer a month ago. She has never been sick and this came out of know where. The cancer is in her abdominal organs and she is going down hill fast. <BR> <BR> They say 6 months or so - but she is struggling to keep food down and has lost her will to fight. She is using her faith in God to get her through these last months and is quite at peace wiyh the whole thing. <BR> <BR> It i... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 21:15:55 EST Back to Work Literally. My quest to have my own business hit a big road bump last month - 2 upcoming contracts for the spring/summer got postponed and here I was caught with my proverbial pants down..... and I did not freak out. <BR> <BR> I think all this planning and doing with spark has helped me keep my eye on the big picture. So I loaded up my resume on every site I could find - and someone found me. I lucked out big time. Not any dream job... just a steady sales job with a professional company. ... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 20:38:09 EST Skulking in the background I am having one of those months -- - not on track not off track but not able to pull it all together. Feeling out of sorts. Out of the loop. All that kind of stuff. You know when you don't bother to pick up the phone to call or text anyone cause you feel like there is absolutely nothing to talk about??? That's me - skulking in the background.... <BR> <BR> Hubby and I have been watching what we eat and I'm still hovering in the low 200's. Just can't seem to get myself back intoonederland ... Mon, 27 May 2013 13:32:37 EST EAt to live - Day 4 I'm trying this EAt to Live program again. We did this a few years ago and had some good results and some of the habits stayed with us - eating less starches... less bread etc.... for those of you who aren't familiar with this plan - check it out on the internet - - - Eat to Live is a book/program by Dr. Joel Fuhrman... <BR> <BR> Hubby is doing it with me. We are not fanatics - but we are doing it 95% - I'm refusing to give up my morning coffee at this point and once a week we will enjo... Mon, 13 May 2013 21:28:44 EST My new weight loss buddy. Hubby went for his annual physical 2 weeks ago. Went for his results yesterday....Cholesterol good. Blood pressure okay. Prostrate healthy. Weight - over board. <BR> <BR> He comes home and announces - I must lose 30 lbs - I am going back in 2 months and the doctor wants to see results! We gotta get serious about this!!!!! <BR> <BR> Well I've been doing modified Eat to Live plan - and its working somewhat for me but it's been tough going full bore on it when hubby is eating and snacking ... Sat, 11 May 2013 20:24:24 EST 10,000 Spark Points! Well yesterday I was moping around about my "nots" - not doing this and not doing that.... and I was wallowing about nearing 10,000 spark points and barely dragging myself across the line.... <BR> <BR> Well screw that! Today I put on my shoes and went out for a walk. 5kms worth thank you very much - so I moved my way across the 10,000 point marker and I feel better about myself already. <BR> <BR> Tracked my vector cereal with banana and low fat milk for breakfast. Had some water. Did my w... Mon, 6 May 2013 17:38:36 EST Time for an Attitude Overhaul Oh my! Have I been in a bad space or what? I've just browsed over my past few blog entries over April and overall - I NEED an OVERHAUL!. <BR> <BR> It has just been a tough month. I have zero fitness minutes. Yup. Zero. Not a proud moment. And the tracking has been sporadic at best.... and I see I am fast approaching 10,000 spark points - and I have to take a minute and pause to reflect... 10,000 is like a milestone and I'm just dragging myself over the marker instead of doing a high fiv... Sun, 5 May 2013 18:16:58 EST Okay - So I lied - I'll start today instead The best of intentions went out the window this week. Okay that's a bit harsh. Why is it that when I have a good plan to start something new all kinds of crazy things come my way. It's the proverbial BIG TEST OF GRIT! <BR> <BR> I had my veggies and salad and beans and all that stuff stocked up on Monday morning. The day went just fine and I was right on track... and then wednesday rolls along and someone has quit at work and they need me in as many evenings as I can cover... and I need t... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 14:52:15 EST Getting back in the driver's seat Last night I was lying in bed thinking about the past few days, weeks etc.... how up and down it's been and how I've started being too reactive - giving in to junk foods, not making time to work out and just letting the days slide by without looking after me. <BR> <BR> So i had a good talk with myself and decided that I need a little structure. I need to get into the driver's seat and get control of this ride of life that I am on. Sitting in the back row just ain't doing it for me. <BR> <... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 14:21:23 EST Mini Blow outs and all that jazz OH it's been a rough week. Ups and downs. And my eating has followed suit. What I have learned from my mini blowouts ( the whole box of mini eclairs, a family size bag of chips - - ok not on the same day but you get my drift) they aren't worth it. <BR> <BR> I felt like crap after the mini eclair episode - why I even bought them ... well lets not go there... feeling like I"m owed something... like I deserve a treat - - but let's face it = they are evil and should not come into my ca... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 13:17:43 EST Turning it around I am not liking the view from where I am standing - so I'm going to go stand somewhere else. HA! How bout that. I had my rant last week about being stuck... and I got some great advice from great supportive people on all the things I can do to get unstuck. <BR> <BR> So the first one I thought I'd tackle was being nicer to me. I know - do the hardest one first and the rest will come easier..... I curled up on the couch at the lake and read a romantic mystery for most of Friday night. Sat... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 21:53:13 EST Stuck Stuck and More Stuck I am having one of those stretches.... stuck - stuck and more stuck.... That's how I feel. <BR> <BR> It is as if the world is conspiring against me. I want my April to be a kick start - to get me off that plateau that I've been sitting on for months. And it's barely a toe in the dirt. I set the great challenges for myself and then I crap out. <BR> <BR> So much for 1000 fitness minutes this month - I'm sitting at zero on the 11th. <BR> So much for hitting 10000 spark points this month.... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 12:53:53 EST