STARL_73's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=STARL%5F73 STARL_73's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Borrowing a resolution we should all make http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577220 I DID NOT WRITE THIS! This was written by Laurell K. Hamilton and I'm just copy/pasting it because I think what she's saying is very important. <BR> <BR> Written by Laurell K. Hamilton: <BR> <BR> It's New Year's Eve, time for us to take stock of the year, and plan for next. It's usually also the time when we make New Year's resolutions. A lot of our resolutions are going to be about physical issues. We'll resolve to hit the gym more, change our diet, start a diet, just eat better, fit into ... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 22:47:52 EST Interesting Metabolism / Plateau article http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5545456 Read a very interesting artilce of metabolisms. At the end, they did a plateau test - a woman who was on a plateau went through testing and found out there was nothing wrong with her metabolism. The issue was the ratio of her diet... VERY interesting. <BR> <BR> Read it through. The initial page doesn't show the entire article, you'll have to follow the links at the bottom. <BR> <BR> One thing that I will add about keeping your metabolism up - don't count on just one big workout a day. I th... Tue, 19 Nov 2013 17:38:24 EST Sad Day.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5542770 Kira, our blind horse, ran into her shelter and broke her neck...she died instantly... Don't know how/why she made that mistake - she knew that area rather well. You'd have to know her to understand that she knew where everything was. She didn't just run into things, despite her blindness.... <BR> <BR> Feeling sad, a little lost. Not sure what to do with my day. What I should be doing... we found someone to dig a hole so we can bury her on our land. Don't know if I should help J or just stay... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 15:21:34 EST Mad at Myself... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541113 I know I can't take full blame..I've spent the last year healing and I'm still healing. But.. ARGH!!! <BR> <BR> Despite my weight, I've prided myself on being in shape - I could workout with great bpm. Low blood pressure, great blood work. But.. I took it all for granted. I didnt' think I was working that hard, so I didn't think..i don't know what I thought. <BR> <BR> When I couldn't do cardio..well, i was walking, getting my 10k steps a day mostly. But - my heart wasn't getting the workout... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 12:59:02 EST Overwhelmed and without a goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517183 The title pretty much says it all. I want/need to do everything, to it all perfect and do it all now. <BR> Yeah.. that doesn't work. I've been running myself ragid, stressing, anxious. Not getting anything done! Unhappy. <BR> <BR> And I didn't realize it until today. <BR> <BR> Watching Grey's Anatomy, Meredith always does her monologues. And sometimes, she really says something that makes me think. The last episode was one of those. I'm not exactly sure how it fits, but I listened to it sev... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 17:01:51 EST Win, Lose... that's life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513754 Last week.. win some, lose some <BR> win - woke up at *6am* every (weeek)day, except Thursday - I had a migraine. This is major for me. I've continued so far this week. A little tough, but I really like the relaxing time in the morning. And my "walk to work" helps me break that *ugh* feeling. A really energizer. <BR> win - I got to ride my horse. Finally!!! First time ever. It was so-so....we both have learning to do. Thankfully, he was patient with me. As patient as a kid could be. <BR> <B... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 23:34:33 EST Chugging, or is Slugging, through Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508011 Shook the snooze twice this morning, though I did open my eyes after the second time, got the ipod out and went through my routine. Cut it short since I'd gone through a snooze. Had a heck of a time getting my brain to wake up. Had a good breakfast, did my 10 minute "walk to work" - but my brain did NOT to wake up, even 2 hours after my body was. <BR> <BR> Tried to find some ideas online.. and one pointed out the obvious - music. So, I updated itunes (I think I like their new RAdio Genius p... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 13:16:26 EST Monday - so far so good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5506832 Got up at 6a. Yay me. Seriously. I'm lucky to get out of bed at 8. Trying to change that. What helps is I'm getting up early to make ME time. Today - worked beautifully. Woke up with alarm, read ipod for a bit and got out of bed around 615/620. Did my morning ritutal and went downstairs, a bit after 630. Read my book until 7a. So relaxing. Saw the sun peaking through the trees as it rose. Went to make breakfast, pack Js lunch. Read some more while eating. A little after 730, raced to garden w... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 10:09:18 EST NEVER leave the mirror without noticing the good. