STARFISHK's SparkPeople Blog STARFISHK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Okay so I lied... I have to post a blog earlier... I said my next blog will be when I hit the 10% mark.. but I found this picture on my instagram (Starfish8213)... Please connect on there... I post a lot about my journey! <BR> <BR> This picture helps me stay grounded... <img src=""> Fri, 18 May 2018 09:50:12 EST That first 10% goal. My last entry was in January.. crazy. I haven't done the best with my weight loss... but I am learning new habits... including when to own my sh*t, stand up, dust myself off, and continue on my way. I'm a mom of 4... I work a full time job... I'm in a committed relationship... of course I'm going to have some rough days... and of course this journey is going to be difficult. <BR> <BR> Losing weight and getting in shape is NOT a straight line... it's a f*cking scribble... LOL. <BR> <img sr... Thu, 17 May 2018 12:51:54 EST Feeling good Now that life is calmer... school is over... my career is going well.. my kids are growing amazingly... I have a good man by my side... and I've completed all the goals I set 3 years ago. It's time to create new goals... qualify for a mortgage and buy a house... get a bigger vehicle... and restore my health. Those are it. Those are the next 2 years worth of goals broken down into small goals to meet over the next 2 years. I'm holding myself accountable.. tracking my food.. drinking water.. ex... Tue, 16 Jan 2018 11:46:21 EST Personal Obstacle #1 Last night during grocery shopping for my fiancé's lunches for work, I realized it's going to be harder than ever to stay focused and on track. It's not that he's not supportive... it's that he's super skinny and able to eat whatever he wants. My fiancé is a junkfood junkie!! And he works midnights, so he's used to sleeping all day and up all night. Needless to say I didn't go to bed until 3 am this morning... and we ate popcorn during a movie at 1 am. I still lost weight from yesterday to to... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 13:45:10 EST Starting Over I've said this multiple times before and why do I keep saying it over and over again? Because I keep giving up. I keep making excuses. I've deleted as much as my old tracking and info that I was able to so I can start fresh and stop looking at what I used to do. I find this actually doesn't inspire me anymore, it p*sses me off! It makes me mad at myself because I let myself get to the point where I was unhappy not just with myself, but with everything around me. I lost me. I know what to do a... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 14:05:00 EST Started Michigan Boot Camp today... Day 1 So here I am... back up weight... at least I am still down from when I started (every time) HAHA! <BR> <BR> Today was day 1 of Michigan Boot Camp. I wake up around 4, leave around 430, and get there around 5. "Camp" is from 515-615. <BR> <BR> I'm sitting on my couch right now about ready to pass out for a nap (trying to avoid it but it's so quiet in my home since everyone is still sleeping... the birds are chirping, and the windows are open letting the fresh air circulate my home. <BR> <... Mon, 26 May 2014 07:44:44 EST Taking measurements definitely boosts my mood! Watching my weight fluctuate... knowing I could be smaller than what I am now sometimes upsets me.... helps me with reality... but does get frustrating. <BR> <BR> However.... taking measurements and seeing a loss in certain places is always a mood booster! <BR> <BR> 12/18 <BR> waist 36.5 <BR> hips 51 <BR> thigh 25.5 <BR> upper arm 13 <BR> chest 40.5 <BR> <BR> 1/15 <BR> waist 35 <BR> hips 49 <BR> thigh 25.5 <BR> upper arm 13 <BR> chest 39.5 <BR> <BR> Waist down 1.5 <BR> hips down 2 <BR> th... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 10:51:09 EST New Year... I guess I'm a couple weeks late on this. I'm sitting here staring at this screen trying to put my thoughts in check... and I'm having a difficult time. I looked over the titles of my last several blogs to see that I've had one common thing... I keep falling down. Granted... I do keep getting back up but I need to work on falling less. Doesn't help my resources are low right now and it's really difficult to keep my mind right let alone by eating habits. It's not about eating too much... this t... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 11:16:46 EST Feel like I'm slipping... and can't get a grip. Things have been so busy this last couple weeks that I feel like I'm losing a grip on myself. I'm not losing weight or inches like I know I can... and I have limited self control in my kitchen... I don't know if that's because I really need to go grocery shopping next week when we get paid and really don't have many "healthy" stuff. I haven't played DDR in a few days... but have gone on a walk or two over the last few days. I don't know. I hope things settle down soon with work chaos so I can... Tue, 29 Oct 2013 16:15:27 EST 5 months later... 33 lbs down. I started this journey over on May 14... Today marks 5 months since I started. I weighed in this morning at 240 lbs. So I've lost 33 lbs in 5 months. I could've done better... but I wasn't full on it for a month in between. I'm happy with myself. <BR> <BR> In the last 5 months, I've probably been actively trying to lose weight for 3 1/2. So honestly... to me that's amazing! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Here's a breakdown of my inch loss: <BR> Chest <BR> 6/5 - 42 <BR> 10/9 - 40.5 <BR> Down 1.5 <BR... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 11:15:44 EST Update & Measurements I'm doing good. I'm meeting my goals... slowly... but surely. I'm at 240.4 as of today. I'm back to where I was when I ended my last BLC challenge... down a total of 33 lbs since I started in May. Yes, I would've been further along in my goals; however I'm not perfect, I'm human. <BR> <BR> I did my measurements today... <BR> <BR> Last Entry: 9/14/13 <BR> waist 39 <BR> hips 49 <BR> thigh 26.5 <BR> upper arm 13 <BR> chest 41.5 <BR> <BR> today entry: 10/9/13 <BR> waist 37.5 (down 1.5) <BR> ... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 17:11:18 EST Trying Trying is such a broad word... I'm trying to stay on track... people are trying my patience and kind heart... yea that about sums up the word. <BR> <BR> It's really difficult to rid the stress when it's constantly around and there's nothing I can do about it but make the best of the situation until good changes occur. <BR> <BR> I've been doing good for the last week or so... but from my last blog... my mind was just not in the game. I am involved in 3 challenges... The BLC challenge... wh... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 17:10:20 EST Measurements & Pictures Something I've always been fond of is tracking my progress without a scale. I use a scale and I do track the numbers. However, taking measurements and pictures really show a difference. We are our biggest skeptics! <BR> <BR> I took my measurements just now and I'm sad to say I've gained a little bit back in my thigh and arms... however my chest, hips, and waist are the same. So it could be water retention. That's a good thing LOL. <BR> <BR> This time I've learned something new... I'm wear... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 14:14:58 EST Took a month off... All moved... ready to resume. I was at 30 lbs down... had 2 more weeks of my BLC challenge and after the last month of packing, moving, and getting settled/unpacking, I'm not ready to get back on it. I'm down 25 lbs as I gained 5 lbs back. I'm okay with that because when I drink my water over the first couple days I'll be back to where I ended at. <BR> <BR> I have my next BLC challenge starting in a couple weeks. <BR> <BR> I love our new place. We moved into a manufactured home community with so many extras... fitness... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 10:13:31 EST July's Measurements I take my measurements on the 27th of every month... I was pleasantly surprised this time around... <BR> <BR> June 27th measurements: <BR> waist 38.75 <BR> hips 52 <BR> thigh 27 <BR> upper arm 13 <BR> chest 41.5 <BR> <BR> Today's Measurements: <BR> waist 37.25 - down 1.5 <BR> hips 49 - down 3 <BR> thigh 25.5 - down 1.5 <BR> upper arm 12.5 - down .5 <BR> chest 41.5 - no change <BR> <BR> I'm down 6.5 inches total!!!!! The most being on my hips... that's awesome! I know for a fact my chest i... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 20:53:37 EST Day 73.... 30 lbs down! Okay... so it took 37 days to lose the last 10 lbs... that's not good enough for me... but it's an amazing achievement. I am not exactly sure how many pounds is one dress size for me... but I know 30 lbs has got to be at least 1 lol! So today, after I'm done catching up on the household laundry and finishing my room so I can follow through with my plan of putting all my workout stuff in my room and working out before bed each night... I'm going to try on the next bag of clothes. I was partial... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 10:21:25 EST 25% of the way there!! So as of this morning, I am 25 lbs down... 1/4 of the way to my final goal of a 100 pound loss! I'm very excited! <BR> Wed, 10 Jul 2013 19:26:51 EST Measurements I completely forgot to blog about this... well almost forgot. A month ago today, I took my measurements on SP... and when I took them today, I found I'm only down 3.75 inches overall... I won't lie... I was kind of disappointed. I'm down 20 lbs and only 3.75 inches... I feel a little more comfort in a couple pairs of my pants... but overall, I don't feel any different in my clothes. And I lost nothing from my hips... 1.5 inch from my upper thigh... .75 of an inch off my waist... .5 inch off m... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 22:30:57 EST Goals... Dreams... I will achieve them. I did do some major goal thinking over the past few days... and obviously losing weight, feeling better, wearing smaller clothes... that's all a given. But I was thinking of my big goals and what I want for my life and my family. <BR> <BR> My smallest goal is to lose the remainder of this weight... I want to lose 100 lbs total and whatever is beyond that once I realize where I feel my best at I will do after I lose it. My goal date for this is Jan 1, 2014. I originally was going to pick 8-2... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 21:31:34 EST Day 36 in... down 20 lbs! Well... down 20.4 to be exact :P LOL. <BR> <BR> That's such an amazing feeling to see... Just to know that just over a month from when I started this journey again, I hit the 20 lb mark. I need to kick it up a notch though... My goal is to beat the 18 lbs I lost the first month in the second month. I will do this. <BR> <BR> I can't wait until this coming Friday... going grocery shopping and need to kick my foods up a bit... I'm getting bored. I don't want my body to get bored and start pl... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 08:40:30 EST Today's my 1 month anniversary for being back on SP... and I'm down 18 lbs! <em>515</em> 1 month ago today I logged into Sparkpeople with the goal of getting myself back to where I was 4 1/2 years ago... a size 12/14... and happily at 185 lbs.. although I'll be happy around 170 as my lowest... but depends on how I feel when I get to that point. If I feel I should lose more, I will work for it. If I feel comfortable, I'll work on maintaining. <BR> <BR> I was low on food and water yesterday, and I only got 6 hours of sleep last night... so this morning when I stepp... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 13:24:08 EST My Goals Keep my goals SMART is what I'm told... so I did some serious thinking about what my goals are. <BR> <BR> My overall goal is to get down to a size Medium/12... which should be around 165 lbs. So basically my goal is 100 lbs. I started at 285 several years ago... got down to 184. Last month I reached 273 lbs and I was ashamed to say I gained back nearly everything. So here's my SMART goals. <BR> <BR> My goal is 10 lbs at a time... I'm at 262 right now. I gained a couple pounds over the last ... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 18:58:37 EST Day 21 - First Non Scale Victory! This is where I finally start to feel what I'm doing is having an effect! One of my favorite pair of pants were way too snug... to the point where I'd feel if I did a squat, I'd probably rip them up LOL... well I put them on today and they fit OOOOH so nicely. I can breathe in them... I can move in them... OMG it feels amazing! <BR> <BR> While making my boyfriend and our son a bagel sandwich... the bagel smelled so good... but the 210 calories was just not worth it... it's victories like th... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 13:55:13 EST Day 14 - Down 10 lbs So here I am... down 10 lbs in the first 2 weeks of being back on track. I will say I'm thrilled and it's helping me stay focused. Although I was negative for a thought being I messed up a few of the days and that made me question if I would have been down more... but then I smile because I am grateful for what I've lost so far. I've proven to myself that I can stay on track even with a boyfriend who can eat whatever and lose weight. Don't get me wrong... he's supportive, but not in the way I... Tue, 28 May 2013 10:55:58 EST Day 1 I'm going to be 30 on Aug 21 this year and I've gained a lot of the 100 lbs I lost 5 years ago back. It's so hard to keep the weight off... but mixing in a horrible marriage, having a child, a ton of stress of all kinds... definitely doesn't help. <BR> <BR> So here's my thing... I've moved on. In my personal life, I dumped the asshole and found a good man... one who's supportive to me and my children... in every way. He's lost about 80 lbs himself... and in order to fully support him and hi... Tue, 14 May 2013 09:39:07 EST