STARL_73's SparkPeople Blog STARL_73's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Day 3: Still Owww Legs hurting, as expected. Upper still hurts a little. Overall, not bad. <BR> <BR> Did a HITT today - not as early as I wanted, but noon works. Felt SO GOOD!! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, upper again. <BR> <BR> Had dinner for lunch. Figured I'll do the heavier eating earlier since I'm working out earlier. And anyway, with Js late workouts, we rarely eat together. I do not like eating after 7p.. i don't like going to bed with a full stomach. It's 845p - he just finished eating. <BR> <BR> For dinner... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 21:45:11 EST Day 2: Owwww Hurting from the upper ST yesterday. To be expected. Good kind of pain. Admittedly, a little irritated since what I did was once considered easy. But... <BR> <BR> Today, I should have known better... I know I should work out soon after breakfast. I didn't. I kept putting it off - working instead. I finally did - after work. Went out to the garden to harvest collard greens and romaine, then downstairs for lower ST. Warmed up, did my squats, then did a lunge - and almost screamed! my Quad star... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 22:26:12 EST Day 1 - Not as healthy as I thought For decades, I've been consistent in working out. I may take some time off (months), but I'd get back into it. When I stopped ST, my lifestyle enabled me to not lose that much strength. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure if it's my age (42) or because it was a 6 month downtime.. but dang. Now - I've kept up my cardio fairly well. My bp is at the lowest it's ever been. My bloodwork is great. Despite being slightly overweight, one would look at my numbers and say I'm healthy. <BR> <BR> BS. I'm not going ... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 11:33:28 EST Broken plans don't mean broken will I started off the week with such plans! 60 minutes cardio a day, ST, beef stew, get projects done. <BR> <BR> Yeah.. nope. Didn't happen. Migraines, life.. one thing after another to thwart my plans. I could have let it get to me. If I was really the type to give up, it would have been a perfect excuse because obviously, the universe is out to get me. <BR> <BR> Whatever. <BR> <BR> Migraines are a pita, but they aren't my fault. Overall, I feel I did mostly my best. The whole wakeup thing is... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 22:07:39 EST Ketchup Blog ok, I meant Catch up, but figured it's Monday. Gotta have some fun. <BR> <BR> Last time I blogged was Thursday, so let's see: <BR> <BR> Friday - Worked out in the morning. Then, found out Leonard Nimoy passed away and that messed me up pretty good the rest of the afternoon. It was a struggle to work. People say cats are cold and uncaring, but one of my cats, for some reason in the last couple of years has really tuned into my emotions and was right there for me. Yup - a CAT!!! Anyway, that ... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 11:01:55 EST New Norm Day 1 Slight struggle getting up this morning, but I had a 9am meeting, so I did it. Then my 9a got rescheduled for 10a. So, I got in 10 minutes cardio. Got in another 10 minutes after lunch, before my noon meeting. Then a full 40 later in the afternoon "after work." So, pretty happy I got my 60 in. I was amused, when I started my 40 to see I already had 6k steps. <BR> <BR> Getting my blog done. I'm fairly happy with myself today. Got my protein in. Got my water. Worked hard. Took care of myself.... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 21:01:19 EST Catchup Blog Almost a week since I blogged last. YIPE! But, i've been watching myself and think i've learned a few things. <BR> 1. Last week, Mon-Wed, I was blogging, waking up "early" and working out in the morning. During that time, I felt great. I loved it <BR> 2. Last week,Thur-Fri, I didn't wake up early and wasn't able to get in my workouts. The days were difficult and work demanding (hence no workouts), and I felt like crap. Stressed, unable to focus. <BR> 3. So far this week, i haven't blogged nor... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 22:46:23 EST Thursday I actually slept rather well, which I'm thrilled about. Before going to sleep, I visualized sleeping well, in hopes I wouldn't think about spreadsheets. And it worked. I even woke up around 6a. <BR> <BR> but the rest of the day.. that sucked. I pretty much worked all day, nonstop. Data cleanup, which I really don't like. Especially when the client refuses to listen when I say it's not easy... the only positive is I do have a standup desk which I actually use in that position most of the time... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 19:46:03 EST Wednesday - Woot! Woot! I actually opened my eyes and did stuff when the hubby got up! Progress. Ok, I'm still in bed doing stuff - but one step at a time. <BR> <BR> icky night - woke up - was 230a when I finally looked at the clock after tossing & turning for a while. Was a while yet till i fell back to sleep. Despite the wind chill.. I was too hot. Took me a while to figure out to remove the covers. Also, being hot makes my head itch. But, I'm used to crappy sleep .. so I'm ok. <BR> <BR> Tons of work to do, gla... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 10:43:02 EST Monday night & Tuesday well, I didn't get the ST I planned yesterday.. can't remember why at the moment, but it was work related. Then hubby came home and suggested we take the night off and relax with a movie. Priorities! <BR> <BR> I slept restlessly, as usual, but well enough, I guess. House cools to 56F, but I'm still too hot. ugh. <BR> <BR> Got my jog in today. I definitely like making myself the priority in the morning. It's a little tough - I have so much work to do, but it helps my mood. Course, it would b... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 17:31:14 EST Sunday & Monday - Anxiety Attack so, after Friday & Saturday, I was hoping to have a good Sunday... I struggled. My anxiety exploded - I haven't had an episode like that that in a few months. I'm wondering if the stress from Friday & Saturday triggered it. It was so bad that I was sick to my stomach. But, I fought it constantly, trying to do the things that usually help lessen it (eggs, valerian root) and went into my comfort zone - yeah, programming! <BR> <BR> By evening, the anxiety was almost gone and I was actually just... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 12:51:45 EST Friday & Saturday Got up ok Friday, but then I had plans to meet a friend in town and when I have such plans, I usually wake up fairly easily (730a, anyway). Got a HIIT in before leaving so was really happy with myself. Planned on lifting later in the day, but was feeling so sick to the stomach, then got into a phone call with a colleague, that I didn't. But that was ok.. ended up having crackers for dinner in an attempt to settle my stomach. <BR> <BR> This morning, Saturday, woke up on my at 730a. Was a bit ... Sat, 14 Feb 2015 19:56:25 EST So far so good I used to be a good sleeper. I went to sleep fast (less than 10 minutes) and slept through the night (once camped in a field and cows around the tent and a thunderstorm did NOT wake me up. My dog coughing did...) . Now, it takes me longer to fall asleep (20-30 minutes) and I wake up often (2x minimum on average). The waking up bothers me a little, though not too much since I usually go back to sleep quickly. I usually wake up because I'm so hot.. I heat up at night (I'm getting better at toss... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 12:14:18 EST Doing a lot of thinking... but not doing So, for a LOOOONG time, I've thought about blogging, what I need/should blog about. And.. obviously, I didn't. I don't know why. Matter of fact, there are a lot of things that I want to do - but I don't. Hence, a lot of thinking, but not doing. <BR> <BR> But I am a strong believer in blog therapy, and I'm not doing anything else right now, so I figured I'd blog, maybe get my feelings in - I meant thoughts, but I was looking at the tv.. I guess the truth came out? <BR> <BR> I am ha... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 21:21:52 EST Thoughts.... Wow, almost a year since my last blog.. <BR> I've thought of blogging, but didn't. why? Not sure. Thought it was a commitment... and I have so much on my plate, I didn't want to add more? Figured why bother? Thing is, I know that blogging is therapeutic. <BR> <BR> So much has happened, but I don't feel like trying to review it. Some of it is depressing. <BR> <BR> Right now - I'm fine. (Now I know why I avoided blogging. Nothing to talk about except rambling) <BR> <BR> This is SP, all about... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 22:01:53 EST Borrowing a resolution we should all make I DID NOT WRITE THIS! This was written by Laurell K. Hamilton and I'm just copy/pasting it because I think what she's saying is very important. <BR> <BR> Written by Laurell K. Hamilton: <BR> <BR> It's New Year's Eve, time for us to take stock of the year, and plan for next. It's usually also the time when we make New Year's resolutions. A lot of our resolutions are going to be about physical issues. We'll resolve to hit the gym more, change our diet, start a diet, just eat better, fit into ... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 22:47:52 EST Interesting Metabolism / Plateau article Read a very interesting artilce of metabolisms. At the end, they did a plateau test - a woman who was on a plateau went through testing and found out there was nothing wrong with her metabolism. The issue was the ratio of her diet... VERY interesting. <BR> <BR> Read it through. The initial page doesn't show the entire article, you'll have to follow the links at the bottom. <BR> <BR> One thing that I will add about keeping your metabolism up - don't count on just one big workout a day. I th... Tue, 19 Nov 2013 17:38:24 EST Sad Day.... Kira, our blind horse, ran into her shelter and broke her neck...she died instantly... Don't know how/why she made that mistake - she knew that area rather well. You'd have to know her to understand that she knew where everything was. She didn't just run into things, despite her blindness.... <BR> <BR> Feeling sad, a little lost. Not sure what to do with my day. What I should be doing... we found someone to dig a hole so we can bury her on our land. Don't know if I should help J or just stay... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 15:21:34 EST Mad at Myself... I know I can't take full blame..I've spent the last year healing and I'm still healing. But.. ARGH!!! <BR> <BR> Despite my weight, I've prided myself on being in shape - I could workout with great bpm. Low blood pressure, great blood work. But.. I took it all for granted. I didnt' think I was working that hard, so I didn't think..i don't know what I thought. <BR> <BR> When I couldn't do cardio..well, i was walking, getting my 10k steps a day mostly. But - my heart wasn't getting the workout... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 12:59:02 EST Overwhelmed and without a goal The title pretty much says it all. I want/need to do everything, to it all perfect and do it all now. <BR> Yeah.. that doesn't work. I've been running myself ragid, stressing, anxious. Not getting anything done! Unhappy. <BR> <BR> And I didn't realize it until today. <BR> <BR> Watching Grey's Anatomy, Meredith always does her monologues. And sometimes, she really says something that makes me think. The last episode was one of those. I'm not exactly sure how it fits, but I listened to it sev... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 17:01:51 EST Win, Lose... that's life Last week.. win some, lose some <BR> win - woke up at *6am* every (weeek)day, except Thursday - I had a migraine. This is major for me. I've continued so far this week. A little tough, but I really like the relaxing time in the morning. And my "walk to work" helps me break that *ugh* feeling. A really energizer. <BR> win - I got to ride my horse. Finally!!! First time ever. It was so-so....we both have learning to do. Thankfully, he was patient with me. As patient as a kid could be. <BR> <B... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 23:34:33 EST Chugging, or is Slugging, through Tuesday Shook the snooze twice this morning, though I did open my eyes after the second time, got the ipod out and went through my routine. Cut it short since I'd gone through a snooze. Had a heck of a time getting my brain to wake up. Had a good breakfast, did my 10 minute "walk to work" - but my brain did NOT to wake up, even 2 hours after my body was. <BR> <BR> Tried to find some ideas online.. and one pointed out the obvious - music. So, I updated itunes (I think I like their new RAdio Genius p... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 13:16:26 EST Monday - so far so good Got up at 6a. Yay me. Seriously. I'm lucky to get out of bed at 8. Trying to change that. What helps is I'm getting up early to make ME time. Today - worked beautifully. Woke up with alarm, read ipod for a bit and got out of bed around 615/620. Did my morning ritutal and went downstairs, a bit after 630. Read my book until 7a. So relaxing. Saw the sun peaking through the trees as it rose. Went to make breakfast, pack Js lunch. Read some more while eating. A little after 730, raced to garden w... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 10:09:18 EST NEVER leave the mirror without noticing the good. Been a bit since I blogged. The thing is - I think everyday of what I would be blogging at a certain moment.. but i never type it up. I really need a telepathic typewriter... I've actually wanted one since I was a kid. <BR> <BR> Anyway. So, you wonder - what have I to blabber about today? <BR> <BR> More whining? More frustration? More negativeness.. ugh. When I put it that way, I don't want to. I'm actually a positive person - or I try to. Would you believe I don't talk down to myself? Nope... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 12:33:17 EST unexpected yummy figured i'd make a tuna sandwich for lunch. <BR> no relish. *argh* <BR> so what else can i use for a sweet tang? balsamic vinegar!! <BR> <BR> so - a can of tuna. a little over a Tbsp mayo (yes, I used mayo!) and some balsamic. mix. taste <BR> OMG! <BR> so good! <BR> So good that I decided to skip the sandwich and just eat the tuna. now - while I like tuna, i don't like it plain. This gave it enough of a little zing that. wow! and I didn't add that much balsamic, either. I think the flavors a... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 13:22:41 EST Morning Update Didn't exactly jump out of bed, but was awake when I wanted. Little late starting to work. Little late getting to my workout - but then I was programming and needed a good place to stop. <BR> Gonna go workout now, after having a mid-morning snack to power it. <BR> Feeling relaxed.. as long as I don't think too hard of all the other stuff I need to do. But then - I can do it tonite! Yeah! <BR> Work now, chores tonite. A time for everything. <BR> Just trying to convince myself. Tue, 24 Sep 2013 11:46:39 EST Previous blog update Like I said - i do my best thinking in the shower. <BR> <BR> I realized that the schedule was one I followed for a while. While I did enjoy it, found it relaxing - I got burned out after a couple of days - not enough me time in the evenings. So, I was going to try one day on, one day off. But forgot. <BR> <BR> So - one day on, one day off. And if that goes well, will try another modification. maybe day on, 1/2 day, day off.. i feel bad if there's too much me time when I have a lot to do. C... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 22:21:25 EST Too much I've been lost. I am lost. So much to do and I can't get it all done and I'm hanging on by my fingertips... <BR> Watching tv, a character says that "I want to be more than who I am" <BR> It made me stop and think. It had actually been something I've been pondering today. Am I trying to do too much? I'm not a mom. I dont' belong to any clubs. I have no obligations to anyone else except my clients. But I can't find the time for everything. <BR> True - I could improve my time management, but eve... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 21:43:20 EST The Unexpected Well, yesterday something came up that threw my entire afternoon off. I made it through, it wasn't so bad, but eh.. i don't like things breaking my rhythm. <BR> <BR> Today, it happened again. I can only blame myself. I went downstairs to do a 10 minute cardio workout. I like these just to get the blood flowing. Today I decided to take a day of rest, but I still do little breaks through out the day. <BR> So, my 10 minutes turns into 35.. <BR> yeah... <BR> i have no excuse. <BR> I was watching... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 15:10:55 EST Repeat Week 2 update So far so good this week. I did my bonus video right away Monday. Continue to do my daily cardio - actually doing 40 minutes steady and then two smaller 10 minute workouts split in the day. I've learned that this little workout keep my metabolism going. Just one big workout a day doesn't do it when you're sitting on your butt all day. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to do something additional with each workout. The morning 10 minute has my morning stretches. My 40 minute (or so) has the daily video. Th... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 11:15:20 EST Tired today I find it hard to run with my day when I don't start off optimal. <BR> I slept in, more than I wanted. And I'm just not finding the rev. I'm not wanting to work out, tho I did do my morning stretches and my morning 10 minutes. I should be happy, but I'm like *eh* <BR> <BR> It's after 11a and I should be gettting ready for my workout.. but since I've barely done any work this morning, I feel I should work a bit longer. I'd workout later, but have plans later in the evening, so don't have that... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 12:17:02 EST Week 2 again Going to repeat week 2 - AGAIN! <BR> I'm not going to continue until I honestly get it right! Oh - I did well, I'm very happy with myself, especially since most of that new weight is gone. I was right - I just needed a bit of cleansing - lots of water, good foods. Admittedly.. gained it back this weekend. Oh - not that I ate 10k calories - I just ate naughty foods that are holding in the water and other crap. no probs - I know I can refresh and cleanse in no time. <BR> <BR> Nope - my problem... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 10:12:59 EST *ugh* what a morning Not a nice start to my morning... <BR> dog got sick all over the kitchen.. both ways, if you know what I mean. <BR> at least it was in the kitchen and not living room... <BR> mopped several times, sprayed lysol... <BR> <BR> Didn't have breakfast till almost 11 due to work issues.. really shouldn't check emails till after breakfast <BR> <BR> Client wants *more* changes.. but at least he's willing to pay <BR> <BR> There was something else, but I'm so burned out, i can't even remember... <BR... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 12:06:11 EST confession time so.. i've gained 3-4lbs in the last month. Admittedly, there's the water weight stuff, but still. <BR> *sigh* But that's ok! It's given me incentive to start tracking my food again. I've already been back on the cardio train - I'm able to use the elliptical without bothering my knee or hamstring. Even did some HIITs! Next is to begin increasing the level on the elliptical, upping my heart, but keeping it down at the same time. Something I did when I was learning to jog and really improved my ... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 12:52:39 EST Still Chugging Day 6 of Bootcamp. Icing my knee after my cardio. Hamstring bothering me a little, but it hasn't gotten worse, so I can hope that stretching and strengthening will help it. <BR> <BR> Right now - I feel GOOD. yup - got a slight workout high. It's nice to sweat again *lol* <BR> <BR> Been doing my Bootcamp video first thing in the morning the last 2 morning and I like it. Helps wake me up a little and it's nice to get it out of the way. I can't eat breakfast right away anyway, so the extra t... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 14:15:03 EST Fighting Anxiety & Depression I suffer from anxiety & depression. Don't worry, it's not contagious. It's a chemical inbalance in the brain. Why? I don't know. And no, walks in the sun, puppies & kitties do not help. <BR> <BR> I'm lucky. I can control mine most of the time with simple, OTC Omega 3s and the occasionally valerian root and/or lavendar scent. Course, I have to take a bit of O3s.. but I'd rather not take a manufactured drug (yeah, the O3s are manmade pills, but let's not nitpick) <BR> <BR> Right now - slight... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 12:33:21 EST Getting Back into the Groove A lot has happened lately. A LOT. Not all good. Actually, I can't think of anything good. But I survived I've learned and I'm ready to move on. <BR> <BR> While I've sustained my weight through out all this and kept moving with bouts of biking throughout the day, I didn't keep my tone. And I am not happy about that. So, I've kicked myself in the butt, encouraged myself, and decided to do the 28-day Bootcamp. I realize I need organization to get myself back into the groove. And getting help is... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 17:20:26 EST Forced to adjust First it was my hamstring. Now it's my knees. *sigh* <BR> <BR> Been doing some reading... I know I need to get in to the chiro to have my hips adjusted. It's something how all that is connected. But, while in Vegas, I had to buy new shoes and had my feet scanned. While my left foot is normal.. I hardly put any pressure on my right foot, especially my toes. I'm not that surprised. I know I have a habit of standing on the outside of my right foot, something I've gotten even more sensitive abou... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 23:47:15 EST Anxiety Attack I am having an anxiety attack. It's probably nowhere near as bad as those that need lots of meds to cope.. but nonetheless, I'm having one and it sucks. <BR> But I can only blame myself. Yes, myself. No, I'm not being hard on myself. <BR> <BR> I can't remember how many years ago I started having them. I may have had mild ones even sooner. I know that I first started realizing the overwhelming panic feeling wasn't normal after the doc switched my BC pills. After a few months of constant anxie... Thu, 30 May 2013 11:52:44 EST Turning 40 and getting all the answers ok, not all the answers, but I'm making headway in figuring myself out... <BR> <BR> As stated - I turned 40 this week. No worries, I'm not traumatized. I have no problem with it. Could be because I don't look it. Who knows... <BR> <BR> Anyway - to celebrate reaching the top of the fill, I went to Las Vegas!! Spend a few days there walking and walking and walking. Did I mention I walked? First full day there, put in 30,000 steps.. approximately 15 miles. oh yeah!!! DH and I aren't into the c... Sun, 19 May 2013 13:53:41 EST Update It's been a little while. I slowed down a little the last 2 weeks.. mainly laziness... not happy about it, but I just couldn't get into the groove. Not consistently. I have been moving, I just wasn't lifting like I wanted to. But that's ok. <BR> <BR> On the great news side - my ham string has greatly improved. And the healing came in the strangest way. I've been trying not to aggravate it, cutting out my cardio, but then added some biking a few weeks ago and then some squats. Strangely, I ac... Sat, 4 May 2013 21:36:15 EST The Importance of Breathing well, besides the obvious, of course. <BR> <BR> It's something I'm just appreciating today. No cardio means no deep breathing. No biggee, right. Wrong. <BR> <BR> When I lift, I breathe slowly and steadily with my movements. But it's not the deep breath you take during/after cardio. The one that fills your whole body. <BR> <BR> Just a few minutes ago, I breathed. I took a deep breath that filled me, held it a split second, then let it out. <BR> <BR> And felt calm and happy. I thought I wa... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 19:01:41 EST Happy, Happy, Happy For anyone who looks at my feed, you may seen something new lately. <BR> Pounds lost. <BR> It's not because I changed my settings. It's because I have finally, actually lost weight!!! <BR> OMG. <BR> I stop cardio, take up weights (just upper) and lose weight. <BR> Not that I've never done weights before. I used to work out regularly at the gym with a trainer. But never lost weight. Not really. <BR> But here - last few weeks, at least 1lb a week. And I'm flabbergasted. I'm flummoxed. I'm on cl... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 13:27:25 EST Extremely important and definitely worth repeating <link><BR>ally-look-like-a-perfectly-healthy-bod<BR>y-in-more-and-less-flattering-photos/ </link> <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5324111 </link> <BR> <BR> I just read these two blogs. Similar (one was inspired by the other). VERY IMPORTANT. <BR> I think everyone should read them and think about the message. <BR> <BR> And let me add this: <BR> If i were to die right now - my family would hardly have a... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 20:26:17 EST Thursday update.. not much change Knee is definitely better. But, I dare not push anything because of the hamstring. It's frustrating. I'm at my absolute minimum for calories. I guess i could push it up since that's based on losing weight..but since i'm not tracking properly, it probably is up there. <BR> <BR> thing is - without working out, i'm also not drinking my water properly or taking my supplements. Working out definitely puts you in a mindset. <BR> <BR>'s had good days and bad days. I need more good d... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 20:11:40 EST Still Healing Knee isn't hurting anymore, but I'm giving it another week to heal, still babying it. Last time I tried to use it after a couple of days of "not hurting" - I hurt it again. <BR> <BR> Hamstring still hurts.. not sure if it's improving or not. Have added icing and heat to it to see if it helps. If there's no improvement this week, I'm going to have to pay the doctor to tell me.. who knows what. At least i'll be able to say staying off of it and ice/heat don't do squat. Nor NSAIDs. <BR> oh - I'... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 17:42:09 EST Tuesday Update wow! 2 blogs in a week. Been a whie since I've done that. <BR> <BR> Just finished my order with gurneys. Trying them and sweet potatos one more time. And a few other things. Still have some things i'll look for locally, but not all have been easy to find in the past. <BR> Didn't do any of my own seedlings this year - was too busy with books. <BR> I'm hoping this year I keep up with the garden better and it doesn't overwhelm me. At the same time, *I've* changed in the last year. Starting to... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 22:59:37 EST Weekly Update Monday and knee still bothering me some. Had to go to town and had a few tweaks while walking around doing the shopping. So - staying off it again today and applying ice & heat. Did ST Upper yesterday. Can't do lower because of the hamstring. Instead, watching calories like a hawk. It's good practice, I guess. Though my food choices are the norm, reducing the amount on the plate is hard work. It's a balancing act.. reduce calories to keep up the weight loss, decide what items you can skip (no... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 18:33:23 EST Doctor's Orders and week in review I have GERD and a couple of other stomach issues. I decided this year to finally let the doctor do her thing. I suffered for years, take lansaprazole every other day.. and tired of it. <BR> <BR> Had an endoscopy a month or so ago. That's how we learned the other issues. Good news - my esophagus is NOT in bad shape. Course, my tooth enamel, or lack of, is another issue, but that's an old story. <BR> <BR> Finally, this week (long story there), I had 2 more tests to see if I'm a candidate for ... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 23:42:20 EST You can make your day what it is I've become a believer in the fact that I control my life, my feelings. To do that, you have to question your feelings, find the root cause and decide if it makes sense/is worth it. Now, obviously, when I'm in a good mood, I'm not going to question it <em>20</em> <BR> But - take this morning. As I was coming back from chores, my mind was thinking random thoughts, fake conversations... and I realized they were all negative. That I was getting angry/irritated. <BR> For no reason. Oh sure - ... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 21:26:01 EST