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5505988 Been a bit since I blogged. The thing is - I think everyday of what I would be blogging at a certain moment.. but i never type it up. I really need a telepathic typewriter... I've actually wanted one since I was a kid. <BR> <BR> Anyway. So, you wonder - what have I to blabber about today? <BR> <BR> More whining? More frustration? More negativeness.. ugh. When I put it that way, I don't want to. I'm actually a positive person - or I try to. Would you believe I don't talk down to myself? Nope... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 12:33:17 EST unexpected yummy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494922 figured i'd make a tuna sandwich for lunch. <BR> no relish. *argh* <BR> so what else can i use for a sweet tang? balsamic vinegar!! <BR> <BR> so - a can of tuna. a little over a Tbsp mayo (yes, I used mayo!) and some balsamic. mix. taste <BR> OMG! <BR> so good! <BR> So good that I decided to skip the sandwich and just eat the tuna. now - while I like tuna, i don't like it plain. This gave it enough of a little zing that. wow! and I didn't add that much balsamic, either. I think the flavors a... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 13:22:41 EST Morning Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494802 Didn't exactly jump out of bed, but was awake when I wanted. Little late starting to work. Little late getting to my workout - but then I was programming and needed a good place to stop. <BR> Gonna go workout now, after having a mid-morning snack to power it. <BR> Feeling relaxed.. as long as I don't think too hard of all the other stuff I need to do. But then - I can do it tonite! Yeah! <BR> Work now, chores tonite. A time for everything. <BR> Just trying to convince myself. Tue, 24 Sep 2013 11:46:39 EST Previous blog update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494308 Like I said - i do my best thinking in the shower. <BR> <BR> I realized that the schedule was one I followed for a while. While I did enjoy it, found it relaxing - I got burned out after a couple of days - not enough me time in the evenings. So, I was going to try one day on, one day off. But forgot. <BR> <BR> So - one day on, one day off. And if that goes well, will try another modification. maybe day on, 1/2 day, day off.. i feel bad if there's too much me time when I have a lot to do. C... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 22:21:25 EST Too much http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494273 I've been lost. I am lost. So much to do and I can't get it all done and I'm hanging on by my fingertips... <BR> Watching tv, a character says that "I want to be more than who I am" <BR> It made me stop and think. It had actually been something I've been pondering today. Am I trying to do too much? I'm not a mom. I dont' belong to any clubs. I have no obligations to anyone else except my clients. But I can't find the time for everything. <BR> True - I could improve my time management, but eve... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 21:43:20 EST The Unexpected http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477920 Well, yesterday something came up that threw my entire afternoon off. I made it through, it wasn't so bad, but eh.. i don't like things breaking my rhythm. <BR> <BR> Today, it happened again. I can only blame myself. I went downstairs to do a 10 minute cardio workout. I like these just to get the blood flowing. Today I decided to take a day of rest, but I still do little breaks through out the day. <BR> So, my 10 minutes turns into 35.. <BR> yeah... <BR> i have no excuse. <BR> I was watching... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 15:10:55 EST Repeat Week 2 update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476694 So far so good this week. I did my bonus video right away Monday. Continue to do my daily cardio - actually doing 40 minutes steady and then two smaller 10 minute workouts split in the day. I've learned that this little workout keep my metabolism going. Just one big workout a day doesn't do it when you're sitting on your butt all day. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to do something additional with each workout. The morning 10 minute has my morning stretches. My 40 minute (or so) has the daily video. Th... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 11:15:20 EST Tired today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475690 I find it hard to run with my day when I don't start off optimal. <BR> I slept in, more than I wanted. And I'm just not finding the rev. I'm not wanting to work out, tho I did do my morning stretches and my morning 10 minutes. I should be happy, but I'm like *eh* <BR> <BR> It's after 11a and I should be gettting ready for my workout.. but since I've barely done any work this morning, I feel I should work a bit longer. I'd workout later, but have plans later in the evening, so don't have that... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 12:17:02 EST Week 2 again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474419 Going to repeat week 2 - AGAIN! <BR> I'm not going to continue until I honestly get it right! Oh - I did well, I'm very happy with myself, especially since most of that new weight is gone. I was right - I just needed a bit of cleansing - lots of water, good foods. Admittedly.. gained it back this weekend. Oh - not that I ate 10k calories - I just ate naughty foods that are holding in the water and other crap. no probs - I know I can refresh and cleanse in no time. <BR> <BR> Nope - my problem... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 10:12:59 EST *ugh* what a morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5470828 Not a nice start to my morning... <BR> dog got sick all over the kitchen.. both ways, if you know what I mean. <BR> at least it was in the kitchen and not living room... <BR> mopped several times, sprayed lysol... <BR> <BR> Didn't have breakfast till almost 11 due to work issues.. really shouldn't check emails till after breakfast <BR> <BR> Client wants *more* changes.. but at least he's willing to pay <BR> <BR> There was something else, but I'm so burned out, i can't even remember... <BR... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 12:06:11 EST confession time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5468933 so.. i've gained 3-4lbs in the last month. Admittedly, there's the water weight stuff, but still. <BR> *sigh* But that's ok! It's given me incentive to start tracking my food again. I've already been back on the cardio train - I'm able to use the elliptical without bothering my knee or hamstring. Even did some HIITs! Next is to begin increasing the level on the elliptical, upping my heart, but keeping it down at the same time. Something I did when I was learning to jog and really improved my ... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 12:52:39 EST Still Chugging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5456248 Day 6 of Bootcamp. Icing my knee after my cardio. Hamstring bothering me a little, but it hasn't gotten worse, so I can hope that stretching and strengthening will help it. <BR> <BR> Right now - I feel GOOD. yup - got a slight workout high. It's nice to sweat again *lol* <BR> <BR> Been doing my Bootcamp video first thing in the morning the last 2 morning and I like it. Helps wake me up a little and it's nice to get it out of the way. I can't eat breakfast right away anyway, so the extra t... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 14:15:03 EST Fighting Anxiety & Depression http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452848 I suffer from anxiety & depression. Don't worry, it's not contagious. It's a chemical inbalance in the brain. Why? I don't know. And no, walks in the sun, puppies & kitties do not help. <BR> <BR> I'm lucky. I can control mine most of the time with simple, OTC Omega 3s and the occasionally valerian root and/or lavendar scent. Course, I have to take a bit of O3s.. but I'd rather not take a manufactured drug (yeah, the O3s are manmade pills, but let's not nitpick) <BR> <BR> Right now - slight... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 12:33:21 EST Getting Back into the Groove http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5450152 A lot has happened lately. A LOT. Not all good. Actually, I can't think of anything good. But I survived I've learned and I'm ready to move on. <BR> <BR> While I've sustained my weight through out all this and kept moving with bouts of biking throughout the day, I didn't keep my tone. And I am not happy about that. So, I've kicked myself in the butt, encouraged myself, and decided to do the 28-day Bootcamp. I realize I need organization to get myself back into the groove. And getting help is... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 17:20:26 EST Forced to adjust http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382953 First it was my hamstring. Now it's my knees. *sigh* <BR> <BR> Been doing some reading... I know I need to get in to the chiro to have my hips adjusted. It's something how all that is connected. But, while in Vegas, I had to buy new shoes and had my feet scanned. While my left foot is normal.. I hardly put any pressure on my right foot, especially my toes. I'm not that surprised. I know I have a habit of standing on the outside of my right foot, something I've gotten even more sensitive abou... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 23:47:15 EST Anxiety Attack http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372520 I am having an anxiety attack. It's probably nowhere near as bad as those that need lots of meds to cope.. but nonetheless, I'm having one and it sucks. <BR> But I can only blame myself. Yes, myself. No, I'm not being hard on myself. <BR> <BR> I can't remember how many years ago I started having them. I may have had mild ones even sooner. I know that I first started realizing the overwhelming panic feeling wasn't normal after the doc switched my BC pills. After a few months of constant anxie... Thu, 30 May 2013 11:52:44 EST Turning 40 and getting all the answers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5361149 ok, not all the answers, but I'm making headway in figuring myself out... <BR> <BR> As stated - I turned 40 this week. No worries, I'm not traumatized. I have no problem with it. Could be because I don't look it. Who knows... <BR> <BR> Anyway - to celebrate reaching the top of the fill, I went to Las Vegas!! Spend a few days there walking and walking and walking. Did I mention I walked? First full day there, put in 30,000 steps.. approximately 15 miles. oh yeah!!! DH and I aren't into the c... Sun, 19 May 2013 13:53:41 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5345683 It's been a little while. I slowed down a little the last 2 weeks.. mainly laziness... not happy about it, but I just couldn't get into the groove. Not consistently. I have been moving, I just wasn't lifting like I wanted to. But that's ok. <BR> <BR> On the great news side - my ham string has greatly improved. And the healing came in the strangest way. I've been trying not to aggravate it, cutting out my cardio, but then added some biking a few weeks ago and then some squats. Strangely, I ac... Sat, 4 May 2013 21:36:15 EST The Importance of Breathing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5333301 well, besides the obvious, of course. <BR> <BR> It's something I'm just appreciating today. No cardio means no deep breathing. No biggee, right. Wrong. <BR> <BR> When I lift, I breathe slowly and steadily with my movements. But it's not the deep breath you take during/after cardio. The one that fills your whole body. <BR> <BR> Just a few minutes ago, I breathed. I took a deep breath that filled me, held it a split second, then let it out. <BR> <BR> And felt calm and happy. I thought I wa... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 19:01:41 EST Happy, Happy, Happy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5330638 For anyone who looks at my feed, you may seen something new lately. <BR> Pounds lost. <BR> It's not because I changed my settings. It's because I have finally, actually lost weight!!! <BR> OMG. <BR> I stop cardio, take up weights (just upper) and lose weight. <BR> Not that I've never done weights before. I used to work out regularly at the gym with a trainer. But never lost weight. Not really. <BR> But here - last few weeks, at least 1lb a week. And I'm flabbergasted. I'm flummoxed. I'm on cl... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 13:27:25 EST Extremely important and definitely worth repeating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5324400 <link>http://fitmamatraining.com/what-i-re<BR>ally-look-like-a-perfectly-healthy-bod<BR>y-in-more-and-less-flattering-photos/ </link> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5324111 </link> <BR> <BR> I just read these two blogs. Similar (one was inspired by the other). VERY IMPORTANT. <BR> I think everyone should read them and think about the message. <BR> <BR> And let me add this: <BR> If i were to die right now - my family would hardly have a... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 20:26:17 EST Thursday update.. not much change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5320058 Knee is definitely better. But, I dare not push anything because of the hamstring. It's frustrating. I'm at my absolute minimum for calories. I guess i could push it up since that's based on losing weight..but since i'm not tracking properly, it probably is up there. <BR> <BR> thing is - without working out, i'm also not drinking my water properly or taking my supplements. Working out definitely puts you in a mindset. <BR> <BR> Hamstring...it's had good days and bad days. I need more good d... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 20:11:40 EST Still Healing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5316183 Knee isn't hurting anymore, but I'm giving it another week to heal, still babying it. Last time I tried to use it after a couple of days of "not hurting" - I hurt it again. <BR> <BR> Hamstring still hurts.. not sure if it's improving or not. Have added icing and heat to it to see if it helps. If there's no improvement this week, I'm going to have to pay the doctor to tell me.. who knows what. At least i'll be able to say staying off of it and ice/heat don't do squat. Nor NSAIDs. <BR> oh - I'... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 17:42:09 EST Tuesday Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5309522 wow! 2 blogs in a week. Been a whie since I've done that. <BR> <BR> Just finished my order with gurneys. Trying them and sweet potatos one more time. And a few other things. Still have some things i'll look for locally, but not all have been easy to find in the past. <BR> Didn't do any of my own seedlings this year - was too busy with books. <BR> I'm hoping this year I keep up with the garden better and it doesn't overwhelm me. At the same time, *I've* changed in the last year. Starting to... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 22:59:37 EST Weekly Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5307921 Monday and knee still bothering me some. Had to go to town and had a few tweaks while walking around doing the shopping. So - staying off it again today and applying ice & heat. Did ST Upper yesterday. Can't do lower because of the hamstring. Instead, watching calories like a hawk. It's good practice, I guess. Though my food choices are the norm, reducing the amount on the plate is hard work. It's a balancing act.. reduce calories to keep up the weight loss, decide what items you can skip (no... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 18:33:23 EST Doctor's Orders and week in review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5304868 I have GERD and a couple of other stomach issues. I decided this year to finally let the doctor do her thing. I suffered for years, take lansaprazole every other day.. and tired of it. <BR> <BR> Had an endoscopy a month or so ago. That's how we learned the other issues. Good news - my esophagus is NOT in bad shape. Course, my tooth enamel, or lack of, is another issue, but that's an old story. <BR> <BR> Finally, this week (long story there), I had 2 more tests to see if I'm a candidate for ... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 23:42:20 EST You can make your day what it is http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5300045 I've become a believer in the fact that I control my life, my feelings. To do that, you have to question your feelings, find the root cause and decide if it makes sense/is worth it. Now, obviously, when I'm in a good mood, I'm not going to question it <em>20</em> <BR> But - take this morning. As I was coming back from chores, my mind was thinking random thoughts, fake conversations... and I realized they were all negative. That I was getting angry/irritated. <BR> For no reason. Oh sure - ... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 21:26:01 EST Sometimes the body says ENOUGH! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5296745 So.. yesterday, I felt yucky. The best way I can describe it is that I felt like I had a hangover.. but without the getting drunk the night before. Yeah, that sux! <BR> <BR> I ended up taking it easy. Couldn't really work, that's how bad I felt, so took it easy, did some light work (sample files for book - released next week!). Ate a bunch of crackers. Drank tea. Water tasted bad - and I do like water. <BR> <BR> By evening, I was feeling better. DH brought me home dinner (sushi) and it was ... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 23:08:55 EST My incentive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5295531 Many articles talk the importance of a goal. Not just the scale number, but the why you're trying to accomplish your goal. Many times over the years, I've tried to have such a goal to focus on, but it never worked. I wanted be at my goal for my 30th bday. Then my 35th. Then for my class reunion. Then for the horse shows. <BR> Yeah...none of those worked. obviously. <BR> I've tried focusing on just doing it for myself. Doing it for my horse (so I could ride him). Doing it to be healthy... <BR... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 21:53:53 EST Fighting to hold on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5289862 A few weeks ago, I blogged about being obsessed with the scale and the importance of other measurements. I did stop weighing myself and this weekend was the first time since. <BR> Scale has not moved. <BR> And I could <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> These last couple weeks, I have been working out hard, added back my ST, counting my calories, tracking every bite. I cook almost all I eat, so I know what I'm getting... <BR> <BR> I really expected to see some loss. I didn't, so I did what I'm suppos... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 13:14:18 EST SparkCoach Daily Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285176 I'm feeling rather *eh* about the SPC Daily programs lately. They haven't been very relevant. <BR> Examples <BR> 1. Cut down on sugar: I don't eat much sugar as it is - including hidden sugar. I rarely have a sweet tooth and I find most treats too sweet as it is. For example - when I want chocolate, I want to taste chocolate, not just something sweet. It's a distinction this country still hasn't caught up with, though it's getting there <BR> 2. Out of sight, out of mind: today's challenge.. a... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 11:41:24 EST Week in review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281823 Continued my ST best I could this week. Hip/leg problems meant I couldn't do lower, but I did my upper. Hit the road Friday and had a lot of chores, but slipped in a 20 minute HIIT. Then when we go to the hotel, we took the stairs (4th floor), except when brining the initial luggage up. <BR> Saturday was lots of walking around, then karaoke and dancing in the evening. So, despite the huge breakfast and medium lunch (small salad for dinner), felt ok. Today was back on the road home, so didn't ... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 22:58:21 EST 3 Recent Accomplishments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271434 SC thingy to do today is to write down (at least) 3 recent accomplishments <BR> <BR> 1. Woke up several times last week with alarm. <BR> 2. Began serious ST last week <BR> 3. Carefully measured and tracked food most of last week <BR> <BR> Goal this week - continue these items. Sun, 3 Mar 2013 17:20:03 EST It's hard not to give up sometimes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269150 I've mentioned before that I've been trying to lose weight for about 20 years. There are many reasons why I never succeeded. It's not that I lost and gained. I just never lost. <BR> But - I never gave up. I actually do enjoy working out most of the time. I was really into weight lifting for many years (no, I did NOT bulk up. It is NOT easy for a woman to bulk up. period!!! Yes, I lifted heavy - even guys would stare at me. It was fun). <BR> But nope. No weight loss. Oh - and my pants didn't g... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 22:57:47 EST Inspiration to wake up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259271 I know I have some blogging to do... but for now, this inspiration quote i stole from one of FitWhit's early posts: <BR> <BR> "Even the birds, cows and chickens are stirring about and awake early in the morning. Humans are the only creatures that sleep in!" <BR> <BR> Waking up early (6ish) is something I want to do. But i never thougth of it in these terms.. Sort of funny. One of the thoughts that has inspired me to move more throughout the day, to not sit and veg in the evenings is the re... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 21:15:34 EST 2/5/13 - Tough Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5239426 I had a rough day. Haven't even done my Spark Coach stuff yet.. I usually do it in the morning. <BR> <BR> Ready for some whining? <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> 1. Have migraine, but can't take meds (EGD Thursday - no meds, herbs, etc allowed 7 days before). Thankfully, normal tylenol (allowed) handled most of the pain but.. <BR> <BR> 2. Anxiety attack!!!! I always thought it was the migraine meds that did this - but nope. Just the migraine. Probably doesn't help that I can't take my Fish Oil, ... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 22:27:18 EST 2/4/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5237870 Got my cardio plus a bunch of extra steps. Felt queasy whenver i did walk and when working out.. it was a bit weird. But I did it. Was tired all day too, but pushed through and got lots of work done. yay! <BR> <BR> Eating today - very good <BR> oatmeal for breakfast, miso soup and potstickers for lunch, small pasta w/chicken for dinner. Nice snacks throughout the day. I just wish i had good, healthy HOT snacks. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow - cardio and ST. Speaking of which, only my triceps hurt a li... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 21:43:30 EST 2/3/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235994 Breakfast was a croissant and scrambled eggs. Not my usual breakfast (oatmeal). Then worked out on the elliptical. Didn't feel anything in the hamstring so I think that will be my cardio for awhile. Then.. guess what. I did ST! All upper, somewhat light, 2 sets. But I'm building it back in - hence going light. Once I see how I feel tomorrow, I'll know what I do next time - I do like to lift heavy, but with good form. <BR> After working out - had sushi. Yum. <BR> Then played Puss in Boots on t... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 17:13:41 EST 2/2/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234975 I've read some really honest blogs lately. My need to control has prevented me from being so honest...I've talked about my issues, I've talked about my downs, but.. there's an honesty that was lacking. So... I'm going to give it a try. Course, I pick one of my worst days to do it, but... <BR> <BR> Had oatmeal bake for breakfast <BR> Went to a movie - no popcorn, just water. LONG movie.. starving by the time we got out at 3p (I had breakfast at 9a!!) <BR> Had late lunch/early dinner at Johnny... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 21:50:30 EST Healing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233692 Just one day of stretching and taking it easy has really helped! I was able to make it downstairs without flinching and most of the knee pain is gone. Hip is better, too. Oblique and of course hamstring still hurts. This will take some time. I even cancelled my riding lesson... and since trainer is going to scottsdale, I won't have another chance till March. That really hurts. But I guess when you don't play by the rules (take a break when your body screams), you pay the price... <BR> I'm go... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 19:50:32 EST Big BUMP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232102 Hit a big bump in the road and it seriously sucks, but it's my fault. <BR> Back in November, I did something to my hamstring. Chiro thought it was a knot (when I *finally* went to see her - a month later) and so I tried to work it out, while i continued my jogging. <BR> <BR> Didn't really work. <BR> <BR> When I went back, since massage didn't work, she suggested I stretch and strengthen it. I haven't really worked on that much. Instead.. i jogged. <BR> <BR> And now MY KNEE IS KILLING ME!!!... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 18:09:06 EST Accountability - Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230620 Not so great today. Slept absolutely terrible last night and have dragged all day. Add on top of that my knees *hurt* and my hamstring (messed up since november) is really acting up....not sure what to do about that hamstring. Did some reading and it looks like it may be the reason behind my knee pain. Chiro originally said I had a knot, but no improvement, so I think I messed it up. I'm going to try the stretches and strengthening exercises. <BR> I'll stretch tonite, but the ST will have to ... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 18:09:24 EST